#and people dont understand that bond ig
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i love my friend so much but i don't like being a third wheel anymore i don't think
#just like. i was a third wheel all the time for a year and then their partner moved out.#but that means that its more pronounced when one of their partners is visiting#the the boyf stayed for the first time this weekend and ive not known how to exist really. physical affection feels off limits#but my friend is fine with it so has continued but it feels really awkward to have them be sitting in their boyfs lap while holding my hand#idk idk i think its because i basically have 1 person who im able to be physically close to#its then a bummer when theyre here but feel far away. on account of the presence of Some Guy.#sometimes i worry that im in love with my friend because several people have asked me if i am but i dont think i am#like i love him and we understand each other deeply but like. in terms of wanting to go on dates or have sex im like. no not at all.#but also recently ive been feeling like that about a lot of people. where i want to be close to them. but i cant tell if i want to have sex#with them. like fully how do you know?#i think my problem is that i would just die for my friends.#and people dont understand that bond ig
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its always been so hard for me to make friends !!! i just dont get how its so easy for people and everyone just exchanges numbers and sscial medias all the time and here i am not connecting with anyone .-. like im always so so sosososo dumbfounded when i hear and see people talk abt hanging out or following eachother and stuff like... damn fr no one wants to be my pal !
#i even asked one girl at work wat her ig was and she didnt even follow me back .-.#idk !!!! even when people are nice its so hard to get to the next step of even being aquaintences !!#like 2 of my coworkers r so sweet and they even gave me a gift but idk how to like .-. make a friendship move#plus i'm not rlly good at planning any type of hang outs so its hard cuz like idk idk#anyway idk i was just thinkinh about how my entire life its just been so hard for me to connect with people literally my whole life....#idk if it will ever get better >.<#im so lonely and i always feel like such a burden too my best friend#but seriously i feel like the only reason we even became and stayed friends was because she was so so sosososososo idk ! talkative and#inviting like i dont think anyone would ever be like that with me again#and obv i liked her a lot and yeah idk if i myself could connect with someone like that again bc its so hard for me to just . connect with#people !!!!! and i#always notice some 'flaws' in people its such a bad habbit of mine but like ugh!!!!!!!! not even flaws i just when people say weird stuff#its so off putting but like its so common am i just suposed so be ok with it?!?!??! ijkshdj#the only other person ive been extremely close too was my hs friend ughhhhhh but idk >.< things just change and i understand that#its just i feel like an even emptier person now in life i dont even know what i like or anything and i cant just bond with people over stff#i feel genuiny EMPTY !#npthing makes me happy i feel like everything is fleeting
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Minor HOFAS spoilers ig?
The Walmart bonus chapter just leaked and good lord some people need to be for real. I'm so tired of people picking and choosing evidence.
So you're telling me that *gasp* Azriel's shadows seem to dance when he hums?? they react to sound/music?? no way. people from all sides of the fandom have been saying that for years (and use it for different arguments), and looks like ppl are still tying anything they can to feed their ship--which is fine but at least make it somewhat accurate.
The above is the last page of the Az/Bryce/Nesta chapter, and just as a refresher, this is the oh-so controversial phrases from the Az bonus chapter:
"(...) one of his shadows went out to dance with it (gwyn's breath) before twirling back to him. like it heard some silent music." and "(...) he could have sworn a faint, beautiful singing followed him. could have sworn his shadows sang in answer."
I'm confused, which is it? Was the shadow's reaction to her breath & the singing he heard all metaphorical, thereby hinting at a mating bond between gwyn & az (as in "music between souls")? Or was it rather azriel's shadows reacting to a literal sound coming from someone who has arguably been hinted at having some voice/song-related abilities? Because if it is the first, then this new HOFAS excerpt is completely unrelated. Well unless Azriel has a mating bond with himself? pleaseee make it make sense I beg. And if the second is true, it would mean that for someone to be able of making his shadows dance, they'd have to have similar powers as him... its just gonna fuel the lightsinger theories (which btw approx 5 ppl are saying means that gWyn is eViL) so this literally changes nothing. nada. absolument rien.
Oh also.
"He says no partner right now, aka NO FUCKING ELRIEL. ELRIEL IS DEAD." (no hate to whoever posted that btw)
He literally rushes out that answer. Idk about you guys but to me the poor man still seems internally dead over the whole mate existential crisis, which as far as we know was left with him wondering "what if the cauldron was wrong". Sidenote but if I understood correctly, this all happens 2-3 months post acosf and Bryce spends ±5 days in Prythian, so it is very likely that it is all set during Acotar 5, and that the events of HOFAS in general are happening while Az is separated from the other MC (ie. the acotar5 FMC).
Regardless of all I just said, I am going to ask people once again to be for real. cause this whole chapter Azriel keeps glaring at Nes when she is about to reveal too much info, so WHY would he be mentioning Elain (or literally anyone he cares about) to someone who he is said to be highly suspicious of? make it make sense x2
Almost forgot. Last thing.
"Azriel said that Nesta killed the King! He didn't credit Elain!"
... no? for context, this is what Az said:
See my second point above. He told Bryce exactly what Nes did, and nothing more: she beheaded Hybern. We could speculate about what his look at Truthteller made him think of... but tbh I'll leave it to someone else cause perso I dont really see the point.
I am getting tired guys... guess who finally understands what "fandom fatigue" is.
-----quick edit-----
I don't mean to sound hypocritical by tagging ships, cause tbh i dont even wanna put acotar ship tags to this, mais bon c'est la vie et j'en peux plus. this fandom is kind of a mess. Goodnight loves ♡
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OOO what about a Dark Fey reader like Maleficent? that was being hunted down by a dangerous group of cryptid hunters, and had a broken wing n wounded by iron bullets but kept running.
And the Creeps found them took em in. and since ferfolk cannot lie,.. caught them off guard with a question on how they felt about that creep 😉
I expect to see Slenderman!👁👁 and another ig👍plz
idk I rarely see Supernatural like readers, it's a little disappointing imo. I love powerful self-inserts ok?
Slenderman with a Fey!S/o
UWAAAA I'm sorry for taking so long to get to this !! I've kinda been sucked up in a bunch of irl stuff !! (Nothing serious, just me working on things)!!
Admittedly I have never watched maleficent; so I'll solely be going off the info given in this ask I hope that's alright ☝��😔 and I apologize in advance if it's no good 😭💔
As you specifically brought up slenderman, he's gonna be our star today!! I was originally going to do the full list of characters but my brain js
A raisin
Also also!! I totally get what you mean ab the shortage of supernatural readers!!! Not just in the creepypasta fandom; but really any fandom! Let the insert have powers, let them be super strong, ect ect !!
