#BIG SAD QAQ

[tate-lin]

The best thing about Reo is that this l'il grape is a billionaire's son, heir apparent to one of the biggest, if not the biggest, corporation in Japan, is at the top of his class, physically talented, popular, can date anyone no sweat...

And yet he still chooses to spend a large chunk of his free, precious time being a lazy slacker's malewife 🤡

Like, seriously. And as can be seen here, he's really fucking good at it too

He gives Nagi piggybacks and massages, bikes him to and from school, buys stuff for him, always check up on and worry after him... He dotes on him so freaking much, and the hilarious thing is—

It's because he does all of this that we can truly see that he's his parents' son

And as his parents' son, he fell into the same pitfall as they did too

Reo gave Nagi everything but it still wasn't enough

[springsheep]

Meet You At The Blossom Notes Ep. 3 - 4

Ep 3 -> Jin Xiaobao: Hmph, Prince Shen is so evil

Xiaobao's sister's past: she is an orphan of the Xue family. Her bro is Xue Lianyu, Xiaobao's friend who was killed. Ahhh young Xiaoyu is so cuteeee

Xiaobao as an older brother is so cutee I also want one QAQ

Xiaobao: I really like you with all my heart~~

Huai En: You're a big man, don't you have any sense of shame?!?!

Xiaobao: How can you say I'm shameless? I think that night you were quite shameless hehe

Huai En: *puts his hand lovingly in Huai En's neck*

JIN XIAOBAO KISSED HUAI EN'S CHEEK AAAAAAH

Huai En: badump, badump,

Xiaobao sneaking into Huai En's room, Huai En is right behind him lololol

Jin Xiaobao uses muscle relaxing powder on Huai En, sees Huai En's wounds and is super distressed. Huai En is falling in love lol.

Jin Xiaobao's flirting tricks: Wow, Huai En, your heartbeat sounds so nice!

Huai En is soo pretty when he smilesssssss

Omggggg they did it againnnnnn aaaaah so romantic tsk tsk.

*kicking screaming laughing* Huai En used his internal energy to push Xiaobao down again and again, laughed at Xiaobao's attempts to get up.

Xiaobao: *mesmerized by Huai En's smile*

Huai En: *realizes*

Right Shadow: *tells Huai En about Su Yin's relationship with Jin Xiaobao*

Huai En: Jealous.jpg

Xiaobao has a fever, Huai En's helping him. Huai En feeding Xiaobao medicine. Laughing at Xiaobao hehe

Xiaobao's dad is sick, Huai En sees how sad Xiao ai is and helps Xiaobao's dad (Huai En baby boiiiii)

Ep 4 -> Xiaobao looks lovingly at Huai En hehe

Huai En: Why were you all so sad last night?

Huai En talks about his parents and his father's need for revenge.

Jin Xiaobao: I'll protect you! I swear I won't let you suffer even a little bit! If your father won't feel sorry for you, I'll feel sorry (hurt) on your behalf!

Jin Xiaobao: There's nothing money can't solve in this world, and I Jin Xiaobao happen to have a lot of money!

Huai En dreams he's falling down the cliff and Jin Xiaobao grabs his hand (to save him).

"Last Two Brain Cells Duo" falling asleep in front of Xiaobao's room lol. Huai En saves Xiaobao from the assassins.

Xiaobao made a couple's hair tie for Huai En (made in Jingxiu House).

Xiaobao: I want you to accompany me to Yuxia, pleaseee

Huai En: What's our relationship?

Huai En looks at the hair tie ehehe

Xiaobao: I knew you wouldn't let me get in danger.

Huai En holding Xiaobao's hand aaaaaa

Xiaobao: Does this count as... Us eloping?

Huai En: You promised to help me take care of my dad, I'll accompany you to Yuxia

Xiaobao: I'll even give you the moonlight if you want

Huaibai sleeping side by side while holding hands and transferring internal energy aaaaaaahhhhhh so sweet

Huai En carving something on wood. Xiaobao holding Huai En. Xiaobao looking at a pretty lady, and Huai En is jealous bahahaha

I need modern!au of huaibao hehehe

Huai En: What is our relationship?

Xiaobao: You have to make it clear today, do you like me???

Huai En: Like you?

Xiaobao: *sulks*

Fuck the lonely life of a single dogggggg

Huai En: But we're both men!

Xiaobao: It doesn't matter, as long as I like you, right?

Huai En: I really don't know what love is. But I can promise you, I won't treat others the same way I treat you. If I really must love someone, that person definitely had to be you.

Xiaobao: You don't know what love is, it's okay. I'll teach you.

Awwwww Xiaobao hugged Huai En.

Huai En remembers his dad's words: Don't dream about useless things you don't deserve. You can't escape me.

Huai En: Then... You can't lie to me.

Xiaobao looks at other girl's and Huai En is jealous lololol

I need modern!au where playboy Xiaobao falls for Mafia boss Huai En and Huai En falls harder later on muahahhahaa

Xiaobao is already planning their future.

Huaibao in a cave.

Huai En's scars are revealed, Xiaobao is upset.

Jin Xiaobao: I'll protect you from now on.

Huai En: Do you really want to be with me forever?

Xiaobao: Of course! Ever since I met you, I only have you.

Huai En: Jin Xiaobao, listen carefully, if you really want to be with me forever, then you can't go back on your words. You can't have improper thoughts about others.

Huai En: 之后，不管是上天还是入地你都只能由我一个。

Huai En: Not even a glance!

Fuck there's an assassin!!

[sleepyivoryrose]

creative break is over!

yeah...sometimes I don’t have any energy to work on creative stuff...but now I’m back baby! And I got soo many ideas for videogames! Sadly, I’m bad at programming. But hey, nothing a good tutorial can’t fix, right? With...exceptions - looking suspiciously at Blender - 

Seriously, it’s so difficult to get into that...I tried doing step by step what the tutorial said and it still somehow didn’t work...anyways, I’ll try my luck with 2D Unity! Maybe, if I can get better at hand-drawn animations, I won’t need a 3D tool!

One of the ideas is a .hack//- pokemon crossover game in the style of Gold and Silver. With Pokemon Essentials, because I can’t mod a romhack to save my life. I think the trainer sprites will be the most difficult to create, since i am not used to pixel such small pictures with so little detail...the map itself could prove a challenge, because I have to resize the tiles small and then big again. 

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To change the subject, I watched again a Let’s Play from 13 Sentinels and GOD I LOVE HIJIYAMA x OKINO QAQ They’re so cute together, I just can’t! fhsdiofhd

So I tried also drawing Hijiyama from 2188, but it proves more difficult than I thought. I just don’t have good observation skills, and I’m not sure if you can learn that...I drew him six or seven times, but I guess that’s not enough. I won’t give up though. On the fun side, I created a Hijiyama Chibi that looks like a muppet which I thought looked weird. In a good way. 

He’s so fun to lampshade. 

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On the other hand, I got the feeling I am very mopy these last months. A real downer. Which isn’t good, because my close friend is also very sad and I don’t want to burden her with my own sadness, yknow? I should be cheering her up! But I suppose sometimes you can’t just up and decide how you want to feel today. I want to snap out of it so badly though. It doesn’t help me in any way to be down in the dumps, and it doesn’t help others either. It’s just stupid. 

My therapist claims though that it’s important to feel your feelings, no matter how bad they are, because else you train your body to feel nothing which leads to emotional outbursts, which sucks even more. I can’t win, huh?

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Oh! I started to watch Oshi no Ko, even though I told myself I wouldn’t, because of its dark themes. I mean, I was spoiled, so it wasn’t as bad as going in completely blind, but the first episodes ending was still a tearjerker. What can I say? I can’t resist a colorful premise. It doesn’t help that one of the protagonists is really cute too. It’s Madoka Magica all over again. 

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I gotta go now though. Nothing necessarily special happened while I was gone, I just bingewatched 13 Sentinels and drowned a little bit in feels. I don’t want to sound creepy, but, that’s why I love fiction. Because it makes you feel things. My reality doesn’t quite manage that. Maybe I just got too high standards. Maybe Oshi no Ko is right, and love is made out of lies. Who knows. 

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Anyways, taking off! 

[voliyu]

An Interview with Fu Hua's CV( Miss Mace )

Mace, a seiyuu of HI3 V4.6"Unequaled Unrivaled" , has a variety of different styles of voice, and is well known by the majority of captains as the seiyuu of the popular character Fu Hua in "Honkai Impact 3". 

"I like dubbing, food, sleeping and posting beautiful girls, and I also do some modeling work and live streaming."

