#BEING CHOSEN OVER AND OVER AGAIN
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@pommunist these tags… aoghaugh
I started typing out my thoughts but realized that I was starting to sound insane so just know. you hit bullseye on what makes life series bdubs so. compelling to me
#3l bdubs compared to wl bdubs ouhgahghohahgh he is so#WE LOVE CHARACTERS GETTING WORSE !!!!!!#WE LOVE CORRUPTION ARCS ARE THERE IS NO WHERE BETTER TO SEE IT HAPPENING THAN BOOGEYDUBS#BEING CHOSEN OVER AND OVER AGAIN#AND MAKING CRUELER AND CRUELER DECISIONS
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Okay so with the line "the olive tree where we first met" we have two equal hilarious options.
When penelope was sassily like oh I'll marry you if you make a living bed out of this tree right here! Cue penelope stumbling over odysseus very very carefully digging up the tree "because how else is he going to get it to itacha we can't have a wedding bed out in the open in sparta duh"
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2. Penelope, knowing that Helen's suitors would soon be arriving to take over her home for a while. Snuck out and went on her own wacky shenanigan filled journey where she scoped out all the major players. Odysseus caught her spying in an olive tree. And when she got back she told Helen she had dibs on the cutie from itacha.
#epic the musical#epic spoilers#Itacha saga#penelope#Odysseus#Odypen#odysseus x penelope#Young odypen courting was filled with wacky nonsense basically canon confrimed#The line “....where we first met” implying that they first met under that specific olive tree#Which has to have some absolutely insane logistics that only odypen (and maybe Athena) could pull off#Odypen being 🥰 🤝 rat bastards in love#Option one odysseus Athena please please please helpppp me pen said she'd only marry me if I made a wedding bed out of this tree#Athena: once again I think you are praying to the wrong person but fuck it how do you think you're going to keep that tree alive#Odysseus: ....a large bucket?#Athena gimme a sec okay I need to go have ares bash my skull in before I watch something this stupid#Athena: checking in on penelope her chosen weaver only for her to be pulling her hair out#Penelope (to her cousins): why did I fucking say that! Beating fathers already an impossible challenge why did I say that#He's going to think I was making fun of him! He's not going to want to marry me now!#Helen: weren't you? Making fun of him?#Penelope: That's not the point!#clytemnestra: Hey he's digging the tree up and has the biggest bucket I've ever seen#Penelope: what?! Trips over every item in the room and gets tangled in her curtains blushing like crazy#Athena: ....it's been a while since I checked up on diomedes training. He'd never put me through this nonsense#Option 2#Helen's maybe a little nervous and wants to know more about who she has to potentially marry and penelope promises her she'll get rundown#Helen did not expect penelope to disappear but she probably should have....it'll probably be fine. Right?#Some kings penlope just straight up greets some she stays hidden and spies#Odysseus is the only one who catches her (he trains woth Athena in the olive Grove#She was not happy when odysseus nearly tripped onto her spear point face first when he saw the strange pretty girl)#And odysseus who's been king for a few years now knows every lady's face because he'll probably have to marry one of them someday
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Charles’ reaction to hearing Erik had a wife and daughter
imagine not hearing from your ex (that you’re still in love with) for ten years only to hear that he managed to follow your way of life and settle down with a family
but not with you
someone else was able to see the good in him that you saw in him first but he chose her and instead of you
#Charles you should’ve tried baby trapping Erik you know he can’t resist being a father 😔#i might be delusional but i swear i could see as his heart started to crack again#i don’t think he was given enough time to fully process that kind of news 😭#he kind of got over it after a few minutes though 😭😭#NOT MAGDA SLANDER I LOVE MAGDA 😻#but she should’ve chosen better in my personal opinion 😔🤚#the reason she’s dead is because she chose Erik of all people 🤨#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#xmen#professor x#magneto#xmcu#xmen apocalypse#wish does not shut up
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Knowing “Nerdy Prudes Must Die” was the first idea the Lang brothers had for Hatchetfield makes the whole series so much funnier.
Like, did they know in “The Guy Who Didn’t Like Musicals” that the weirdo who demanded a hot chocolate would be the leading man of the high school horror show?
Did they know the prude they mentioned a few times would be a homophobic murderer who defiled a corpse, fucked a ghost, and became a vessel for dark lords?
Was the homeless man joke in BEFORE the recast because they were still brothers, or not?
