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seeing people i respect have dogshit opinions on AI :(
#i feel crazy#why is this person i really respect reblogging bad AI takes??#im sorry but AI is not an accessibility issue#using AI to write school papers is cheating. its not an accommodation#and i think that is the most baffling way to defend AI use#cause its absolutely the worse use case for it#AI doesnt know what a fact is. it just knows what a fact looks like#it makes up things all the time#relying on it to write papers is WILD#and then saying that its for ACCESSIBILITY???#like if you actually cared about disability accommodations you wouldn't be suggesting a tool that#(a) prevents students from learning important skills and (b) is often wrong???
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Penguin Random House, AI, and writersâ rights
NEXT WEDNESDAY (October 23) at 7PM, I'll be in DECATUR, GEORGIA, presenting my novel THE BEZZLE at EAGLE EYE BOOKS.
My friend Teresa Nielsen Hayden is a wellspring of wise sayings, like "you're not responsible for what you do in other people's dreams," and my all time favorite, from the Napster era: "Just because you're on their side, it doesn't mean they're on your side."
The record labels hated Napster, and so did many musicians, and when those musicians sided with their labels in the legal and public relations campaigns against file-sharing, they lent both legal and public legitimacy to the labels' cause, which ultimately prevailed.
But the labels weren't on musicians' side. The demise of Napster and with it, the idea of a blanket-license system for internet music distribution (similar to the systems for radio, live performance, and canned music at venues and shops) firmly established that new services must obtain permission from the labels in order to operate.
That era is very good for the labels. The three-label cartel â Universal, Warner and Sony â was in a position to dictate terms like Spotify, who handed over billions of dollars worth of stock, and let the Big Three co-design the royalty scheme that Spotify would operate under.
If you know anything about Spotify payments, it's probably this: they are extremely unfavorable to artists. This is true â but that doesn't mean it's unfavorable to the Big Three labels. The Big Three get guaranteed monthly payments (much of which is booked as "unattributable royalties" that the labels can disperse or keep as they see fit), along with free inclusion on key playlists and other valuable services. What's more, the ultra-low payouts to artists increase the value of the labels' stock in Spotify, since the less Spotify has to pay for music, the better it looks to investors.
The Big Three â who own 70% of all music ever recorded, thanks to an orgy of mergers â make up the shortfall from these low per-stream rates with guaranteed payments and promo.
But the indy labels and musicians that account for the remaining 30% are out in the cold. They are locked into the same fractional-penny-per-stream royalty scheme as the Big Three, but they don't get gigantic monthly cash guarantees, and they have to pay the playlist placement the Big Three get for free.
Just because you're on their side, it doesn't mean they're on your side:
https://pluralistic.net/2022/09/12/streaming-doesnt-pay/#stunt-publishing
In a very important, material sense, creative workers â writers, filmmakers, photographers, illustrators, painters and musicians â are not on the same side as the labels, agencies, studios and publishers that bring our work to market. Those companies are not charities; they are driven to maximize profits and an important way to do that is to reduce costs, including and especially the cost of paying us for our work.
It's easy to miss this fact because the workers at these giant entertainment companies are our class allies. The same impulse to constrain payments to writers is in play when entertainment companies think about how much they pay editors, assistants, publicists, and the mail-room staff. These are the people that creative workers deal with on a day to day basis, and they are on our side, by and large, and it's easy to conflate these people with their employers.
This class war need not be the central fact of creative workers' relationship with our publishers, labels, studios, etc. When there are lots of these entertainment companies, they compete with one another for our work (and for the labor of the workers who bring that work to market), which increases our share of the profit our work produces.
But we live in an era of extreme market concentration in every sector, including entertainment, where we deal with five publishers, four studios, three labels, two ad-tech companies and a single company that controls all the ebooks and audiobooks. That concentration makes it much harder for artists to bargain effectively with entertainments companies, and that means that it's possible -likely, even â for entertainment companies to gain market advantages that aren't shared with creative workers. In other words, when your field is dominated by a cartel, you may be on on their side, but they're almost certainly not on your side.
