#AUGH they make me SICK

[benderclub]

chat. chat is this real. chat are you listening to me right now. chat.

[grilde1chesse]

thinking about leons face when he sees krauser after he kills luis :-(((

the way his well composed expression slips just barely for a second before switching back, still unable to fully mask his hurt and surprise. the way his brow lifts ever so slightly, just for a moment, away from his typical scowl back into that rookie from all those years ago.

imagine what he must be thinking. krauser, his mentor, his major whom he'd thought dead until just now having killed luis right in front of him, leaving leon entirely defenseless with no way to save luis, krauser hitting him right where he knows it hurts (a weakneess he taunts leon with later on in their fight as well: "You can't save her. You can't save anyone!").

o yea thsi was inspired by this edit by em3ra1d!! (SORRY IM ALWAYS TALKING ABOUT UR METALTANGO EDITS (SPECIFICALLY THIS 1</3) I CANNOT GET OVER THEM ITS A CURSE)

[quiddlegoose]

SHOOT.

(original panel under the cut)

Trigun Maximum, chp. 10

[wasyago]

so, would you?

nothing important under the cut, you don't need to look haha

[skywerse]

[palossssssand]

Kinoga's squad picture, taken a year after the group was formed.

[mossiishroom]

“If I have to apologize to someone it’s to you. I dragged you into this.” - Pili

“If I didn’t wanna be here, I wouldn’t be friends with you. And look where I am.” - Pangi

“Friends until death.” - Pili

(Paraphrased I couldn’t get it all)

[wassupmygays]

"we messed up dally, we messed up bad!"

no because thinking about Johnny Cade, the 16 yr old kid who jumps at his own shadow and wouldn't hurt a fly (ponyboy's words). the kid who everyone loved and looked out for. the kid who stayed and craved the love of his parents even though they beat him horribly. the kid who was just too damn good for growing old...

that boy. showing up to dally in the middle of the night covered in blood like this. shaking, scared, a murderer. a kid. its so heartbreaking to see the blood on his hands, all over him. that poor kid.

how heartbroken do you think dally felt, when he opened his door at Buck's to see Johnny and Pony shaking in the cold. to see his little brother covered in blood. blood that splattered from the knife that dally gave him

no wonder dally broke so much. the kid he let into his life, vowed to himself that hed protect, had just killed another boy with the knife he provided. with the technique that he showed him. and that eventually led to johnny himself dying. in dally's eyes, that was partly his fault. he blamed the world and their town and the socs and everything else, rightfully so, but i know he blamed himself as well.

"sorry i failed you..."

[instantpansies]

STRANGE NOISES FROM THE HOLE IN THE WALL HEADCANONS/INTERPRETATIONS UHHH OBVIOUS SPOILERS. CLARISSA CENTRIC CAUSE. HOLY SHIT

clarissa is to locomotion as clara is to the nutcracker. she's the kid who dreamed him into existence hundreds of years ago. i know he says he's older than the devil - i think that's still plausible, he's existed since thought but wasn't attached to the Silver Line or brought into physical existence until clarissa, lonely or in danger or just bored, imagined a world where she could escape from her everyday life and live as a grown-up(? maybe? since benjamin/timothy/billy seemed to age up as soon as he went through the portal?), with freedom and whimsy and eventually a relationship with the friendly driver.

why do i say this? because otherwise im really fucking confused lmao, that first scene where clarissa and loco are introduced is strange in the context of the end of the play. they seem to have known each other for a good while before they get on the train. they act like a young couple who's stumbled upon the silver line as an escape from danger and now they're excited for their new life in a new, safe world. except that loco also says he's been driving the train for years.

(looking back, that very much feels like a scenario from a child's imagination - or perhaps a dream - where of course he's been doing this for years, that's his job, but of course they're glad they've found the train together, this is a new experience for her so it's just an extension of her perspective)

but clara is, she says, a child when she gets on the train. idk how old "little girl" is, but if we run with this headcanon and also assume that the timeline is both linear and literal, she's imagining herself in some form of a sexual relationship with loco at a pretty young age.

i posit that this can be reconciled in several ways (some more disturbing or inappropriate than others), but one thing that could be considered is that the first scene where loco and clarissa are introduced is symbolic of their relationship over the course of the train's history. depending on how old clarissa was when she first dreamt the world into existence, she might not have even been very aware of loco, and spent her time just enjoying the escapism or whatever. after a few years or however long, she starts to get older and decides to learn how she's actually done this, maybe spends a long time trying to understand exactly what's going on. maybe her research leads her to a relationship with loco, i don't know. they do get on the train together, maybe, when they're both young (or, well, relatively speaking) and new to the world, and loco eventually has been driving the train for years and years and clarissa makes it a bit more tolerable with some companionship after a long lonely time. but those things don't happen simultaneously, because i think those things don't really work simultaneously. that scene is a sort of speedrun/amalgamation of how the two of them have interacted over the years. and yeah i guess that means they fucked at one point in there