You'd stumble into him after trying to hide and take shelter in his woods
Normally, he'd take down any trespassers after stalking them for a bit; but he was just too curious about you to make that the case
I dont know, I always think of slenderman to carry that kind of curiosity about the world and other creatures; I feel like that makes him more interesting than the fandoms standard "stern and oddly fatherly" take... also I just live the idea of curious cryptids!!
Moving on
He'd help patch you up with the resources in the forest; I've seen mixed opinions on whether or not slenderman has weird healing powers but personally; I think he has regen abilities that can only be applied to himself! Unrelated to the ask I know, but a quick little fun aside and little bonding point for him and s/o if they have the same deal going on
As for shelter? I'm personally still on the fence on if I wanna make the manor thing a part of my personal universe and hc that I write for these silly lads; but rn I've settled for a version of it! Not as grand or tidy as the old fandom hyped it up to be; it's a lil smaller and kinda... run down
Still livable, though, and you're more than welcome inside if you need somewhere to stay
Granted, I'm not entirely sure how the topic of romance would be brought up with him, but let's say he picks up on some behavior from you that makes him start putting together a picture
Bro has zero rizz I'm sorry
Regardless, he eventually asks the question; and as the rules go, you're kinda forced to tell him how you feel
I think regardless of if he reciprocates or expected your answer, he'd be surprised
I mean how many people are out here flirting with a forest monster, to their face
I think it could work, honestly! The relationship I mean!! I wish i had more hcs since this is such a fun idea, but I genuinely dont know much about fairy stuff and all the lore regarding them
But onto some more side hcs/little ideas to make up for the lack of stuff !!
If you need comfort, about the whole being hunted thing, slenderman is a good listener; and he understands what it's like, bro probably has to deal with people trying to get a look at him all the time. He gets it
Want revenge on them? Well if the hunters followed you into the woods they probably wont last long anyways; despite the whole curiosity thing he can be... rather territorial
Day to day life with slenderman is interesting as is, but with a fellow non-human companion? Shenanigans will likely ensue
What kind? Cant say, due to my lack of knowledge 😔☝️
Too injured to move around on your own? If you need to go somewhere slenderman will either fetch it for you, or just carry you to where you gotta go
Also he totally wont make it habit; even before the romantic relationship is fully formed
It just activates his neurons 😔
#creepypasta headcanon#creepypasta#creepypasta x reader#creepypasta x you#slenderman x reader#slenderman imagine#slenderman headcanons#creepypasta slenderman#slenderman
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hewwo (trying new ways to say "hi" thoughts?) Since you seem to be a dignified person with dignified taste in storys, what would my good sir recommend in reading? Or do thou have a favourite that thou fancy? #i mean the mandalorian #we people that don’t want to read romance
Howdy m'lady!
Well, I don't read that many fics in general, and the fics I read you probably alr know/read b4. I'll try to name a few that I keep coming back to check for updates and just to feel something in my soul lol
The Mand’alor and the Jedi : The best fic series out there yet. Literally just dad and son longing for each other, them bonding and trying to understand each other better, Din doing everything in his power to protect his son. Our old man sure did not sign up for the Mand'alor role but he still does his best at his job and everyone respects him for who he is. The writer really understands the characters and the new OCs in the story are interesting as well. There r also a lot of world-building regarding Mandalore itself so it really is everything I asked for haha. Big plus: Din doesn't remove his helmet for no reason, and he keeps it on most of the time.
Dream Child: my second fave. Still waiting for more updates from the writer lol I think there's only 1 more chapter left. The way the writer came up w the lore is so interesting. Also a lot of father and son bonding and learning/re-learning how to communicate and care for each other. Plus Ahsoka does a lot more for the wee boi and Din here than in canon so god bless. Big plus: again, Din doesn't remove his helmet for no reason, and he keeps it on most of the time.
Found: a short one, just Din trying to adjust his temper while caring for the green bean
Yet Sweeter Still Shall Be the Tears: another short one of Din trying to take care of his frog son
Infant Car Seat Required: i just- i really love seeing this awkward old man trying his best to take care of and understand a fucking toddler ig o(-(
Apostates and Ever Afters: not much to say about this other than it's super sweet. Kinda a reflection of Din and bebé's choices post-Booba's Book event.
Other than these, I dont think I have anything else to offer. I look at Mando's fanart a lot more than reading fics hahahah. But anw, glad to see more noromo mando comrades out there, i hope you find sth worthwhile here lol
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I wish I could find someone as insane as you with terminal velocity who was that mad about martin and tim then i consider why don't i become that yk
Anyways terminal velocity headcanon of the day ig but i uhhh unrealistic they are both friends with martin and martin played matchmaker to set them up on their first date thank you for listening
Don’t let your dreams be dreams go dedicate 110% of your brain power to it like your heart tells you to.
Also AHA I think Martin n Mike r good buddies. They’re both great at sounding polite, theyre both good at observation, both can enjoy a decent cup of tea without tannins, both enough of assholes to establish mutual respect.
For me i don’t see Martin and Oliver getting along super well, theyd be friends but something about how Oliver carries himself (Martin looks for alot of himself in how other people view him and to have someone who is both so uncaring ab sins and also happy to speak to him makes Martin a little uneasy because I feel he’d be waiting for a shoe to drop/would have trouble trusting the friendliness.) I think Oliver thinks Martin is chill but finds him to look at the smaller picture too much (Oliver envies the ability to in a way, but also i dont think hed be able to understand how Martin can have lived thru what he has and still fret over things like that genuinely.) tldr i feel both would look at each other like ^^ i know uve got some wacko shit in there and until i know what it is let’s be buuudddiiesss. (Theyd get alot w proper bonding n trust tho. They both find their own meaning of humanity with Martin’s difference being more subtle but he does blatantly look past some discrepancies in his moral code and like to notice small things ab other people)
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omg whoa crazy... known poly wtei ambassador maskspurpose just happened to rb a ship ask meme....... guess i have no choice...
