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MiqoMarch Day 23 - Midnight
With their intended voyage into the void only a few days out, Arsay thought it the upmost importance that she steal her partner away to Kugane, that they might share one more fond memory together should things not turn out the way they plan in the thirteenth. It was as they crossed the very same bridge the miqo'te had once sat on together two years prior when Arsay gifted Y'shtola with a bracelet matching that of her own. A token of endearment which, Arsay confessed, she would have given to her fellow scion back then, had nerves not gotten the best of her. While their relationship has undoubtedly changed since the initial purchase of the jewellery, the sentiment remained the same. Y'shtola was someone who Arsay loved dearly and she will forever be grateful to have the seeker's life intertwined with her own. No matter where their free spirits took them, they would always hold each other in their hearts. A promise Y'shtola was more than willing to keep. She slipped the the string of beads around her wrist without a second thought. They were never to come off, not even when the two decided to delay their return to Radz-at-Han in favour of a private bath at the dead of night.
#miqomarch#miqomarch 2024#ffxiv#y'shtola rhul#y'shtola x wol#wolshtola#arsay nun lore#arshtola#thanks to nhaneh for the body mod#i had to do some insane fov to get the moon and them in the same shot so sorry for the distortion#forcing arshtola lore into this prompt since idk when Ill ever get around to gposing the actual scene#this is between 6.1 and 6.2!#endwalker patch spoilers#i had the idea that arsay bought the Dai-ryumyaku bracelets from a vendor between 4.3 n 4.4 when shtola is off to the doman enclave#and arsay is like hey wait you should let me show you around kugane on the way over!#a fun friend date that ends with shtola finally accepting she has a crush on arsay and its terminal#and arsay having a single moment where she starts reflecting on feelings & thinks maybe she missed hanging out w/shtola more than she shoul#only to quickly butt that idea out of her head and continue being super normal#arsay notices these matching bracelets with red and purple string and shes like oh they are so cute and they look like#they belong in a pair it would be so sad if they were ever split up unexpectedly#i know ill buy them and give one to shtola wouldnt that be fun!#so she does that and then cant bring herself to give yshtola the damn thing because she starts second guessing herself#so arsay stashes the bracelets away and she started wearing hers later under her glove#fast forward to two years later and arsay finds the other one in one of her bags#and now shes dating yshtola and they are about to go somewhere super dangerous#what better time to tell your gf how much they have always meant to you#and what better way to do it than with a gift and some words spoken from the heart?#it was a little unconventional since arsay didnt really have marriage on the mind but it was a proposal in a sense#WOL posting#Arsay Nun
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i dont think i can physically like a character normally
#like??? wdym u can go more then two second without bringing up ur fav character???#its BAD bro……#i grabbed two towels yesterday and went “omg!!! green like katniss everdeen!! and omg!!! yellow like will byers!!” OUT. LOUD. IN. PUBLIC.#someone pls just talk to me abt my favorite characters ill love u forever#not once#BUT TWO TIMES ppl who had a crush on me read hunger games JUST to talk to me abt katniss bc i love her so much#katniss everdeen#peeta mellark#the hunger games#ash fox#fantastic mr fox#will byers#mike wheeler#stranger things#neil perry#todd anderson#dead poets society#edwin payne#charles rowland#dead boy detectives
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physical attraction is so wild to mi
oh i feel burning cant stop thinkin abt them oh the desire
and meanwhile im just
#u ok u sure it is what is it#the closest thing to having a crush was once on the train w someone from my class and it lasted around 30 min and then poooof#nothing after that#cant bring myself to even think abt ppl being attracted to mi or otherwise#i feel somewhat gross#eeeeh#need to tell a doc abt it#tw mental health#question of a day is it just absolute aceiness or mental illness
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i fucking love the "A fell first but B fell harder" trope so much that shit makes me so ISJDJSJDJSJDJF