Seiyuu: Fu Hua (HI3rd) Fischl , Albedo (GI)

Hello everyone, this is Moonlight Sauce.  Recently, the animated short film "Duchen"(Shattered Samsara) was launched, and Fu Hua will also celebrate hers birthday next week. We are honored to invite the class monitor’s voice actress to be our guest again. Let us applaud~Teacher Ma!

*Hello everyone, I am Mace or you can call me teacher Ma or Little Ma~*

Q: I heard that Teacher Ma is a veteran member of voice acting. Why did you think about becoming a voice actor?

Mace: It was probably when I was at school, the teacher praised me for reading the text well, hahaha, and then I have been a in small broadcasting at the school radio station hahahahahaha.  Later, at the age of thirteen or fourteen, I loved reading novels, and listened to radio dramas. Finally, I wanted to try online dubbing by myself~ I met some seniors and friends on the Internet. After graduating from high school, I was called to audition by Laiqi, whom I met by chance, just like this, slowly embarked on the road of voice actors~

Q: It's great to be able to fulfill your childhood dreams!

Q: Speaking of which, the captains of Honkai 3 would have known Teacher Ma through Fu Hua, so how did you get this role in the first place?

Mace: Each role is determined through auditions~ It may be that the voice is more suitable (maybe luck), in short, I am very grateful to the project team for choosing me TAT. I seemed to be still in my sophomore year. A very young newcomer, thank you Ah Fu for accompanying me to grow up over the years.

Q: Although Fu Hua version 2.0 was officially installed, the 1.1 version chronicles chapter Xuanyuan sword you has already appeared in the game, and she can be regarded as an official playable character. Has Teacher Ma any particularly impressive lines in the past four years?

Mace: "Major Himeko, let me guide the task this time" is the first Fu Hua's voice recorded during the audition. This is the first time I know her!

Q: As Fu Hua’s voice actress, does Teacher Ma have any views on the character?

Mace: When I first met Fu Hua, everyone and i had similar impressions of her, a little dull, serious and very reliable.  But afterwards, the feelings for Fu Hua became more and more complicated. In the honkai world, she was firm and strong. As long as she was there, we would feel at ease; but all her friends would always leave her, and the memories would be needed give up in order to stay awake.  She is an immortal who exists only for guardianship, she hardly reveals her own thoughts, and rarely has contact with others.  As one of her few friends, the captain naturally feels very distressed TAT

Q: You really speaks out for all the captains.

Q: Regarding the Herrscher of Sentience, everyone seems to treat her as an independent character different from Fu Hua. What does Teacher Ma think of her?

Mace: In the script, when we first saw the herrscher, it was the beginning of Chapter 20. At that time, she hadn't become the herrscher of Sentience yet. The impression of her should be strange: what she did is very different from that of Fu Hua, but she feels herself is Fu Hua.  Now I think she is a child, with a very cute side, she firmly believe that what she do is right, and she also hope that others will admit that she is a good person. I really like her self-confidence and easygoing~

Q: If you think about it carefully, there was a big difference between the tone of the Herrscher of Sentience and Fu Hua. Has Teacher Ma encountered any difficulties during the dubbing process?

Mace: The most recent challenge should be the combat voice of the HoS. In addition to the weapon box, she has a total of four weapons. Each weapon has basic attack combos and branch attacks. The basic attack combos of several weapons are probably separate.  Under 6-8, we will give 3 versions as alternatives or replacements for every breath.  It's very difficult, the combination of prefixes is too difficult to think about! We have used most of the ones that can be used. It is not surprising that it is not easy to think of something new.

Q: Teacher Ma is also a veteran captain. Do you have any stories you like or impress?

Mace: If it is only to Fu Hua, it would be the farewell of Fuxi and Nuwa. At that time, I really felt sorry for her TAT.

Mace: If it's other character relates to Fu Hua, it’s definitely the last lesson. When dubbing, there is a sense of immersive feeling: "Major Himeko, gratitude for your lessons. Perhaps fate will let our paths cross again in the future..."

Q: Mihoyo is really good at breaking our hearts.

Q: Teacher Ma often uses Fu hua characters when playing HI3, right? Which battle suit do you like best?

Mace: Shadow knight~ When I was very very playing the game so hard(and also very good at the same time), she made me feel as if I might not be so good!

( I'm invincible now )

Q: Fu Hua's long life can be divided into several stages. Which period does Teacher Ma like best?

Mace: In the previou era, she had made good friends, she had noodles.  She was happy and free during that time.  There was no honkai, no sacrifice, no mission, and it’s great to be able to joking with friends easily and be an ordinary girl.

Q: Regarding the recently launched animated short film "Duchen"(Shattered Samsara), many captains were emotional after watching it. Does Miss, Ma have similar feelings?

Mace: Kiana has grown up, I'm so happy to see Fu Hua's journeys along the way, Also I was happy and sad and plus with Rubia song, QAQ crying~~~~ I'm so fortunate to participate in such an excellent work.

Q: The last part is still the usual question: If there is a chance to cross Fu Hua's side, what era would Teacher Ma want to go to and what would you want to say to Fu Hua?

Mace: I would say, after the little book die?  But after thinking about it, it doesn't matter. I want to say something to her and stay with her for a while. I don’t know when I would leave her again. It’s too cruel... It’s also good to know her in Hyperion as a captain. I don’t know where our story will go, but I Will always love her.

Q: The story of Fu Hua and the Herrscher of Sentience has come to conclusions here, Teacher Ma, could you give some blessings words for them please~

Mace: I hope Ah Fu is healthy, happy, and spends more time taking care of herself; I hope my little herrscher can resist the honkai and be recognized by everyone, and mommy loves you!  No matter where you go, you have your place on my bridge!

Q: The interview is coming to an end. Is there anything Teacher Ma wants to say to everyone?

Mace: Thank you everyone for loving and supporting Ah Fu, and Little Ma~ I wish you Happy Chinese New Year every one!

(it's not 100% accurate but hope you enjoy~)

[amenomiko]

The IkeSen Guys to A Crying Baby (Not Theirs)

Nobunaga: .............Don't cry. You are a big boy.

Hideyoshi: But My lord, it's only a baby.

Nobunaga: No, Hideyoshi. Even if it's still a baby, he must man up.

Hideyoshi: Uhh...

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Hideyoshi: Oooh there there..! *Carries the baby to sooth the cries* (As expected of our Mama Hen)

Mitsuhide: Congratulations to everyone's mother ( ͡^ ͜ʖ ͡^) 👏

Hideyoshi: Be quiet OAO!

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Masamune: Hmmm~~ usually people will make funny faces. Oh. I know. Boo! *Lifts his eye patch and the baby froze completely.*

Ieyasu: What in the Wasabi eyeballs- Masamune-san, what the f-

Hideyoshi: Hey. Not in front of the baby (☉д⊙)!

Ieyasu: F......Flowers in the field.

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Mitsuhide: ( ͡^ ͜ʖ ͡^)...............

Baby: *Tired from crying and fell asleep*

Mitsuhide: My, that was tiring indeed.

Hideyoshi: ಠ_ಠ...

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Ieyasu: .........

Baby: 😭😭😭😭😭

Ieyasu:

Ieyasu: *Disappear Into the Air no Jutsu*

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Mitsunari: Oh no oh no (´；д；`)

Baby: EEEHHEEEE QAQQQ

Mitsunari: Ahhh what should I doooo QAQ

Both: 😭😭😭😭😭😭

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Kenshin: *Staaarrreeee*

Baby: 😭😭😭😭😭😭

Kenshin: *Slide the door open* Enter.

Bunnies: *Swarm all over the baby* (´・ｪ・｀)

Baby: 😭😭😭😭😳 *Stop crying instantly*

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Shingen: Oh there there~~ are you hungry? *carries the baby to his chest*

Baby: 😭😭😭😭😭

Shingen: Look at me, dear baby. Look at my pleasant face, as it may sooth your sadness.

Also Shingen: *Got kicked on the face*

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Yukimura: Uhhhh---

Baby: 😭😭😭😭😭😭

Yukimura: I- I- I------

Yukimura: *Runs out from the room and brings back MC* MILK THE BABY- *Got slapped*

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Sasuke: (´・ｪ・｀) Oh dear.

Baby: 😭😭😭😭😭😭

Sasuke: Let's do this again. *Tied milk bottle on his chest but the baby kicked one of it away* Noooo my bewbiessss (´・д・｀)

MC, just arrived with the baby's mom: Sasuke what-

Baby's mom: ʕʘ̅͜ʘ̅ʔ...