This week, Penguin Random House, the largest publisher in the history of the human race, made headlines when it changed the copyright notice in its books to ban AI training:
https://www.thebookseller.com/news/penguin-random-house-underscores-copyright-protection-in-ai-rebuff
The copyright page now includes this phrase:
No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any manner for the purpose of training artificial intelligence technologies or systems.
Many writers are celebrating this move as a victory for creative workers' rights over AI companies, who have raised hundreds of billions of dollars in part by promising our bosses that they can fire us and replace us with algorithms.
But these writers are assuming that just because they're on Penguin Random House's side, PRH is on their side. They're assuming that if PRH fights against AI companies training bots on their work for free, that this means PRH won't allow bots to be trained on their work at all.
This is a pretty naive take. What's far more likely is that PRH will use whatever legal rights it has to insist that AI companies pay it for the right to train chatbots on the books we write. It is vanishingly unlikely that PRH will share that license money with the writers whose books are then shoveled into the bot's training-hopper. It's also extremely likely that PRH will try to use the output of chatbots to erode our wages, or fire us altogether and replace our work with AI slop.
This is speculation on my part, but it's informed speculation. Note that PRH did not announce that it would allow authors to assert the contractual right to block their work from being used to train a chatbot, or that it was offering authors a share of any training license fees, or a share of the income from anything produced by bots that are trained on our work.
Indeed, as publishing boiled itself down from the thirty-some mid-sized publishers that flourished when I was a baby writer into the Big Five that dominate the field today, their contracts have gotten notably, materially worse for writers:
https://pluralistic.net/2022/06/19/reasonable-agreement/
This is completely unsurprising. In any auction, the more serious bidders there are, the higher the final price will be. When there were thirty potential bidders for our work, we got a better deal on average than we do now, when there are at most five bidders.
Though this is self-evident, Penguin Random House insists that it's not true. Back when PRH was trying to buy Simon & Schuster (thereby reducing the Big Five publishers to the Big Four), they insisted that they would continue to bid against themselves, with editors at Simon & Schuster (a division of PRH) bidding against editors at Penguin (a division of PRH) and Random House (a division of PRH).
This is obvious nonsense, as Stephen King said when he testified against the merger (which was subsequently blocked by the court): "You might as well say youâre going to have a husband and wife bidding against each other for the same house. It would be sort of very gentlemanly and sort of, 'After you' and 'After you'":
https://apnews.com/article/stephen-king-government-and-politics-b3ab31d8d8369e7feed7ce454153a03c
Penguin Random House didn't become the largest publisher in history by publishing better books or doing better marketing. They attained their scale by buying out their rivals. The company is actually a kind of colony organism made up of dozens of once-independent publishers. Every one of those acquisitions reduced the bargaining power of writers, even writers who don't write for PRH, because the disappearance of a credible bidder for our work into the PRH corporate portfolio reduces the potential bidders for our work no matter who we're selling it to.
I predict that PRH will not allow its writers to add a clause to their contracts forbidding PRH from using their work to train an AI. That prediction is based on my direct experience with two of the other Big Five publishers, where I know for a fact that they point-blank refused to do this, and told the writer that any insistence on including this contract would lead to the offer being rescinded.
The Big Five have remarkably similar contracting terms. Or rather, unremarkably similar contracts, since concentrated industries tend to converge in their operational behavior. The Big Five are similar enough that it's generally understood that a writer who sues one of the Big Five publishers will likely find themselves blackballed at the rest.
My own agent gave me this advice when one of the Big Five stole more than $10,000 from me â canceled a project that I was part of because another person involved with it pulled out, and then took five figures out of the killfee specified in my contract, just because they could. My agent told me that even though I would certainly win that lawsuit, it would come at the cost of my career, since it would put me in bad odor with all of the Big Five.
The writers who are cheering on Penguin Random House's new copyright notice are operating under the mistaken belief that this will make it less likely that our bosses will buy an AI in hopes of replacing us with it:
https://pluralistic.net/2023/02/09/ai-monkeys-paw/#bullied-schoolkids
That's not true. Giving Penguin Random House the right to demand license fees for AI training will do nothing to reduce the likelihood that Penguin Random House will choose to buy an AI in hopes of eroding our wages or firing us.
