#anggst

[goldengroovy]

tthe funny thing about olnf mcs is that they're usually their best self during step three.. (glances at ames second who i will be dragging through thhe mud even more once she turns 18)

[navysealt4t]

just finished episode 58......

edyn couldnt visit gillion for the last months before his banishment.... do u think id he wondered if it was his fault when edyn didn't visit... he did something wrong, didn't have enough honor, fuking....

and when he was taken so young to to be the chosen one he just cried after being so overworked and beat up and just wanted a hug from his sister but he couldn't get one.... do you think gillion just sat on the floor so numb to his fate and what he was destined for he was just used to being worked to the bone and it still not being enough... . or do u think he cried and because he couldn't live up to hiss destiny...

fuckin... little gillion sobbing on some hard stone floor, bleeding and gasping while preztel wiggles her tentacles around trying to comfort himm

[pctaldrunk]

Any remaining words she might have thought to say stick in her throat, and her lips press together even WHITER. Idle prattle - perhaps that's what it is. Perhaps he's RIGHT. Two people bound to walk different paths - had no business trying to make their paths converge. And after all, at the end of the day - who is she to him, who is she in this narrative - to try to change his mind? To deny him what he wanted? Maybe this is their best solution. In the end, she couldn't watch any longer, and he couldn't stop.

Her hands are cold, and she clasps them together more tightly. "...You take care of yourself." Even if she knows he won't - or rather that perhaps that doesn't matter to him. She could never resist PRATTLING. "...I left you some pills, for emergencies."

QIAN LUMING HAD NEVER SEEN HER LOOK AT HIM with such cold eyes, as though it no longer mattered to her whether he dropped dead on the spot or lived to see the sun rise tomorrow. A thorn pricked his heart. His lips parted briefly, before he locked his jaw tight and forced his attention somewhere else. Forced the feeling somewhere else. Why did the blame rest on his shoulders? Was it so shameful to go after the things he wanted? There weren't many desires a person like him could obtain in the first place. He only had a handful of years left. What was so wrong about using his remaining time to settle old scores? Of course, Tang Sanyue didn't understand it. She wouldn't understand it, even if he laid it all out in front of her. No one would.

"It won't matter what I say anyway." Eyebrows raised, he forced his expression into one of indifference. "You've already made up your mind to go, so why make a fuss over idle prattle when words don't mean anything."

[idisray]

( 𑱗𑱔 ) merry bad ending ʚ park sunghoon

SYNOPSIS...! when sunghoon remembers when he found happiness and inspiration in a blue haired girl called lee hyeri , her moon girl

TAGS...! producer park sunghoon ! × photographer girl oc ! , my own au !! ( all saga ) , slowburn , a lot of anggst , strangers to lovers , fluff , social media , crack

WARNINGS...! alcoholic people , anxiety attacks , strong language , emotional abuse , toxic relationships, overworking , not a happy ending , ENGLISH ISN'T MY FIRST LANGUAGE

FEATURING...! enhypen members , gowon as oc ! , heejin from artms/loona , hyeju from loossemble/loona , some tbz members , sumin from stayc , byungchan from victon, mia as oc ! , bomin from golcha , minju as oc ! , yonghee from cix

STATUS...! on going

UPDATE TIME...! 1-2 a week !

PROFILES...! girls on top ! menz... ! enhacrew ! others !

CHAPTERS...!

one. wrong acc

two. enhacrew + yonghee

three . love-hate

four . do you have a song about it ?

more to be added !!!

[5tr4ylov35t4y]

forget? pt 1

seungmin x reader

hyunjin x reader

anggst- to fluff

Surprisingly, unsurprisingly, there were a lot of arguments in your relationship with seungmin. With his stubbornness, pride, and childishness, arguments ranged from small to big. And this was one of the biggest arguments you’ve had with him so far. 