#niko fell first#cause he does#hes more emotional and lord knows when he started having a crush he acts way too obvious about it#cause like... as much as they bicker and banter its really only one of the only time niko get to be himself instead of holding this#mask he has to other ppl#just being as unhinged as he could be as his emotions be free... plus uh the guy is pretty too ig //lh#but man wanderer being the one fell harder.. AUSBAJDBSJDJSJDJ#wanderer hid it better heck you wouldnt even know hes even in love cause hes in denial#he talks about him at least ONCE in his therapy session with nahida#AND SHE NOTICED BUT SHE DOESNT BRING IT UP#CAUSE SHE KNOWS HE DIDNT NOTICED#if you think niko's attempt at hiding his feelings is bad wanderer is even worst#cause wanderer thinks hes being slick hiding it but nawr its#its as transparent as niko's#ok maybe hes better at it in a way that most ppl cant tell#but nahida can#and like.... hes really not as harsh as when they first met#and he can put his guard down a bit seeing its just niko cause he knows niko wouldn't betray or hurt him for whatever reason#anyway they made me ill thats all folks#.txt#tag: puppetgear
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been really into this sandwich/burger lately: bottom bun, thin layer mayonnaise, mushed 1/3rd of a can of green peas, american cheese, 4 pieces of fried bacon, normal cheese, ham, american cheese, another layer of mayonnaise & top bun. i use hamburger buns for it cause i bought some when i made burgers for me & my mum and then didnt use them cause we had buns with cheese on top & they sounded better but im sure any other type of bun or maybe toast (or just regular boring bread if ur weird) would work too. also i put the hamburger buns on the grill pan w the bacon for a minute or two cause that makes them real niceys. i dont think anyone will try making this after reading this post as mushed canned green peas (they have to be canned peas) r a bit too avant garde for sandwichburgerthings but i wanted to share this w the world anyway
#ate one today for lunch. yum it was so good#the peas really tie everything together so well . this would be dogshit without them#ill try adding half a can next time & see if this works too or if they overpower everything else then#the reason i use american cheese is cause it melts really fast (unlike the normal cheese which usually ends up only half melted)#and gives the whole thing an almost creamy texture? which works well with the peas & brings out the crunchyness of the bacon#the reason why im using 4 entire pieces is cause 1) i like bacon & 2) we have so much of it someone needs to eat it before it goes bad#voidcore.txt#also if u dont know how to mush such a small amount of peas i personally use one of those bowls for crushing herbs and spices#one of those with the little Thing . google is saying this is called a pestle and mortar
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it's like I want to make a cry for help but I don't even know what help I want or need. I need to just be. not on this earth any longer
#i never imagined i would live this long and continue to be so miserable through it all!#i thought id kill myself in earnest or i would die in an accident or something.#so when it came to making decisions about my future i never made them bc ive never once been able to imagine a future for myself#even now!!!! thinking about where ill be in six months im like. well. ideally i will be a specimen in a cadaver lab.#i dont NEED to think ahead because THERE IS NO 'AHEAD' FOR ME#i truly have nothing to feel hopeful about. nothing to look forward to. nothing brings me joy these days. i just sit around and sleep.#rather i try to sleep bc i have so much trouble.#i wish i could be in my backyard and have a tree fall and crush me to death instantly or lightning vaporize me instantly#i dont want to kill myself but i want to be dead. i dont want to go through the effort of failing to die. i just want to be not living.#ANYWAY can you tell im having an amazing time in my life right now.
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it's okay if we both end up afraid
word count: 655
notes: so uh. i've been thinking about this little scene since i read obbligato for the first time and i finally decided to write it down. inflicted emotional damage on all of my friends! also the title is from a memory away by matt maeson which feels like a tatsukana song. to me.
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Kaname collapsed onto the floor of the underground catacombs where he had been spending most of his time the past few months. He and Tatsumi had just finished up the last of their promotion for their big announcement the next day and he’d be lying if he said he wasn’t a little nervous.
