#Academic anxiety

[mayahafairy]

Give me Hermione Granger with academic anxiety and complexes.  Give me Hermione Granger downing shots of Espresso to stay awake and study when her eyes are closing, give me Hermione Granger shaking her hair into her face so no one sees her tears over a missed mark or an incorrect answer.  Give me Hermione Granger trembling from hunger because she was too busy studying, give me Hermione sobbing over her work because she doesn't understand, give me Hermione terrified because she doesn't feel like she's the best, give me Hermione nervous of letting herself down every exam season, give me Hermione angry because it's so hard and guilty because she should be working and give me Hermione broken from failing to meet her standard but tying her hair away from her face, eyes puffy and red from crying, glaring at her parchment and declaring that she will get it right if it kills her.  Give me Hermione Granger like me...

[mademoisellefantasy]

I NEED YOUR HELP!

I am doing my college dissertation right now and I'm supposed to survey over 200 people… my questionnaire currently stands at 21 respondents… *curls in a ball of panic and dies inside*

So, PLEASE PLEASE respond to, reblog, and share the following link:

It's for men (cis and trans) between the ages of 20-30 years old, so if you belong in this age group, you know people in real life, or you have tumblr mutuals that could answer it, it'd be SO SO SO helpful!

I REALLY NEED YOUR HELP!

[vaticinatrix]

y'all ever see an exam question and realize that you have no idea what you're doing, so better do it quick

[fairy-switchblade]

Another life update (quick but sad, tw: breakups, intrusive thoughts, su*c*dal ideation, and academic anxiety)

A note to those who are reading this who are worried, do not call the police, I am safe, those around me are safe, I have made no active plans. Thank you for looking out for others. Sorry for giving you a heart attack.

Now that’s out of the way. I went through a breakup recently, and I am single again. Since I’ve mentioned my butch a couple of times on this blog, it felt off not to say anything. However this happened a couple of weeks ago, I wanted to give myself a grace period to process everything.

The combined stressors of that happening, plus getting started on writing my masters dissertation, plus looking into PhD options and trying to access a pathway to study at Oxford (which I am fully aware is going to be a Goliath of a task despite my academic record, my area of interest is interdisciplinary and niche as all hell, also money) has lead to a mental health maelstrom.

I deal with intrusive thoughts on a daily basis. I also really struggle with having a healthy relationship with academics. My mindset since I decided to pursue this PhD has been “I must do this exact topic, and I must do it at Oxford, and I must do it in my 20s. If I do not manage to do this, I will commit su*c*de.” I quite literally can’t not succeed at this, life without it is a gaping void. I wish I was exaggerating. And it’s horrible, y’know, cause academia can be wonderful and exciting, and I love and am excited by what I study. The problem is that I love it so much, it kind of hurts. And if I can’t have it, I don’t know how I’m going to keep going, genuinely. That scares the hell out of me.

I wish I didn’t feel so much. I wish I didn’t always have to take things to extremes. I wish I wasn’t so intense. I wish I wasn’t always such an ‘all or nothing’ person. I wish I understood so many things. I wish I understood why I don’t feel good enough. I wish I understood why I can’t just try hard, I have to try my very hardest, at everything. And I wish I understood why when that fails, it feels like a kind of death. I wish I wasn’t as lonely. I wish that had less to do with being femme for me that it actually does. And it does, because performative femininity is just another thing I have to do perfectly. Whatever that means.

I’m sharing all of this not just because I’m an over-sharer generally, but because I have a gut feeling that someone else is also feel kind of ‘Betty Friedan’ this evening, and needs a mirror. And a hug. Please? I really need a hug.

[worldsworstfemale]

this is all because of that fucking paper btw

[trustbehavioralhealthcareserv]

Feeling the weight of academic demands can often stir up anxiety among students and professionals. It’s not just about hitting the books or taking exams; it’s about balancing those challenges with your mental well-being. That’s where the role of psychiatric care comes into play. It’s not a one-size-fits-all solution; it’s a personalized journey toward understanding and managing your anxiety.

[hephaestusshield]

anxiety. anxiety feels more like a biiig heavy rock on your chest. you try to breathe, but it's quietly impossible. your only thoughts are blurred, you can't think rational, everything is your enemy. it's impossible to stand and you feel lonely, but not in the normal way. you think you are the only person who can hear you. you are screaming on the inside, and sit still on the outside. that is what anxiety feels like for me.

[solpadeinedelusions]

i've had absolutely no motivation to do anything lately. luckily, i found myself a job as a tutor, and i'll finally make some money

i also got 67 in bio and 56 in chem (which are good scores in comparison to what the rest of my class got)

[goldengroovy]

tthe funny thing about olnf mcs is that they're usually their best self during step three.. (glances at ames second who i will be dragging through thhe mud even more once she turns 18)

[lesbianjudasiscariot]

[selenepluto]

[ensigntilly]

culmets officially confirmed to be married in star trek discovery s5 i just collapsed onto the floor

[mademoisellefantasy]

Anybody else just swamped with assignments?

[anglerflsh]

forever scarred by the fact other countries don't do spoken tests. Like at all. Not even in college. You didn't get called at random in front of the entire class to be interrogated on a subject? You didn't have your grade announced to everyone? Not even once? You didn't experience the slithering joy at being interrogated with someone else who knew less than you, knowing that after they failed to answer your correct answer would look even better? Deranged to me. Absolutely insane.

[justplaincoldwater]

I just realized recently, I'm walking further and further away from my dreams. I live my life just to wake up the next day. I'm just trying not to catch a cold, I'm just trying to eat a proper food, I'm just trying not to be the object of other people's ridicule. I'm fine, I do everything that makes me feel good, I am 23 years old now, even though I'm a little doubtful if this is the right thing to do.

[iamlostandinneedofcoffee]

All right you fuckers I’m going to bed cause it’s 1 am and if when I wake up I have to break into super hell to scream out my lungs in fury at the gay sad angel over what his crush just told me I will be very mad.