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coked-out bernard dowd, send tweet
#that mf has definitely done hard substances#he's done meth he's done coke he's heroin#and it's not like he bought those things but i think the cult gave it to him#wanted to see how much he could take#and he took it. because he's their pretty little sacrifice#he's their perfect lamb. and he is so docile and so meek and he is their favorite because he takes it sooo well#and they love it because he cuts through himself like butter and his blood flows freely like rivers#and he never resists because for once in his life someone wants him and who fuckin gives a sht if he has to scoop out his guts to be wanted#who cares if he's slowly ruining his body to be loved? they like him!! they love him! they say he's the ideal vessel and that he bleeds#so prettily and that he takes the whippings so well‚ don't you bernard? you can take a little more‚ right bernard?#after all‚ he's their perfect little sacrifice‚ their perfect little vessel‚ their perfect little lamb#KAJSDHKJASHDJKASDHASHK IM GOING INSANE#recently ive been having too many thoughts about the cult being less smth he just falls into and does every once in a while and more...#addiction? smth he chooses? smth he goes back to again and again and again?#like he always needs another dose‚ a stronger and stronger dose‚ until he blinks and he's on the altar tied up‚ ready to bleed#bernard dowd#anyway‚ thoughts‚ comments‚ or concerns?#please let me know
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LOVING your fantasy au, has Home tried to attack or steal the soul of anyone in the party without Wally's permission? What happens then?
not really! i think when Wally first joined there must've been at least One instance where a Neighbor went down, and Home was automatically like "oh cool free snack" and Wally had to shut that shit down quick
but after a nice explanation of "these are our friends / they're off limits" then Home (begrudgingly) backed off. at this point in time Wally & Home are already close enough that Home somewhat respects Wally's wishes
#they don't like Wally's friends very much tho lol#it takes them a veeeeryyyy long time to warm up to the neighborhood#and it isn't until after the Reveal that home outright starts liking some of them#i like to think that home finds sally & frank amusing#doesn't like barnaby tho due to how barnaby keeps saying 'MY best friend or MY little buddy-'#and acts like there is no one who understands / knows / is as close to wally as barn is#home just... gets a little territorial! and lowkey views wally as their uh... not property but its a similar vibe#there's a bit of an ownership thing going on which is understandable! home is wally's patron! thats Their lil warlock!#like even in the big 'wally is a warlock and hey home exists' Reveal#when home is eating just. So many people and wally's friends attack them#home pretty much ignores the neighborhood. it's watching them soooo unimpressed and vaguely annoyed#but it doesnt eat them and tries not to hurt them! wally asked home not to so home won't!#wally loves and cares for them so home has to put up with it!#rambles from the bog#wh fantasy au#home when wally decided to stick around: NOOOOOO NO WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO#hard cut to home seething as wally sits at a campfire listening to terrible singing and laughter & tries to chime in#they had a good run of just the two of them on the road. seeing the sights#wally spending most nights curled up on home's (house-form) floor instead of in a tent#sighhhhh those were the times... OH WELL-
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only thing keeping me from killing myself oh so violently right now is strong sense of justice autism. yeah.
