#BECAUSE IG IM JUST. SITTING HERE

[acoraxia]

SWK and Erlang both having INSANE relationships w/ people who they love is so special to me <3

Just the idea of love being expressed by prying open a rib cage to get to the core of someone. I love all of you, and that means I needed to be the one to rip you to pieces. (Please make me bleed to make sure I still can)

I’m normal about this I swear!

I love this and I love how insane both of them also are btw

My theory and headcanon that Sun Wukong did kill Macaque out of anger and rage and he thinks nothing of it. Because death is such a close friend to Sun Wukong because he almost died so many times but he keeps defying it, conquering it, so when Macaque dies he thinks, ah. Well. Goodbye. And then when Macaque comes back it’s an annoyance. It’s a bother. It’s poison on his lips when they circle around each other like predators in the water.

Sun Wukong is a god listening to the gospel of one heretic that calls himself his beloved friend and faithful warrior and he listens to it like a melody that’s always been there for him. He chooses to do that. He chooses to listen. He can ignore him just as easily and yet he doesn’t. And when he listens it’s the same as sinking his teeth into Macaque’s hand and then licking the false ichor that spills from it. Biting the hand of the one who worships you—isn’t that poetic in a way?

And then Erlang is the one purposefully missing his target. Chasing after a fox when he could be done with this already. His mother raised him better than this but who is she now that she is dead and gone? Now that his sister’s gone? His cousins away with their lives and his uncle now dead and missing from the throne? Shouldn’t he step up? Take over the throne? Find a way to fix the mistakes of Heaven’s system and their twisted logic?

No, he chases after a fox instead. He chases until he’s got her in his grasp and there’s red on his lips and hands and neck and chest and he has to scrape it off with bruising strokes because it stains. And a part of him purposefully leaves the red marks on his neck. A trophy from hunting, if anything.

They are both just as bad as their “partners” if not worse because they are gods who do not care for sex or romance or attachments that fall under that category. So it’s unique. It’s insane. They made something unique for the sake of holding death in their grasp and being able to stare them down as though it were a conversation.

Isn’t that just love though?

[stellawolfearts]

Stop being scared just draw.

do it scared, do it angry, just draw.

[meowmedusa]

looking at the clock and going "oh. i didn't. even realize it was past 8pm." and its not funny or cool its just unbelievably concerning

[snekdood]

when ppl are like "do u know ppl of x minority that ur still in contact with" as a gotcha ig to say ur not actually as open and progressive as you say you are but bud... i dont talk to anyone from my past, lmao, I dont think thats a fair metric to go by quite frankly

[gxlden-angels]

I have a lot of religious guilt around being angry, especially being angry at someone, and it's so funny talking about it with my therapist because I'll admit something like "I feel like Im in a constant low level state of resentment" or that Im thinking something slightly harsh about a person and my therapist will be sitting in his seat like

[froggomcdoo]

you ever read a work of fiction so good that you immediately need to find more and consume it but it doesn't have any more and there will likely be no more so you just suffer and think what if.

[treasure-goblin]

Woag, big brain happenings today

[arc-archernar]

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[todayisafridaynight]

looking back on all my y7 comics is so funny but now im compelled to organize them 'chronologically' and see what that looks like

[ghosts-of-love]

i love my friend so much but i don't like being a third wheel anymore i don't think

[princekirijo]

Man I've been so sleepy

[elegyofthemoon]

In the cool, plush core of the moon sleeps a mouse as we speak, dreaming of a world lush and green, then golden and undulating, then chopping and churning, a world of many surfaces with skies of many moods.

When it awakes, it will poke its tiny head out of a crater and bask in your glow as it does every morning. Here, all is still and silent. On that sparkling planet in the deep black distance, the sun seems capricious. But the mouse lives in the abyss of the body and therefore with a unique perspective on its essence. The mouse sees what other life does not see.