[innocentsshounenjuujigun]

Aged Up AU romantic headcanons of Isabelle with a female MC? im just QAQ she's such an angel idk im Smitten

Yep yep!! o3o

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• Initially, Isabelle is a little hesitant to be romantic with another girl. Although she’s quickly realizing that she doesn’t have any personal feelings against it, old worries die hard, and she fears one or both of you getting in trouble for attempting it. It takes some convincing and reassurance for her to feel comfortable with the relationship— but that slow pace is for the better anyway. After all the trauma she’s been through, a gentle start to a relationship is healthier overall and very good for trust. 

• She’s a very gentle partner, and definitely the definition of “mom friend”. Isabelle is surprisingly stable, considering what she’s been through, and it comes as a bit of a surprise that she’s almost better at looking after you than the other way around. Whatever problems you have, Isabelle wants to help, and a big part of how she shows her love is being someone you can depend on. She wants to be a reliable figure in your life and give you the kind of stability and acceptance she always wished someone would give her. Isabelle’s “love language” is being there to support and care for you in whatever ways she can. 

• When it comes to her muteness, it’s a slow path to recovery. The source of it is absolutely trauma, so as she starts to relax and feel safe, Isabelle’s voice comes back little by little. It starts out as small words spoken very rarely, but slowly, she works up to sentences and speaking to you fairly regularly. For a long time, you’re the only person she’ll talk around— because you’re the only person that makes her feel safe. 

• And then there’s the matter of receiving affection. Isabelle is extremely awkward and uncomfortable with being taken care of or shown love. She’s fully expected to be the one doing all of that in any relationship, so having you treat her like your precious princess both flusters her horribly and comes close to being stressful. It doesn’t feel right to be spoiled in such a way. The sad part is that this “spoiling” has a very, very low bar. Even something as simple as rubbing her back when she’s stresses makes Isabelle feel like she could cry. No one’s ever been so sweet to her before, and she doesn’t know what to do in response. 

[ellovett]

list of people that made this year pretty neat :)

Hi all

Ok so 2020's almost ending (it just ended i started writing this post like....5 days ago??) and i just wanted to do this thing where i have a message towards everyone who supported me/who i think are just very cool and very epic, i only really got into the twst fandom just at the beginning of the year and im just gonna get straight to the point now messages are under the cut :)

@permanentlyexhaustedowl - AYAAAA ;;;;; bro you're literally one of my first long time friends here in the twst community and i just want to thank you for everything, our convos in either public servers or in pms, your love and support for my content,,or whenever i vent to you,,,,,just- your love and support man i appreciate it so much and i cannot thank you enough, you're just so sweet and caring and supportive and friendly just aghhhhhh ;;;;; even your reblogs make me smile uncontrollably and i explode, also all the brainrots i have about my interests ;;; thanks for listening to all of them,,even tho you really didnt have to ;;;;;; I love how we make our twst ocs interact and the little brainrots we have with them ;;; You've helped me so so so much and in so many ways, I am beyond glad that we're bestfriends, you're one of the nicest most caring people ive ever met and i love you so so so much, beyond belief ;; 💕 pls never stop being you?????? You quacking amazing person??????? 😎🤙💖💕💖💕💖💕💖💕💖💕💖💕💖💕💖💕

@shoujoqueensstuff - AYYYY SHOUJOOOO!!! 😎🤙🤙 hhhh you're also one of the first people ive ever had a long time friendship with here in the twst community, and seriously bitch i love you so much ;;; so so much..i cant go a day without talking to you about literally anything and just vibing, the support and love you've given me over these months is insane i cannot thank you enough for that, all of our rps, convos or just pure brainrot have been so much fun, and i fucking love it that we built our own little world outside of canon,,all the aus we built with our ocs???? I love them. I love them all to death, including your amazing ocs, and even tho we live on literally opposite sides of the world you're always there for me whenever i vent or when im feeling extremely down or insecure ;; ,,im just so so so happy and glad that i met you and that we're bestfriends, i care about you so so so so so much- hhhh i cant put it into words my brain is dying i just- i LOVE YOU BIITCH, I AINT NEVER GONNA STOP LOVING YOU, BITCH.😎💖💕💖🤙🤙💕💕💖💕 TAKE MY LOVE BITCH 💕💕💕💕💕 thank you so much for sticking around ;; i love you and support you in everything you do so much I could never ever thank you enough for the friendship you've given me..

I can literally go forever on how much i love and appreciate the both of you, i can just scream into the void for all eternity,,but i cant put it into words anymore. You both made my year so great and so epic ;;; i love you guys so much

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Now the chaddams 😌

@thetwstwildcard - hi ma :D you're just so cool and so epic lizz ;;; i cant- all of our conversations and brainrots have been super fun and i enjoy your company very much;;; you are just so nice and friendly,, and your ocs (especially staff ocs) are god tier amazing, i will love the nrc mom squad to death. I am honored to be ur child and i love you and father claude (and my four (?) other dads you married) very much 💕💕💕

@alpyssketch - bringer of father claude,,,,i owe you my life alpy,,,,,,but no seriously you're also a very epic person and you're honestly so nice and sweet!!! You never fail to make me feel welcome in any conversation and you're just so damn friendly!!! We may not talk that often but I very much enjoy your company ;;; ily!!! 💖💖💖

@multi-ankin - another very cool and epic person!!!! you're very fun to talk to and you're also pretty funny in the vc fjfjfj, your ocs are all so amazing too! (djdjjd although my staff oc bias makes me go for kas) we should totally talk and make our ocs interact more in the future tho!!!!!! 💖💖

@just-patchy - pATCHYYY!!!! :D hi!!!! you're also a very cool person!! our interactions have been so much fun and i hope we can have more in the future ;;; the ideas you have for your ocs and how you put them into writing is so good!!! like really good!!! And your art has been greatly improving too!!! Never ever think that i dont see you as a friend because i do!! 😤😤💖💖 i care about you bro!! Never forget that!!

@bakujho - :D hi jho!! you're a lot of fun! And I THINK YOU ARE SO DAMN COOL AND BADASS it's unbelievable,,i look up to you jho i wish i could be almost as cool as you when i grow up ;;; the things you've done for this fandom are also very admirable! like the whole gravedigging (jellyfish) situation! But we're not gonna talk about it now- hhhhh you're just so epic jho ;;; seriously 💗💗

@Kurui - hhhhh you're probably not gonna see this ;;; and i cant find your tumblr (if any of the other chaddams could possibly show this to her thatd be so great ;;;) but nonetheless i still think you're just so fun and cursed ;;; and you give so many amazing ideas!!! Your ocs are all also so cool too! Your art is just so detailed you clearly put a lot of thought into them i just admire that sm ;; (also your edits are extremely cursed and epic i love them dearly-)

@twst-the-royals - JULIE :))) HELLO,,,you were actually the first ever person i spoke/interacted with in the fandom! And you were just so nice and friendly and patient with me ;;; im glad that i got to talk to you,,and we dont really talk that much now but pls pls PLEASE know that i care about you so much and that i support you in everything you do ;;; 💖💖💗💖 ill do my best to make you proud!!

@girl-in-the-tower - hey Az!!! ;;;; you're so epic and cool,,honestly i admire you so much, the lore/writing you have for your ocs/fanschools are just so well thought out and so well written ;;; i hope to become a better writer like you in the future, but for now ill just take notes and learn from you ;; you're super encouraging and supportive too!!! I know we dont talk much but i could never thank you enough for all those little yet meaningful moments ;;; 💖💖

@rikanoctrix and @mirrored-pomefiore - hi!!! i know we arent that close but just know that you two are huge inspirations for me when it comes to art, the both of you draw your styles so incredibly well and i admire that so so so much ;;; 💖

@ocean-water-tea - FATHER TEAAAAA QAQ okay so first of all,,,,how can you draw so well using ibispaint, i ask for tips, specifically on how to draw hair and tits 🤲 but seriously though you are so fun to talk to!!! So cursed!!! So ☊⊑⏃⍜⏁⟟☊!!! You encourage me to my true cryptid self (despite aya's protests 👀) and i thank you kindly,,,you are also very funny 😌 a funny little clown simp, and you're super friendly and cheerful too! I almost never feel nervous when reaching out to you ;;; I hope we can have more wacky adventures in the future 💖💖

@zonamemoryverse - HEYYY ZONAAA!!! you're a fairly new person and you've already come so far ;;; you're a very chaotic person to talk to and i enjoy all of our conversations!!! Also our interactions with our ocs were super fun too, and i love hearing any shred of content i can get from ur epic ocs,,,dont stop being epic!!! 💖💖

