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gemeenteurk · 3 months

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divas I look displeased here

#me #but I wasnt #I dont remember much happening when I took this actually

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angellurgy2 · 2 months

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hopeless. why must you make me your martyr

#sitting here in and out of sleep. waiting to die. hopefully. i cant come back on here and see how people are already memorializing me.#i wasnt even dead yet. i will be #but i wasnt #im tired. i want to be loved while im alive. not made into a symbol. and a shitty one at that #no ones here until its gone. and when they realize its not gone. it still is #you dont love me. and you never will care #i just wanted you to love me #any of you #you never will will you?

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chainedspectre · 11 months

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halfway through newsies and i was not prepared for the sheer use of the word crip jesus christ

#i feel like i should have been prepared for this #but i wasnt #typing this through santa fe btw #crutchie being taken away has shook me a bit #wasnt expecting the absolute aggression #newsies #crutchie #crutchie morris #crutchie newsies #tw c slur

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leelum · 9 months

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Mother chose today to trauma dump on me to try and explain all her shitty behaviour. Truly glad if she's ready to get help and realizing this stuff and improving.

#but i wasnt

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moony-ghoul · 11 months

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SHOUT OUT TO THE KIDS WHO HAD ROLLEY BACK PACKS IN SCHOOL

#I WAS ONE OF THEM #I MISS THAT THING IT WAS SO GOOD #THEY WERE VERY POPULAR WHEN I WENT TO AN INDONESIAN SCHOOL THEN I CAME BACK TO AUSTRALIA AND EVERYONE THOUGHT I WAS WEIRD #BUT I WASNT #I WAS BETTER THAN THEM

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sillverstreets · 11 months

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this is me being kinder to myself i guess

#telling myself this is a big deal and it is NOT okay #instead of the opposite #yeah sure he was unaffected by it #but i wasnt #and i hate it #but im accepting it

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xdominiklivakovicx · 1 year

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He is a baby

#dominik livakovic #football #dinamo zagreb #goalkeeper #IF I WAS AT MY HOME TOWN I WOULD LIKELY ASK HIM TO SIGN MY SHIRT #BUT I WASNT #I WANT TO GO HOME >:0 #omg he wore pink kit #we all know u livi

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numbereightforever · 1 year

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SMTV hard

#i thought i was ready for the boss #but i WASNT

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lunarsapphism · 2 years

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i hope that someday this will all get better

#i know it wont #thats the nature of the situation #but i can hope right?#sometimes it makes me wish i had been raised religious #so i would have something to believe in #something invisible feeling like it was supporting me whether it was really there or not #but i wasnt #its lonely yknow?#what an isolating experience this one is #nobody understands #and i dont mean in that cliche 'nobody could ever understand me' way #but like they truly will not and cannot ever understand my perspective to its full extent #and thats fucking terrifying to me #everyone i love will continue to see examples of my bad days and still they will never get to know what it feels like #of course i wouldnt wish this upon any of them but sometimes i do wish at least just one of them knew what it actually felt like #i guess it would make me feel better somehow #cause right now they just sort of have to take my word for it #i dont know why i want to be understood so badly #but i do #maybe it would help #maybe it wouldnt #i dont know #i always say i hope this will all go away #or that it will get better #but i think i just hope it becomes something i can bear more easily #im so exhausted #aiilov-personal

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theartofsimpleomens · 2 years

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Nick’s character that goes with my tiger gal. We will ultimately have a tiger, a raven, and a fox themed character in our group so I made a little limerick while tipsy:

A murder, a skulk, and a streak

The adventurers make a strange clique

Each one of them doomed

But safety’s assumed

Alas their outlook is bleak

Also: my girl is Indian, nick’s is Norse, and bart’s is Celtic. ANd they all have connections with divinity, my girl thinks she is a reincarnation of a god, nick is making a character based on Munin aka one of odin’s birds and is also a cleric of an ice god, and bart was blessed to be able to “steal luck” by his god. idkkkkk i just really like the trifactor we have going here

#I know a group of ravens isn't a murder #it's an unkindness #but murder worked better for the flow #and this was made on the spot #because i thought i was hilarious #but i wasnt #i was just drunk

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its-just-the-chemicals · 2 years

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i dont think people understand that i would kill for a friend group. a group a friends to do things with.

but no. sometimes i remember how absolutely alone i am and it makes me want to scream and kill myself. how is life worth living if i have no one to spend it with.

sure i have a couple friends here and there but even those friends have friend groups and sure i know some of them but im not a part of it. i just watch. observe. hate myself.

i am ultimately just the background friend.

a permanent outsider

#im just sad #sad poetry #i guess #not really #autism #neurodivergent #bpd #depression #i hate it here #im starting to wish i was successful #but i wasnt #so here we are #somehow #the universe better have a fricken plan for me or im going to go full villian mode

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its-arson-time · 5 months

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