22 - wataei, 19 - watayuzu, 16 - eiyuzu, 13 - wataeiyuzu 😳
youre so fucking cute and i dont even think you know it. what the fuck.
wataei: 22 - How do they apologize after arguments?
kidnapping each other with helicopters. this shits easy, next question. UM no okay i think to some extent they do have the general balance of it down-- both of them are good ("good", maybe even okay or fine) at recognizing when they've done something thats upset the other but neither one of them is good at saying "im sorry" and they instead rely on other means to try and make it up to the other. eichi is really good at long-winded explanations in which he can get kinda self-flaggelaty that wataru isnt a huge fan of and wataru likes to rely on like big gestures of reconciliation and while both of those do help i think the biggest element of them making up is then like... in them spending time together?
i think wataru at one point must have told eichi to stop apologizing for stuff because eichi gets SO down about it to a point where it doesnt help either of them
watayuzu: 19 - How do they silently/subtly express their love for each other?
god you know that one homescreen line where yuzuru asks wataru to make a mess so he can clean it up because he needs that right now? i think it's partially stuff like that. fine have all become really good at watching out for each other and i think wataru is one of the people who watches out the most for yuzuru. it's like the whole thing about masks, imo? like as the people most accustomed to wearing a kind of mask, they find it easiest to let it down around the person who understands it.
like i think there's a lot contained in the simple act of like having someone who you feel you can ask for stuff without really having to hold back even if it's something as simple as "i'm feeling down or frustrated or just generally On Edge and need a distraction, youre a good distraction, please help" and i think wataru would approach yuzuru for similar reasons... i just almost used the phrase "when he needs to be grounded" which is ig a fun double-meaning here... hehe
eiyuzu: 16 - What’s their favorite “domestic bliss” moment? Do they cook/clean together? Do they like to go out shopping together?
The image of yuzuru being forced to do any domestic task in the company of eichi would perhaps drive both of them crazy. can "schemeing corporate warfare" be a domestic activity? can "tormenting ibara" be one?
I like the thought of them actually doing more work together after Yuzuru graduates-- he already helps out a lot at the office but I like the idea of Eichi involving him more in this type of work when school is no longer a factor. it's the opposite of domestic though, I guess... I think Yuzuru is more appreciative of a tea break than even Wataru (who tends to be restless if it goes on for too long, which can be a lot for Eichi on stressful days) especially if Eichi actually forces him to engage. I think he has to start out using like weird underhanded tactics to actually get Yuzuru to go along with whatever he's doing (you know the story where he's doing breakroom drink alchemy? yeah) until he's successfully tricked him into a regular (semi-peaceful, it's still yuzuru and eichi whos main bonding activity imo involves discussing war strategies or something) one on one mid-workday date
wataeiyuzu: 13 - What’s their opinions on PDA?
SPLIT. i think its something yuzuru isn't comfortable with to the same extent as wataei. i think he'd enjoy like. casual terms of endearment and potentially even just like the odd subtle casual like. touch or brush of hands (i think wataru and eichi are both ABSOLUTELY on board w shit like this. its about the Tension.), but he won't let himself be roped into making out in the starpro office or anywhere where someone who isn't any of the three of them might be able to see it. tori is a complicating factor and i think yuzuru really struggles ESPECIALLY when tori is around because it's so ingrained to him that he cannot really let himself be human around tori and that takes a while to unlearn? i think he does eventually but ig the like timeline i'm thinking about is canon-adjacent and. yeah not yet LOL. this is the real reason we don't know about wataeiyuzu being canon, perhaps.
another complicating factor is of course all of them being public figures and ESPECIALLY idols. i think wataru and eichi are both people who wouldn't have an issue with pda in theory but they are both ABSOLUTELY aware of stuff like public image etc and put huge importance on that so they're absolutely extremely careful about what they actually do when observed by more than just. fellow idols.
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dont think you guys understand how autistic i am for my own ocs like. ezra and damien!!!!!! theyre sapphic and achilean and the same time. ig their straight. kinda. theyre not even dating but they have the strongest platonic bond youve ever seen but also they kinda are dating. they are best friends, practically inseprible until ezra sacrifices his fucking life for her. because thats what he was trained to do. because they grew up in a suicide squad together. where the mission comes above your own life. and when they wnet into the deep sea metro together. well he saw the mission as protecting damien. and so he did. but from damiens angle? well ezra just shoved her to be destroyed by thesantised octarians, lifeless reanimated corpses of her old friends. how fucking cruel. and fucking. ezra becomes eight, sure, and finds pearlina, who kinda adopt him, and he meets saki/four at the old squidbeak base from s2 because cuttlefish took him, and three doesn't even bother to meet him, but it's fine and he has so much more in common with saki than he ever did with damien and hes beggining to think that maybe hes found a new, better friend. then order sucks him and saki (as paralel canon) into the memverse (in this version it's the 10F boss and when ezra splats them just the mask cracks and they are freed because i love gay people) and after defeating order. well they go back to inkopolis square and who is there but /FUCKING DAMIEN/ with someone who looks exactly like three. and she is PISSED at him like straight off and yaknow the whole "YOU LEFT ME FOR DEAD" "I DID IT TO SAVE YOU" "THE FUCK YOU MEAN" (ect ect) convo happens and ezra finds out all the shit that happened to damien since and like everloving great octarian. and then saki is chatting w/ cici and its like "what do you mean they went to the splatlands and got a new three" "oh yeah and damien is new four" "THEY REPLACED ME THE FUCK??" and now like four hyperactive gay genderqueer teenagers want a taste of marie's blood
anyway. im normal.
#ramblings#squidposting#side order spoilers#splatoon#splatoon 3#splatoon ocs#i will update the lore at some point..
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aves watching you complain is soooooo fucking funny oh my god anyway 13 and 16 for the ask game!!!
thank you i love being a hater <3
worst blorboficiation
ehh depends how you view it. like i said so many ppl who love fitz also ruin his character and its fucking awful. and i hate how keefe stans talk abt keefe but thats the younger side of the fandom really which 1) they prob dont use the term blorbo and 2) id feel bad being mean to them like tbh they get to mischaracterize him as long as theyre having fun. ill just ignore them <3
you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)
i already answered this but ive always got more!! so i dont get that whole headcanon that sophie and oralie bond in the future and form this mother/daughter relationship??? like okay ig its nice and wholesome but. but WHY. like its one thing for them to talk it out and have a respectful relationship but i dont get wanting them to become super close and loving like idk its all bs to me????? i dont need oralie and sophie to become mother/daughter i need sophie to go fuck it! abt her bio family bc she has grady and edaline and shes okay 💖 and FINE maybe its the oralie hater in me but if oralie wanted to be a councillor instead of a mother then sophie can treat oralie as a councillor instead of a mother!!!
#like WHATEVER forgiveness is important healing bonding growing all that shit but idfc?? oralie will be FINE i really do not care#shes a grown woman i dont feel bad for her its not on sophie to go and repair whatever bs relationship they couldve had#i dont like oralie. thats the main point#kotlc discourse#kotlc#i got a message 📜
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Alright here we go. Not even sure what this ep is called… oh Tribe. Okay.
Season 2, episode 6. Tribe:
Egg
Space egg.
“Notorious for illegal smuggling” okay so you’ll fit right in!
OMEGA ECHO BONDING TIME?!