@namelessfish - Hi fish!!! :DD you've been a very supportive friend to me over these past few months,,and im happy i have someone i can relate my not-so-great experiences with ;;; please know that i care about you dearly and that ily ;; 💖💖💖💖

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@wondersbeyondcompare - JFFJJF BRO DONT THINK I DONT SEE YOU WHENEVER YOU REBLOG MY CRINGY ASS POSTS 👁👁 I SEE THEM AND I CHERISH THEM ALL I REREAD THEM ON SAD DAYS. All the little tags and comments you put on them always make me smile so hard ;;; im just very happy to know that you like whatever the hell im doing and it pushes me to do more!! You're incredibly sweet, dont worry!!! Ill be sure to make you proud!!!! 😭💖💖💖

@circuscarnage - Anna!!!! We dont talk that often but whenever we do it's always so much fun ;;; you're so sweet and i appreciate you so much ;; all the stuff you drew for my ocs are all so incredibly cute and i really have to give back- jUST YOU WAIT ANNA. IM GONNA MAKE FANART OF YOUR LOVELY OCS AND YOU CANT STOP ME- 💖💖💖💖

@twistedapple - hi crow!! :DD again we dont really talk that much but i support you greatly in everything you do!!! You're another epic and cool writer ;;; your writings for your ocs are just sooooo well written and are just so good!! You're also super good at art too!! And i hope to see more from you in the future!!! ;;; 💖💖💖💖

@not-twst-enough - Ellie!!!! ;;; bro you've been supporting me from the very start, from lillet's old ass bio to now, and i very much appreciate it!!!! You're also super friendly in the twst server too ;;; and all the content you have for your ocs is just so exciting! Good luck with the fandorm and all future stuff ;;; ily!!!! 💖💖💖

@fumikomiyasaki - FUMI. DONT THINK I DIDNT FORGET YOU DKDKDK,,,Another cool and amazing person!!! All our brainrots and conversations have been really fun ;;;; thank u for that,, You are very fun person to interact ocs with tho!!! Especially with ships!! MadScientist² will forever hold a place in my heart.,,,💖💖💖

@oiseaunoir11 - hey Al!! :) you were one of the many people i admired and looked up to when i first joined the fandom, your art is something im deeply inspired by and your shitposts at like...4 am in the morning always give me the big funny,,one thing i really admire about ur art tho is how you'd draw backgrounds :0 you've gotten so good at them!! And your poses look super natural and effortless, i hope to be almost of a better artist like you 🙇‍♀️🙇‍♂️ also i cant wait to see ur animatics 👀 they look dope- hope we can talk or maybe even interact ocs more! 💖💖

@leonasbitties - luuuu :))) hiiii,,,we dont usually talk on servers that often but that doesnt mean that i dont consider you as a friend! You have a lot of super cool ideas for ocs and your art is just getting better and better and better with each piece!!!! i look forward to seeing more from you ;;; 💖💖💖

@peteza-mozzarella - PETEEE :DDD another very cool and friendly person, you're literally the sweetest person ive ever talked to and i love our little chats!!! Hhhh you're just super nice and your ocs are super cute,,please never stop being you you epic bean ;;;; 💖💖💖💖

@the27th - Hi Andhra!!!!! You've been quite the long time mutual,,and your reblogs always make my day ;;; you're just so sweet and kind and i always feel at ease when talking to you, the hunger games sessions you host are always super fun even though im often asleep to even participate 😂 thank you sm for the love and support ;;; ill be sure to give them all back to you 💖💖 starting now 💗💗💗💗💗

@mamushroomoracorn - MAMUSH :DD we've only really started talking recently but you're just so nice and friendly ;;;; all of our talks have been so wholesome and great and im so happy about that, and your art is really really really good!! Ur art style is just so unique and so cool!!! ;;;; and dw mamush,, ill show the froggies like i promised soon 😔💖💖💖

@rookvonhunt - HEYYYY 👉😎👉 hi hello i would die for your ocs. If theyd ask me to perish then i will 200%,,ur so epic and cool and all of your ocs are just god-tier, i cant wait for what else you have to offer!!!! 💖💖

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@lawlessofdusk - lawless ;;;; aaaaa honestly you're just so kind and sweet, i couldnt thank you enough for all the love and support you've given me!!! And i desperately need more content of ur ocs bc they're all so cool and interesting 😤😤😤💖💖💖 i hope to talk to you more soon!!!!

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Fkfjfjfj i think that's all!! Id like to thank you all for sticking around with me with my first year in the fandom ;;; you guys make all the bullshit and drama here worth it 💖💖💖

If i forgot to include you in here then PLEASE DM ME I AM SO SORRY-!!!! I dont want to leave anyone behind!!! So please feel free to confront me about it ;;; happy new year everyone!!!!

[fnaf-sxc]

QAQ poor Grim and Frosty

Big sads for them ;;;;!

[hinabes]

A letter from the Food Fantasy writing team.

Source: xixi1226 on Lofter (They’re merely a relay, and so am I)

Touches on the writing of Food Fantasy as a whole and Black Forest Cake. Keep an open mind and be kind.

Only the parts specifically labeled as “TL note” is input by me (pretty sure there’s only one)

To all Master Attendants.

First of all, we may disappoint you, as we in the writing team are only responsible for the story, so we can't send out any in-game rewards. This is just the ramblings of some writing ladies.

Let's start with the past. Food Fantasy is almost 2 years old, and the writing team has been around for a long time as well.

From the bottom of our hearts, we know very well that our stories are mediocre, and very few members of the community actually read them.

At first, there were very few fan creations on Lofter, mostly inspired by the game arts. The first big burst in fanwork came from the haunted amusement park event.

When we saw the large amount (in our eyes) of fanworks, we were delighted.

That's right, we're lurking, watching from the shadows every day. Every! Day!

Though, due to work reasons and we've all got loose lips, we're not allowed to use our own accounts to like and comment on stuff.

Nonetheless, we're very thankful to everyone who comes to Lofter and uploads to the Food Fantasy tag!

To put it simply, a fanwork community like Lofter is built from all sorts of varying opinions, and that of course includes the dissatisfaction that some players have towards some characters.

As an author, our characters are like our children and seeing them hated, we can't deny that we're not saddened.

But of course, there must be a reason for a character to be hated.

A story, good or bad, must have an antagonist.

Whether people like or hate them, there's a reason for them to exist.

We created antagonists, besides out of necessity for the storyline, in hopes to show you a clearer Tierra, with all kinds of people with different points of view.

To be labeled an antagonist, these characters must have done some things unacceptable to the general public. They have their own stories to tell, and we would hate to claim any of them as completely innocent. The problem lies in something we hoped to doーーshow that bad people have pasts tooーーwe didn't do well enough.

This is our problem.

Be it because of a disliked ship or a character that's too grim.

We will use this experience and work even harder to write better characters and stories.

Once again, we thank everyone for putting your efforts into the tag, making your voices heard.

You've shown us, at the very least, that our efforts put into this or that character have been seen and that you're willing to voice out for them.

We take the time to read every single one of your posts. Perhaps putting it like that might make us seem egoistic.

Nevertheless, from the writing team, thank you!

We have seen lots and lots of the world of Tierra, it's not a pure world of only saints and innocents, it has a wide variety of characters.

The good, the bad, but no matter what, whatever anyone does is rooted in their own beliefs.

Such is the way in real life as well. Because of you, we have the motivation to push onwards.

At the same time, we wish that whatever negativity you have, you vent by enjoying the game, leaving the joy and happiness you have for reality. And that the game is able to release whatever pent up negativity you have from reality.

Thank you for voicing out your suggestions to us, and thank you for your love for the characters of Tierra!

From the bottoms of our hearts, we hope that the tag can thrive through the hard work of all of us, with more and more fan creations for everyone to look at. Because of your support, we have the courage to push onwards.

Thank you, everyone.

Formalities and heartfelt words done with, let's talk about things you're probably more interested in.

First off, we have seen everyone's dissatisfaction with Black Forest Cake.

Is she based off a certain unacceptable organization? Actually, no!

("You're wrong, I'm not!" Black Forest Cake yells)

The black forest cake is a famous German dessert that prides itself on its strict craftsmanship, maintaining its fame over its long history.