“Are you seriously saying forgetting our 5th anniversary was just a small mistake?! How can you say that! After everything I had planned for us today.” You yelled

“What?! People make mistakes you know, and no one asked you to plan something big. It’s not like this is our first anniversary or something.” He yelled back. It wasn’t often he raised his voice at you, so right now you felt the tears threatening to come out.”

“You forgetting something as important as this makes it seem like I’m not important to you at all..” You say, voice breaking.

“God y/n you know about the big comeback coming up and it’s the only thing on my mind. If you weren’t so selfish and greedy maybe you would be supporting me instead.” He said angrily.

You widen your eyes. You? Selfish, greedy, unsupportive? After everything you’ve done for him?? The tears finally came rushing down. 

“Well, if you haven’t noticed everything I’ve done for you... then maybe I’m just wasting my time with this relationship. Sorry seungmin, but I don’t think I want to spend time in a one-sided relationship.” You left for the bedroom, got a bag, and filled it with your stuff.With that, you walked out and slammed the door behind you.

To be honest, you didnt know if he loved you very much or did, but at that moment it didn’t seem like it at all and you were blinded by hurt and anger to think clearly, making the impulsive decision to break up. 

Part of you wished he would run out of that house and stop you, but the other part knew he was too prideful to admit his wrongs so quickly. So you left for chan's house and stayed tere for the rest of the week

TIMESKIP 1 YEAR

None of your friends talked to seungmin anymore, except for the members. But Even his members were mad at him and told him you didn’t deserve to be treated like that and all you asked of him was one simple thing. It broke him knowing he made you feel how he promised he never would but he couldn’t take it back and he could only moved forward.

The two of you didn’t talk and if you did it was a brief hello before you would find his members and hang out with them. Soon, he became busy with solo practices and stages and wasn’t home much due to travelling and events he had to go to. The only time he saw you was when he stopped by chan's work, where he found out you work there now.

Finally, the solo's were over and he was able to relax. The kids decided to host a little get together party to celebrate another good season. It was always a nice way to unwind and he liked the attention he got from the girls there. It would distract him from thinking about you.

When he arrived, he was almost immediately greeted by a group of girls who were flirting with him but he wouldn’t entertain them further than that. He excused himself and went to get something to drink where minho was.

“Seems like you were enjoying yourself over there.”

“Awww, don’t be so jealous. You’ll get your shot at being the star of the party soon.”

minho rolled his eyes at him but continued to let him talk anyway. He wasn’t really listening but knew seungmin was blabbing about how many fan girls he has and minho would benefit from learning a thing or two. seungmin was quickly interrupted when something caught minho’s eye.

“Isnt that y/n over there?” He pointed to where he was looking.

When seungmin looked over, he saw you looking as pretty as he remembered, maybe even prettier, and smiling so bright it almost blinded him. He didn’t expect to see you here and he definitely didn’t expect to see someone with an arm around your waist holding you close. When he looked up, he saw his face but with different hair. It was hyunjin, the guy he never expected to see you with, but with his hands on you and kissing your cheek every now and then. seungmin knew he didn’t have the right to say anything and decided it would be best to just let you be and talk to you later.

He was happy to see you happy even though it hurt a little bit to see his friend being the one to make you smile like he hadn’t. He would give you the time you needed and hoped to eventually become friends again or at least be on good terms. He wouldn’t ever stop loving you but he would let you go, over time, if it meant for happiness.

“Yeah it is. They look good together. I’m happy for them.”