Tech believing his assurance is gonna buy them security like dude i am so sorry ppl aren’t as trusting as that. Yea I know it fools me 2. All the time. Evidently people don’t understand that you don’t like lying. Ig they don’t meet a lot of people who don’t lie? Idk. But yea sorry there sport. Autisms gotcha there.
I love that echo likes wearing his kama btw. He doesn’t have to anymore—
OMEGA DONT RUN AWAY
Oh Wookiee.
This better not be Chewbacca again I’m so tired of everyone needing to meet each other. The whole wide galaxy but these 20 people all meet? Yea sure.
I mean it was very nice when it’s Kanan and Hera in this and also Rex in Rebels. But… cmon. It’s okay that Chewbacca didn’t know Ahsoka before TCW. They didn’t NEED to meet.
Okay sorry that tangent aside
I love omega. I love how much she wants to help. Her big big heart is just so refreshing <3
Tech: lmao omegas at it again
Oh it’s Gungi
Side note. I still miss crosshair
Egg
Space egg
Sigh I miss crosshair :/
I adore Echo. Clinically minded.
Honestly this Wookiee just makes me think. AND ZENDAYA IS MICHIIIIIIII
Kashyyk is very pretty. I deserve to live there. Also yea rip they’re just droppin this kid somewhere he’s never been since he was like. A little baby.
Spider guys… but also they look like the Tully monster. Or an Opabinia. Spiderbinia. Tully spider. Idk.
10/10 soundtrack tho. Mwuah.
Hang on would a whip even hurt that much if it’s through that much fur? Like I get that it might bruise but. It doesn’t seem like it would do it’s intended damage… why bother whipping them then?
God I hate how their voices sound. It’s like Trench all over again. Literally had to skip over every time he talked bc it hurt my brain to listen to his clicks. It made me feel very bad inside. Same with the Trandoshian voices. It’s to rasp-gurgley.
Oh I LOVE those creatures. Big ears. Fuzzy. 10/10 would love to pet.
Oh my god wait. Gree. He died here. And he didn’t want to. He was a good man.
I’m sad now.
Oh yea Tully spiders ftw
Hehe it’s so funny to watch them just peck at him oh my god
Tech: oops looks like I need to translate
He loves helping. He overcommits. Love that guy.
Hm again. Not my fave. What’s next week? OH THE CLONE CONSPIRACY. I’m very excited for that. Here’s to hoping it has crosshair too!!
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happy pride month! - 6/4/24
i've had a lot of thoughts on julian's sexuality. it's insane. it's not that deep but it is because the mechanisms of my mind are an enigma. i originally sent pieces of this over discord at like 4 am but it's the most i've been able to explain it in words lol, i ended up adding more to it and expanding upon it slightly more
basically....he is bi yes but hes also a flavor on the ace / aro spectrum in the sense that yes he can feel sexual / romantic attraction but it isnt Often. like it is totally out of sight out of mind until it isnt and he puts the puzzle pieces together. he never noticed eva starting to like him or ever even considered anything romantic w him. they spent lifetimes together but he was going through time loop torture nexus he didn't exactly have time to think about that. there was a timeline where eva confessed to him, and he had no idea he liked him until he confessed. i think i labelled him demi because he just doesnt feel anything until hes spent a long time with u and has forged a lifeling bond of steel with u, but even then he's mostly just given Awareness by the others saying something first
i tried (kind of cringely) to touch on it in the third evacuation ocfic i wrote where he like. he feels an attachment to eva, considers him the person he's closest to, is comfortable with laying in a bed with him and holding hands but literally doesn't really consider it might be love / a romantic relationship until eva tells him he loves him and his brain is like oh yeah. that makes sense......in this timeline too.....yeah ill hold onto this guy forever maybe i love him
he's also extremely physically affectionate already, and was just kind of brought up in a way where he doesn't see a big deal in homies kissing each other goodnight. he doesn't mean to come onto you. which confuses eva so much
overall i think he just doesn't think of romance that much, just kind of does things out of sheer attachment and connection. he expresses and feels love differently in a way thats really hard to describe but i think an aro person would understand/phrase better (i considered it as a label myself before, but i ultimately ended up just deciding my feelings and energy might fluctuate but in the end i feel romantic attraction and develop crushes lol)
put under a readmore for paragraphs about sex i just love intricate rituals . sorry.
read more but he like. he doesnt usually feel sexual attraction, more often than not the others initiate it or he offers it to please them or relieve them rather than being Horny For It, and really is just going with the flow and willing to try anything. he doesnt judge or care he just likes making his partners happy. it isnt even in a “ehh i dont rlly want to have sex but whatever he wants ig” way, its consensual and julian is happy doing it, just doesnt rlly feel the sexual drive to initiate it himself *shrugs*. he's more of a giver than a receiver and just likes pleasing his partners.
a lot of him initiating sex otherwise is “hey you look tense/we havent done this in a while, do u want me to help u with that (trying to sound flirty)” or “hey i found out about this thing do u wanna try it it sounds fun”LOL
he is poly and hes also fine w his partners having sex without him or consentually having sex w someone else, and is fine doing it with a friend or something if they want to and not expecting anything more from it because he just sees it as smtng humans Do. yes it can be display of trust and love and sexual desire, but also separated from that its something people do just because it feels good! so if they wanna, and jules is ok w them seeing him nude, why not ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ he's....very lax about it
idk. its so hard to describe. but he experiences it different than me which is hard to shift my brain into anyways. but he's so special 2 me. my little guy. he KNOWS what sex is he KNOWS what a boyfriend adn girlfriend is he isn't an innocent bean but he just DONT GOT TIME FOR THAT HES GOT A TIME LOOP TO SOLVE /J
(ends up supermarried because he spent acual lifetimes keeping this man alive and attached to him like a little worm. love cares him so much thinks hes handsome and likes driving him up the wall and eva wants him romantically and carnally)
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Samoth's IG Post Philosophycal Break Down: Fish In The Pond 🐠🚣🏽♀️
(thanks to this Gaylor to inspire me to be more philosophycal!)
One day, Samoth decides to post a simple-looking question on instagram: A fish lives in pond without any of them talking, but they still able to eat. Whose responsible is that? And he gives three choice: A) Somebody takes care of it? B) Because its own fate to find its meal? C) Because of God takes care of it?
Indonesians characteristic, many answers the C, little answers all of them. A and B choice is close to none, because typical Indonesians (and men) believes in supranatural religion and believes in ultimate power than admitting human thinking.