But something else will! The US Copyright Office has issued a series of rulings, upheld by the courts, asserting that nothing made by an AI can be copyrighted. By statute and international treaty, copyright is a right reserved for works of human creativity (that's why the "monkey selfie" can't be copyrighted):
https://pluralistic.net/2023/08/20/everything-made-by-an-ai-is-in-the-public-domain/
All other things being equal, entertainment companies would prefer to pay creative workers as little as possible (or nothing at all) for our work. But as strong as their preference for reducing payments to artists is, they are far more committed to being able to control who can copy, sell and distribute the works they release.
In other words, when confronted with a choice of "We don't have to pay artists anymore" and "Anyone can sell or give away our products and we won't get a dime from it," entertainment companies will pay artists all day long.
Remember that dope everyone laughed at because he scammed his way into winning an art contest with some AI slop then got angry because people were copying "his" picture? That guy's insistence that his slop should be entitled to copyright is far more dangerous than the original scam of pretending that he painted the slop in the first place:
https://arstechnica.com/tech-policy/2024/10/artist-appeals-copyright-denial-for-prize-winning-ai-generated-work/
If PRH was intervening in these Copyright Office AI copyrightability cases to say AI works can't be copyrighted, that would be an instance where we were on their side and they were on our side. The day they submit an amicus brief or rulemaking comment supporting no-copyright-for-AI, I'll sing their praises to the heavens.
But this change to PRH's copyright notice won't improve writers' bank-balances. Giving writers the ability to control AI training isn't going to stop PRH and other giant entertainment companies from training AIs with our work. They'll just say, "If you don't sign away the right to train an AI with your work, we won't publish you."
The biggest predictor of how much money an artist sees from the exploitation of their work isn't how many exclusive rights we have, it's how much bargaining power we have. When you bargain against five publishers, four studios or three labels, any new rights you get from Congress or the courts is simply transferred to them the next time you negotiate a contract.
As Rebecca Giblin and I write in our 2022 book Chokepoint Capitalism:
Giving a creative worker more copyright is like giving your bullied schoolkid more lunch money. No matter how much you give them, the bullies will take it all. Give your kid enough lunch money and the bullies will be able to bribe the principle to look the other way. Keep giving that kid lunch money and the bullies will be able to launch a global appeal demanding more lunch money for hungry kids!
https://chokepointcapitalism.com/
As creative workers' fortunes have declined through the neoliberal era of mergers and consolidation, we've allowed ourselves to be distracted with campaigns to get us more copyright, rather than more bargaining power.
There are copyright policies that get us more bargaining power. Banning AI works from getting copyright gives us more bargaining power. After all, just because AI can't do our job, it doesn't follow that AI salesmen can't convince our bosses to fire us and replace us with incompetent AI:
https://pluralistic.net/2024/01/11/robots-stole-my-jerb/#computer-says-no
Then there's "copyright termination." Under the 1976 Copyright Act, creative workers can take back the copyright to their works after 35 years, even if they sign a contract giving up the copyright for its full term:
https://pluralistic.net/2021/09/26/take-it-back/
Creative workers from George Clinton to Stephen King to Stan Lee have converted this right to money â unlike, say, longer terms of copyright, which are simply transferred to entertainment companies through non-negotiable contractual clauses. Rather than joining our publishers in fighting for longer terms of copyright, we could be demanding shorter terms for copyright termination, say, the right to take back a popular book or song or movie or illustration after 14 years (as was the case in the original US copyright system), and resell it for more money as a risk-free, proven success.
Until then, remember, just because you're on their side, it doesn't mean they're on your side. They don't want to prevent AI slop from reducing your wages, they just want to make sure it's their AI slop puts you on the breadline.
Tor Books as just published two new, free LITTLE BROTHER stories: VIGILANT, about creepy surveillance in distance education; and SPILL, about oil pipelines and indigenous landback.
If you'd like an essay-formatted version of this post to read or share, here's a link to it on pluralistic.net, my surveillance-free, ad-free, tracker-free blog:
https://pluralistic.net/2024/10/19/gander-sauce/#just-because-youre-on-their-side-it-doesnt-mean-theyre-on-your-side
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summary: you're mind is clouded with stress due to the fact your final highschool exams are next week. matt comes over to help you with studying, and also to take your mind off everything.
contains: smut, fluff, small age gap?, swearing, crying.