#“can't wear the ribbon if you're dead” or whatever the fuck it said#just let me go#i dont care all that much#theres nothing you can do to fix all that. i tried my thing and it just got trashed. there truly is nothing for us because no one even sees#it or cares#stay alive so i can buy narloxone one day and you can't put that on no safety plan#stay alive so i can do someone elses wound care#stay alive to kick a cop#its all shit#because ill never be able to do it#got my insides ripped out#i dont know where they went#i don't know who this is#its like they never wore off#half life of an eternity#because i was A person#or atleast closer to it#and I grasp onto the straws of before#cuttings never been the same after#my bodies never felt the same after#my bedroom is gone#and i was never here before#i dont know who this us#i don't know what they did to me#i must have forgotten something or those labels are all bullshit#lists of side effects and no one lists splitting into three and the third in a locker box to be drowned#i thought it was my dad#if he went back to being my dad itd be fixed but no#they did something to ME aswell as everyone else and my home
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the funniest thing about having to report fraud on my credit card today was the girl on the phone listing all my transactions to me to see if i recognized them and literally 100% of them were all media purchases liiiiike wow I really have 1 hobby and 1 hobby only don't I
#it was like#netflix? prime? criterion channel? disney+? youtube?#yep yep yep yep all me#cineplex? nintendo? local bookstore? kindle? patreon?#yep all me as well#also the awkward moment where i had to confirm i paid for tumblr this month lol like who does that#literally i think the only purchases she listed that werent me being a nerd about media consumption was my car insurance and phone bill#anywayz someone used my credit card to buy something that was 540 dollars on amazon today!!!!#locked that shit down#they bought a deep cut band saw that they were trying to send to a suburban house in whitby ontario#the way in which i can literally google street view the asshole's home who stole my shit because they added their address to my account...#i dont know how they got it but MAYBE this will force me to get a new computer since i know outdated ones are bad for getting scammed on#somebody was also selling all my 1 cent stupid steam trading cards with my steam account last night#i cant even use frikkin steam to play games right now yet i can still get scammed on there apparently argh. so many passwords to change#i wish they'd do away with that fuckass steam trading card system#like i don't even care about those at all but that's the second time that this has happened to me now#p
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The whole "if a person is mad at you it's their responsibility to tell you" thing just made me realize how fucked my situation is. Like just. woah
#who wants to hesr the story of how I lost my irl friends recently (you will I'm spitting everything right now)#anyway so last year one day one of my friends decided to randomly backstab me and she started talking behind my back#and yeah this all made me mad because?? what the fuck#she started talking and revealing stuff that i had confide to her to other people and they slowly started drifting from me#BUt the thing here is that she was manipulating the story. she changed it every time she told stuff to people to make me look bad#i heard one of the things she said about me once and i was like ?? she even make me dislike me in her version which like woa#anyway I didn't understand why she did that because it was ? so random? and then she started ignoring me and has not talked to me ever since#the thing is. she apparently didn't have enough with just doing that. she slowly started to rot my other friends' brains too?#in the sense that. suddenly the rest of my group was ignoring me too. they never said anything to me. or stated that they had a problem#they just ignored me in my face? and yeah that. hurt#recently i found thanks to a third party that one of them decided to stop talking to me because apparently i had hurt her uncountable times#and she was just soo sick and tired of me doing that. which. honestly made me mad because she did not ever express that to me?? so#what was i supposed to do. if she never said anything.#anyway one of my friends confronted her about the treatment they were giving to me. the whole exclusion thing. and her answer was-#”well it's not my fault that she doesn't have more friends and doesn't talk to people”#and i was like. woah. what a poor reply. is that really it.. also apparently they all had agree to stop talking to me as a group-#-and they never informed me so. thank you?#and I'm still here asking what i did to that ex friend of mine. later on i found out she had hooked up with the guy i used to like btw#and she kept it secret. oh and then i started dating my current partner ! person she also felt attracted to. and that's my only explanation.#she started gossiping after what happened with the first guy. so that's really everything that comes to mind as a reason#ANYWAY now that i was at the hospital i didn't receive a single text from any of them. so i guess that was it. people who don't care-#-like that are not friends. those people are not my friends. people who ignore me on purpose and gossip like that are not. my friends#so yeah that's why I've been feeling down lately but ! here I am i ended up ranting so. much#rant#vent#?#woah i actually feel so much better after spitting it all#I'm also following that sour grape advice btw I'm not giving them the privilege of cutting me out. I'M the one who dislikes them now
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Briarlights death makes sense to me. As much as I love her character, the movement technology you’ve come up with wouldn’t be enough to keep her alive in a society where her nether regions are constantly exposed to the outdoors. She would get UTIs and kidney infections very quickly, which would be fatal when you can’t feel pain. My partner has to use catheters to avoid them (he is paralyzed in the same spot Briarlight would be.)
I think it’s disingenuous to have a character that’s paralyzed but have no other health problems or concerns regarding it, even if it’s uncomfortable to think about for some readers. It’s just as ableist to minimize the additional struggles she’d face as it is to kill her off unnecessarily.
Not accusing you of ableism, but expressing my concern. They’d need to find a way for her to poop and pee in a way that’s sanitary and a way to combat infections long term - even if the thought is “gross” to some people it’s the reality she’d have to live with. She should, at the very least, remain immunocompromised.
That is a valid concern. I will keep this in mind-- I'll make sure to note her immediately being cleared out of camp at the first sign of sniffles to avoid it. My cats can do some very minor building and there are now several cats on Jayfeather's Garden Patrol, it wouldn't be too much of a problem to make that area into a comfortable "satellite camp".