In Germany, if a patissier didn't make black forest cakes by the set recipe, such as swapping out ingredients and making it with vanilla sponge cake and strawberries instead and still selling it as "black forest cake", their shop would be swiftly shut down and the chef might even have to serve a term in prison, as the black forest cake is legally protected by the EU. (TL note: google "black forest cake protected status")

Compared to other desserts, the craftsmanship regulations for the black forest cake may be considered overly harsh. We've only seen Germans portrayed as strict on the internet as well. Combining these, we made Black Forest Cake a stickler for the rules.

Taking a step back, another factor is that when we were writing, we saw a lot of news reports about overbearing and manipulative parents, along with the stress and breakdowns of friends.

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Um… At first, Black Forest Cake was modeled after a child who grew up with overbearing parents, who in turn enforced too many unreasonable rules on her own children, which resulted in their pent-up stress bursting out on her. The parent in this situation would never back off and would think it's the child at fault.

We're so sorry… Everyone, you think too highly of us… We know far less about military history than some of you do, and we're nowhere near as good at making connections… To bring up bad feelings, we're really… sorry…

Regarding the design of her clothing, this is the image we brought up as a suggestion: A punkish dress with military vibes.

(Gets on knees and apologizes)

We're so sorry, it's completely our fault that we didn't take into more consideration everyone's ability to make connections! But it's true, we really didn't! We really didn't!!!

QAQ We love this world! We're not an evil, anti-human organization!!

Black Forest Cake out of the way, let's talk about more stuff you might be interested in, the stuff many of you approach support about.

Q: Do Food Souls have genders? A: Food Souls' bodies are modeled after humans'. They're whatever gender they believe themselves to be, Hotdog's gender is hotdog.

Q: Can Food Souls [CENSORED]? A: ………..Modeled after…humans… um…….. when two Food Souls love each other very much… ummmm if we say more our boss is gonna beat us, you get the idea, don't come asking anymore!!!! Please!!!! QAQ

Q: Is there true love between Food Souls? A: Depends. The bigger your heart is, the more space you have in there. As they say, the stage extends as far as the heart goes.

Q: Are XXX and XXX shipped? What's the relationship between XXX and XXX!! A: … We said stop asking!!! We're gonna killed by our toxic male boss!!!! Please, please, please just read the story and make more fanworks. We definitely will see them.

Q: How much do you check Lofter? A: I know nobody asked this question, but. Your creations on Lofter may just become the inspiration for our next story, each of us checks Lofter as often as 4 or 5 times a day at most. Thanks, pl0x, next question.

Q: Anything to say? A: Thank you, everyone! We love you! (づ￣ 3￣)づ

Lastly, we hope that we can all take on the world with an open mind, express ourselves better, bring joy to everyone else, and with a strong positivity we can better ourselves as people.

Thank you to each and every one of you who read this far! We will continue working hard and do our best to deliver you heartfelt stories, both sad ones that have you bawling your eyes out and sweet ones that give you toothaches. Loving you always, the writing team.

ーーThoughts after half a month of overtime 21 August 2019

[lady-byleth]

Oh boy those cheating ones are the worse. The moment I see cheating in the tags I went "Nope bye" (Read that Soap Opera style one once and went "Never again"). The ones that made me sad are the ones where Claudeth is established as having their love reciprocated but Azure Moon route political drama prevents them from being together for a while and both Byleth and Claude would be pining big time for each other. QAQ

See, that's cool! I love angst and star crossed lovers are my jam if done well!

Cheating? No. Gross. Miss me with that shit.

[capriciouskupo]

Super extra HQ closeup pictures of Hector, provided by me taking photographs of my big ol TV screen!

(IM STILL SAD ABOUT CHAINS HECTOR I AM GOING TO LEAP INTO THE TV AND TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ALL THE BADNESS!!!)

Also I wanna direct your attention to this:

LOOK!! Look AT HIS EYES!!! QAQ LOOKIT HIS EVERYTHING!! Such attention to DETAIL!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

IMMA SCREECH!!!!!!!

[kaijuzilla]

MOD Review: Jurassic World Fallen Kingdom

(Warning: This contain spoilers so please avoid spoilers if you haven’t seen the movie or play the game)

So Jurassic World Fallen Kingdom came out and my friend see this movie and he said “it’s guchi” and me watch the movie and it’s actually really good. But before me and my friend watch this he told me with that the movie is like The Lost World and I actually agree with him it is like Lost World! Hearing that blow my mind but then watching the movie it’s just so good. Also TBH everytime I watch Jurassic Park movie series I usually call out who’s gonna die in the movie which is kind of fun spotting who is gonna die in the movie. Each scene in the movie is really good and things I might remember (*gross sobbing*). 

And now for the story:

(Before getting to this this involves Site B which said that the Site B is gone and half of all dinosaurs on there are gone too even the Spinosaurus due to climate changes. Which all the Dinosaurs are transfer to the park.)

It start off with two guys in the submarine scavenging the Indominuis Rex skeleton in the Mosasaurs den which they got the sample and die from the Mosasaur. While the other team above with the helicopter got the sample and the engineer yellow jacket guy trying to close the den and calling the marine guys but as Rexy came he did the most dumbest thing. He screams and run instead of standing still or something but he manage to escape when he catch the ladder of the helicopter. But nope the Mosasaur comes in and eat the yellow jacket dude and he didn’t close the den making it able to escape. Meanwhile news is broadcast the island saying the volcano is gonna blow up and destroy the whole island and the dinosaurs too and people are protesting the government to save the dinosaurs which they are refusing. Which is where Jeff Golblum comes in and take his shirt off to show his sexy body to the audience (that didn’t happen sorry lol). JK he comes in to tell them that the dinosaurs also have rights to live because they’r here before us and this is their world to live in. Claire return to join her team to free the dinosaur alongside with a hacker dude and vet girl (i don’t know much their names so i just calling them Vet and Hacker). The tv bring news that government made new rule if anyone bring them here will be punish which is dumb cause there also flying lizard dinosaurs that can live (lucky dinos).

Claire got a call which bring good news as she visit John Hammonds friend or relative big house. (RIP Richard Attenborough) She is brought with good news that John friend Benjamin found an island where the dinosaurs can be free to roam on and call it home and his assistant Mills tell Claire that Blue is still alive and is the last of her species (RIP Echo, Charlie, and Delta) and she need someone who can get her back calm and nice with out force. This bring or show Maisie who is grandaughter of Benjamin daughter who die in a car crash which she tells her grandpa what her mom was like but he never told her yet. So she goes to Owen who is building a house (which good construction) and try to convince him to come and get Blue and all dinosaurs off the island but he refuse and tell her to let Blue die which shock her as she leaves. This cut to the scene where Owen in his RV watching old videos of him and the baby raptors which he miss them all so much so he he change his mind and decided to come along with the gang to get Blue back. They got to the island with some solider alongside to help out too as we get a heartwarming moment as Vet sees one (maybe) her favorite dinosaur the Brachiosarus (This bring me memories back to when I was like very young I always wanna see a dinosaur like real dinosaurs come to life). As Hacker got to one of the building vents he got the powers on and trackers of all dinosaurs located on the map. Owen, Vet, and some soldiers go to get Blue while Claire and Hacker stay and look at the map giving them information on Blue while soldiers are out there getting dinosaur. As that happening the volcano is getting active so they’re going fast as they can till Owen found Blue. During this the soldiers reveal their true colors which turns out they’re here for Blue for something else. 

As they tranq both Blue and Owen except one bullet in Blue body the Vet said she won’t live if she doesn’t get treated so she help them to bring Blue back to life as the Volcano began to act up shaking the island and unleashing lava. Owen laying on the ground and getting licked by a Pachyrhinosarus and escaping the lava by dragging his body away Claire and Hacker escape from the Baryonox (Not Rexy) out of the ladder tunnel door thing. This is when Owen runs to them yelling to run as a stampede of dinosaurs are running away from the volcano. The gang found a gyrosphere to get into but Owen didn’t get in when a Carnotaurus comes int to find something to eat before it dies but fights another dinosaur and got beaten by it. Rexy came in to stop the bull horn dinosaur to tel it to stop and just run away. As the Claire and Hacker are stuck in the gyrosphere in the water Owen came to get them out before they drown inside of it and Claire learn all of this is a lie and someone has betray them. But then seeing Rexy and the Baryonox carrying away they follow and seeing they’re getting their teeth and putting them in cages on the ship. As they got onto the ship as the volcano erupts they notice a cry in a distance as they lost the Brachiosarus who was running on the docks crying and begging to them to come back as it dies with the island making this scene actually sad.