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matt and i have known each other since he was 13 and i was 11, our families have been super close for around 7 years. a year ago Matt confessed to me, I felt the exact same.
"oh my fucking god." i groan, throwing my head into my hands as i feel a burning sensation at the back of my throat.
its my final exam week starting tomorrow, and i'm attempting to catch up on last minute homework beforehand. matt graduated 2 years ago, he was top of his class, i pick up my phone and dial his number.
i need desperate help.
"hey!" matt says into the phone, a smile clear by his voice.
i sniffle quickly before starting "please come over nothing is making sense." my voice wobbles as i clutch the phone in my hand.
"oh fuck-.. no yeah ill be round in 5 minutes okay?" he says gently into the phone.
i nod like he can see me, then hang up.
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i hear my bedroom door opening, my head snaps up to look at him from my bed. hes got worry painted across his face as i see his eyes dart over my matress, which has several books on it. "you okay?" he asks, walking over to my bed and sitting down on it opposite me.
i shake my head "i can't do this shit" i groan, matt nods understandably before grabbing my hands and pulling them away from my face.
"look at me" he says in a serious tone, i tilt my head up and lock eyes with him. "i'm gonna help you okay?"
"thank you," i say as my voice breaks.
he sits up and walks over by my side before plopping down on the bed next to me, he grabs the textbook which has around 15 questions left on it. "not even ai understands it, i tried." i sigh earning a laugh from matt, i lean my head on his shoulder.
"basic algebra, you know this, i know you do sweetheart."
i shake my head "my brains so fucking foggy i bet you i couldnt do a 6th grade multiplication table right now."
"foggy like how" he questions, tilting his head.
"just everything i have so much on my mind." i reply lifting my head off his shoulder and staring at the questions.
"you're okay, look- 'factorising an algebraic equation means writing the expression as product of factors, which are simpler algebraic expressions, this is done..." the rest of what matt says doesnt get through to me, i cant physically wrap my mind around it right now.
i feel my eyes start to water before several tears start to flow down my cheeks, "got it?" matt asks, keeping his eyes fixated on the page resting on the sheets. i stay silent "hello?" he says again, this time looking over at me.
"oh god- no no don't cry" matt panics, grabbing my cheeks and giving me a gentle kiss.
"i can't think." i squeeze out, matt wraps around me. "this might not sound like good timing but, i can.. help you?" he says nervously, grimacing slightly.
i hand him the pencil, his words not passing through. "no no, like i can take your mind off of the work for a little bit" he repeats.
realisation hits me and my eyebrows raise, my head snapping round to look at matt who has an innocent expression plastered on his face. i nod, and without another word my shirt is halfway across the room.
he laughs quietly, his shirt meeting mine in the corner of the room. his chain lays loose on his bare chest. he stands up off the bed, i lie back. "i want you to just be a... - like a uh" my eyebrows scrunch "a what?"
"i hate the word but its the best way i can describe it." matt chuckles, "say it!" i smile
"pillow princess..?" he says quietly, icking himself out.
"okay" i shake my head with a wide grin before.
matts long cold fingers reach out to grab the waistband of my sweatpants, sending goosebumps down my body. he tugs at it gently, letting it slide down my legs.
"you okay?" he asks while unclasping his belt "i think?" i reply stupidly.
he nods, his tongue sticking out to wet his now dry lips. his baggy jeans pool at his ankles, leaving him in his boxers.
"ready?"
i nod, "yep-..yeah"
he stands between my legs before hovering over me, colliding our lips together aggressively.
it never fails to shock me how he can switch from so innocent to so.. different.
i moan lightly into the kiss as i feel his clothed bulge against my inner thigh. he abrubtly pulls away from the kiss pecking kisses down my neck, to my chest, to my stomach.
i squirm desperately on the bed as he pauses just above my clit.
