#Being Myself

[waywardsou2]

Shitty photos but I wore my battle vest for the third time ever.

Little bit of backstory but I made this during December last year and never wore it because some of the patches on my jacket were "not appropriate" and my dad was "disappointed" with what I wrote on them, so I got really discouraged from wearing it. I wanted to wear it to my first day of College but he saw it and told me I wasn't allowed to wear it.

But today I said fuck it. It's been several months and I put so much fucking effort into this and I've never even worn it. So I did. And I felt awesome all day

The patches I have on there are

- "Fuck the system"

- "Dead men can't cat call"

- "cowabunga dudes"

- TMNT

- "the earth is our mother"

- "punks not dead"

- "If you aren't angry you aren't paying attention"

- "people before profit"

- "Punks respect pronouns"

- a spiderweb

- "we all bleed the same colour"

(feel free to borrow any of the sayings if you would like)

[skyrigel]

fictional character that made you realise your bi?

*sighs* it's her.

Saw her in iron man first and knew I was a goner ;)

[fallencalliope]

I bleed,

I hurt,

I cry,

I ache,

I scream,

I feel,

I hate

I suffer,

I hope,

I wish,

I dream,

I smile,

I laugh,

I love,

I empathise,

I sympathise,

I understand,

I listen,

I accept,

I decline,

I despise,

I am human...

©️randik86

[uaravsh]

"There comes a time when you look into the mirror and you realize that what you see is all that you will ever be. And then you accept it. Or you kill yourself. Or you stop looking in mirrors."

- 𝚃𝚎𝚗𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚆𝚒𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚊𝚖𝚜 (@uaravsh )

[anonzentimes]

i think being on twitter and tumblr/just starting to overly ramble and be myself more has actually been beneficial for me overall not only because it's really healthy but because it has allowed me to improve at learning to know what words I want to use which is something I've struggled with a lot in my life but it's becoming a little less of an issue now

[unknownfemmesblog]

I always thought I was going to die young.

¿How do you explain that you are going to die young?

Every time I say it, people ask me why

"Don't say that, that's bad"

I used to think that maybe I had seen too many movies and I was getting carried away with that. But lately I've been thinking about it and it feels more and more real.

As much as I would love to, I don't see myself as a mother, I don't see myself in college, I don't see myself in love, much less married.

Honestly, hopefully I see myself making it to next year.

It's weird, it's like literally not seeing anything when I try to imagine myself in years. Literally nothing.

To add a little fun to this and laugh a bit, a while ago I discovered that my name means "heaven" and "young"

¿strange isn't it?

Getting back to the topic, I think it's difficult to explain exactly what I feel, only people who feel or think the same about themselves will understand what I mean.

Not many people see what i write , but if you are seeing this and you understand what I mean ¿do you know how to explain it?

¿How do you explain that you are going to die young?

[fantasysell]

Being Myself

My oc(Sixie trolls) in human

[lacilashea]

me being goofy awhile back.

[ancientgoddessofegypt]

Opening To Change: Learning How To Let Go.

Change hasn't always been an easy thing for me. In the beginning, I had suppressed myself in order to hold on to things that didn't need saving. Holding on to friendships that lasted since high school, to deeply trying to change the circumstances with me and another lover just so we wouldn't have to break-up. I made it my mission for long-term things to stay inside of me for as long as possible, til I realized it was the death of me. I was killing my insides all because I would have to face being alone for a while. And it worked.. until it didn't. My health declined, and I was forced into the unknown because your health and spirituality due tie closely together after all. Believe it or not, the moment I had to go to the hospital I realized I had no one left, but my mom of course. But in those moments I had to understand it would be more them. Because my circumstances were making me sick, all because I chose to stay in it.

Don't get me wrong, the people in my life are not to blame for my health declining. It was my choices that I kept for the longest. Not wanting to switch to becoming vegan, not wanting to travel alone or do anything by myself, always waiting and wasting away... Because I was scared to be and do things, alone.

