#AND WHY ISNT HE HAPPY

[gh0styfr13nd]

OH MY GOD

So my take on the sign situation is that it’s finally scar realizing he’s waited long enough and finally having enough. The straw that broke the camel’s back and all. While I don’t think scar hates grian I do think that he isn’t happy. Meanwhile grian is realizing finally he wants scar. He regrets it all and he doesn’t know how to fix it so he tries to change it, rewrite things if you will. And scar is done with it. Scar is finally done with grian.

And grian doesn’t know how to cope.

[idolomantises]

I actually didn’t notice that all of Isaac’s appearances have ended with him suffering until some people pointed it out 💀

[autismsupersoldier]

a non-exhaustive list of my dunmeshi cast headcanons, as well as a fun exercise in censoring genitals in creative ways. below the cut you can see a list of notes and explanations. hope you enjoy as much as i enjoyed watching the anime!

important to preface:

now, lets get into it.

thanks for lookin! here are some sketches too:

some more falins because shes my favourite!

[casualavocados]

…It's nice. You're so noisy. […] Actually, it'd be better if we died together. That way, neither of us would have to suffer the pain of losing the other, right? Shut up.

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 13

[fatedroses]

Two former military elites taking merc jobs perform absolutely hellish battle tactics together.

[dreadark]

see i can never get over 999knw because why does orv establish right after he's introduced that:

he believes his mistake is what killed the 999th turn's yoo joonghyuk

he thinks maybe he should've died before they even met

and now he's aware of the current turn, where these two things are true:

yoo joonghyuk is alive

kim namwoon is dead

imagine believing you're at fault for everything that went wrong and thinking maybe you’d be better off dead

and then ending up in another timeline that essentially confirms it. you were right! you should have died back then. don't you think so too, captain?

[juaneloriginal]

A dream and a nightmare

@blackkatdraws's silly!

i just want him to be happy bro

by himself not only with black, honestly i like their relationship but most of the time (i think early in their relationship) he always comes out injured or dead and the fact that he doesnt even care about his own safety most of the time just to (me thinks) make black happy makes me so sad/pos

i like the fact that they are being more cute now but im not sure how much that its going to last

[dykedvonte]

I think another thing to think about is Curly was so used to being complacent yet discontent in his life he never thought about others who would feel like they were dying because of it.

It’s like not something he does intentionally but if you play the DLC, he mentions how he always talks about moving on with his life but never actually committed. Maybe it was fear, maybe inaction but I think it’s both mixed with not knowing how. For all that Curly is and does/doesn’t do, he still is just some guy. A guy that is deeply dissatisfied with his life and can’t make the moves to find that purpose. He can, but he doesn’t and it’s likely he just doesn’t know how.

Curly literally never thinks about other people or being able to hold that bitterness in and he fails when presented with it. He’s not a pessimist or nihilist but at the same time his optimism is outside of him. He looks for the good things and future in others but never thinks about it himself, which can make all his actions seem disingenuously or shallow. It’s why Jimmy (outside his own delusion) doesn’t listen to him or understand him and why Anya can tell he’s not being open or vulnerable during his psyche evaluation.

This is less an analysis and sort of looking at Curly pre-crash and how he was still suffering and if not that, less secure than people really think he is.

[moonsvillain]

have been toying with the idea of an au wherein shen jiu, after burning down the qiu household and running away, comes across xie lian rather than wu yanzi poaching him immediately afterwards:

i'd imagine in this verse he runs away to town rather than immediately being found in the aftermath of what he's done. at this point, shen jiu would be too paranoid to consider reaching out for directions to cang qiong mountain even if he wanted to make it there: what if they knew what he did? or figured it out if he did know? (if he even had the mind to think of these things through his panic)

he doesn't want to end up begging on the streets again, though—too alike his childhood and last time he was in that position, shen jiu ended up with the qius in the first place

so he takes refuge in temples that he comes across, stealing food when he can before moving to a different part of the rather large town he's ended up in so there's no clear pattern of when he shows up at whichever food stall

despite not holding that same respect and unwavering belief in gods (how could he, after everything he's gone through? shouldn't they have stepped in, sometime? what god would let him suffer as he did, separating him from the only person he loved?) he knows better than to try them, and begrudgingly thanks them for the shelter (because this he did appreciate, at the very least, if nothing else)

winter hits hard when it does, and shen jiu, after spending so many years in the qiu household, forgot how the cold seeps into your skin and bones without solid walls to keep out the frigid breeze.