#nerdy prudes must die#the guy who didn't like musicals#hatchetfield#team starkid#starkid#for those who didn’t put it together#the hot chocolate boy in TGWDLM is supposed to be Peter Spankoffski#but was recast after Robert Manion got put on hold for a while after a scandal then seemingly decided to go full burned bridges with them#also as a side note#that ‘obnoxious teen’ was also supposed to be the ticket taker in Black Friday but was rewritten to be a Joey character#because Robert Manion was going to be playing Ethan Green in the same scene against him#and then the ticket taker was going to be Richie Lipschitz in NPMD#but then Joey Richter was chosen to take over as Pete#so Ritchie was separated off and given to Jon Matteson#so the ticket taker went from being a Pete cameo to a Ritchie cameo to just an entirely unrelated character#I feel like I know too many behind the scenes details about these shows just through TVTropes#also does this technically mean Ritchie’s death is kind of sort of a way for the Langs to kill a Robert character again even after he left?#oh and the homeless man was Ted the whole time#nightmare time is a trip
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this exchange goes crazy...dana "i worship the sea he sailed on" "i did it because i knew if he found out he would kill me" "part of me likes it, needs it, wants the approval" " along the way there are other fathers" "i thought you'd be pleased" "he was my instructor at the academy" "he must have been a wonderful teacher...yes, he's remarkable man" "your fear of failing him?" scully would know a thing or two about THAT...
#trying to gather my Thoughts on the different ways mulder and scully approach authority...#scully essentially lays out her entire deal in never again between craving the approval and attention of an authority figure#only to eventually chafe under the weight of their expectation; the constraints of cooperation and submission#she likes being 'chosen' so to speak - by jack; by daniel - it means she's special. she glows under their approval; it means something to#have their favor#it validates her - she is smart she is capable she is exceptional#(something something sainthood something something being chosen by god for great works something something if you genuflect and pray and do#all the rituals just right something something catholicism)#mulder on the other hand i have a harder time getting into his head re: authority#people like phoebe and diana hold a level of control over him but this isn't an exact superior/subordinate relationship#does he ever really express a real desire to please skinner? he seems to have always been disdainful of patterson#i will have to think on it more.......#the x files
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Partner in Crime by Madilyn Mei is such a Evbo and Tabi song like
#“Run for it i'll keep them occupied for you cause i love you i love you so” with the farming#evbo dying over and over again to keep tabi alive#ALSO the scene where evbo see tje gated open#“Something tells me youre not coming”#“guess that i'm truly doomed” LIKE AHSHHSHSJDKDMDMDJSJSNS#also evbo saying he's just guy in the right place at the right time#the whole chosen thing being happenstance “i was never meant to win”#MANNMNN#anywant listen to partner in crim its great i love it im goomg to belooping it fkr an hour now bye#pvp civilization#pvp evbo#pvp tabi#fox's talks#“im just a pawn in your game”#“not your partner in crime”
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Oh deserter of senseless war, friend of fated dragonborn, favored of greiving madness.
Did I pick up a tutorial companion and end up making him essentially an oc with backstory and parallels to my HOK? Oh yeah baby. In the Skyrim In My Head Faen is Sheo's champion, though he doesn't know why and gets ulcers thinking about what that may mean for him. As it stands, it means loyalty boardering on stupidity(normal for him), paranoia and visual hallucinations(not normal for him), and occasionally hearing the voice of a mad god just kinda chattering in his ear (completely unthinkable a month ago).
#cosmic entity's art#october doodles 2024#skyrim#faendal#what happened in the Meta is that i threw the wabbajack at faen to hold until i got home to clear my inventory put#and then i forgot to take it back. over and over again#eventually i decided he was sheos champ bc i didnt like lumii being this million times over chosen one#and its like. funny! hes a straightman yaknow he's the last guy youd expect#and then i Thought About It with my HOK as sheo and went Uh Oh. Bosmer Archer friends with a dragonborn#yeah. anyways.