He felt the butterflies in his stomach churn at the thought of the announcement going poorly. The non-special students had seemed to like the idea enough but it was going to take a lot to convince the special students to join their company. They were doing it for the greater good, he reminded himself.
“Hey, Tatsumi-senpai, are you…nervous, for tomorrow?” he asked, tracing a finger over the ground next to his leg. “Are you worried that they won’t accept our proposal?”
He heard Tatsumi’s gentle chuckle as the other boy sat next to him on the ground. Tatsumi’s warm hand moved to cover Kaname’s own colder one. He had always run cold, and the underground climate didn’t help him any. The butterflies in his stomach calmed down just a little.
“Well, I’ll be there to protect you if things go wrong, HiMERU-san.” Tatsumi’s thumb rubbed comforting circles over Kaname’s knuckles.
“You can call me Kaname, Tatsumi-senpai,” he said without thinking. It took him a second to realize what he had just done. “I mean, only if you want to. But you can call me by my name in private if you’d like.” The words fell out of his mouth before he could catch them.
Tatsumi chuckled again. “Thank you, Kaname-san.”
Kaname turned to look up at Tatsumi, to look him in the eyes and see if they were feeling the same way. Were there nervous butterflies dancing in his stomach turning into a storm that could swallow him whole too?
“You never answered my question, Tatsumi-senpai. Are you nervous for tomorrow?”
Tatsumi’s smile faltered for just a moment, enough that Kaname could tell there was something he wasn’t saying.
“I am…sure that the Lord will protect and guide us tomorrow. Nothing bad will happen, HiME--Kaname-san.” He corrected himself quickly. Kaname just prayed to whatever god was out there that Tatsumi would stop avoiding the question.
Kaname adjusted his hand so that their fingers were intertwined, a familiar gesture between the two boys when they were alone at this point. He could feel the tension leave Tatsumi as he gently squeezed his hand.
“I’m not asking about that, Tatsumi-senpai. I’m asking how you feel. Please, be honest with me. I want to be equal with you and I can’t if you won’t tell me how you’re feeling.”
Tatsumi sighed.
“I am nervous, yes. Though aren’t most people nervous before big performances?”
Kaname squeezed his hand again. “Yeah, they are. But we’re in this together, got it?”
Tatsumi’s smile grew ever so slightly and Kaname felt his heart leap in his throat.
“Of course, Kaname-san.
We should get some sleep.”
Tatsumi moved to get up, warm fingers leaving cold ones to set up their sleeping bags. Kaname reached out to him one last time.
“Can we…sleep together tonight?” his face heated up at the proposition, even though that, too, had become almost routine for them on particularly bad nights for Kaname. He had never asked to sleep with Tatsumi before they had actually gone to sleep, though. It only happened after Kaname had woken up from a nightmare or a panic attack, when Tatsumi would hold him close and whisper calming words into his ear, so close he could feel his breath.
“Fufu, of course Kaname-san.”
Kaname breathed in Tatsumi’s cologne like it was the last time he’d ever get to hold the other boy close. His heart steadied, breath evened out as the two of them drifted off to sleep.
The next day as the other students beat his body senseless, Kaname let the same scent drift him off to sleep once more.
