#Autism Blog

[felixs-infodump]

can y’all show me your favorite sensory/fidget toys?? they can be anything

it would be great too if y’all could say what you like about them too/what they help you with sensory wise, I want to buy some sensory/fidget toys I’ll actually use/like

[eivorswife7]

Being an autistic person at school:

comes with a lot of stress, mainly because it involves masking, which is a coping mechanism where I mask my autistic traits and try to behave more neurotypical. It’s very draining and requires a lot of energy, and it’s still not enough.

comes with w lot of stress because of sensory overload, e.g bright lights, increased sensitivity to certain sounds, crowded spaces, loud noise, bad smells and textures. Each of these factors make my daily life harder, I feel irritated, tired and overwhelmed/overstimulated.

comes with a lot of anxiety, because I have trouble communicating, I take things literally sometimes, I find it hard to know what someone’s tone of voice means, or their expression. It makes me overthink and overanalyze details in order to come up with an appropriate response.

comes with more increased pain, my period cramps, headaches, pain in general are stronger, which often leads me to a sensory overload and is invading my daily life and makes me unable to to concentrate on basic tasks. It also makes me unable to participate in PE classes sometimes.

comes with a lot of emotional dysregulation, since my body can’t regulate my emotions the way the neurotypical one does, it’s harder to do so. This makes it harder to write tests, complete excersises in class. It can take a toll on my mental health and grades.

[loremipsumstims]

hannibal lecter (nbc) stimboard !! i made a will one so i obviously had to make one for hannibal too B) i miiiight make a freddie lounds one too at somepoint but no promises

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art creds go to AmandaTolleson on deviantart !!

[surrah698]

Awe!! 😍🥰 That's an excellent word!

[greeneyebrunettebambi]

Bratz dolls are so cunty 🎀

[pinksmonkey]

Roblox Has A Problem

Hey everyone, sorry for the more serious post today, but I have an important issue I really need to talk about and bring attention to.

Recently when I was trying to upload one of my autistic pride designs to make a t-shirt on Roblox, I was sent a moderation warning saying this:

(And this was the image I uploaded btw):

Obviously I was annoyed and frustrated by this, so I contacted Roblox and sent an appeal message.

Today I received a response from Roblox Support saying this:

Does this action seem fair to you? Because it doesn't feel fair to me. I ranted to one of my autistic online friends about it after, where we discussed it in more detail and you can understand more of the context around why this is so messed up. (I got permission to share these screenshots.)

I know Roblox moderation has never been great, it's always had its issues. But as annoying as that is, in this case I feel like it's crossed a line. This isn't just about Roblox either, this is about how society views autism and the lack of autism education in general. I'm not just upset because I can't post something on Roblox, I'm upset because my voice as an autistic person is being silenced while other products on that platform are clearly mocking autism, and I'm trying to teach people about us. This is completely unjustified, and it sets a scary precedent when marginalized groups get censored for talking about their own experiences. Yes, Roblox is for all ages, and we should keep conversations appropriate, absolutely. But autistic people's existence, disability in general, is not inappropriate, kids should be learning about it. We don't need to discuss eugenics and hate crimes towards disabled people on Roblox, of course not, but I should be able to mention my identity without fear of being punished.

Basically, censoring the word autistic doesn't protect autistic people from hate, bullying, and discrimination, that is still happening regardless. What it does do is make it harder for us to fight back and stand up for ourselves, teach people about the realities of autism and normalize us as human beings. It's doing more harm than good, and that's what I hope Roblox can start to realize.

If you agree with me and want to make a difference, please reblog this and share it as many places as you can. We need to send a message to Roblox, and show them that silencing autistic voices is not ok. Obviously, be civil and respectful though, I just want to have a peaceful conversation about this problem, and hopefully Roblox will care enough to hear us out.

[best-of-theworst]

My AuDHD and eating...

It's so annoying trying to have a good relationship with food while being AuDHD...

(I know it's not the same for everyone, just sharing my experience)

I'm always doing something, always hyper-focused on something... sometimes, I just forget to eat. What's more, my body doesn't even send me signals "hey you dumb fuck, you haven't eaten all day!" Most of the time, even when I'm focused on something, my "eating alarm" gets me out of it and I go to eat something. BUT all too often, I just can't hear the alarm! My phone is always right next to me, and I don't hear it! And that's a problem, not only because people need to eat, but also because I have insulin fucking resistance... so it's like, double bad. And I take meds, I should eat before taking them, but I'M LOOKING FOR INFORMATION ABOUT THE HISTORY OF OCCULTISM IN THE MIDDLE AGES AND READING ABOUT QUAZARS! I HAVE NO FUCKING TIME TO EAT!!! So when my lovely mother comes back from work it usually goes something like this:

- OP have you eaten today?

- Ummm nooo...? I actually don't remember, but did you know that the moon moves away from us by ~3 centimeters per year? Isn't that crazy and sooo amazing!? You know what else is amazing? Architecture! Especially botanical brutalism and Gothic! Yes, I know, total opposites! But I love both! Gothic architecture is characterized by-

- OP! I would love to hear more about it, but maybe we could eat first?