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I was rewatching s2 last night, and ohhh man mk looks over mei so much it's not even funny. times mei has been ignored:
maybe you need to really listen! (during the blindfold ep)
mk just? grabs stuff she's using out of her hands all the time? (video game ep)
maybe you shouldn't skip the tutorials? (video game ep again)
the way he addresses her in dumpling destruction and then immediately pushes her aside for tang
i honestly remember it lowkey kinda bothering me on first watch but now it's REALLY egregious on rewatch. are you scared? I'm so scared. do you WANT to end up like shadowpeach MK
2x03 is so rude because the whole fucking episode they're like "MK you don't listen" and it's so true. He doesn't. Pigsy literally points it out again at the end of 4x14 with the whole sun screen bit:
Pigsy: "Tch, don't bother, I've been telling him that for years but he LITERALLY never listens." Sun Wukong: "Yep! That's how we role."
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THEY'RE SO FUCKING RUDE. "That's how we role." We. We????? Wukong and MK???? Like WHATEVER. FINE. (("I told you going against the Jade Emperor was a bad idea, but no. Wukong doesn't listen to ANYONE! He just does whatever he wants" Like shut up. Shut up!))
MK gets so stuck in his own head ("You're all stuck up in your own head! None of this is your fault!" +1 to the MK ignoring Mei counter from 4x08) and I think that really contributes to his s2 scramble to get more powerful.
LIKE:
MK: "Stop? Now? Never! I just have to try harder. It's just like the Monkey King said! *laughs manically* I just need to get stronger!"
(2x06 Game On)
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MK: "Why didn't he just stop, right here? He was already so much stronger than anyone ever needed to be!" Macaque: "Wukong didn't think so, he always felt he had to be stronger—more immortal."
(4x11 A Lifetime of Mistakes)
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(Bonus thing between eps 2x03 and 2x06, look at 0:42 in this video for MK hearing Mei but not listening to her. Because of course that's what he would do. *head in my hands .png*)
The terrible s2 choices both Wukong and MK make in relation to their friends is just absolutely delicious after 4x11. Like, OH. This has been a lifelong pattern of Wukong's—paranoia is one of his fatal flaws (paired with his terrible communication and self-sacrificial nature), and while he had the power to stop LBD before he still feel's the need to go after the Samadhi Fire to stop her now, and to protect MK.
Hold on look at this parallel that I don't know what to do with:
MK: "Ugh, I can't do it!"
Mei: "It's alright MK—you did it before, you'll do it again!" Sandy: "Yeah! Maybe it's like Monkey King said: the power will come when you need it most!"
(3x04 The Winning Side)
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MK: "What! But you said the Samadhi fire was the only thing that could stop her!" Sun Wukong: "I KNOW WHAT I SAID! But I've beaten her before I'll- I'll do it again! Mei was right—I need to stop dragging you into my fights, all of you."
(3x10 The Samadhi Fire)
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Wukong and MK's reach for power inspires a lot of fear in me! It does! Because, well, MK's current reach for power is going to lead him to his Monkey Form, and uh:
Like I'm scared. I'm scared!
"All doomed to play a role in tearing this world apart!" ; "This is Azure's utopia, and this barren wasteland is the price he paid to build it." ; "I'd do anything for my friends! But at the cost of the world?" "I'm sorry pal, ain't NOTHIN' worth that price!"
#I've said it once and I'll say it again: 2x06 is one of the MOST retroactively mean episodes#Game motif. The callback that 4x10 does. Whatever the fuck is going on with the MK and SWK parallels in that ep#I hate lmk's exchange theme I hate it. Like FUCK#Anyways#asks#wlw-wukong#lmk#lego monkie kid#lmk MK#lmk SWK#lmk Sun Wukong#lmk analysis#lmk theme: exchange#fuckasdfoqweg#Sandy saying ''Helping my friends is more important than anything in the world!'' in 2x08 vs#''I get it! I'd do anything to help my friends! But at the cost of the world?'' in 4x13 is SICK. SICK IT'S SICK#Sometimes it's like. Hmmm. ''If you aren't doing everything in your power to help your friends you are nothing!''#''I'd watch my sword shatter 1000 times so long as I used it to protect the ones I care about''#I'm telling you Mei would choose MK over the world. I'M TELLING YOU#MK'S ALREADY CHOSEN MEI OVER THE WORLD (thank you 3x10) AND PIGSY/TANG/SANDY OVER THE WORLD (4x02)#MK really went: ''Oh releasing this curse could end the world? Well I'll risk it for my friends!'' and I went ''ohhhh nooooooooo''#WE ARE IN SOME DEEP SHIT IN S5#And Wukong? Lol of course he's choosing the people he cares about over the world. No surprise there.#He's like ''yeah I'll go fight the jade emperor to finally be strong enough''. If eamk theory proves true he like#Chose MK over the world initially#And he was totalllyyy willing to sacrifice LBD's child host to protect his friends (MK)/the world#I'm. AUGHGHG.#''It's what he would do if he had to. That's the hard part of being a hero!'' OKAY BUT MEI WOULD YOU DO THAT SO EASILY IF IT WERE MK#ME THINKS NO#ME THINKS YOU WOULD NOT
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I love the head cannon of trans scary because she changes her name to Terri and then her mom marries Terry jr and she goes God damn it I have to change my name again
#like imagine doing all the work to change your name and a couple months later you have to do it all over again#and all because of your stupid step dad#and scary just being like come on if i wouldve know about you a couple months ago i wouldve chosen a different name#dndads#dungeons and daddies#scary marlowe#terry jr stampler
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Penny
D: Mistakes? Well, let's go through some of Sammy's greatest hits. Drinking demon blood, check. Being in cahoots with Ruby. Not telling me that you lost your soul. Or how about running around with Samuel for a whole year, letting me think that you were dead while you're doing all kinds of crazy. Those aren't mistakes, Sam. Those are choices!