Alone. Alone. Alone.

Alone. Alone. Alone.

It sounded terrifying.

Having to be by yourself is one thing, but being alone with your THOUGHTS?

Thats a different type of hell.

Having to let go made me accept the things I could not change, but helped me see that there was a reason why I had to move on.

As much as it hurt, I couldn't just walk away with the pain.. I had to make something out of it.

At some point I would let go of all my sorrows by walking to the waterfalls near home, and communing with my ancestors & God Almighty themselves.

I NEEDED this. I needed the friends to mistreatment, the exs to misunderstand me. The family members to not appreciate my talents, my skills, my appreciation for them, etc. I had to see it. So that I could let go. I'm open to change because I know that there is more for me around that corner I have been peaking on the other side of. Remember me & my truth, is the exact reason that faith in beside me & I go where God & the mountains tell me to go. I dont NEED the same old energies to see me, I need me. So being alone worked, because it helped me face myself & overcome the damages that society had placed near my doorstep as a little girl. I had to accept the fact that most people that I loved, would not adore me as I did them. So I changed my structure, and changed the way I thought of them in the process. This was so that the new me could take shape, and I could feel the power of love that had been missing for so many days.

So as I write this, if you're problem is with letting go of people, environments, and so on so forth, you have to check within first. Because its YOU that you aren't letting go of. So it focuses on the things around you externally, then internally. Guess you have to decide whether it'll be your insides or the out. But all in all, one will win this round. You just gotta choose you more often. K? <3

[sunshineanddaisiescaitie]

After a couple weeks of being depressed I feel good as fuck and hot as fuck 😘✌🏼 that's the vibe I want this year 😌 ashnikko never fails to hype me up

[beatheprincess]

Ik I'm indecisive asf but I really wanna go back to manifesting my inner baddie/bimbo girlie side 😤 I was shamed for it months ago- but that person was clearly incel. Time to unapologetically turn tf up

[chase-omega]

i actually unironically wanna reach a point to where i care so little about what anyone thinks that i could just do the most unhinged shit in public and feel zero shame.

i wanna drive on public roads with anime shit painted all over my car.

i wanna go to wal-mart in a full fursuit and act like I ain't even wearin it.

i wanna use retarded internet slang in normal conversation.

i wanna blast emo rock music from my phone on my earbuds and not even care who hears it.

let me be my authentic weird-ass socially unacceptable self, fuck society and fuck you.

[springtime-creations]

I am beyond saving

I just read "ebony" as "e-boy"

[batonchic]

I'm being me:

1. Left the room

2. Tried to lock the door

3. Realized that I was on the wrong side

4. Got to the right side

5. Locked the door

6. Realized that I locked myself in a room

7. Opened the lock but not the door

8. Realized that if I'm trying to lock someone in my room, then that someone should be me and/or my shadow

9. Stayed in the room for the next 40 minutes thinking about how unwelcome it would be for the shadow to be locked inside the room

10. Realized that the room opens from the inside, so shadow would have been able to get out herself

11. Went to pour me some tea

[fionna-cookie]

So... I got invited to a weeding in July which is amazing and I'm so freaking happy for both.

It's my father in law and his girlfriend.

So I decided I need a fitting dress. I love gothic and renaissance stuff... So I decided on something special but this time I ordered it in navy blue and not black:

I was like: "Freaking hell... You look so fat after recovering from your ed..."

I was mad. Seriously. But you know what. Screw my thoughts and my bodydismorphia. I gonna wear this bc I want to and I think it's gorgeous!

I got curvy after recovery but I was before.

So why the hell should I hate myself for this. I had no life on eating nothing and purging. Now I got a new home,a job and love.

Sometimes I really need to remember to accept what my body is now. It's hard and I don't know if it will eber get better... but that is the same thought I had underweight until I recovered. So maybe... maybe also this will change.

[strawbooit]