As the Vet try to recover Blue wounds she ask them to get a blood doner which they turn to Rexy but Claire and Owen woke her up as they’re getting blood from her.  They got Blue the blood and the bullet out of her as to Maisie who discover the lab which show Owen with the raptors which she really likes and somewhat following what the raptors are doing. But learn that Mills is making a new hybrid call the Indoraptor which she was scared when seeing it and was lock in her room. Owen and Claire are on investigation to find out what they’re doing with the dinosaurs but was than caught and cage with the other dinosaurs and it turns out Mills is using this to get more money. As rich people came Mills kill Benjamin and Maisie escape her room finding out Mills kill her grandpa and seeing picture of her mom (I think). As dinos getting sells Owen and Claire escape with a help of a headbutting dinosaurs busting through the wall and cage too. But later meet Maisie who is sad that her grandpa pass away and show both Claire and Owen what Mills has made. Turns out the Indoraptor is only train and made for just killing if you have a lazer pointer to target at meaning this thing is just a murderous cat prototype. But as one of a familiar soldier tranq it in it’s cage and try to pull it’s teeth out he got his arm ripping off and this thing smiled as it was tricking him thinking it was asleep. Which than escape and kill 5 rich people and some soldiers too. When the gang try to escape Mills got frustrated and tell her that Maisie is actually Benjamin daughter brought back to life like the other dinosaurs till the Indoraptor came and killing the soldiers. This lead the Indoraptor to chase Owen, Claire, and Maisie the whole time which chase Maisie more. While thats happening Blue is feeling all better still cage up as both Hacker and Vet let Blue escape and kill the scientist who made the Indoraptor and 2 soldiers as three of them escape from the explosion but gas are being release to the cages which can kill the dinosaur if they don’t get out before the gas slowly kills them. We then learned that the Indoraptor can also open doors too as it creeping it’s long arms to Maisie but Owen come to shot it but trying to pretend it’s wounded it show that it’s kill is actually bulletproof as bullets just drop off the surface.  

Blue comes in to save the day instead which some how Blue kick the shit out of this hybrid ass out of the window which is like holy shit did Rexy have steroids in her blood when donated to Blue. Claire came back with the lazer pointer as it trick the Indoraptor be stuck on not strong glass as Blue jump on it and killing it with the Triceratops skill horns making it a cool death scene. But Vet and Hacker found them to tell them that the dinos are gonna die if they don’t open the gates which will let them all loose to the wild. Claire doesn’t want to like release them to the wild and let them die but Maisie decided no they deserve to live and open the gate which is good choice TBH. As dino escape and Mills got tear in half from Rexy and Carnotaurus Blue leave Owen saying “she doesn’t want to be held captive I want to be free”. After all that Jeff Golblum tell them all that everyone is welcome to Jurassic World meaning now all dinosaurs are now everywhere as Rexy broke into the lion cage meeting the present day King, Mosey about to eat some surfers, and Blue running and now free traveling the world now seeing what the world is like now. And also Owen and Claire now taking care of Maisie. 

So that’s JW Fallen Kingdom and I might give this one uhhh... 7.5/10

The movie is good and it might be better than the first Jurassic World. Even though this is like Lost World it still good and the characters are interesting and Jeff Golblum taking off his shirt cause it’s getting hot in the movie (JK again lol). One thing that got me like point down is some of the people are dumb to know what to do when they see a T Rex, They should have learn what they’re doing with hybrid dinosaurs, THEY LEFT BRACHY ALONE ON THE ISLAND QAQ BRACHY NOOOO, and not training the Indoraptor very well.

The new hybrid Indoraptor is very interesting which seeing it gave me some horror movie monster vibes and it’s personality like tricking it’s asleep and dead is like a smart move but training it to just kill with a lazer pointer is just dumb it can still kill you with out the lazer pointer! I know it’s just a prototype but geez some the people didn’t learn what happen to the Indominuis Rex.

What I can say about this movie is it’s really good and I like i. The characters are good, seeing Blue alive still is good, and just watching it still bring back memories like when I was a kid I want to see real dinosaurs and I have feel that what the movie like giving us like the feeling and nostalgia it has onto us and that poaching is bad again.

Welp that’s all I got to say but before I go~

WHAT CAN I SAY~ EXCEPT! YOU’RE WELCOME!

[nei-ning]

I first had a dream where I was in my old home and I had rescue and hide at least 2 cats in the attic (I knew dad would get super angry if he would find them. Tho I have a feeling there would had been 3-4 cats but 2 of them were hiding) and I had forgot them there for 21 days! QAQ I was in panic and went there but they seemed to be alright! There was one cat who was white with long fur but she was obviously not so okay since she kept walking from wall to wall, stopping to stare at the ceiling. I think she was looking for food or a way out. Then I had slightly grumpy / not impressed looking cat there too who was completely black. (black and white cats, Ying & Yang for sure is the meaning of them) I had 2 small empty suitcases there and I started to fill them with dry food and black cat came calmly to eat while I heard white cat asking with sad tone; “No wet food?” I think she had issues of eating hard food. I sadly didn’t had any wet food. I woke up feeling absolutely shitty and bad, tears rolling down on my cheeks. I love animals more than anything and want their well being so much so having a dream where I had forgot those cats and all made me feel horrible, bringing back thoughts and happenings / cats from the past. It made me cry even more. I regret so much the facts I have had most loveliest cats and they have end up dead a lot sooner than I wanted them to. Of course I feel I screwed up and didn’t take good care of them, causing them way too early death. Especially I regret Goku’s faith. He was fully black thin little boy kitty who just loved to be in your lap all the time but his brother, bigger black&white boy, started to seriously attack on him without any reason, shooing Goku away. I never found him and he never came back home (I was around 15-20 back then). If I wouldn’t had took Raditz, I would had have Goku for a long time for sure. But then I think if I wouldn’t had lose Raditz, Goku and Beast, I wouldn’t have my current cats who are the best cats ever what I have had / who I have met <3

Well, anyway, while I was silently crying and swimming in shit regret, all of the sudden Gene’s song from Aladdin “Friend Like Me” (in Finnish “There’s no better friend”) started to play in my head and it kept going and going nonstop so I took it as a sign that even Goku’s life was short and I blame myself from it, it was still good to him and he couldn’t had got better home even for that short moment.

I fell back asleep and now I was visiting my future home in UK with L being there too (my friend who allows me to live with her until I find my own place in UK). I also had my little brother, big sister and mom there with me and mom wanted to talk with cats and L in Finnish because mom don’t understand English. We told her many times she can’t speak Finnish to them but mom just got angry and marched to one cat who was black&white and said angrily; “Look! I can pet him/her!” and we said of course she can but the cats still don’t understand Finnish either. I showed her what we meant. There was thin but long cat who had, kind of, white fur but the top of his fur, and whole face, was covered with slight gray. He was pretty one and I want him to myself for real, ahah :D He was walking away so I knelt down and called him to come to me in English. He looked at me but came slightly being careful / on guard and allowed me to pet his head a bit. Of course this didn’t make mom feel any better :’D

But yeah, pretty mess up stuff in dreams. Tho number 21 was pretty good, promising new excited beginnings, new adventures wherever I’m heading (UK! <3) etc. And cat is also a good sign, no matter about the color. I haven’t been worried or stressed about anything so it’s a bit confusing to have such dreams but oh well, let them come :D

PS. There was a weird dream about turtles between cat dreams as well. I don’t have much memories of it tho. Just something I was either with Leo or with other boys looking for Leo in weird big room / storage house which had glass ceiling / roof etc.