D: Look, man, I don't even remember what I said, but, uh –
S: But what? But you didn't mean it? Oh, please. You and I both know you didn't need that penny to say those things.
D: Come on, Sam.
S: Own up to your crap, Dean. I told you from the jump where I was coming from, why I didn't look for you. But you? You had secrets. You had Benny. And you got on your high and mighty, and you've been kicking me ever since you got back. But that's over. So move on, or I will.
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D: Your blood's supposed to be purified, isn't it? You ever, uh -- you ever done the "forgive me, father" before?
Well, I mean, I could give you suggestions if you want.
All right. Well, I'm just spit-balling here, but if I were you, uh... Ruby, killing Lilith, letting Lucifer out, losing your soul, not looking for me when I went to Purgatory, for starters. Or, hey, h-how about what you did to, uh, Penny Markle in the sixth grade? Why don't you lead with that?
S: Well, that was you.
D: Carry on.
S: You can barely do it with me. I mean, you think I screw up everything I try. You think I need a chaperone, remember?
D: Come on, man. That's not what I meant.
S: No, it's exactly what you meant. You want to know what I confessed in there? What my greatest sin was? It was how many times I let you down. I can't do that again.
D: You seriously think that? Because none of it -- none of it -- is true. Listen, man, I know we've had our disagreements, okay? Hell, I know I've said some junk that set you back on your heels. But, Sammy...come on. I killed Benny to save you. I'm willing to let this bastard and all the sons of bitches that killed mom walk because of you. Don't you dare think that there is anything, past or present, that I would put in front of you! It has never been like that, ever! I need you to see that. I'm begging you.
sam’s faults
purgatory
#what side of the coin will you be today?#none of it -- none of it -- is true#it has never been like that ever#i wonder where sam could have gotten these ideas from#hop in my car i'll drive you to the edge#tries to jump over the edge#i wanted you to teeter how could you ever think i'd want you to jump i need you#the writing isn't subtle and yet...#spn 8x06#spn 8x23#matter in a state having no fixed shape and no fixed volume#natural agent that stimulates sight and makes things visible#none of the things sam is accused of are a result of him being deliberately bad#dean knows ruby manipulated sam and that he was predisposed to be addicted to demon blood from 6 months old#dean and sam both know heaven and hell tricked them into freeing lucifer#sam absolves dean of any guilt from that#but dean can’t do the same#dean blames sam for coming back soulless#absolutely not sam’s fault but it’s one more thing to blame on him to hurt him#they had an agreement to not obsess over reviving each other again and again#dean locking sam in the panic room#something sam never holds against him#the horrible voicemail the one sam never uses against dean#these things are so obvious why are people stupid#sam always had good intentions he just wanted to help people but he was doomed from the beginning#whatever dean did he was always in the right because he was chosen by heaven#even when sam got to be the hero and throw himself into the cage with lucifer he was atoning for his mistakes#and dean and bobby let him go to hell all the while thinking he deserved it#and sam believes when dean and everyone else tells him he has darkness inside even though he’s the kindest heart among them#all because he was groomed to be the devils vessel and because he wanted freedom from the life his family tried to guilt him into
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just seen a post by a pre-op pre-hormones pre-everything trans woman complaining about ~evil cis bitches~ crossing the road at night when they see her and i was so so so certain it was a troll/fakepost/terf shitposting/etc but it was legit and all her friends were agreeing with her, and i'm like??? this is why cis women hate us lmao, you can't get mad if you're pre-everything and it's night time and a woman assumes you're a creep in the dark. why are the worst voices always the loudest
Why did you think this was appropriate to have sent to me instead of just... blocking her and moving on? Out of all the reasons I can think of for people to be transphobic, the thought of a trans woman being upset about feeling like she's treated like a perpetrator of a crime she isn't committing or thinking about committing doesn't cross my mind. Maybe she didn't express that frustration in a way you approve of (probably because you weren't what she was thinking about, she was probably thinking about how she was feeling), but that's where blocking her comes into play. You aren't required to view that person's post or entertain their friends, nor are you required to come into a stranger's inbox to vent about it. You don't have to dedicate time to that.