I do want to add though that my most important guiding principle is a stronger narrative which includes better portrayals of disabled characters, not perfect rugged woodsman realism. The medicine I add and the guides I write are in the hopes of better representing the lives of the real-life people who see themselves in the fantasy battle cats.
Realism does factor into that of course! But it goes out the door the minute it would smash up against a disabled character's inclusion. This is a series for human beings like your partner; as close to it as I can get by bending the setting when needed.
For example, Epilepsy
Epilepsy was deadly before modern medicine. Full stop. The herbs I created for that guide would not save someone like Shadowsight, whose convulsions are at extreme risk of turning into Status Epilepticus. It would help manage, but Shadowsight's life would have been very brief.
All the chamomile in the world wouldn't replace phenobarbital... or even the older medications, barbituates. Barbituates have been replaced and good riddance, but it's important to understand that even this drug known for causing EXTREME lethargy and horrible side effects was revolutionary. It saved countless lives.
But I'm not here to write a story for the real-life horror that is epilepsy in a pre-modern society. I'm here for the parent who personally thanked me for making their daughter feel less alone.
Evil spirits attacking the living! God knocking over trees! Attacking a bulldozer! That all happens; there's no reason they can't help Briarlight too!!
But I'll make sure to include her being immunocompromised. And I'll include ways they handle that. Just like I included a cat engineer who made a blanket sled.
So... suggestion accepted! I will keep this in mind.
Briarlight's Canon Death
...I will maintain though that the canonical death of Briarlight was one of the worst, most short-sighted, cruelest decisions that has ever been made in this series.
Because ultimately Briarlight is not a real person. She is a writing choice. She is a character based on Vicky's paralyzed cousin, "Dan," and Briarlight was directly modeled on Dan's personality and recovery.
What did the new writing team do, the minute they were writing a series without Vicky? Killed Briarlight to fucking greencough. For shock points. Narrative moves right on back to the MAIN conflict-- Alderheart having feelings for Velvet and Jayfeather enforcing the vow of chastity. ShadowClan officially falls apart in the background lol
It was never about realism, or realistic portrayal of disability.
This series doesn't care about realism when cats have bloody Freddy Kruger deaths in their sleep, or when shadow goo starts eating cat hell, or when lightning strikes Shadowsight. But they suddenly care about how realistic it is that the only paralyzed character survives greencough?? No! Of course not!
In the middle of the CONSTANT "Ohh she's finally in heaven where she can run and jump and not have a disabled life"? And the infamous Squirrelflight's Hope line, "You don't want to be alive again, Squirrelflight! You might become disabled like BRIARLIGHT"
(WHICH BTW THEY STILL HAVE NOT REMOVED DESPITE PROMISING IT YEARS AGO)
I absolutely do not believe for a second that they had a realistic portrayal of an immunocompromised cat in mind when they did it! Hell, screw it. I'll just say it outright;
I firmly believe that the new writing team killed Briarlight because they did not want to deal with her.
I flatly refuse to give them charity towards this choice. At NO POINT did they earn a speck of good faith. They continued every negative trend that was set up by the previous writers (including Vicky herself tbf), and went a step further by killing her to "we need to get rid of some randos" disease.
Not only that; but the Clan dynamics were NEVER the same after her death, because there was no character who could replace her personality. In this cast of cardboard cats, they plucked out one of the few optimists with a clear, unique perspective, not shared by ANYONE else.
My ire wouldn't JUST be because they happened to kill a disabled character in the way they did (though that is frustrating on its own imo). It's because it was Briarlight.
I hope every writer involved with the decision to kill Briarlight in the "Nothing is Happening! Quick! Kill Someone!" book of AVoS chokes on it. I will DIE on this hill and my blood will never wash out of the grass.