#my writing#enstars#tatsumi kazehaya#kaname tojou#kaname tojo#tatsukana#they make my mental illness worse i s2g. gay ass#kaname has a crush on tatsumi but wont bring himself to confess#but they hold hands and cuddle.#and then. the emotional damage. <3 hope you enjoy
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Everybody learns at their own pace everybody learns in their own time everybody everybody learns at the time best for them everybody-
#.txt#AGONIZING#the desire to improve right.this. second to unattainable degrees is crushing me oh nature cleooo#so many skilled artists and writers to be inspired from and motivated by#I REALIZE its like. all 20-smiths but I just love their stuff so much TT#and look. I still have to do my yearly america cringe post redraw and I’m excited BUT LAST YEAR I literally preferred the previous#and writing again and realizing I might have REGRESSED?!?!? from 2021?!?!? well maybe not BUT#its a tough lesson to learn that just because you age you don’t improve things you associate ur identity with if. you don’t. PRACTICE#like idk#anatomy not good enough#dialogue not good enough#not doing trends means less acknowledgement and that HURTS but I just don’t like making shit idc about it so it doesn’t feel worth it#going to college and realize it ur gonna have to stop being a kid and being ok with inadequacy#loving talking to fandom ppl but thinking oh ill never be as charismatic never be as interesting or as knowledgeable about history and#lighting#PEOPLE SHOULDNT COMPARE THEMSELVES TO THOSE 5+ YEARS OLDER bc DUH they’re gonna often be better#I just. havin a creative bump where it feels like ill never bring my ideas to as good fruitation as others can#well. um. yea if that’s about it. I’m gonna go plan for tomorrows usual week comic cuz I’m flying to England at 5pm and wont have time/bars#ill be in Europe for the next three weeks and I’m very excited#just feeling all around inadequate if cuz Europeans often judge you REALLY harsh when they find out your American#I just need to POWER THOUGH and have a good time and make the comics and write the stories I wanna write#cuz that’s all I can do and the only way to get better at walking is to walk the walk
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GETO SUGURU.
#i spent the whole hour trying to resist this man but i just couldn’t#i liked him in the manga before he defected but the anime did him so…#AHCK#LOOK AT HIM (moments before disaster)#THE WAY HIS GAZE SOFTENED WHEN RIKO CONFESSED THAT SHE WANTED TO STAY WITH EVERYONE A LITTLE LONGER#HOW SHE WASNT READY FOR ASSIMILATION#JEALOUSY IS A DISEASE#RIKO MOVE THATS MY MAN#i just cant deal with him#he was such…a nice guy#if i knew him irl i’d have a massive crush on him ngl#additionally throughout the show he was always so concerned for satoru#expressing his concern when satoru has been using his technique nonstop whilst guarding amanai#and when haibara asks what treats should he bring home and he answers sweets bc it’s what satoru likes im having a breakdown#he’s so boyfriend#i love him so much it hurts to see how the tiredness in his eyes took over after what happened FUCK YOU TOJI FUSHIGURO#logically i’m not blaming anyone other than toji for what happened but some petty side of me wants to stir fry the shit out of gojo satoru#bc how the fuck did you not notice that geto was slowly losing and YOU CALL YOURSELF A BESTFRIEND YOU B—#im kidding ok might’ve been geto too bc he wasn’t open abt it#also damn yuki for that peptalk bc my poor mentally ill man wasn’t registering shit right#his slow spiral into insanity is one of the best written antagonizations i have ever read/seen and it will forever break my heart#jjk#toff.txt#🎬;jjk
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she’s got a boyfriend she’s had since 2019 and she may not even like other genders other than males, so i don’t expect the feelings to be returned nor expect anything from her nor do i plan to say anything, but i sigh thinking about her bc she’s very cute lol
#tfw you have a work crush.#not the best thing to have LOL work crushes dont generally work out Anyway#and#these arent just the feelings i experience abt her i def have romantic feelings#but its always uplifting to see her in the midst of the chaos that is working retail#and while we work separate jobs - she’s online shopping i do stocking shelves#its just a relief to talk to her. she’s a breath of fresh air and even when we’re both frustratedbwith work#she’s always saying hi in such a genuine chipper and welcoming way haha#and when i shared the treats i made with her today as i was sharing them with other coworkers#and asked her if she’d be interested in trying any#as soon as i brought them to her she popped one in her mouth and gave compliments about it lol#but the way she grabbed one and quickly had at it was very funny and endearing/cute#and the compliments were sweet#i never expect anything to happen with this crush but hey. feelings of a crush always bring me just a little bit of joy at least#so im content to just admire!#which i usually do with crushes anyway because i have a hard time admitting feelings/confessing a crush#rejection is hard on me even though i accept & expect feelings to be unrequited#so i tend to admire til someone else makes the first step#but anyway. im just happy she exists. shes very sweet and i wish good things for her#maybe one day ill at least muster up the courage to ask if she wants to hang out outside of work or if she’d like to play a game together#sometime#i know she at least plays stardew so i think id be able to ask that#or lead into asking what other games she likes#ANYWAY.#i probably wont make another post specifically about her like this#even rbs will probably just be general vibes i like to post her#here#but in case i do#myosotis tag.