Oddly enough, I don't trust that you aren't a troll trying to stoke fires, especially through anon.
#ask#anon#transphobia#transphobia tw#transmisogyny tw#(just for the implication that if you 'dont pass' you are required to be okay with being 'treated like a man')#blog boundaries#part of me doubts that she even accused them of being ~evil cis bitches~ considering anon's vitriol towards this person#and that's assuming this is even a real problem. again i have a hard time trusting this and i hope it's obvious why#this is the first and last time i will be addressing this specifically. i'm actually not going to tolerate this#and i'm not going to tolerate being treated like a personal diary for people to air their grievances with trans women#over the years i've been recieving anons as unhinged as this about trans people and i've chosen to ignore them...#...and i'm reaching the point where i'm not tolerating it quietly and with grace#i'm frankly tired of how i'm being treated with this and how (fictional or not) trans people are thrown into other people's lives
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I am just somehow OBSESSED with Takeru DRIVING. Like is he a bad driver? He speeds past the gang waiting outside of Daisuke's restaurant (or the restaurant where Daisuke works, whatever), so maybe? Is that his mom's car? Or is it his car? Why does he NEED a car? What is he doing that requires him to drive? Is it going to be a plot point in the movie? Is Takeru being a BAD DRIVER going to be a plot point? I need to know.
Ken and Miyako are also visibly startled when Takeru speeds past (Miyako JUMPS!!!!), while Iori and Hikari don't even flinch. What does that say about DYNAMIC?! Are Iori and Hikari more used to Takeru's (presumably bad) driving? That would make sense, no, cause they are (canonically???) closer with him? Just such a small interaction and I can interpret so much and draw so many conclusions!!! How fun!!!
There's just something really so fun about watching characters you've loved your whole life continue to grow - to see new details about them spring up, new traits, new things to add to canon. It's the most delightful thing about the Digimon Adventure franchise to me. Sure, the stories they have told over the last decade have mostly been all various shades of mediocre, but the character moments - goodness, the character moments just don't hit the same in any other media for me. It's so special to me.
ETA: WAIT, looking at the screencap, Iori looks slightly concerned. Only Hikari looks calm (though she does turn her whole body to look at the car once it stops). Does this mean HIKARI is the only one comfortable with his driving? Cause Hikari is closest to him? (I don't even think their closeness is something that is debatable - I feel like it is PRETTY CANON that they are closest with each other???????????)
HERE'S HOW TAKARI CAN STILL WIN.