#I've been getting a surprising amount of interest in the idea of portraying some of the 'grosser' aspects of disability#and illness in general while we're at it#I don't mind showing it but I do want to strike a balance for those who are more squeamish#Maybe I'll make follow-up guides when I tackle certain disabilities where it's relevant?#Maybe I can save the very sensitive things for the post-cut of a post?#My posts would get a lot longer though and I notice people are less likely to spread and share very long posts#Abelism#Disability#Briarlight#Bonefall Rewrite#Warrior Cats Analysis#I hope the part on realism makes sense#Realism to me is for fun and as a means to an end#Not THE point of what I do#I am an opponent of the sorts of people who say ''Oh there can't be [minority] in this because Realism''#Yeah well there CAN be two of my fingers in ur eye NERD#Not that I'm accusing you of that either anon dsgffd#Just explaining my own feelings too you get me?#You clearly have a person in your life you care immensely about and want a good portrayal!!#I will try my hardest to give you that
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on spoiler tags
since reload is coming out soon, i wanted to give people some heads up for tags i'll be using as a courtesy. please curate your experience accordingly! if you haven't used the mute feature, here's how to 👍
i will continue to use #persona 3 for all posts related to p3 (it's my main tag)
for posts about reload specifically, i'll be using #persona 3 reload, but it might also be worthwhile to mute the abbreviations #p3r and #p3re.
for the people who don't know anything about p3, i will attempt to tag spoilers for p3's events as #persona 3 spoilers but i cannot guarantee that i will remember to do so...
i hope everyone enjoys their experience with the game! i will still post here occasionally, but in general i'll be steering clear of socmed until i'm finished with reload.
tangentially related- i expect splatoon 3's side order dlc to come out during this time. all stuff related to that dlc will be tagged with #side order and will also be tagged as #splatoon (main tag)
thank you for your time! enjoy gaming, and remember to drink water 🥤
#lizzy speaks#of course i will continue to tag the appropriate characters and ships and whatnot#but i wanted to get the main tags out there to whom it may concern... im very particular about spoilers so i want to curate bc i know there#are people who are also like me in that respect...#regarding my posts on reload it'll probably be stuff like art depicting the content that reload specifically added... gifsets... or meta#though for meta or analysis thoughts whatever i'll probably end up throwing that under the cut tbh#if you want clarification about my tagging system feel free to ask if it's unclear :D#i probably won't be browsing the tags that much but ITS OK because tumblr is an awesome website and you can easily find old posts again#was going to wait to post this but i heard from luca people were getting their copies of reload early SO. now is the time to mute methinks#oh and to those who have me on discord i'll be broadcasting which date im at in-game on my status. please don't message me about things-#i've yet to experience in reload. thank you! or at least ask where i'm at in-game before talking to me about it. LOL#take care everyone! love you all to bits :3
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a truly terrible idea has latched hold of my gremlin brain which is, buck and tommy do break up so that buck can pursue eddie because either tommy thinks buck is in love with eddie or buck feels like he should be with eddie because everyone else keeps suggesting there's something more there BUT buck/eddie getting together changes their dynamic so much that neither of them are enjoying themselves (and they're worrying about losing what made their friendship so special because of all the changes to the dynamic) AND buck and tommy keep hooking up [air quotes] platonically (with tommy stumbling into inconvenient feelings and pining pathetically for buck while fucking him) while buck struggles to sort out intense feelings toward eddie (which obviously have to be romantic of course) vs. his calm, more settled feelings toward tommy (they're not as intense as his feelings about eddie so they can't possibly be romantic) blah blah long story slightly less long but buck realizes he's been in love with tommy the whole time and was having trouble separating strong but platonic feelings for eddie from his romantic feelings toward tommy and then tommy's like "newsflash asshole i've been in love with you the whole goddamn time"
i'll never write it because it's irredeemably stupid and i value my peace but it IS sitting in my hindbrain tormenting me right now
#thank you for coming to my ted talk#i'm not tagging this bc i don't want it showing up in any show or ship tags but...............................#terrible evil plotbunny free to a good home#nobody ever writes about the friends who get together bc 'why not everyone else already thinks we're dating' and then it doesn't work out#because the dynamic changes SO MUCH that you're not sure if it was such a good idea in the first place#now add a third person to the mix that you like but aren't sure how you feel about them#not sure if eddie would be aware it's casual and non exclusive or if there'd be miscommunication leading to angst#honestly this is just me venting my frustrations with those breakup fics masqueraring as b*cktommy that have tommy#graciously sacrificing himself on the altar of b*ddie's true love and stepping aside magnanimously#that's not interesting to me to read even as a b*ddie shipper#if buck and tommy have to break up let it be real and messy because real people are real and messy#let tommy fight for buck even if it doesn't end up working out#let buck and eddie feel guilty because buck did genuinely care about tommy and eddie does like him as a friend#let tommy cut both of them off because even though he likes both of them he still has feelings and it hurts seeing them together#let tommy be petty about showing off a new love interest or fwb and how much happier he is with this guy than he was with buck#let buck wonder if he made the right choice or not bc he didn't ever want to hurt tommy#he only convinced himself tommy would be completely fine with the breakup because he needed him to be fine so that he could do it guilt fre#let eddie wonder if they made the right choice or not bc while he finally has what he's wanted for years it did hurt someone he really like#maybe it'll all work out in the end for buck and eddie AND tommy but i just want it to feel real and not overly polished and sanitized#and no one is hurt or upset or petty or flawed#anyway#i like mess#don't @ me#i might have to write this now but i don't want to be chased off with pitchforks and torches#text#shut up giallos
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maybe it's because I'm currently playing Baldur's Gate and all but if the Borderlands team is looking for a fun idea to do in B4, I would love a night camp option. They could make it optional where you can have camp scenes with the other characters even if you play solo and you give them dialogue options, let them talk and develop their relationships. I would enjoy that.