[cloudsthatglowinthenightsky]

twelve!!!!!! uh. TWLEVE!!!! -she is so.... make 50 gifts for someonen. ridiculous. love u bbygirl -he is so..... love the gifts soso much. appreciate every one. love u bbygirl. -they're made for each other. ok back to anggst -"good thing it's definitely only ten" xD -the terrible thing is thaat ik for a fact she's not evenn lying. this will help BOTHOFTHEM -they're so cringefail in love. just. UUGH. THEM. -he promised :(((((( -WHY DID U SAY THEEY'RE SIMILAR OH MY GOD U FUCKED UP U FUCKED UP RED ALRERT EED ALERT EMERGENCY!!!! -uhohuhoohuhhoh -FOR ADRIEN -oh my god IIIT'S OVER IT'S OVER IT'S OVER THERE ARRE 2 LEFT IT'S ODCFVGBVFCDREDFGHJHUGYYVFCDRXSEXDRCFVGYBHUJNKMJMNHBUGYFFD

[sassysweetstories]

gentle melody // blurb

Summary: reader plays music at the local coffee shop and catches Stiles’ eyes. 

Ship: Stiles Stilinski x Fem!Reader 

Warnings: pure fluff, swearing, angst, yelling, minor kissing, etc.

Notes: none of these gifs are mine 

Tagged: @bailey-hoover @kiralivelove @thalia-prior-of-ravenclaw@anamcg317bellasett @queentiffanyyy @archer-whovian-violinist @beingmadinwonderland @princessisabelle19 @violence-and-velvet @lachicadelamanzana

Third P.O.V

Stiles fidgeted in his seat, Scott on one side and Isaac on the either. “Scott are you sure this is a good idea? Taking a break when a siren is out here possibly killing people?” The squirmy boy hisses into his alpha’s ear. Scott scoffed at his friends attempt to destroy their one night of peace. “Stiles. Shut up and enjoy the show. Get yourself a drink and relax.” Sighing, he takes his friends not so kind advice and grabs an iced coffee to subdue the heat of anxiety that bubbled in his chest. “Relax.. relax.. relax.. I can relax. I’m Mr. Relax..” He sips the cool drink, humming in delight but before heading back to his seat, Stiles ran into a warm body with a loud thud. 

“Oh my god I’m so sorry!!” The voice said from below him. When he looked to see the culprit, his whole world seemed to turn upside down. The most beautiful woman he’d ever seen stood in front of him with a shy smile, voice as sweet as vanilla. “I swear I need to watch where I’m going.” She blushes crimson and his heart melts as she bobs from side to side, her guitar swinging with her movement. “Oh no, you’re totally fine! I should be the one apologizing, I’m constantly running into things. And in this case I ran into a pretty girl.” He assures her softly. (Y/n) blushes, laughing quietly and Stiles heart yearns to hear more.

“That was a terrible flirt, I’m sorry. I’m Stiles. Are you performing tonight?” Gesturing to the guitar in her hand as he stuck out his palm for her to take. When she slides it into his, neither one of them can deny how perfectly they fit together. “I’m (Y/n). And I thought your flirtation was very cute. I am performing tonight. I have a few songs I wrote that I’m very excited to play. You staying to watch?” She was hopeful that he would stay for her, cheer her on as she sung her heart out. When Stiles smiled, (Y/n) was sure enough he was a living angel. How could someone be so handsome? “I am! Some of my friends and I are here to take a break from-” He paused for a second before finishing. “-from school.” 

(Y/n) thankfully hadn’t noticed the little hiccup as she smiled up at the man with dreamy chocolate brown eyes. “Well maybe afterwards, I can show you around? Maybe give you a guitar lesson?” She mutters smoothly, moving her eyebrows flirty. Stiles pointed at himself, blushing and flabbergasted that this girl would ever want to talk to him longer than five minutes before nodding like a confused puppy. The sight makes (Y/n) laugh before she bids him farewell and goes behind the curtain to prepare for her set. Diana, (Y/n)’s drummer, smirked at her friend’s flustered expression. “Who was the boy?” Probing the young woman. Without hesitation she flipped Diana off, laughing as she tuned her guitar. 

