#Being Myself

[waywardsou2]

Shitty photos but I wore my battle vest for the third time ever.

Little bit of backstory but I made this during December last year and never wore it because some of the patches on my jacket were "not appropriate" and my dad was "disappointed" with what I wrote on them, so I got really discouraged from wearing it. I wanted to wear it to my first day of College but he saw it and told me I wasn't allowed to wear it.

But today I said fuck it. It's been several months and I put so much fucking effort into this and I've never even worn it. So I did. And I felt awesome all day

The patches I have on there are

- "Fuck the system"

- "Dead men can't cat call"

- "cowabunga dudes"

- TMNT

- "the earth is our mother"

- "punks not dead"

- "If you aren't angry you aren't paying attention"

- "people before profit"

- "Punks respect pronouns"

- a spiderweb

- "we all bleed the same colour"

(feel free to borrow any of the sayings if you would like)

[skyrigel]

fictional character that made you realise your bi?

*sighs* it's her.

Saw her in iron man first and knew I was a goner ;)

[tamashii--0--naturanimae]

Isn't that normal that everyone have different beliefs, worldview and point of view?

I don't understand... So many alterhuman beings here are posting their personal thoughts, beliefs etc and everything is ok, but when I post something, there always must be something rude to me... In every post with my thoughts I'm telling that it's only me who thinks like that, that I don't want to offend anyone, but every time there is someone who must to tell that I'm telling others what they must to believe in. :/ Why? What I'm doing wrong? It's because I'm different? Because I'm that one being who identify as soul? So boring... I don't have gear I even don't need any, I don't need to have different body, don't feel dysphoria etc, for many I'm even not alterhuman, I'm too boring to call myself as alterhuman... Everything I believe in is just my personal, no one have to agree with me, I don't want to change anyone, everyone can be who they want to be and believe in whatever they want, so why I can't? I'm not offending anyone, I'm always telling that everyone is valid and every identity and belief is miningful. Why others can't treat me in the same way? What's more important, why they can't read my posts with understanding? If they will try, maybe they would understand that It's my point of view and I'm not telling anyone to agree, and I'm not deciding that something is correct for everyone and something is not... So, even here isn't place for me? I'm too weird and too boring in the same time for being part of alterhuman community? Ehh...

Of course I met many great beings here and I'm really greatful for all of you, for all your nice words and how you're treating me. I made some amazing friends here too. And for the first time in this life I could openly talk with someone about me, about how I feel, how I identify, who I really am, it means a lot to me, thank you all of you amazing beings. I hope we will be friends for really long time! ❤️

But just... I started my journey in alterhuman community from some unpleasant experiences and every time when someone is mean to me only because I'm different, it hurts a lot...

[biancaa]

𝗬𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗯𝗲𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳𝗶𝘀𝗵 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝘁𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘄𝗲𝗹𝗹. 𝗥𝗲𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗯𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁.

[unknownfemmesblog]

I always thought I was going to die young.

¿How do you explain that you are going to die young?

Every time I say it, people ask me why

"Don't say that, that's bad"

I used to think that maybe I had seen too many movies and I was getting carried away with that. But lately I've been thinking about it and it feels more and more real.

As much as I would love to, I don't see myself as a mother, I don't see myself in college, I don't see myself in love, much less married.

Honestly, hopefully I see myself making it to next year.

It's weird, it's like literally not seeing anything when I try to imagine myself in years. Literally nothing.

To add a little fun to this and laugh a bit, a while ago I discovered that my name means "heaven" and "young"

¿strange isn't it?

Getting back to the topic, I think it's difficult to explain exactly what I feel, only people who feel or think the same about themselves will understand what I mean.

Not many people see what i write , but if you are seeing this and you understand what I mean ¿do you know how to explain it?

¿How do you explain that you are going to die young?

[uaravsh]

"There comes a time when you look into the mirror and you realize that what you see is all that you will ever be. And then you accept it. Or you kill yourself. Or you stop looking in mirrors."