#To make it seem slightly less derivative (I don't care whether it is) I also think this is the natural progression#because making the playable characters more authentic and active and giving them stronger personalities has been the trajectory for a while#with every game they become more present get more lines are recognised more as individuals etc#so actually actively including them in cut scenes and showing the relationships between the characters as we play would be fun#and for those who just want the game play i would give the option to toggle this off
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#And the funniest thing?#I don't see *shit* posted about Zaporizhzhia#and I have no fucking idea if it's even allowed#but what is allowed is countless safe and comfortable USians and Europeans#yammering about how it's not so clear cut and poor ruzzians are suffering#and anyway why should they filter the content they consume#or at least the content they promote#why should they care#ukraine isn't their responsibility#we should just negotiate with the fucking scum who wants us gone not just as country but as people#we should just give those lands away to them#because that is known to pacify them (not)#man#i honestly don't even wanna live anymore#everything that they don't destroy they steal#everything they don't raze they take and turn to shit#they're committing fucking genocide and see how much the world cares#i'm so fucking done here#i wish I could just stop existing#everything looks hopeless and i don't know how to continue
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my otp is clones x lightsabers
#my ultimate weakness i fucking LOVE that shit#need to trap me under a box? put a picture of a clone w/ a lightsaber#misc clones#lightsaber#star wars#don't even care if they're not force sensitive lmao let em have em#i've very biased and hypocritical on this honestly bc i don't think lightsabers should be handed out willy nilly BUT#i do have some [non force sensitive] clone + lightsaber headcanons like#some jedi teaching their commanders / captains / ARCs / certain clones how to wield their lightsabers for emergency situations#obviously for offense or as a cutting tool but not rly defense (can't rly deflect blast bolts properly if you're not force sensitive)#also some talented clones being able to wield those electro staffs (the ones grevious's droids/bodyguards have) in a more defensive measure#(like tech and echo) (in my headcanon)#obviously they'll never be able to match a force wielder in prolonged battle BUT being able to deflect a lightsaber hit might save them#and then yes obviously i've also got actual force sensitive clones who learn how to properly and fully use a lightsaber#dear god i'm rambling inthe tags as usual lmao#i'll tag this#sw headcanons#even tho it's all in my tags lmao
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I know the maze in Prey is fake but I actually can't watch it and relax because I can't stop thinking about how long it would take to cut it, especially with much older equipment. what a mare.
#plus it's prunus laurocerasus which contains cyanide in the leaves#so on a hot sunny day you do actually need to be careful when you cut it so you don't accidentally poison yourself#idk how much of a risk it actually is but i trust the lecturer who told me this so#im not going to risk it#i actually do enjoy cutting hedges its very satisfying but it is an arm killer#get those guns
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Look, Ant and Dec are always warm, likeable and entertaining. That’s their job. But what’s most interesting about Ant & Dec’s DNA Journey is not these qualities applied to an ancestry-chasing concept. It’s the thing that happened after filming began and how they deal with it in the show. A few years ago Ant was revealed to have a serious substance-abuse problem and ended up going to rehab. The bulk of this week’s episode was filmed just before that; then production came to a halt for two years. Ten minutes before the end of this programme they explain why there’s a big time jump between episode one and next Tuesday’s episode two by addressing the issue head on. It’s quite affecting, to be honest.