Stiles returned to his seat, grinning from cheek to cheek. He buzzed with excitement, practically jumping out of his seat to see the girl with the bright smile and the voice of an angel. How could someone be so enchanting? When the blood red curtains pull open, his heart nearly explodes. “Good evening, everybody!” Her voice makes everyone smile, drawn in by her mere presence. The crowd screams for her. “I hope you’re all ready for some good music and a good time!!” The music starts off with a warm guitar rift accompanied by the soft kick of Diana’s drums. When (Y/n) sings, her voice washes over the room like a cool mist, drawing them in like a drug. Nobody can be pulled away, especially not Stiles.

He’s literally on the edge of his seat, elbows resting on his knees as the young man gazes up at (Y/n) with the biggest heart eyes anyone’s ever seen. The room seems to shift and move to the power of her tone, so strong it could rupture and tear the building apart. However, it doesn’t. It stays standing because she let’s it. Stiles doesn’t have a doubt in his mind that she can control whatever she wants with the confidence she emulates in her voice, the way she moves on stage entrances everyone on a holy level. When (Y/n) hums the last lyric, the room erupts in a chorus of claps. Stiles stands to his feet with a wide smile while Scott sits, coming to a realization when (Y/n) leaves the set. “I think we just found our siren..” 

(I hope you guys liked it! Please comment below!)

[venomousautism]

the summary will make more sense next chapter ;) - @bsidebf

wow thank you! i am terrified!! /lh /hj

[likesomekindofcheese]

Hi can I request a Brian (70s) x fem

reader where the reader comes out as a lesbian but she thinks Brian isn’t going to accept so she’s really scared about telling him. Obviously Brian is accepting in the end but I just want ANGGST!!!

Thanks so muchhh

Sure thing!

Disclaimer: I am an ally but do not personally identify as LGBTQIA. If there is anything grossly inaccurate, please drag me gently.

Brian was your closest friend. So it made sense to tell him that you were on the verge of happiness. But not with him. With his classmate. His female classmate.

For years, you both studied together and ate soup at lunch. You swapped stories and laughed at hearilty. You went to his concerts and heard his riffs. It would only be natural that your family and friends poked you constantly. The mention of "will there be a happy announcement" was as common as radio blaring.

Not that he wouldn't be a good boyfriend or husband. But he wasn't who you dreamt of. And you could tell sometimes he would look at you softly. Your stomach would ache and your feet even felt the urge to run. To run from Brian!

As you sat in your room, staring out the window at the bright sun against the winter snow, you wondered what would happen. It was better to prepare for the worst. That way, you would be ready.

He would cry. Definitely. And you hated watching other people cry. And you knew Brian was a crier, it was his gentle nature. He would curse at you. He would point fingers. Yell. Scream even.

Brian's car arrived outside, honking at you. He even peeped at you from the window. His hair was indistinguishable and he smiled sweetly.

Why couldn't everything be normal and back to where it was? How silly it was- why, why, why, why.

You were able to contain yourself as you wrapped your jacket around your turtleneck and walked down to see him. He always hugged you with his hello.

You sat in the passenger's seat as he began to drive.

"How are you?" he asked.

"I...I'm fine..."

"You don't sound remotely fine...you're quiet..."

You began crying.

"Y/N what is it..."

"It's nothing..." maybe you could delay telling him, telling anyone. If only you were the kind of person to contain your feelings, to stay stoic and strong.

"What do you need?" Brian asked.

It was too late.

"Do you need comfort, advice, a distraction?" he asked.

It came out of you quickly "I need to speak- Brian I am a lesbian!" you blurted. It was rather fast, it sounded like "Brianimalesbian" but it was enough to send a stone down your stomach. Brian himself nearly jumped.

Here it came. The explosion. You waited.

"Really..."

"Yes...your classmate, Charlotte, and I are going to go on a date on Sunday."

"OH!"

There was a pause. He kept driving. both of you staring out at the city streets.

"You know...Fred's gay too."

"What, Freddie!" you gasped.

"Yes!"

"Really!"