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#finishes a happy show abt love by uncontrollably sobbing because imso fundamentally broken and past the point of being fixed that i cannot#love and receive love and dont feel at all deserving of even doing so#i cant trust fhat people love me itll always be in the back of my mind that its fake that its all a lie i cant accept that anybody could#believing that the only way someone could love me is if they were manipulated into doing so and imholding someone captive with the brutality#of who i am. i wish love made me sweet ans gentle and kind#its like ive locked away all thelove i have in a box but its rotting away and irs making that box heavy ans idk if i can carry it anymore#nevermind someone else. i dont want to crush ppl and suffocate them and yet its all ive ever been able to do#one day iwill find acceptance in being undeserving of it all but for now ill just continue to want and long and yearn#i hate desiring what i cannot have. i wish i was being hyperbolic. i wish i could just say its an episodebut i cant#ivelocked myself so far away out of reach that i dont think i coukd bring it back even if i desperately wanted to#it would be better if i had no love to give but its not true. i have so much love to give but no one id want to subject to carrying it#ishould sleep#anyway ghe show was nice before igot in my own head
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Does anyone else feel like a strange sense of bittersweet nostalgia for previous F/Os that you no longer see as an F/O (for any reason)? Kinda like a sense of longing for what was, but the feelings just aren't there anymore or have changed to something else.
#self ship#like im missing tp!l.ink and m.idna and s.ans as my f/os#but i just cant bring back any of those old feelings from back then#the spark is gone and the flame is extinguished#l.ink and m.idna are ppl i just cant ever see myself with despite how important they and their source are to me#i love them dearly but not in a romantic or queerplatonic or any other sense#and s.ans is someone that makes me feel very awful things whenever i think abt the time i had a crush on his character#i cant enjoy u.ndertale in the same way i did as a 14 yr old and ill never be able to again#it was bad for me and it was very bad for those around me#sry if this got venty#i have a lot of mixed feelings atm lol /lh
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the way i could get So much done and draw so many things i've wanted to for a while now with the amount of time i spend just waiting for my next assignment If It Were Not for my friend sitting right there next to me. i may be working on being more shameless and besides she and this other guy from our class in this same internship have drawn yaoi right out in the open before but like. well what do i have to lose anyways (a lot) (she's really cool in general and i need to maintain my Normal Person image between her and our other classmates) (one of the first few good friends ive made in years but not that close enough just yet that i can really be Too open) (i cannot stress enough that shes a rly big midorip and should she ever find out this side of me i might as well go and transfer again)
#i had debated whether or not i had a crush on her for a while but i realized that i indeed have no such feelings#but i still think shes a rly neat friend im glad to have made#but ill gladly bring this part of me to the grave!!!!! no need for her to know im insane abt her fav and this one other guy#duck rants about something
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unrequited queer crush got me turning into gomez addams. im frightened!
#why am i#drying a red rose i delicately tied w black ribbon in my closet#for a girl who does not text me#why do i see her in poetry and art#and in music and i keep seeing more and more music#i cant just Have A Crush#i have to get a little goth a little intense a little Too romantic with it#why are my only modes You're Too Cool To Befriend or I'm Hopelessly Devoted and i can have both running simultaneously#god i gotta bring her to see nosferatu#get vampiric with it#if she doesnt Like Me ill live i just gotta be crazy about the potential first
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which could and does mean nothing but what if it meant something
#🍞#my crush’s birth date is mine but with the last digit of the year and first of the day switched#maybe worth bringing to his attention since a lot of his friends are into astrology#and he at least believes in the scottish play thing#probably ill just write a song about it or smth
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URGENT!!!Help Abdul Salam Al-Anqar and his family get through this war in Gaza!!!