(im going to be transparent, some of that is a bit of cope/rationalization. i think loco and the conductor are very exes/begrudging coworkers vibes, but i do like clarissa and loco together as well - unsettlingly powerful girl x eldritch being with a soft spot is a very good trope. and im trying to make it work out okay? give me a break lol. you don't have to agree with me on this, but once i see a luke and tom couple with a fun and compelling dynamic i will not let them go even if the ethics get a bit hard to explain later on. sorry, anyways moving on)

additionally, and i probably should have said this earlier, a reason i think this whole nutcracker theory holds up is because clarissa holds a sort of unique power in the world. she's been on the silver line for hundreds of real-years, who knows how many train-years, and still remembers her name and something of her old life. loco isn't hostile to her, even confirming her memory of her name and reminding her of her birthdate. with everyone else (ex. benjamin), he actively discourages them from remembering their lives. despite seemingly being one of the oldest passengers, she doesn't transform for hundreds of years. she obviously has some significance.

you know how that ties in? if this is clarissa's world, if her mind is what created the whole thing, then i think it makes sense to assume it's tied to her. as she begins to question her surroundings, then panic as she realizes she can't leave, her emotional and/or mental state becomes less stable, less utopic, less perfect. the dream begins to turn into a nightmare. and it becomes. well. an ouroboros. the snake eats its own tail and the train goes in circles and the escapist fantasy clarissa once loved becomes a prison of her own design. trapped in the very thing that was supposed to save her.

maybe that's why anthony and benjamin can get out when they do - as clarissa's world decays, as she finally begins to become part of the nightmare, as she melds with the train, the world has to shift a bit. it's reaching the point of no return - once clarissa has been fully sucked in, the train will never stop again. falling into an infinite nothing. but in that moment, there's one final chance for the conductor to stall locomotion, one final leap that could at last pull benjamin and anthony and everyone who's been sucked in by clarissa's black hole of a nightmare out of the portal and back into the real world.

and now, clarissa has lost three hundred years of a life that should never have lasted so long. gained perhaps thousands of years of memories of joy and connection and despair and panic and forever forever forever. and she is once again trapped in a vessel of her own making - her body is that of the child she has not been for lifetimes. her world is dead and gone - not just the world she created, but the world she escaped from as well. what of locomotion, that brief flash of connection? does he even exist anymore? who is she, now? who was she? where can she possibly go from here?

shoutout delirium_undead on discord for going along with the nutcracker theory and helping me flesh this out. your ideas are so galaxy brained and i am forever in your debt

[71eh]

Baby, I'm in love And it's not in to tell Only thing that I can do is hold it in

[thymeisasocialconstruct]

You guys remember that this is the 10 year anniversary of his girlfriend’s death right.

[sunn-mechanic]

[ID in alt]

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to the AU I literally almost never talk about ;-;

anyway,, they make me unwell and they'll make you unwell too if I can ever get the fic written <3

[fun-k-boards]

I want y'all to realise Rayla and Callum probably would risk mass and self destruction just to ensure they get to keep the other alive. And, technically Callum already has done the second one, with the whole dark magic stuff...

Anyway they're the best ship ever and idc if they destroy the entirety of Xadia and the human kingdoms, it'll all be worth it for another on screen kiss <3

[morrigan-sims]

Reunion

"Rook, is that really you?" "It's me."

This render has been sitting basically finished, just un-rendered and un-edited in my folders for WEEKS now, which is a crime, because it's fucking adorable.

Rook finally got to see his former captain and mentor, Zara, again for the first time in 3 years, and it was a very bittersweet reunion. She ended up revealing that she was aware of every single things that Wolf was doing to him during his time on the Sea Snake, but was unable to do anything about it because if she or anyone under her employ were to attempt to rescue him, Wolf would have killed him. As it turns out, she gave up sailing in order to protect him, lest Wolf take any movement of hers as a threat.

Here's my write-up of the first part of the scene:

And of course the reunion was then interrupted by the arrival of a giant snake which proceeded to eat Jay, the former surgeon's apprentice on Zara's ship and Rook's only friend prior to meeting the party. When he showed up Zara had been about to explain something very important to Rook (why Wolf hates her so much, and why she went after Rook), and after weeks of delays and fighting the giant snake, Rook (and I) finally get to find out the truth on Saturday.

Zara's been hinting that it's something Not Good and that she's worried about his reaction, but luckily for her, Rook would forgive her literally anything. And I do mean anything. She was the first person in his life who was ever truly kind to him, and she means more to him than any other person in his life. And this is the same man who tried to tell the BBEG of the entire campaign that he "wasn't that person anymore", after only knowing him for a matter of months. (In his defense he didn't know he was the BBEG.) In comparison, he'd been sailing with Zara for 6 years before he was captured.

Oh, and she's also going to give him her old ship, the Tide Breaker, and name him captain, which is going to be a bit of a mindfuck for him, given his intense guilt over Jay and like 18 other bad things that have happened to the party recently. Augh, I can't wait.

[ivypond11]

something something normscary. rotating in my brain like a rostisserie chicken <3

[palossssssand]

I'm going to be so ill. just thumbnailed the comic for trito and kinoga's surface reunion