he quickly falls ill with nothing to protect him from the elements but his threadbare clothing, and when he grows ill, he becomes slow. shen jiu nearly gets caught stealing, running away before he can be dragged to a town guard for his offence, but earning himself a nasty wound to his leg as he retreated

sickness + the cold + the wound leave him weak and wanting: missing qi-ge, reminiscing on nights where they'd curl up together for warmth, still cold but not alone, the two of them steady against the storm that raged on ahead of them

fever-ridden and teetering close to death, shen jiu wanders into a temple late at night and sinks to his knees, falling to his side, heart-rate slowing. in his delirium, he misses the figure taking shelter from the storm in the corner, watching him

shen jiu wakes up (he doesn't expect to), warm while he hears the wind whistle. he's still in that temple from earlier, but it's considerably... cozier. a small fire warms the inside and his clothes aren't as damp against his cold skin. his fever's broken, too—he doesn't know how long it's been, but he's glad he didn't die: never realized that he wanted to live until he was close to forfeiting his right to

here is where he meets his accidental saviour: xie lian stood over a slowly bubbling pot of stew that smells heavenly to shen jiu—he'd eat just about anything at this point, starved

his immediate distrust of xie lian stops him from being truly excited about his appearance

their relationship is veryyy shaky at the very beginning: shen jiu refuses to trust him and xie lian refuses to abandon this strange child he found on the verge of death

(there's a strange sort of bond built up when you nurse someone back to life, dragging them away from the brink of death and xie lian isn't interested, but he's curious about this kid who stumbled into his temple at the dead of night on a midnight in winter)

shen jiu's torn between distrust and this desire for company he didn't know he possessed; after being alone with no one but the qiu household [before he went on his massacre] he didn't realized how much he wanted to share space with someone who wasn't actively hurting him until he was afforded the opportunity to experience non-violent company with xie lian

his distrust slowly declines when he finds out that xie lian is a cultivator. despite being arguably too old to learn cultivation to the fullest extent he could have if he started a few years earlier, he still desperately wants to learn

xie lian, perceptive as ever, slowly starts teaching him bits and pieces of the basics, teaches him to meditate, takes care to keep his distance when it looks like shen jiu's getting overwhelmed

shen jiu can't help but get attached. he hates it

shen jiu decides to test xie lian before resigning himself to this

he was snappy, impatient, and argued with xie lian, when he came over, one day, waiting for some form of punishment to come, bristling like a spooked cat.

nothing came of his experiment but a slight frown from xie lian, which made shen jiu feel almost bad—xie lian almost reminded him of qi-ge, which made him feel doubly bad because he desperately wants to find him

shen jiu came to xie lian the next day with a pastry [that he stole] as an apology. and a request:

"teach me how to cultivate so i can be a disciple at the cang qiong sect"

xie lian agrees easily enough: he's been around shen jiu to see that despite the late start, he has potential to be great [especially untouched by wu yanzi and his twisted form of cultivation]

shen jiu throws himself into his studies, working himself to the bone

xie lian is concerned by this and after trying to soften the load of his work doesn't make shen jiu slow down, he becomes stern: warns him against trying to chase too much frivolously

this leads to a breakdown of sorts—where shen jiu gets angry, dismissive, before becoming upset. the average emotional depth of a teenager but, like, 4 times worse because of the circumstances

xie lian coaxes the story out of shen jiu here; qi-ge [the first time he's mentioned aloud by name], the qiu household [only the barest of details. shen jiu refuses to dwell], and the night shen jiu made qi-ge leave, as well as qi-ge's promise to come back