- 𝚃𝚎𝚗𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚆𝚒𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚊𝚖𝚜 (@uaravsh )

[anonzentimes]

i think being on twitter and tumblr/just starting to overly ramble and be myself more has actually been beneficial for me overall not only because it's really healthy but because it has allowed me to improve at learning to know what words I want to use which is something I've struggled with a lot in my life but it's becoming a little less of an issue now

[rosescentedblood]

Whenever I’m in any type of relationship with a man whether it be casual or serious, I always feel like I’m pretending throughout the entire duration of the relationship, and I don’t do it on purpose. I don’t aspire to morph into my current boyfriend’s image of the perfect girl, it just happens. The way I talk, walk, dress and behave all become skewed and foreign to me. I hate that no man I’ve been in love with has met the real me. I don’t make up the way I feel about these guys, I just haven’t met anybody that I’ve felt like I could be my true self around. Whenever whatever fling I have going ends, I’m left disgusted with myself and empty because though I was vulnerable with my heart, I wasn’t with my soul and I don’t know how to change that. It’s not even just with romantic partners, it happens in majority of my friendships too. Also, for some reason I don’t think that any of these people have really tried to get to know to me on a deeper level anyway, so how could I be myself if nobody ever knows me? I think I’m cool and worth knowing, it just feels shit that nobody else seems to. I don’t know where or how to meet people that make me feel like being myself, but I would really like to.

[eponastory]

I'm not sorry for being myself.

I know I can be a lot.

But this is me, a depressed, anxiety ridden person that is out of her mind most of the time, but I'm going to be myself. I'm not here to hurt anyone, or lash out. I often feel like I don't belong.

I suffer with Imposter Syndrome, procrastination, and low self-esteem. I am human. I'm also part of a generation that is between tough love and participation trophy.

I'm not going to pretend and neither should you.

Be yourself, always.

[discoveringmyself88]

I just want to be loved for who I am. Why does that seem to be so hard for people to understand?

[27moremoons]

I am so hateful right now

[fantasysell]

Being Myself

My oc(Sixie trolls) in human

[biancaa]

🧸𝑻𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒏𝒂𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒂𝒍 𝒔𝒂𝒏𝒄𝒕𝒖𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒔: 𝒔𝒊𝒍𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆, 𝒔𝒐𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒖𝒅𝒆, 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒊𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒊𝒄𝒊𝒕𝒚.

[lacilashea]

me being goofy awhile back.

[ancientgoddessofegypt]

Opening To Change: Learning How To Let Go.

Change hasn't always been an easy thing for me. In the beginning, I had suppressed myself in order to hold on to things that didn't need saving. Holding on to friendships that lasted since high school, to deeply trying to change the circumstances with me and another lover just so we wouldn't have to break-up. I made it my mission for long-term things to stay inside of me for as long as possible, til I realized it was the death of me. I was killing my insides all because I would have to face being alone for a while. And it worked.. until it didn't. My health declined, and I was forced into the unknown because your health and spirituality due tie closely together after all. Believe it or not, the moment I had to go to the hospital I realized I had no one left, but my mom of course. But in those moments I had to understand it would be more them. Because my circumstances were making me sick, all because I chose to stay in it.

Don't get me wrong, the people in my life are not to blame for my health declining. It was my choices that I kept for the longest. Not wanting to switch to becoming vegan, not wanting to travel alone or do anything by myself, always waiting and wasting away... Because I was scared to be and do things, alone.

Alone. Alone. Alone.

Alone. Alone. Alone.

It sounded terrifying.

Having to be by yourself is one thing, but being alone with your THOUGHTS?

Thats a different type of hell.

Having to let go made me accept the things I could not change, but helped me see that there was a reason why I had to move on.

As much as it hurt, I couldn't just walk away with the pain.. I had to make something out of it.

At some point I would let go of all my sorrows by walking to the waterfalls near home, and communing with my ancestors & God Almighty themselves.

I NEEDED this. I needed the friends to mistreatment, the exs to misunderstand me. The family members to not appreciate my talents, my skills, my appreciation for them, etc. I had to see it. So that I could let go. I'm open to change because I know that there is more for me around that corner I have been peaking on the other side of. Remember me & my truth, is the exact reason that faith in beside me & I go where God & the mountains tell me to go. I dont NEED the same old energies to see me, I need me. So being alone worked, because it helped me face myself & overcome the damages that society had placed near my doorstep as a little girl. I had to accept the fact that most people that I loved, would not adore me as I did them. So I changed my structure, and changed the way I thought of them in the process. This was so that the new me could take shape, and I could feel the power of love that had been missing for so many days.

So as I write this, if you're problem is with letting go of people, environments, and so on so forth, you have to check within first. Because its YOU that you aren't letting go of. So it focuses on the things around you externally, then internally. Guess you have to decide whether it'll be your insides or the out. But all in all, one will win this round. You just gotta choose you more often. K? <3

[sunshineanddaisiescaitie]

After a couple weeks of being depressed I feel good as fuck and hot as fuck 😘✌🏼 that's the vibe I want this year 😌 ashnikko never fails to hype me up