(URGENT) THEY ARE AT €3,445 OUT OF €50,000 GOAL
I was asked by @nader5555 to make this, if u cannot donate please please share this post. Copy pasted from a message i was sent:
"Only a Few Hours Left Before We Enter Our First Year of War, Genocide, Starvation, and Displacement A Final Plea from the Heart of Hell: Save Us Before Hope Dies 💔🔥 I am Abdel Salam, and I have nothing left but words written by a trembling hand ✍️. The war has not only destroyed our lives; it has taken everything from us. Our home, which was once our refuge, is now a pile of rubble 🏚️.
My car, my only source of livelihood, was destroyed in a sudden strike 🚗, and the work that sustained us is now a distant memory 💼. Today, I live in an endless nightmare. Under a sun that burns everything in its path 🌞🔥, my family and I sit in a worn-out tent, a tent that shields us neither from the summer heat nor the winter cold ❄️. Insects 🦟 invade the place, diseases consume our bodies 🩺, and my younger siblings cry from hunger and thirst 🍞💧. We have no clean water or a crumb of bread to ease our hunger. Each passing day deepens the weight of this hell we live in.
My Daughter Eman is Dying from Malnutrition 😨 My daughter Eman suffers from malnutrition; I have nothing to feed or treat her with. The deterioration of her health is killing me slowly. Every glance in her eyes, every pain she endures, crushes my heart 💔. How can I explain to her that what was once our hope has now turned into nothing but a mirage? The Night Only Adds to Our Pain 🌙 The night does not bring us rest; it only adds to our pain. We sleep on hard ground, feeling the cold in every bone of our bodies 🥶, with nothing but pieces of cardboard 📦 to cover us. My wife Aya cries in silence 🥺 as she watches our daughter’s future fade before her eyes. My mother Eman suffers from illness and needs urgent medical care 🩺💊.
My Father Ahmed is Sick with Cancer and Needs Emergency Treatment My father Ahmed, who is sick with cancer, needs emergency treatment outside Gaza, and the cost of his treatment is at least $10,000, not including accommodation. As he suffers from severe pain, I cannot provide the treatment he needs due to our dire situation.
My Siblings Are in Constant Suffering ⚰️ My brother Omar was unable to continue his studies due to the situation. My brother Nader could not take his high school exams, and my younger brother Mohammad suffers from brittle bones and needs treatment we cannot afford. Every day we live brings us one step closer to the end. Death surrounds us from every side: if not from hunger 🍽️, then from illness 🦠. And if not from illness, then from the despair that devours our souls. Where is Humanity? Where is the World? 🌍💔 We want to leave the devastated Gaza Strip to escape the machinery of destruction and killing and the severity of hunger and poverty. The cost of travel for each person is $5,000, and we are a family of seven members, bringing the total cost to $35,000.
Where are the compassionate hearts? Are you waiting for us to disappear into the depths of this suffering? Are you waiting until death takes us before you act? We are drowning, and we don’t have enough strength to scream for help 🆘. Will you let this cry go unanswered? 😭 Your donation today is our last thread of hope. With the little support I received, I was able to buy a simple phone 📱 to reach out to you. But the bitter truth is that what I and my family need is much greater. We are not asking for much; just enough to save our lives from this hell 🔥. Every donation, no matter how small, could be the difference between life and death for us 👐. Don’t Let Us Disappear in the Darkness of Suffering 🌑 Don’t let our story end here. Be the light that guides us to salvation 🕯️✨.
With every tear, with every pain, I write this final plea to you, Abdel Salam."
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