[stories-me]

Potential Character for Mrs. Kelsey and Tumblr 5/22/2024:

Rambley Raccoon, Chief Mascot of Indigo Park:

What he’s from: Indigo Park.

What he might be in: Gamma World.

All about him (according to the “Indigo Park Guide”): “The star of the show is here! Everyone’s favorite trash panda, Rambley is here to make sure you have the most fun as possible! While his friends may think he gets a bit too excited, Rambley is always there for his friends! No matter what happens, Rambley will be there to brighten your mood! Meet Rambley today, only at Indigo Park, located in scenic REDACTED!”

Personality:

He can be rather childish, likes trains, and likes to hear himself talk. He takes his job very seriously, places a large amount of importance on those he considers friends, has a good conscience, and wants to do what’s right.

Background:

Rambley is one of the inhabitants of Indigo Park, and, like the others, was based on one of the beloved characters of animator Isaac Indigo. His life and his job were simple: Make the guests happy, alongside his friends: Francis Fox, Mixie Mouse, Finley the Sea Serpent, Lloydford “Lloyd” Lion, Salem the Skunk, and Mollie Macaw. Even his “enemy”, Salem Skunk, and his rival, Lloydford “Lloyd” Lion, were a part of this.

Then, one day, something happened. Something bad. Something none of them expected. It started when some of the guests and “cast members” came in. They looked uneasy and nervous, but, at first, didn’t want to talk about why. Eventually, one of the cast members mentioned that there were “tensions” between America and certain other nations, but assured Rambley that “life would go on”.

Suddenly, a strange sound was heard. A siren. The guests and cast members began panicking. Rambley and his friends tried to calm everyone down. Then there was a big flash and it felt like something hit them.

In spite of all this, Rambley managed to convince his fellow mascots to keep everything ready, for when the guests returned. Francis kept the gardens in order, Mixie made treats and dishes, Finley kept his shell collection in order, Lloyd rehearsed for his performances, Salem used their inventiveness to create gadgets around the park, Mollie kept her planes in working order, and Rambley himself organized things and kept the park clean.

They continue to wait for the guests to return. Maybe those folks on the horizon might be guests!

How he is like me:

We both put a lot of emphasis on friends (like Trey, Mr. Kuartez, Dr. Mosier, and others) and we like to talk about things that interest us (like Rambley likes trains and I like fan fictions).

Kelsey Notes:

Sometimes individuals with autism never outgrow their “childlike” interests and preferences. 

          This relates more to feelings of nostalgia and remembering a simpler time in their life

It can also relate to having an appreciation of something from the past that they feel guilty forgetting about (i.e. holding on to stuffed animals or VHS tapes)

Rather than fixate on what might have happened to the guests, Rambly was able to encourage everyone to hold on to hope and keep everything up and running until their guests made it back

Keeping the park up and running gave them jobs to do and kept them busy in their spare time even though they didn’t know if the guests would return or not

Rambly was able to help keep them distracted to not find out about the events happening outside of the park

Sometimes keeping busy can be a good thing because it helps to build tolerance for non-preferred activities

Having enough activities to fill the day can also be helpful when we get bored of our interests- it’s hard to believe that we can get grumpy spending TOO much time with our interests and free time

          It does happen and this is usually when a support system steps in to help with activities outside of the house, etc.

There is such a thing as having too much time to think which can often lead to restlessness, anxiety or hyperactivity

Jobs like keeping the park up and running, even if it seem pointless, helps Rambly and friends balance their time and it keeps them distracted from overthinking too much about what could be happening outside the park

[lifeonkylesfarm]

autism acceptance month is for all of us.

it's for the autistic kids that are being abused in ABA, and for all autistic kids

it's for the undiagnosed autistics that are wondering what is wrong with them, and for all undiagnosed autistics

it's for the autistic people of color that have faced increased trauma and violence for their intersecting identities, and for all autistic people of color

it's for the autistic afabs and women that faced difficulties with getting diagnosed, because people only think of little boys when they think of autism, and for all the autistic afabs and women

it's for the autistic lgbt people, who feel othered within the lgbt community because of ableism they've faced within it, and for all the autistic lgbt people

it's for the autistic trans people who feel that their gender intersects with their neurotype, and for all autistic trans people

it's for the autistic people who have been abused at school

it's for the autistic people that have been alienated and othered

it's for the autistic people that have been abused and othered by their families

it's for the autistic people that have been hated by neurotypicals because they are different

it's for lonely autistic people

it's for autistic people that fear and hate neurotypical people for what has been done to them

it's for the nonverbal autistics, who are treated like they understand nothing, and for all nonverbal autistic people

it's for the autistics that are working on unmasking, and for the autistics that still must mask for their safety

it's for the autistics who use mobility aids, and for those who need them

it's for the professionally diagnosed autistics, and the self-diagnosed autistics