There was a slight noise as a bug hit the window. You both glanced at it, then your eyes continued forward.

"...and Bri, I knew you had a crush on me. I just felt it. So I was...I was just scared of disappointing you..."

"Y/N...I'm a rock guitarist, there will be plenty of girls my way..." he joked.

You arrived at your stop. He parked the car and you both looked each other in the eye.

"Please, I just want to be sure of one thing this won't change things between us." you begged.

He looked at you and smiled "it won't!"

Breathing in, your pulse slowed down. There were tears down your face. Happy ones.

"Just...if Charlotte and I don't work out, please save one girl for me."

"I'll ask them, Y/N."

[goldengroovy]

My brain is begging me to do a fan art of Ames n with Mariana (my Mc) ((who's equally as mean)) but my body just REFUSES to cooperate.

+ no motivation 💔 AAAAAGGGGHHHHHHOWJNQTDKQHH

yyou should cougu cough sshow a picture of mariana.. ffor no reason...

I LOVR MEAAN OCS RAHEJJSJSJS!!! i need ANGGST aand they are thhe perfect tool for that

[forest-babeys]

Remember when you said that the angsty stuff is almost over?

//oh yeah! that was also said! mun WAS going to do some more filler content before this which would have been your break before the edgee and anggst came back, but, ahem- i don't wanna force y'all through more quick and mostly pointless interactions between cookies and just get it over with.//

//besides, i kinda miss mt..//

[ursoself-satisfying]

an OC sneak peek [1/?]

this is something Ive been working on w a vvv good friend of mine for a while now n I’m finally content to share some pieces w yall!!! Its 2 OCs n the boys both band n borhap n its a 2 part story w 2 accompanying aus n honestly its wild n im sorry if this seems vague but im trying rly hard not to give anything away!!!! rip anyway this excerpt would be from the second installment of their canon,,, enjoy!!!!!! AND PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK !!!! feedback is appreciated also heavy anggst below w zero context rip 

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John pulled Maryanne aside for a moment, holding tightly to her arm, to say goodbye a bit away from the rest of the group who were busy with one another, attempting to find their spots in Roger’s small, expensive car. The other two stepped towards the back of the cafe’s alley where John’s car was parked and he now put both his larger, still calloused hands on her.

Despite the roughness of his skin, his hold on her was soft. His eyes fell before he began his second final farewell. “Now, darling,” he started quietly, syllables like broken glass crashing down at the spot where he stared, “I’m not sure if Brian properly explained this- No, no, I’m sure he said something, he’s very thorough,” he chuckled lightly. The sound greatly contrasted the weight of the moment, the touch on the woman. The man let his hands fall to his sides and he straightened up with a cough. His soft hooded eyes met hers again and it was a physically painful mode of communication for them, passing far too many emotions between the two. “I just wanted to reiterate that this-” He sighed in this unfamiliar voice and Maryanne shivered at its depth, the rawness it evoked. “That this is really a one-time thing, love.” John stuttered, “I probably won’t be seeing you again. It’s simply not appropriate anymore.” His face wrinkled when he smiled, “Not that anything we did back then was appropriate,” his crows feet were only enhanced by his sad grin, “but I’ve got a lovely little family now.” John paused and watched for Maryanne’s reaction. She was surprisingly stoic and he continued, not being able to see the stone that sat in her stomach and was pulling her slowly to her lowest point with her inability to process the situation.

“Actually, I’ve got quite a large family,” he hummed, “and a wife. She’s quite lovely if I say so.” He scanned his partner’s face for approval but all he could decipher was a layer of expected pain. Perhaps, he thought, his facade of happiness was only increasing the sense of finality the conversation held. “You would like her, I think.” One of his frail fingers hooked around her limp ones to pull them into a hold. It was a discreet but impactful gesture. Maryanne seemingly spun back into reality at the contact and started blinking again, swaying before him in a hazy cocktail of misunderstandings. “I’ve got six beautiful kids now. One is even probably near your- Well,” he had to search for the correct terms to describe his old lover, “near the age you present as.” His soft lips were thin in a bittersweet smile, some traces of hope left behind it. “Perhaps you’ll meet him someday, unless you already have and I’ve just- Oh, it doesn’t matter, now.” The elderly musician shook his head, his white, thinly haired scalp facing the woman and her lip quivered at the sign of aging.