[perspectiveartist]

Tagged by @opus13 :D

a - age: 25, but I’ll be 26 in 5 days b - birthplace: Indiana, USA c - current time: 6:30 PM on the dot d - drink you last had: bottled Lipton tea. Citrus green tea =v= e - easiest person to talk to: Probably James f - favorite song: Duuude....I have no fucking clue LOL. That fluctuates all the time based on whatever my brain decides it’s in the mood for. You can tell when my brain gets into loops on programs that keep track of plays (like iTunes) because it’ll be like 3, 3, 2, 1, 5, 76 g - grossest memory: Hm...Either barfing shredded wheat or busting my lip open on a picnic table. Barfing shredded wheaties was gross because the wheat like...puffed up in my stomach some so it felt like I was throwing up this thick paste UGH. But then smashing my lip on the picnic table not only hurt like hell but it made a big gash that went from my lip to the corner of my eye and also chipped my tooth. And that happened at my babysitter’s, the poor woman. On a funnier note though, in the time it took for me to get picked up my lip had swollen so big that to drink from a straw, I had to physically lift my lip over the straw LOL. I healed up fine but the doc said I was lucky it didn’t actually hit my eye or I could have lost some vision, and I do have a scar on my upper lip that you can only really see in certain lighting. h - horror, yes or no: I’m very mixed...Horror movies, no. But horror games, yes. But I don’t play them. I like watching other people play them, getting engrossed in the lore and stuff. Silent Hill Games are great for that. I love the psychological stuff, the things that make people make analyses about it and stuff. That’s what I find interesting in horror. WHY does this scare us? Why is this so effective or poignant or even sad in spite of how reviling it is at the same time? Horror opens a lot of opportunity to get deep with that. I’m even willing to forgive FNAF for all the cheap jumpscares just because it’s interesting to hear the backstory and see people try to piece together timelines and motivations and shit like that. Movies so rarely seem to get that kind of treatment in comparison. I think it’s because you can push more with a video game, whereas a movie still has to be acceptable for a mainstream audience. i - in love: >V> j - jealous of people: yuuuuup. I mean, not at this very moment, but I get jealous pretty easily and can be a bite spiteful and petty sometimes. k - missing: James QAQ l - love at first sight or should i walk by again: Love at first sight is nothing but infatuation. m - middle name: Nicole n - number of siblings: One older brother by 3 years o - one wish: to feel stable p - last number you called: my counseling center to let them know I might be late because of car issues this morning q - question you are always asked: Well before it was “Wow how are you so skinny!?” and “Do you even eat??” but the last time someone asked a question and it struck me was when an old lady was genuinely concerned about my weight at the hair salon and asked me if I was doing okay. I feel like a lot of people WANT to ask that but don’t. It made me realized how obvious my issues are to everyone around me and how often I’m probably judged without realizing it. r - reasons to smile: my friends, my family, my pets (and yes I include Anne and Brent’s dogs as mine now because goddammit I do at least half their maintenance and I give them a ton of attention) s - song you last sang: “Burn” from Hamilton, while I was waiting for my uncle to pick me up this morning. Idk why it popped in my head considering that song’s about Eliza emotionally divorcing from Alexander and burning all their past correspondence with a big “fuck you” to trying to redeem him for herself. It’s just a nice tune. And honestly fun to belt out when you’re upset. “I’M WATCHING IT BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURN” t - time you woke up: fuckin...The question would be when did I SLEEP? I finally nodded off then woke up at 5:30-ish because Anne and Brent were being noisy, then went to sleep again around 6:30-ish maybe? But then my alarm went off at 7 because I was supposed to get up at 7 to start my car and make sure it worked but I kept hitting my alarm until finally it was like, 7:30 and I was like FIIIINE. So I guess I officially gave up on sleep at 7 AM. u - underwear color: Uh... -checks- Kina hot pink/magenta? v - vacation destination: The only one I can think for sure is I’d like to see Norway but I’ve got so many neuroses that traveling to another country would probably not be able to happen for a long time with me. w - worst habit: I tend to “explode” around me. My areas where I’m at the most are littered with my junk because I leave stuff there with the idea of “Well yeah I’m gonna use it later”. And then sometimes that extends to my garbage. So I tend to just...be messy. x - x-rays: Nope. y - your favorite food: Chicken strips and fries and hamburgers LOL oh and steak fuck yeeee and crab legs...Look, I’m a picky eater so when I find foods I like, they are my Favorites z - zodiac sign: Capricorn

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Oc meme, every one divisible by 4

4. A character you rarely talk about?I have too many I don't talk about...I mean I don't really talk about Tiernan or Kody anymore although recently I decided to try and draw them again since they were My Faves back in middle school when I created them. I don't really talk about Farlow Batey, Emanuel Davis, Quinn Iwasaki or Bolin Lau either. I also don't talk about Oliver a lot either even though I really love him !! I never really have the opportunity ;;8. Do you RP as any of your OCs? If you do, introduce one of your RP OCs here!All of my OCs are RP OCs because it's more fun to write a story with someone else than to write it yourself LOL. My more recent RP OC is Gabriel Casiano with @littlemxperiwinkle !! He's puerto-rican american, 17, 6'2" and 243lbs. He's in a richer private school because the school board wanted to have more 'diversity' despite his poor grades. He's constantly getting in fights because people pick them with him so he usually has library duty to stay and clean up books, put book up, etc. He wants to work harder in school for his mom and when he starts to get tutoring help from another student, his grades seem to drop even harder because teachers feel he's cheating even though he's really putting in all of his effort. He makes me sad because there's a lot of racial profiling towards him and his personality when he's really just a big teddy bear with scary looks. 12. Name an OC that isn't yours but who you like a lot.@littlemxperiwinkle's OCs floor me to this dAYALL OF THEM !! EVERY SINGLE ONE I AM IN LOVE WITH !!I really love Traveler and Chase because they're such wholesome OTPs and wholesome characters I cry...fuck u16. Which one of your OCs would be the best at biology (school subject)?Ellias Mills probably. I think he's a psych major but he's still good in like all other subjects too; a jack of all trades. 20. Do any of your OCs sing? If they sing, care to share more details (headcanon voice, what kind of songs they like etc)?Lonnie Fuentez! He really likes K-Pop, and really likes to dance and sing too! I don't have a headcanon voice unfortunately :(. Palmer Arbanas also likes to sing, but he's not as good as Lonnie is. 24. If you could meet one OC of yours, who would it be and why?Pathos honestly...his house is so pretty, and he's so soft spoken and kind to guests. He just reads all the time too. Palmer too because he's so full of life and I could easily shitpost with him, he's very relatable. 28. Your most dangerous OC?Tiernan Liehs on the account of the murdering and cannibalism. 32. Which one of your OCs would be the most suitable horror game protagonist and why?Hmmmm...Bolin Lau because he lives an actual horror game IRL with a murderer for a lover. He doesn't handle it very well but he also hasn't confessed to anything and tries to play his cards right. 36. Do you have OC pairs where the other part belongs to someone else (siblings, lovers, friends etc)?9/10s of my OCs are OTPd OCs !! A majority of them to my amazing rp partner @littlemxperiwinkle and then some to @bailey1rox and @saiika u//v//u40. Any fond memories linked to your characters? Feel free to share!They're all fond to me and I love them so much. QAQ44. Something you like about your OCs in general?I try to make them very diverse and well rounded. I don't really go for a whole mystical route although I still have mystical OCs, I try to make them as human as possible by considering every little thing about humans; body hair, body odor, moles and other misc markings, favorite smells, textures, body functions and disabilities. I try to not make them super Pretty UWU Cutesy Hot all the time because people aren't pretty all the time...I guess what I love about my OCs a lot is their ability to be flawed and even just plain out gross (like Pathos who doesn't shower for a week or eat for a whole day and a half because he gets too caught up in fiction and as a result is really unhealthily skinny and has a weird smell to him). I love their ability to seem real and human-like. 48. OC who is a perfect cinnamon roll, too good for this world, too pure?Farlow Batey and Stiles Carter tbh. They're both just...just too pure, too wholesome. Big beefy lumberjack who's actually just a friendly giant and then small homely Christian boy who owns an etsy for the sweaters he knits.

Thank you so much omg...

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A long winding commentary on Home is Where the Heart Is Ch14 (by setosdarkness)

@athina39 whoops this got really out of hand…

This week a lot of my favorites fics have updated and I’m like hmmm HIWTHI will probably update any time now. I have zero self-control when I read this fic, so I spent my whole break, and most of my commute reading. And most of my evening to write this because I did not expect it  to be so big (^v  ^;)

“…I could hear the number of exclamation points on that. Is that not acceptable?” Tachihara is so adorable, and I love how he’s similar to Atsushi when it comes to Akutagawa, and how Chuuya learned “life skills” from Atsushi lolololololol!! But dammit Chuuya, so clueless, thinking that Tachihara is “such a nice guy” and a “great kouhai” even though he’s acting like Atsushi, even though he knows Atsushi is madly in love. But then I guess Chuuya doesn’t see why someone would love him Q.Q Also, I like the mention of how Chuuya could predict Tachihara’s response “even if he doesn’t have Flawless.” The way flawless and Oda just kind of slip into his thought process kajsdhfajks

I love how Chuuya’s apartment has become all colorful and vibrant with flowers and nice things jdaklhfdkjadshf and DAZAI IS JUST A PART OF IT!!!!