it's for the autistic picky eaters

it's for the autistic people that have high support needs, and are dehumanized by others for it

it's for the autistic people that have low support needs, and are seen as less autistic because of it

it's for the autistic people who have been infantalized and dehumanized

it's for the autistic people with trauma from how they have been treated for their autism

it's for the autistic people who have meltdowns and the autistic people who shut down

it's for the autistic people recorded having meltdowns

it's for the autistic people who have been treated inhumanely during meltdowns

it's for the autistic people that self harm during meltdowns

it's for the autistic people that lash out during meltdowns

it's for the autistic people who feel empathy and for those who do not

it's for the autistic people who have taken their own lives

it's for the autistic people that have been killed by their caregivers and parents

it's for the autistic people who have been assaulted and harassed

it's for the autistic people that have been bullied

it's for the autistic people who are ashamed and for those who are proud

it's for the autistic people that are loud and for the autistic people that are quiet

it's for the autistic people that are hypersensitive and for those who are hyposensitive

it's for all the autistic stimmers out there, who stim in every way there is

it's for the autistic adults that have a hard time finding the support they need

it's for autistic boys, autistic girls, autistic enbys, autistic women, autistic men, autistic people of all genders, trans autistic people, nonbinary autistic people, gay autistic people, queer autistic people, autistic people of color, autistic people of all races and nationalities and ethnicities, autistic disabled people, fat autistic people, thin autistic people, mentally ill autistic people, and every other autistic people I could list

it is for all of us, because all of us live in a world that does not accept us

and we deserve to be liberated

[esotericdykee]

i don't know why i am the way i am *i'm autistic*

[felixs-infodump]

why is having a job so…difficult?? like, I “can” do it (by that I mean I can physically do my job (I work at a grocery store) but I feel like im gonna die the whole time)

like yesterday, i worked a closing shift and i think i was having a panic attack for like 2 and half hours. there wasn’t even that much happening, so idk why i felt the way I did. I thought I was going to have to text my manager to get someone to come and take the rest of my shift because I thought I was legitimately going to pass out

[neuro-nest]

Soundcheck, please??

I can’t be the only one who has moments of ‘wow, so many opportunities, not enough lives’, right? Or ‘I can’t believe I’m in a car, if I was that cavewoman in the cave, I would have never left’?

Like I wanted to be an author. I wanted to be a game dev. Now I’m working on a business degree. But I’m also thinking about, ‘well, if I didn’t have undiagnosed ASD in school, maybe I would have liked science more!’.

It’s hard to describe, I guess? I don’t mean it in a nihilistic way that you ‘realise the world exists and it goes on whether you’re ready for it to’, I mean it in a ‘you realise the world exists, it’s big, it’s bright, there’s so many opportunities, and you’re so tiny, you’ve already made some choices that open up more choices but close off other choices you really wish you could see’?

I’d call it derealisation, because it feels like realising how reality is so strange that it is what we have and not something else from a billion other choices that could have been made, but from what little I know about that, that’s not what derealisation actually is. It’s like a sensory overload but not sensory and more mental?

Am I just having an existential crisis every now and then? I’m too young for that.

My neurotypical mask tells me I should be making friends, studying, drinking and having the time of my life with the ‘university experience’.

Me tells me that I feel like biting my knuckles, chewing on my hair, chewing on my shirt, binge eating, finally getting around to reading, playing a videogame, finishing a bunch of other videogames, applying for stuff, tidying up more, reading, yes I repeated that-

Is that what we call a burnout? Because I only identified what a sensory overload was half a year ago and I’ve been diagnosed with ASD for about four years now.

Right, well, take cute rats as a reward, checkpoint and breather.

[turtlesystem]

animals that bruce (who was at a very young headspace today) and william (official little) got excited over today:

• eastern ring neck snake

• milk snake

• corn snake

• cookie cutter shark

• lemon shark

• American woodcock (as always)

it is their job to list Every Animal Ever to every passerby . comment to be assigned an animal

- arlo

[autism-info]

Just some of the behaviours that are present in some way / shape / form. As always, not every autistic person is going to experience the same symptoms the same amount, it is different for each individual person.

[greeneyebrunettebambi]

Me learning to accept my autistic self and unmask 🩷

[pinksmonkey]

In regards to my last post, someone in the comments mentioned that if discrimination is against Roblox rules, then their moderation is breaking their own rules. So I took screenshots of the specific sections of their rules that describe discrimination, hate speech, and slurs. And look what I found.

Disability is specifically mentioned, including mental disabilities. So would you consider not being allowed to make something about being autistic (as an autistic person, to share a positive message about it) discrimination? Is it discrimination to not let disabled people create things related to their disability - a part of their identity? And if so, don't you think Roblox should really make sure that their moderation system abides by their own rules.

This isn't the only thing they have issues with moderating either. I've had trouble regarding sexual orientation and gender identity moderation, and I've heard others talk about the problems in moderating racism. There's just a serious moderation problem in general when it comes to identities. Maybe if we're loud enough about it, Roblox will make an effort to fix it.