“I love you, Maryanne,” he spoke in barely a whisper, “I’ve always loved you.” The dampness below his eyes was wiped away by a younger hand. He smiled painfully, close-lipped and strained. He cradled her face so delicately as if her age affected her as it did him like she was brittle bones aching to disappear again. She choked back a hiccup and a sob, her own eyes glistening like his. The rough pad of his thumb stroked her cheek and she leaned into it, her own thumbs caressing his collar. “Oh, we’ve all always loved you, you and Ginger,” his voice shook with age and emotion beyond his control, “We all adored you, especially Fr-” His words got caught and he bit back his statement, letting his lids hide his warm-toned gaze for a moment. He pushed the thought away, too painful to realize right then, not on top of everything else, “But I’ve always loved you, Maryanne.” Maryanne felt a heat on her forehead as he set a gentle kiss on the skin peeking from between the loose strand of hair that made her bangs. She could smell him, so close, and he reminded her of their old apartment, washing her with all sorts of dusted memories. The touch lingered until he pulled back and moved to do the same to her knuckles, sliding his hands down to embrace hers, placing his still pillowy lips on the top of her hand and leaving one in her palm for later.

By now the woman was crying silently, unable to say a word. Her replies were lost in her feelings and any response would have been monumentally inadequate to every thought and emotion flooding her unequip brain. “I’ll always love you, my dear.” His eyes met hers and he pushed her hair behind her ear before finally letting her go one last time. She internally begged her hands to have memorized his fingerprints because she knew she would never feel them on her again, never feel the chastity of his kiss- It was a familiarity lost forever and she watched it drive away with a timid wave, feeling somewhat at fault for letting him slip so easily away.

“You okay, babe?” Maryanne sat silently in the back of the convertible, Ginger by her side, squeezing her thigh with love and concern. The redhead’s brows furrowed at the uncharacteristic stillness of her lover. The blonde watched the man in from of her turn his curly head to glance back and look to the other woman for some explanation. The other shrugged lightly n shook her head. Roger’s eyes would spend every other second in the mirror, a small seed of fear planted by the lack of response.

Maryanne took a shallow breath and felt her cheek, unsure if it was dry or not. The tears had involuntarily ceased and she blinked dryly for what felt like the first time. Everything felt new, now. Everything had changed, it was all different, and she was finally realizing that. The world- She finally saw it for what it had become in their absence; cold. The soft hand on her shoulder made her turn to face her other half. Her look was heartbreaking, mirror her own state. Ginger asked again, “Maryanne, are you okay?”

Her eyes were blank for the first time since- since it all started. “I don’t know,” she started weakly, “I- I don’t think I am, Ginger.”

Brian’s eyes meet the other girl’s and the car is clouded with something new, an unidentified feeling for them. Everything was different now. The world had moved on and left them behind. The world changed and now? Now they had to.

[power-of-zexal-gone]

EVERYONE :

me : haha...anggst..

[kellykadesperate]

I caved and read ittttttt and it's so gooooood and angsty and you can just FEEL the tension building and the drama and did I mention the angst. i need aaron with children like i need air omg. I'm hooked! So glad I caved and started it. now hurry up and update it!😂❤️

HOLLLLAAA KERI,

YOU. CAVED.

i am so happy that it didn’t disappoint you and that you’re living for angst because boy … Anggst is coming soon.

and yes! i can relate to your thoughts about aaron with children on such a spiritual level which is why he is so good with annie!

anyways so i’m uploading next on wednesday because my big bang day is tuesday and that needs my attention to be honest.

but it’s a lovely update, a soft one. filled with eventual fluff.