And when the waitress was smiling at Chuuya for dabbing his napkin at Tachihara’s face and he assumes it means she’s approving of that “normal action”, because he thinks it’s normal when Dazai does it. Because apparently he’s not anything special to Dazai so what Dazai does with him is normal, not anything particularly special CHUUYA PLEASE

Also I think everyone reading this fic has adopted Higuchi’s dying seal sound *nods*

Chuuya’s still concerned about his little outing with Dazai after his date awwwwwwww

Dazai knowing Chuuya’s schedule better than him, making all these arrangements for him (“blackout curtains and the hypoallergenic bedding” whooooa), practically managing his life for him what a waifu <3 I also love the thing where Chuuya throws forks and knives at Dazai who effortlessly deflects all the attacks with a spoon, how married they are *Higuchi squealing noises*</p>

YURI ON ICE. YURI ON ICE. That’s all I’m gonna say.

I love love love how Chuuya goes to pray for Dazai’s safety while Tachihara wondered if he was planning sea travel and how it mirrors one of the previous chapters and aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh

ANGST RANT #1

Chuuya feels left out of the loop because all these things are happening without him: everyone on some secret assignment and apparently it’s not important that he knows. “He—he’s useless when it comes to strategies and planning.” And he’s just trying to justify all of it, because he’s just not good enough to be included or something like that (but no Chuuya you’re such a good boss!!!!)

Moving on to Chuuya’s expectations. He can’t seem to expect anything good from Dazai and even when good things happen he just assumes it’s temporary and something else is coming later (poor baby).

“I try not to expect Dazai’s good behavior whenever possible” Because Dazai let him down too many times Q.Q

And how he just savors every moment they have together because who knows when it will all just come to abrupt halt?? Like that scene where Dazai booked a room with only one bed and he just enjoys the moment because “after all, once Dazai decides that he’d like to leave again, there will be no repeat performances of this comforting closeness anymore”.  And when they screw up the ice skating tournament and it was all such a mess but Chuuya saw it as “a chance to dance that closely, intimately, with Dazai, but that’s neither here nor there”. He perceives it as a “chance”, an opportunity, something good that he wants to hold on to. Despite being so involved in each others’ lives it’s like Chuuya is falling the whole time and bracing for impact, preparing himself for the worst, but then it’s only natural.

And once again with how Chuuya rationalizing Dazai’s behavior. “Dazai laughs - but it’s soft instead of grating. Though that’s probably because…” and there’s always a reason because it simply CANNOT be what he wants it to be. All the excuses are better than making assumptions, because look where that got him in the past.

Poor Chuuya just avoiding the route with the greatest potential of pain QAQ It’s so sad that someone who usually takes things head-on would distort his thoughts ignore some really obvious signs because it’s brought him so much pain. 

When Dazai talks about them spending the next New Year’s together “Chuuya smiles, because that kind of promise is nice, but ultimately means nothing. It’s nice, if only in this moment though.” OMG he wants this so bad but he’s so resigned to the fact that Dazai’s just going leave at some point alksdjalksdjf

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 I love the texts Chuuya gets from everyone. I love how distinct their voices are <3 Atsushi freaking about chazuke, Aku thanking Chuuya for helping him make chazuke (gimme all the akuatsuuuu). Aku warning Chuuya about Dazai, I just love the way he talks about Dazai now go Aku!! Yosano and Kouyou? Ranpo wants to give Poe gifts akjsdfhkajdshf! </p>

Some notes on Dazai: “Does that guy need anything aside from your company anyway?” *more dying seal noises* I just love the way Steinbeck says that like it’s common sense and that the oh-so-tricky Dazai is so obvious and predictable in his affections. And Dazai always replying to texts if they’re from Chuuya, trying to be there in his own way I guess *cheering Dazai on*

“I am helpless against your beauty and I’ll need your company to cure me of this lovesickness” OMG I almost died of laughter (maybe we all kind of have that feeling for Chuuya tho), but then I read the next part where Chuuya thinks it’s some kind of code and then later: “Did you just fucking imply that my looks made you sick?!” aaahahahahahaha I’m dead XD

  ATUSUSHI SASS APPRECIATION 

“Ah, so the man-tiger really sounds threatening when said by mafia members. I thought it was just Akutagawa.”

 “Do you really want to know what i call him, Chuuya-san?” I love Atsu’s not-so-innocent side

 And when Chuuya denies missing Dazai and Atsu’s all like"Are you excited about Fukuzawa’s return then?“ LOLOL

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Aku’s "I’m going to the hospital” comment. Period.

 ANGST RANT #2

OK so the mistletoe, which has all sorts of romantic connotation and stuff, sacred plant of a goddess of love, all magical and etc etc, but then Chuuya says “Mistletoe are parasites, pests….They…kill trees. And stuff” as if he’s talking about how loving Dazai was killing him.

And before they have their indirect “kiss” there’s “Because things have ultimately not changed, have they? They can’t change–because that would mean—“ and he’s just not ready to accept that yet. Not an actual kiss. Puh-lease.

Back to my earlier point on Chuuya anticipating loss and disappointment; he knows he wants this with Dazai, he slowed down all of those moments he had to be close to him, but he just can’t see a happy ending. And Dazai just kind of confirms it too, telling Chuuya he’s going to Russia with Mori and Fukuzawa last minute and leaving just like that. Not really telling him the details of his mission.

And “Dazai siphons the life out of him, leaving him with work, work, work. It’s just like before, only with more phone contacts and more Facebook friends, this time. He wonders if he should feel happy for expecting this all along.” Draining him LIKE THE DAMN MISTLETOE.

Dazai not telling Chuuya that he’s really moved in with him. How Atsushi knows, everyone knows, but not Chuuya. Once again left out of the loop.

ANGST RANT #3

“Dazai claimed to never lie on negotiations and what happened back then–was a negotiation, nothing else……Dazai Osamu is a fucking liar” The way he rejects Dazai’s confession, the way he’s forced himself to see their relationships ajkdfhajksdhfkajsh

“Chuuya’s heart beats staccato beats of misery and hurt, as he watches Dazai’s face remain impassive, in control. He hates it.” This contrast between Chuuya’s turmoil and Dazai’s perceived calmness, Dazai sort of making his decisions for him, running him in circles just because he could predict his reactions. How frustrating, how unfair. The table flip was so impactful in this scene. How can he struggle for autonomy against someone who can grasp everything in the palm of his hand?

Dazai’s trying to be careful but his lack of transparency is one of their biggest problems, way to go Dazai. Just because you know he’s going to reject you doesn’t mean that you can just hide things and not let him do it. Let this poor man decide T.T I do acknowledge his effort though.

Chuuya’s three years of trying to be normal falling apart, I love how he corrected it to eight years, because he’s been struggling for so much longer.

(Mori asking Dazai to be the PM’s new Boss? Ouch, OUCH)

“’And I’m just the sharpest tool in your box.’” He’s been holding that one in hasn’t he? The way Dazai was his world while to Dazai he was just an object to be used. 

And holy shit Dazai, telling Chuuya that they can’t have normal things because they’re monsters. Chuuya’s been struggling so long to find self-worth, to finally deserve to live among normal people…I would imagine that he would have these feelings for sure, being such a kind person doing such wicked things, but then it was because DAZAI was the one who said it, who invalidated his feelings, that hurt him the most. *sobbing*

Chuuya’s actually crying now, finally falling apart after keeping it together for so long, but Dazai can’t just kiss those tears away now like he did after his nightmare. Because all of those insecurities and scars are coming right back to reality now.

“Eight years ago and Chuuya would have carved out his own, beating heart, the moment Dazai said that it’s part of the plan.” The way this was written, from the wording to the buildup from the previous paragraphs, was so raw and painful I had to stop reading for a moment because sweet Mother Theresa on the hood of a Mercedes Benz Chuuya needs so much love.

He wants proof, perfectly acceptable because there is overwhelming evidence of Dazai hurting Chuuya. The little bits of him caring for Chuuya are overshadowed by Chuuya’s Dazai-is-pain-I-can’t-come-close-or-I-won’t-be-able-to-bounce-back-again mode. Especially when Dazai is STILL hiding things from him. Still making his choices for him. And despite all of his efforts he feels as if nothing’s changed. Dazai’s still lying, he can’t be normal, can’t escape from the past, “He’s the only one truly disgraced here, tainted with darkness, tainted with the budding light of hope that will never fully bloom.”

Dazai asking for him to just believe even if there’s no proof is outrageous at this point.

But then akjdhfaksjhfaksjadfh Dazai’s all desperate and just pleading for him not to push him away how heartbreaking.

They’re going to need a catalyst to get back together right? Please send help!

Thanks so much for this wonderful update!! So intense adfasajkfhaskjhdjk, I can’t wait to see how the characters handle this. (I did not proofread my comment so sorry if I rambled too much)