shen jiu finishes by telling xie lian he needs to make it back to qi-ge, needs to see if he's still alive, he's been selfish for sticking around as long

shen jiu tells xie lian that he needs to figure out as much as he can, as fast as he can, so he can leave and make his way to cang qiong mountain with some sort of base knowledge to make it in. and that he's not sorry for pushing himself because he doesn't have time

xie lian is quiet for a while

puts a comforting hand on shen jiu's shoulder and tells him he understands; he knows someone who would do anything to make it back to the one they loved, understands the pain that comes when time and distance separates the two

however, xie lian tells him, he can't let shen jiu push himself. he'll only stunt his progress by hurting himself rather than speed things up

shen jiu is ready to argue again before xie lian offers to make the trip with him

shen jiu doesn't believe it at first—who would bother with helping him for this long if they weren't getting anything out of it? he already found this hard to believe, let alone the fact that xie lian would drop everything to travel with him for weeks on end

xie lian doesn't shake in his resolve, though. shen jiu figures out he's being serious and wants to argue, but he's just—relieved

so many people have stood as roadblocks on his path back to qi-ge; xie lian might be the first person actively trying to help them

it almost reignites hope in him; someone other than him believes in them. someone other than shen jiu thinks they'll make it back to each other and succeed in reuniting. xie lian's faith in him is like a gust of wind beneath his wings

he agrees to their road trip

[xie lian makes sure to tell his beloved he'll be away for a while]

[shen jiu doesn't notice that xie lian buys steamed buns off the same stranger in nearly every town they stop by for a night of rest in the following few weeks]

[xie lian notices, years later, when shen qingqiu doesn't recognize him upon their first meeting in decades. shen yuan doesn't know xie lian, but xie lian knows this isn't shen jiu, anymore]

[autistic-blazamy]

saw this video and i had to do this, you can tell when i got lazy

[skitskatdacat63]

I've decided to do myself what the cowards at Aston won't. Behold.

[synthshenanigans]

early morning walks suck, man.

[angry-nightwing]

I don't remember which YouTuber it was that said something about how Tarzan defeating Sabor at the end of basically the first act of Tarzan sucks because Sabor should've been the final boss since they killed his parents, but it ANNOYS me because it reveals how little that person understood the whole damn point of the movie lol.

Like, Tarzan explicitly expresses that he wants to become the perfect gorilla to earn his place in the family, and a whole montage of him training for that follows. Defeating Sabor, where Kerchak couldn't, is essentially there to show that Tarzan has achieved his goal. He's become the gorilla he wanted and he's earned the respect of his family.

He WON.

But then - humans show up. And another opportunity is offered. He finds out he might not actually belong with the gorillas. Maybe he belongs with these "strangers like him". What he thought he knew, what he thought he wanted, is in flux. He's just achieved his goal of becoming the perfect gorilla, and now he doesn't even know if he should be a gorilla anymore.

He spends another montage learning to become human. It's actually interesting how the purpose of those two songs are mirrors of each other.

And here we dive into Want vs Need. Tarzan wants to become the perfect gorilla, but what he needs is to figure out where he really belongs, and who he really is.

At the end he obviously finds out that he belongs with his family - but in a place sort of between both worlds. He takes what he's learned during Son of Man and what he's learned during Strangers Like Me, and he finds balance.

But like. Tell me how the fuck a big boss battle with Sabor would work in that setting. The final boss HAS to be man and a human construct. Otherwise the movie confirms that the jungle will always reject Tarzan, and human society truly is where he belongs.

[lezabeththetheodoraimposter]

charles rowland please for the love of all things good KEEP EDWIN AWAY FROM MAURICE

[onelastorm]

──── happy bunny (lion!?) day 🐇💛

...let's ignore that I'm a bit late, okay?

(also I'm sknclemalzmlwmala simping over my own drawing I think I should kmslvnrlwlqlqllsdkekwansns I'm gonna explodd)

non-text ver :]

[casualavocados]

We are brothers. It's my job to take care of you— I don't need it. If you are that free, go find Zhang Teng. Or you can go back to the headquarters and take care of our boss.

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 04