Personally, I feel like in the first glance, the answer would be A immediatelly, and I know that Samoth wants to say that in response to the DPR wants to change constitution, they should have listened more to people. Simply put, it is right and very Samoth, despite he always talks about being equal in the ending of Giginfinity concert. Equal between people and its government, and to make sure everybody can get their equal rights.
But something stops me. Something interesting to breakdown each of his choice.
What would it be?
Does he want to say something deeper?
A: Somebody takes care of the fish
First option is the easiest to answer, and we know Samoth's answer and stance wont be this far away from truth. Though, I personally disagree: not anything comes from tax.
But let's take a look again at his premise: without any speaking much...
The fish really doesnt know anything, right? How could they, on earth, still managing to be this evolving from billion years ago if they know that their main source is from a human? Moreover, who decides that he still stays alive without a human spreads the meals to them?
Of course he asks to the pond, but who can assure that they are still alive?
B: Their own fate to be independently find their own food
When I think of 'kodrat', it means something fated to you. Stereotypically. Women should cook. Men should lift women. Brother and sister should this and that.
When Samoth uses the word kodrat here, I feel like it is used negatively. And to think being independent is one of the worse thing to do... which is sad, but we all know Gigi is conservatively having tight bond. With its quiet progressive views.
But lets take a look again: if a fish in a pond can find its own food, then what can of instinct that allow them to stay alive with food created by humans?
Moreover, to keep staying alive after much much revolution, it costs their own genes to die, to try, and to choose which one the best to them. Their instinct is the best, and later who knows that humans cant create anything, that in the end it dies them?
Their survival instinct is the best, no?
C: God takes care of them
This is the easiest and more favorable answer by Indonesians. God takes care of them, and of course these fishes should carry on with themselves.
But with God gives them anything, it means that: fish has ability to differentiate which composure that they are ready to eat. Humans can make their own food to be given to them. This creature still alive with or without humans giving anything to them. Synergizes.
What does Samoth really means here?
It leads to two things: One, in the climate of people being overly selfish in the form of government, it takes cool thing to stay energizing with your own people. People cant stay having revolution if they dont have good union with its people. And one of its way is understanding its uniqueness.
Hendy says that Samoth sometimes more academical than actual academic, so no surprise he would come up with smtg like this.
What was the actual answer? Who really has so responsible so the fishes can carry on their lives with food? In the end, all the choice holds the same value. No way they can make humans make food to them if they cant find something to eat by themselves. And those instincts are such gift from God. In the end, anything synergizes. God gives, humans gives, and you know yourself. All those things from the fate you hold to yourself, and you know.
Two: Gigi is a fish in pond, and they stay through thick and thin together. Until people know how to feed and take care of them, by God's grace, they will continue evolving as proud fish in pond.
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i really should be doing alot of things but if only two days ago i had some vigor left in me not it's been emptied
im a tough nut, always has been, but you know the worst is came knocking when the shell's cracking from the inside out. you can't escape it because while the crust can protect from the outside, inside you are nearly always alone with everything you had ever had and can only watch every single crevasse becoming a wound and a scar, and another crevasse sprawling into a dashing ray of light
isnt necessarily a bad thing. opening up to people help ease the pain because most of us have similar experiences which we resonate with, reflect on, and cope together, eventually bonding over these things. but the ray is blindingly painful to look through because, on the inside, for all this time you had to be tough for both oneself and others, you're still a delicate and a living being. the tougher you are simply means other people will have to find a way through the shell should you need their help, to open up, to think by a proxy as your own perception can be crucially twisted for the lack of communication, or perspectives, or a specifically configured modus operandi, or anything else for an effective survival in certain mentally challenging at best and debilitating at worst environments and climates.
mayhaps, in short, i just wrote my understanding of sharp's mentorship from the mc's perspective. i imagine her being very, very tough despite the young age; obviously i am projecting my experiences onto her, if not fully indulging -- the scar she has is based on my dental adventures this winter -- and reflecting upon it, shite was my upbringing that i had to grow a shell to have a mental from-all protection. of course she'd be tough as i was. but my girl is lucky, she has someone who can say without condescendence and judge, hey listen, if you are tired, if you need a rest from life, sweet dreams and lazy afternoons, go take it while you can but and ideally should for the rest of your life; i'll handle this for you, dont be stubborn or tardy for butterbeer and friends, remember, do run along now.
i crave the sense of trust they developed and now have for each other
wish i had both time and strength to just sit and write the whole thing down
sorry for the ramble im a sucker for the found family angsty fluff and i like to ramble ig
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1 and 3 for any fandom
ask game "CHOOSE VIOLENCE"
i will be doing it for ons because that is the fandom that i witnessed the most volatile bullshit lmao
1. character everyone gets wrong
ok I don't trust fucking anyone with Guren. We're all aware of this but for the love of GOD why is NO ONE CAPABLE OF CONSIDERING THE NINE FUCKING LIGHT NOVELS OF REASONING FOR WHY HE IS THE WAY HE IS AND WHY IT'S UNDERSTANDABLE. I've seen over time the gradual reduction of his character from "funny absent father haha" to "just the worst terrible abusive irredeemable dude ever" LIKE PEOPLE PLEASE ARE YOU GOING TO TELL ME IF UR WEIRD EX BRUTALLY MURDERED YOUR ENTIRE TRAUMA BONDED FRIEND GROUP AND THEN KILLED HERSELF AFTER TELLING U U COULD RESURRECT THEM . AND ALSO YOU'RE SIXTEEN. HOW MANY PEOPLE WOULD HONESTLY BE ABLE TO REFUSE
3. screenshot or description of worst take you've ever seen on tumblr
THIS IS SO HARD I DONT REMEMBER 99 PERCENT OF THEM
ok but like, back in the very early days of me being on tumblr there was this girl who ran a blog dedicated to shipping mika and krul which like. live ur fucking life ig but mika's a teenager and krul is 3000 but looks like an eight year old???? you know i couldn't even tell u what to think about that it's just such a situation. i was civil with her and for some reason we had been messaging because we had some shared headcanon about mika, for like 15 minutes
however she kept flooding all the ons tags with a billion posts about this ship i couldn't stand so like. at least two weeks after this isolated civil conversation i blocked her because well she was annoying as hell and I didn't want her on my dash. then she made a burner account to make a callout post about me about how you "shouldn't block people without telling them"?????????
and then proceeded to message me again about how i was a terrible friend (i talked to her once)
god that was so.