One needn't worry about unbecoming for the sake of containing a sun. Clouds may blanket the atmosphere of a planet, but still there burns a sun. The spots on the sun's surface may grow and shrink and shift, but still there it burns. And if one decides to cool it down like a waning flame or expand it in a cataclysmic supernova, still there it burns, and one has the right to revoke the state of their existence and become new.

Because perhaps the truth is you are not the sun--not alone--but it is rather a part of you. Your body is the solar system, each planet a world within the body, and each knows this glow in different ways. Some are nurtured by its warmth, others by its distance. Regardless of the sun's changes, they stay the course encircling it.

The universe cannot be held back, harnessed, fully comprehended. It pulls at the seams of solar systems as it pulls on its own seams. In that unstoppable shifting, we stumble. Sometimes it feels like our love and light slips from our fingers, shattering irrevocably in our falls. But what makes us cannot be seperated from us, even in times where our essence is obscured.

There is always another life to appreciate your life, no matter what happens. And in the least, there is always a little mouse in you that understands you in telescopic clarity and offers forgiveness for every change--no matter what, right into the end of time.

❤

[fifteensjukebox]

11, 20, 23 <3

hiii tysm dani im sorry it took me so long to answer iI wrote my answers in the order of hat I thought of and i think they make the most sense in the order i wrote then:

20. If you could send a message to yourself back on the first day of the year, what would it be?

it wouldn't have meant as much at the beginning of he year iirc but i think my current mental health journey became very real for me the day of some unrelated appointments on april 18th in that people were touching me and my stuff (actually feb 15th appts definitely apply to

anyway new paragraph now that im actually getting to the point which is that i wish i had seriously considered an ssri earlier, im only couple weeks in so idk if it'll work but i have so much hope and i wish i'd gotten here sooner but new year new me will have to do! it's mostly taken so long bc i keep thinking i want to see if fixing my sleep schedule fixes my brain but. my brain the ay it is i can't seem to fix my sleep schedule so.

11. Something you want to do again next year?

oh i definitely said this when this ask game went around last year but travel!! we'd started planning this year's trip by the time i last answered this and while it was hard bc i was trying to stay soooo clean physically which is impossible while travelling, im learning to let go and get clean when get home (will get to apply this plan on our tropical trip in. holy shit 9 days single digits i have to pack ??)

anw it was so much fun portugal and spain (aka spordugal per my brother's typo when he made a folder for my photos) are soooooooooo beautiful and we were hoping to go back to italy next year but we may not have n opportunity in good weather bc my brother's going to catch up from part time uni so he can go full time next year and be on pace w his new gf

(have i mentioned hannah on here? wore a v cool burgundy velvet dress w combat boots to a school formal (which i did not expect in uni??) and she and matt organically started something at the dance anw i just met her bc they're doing a studying sleepover at our house and i already love them (hannah they/she im sure i will mention her plenty more oh one more thing i followed them on ig and they follow zac oyama and ally beardsley but interestingly no one else i follo interestingly.... must discuss tomorrow... they went down to matt'sroom to play video games w his projector oh actually i hear pool table activity v fun)

20. Whats something you learned this year?

im answering this one last and both of my other answers relate to learning about my mental health and cleaning stuff so i desperately want this answer to be unrelated... oh in an indirect way this is related but isn't everything : i learned that my way of over preparing and making packing lists for travel is super worthwhile bc i did not have time for europe bc i as too busy cleaning stuff i didn't end up using and ended up packing my suitcase the day we left and forgetting so many important things (really just everything related to my period including pain meds)

i really wanted to think of a fun new skill orsth but i don't think i have any from this year so this'll have to do! still rly enjoyed answering even thought there's like 0.5 fun answers in here thanks again dani for asking!

[mbat]

editing captions is sucking my soul from my body but i have to do it augh

[kirbear]

thinking abt compulsory transmasculinity (a thing that affects me and only me and is not a real thing at all)

[puppmeo]

Have you ever been assumed to be romantically attracted to someone and even just the thought of that makes you want to throw up . Anybody