#Asd

[v3ggyqu33n]

TW SH and suicide!

When I was deepest in my depression, I was so overwhelmed by the lack of feeling or emotion that I wished I could feel pain just so I could feel something. Unfortunately, this gave way to severe impulses to self harm and passive suicidal ideation.

Many people don't understand that SH is a coping mechanism that reduces the symptoms of depression and makes the person feel better short term.

However, this quick reward quickly turns into emotional lows, rumination and self-hatred. The chase for the short-term benefits is why SH is, above all, an addiction, and it should be treated as such.

I am 1.5 years clean and my life significantly improved after I stopped sh, however it was incredibly difficult and I relapsed many times before succeeding.

The first few months were hell, without my unhealthy coping mechanisms I had nothing to distract myself and even with family, a therapist and a close support system, I couldn't feel any improvement.

But now, here I am over a year later. Living proof that it is possible, and I feel better than ever.

I graduated school, got a job, bought a car and have incredible friends both online and in person.

If you are struggling with something similar, just know that life may be hell now, but soon life will be better.

Besides, we all need to outlive the shrivelled orange.

If nothing else, live out of spite. Prove the bullies wrong, make space only for yourself, and ALWAYS ask for help.

My dms are always open and my page is a judgement-free space.

You are not alone. YOU ARE LOVED! <3

Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin

[autism-affirmations]

[the-lion-guard-88]

As a person who has Asperger’s Syndrome, I can confirm that this is true

The autistic experience is wanting to be an artist, a writer, a baker, an animator, a mother, somebodies wife, be totally independent, have a large friend group, only have one friend, move away and never speak to anyone ever again, never leave home, collect stuffed animals, heal your inner child, be a grown up, stay young at heart, get a job but not something you aren’t passionate about, eat safe foods, hate your safe foods because you’ve eaten them too much, scream and cry about how you feel like no one understands and you don’t fit in, love being different and not fitting in and not being able to do any of it because the seam of your sock isn’t sitting correctly.

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

NPD + autism culture is your special interest being ruined by shitty writing and wanting the rights to said franchise to be given to you so that you can rewrite it. Because I know that I can write it better than its shitty creator.

-❄️🍬

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[weirdplutoprince]

Autistic? Me?

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[raichuu-agere]

Does anyone else get that wave of discomfort that comes over you when you hold back from stimming? Or is that just me?

[kjsadd]

relevant to my interests as I try to parse the differences between ADHD / ASD / NLD / HEDS and figure out which one(s) I have and maybe it’s all the same and nobody knows anything really

some people on the astrology post seem very concerned about having their beliefs respected, but what about my beliefs? namely my belief that any system claiming to accurately sort every single human being on earth into a set number categories based on arbitrary information is horseshit

[ieatratsforbreakfast]

I struggle to find my place in the autism community.

I'm 15, not diagnosed, but my parents have always known I'm autistic.

When I was a toddler/child, I flapped my hands, I didn't respond to my name, I had trouble telling people how I was feeling or what I was thinking.

I didn't know my parents knew, until I found a book in our living room. "The highly sensitive child" by Elaine N Aron. The book, in short, is telling parents who think their child is autistic that they're not, and that they are actually just a "Highly Sensitive Person."

My mother, once told me she would rather die than have an autistic child. She told me her life would be over.

I struggle. Day in and day out. Without help. I go to a special education school, which my parents swear is not "actually special education". I have frequent speech loss episodes, I use AAC 40% of the time. I wear headphones 24/7, even inside the house. My favorite stim is rocking, if I'm sitting up, I'm rocking.

I'm not a LSN late diagnosed autistic. I'm not a MSN-HSN early diagnosed autistic.

I'm an undiagnosed MSN autistic, with parents who would rather DIE than accept that their child is autistic.

I could have been diagnosed. I could have known what makes me different before I figured it out myself. I could have had an explanation for years struggling. I could have had teachers know WHY I was like that. I could have been placed in special ed earlier. I could had support.

I did it all on my own.

[bipolarmango]

My doctor and therapist: now with this autism + ADHD diagnosis you need to learn to unmask because masking all the time will make you burn out again and feel like shit

Other people: well it's just interesting how after getting the diagnosis you suddenly start behaving like that I mean I'm not saying you're faking it's just funny how you suddenly cannot be normal like you were before

[autism-affirmations]

[2003-playground]

Can we stop using "still lives with their parents" or "unemployed" or "doesn't have a drivers license" or "didn't graduate high school" as an insult or evidence that someone is a bad person? Struggling with independence or meeting milestones is not a moral failing.

[aimlesspoet]

a bottom-tier autistic experience is being told throughout your entire childhood that you are just an overthinker when it comes to social situations and later finding out that your friends did, in fact, hate being around you and tried to communicate that through weird little hints

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

Autistic NPD culture is double trouble for so many things. One example that I just learned also happens from autism: unfailingly believing that showing someone the truth will always make them immediately agree with me.

-🍪🧹🕳️

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[magentasnail]

served my duty as an autistic artist and made a bunch of autism creature reaction images

[snakeautistic]

People underestimate how much it fucks you up to be subtly excluded as a kid. I would try to talk to my classmates and be met with disinterest or annoyance. The one friend I had, who I clung to and nodded along to his every word, had other friends he liked just as much or more. And his other friends didn’t care for me at all.

I look back at pictures from the time and see how separated I was from them. I remember knowing I was different. I remember posing questions about the world to the girls playing next to me and realizing that they had never asked the same ones to themselves. That the ways we thought couldn’t be more different.

I kept myself amused with my own fanatical stories and musings in my head. I would wander the playground on a circular path, imagining a friend and being sorely disappointed when it didn’t feel as real as I’d hoped.

There was a bubble separating me from everyone else, thin, and nearly invisible, but with a pearly sheen you could catch under the right conditions. I knew it was there, they knew it was there, and it changed me