Dec talks about the anger he felt at the time, and Ant talks about his sorrow for how his actions affected his friend, and they both say how much they care about each other. In fact, even before this, all the really interesting things in this show are about their immediate lives, not those of their ancestors – Dec's family connections to Tyneside Irish Centre, the fact that Ant has a troubled relationship with his absentee father, the pair of them walking their dogs.
It made me realise that what I'd really like to see is a fly-on-the-wall documentary about being Ant and Dec. I mean, forget all those olden daysers in the horrible past. What's it like to be an umbilically attached light-entertainment duo who must glide frictionlessly over the surface of life with quips and japes? What's that really like? - source
#dna journey#the author KNOWS#i want to make a cut of dna journey that only contains those interesting bits the author mentions#(mostly so that i don't have to fast forward through it on a rewatch haha)#but dec talking about how sad he got after getting over his initial anger#when he started thinking of how ant must have felt#and that ultimately care and compassion and love were stronger and he just wanted him to be happy again#😭😭😭😭😭😭#to be able to take this perspective is HUGE!!!!#and in media i feel we hardly ever get to hear from the loved ones of addicts#so it's so interesting to hear dec's perspective#and than for that perspective to be of someone who cares so deeply about the person afflicted with addiction is so so special#the strength of a relationship to be able to survive addiction!#the love they have and the work they must have put in 😭😭😭😭#it can also give hope to people suffering from addiction and their loved ones :)
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#edel vents#disclaimer: really personal issues in the tags. also wishes of death upon others. this is PROBABLY too much information tbh...#so if you're not up for it scroll down fast!!!! the deluge is coming!!!#today was... eventful. bad. also very bad. grandma's birthday celebration was today#and while she... definitely has Old People Issues (racist) shes also very lonely since the death of my grandfather so i can't really not go#i'm the only one who really visits her regularly to begin with#aside from the... very serious racism issue... she's “alright”. i guess. but that's besides the point. there's family there#and among those... my parents. which i don't like to talk to#discovered they threw more of my old stuff away. typical. wanted to strangle them. as usual.#had to “talk” with my mother (read: spend approximately ten seconds reciting exactly why i *don't* talk to her anymore)#so that whole ordeal completely soured my mood.#went home tired. can't really do anything right now.#at least the food was good i guess. but i also really want to cry... which i can't. which sucks.#...i really like to think i've improved as a person. i used to be really hateful of everything and everyone#worst of all myself. still kinda do but i'm... getting better..?#i like to think i've grown past most of it but every time i see my parents i feel this gripping at my heart. as if i haven't really changed#as if instead i'm still the hateful person i “always was” deep down... bc there's this visceral joy that i feel whenever i'm mad at them.#when i looked at my mother and told her how much i despise her i felt a shiver of happiness. righteousness.#to be clear: i do NOT care for her. at all. she's the worst person on this earth#and the only person whom my philosophy of “nobody deserves to die” does NOT apply to. i'm not scared of hating her.#she genuinely deserves this. but...every time i see my parents - and thus her... i feel as if i'm slipping back into that mindset of hatred#i don't want that. not anymore. it consumed me whole. i was a horrible person back then and i've caused so much grief for so many#i can't let go of this hatred. i can't forgive them. they don't deserve my forgiveness anyway. but i'm tired of hating.#i'm tired of letting that hatred define me. i'm tired of letting that hatred direct me. i'm tired of letting it bring me to ruin.#i'm tired of being who i was. i'm no longer “that”. i'm edel now and i'm happy for people now. if i don't like something i just walk out.#i can just leave. “if it sucks hit the bricks” right?.. but i didn't. i had to say it. i had to tell them. her. and i liked it.#and... i'm scared of that. because it tells me i haven't improved.#i'm not sure what i'm expecting out of posting this i guess. maybe help. maybe i wanna be told that this is normal or something.#maybe i just want to get my thoughts in order. i don't know. i'm gonna stop writing now.#sorry for making you read all this. thanks for doing it anyway. tags were cut off on this one btw so it may look like a mess. but. yeah.