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meowmeow, sweety! 'you gave yourself away' you dont think these were accidents, dont you?) im glad to be here too. a little uncomfy though bc i still feel like im scamming your subs TT bc usually just some people who just send messages r anons and those who have at least ups r some bloggers. but alright. pathetic man evil meow meow TT yeah we love him. 'i’ll even distort reality if i have to' tbh sounds like a good fic idea for me... 'its more of a compliment to viserys' yk i also was confused when vissy called daemon 'son'. i was WTF. bc while its understandable why daemon acts like that, why vissy acts like this?? esp if the difference between them is 4 years (idk but you said 'too' so ig so?)? at first i even thought maybe its a twisted dream of daemon TT 'everyone deserves love even stinky daemon' FUCK GHDKFHFJ i meant to write he thinks he does NOT deserve love (thats why neither from wife nor). HGJDF my sleepy mind just read the previous not as the negative and was like in english they dont say that so no. so silly TT like daemon seeks hes brother approval (thought he gives it to him in a way), he insists that his WIFE hates him (though she still took a ring and made wedding promises), he REEKS of insecurities abt not deserving love. 'FOR YOU FOR NOTICING' dont forget i passed an exam where you dont have right answers you just analyse the texts and write 5 essays. i notice too much. not always write abt it (bc ive been writing these 2 replies for 3? hours or so) but always notice. 'even tho ur siblingless' im siblingless but not eyeless? mindless? 5 essays girl. 'DONT APOLOGIZE' i remember how you enjoyed my first expressive reply so im sorry i cant give you these emotions anymore( 'a very specific reason i added it in the first place' 😶 TUMBLR DONT LET ME PUT THIS STUNNED EMOJI WITH THE HAND BUT NO BLUSH. nvm. will the dragons' skeletons regain muscles and soft tissues and become real or will oberyn martell come to life out of his coat? 'ITS A FANFIC BUT ITS NOT' HAJSJD catmom youre so mean. AND how come you promise to watch tlou but dont watch doctor who😡 youre so cruel and dont like me and matt smith and good plot and twisted timelines. 'something so deeply intimate' yeah absolutely understand. i nave a specific form of my name which can make me literally cry when called. 'he would 100% make a shrine for her and worship the ground she walks on' he better make it up for her for waiting for 2000 years for him. 'NOW I WANNA WRITE SOME AEMOND FICS' NOT hinting on that idea with the hades and persephone, no, ABSOLUTELY NOT😶 are these 2 kitties aemond and aegon while investigating? gsdjmlsk 'HELP ME THAT WAS SO BEAUTIFULLY AND BREIFLY PUT' ooh thanks. hope its a compliment. also. ive just thought. i can see daemons horniness as not so real desire to have sex with he reader but to feel her closer and get some familiar and more tangible confirmation of their love, bond and her not going away. makes sense. 'to be super tender and sweet and full of love' YES! big brains think the same! absolutely yes! in this case its essential! although all dominant daemon is hot, i can imagine him being subby more often than anyone wants to agree and also so pretty. SORRY i got distracted. i can see him as the type to just kiss readers shoulder/neck/arm/any bare skin he can see whenever he can to just feel her and confirm that shes with him, not leaving him, not always sexually. 'if you dont feel comfy reading smut if i do write it just skip it' 1) thanks for caring abt me🥺 2) i reblogged frost bite... girl... 'I 100% MEANT' OMG TT no but imagine him calling reader 'my queen' in a hushed voice during the wedding night and in high valyrian bc its still a treason but shes HIS Majestic Eternal Wife. i really wanted to make it short but got carried away so pt 2 again. sorry TT
idk what his cat is doing so silly HAHHAH
HELLLOOOOOOO
meowmeow, sweety! 'you gave yourself away' you dont think these were accidents, dont you?)
well i just thought 'oh well i know who she is now'
im glad to be here too.
a little uncomfy though bc i still feel like im scamming your subs TT bc usually just some people who just send messages r anons and those who have at least ups r some bloggers. but alright.
scamming my subs? first of all what? subs? is this youtube? i- no one is being scammed ??? you can send me as many messages as you want. also 'at least ups r some bloggers' i dont know what you mean T_T
pathetic man evil meow meow TT yeah we love him.
HAHAH
'i’ll even distort reality if i have to' tbh sounds like a good fic idea for me...
/: i mean its what happening to THIS fic so HAHAH
'its more of a compliment to viserys' yk i also was confused when vissy called daemon 'son'. i was WTF. bc while its understandable why daemon acts like that, why vissy acts like this?? esp if the difference between them is 4 years (idk but you said 'too' so ig so?)? at first i even thought maybe its a twisted dream of daemon TT
no T_T it wasn't viserys calling him son wasn't him trying to say 'oh im older than you and this is our dynamic, father and child' it was more like, he froze because daemon thinks he's their dad and so he's just pretending to be who daemon thinks he is so that #1, he'll get the closure he wants in this moment, #2 he'll listen to what he'll say, #3 it's easier to go with it rather than tryna explain smth to a drunk man. i guess that part wasnt very clear. i thought people might confuse his intention there and i was right T_T it be like that its ok it was too next level and i knew it
'everyone deserves love even stinky daemon' FUCK GHDKFHFJ i meant to write he thinks he does NOT deserve love (thats why neither from wife nor). HGJDF my sleepy mind just read the previous not as the negative and was like in english they dont say that so no.
ah i see HAHAHA that makes more sense AHAHAAHHA he is looking for love everywhere T_T its ok ur sleepy mind mind needed sleep sleep
so silly TT like daemon seeks hes brother approval (thought he gives it to him in a way), he insists that his WIFE hates him (though she still took a ring and made wedding promises), he REEKS of insecurities abt not deserving love.
HE DOES HES A PATHETIC LIL WET CAT WHOS SO INSECURE WITH HIS DADDY ISSUES
'FOR YOU FOR NOTICING' dont forget i passed an exam where you dont have right answers you just analyse the texts and write 5 essays. i notice too much. not always write abt it (bc ive been writing these 2 replies for 3? hours or so) but always notice.
T_T HELP THE EFFORT YOU TOOK FOR ME I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THANK YOU SO MUCH MY LOVE MY HEART MY SOUL
'even tho ur siblingless' im siblingless but not eyeless? mindless? 5 essays girl.
HAHHAHAHAHA OK HAHAHHAHAHAHA
'DONT APOLOGIZE' i remember how you enjoyed my first expressive reply so im sorry i cant give you these emotions anymore
T_T im touched you remember. im just glad to get anything you are willing to give my love <3
( 'a very specific reason i added it in the first place' 😶 TUMBLR DONT LET ME PUT THIS STUNNED EMOJI WITH THE HAND BUT NO BLUSH. nvm. will the dragons' skeletons regain muscles and soft tissues and become real or will oberyn martell come to life out of his coat?
HELP ??? WHAT HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH no no it's nothing like that... or is it HAAHH
'ITS A FANFIC BUT ITS NOT' HAJSJD catmom youre so mean.