❤️🌈

[sassysweetstories]

without me

Request: “Could you do a shawn mendes imagine based off the song “without me” by Halsey.? Xx” 

Ship: Shawn Mendes x Fem!Reader

Warnings: angst, mentions of heartbreak, fluff, mentions of cheating, mentions of verbal abusive relationship, yelling, etc. 

Notes: no gifs

Tagged: @bailey-hoover @kiralivelove @thalia-prior-of-ravenclaw@anamcg317bellasett @queentiffanyyy @archer-whovian-violinist@beingmadinwonderland@princessisabelle19 @violence-and-velvet @lachicadelamanzana 

Third P.O.V

“Found you when your heart was broke I filled your cup until it overflowed Took it so far to keep you close (Keep you close) I was afraid to leave you on your own”

She had found him during his lowest time. Having published his fourth album and recovering from the cruelest break up situation. He found her. Solace; clarity. A sense of peace he hadn’t had in ages. For the first time in months, Shawn smiled. When he looked at her, the world seemed to be calm and tranquil. Shawn hadn’t noticed how much she sacrificed for him. Parties, anniversaries, moments that were missed because he needed her. (Y/n) went with him on tour, calming his senses far more than he realized. The young woman begun to worry for Shawn. When they were separate, the struggles became more apparent.

“I said I'd catch you if you fall And if they laugh, then fuck 'em all (All) And then I got you off your knees Put you right back on your feet Just so you can take advantage of me”

“(Y/n), we rarely see you. It’s like you’re here but you’re not really here.” Her friends would say to her. Whenever Shawn would call she would be there in seconds just to pick him right back up. Glancing down at her phone, she’d baid them farewell until next time. “Damn, all he has to do is text you once and you go running?” They would laugh and make snide comments. She would get him his favorite food and movie before drawing a bubble bath. A small but not meaningful thank you would escape his lips before she would shower him in love and affection until he was back to himself. “Hey, I’m going out with the guys. Don’t wait up.” And he’d leave her alone. Without a care in the world. “Don’t you want me to be happy?” Shawn would say to her when she asked him to stay home for once, spend time with her lover.

“Tell me how's it feel sittin' up there Feeling so high but too far away to hold me You know I'm the one who put you up there Name in the sky Does it ever get lonely?”

His friends begun to notice his behavior soon down the line. Acting like a spoiled king. Sitting on top of a throne she’d built just for him. Shawn took all the energy from others, leaching himself until there was nothing left of her. It didn’t help the hundreds of thousands of screaming fans and women who constantly chase after the man she loved. And yet, with all that attention, he looked so lonely. (Y/n) would sacrifice anything and everything to make him smile once more. To giggle, or laugh. 

“Thinking you could live without me Thinking you could live without me Baby, I'm the one who put you up there I don't know why (yeah, I don't know why)”

It took a long time for her to realize how bad things were getting. A small voice in her head screamed at her, yelling the signs that seemed to be as clear as day. That was until it finally hit her, not fully but hard enough. The crack that had been broken open was just large enough for her to see the damage that had taken shape in her life. Impulsively, (Y/n) packed up her things and called her friend just a town over when Shawn had left for the night to drink with his buddies. She still remembers the way he barely gave her the light of day when he left. Maybe that was the last straw for her as she closed the door for what felt like the last time. 

“Thinking you could live without me Live without me Baby, I'm the one who put you up there I don't know why (I don't know why, yeah yeah)”

When Shawn came home early from the drunk filled night, still sober enough to walk and talk, his eyes fell upon a large envelope with his name on it. Crumpling it open, he reads page after page carefully. Shawn’s heart aches in his chest, glancing up from the paper to see now how empty his apartment had become. “You don’t care for me anymore.. I need to do this for me..” Her beautifully handwriting had said. Instead the young man shook his head in denial, running from room to room, hoping to find her belongings that weren’t there. The warmth that enveloped in the house was gone, ripped away by his treatment and choices. 

