#npthing makes me happy i feel like everything is fleeting
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its always been so hard for me to make friends !!! i just dont get how its so easy for people and everyone just exchanges numbers and sscial medias all the time and here i am not connecting with anyone .-. like im always so so sosososo dumbfounded when i hear and see people talk abt hanging out or following eachother and stuff like... damn fr no one wants to be my pal !
#i even asked one girl at work wat her ig was and she didnt even follow me back .-.#idk !!!! even when people are nice its so hard to get to the next step of even being aquaintences !!#like 2 of my coworkers r so sweet and they even gave me a gift but idk how to like .-. make a friendship move#plus i'm not rlly good at planning any type of hang outs so its hard cuz like idk idk#anyway idk i was just thinkinh about how my entire life its just been so hard for me to connect with people literally my whole life....#idk if it will ever get better >.<#im so lonely and i always feel like such a burden too my best friend#but seriously i feel like the only reason we even became and stayed friends was because she was so so sosososososo idk ! talkative and#inviting like i dont think anyone would ever be like that with me again#and obv i liked her a lot and yeah idk if i myself could connect with someone like that again bc its so hard for me to just . connect with#people !!!!! and i#always notice some 'flaws' in people its such a bad habbit of mine but like ugh!!!!!!!! not even flaws i just when people say weird stuff#its so off putting but like its so common am i just suposed so be ok with it?!?!??! ijkshdj#the only other person ive been extremely close too was my hs friend ughhhhhh but idk >.< things just change and i understand that#its just i feel like an even emptier person now in life i dont even know what i like or anything and i cant just bond with people over stff#i feel genuiny EMPTY !#npthing makes me happy i feel like everything is fleeting
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