HAHAHAHAH its what she deserves for making get into pedro pascal
AND how come you promise to watch tlou but dont watch doctor who😡 youre so cruel and dont like me and matt smith and good plot and twisted timelines.
T_T i only agreed to watch 1 episode. ive watched 3 episodes for doctor who! i love you and i also🤢love🤢matt smith but taking on doctor who is so much more daunting than that zombie flic. and again i'll only watch 1 ep. if its tHAT good then i'll watch more
'something so deeply intimate' yeah absolutely understand. i nave a specific form of my name which can make me literally cry when called.
see 😩
'he would 100% make a shrine for her and worship the ground she walks on' he better make it up for her for waiting for 2000 years for him.
ASHFHE:LFHEF ??? BUT THAT WASNT HIS FAULT T_T H:ASFHLAKSHFKALSFH AFHASLFHALSFHAFH SO MEAN TO DAEMON AND FOR WHAT HAHAHHAH DESERVE
'NOW I WANNA WRITE SOME AEMOND FICS' NOT hinting on that idea with the hades and persephone, no, ABSOLUTELY NOT😶
omg i forgot about that!! we'll see. i have some aemonf reqs collecting dust in my queue so lol HAD:HASDAS i might do those first
are these 2 kitties aemond and aegon while investigating? gsdjmlsk
SFDHKAFHAFHASF OMG MAYBE HAHAHAHAH CUTIES
'HELP ME THAT WAS SO BEAUTIFULLY AND BREIFLY PUT' ooh thanks. hope its a compliment.
IT IS A COMPLIMENT IT IS A COMPLIMENT I LOVE THE IMAGREY YOU MADE FOR EVERYTHING T_T UGH I THINK YES I THINK SERVING I THINK SLAY
also. ive just thought. i can see daemons horniness as not so real desire to have sex with he reader but to feel her closer and get some familiar and more tangible confirmation of their love, bond and her not going away. makes sense.
youre SO SO SOSO RIGHT HES SUCH A SIMP AND PATHETIC AND STUPID AND I LOVE THAT IN A MAN
'to be super tender and sweet and full of love' YES! big brains think the same! absolutely yes! in this case its essential! although all dominant daemon is hot, i can imagine him being subby more often than anyone wants to agree and also so pretty.
;KDFGHLKHG;LKDHSGDK YUM YUM I LOVE THAT SO MUCH ;SAHGF;LHASD;FHAS;LDKFHADS;LKFHASD;KLFGHDAS;FLKGHASDF;GADFL;KJASDGF;KJSDAGF;KSDAJFGSAD;KFJD NOT ME WANTING TO SKIP EVERYTHING AND JUST WRITE THAT SKDF;SKFG;SKFGKFGSDKFFK;GF;SAFG;SADKFGAS;FGSADF;
SORRY i got distracted. i can see him as the type to just kiss readers shoulder/neck/arm/any bare skin he can see whenever he can to just feel her and confirm that shes with him, not leaving him, not always sexually.
YOU AND ME BOTH JUST THIS ^^^^^ THIS EVERYTHING THIS^^^^
'if you dont feel comfy reading smut if i do write it just skip it' 1) thanks for caring abt me🥺 2) i reblogged frost bite... girl...
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH IM LAUGHING SO HARD OK AHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAH
'I 100% MEANT' OMG TT no but imagine him calling reader 'my queen' in a hushed voice during the wedding night and in high valyrian bc its still a treason but shes HIS Majestic Eternal Wife.
;SKLFH;SDHFSDHHAHD;AHSDAHDADASDH WHAT DO YOU MEAN IN A HUSHED VOICE MANS ABOUT TO SAY MY QUEEN IN HIS VOWS ON MIC WITH THE SPEAKERS ON MAX IN FRONT OF THE ENTIRE WORLD FUCK TREASON HE LOVES AEMMA SO MUCH AND WOULD KILL FOR HER BUT YN IS
HIS QUEEN
AND AINT NO ONE ABOUT TO GET IT TWISTED HE WOULD COMMIT THE MOST UNHOLY OF CRIMES FOR HER AND THATS ON PERIOD
i really wanted to make it short but got carried away so pt 2 again. sorry TT
DONT EVEN APOLOGIZE IM HAVING SO MUCH FUN but i do have to finish my homework and do laundry so i might read your other messages later
xxx
i love you thank you so much for this response. i hope you are doing well
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hiii, this might seem weird but do u have any head cannons for when the reader is pregnant and how the Darkling would react?
a/n love this concept,, it's not weird at all!! i feel like there's so much here!! also i leave for college this month and im lowkey starting to freak out so ive been watching star wars movies for comfort 😭and now i have half a mind to write for them, especially the prequels (cough, cough,, anakin) 😭 😭 that should tell you where i am mentally
anyways lets get into the headcanons:))
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- okay so like most of my headcanons, this is probably going to be all over the place bc i feel like so many different things could change how he would react. Like if the darkling x reader have been trying to get pregnant, or an unplanned pregnancy with someone he really likes, i also think whether or not the reader is a grisha affects his reaction too
- in general though, i think he'd lowkey have a breeding kink he'd def find something about the thought of you having his child really attractive bc for one thing, he wouldn't have to worry about being left alone and now he has an excuse to be a real 'protector'.
- also if youve read my other headcanons i am 100000% convinced that he has this thing where if he really likes someone he needs them to need him (let's all remember the whole 'i will strip you of everything you know and love speech until I'm your only shelter' speech he gave to Alina)
- also i kinda want to write a fic or blurb series or something that's just the darkling being super toxic in super thoughtful ways LMAO if that makes sense, like he's being super sweet but it's to make sure the reader is dependent on him
- and he def wants to be the protector to give himself some sense of assurance bc he's so desperate to not be alone anymore and bc the reader is the only person he has/loves, he wants to feel in control and like he's the less attached one
- okay,, let's get back to the pregnancy thing, anyways, your pregnancy is most definitely activating all of those senses and this was meant to be a sub plot but it kind of became it's own thing lol
- so lets get to the actual pregnancy reaction
if you two have been trying to get pregnant:
- when you tell him, he kind of like, pauses bc it's not every day that he gets surprised so it takes him a moment to register that he's experiencing shock lol, so he tenses and goes islent
- and then after he realizes that he's surprised and that it's bc of a good thing, he manages to relax
- meanwhile you're kind of freaking out bc he got so quiet?? you start to wonder if he's regretting ever wanting a child with you? and you're like two seconds away from a downspiral and then he...