Gave love 'bout a hundred tries (hundred tries) Just running from the demons in your mind Then I took yours and made 'em mine (made 'em mine) I didn't notice 'cause my love was blind

He searched high and low for his girl until her friend finally caved in. Shawn bought her everything that she loved and rolled up to the door with hope in his heart. (Y/n) answered, cheeks red from exhaustion and tears. Her eyes grew wide at the side of Shawn. He looked like crap without her, hair longer and mangled. Shawn’s face had a new scruff like he had completely forgotten what basic higiene was like. “Please Shawn-” Her voice croaked. “I can’t keep doing this cat and mouse game.. It hurts too much...” 

“Said I'd catch you if you fall (fall) And if they laugh, then fuck 'em all (all) And then I got you off your knees Put you right back on your feet Just so you can take advantage of me Tell me how's it feel sittin' up there Feeling so high but too far away to hold me You know I'm the one who put you up there”

Shawn took a step closer, longing for her embrace the way she longed for him. “Babygirl, I promise-” Voice cracking as tears formed. “I swear on my life I will treat you better, show you just how important you are to me... Please just let me make it up to you.. Let me show you just how much I love you..” If it had been anyone else, she would have slammed the door on their face. But this was her Shawn. This was the man she had always loved, always fought for. Trying to pry herself away would be the toughest challenge yet. And for the first time, she lost the battle and landed back in his arms. 

“Name in the sky Does it ever get lonely? Thinking you could live without me Thinking you could live without me Baby, I'm the one who put you up there I don't know why (yeah, I don't know why)”

He’s out late again. Later than normal. Her skin crawls for the worst. But when he stumbles through the door, the ease washes over her. Brian helps him over to the couch with a sullen look on his face and no matter what, he knows he can’t lie to (Y/n). “H-He- He was kissing someone else.. I’m sorry.. I brought him back before it could get worse and nobody deserves this.. I’m so sorry..” The young woman isn’t mad at Brian. He’s the only one who seems to have any sort of sense in this god forsaken world. She thanks him before backing up her things for the second and final time. 

“Thinking you could live without me Live without me Baby, I'm the one who put you up there I don't know why, yeah You don't have to say just what you did I already know (I know) I had to go and find out from them So tell me how's it feel (oh-woah)”

Yeah, you can’t live with out me.. but I can and will, live without you. She thinks to herself as she slams the door goodbye. At three in the morning, (Y/n) drives to the outskirts of Canada, four towns over to were a close friend lives, one that isn’t so keen on allowing the toxicity back into her life. He couldn’t live without her, he’d say to her. But if that was the case, why would he risk something like that? Treat her that way? 

“Tell me how's it feel sittin' up there Feeling so high but too far away to hold me You know I'm the one who put you up there Name in the sky Does it ever get lonely? Thinking you could live without me Thinking you could live without me Baby, I'm the one who put you up there I don't know why (yeah, I don't know why)”

The phone calls come in a wave until she finally answers, not allowing him to speak. She mutters a few small words and they both know it’s finally over. Not without the bloodshed and heartbreak though on both parties. This was a chapter in her life that would remain close. Now and forever more. 

(I hope you guys liked this story! please fucking comment! that is all I ask!) 

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“I’ll always be with you.” ANGGST IS NEEDED

( YAAASSS )Eveline had fought beside Orin many times before, but nothing could have prepared her for a fight like this. An enemy Orochi had hidden himself behind a pillar in the distance as the knights attempted to repel the sudden attack, the Warden about to execute a Kensei before getting hit square in the gut by the assassin's longbow. She was bleeding out on the ground, still having some fight in her body. "H-Hehe ... You say that all the time ..." Eveline said to him weakly.