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like Shiv's mean sometimes and emotionally stunted and that's basically it She's a cheater but he was fine with possibly cheating and it was only when he thought she'd do it too that he was like no so like sorry I don't really feel bad about that part. And then there's the 'I don't love you' thing and that's it! she didn't send him to prison!!! he got himself into trouble, he could've exposed it and he did not and then he offered himself and she was like strategically that'd be good and then he was hurt that she didn't save him He keeps saying he loves her and that he cares throughout the first seasons and people just buy that fully and think Shiv doesn't when she's the one who shows it through actions! and like I get up until beginning of s4 Tom not knowing that but whenever I read people who watch the show saying she doesn't love her or that it was only Shiv hurting him until the betrayal I get so mad
#he cut her out he did!!#succession#anti tom wambsgans#bc i'm in my feelings#I did think he loved her in the same that she does him aka not really but yes#like she cares! he's her person but there's an element of interest which for shiv is about control and for tom's about getting power from#the family#(overly simplifying )#but after s4 I'm like I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE#also rewatching tomshiv clear the air and would like some shiv x tom's mom content. I think she should fuck tom's mom#to be clear I understand tom up until first few chapters of s4 not KNOWING that shiv cares because all her actions are done without telling#him about it. she doesn't tell him she said 'just not tom' etc#but after logan's death?? after their argument? after seeing her schedule grief??? I. cannot make sense in my head of tom being kind to her#in that scene and others like telling her she's broken#as the same PERSON#it reminds me of the whole empathy roman thing where he can be so mean and then nice like with kerry in the funeral but I fully understand#roman there I don't have a problem fitting those two in the same character but with Tom I have such trouble doing it#shiv roy#clarification i'm not an i'm just tagging with anti so that people who like tom & tomshiv don't have to see my post
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Saw certain tweets and here once again a reminder which a twt mutual luckily wrote shorter than I could (plus public so I can rb bc no way I do that myself on that site)
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And if you want smth I wrote myself which is longer and not just abt that here you go
#a wild lux appears#I think they're one mutual who is fine w being screenshotted ik some don't want that#I wrote that bsky thing while waiting for food. Reg the fellow person I talk abt don't bash ppl that already spoke up and stop for a bit#To rb more later. Or ppl that still go to work bc they can't afford not to bc the thing by these actions is community isn't there as net#Or like anyone that shows they care and didn't do anything harmful and just take recharge time or so#Educate willing(!) ppl nicely and don't bash them or send a internet mob to them etc#The ones posting they still go to/buy boycott stuff yeah they're awful but what does bashing them bring at the end of the day#Don't support those ppl yeah but them posting that shows how much they care for it. They prob just want cloud which you give them.#Pressure ppl in power in a way they can't ignore focus on that not no name individuals#If ppl you know talk in private and if they don't want to change literally just cut them out of your life if possible#Online just block. Don't argue w people that just want to stir smth up etc etc#Also I don't think it's too productive to be mad when a standard user anywhere doesn't share stuff. Like yeah give them info abt that but#some either just do smth offline (in that case maybe tell them in this case just sharing online is also helpful) or are mentally too done#and focus all energy to survive (which is intended by the ppl in power. make ppl so done they only have energy to survive themselves so they#don't have energy to speak up abt problems in the world). Bashing famous ppl is completely different bc backlash actually brings smth there.#More ppl could do more if strike organizations would include community care so more actually could not go to work/shopping#Also reg protests so they should know do you know how many don't watch news anymore (I don't watch tv since many years)#I'm sure some also just can't esp younger ppl if they're parents monitor their socials and are zionists#Ofc speak up. I'm just here to say there are explanations. If they read things and still don't care unfollow/block/mute/idc or if you know#Them talk and explain how if is important they speak up#This has been going on for a good while now idk how many still don't know I am mostly pointing that out for new or not as much shared things#Tho I'm sure many don't know bc the standard response is the gov knows what he does and they do propaganda#They think surely the gov takes care of that. If they shut down convos reg that then that is dangerous denialism and living in escapism n#All. Not if the ppl who follow this need a break w fiction or so. I am sure the ppl you try to reach w bashing already muted/blocked all#accs and words associated w that#Anyways I gotta shower now. Disclaimer my personal opinion be an asshole and it's block on sight yada yada.#I just woke up I'm hungry I need to shower but that is also when I decide to share my pieces so
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