- he touches your cheek and looks at you in a way you've never seen him look at anyone,, not even you
- the look is so warm and strong and full of fierce admiration that you feel foolish for ever thinking he didn't want this. And then he says something about how you're carrying his child and how he didn't realize he could adore you more and then he kisses you and it's all :)) warm:)
- he doesn't want anyone to know that he's expecting a child as long as possible bc of how many enemies he has and how he has to worry about you enough when people just know that you're his 'lover' (a title you never really liked, but one he tells you is necessary to make sure no one realizes the extent of his attachment)
- if you really want to tell your mother or someone of that relation, he won't be mad about it, but he just needs to know
- Genya is the only exception bc the darkling basically instructs her to look out for you,, but when you tell her she's like oh?? you guys just found out?
- miss girl most definitely noticed like a day and a half ago after you cried bc she couldn't find you ice cream the other night 😭and she just assumed you knew but weren't ready to tell anyone
- okay so this what i think is his most problematic expecting father trait would be. So i just ranted about how important secrecy would be to him but he's also the most overprotective person in the entire world,, like he was bad before but once he knows your with child?? yeah, if a man asks you about the weather, he's done for
- he's next to you in a second, ordering either you or the man to do some asinine task
- if you get mad about this (rightfully so) or even just point out how nothing is wrong and you having a casual conversation with a man who isn't even looking at you sexually won't hurt you or the baby, he'll lose rationality
- it depends on how much you push, but it'd be super easy to make him super possessive bc like i said, being bonded by a child has made him so much more intense (and he was pretty intense before)
- and if you push too much he'll lowkey forget about how cautious he's trying to be with you and pin you against the nearest wall and say something along the lines of 'are you already forgetting you're mine? that i own you, body and soul--is my child growing in you not enough of a reminder? because i'll give you another one if you need it.' (AH--i want to write a whole fic based on this line)
- also if the reader is grisha, especially if she's a sun summoner/special grisha like him, he def talks about the power that they've created and how proud he already is and how he can't wait to train together and be the most powerful family in the world
- not everything is perfectly happy though, bc now he feels more pressure to complete his plan and establish the world he wants his child to be born into
- so sometimes when he's working extra hard or is extra aggressive for no reason, you have to work at calming him down and reminding him that the best thing he can do for his child is be there for them (and the child's mother,, lol)
- sometimes he'll respond by actually listening to you and trying to make up for his absence or his aggression by being extra soft until you finally forgive him
- you never last that long, it's hard to be mad at him when he's coddling you and whispering such sweet things about he's so happy to have you and your future child
- overall, his first reaction is to swell with emotion, which he isn't used to, and so he becomes super protective but also extra lovey and you know that his overreactions are just him trying to show that he cares about you and your future child more than anything
If the pregnancy was unplanned:
- the initial reaction is pretty similar, only his state of shock lasts longer
- like i said at the beginning, he's not used to being surprised and an accidental pregnancy is so much more surprising than a planned pregnancy
- this really sucks for you bc he's not exactly known for his patience so you just kinda sit there and genuinely wonder if you're going to be a single mom or if you're going to want to deletus the fetus or something
- but then he takes a step towards you and you see how he's looking at you and you just know that that fierceness has to mean something good
- and at this point you're scared and nervous and feel so alone so tears are pricking at your eyes,, so he wipes his thumb across your cheek to wipe away tears you won't let spill
- he then whispers something really sweet about how you two are now together forever, as you should be
- it's really relieving bc you felt so alone and uncertain and he's such a smooth speaker that by the end of the night, you feel like this is a good thing
- if youre still hesitant/weighing your options, he's not above trying to (gently) manipulate you into thinking that what he wants may be the only way
- by that,, i don't mean outright tricking you bc he means everything he says, but he def is pushing the keeping the baby agenda,, especially if you're a grisha,, and even more so if you're a grisha with similar power levels to him
- he won't get angry at first bc he's not so out of touch that he's unaware of how shocking a pregnancy is to a woman who wasn't planning one,, but his patience is limited and if you fight it too much he will get mad and yell
- but unless you really don't want to have a child, it won't get to that bc he makes the idea of having a baby with him sound so perfect?? like you genuinely don't understand how he did that
- he chases away all of your worries and assures you that youre not alone and that even though it isn't planned he wouldn't rather anyone else carry his child
- the initial conversation would probably end in you two sleeping together again bc he finds the fact that you're carrying his child so attractive and bc being aware of the pregnancy makes him more possessive
- it's also a good way to fight any of your doubts
- speaking of being possessive though,, i feel like he could be a little more possessive/protective of a reader who didn't plan on getting pregnant bc your relationship has been less established
- no one sees you as anything to him and he doesn't want to start rumors now bc it's important to him that his enemies don't find out about you or his future child so he doesn't want that to change
- but he almost forgets about all of those reasons each time he sees a man get a little too close,, especially if that guy is flirty
- it takes all of his will power to not just go 'she's mine and if i wasn't worried about the stress that witnessing something violent would cause our unborn child, you'd be dead already, but if you're not gone by the time i turn around, i'll forget about caution'
- lots of close calls ngl!! at one point youre like 'if it bothers you so much, maybe you should tell someone??' and he's like 'no,, maybe,, shut up' and then you raise one eyebrow and he just closes his mouth and is like 'i mean,, i'll kiss you to shut you up, haha--dont be mad'
- youre the one that's pregnant but sometimes you think he might be the one experiencing the mood swings i swear 😭
- so your little theory gets tested,, he's not the type to gossip with his besties and be like 'guess who's officially my girlfriend, i knocked her up but it's not like it sounds--'
- so he's like ig you can tell genya
- once again genya is like ?? yall thought you were keeping that secret? couldn't be me
- but having it a little out in the open helps ease him just enough that youre actually capable of consoling him when he becomes jealous
- still though,, he's quick to go into possessive/pregnancy kink sex
- youre most def not mad about it,, unless pregnancy has you particularly sore
- he's normally pretty understanding about that and def doesn't mind pulling his weight in the bedroom when he needs
- honestly he'd be really good at being a source of calmness at the beginning, but as time goes on he becomes more and more worried about finishing his plans bc he didn't expect to have a child right now
- so he'd be more adamant about working/becoming more tense and would be more difficult to console if it was an accidental pregnancy
- when you call him out on it--or on anything while your pregnant--it's frustrating for you both bc the number one thing everyone knows is stress is bad for baby, so he's trying to keep you calm without backing down
- these argument always end with one of you clinging to the other,, and then the more angrier of the two just like shuts up, rolls their eyes, and lets go of the argument...at least for now
- the main difference between an accidental and intentional pregnancy would probably be how you perceive him,, bc an intentional pregnancy means youve talked about things but since you havent talked about anything your shocked about how soft he becomes ??
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