#if anyone wants to talk about Takeru DRIVING please DM me lmaooo#I think a big reason about why I am obsessed with it is because when I write/wrote Digimon fanfic#I was always VERY CAREFUL to make sure the characters took transit or walked places#motor vehicle ownership is very low in Japan and I want to make my fics feel as real as possible while still being fanfiction#so it wouldn't make sense for any of the Chosen to drive#SO TAKERU DRIVING????#IS SENDING ME TO ANOTHER LEVEL#if only for the TRANSPORTATION POSSIBILITIES it will open up for me when/if I ever finish writing something again#also - car conversations#car intimacy#SO MANY THINGS TO CONSIDER#I'm done#I'm going to bed#I'm really bored cause I am leaving for vacation in ten days and so are all my friends#so the thing about going on vacation with the people you hang out with a lot is that everyone is preparing to go on vacation at the same ti#so everyone is the same kind and amount of busy#the last minute errands and appointments and wrapping up work and getting ready to abandon your regularly scheduled life for two weeks kind#so I'm....not doing much lately lol#hence my losing it over this#digimon
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i apologize for sending this out of the blue but i am very sleep deprived and emotional so <3 you are one of the nicest people on this website and i love seeing your thoughts in my and everyones tpn art its always so sweet and insightful. Okay thats all ty 💞
idk about that but
appreciate all the people who tolerate me getting overly excited over a children's series in reblog tags and in the main tag 💖💝💗
#doctor told me the brainrot was terminal but I'm having fun <3#sepiamestus#FSS Asks#FSS Chatter#there's always the debate over whether going over what I like about a work is obvious to the artist#like “yeah dumbass I know; I made it that way”#which is fair lol but in this medium we've chosen to interact in without a number of visual and verbal cues for added nuance#usually just end up going for it to be direct and honest#and worst that could happen is a person blocks me for being annoying lol#people curating their own online experiences and whatnot#but again ty Ruby this is v sweet <3
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#as you might be able to tell by my activities (like 10x itll be okay trans post) big trans things have happened yippee#officially announced my chosen name + pronouns to my high school friends and stuff and it was. good.#and i want to be happy about it! i know theyll all try their best and stuff but.#ig having officially come out wasnt. something i expected to feel an aftermath to.#in this moment and ever since i left the meetup last night it. doesnt feel like relief.#its currently just filling me with more anxiety and scaredyness and it sucks that i have to go through this about something that is...#... such a axtremely brave and big thing. i want to desperately be proud of myself. i should be. but i cant.#and what sucks more than that is that. i cant pin down why i feel so shitty about it.#sillyposting#ig part of it is just regular old anxiety and repeating THE conversation in my head again and again that recreates it#theres also some underlying fucking 'ohohhh what do they think of me now???' despite. me knowing they fullheartedly accept it.#it sucks#i dont want being trans to be hard. i hate that even when no bad things happen im haunted by it.#i just dont want to deal with all of this. it sucks balls.#im happy to be trans. i think i would take being trans over cis any day. i truly believe every person would be better if they were trans.#i just wish i could experience it without pain. i wish any trans person could. i wish things were easier.#whatever. ive done it now. i am glad i finally managed. i am. i am proud.
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i sit with my saint sebastian medallion clutched in my hand like a lifeline because i’m normal
#contemplating going to sleep with it clutched in my hands. for comfort. because i’m normal#anxious about leaving the house without it most days 👍 because i’m normal 🫡#valentine notes#‘oh saint sebastian is the basic saint’ you are NOT like me. except you are. because i’m normal.#<— pisses me off i didn’t spend my entire childhood being fixated on that guy independent of any outside influence to be called basic for it#‘oh he’s the basic saint’ i want you to sit in a catholic church and read his story over and over again for years and come back and tell me#that you aren’t preoccupied with him an unhealthy amount. sorry that my chosen saint is sick as fuck that’s not my fault#i’ll start getting weird about saint florian or some shit. saint valentine even.#start venerating the mother mary. if we want to talk about basic.#anyway
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how am i supposed to be a friend when i know i'm boring
#i don't want to be friends only bc of what i can do but i don't know any other way#man#that's sad as shit#i just don't think ''being friends bc of who you are'' is a thing that can happen to me#like to be completely honest. who the fuck would want to talk to me when i'm just boring#''oh i made this :3'' ok yea whatever man that's what you always do#they say crying helps sometimes. sure hope it's true i'm balling my eyes#wish i could just disconnect from everything. maybe it's bc i want to hurt myself but i don't want to talk to anyone#i don't want to talk to my (i guess) friends with all of this hanging over me#how can i talk to them when it feels like i'm yet again the one people don't Choose to talk to. i'm never the one getting chosen#i'm just the guy that happens to be there when noone else is around. no going out of their way to talk to me bc why would they#my head hurt my heart aches i feel like trash and i'm tired#stuck in the ducking circle of hate. can't even go to sleep bc i'm not tired yet#i'm getting too old for this#can't even trust people that want to talk to me after i post this bc what if they did only bc they saw this. wouldn't be genuine once again#@the human feeling of searching for connection: middle finger emoji#back to the viddy game grind to take my mind off this i guess#i'll be fine by tomorrow dw. i've been dealing with this since i was 6 years old. decades of experience 💪
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