"more." i whine, matt shakes his head, lifting his head up and grabbing my thighs he spreads them further apart.
i throw my head back "fuck." i breathe, before i can breath again matts tip presses against my clit. i instantly look up, questioning how hes just undressed the rest of the way in under a second.
he runs his soft tip through my folds, he presses only an inch or 2 inside of me before he pulls out, continuing to tease me.
"matt i need you." i groan, my back arching off the bed.
"can you get on fours for me sweetheart?" he asks softly, i nod, instantly flipping over and arching my back.
"good girl." he coos, lining himself up with me. "gonna keep being whiny?" he asks, i shake my head no. "thats right." he says.
"this is whats gonna happen okay? you aren't gonna start asking me to slow down because i think we both know how needy you were just acting."
fuck.
i dont think a single sentence has ever turned me on more.
i nod frantically, matt presses down on my back, arching my back more.
i feel him slide halfway inside of me slowly before slamming the rest of his length into me, earning a squeal from me.
before i can even process my thoughts hes slamming full force into me, deeper and deeper each time. my moans cloud the room along with heavy breaths coming from matt.
his tip continues to bruise my cervix, i clench around him each time it does.
"fuck-.." i hear matt whimper lowly from behind me.
he reaches a hand round under me and presses on my lower stomach.
hes never done that before, but holy fuck am i glad he did.
i instantly release over matts cock, clenching harshly around him with a scream.
matt pulls out, releasing over my back.
"you-you okay?" he stammers breathlessly, flopping down beside me.
i nod, my mind fully blank.
i guess him 'helping clear my head' worked.
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matt finishes redressing me before sitting back down next to me, the air around us is hot and thick, but matts still determened to get this homework done.
"okay- so as i was saying factorising an algebraic equation means writing the expression as product of factors...
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matt and i have been working through the textbook for about 20 minutes, everything makes sense and now i can't understand what i wasnt understanding earlier.
"you try this one okay?" matt hands me the pencil and i start to scribble down the awnsers. "you got it!" he smiles proudly, kissing my cheek.
i yawn, tired out from.. everything.
"you tired?" he asks, wrapping him arms around me and flopping down on the mattress. "very." i reply, my voice croaky.
"you wanna sleep, we can finish this tomorrow morning okay? and ill just drop you off at school or whatever." he asks, without another word im fast asleep on his chest.
1:24am
i wake up to the sound of pencil scribbling on paper, confused i sit up. matts sitting criss cross on the bed, leaning down over my textbook and filling in all the awnsers.
"matt?" i groan, rubbing my eyes.
"go back to sleep gorgeous," he replys, looking back at me
"what are you doing.." i ask, my eyes adjusting to the light.
"im doing this for you, you already know how to do it, i saw you. you're gonna be too tired to do this in the morning." he says.
i crawl over to matt and smother him in kisses "maattt, thats adorable."
"shush, this is a one time thing." he replys, shaking his head with a smirk.
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In what ways do you believe V would display romance and affection?
V is... a difficult one smh. she hardly even allows anyone to touch her, and the solver had altered her AI beyond the possibility of her being able to relearn a new personality easily- or at least not overnight. Its like a semi-perminant trauma response.
so lets see-
V is prideful, even if she doesnt flaunt it like J, she couldnt bring herself to actually face people when shes doing something kind for them, she usually does it from behind the curtain. she doesnt want anyone to know she has anything soft about her, shes still scared of getting hurt, we have seen this several times during the show where she gets put off by the solver when Uzi uses it.
But when in a relationship she had to deal with the fact that the bond has to go both ways. it was... not easy for her to even admit she liked to be in a relationship in the first place. in fact i doubt if any of them even thought about it at all- before they knew what was happening they were all just an inseperable part of eachothers lives, and try as she might, N and Uzi just knew she cared about them lol.
V learned to open up a bit more. She opts for silence rather than flat out lying to peoples faces now, and when she feels ready to share something the others hear her out.
another thing that V does is trying to participate in things N and Uzi suggest. its really not easy to deal with 2 people who are so emotionally charged- so N and Uzi dont blame her for sitting out of activities but she tries to join them just to have the company, like going out around the desolate human cities looking for random stuff and sharing interests, or cuddling in a fort and doodling stuff- maybe even sometimes dancing or looking for clothes and getups. even though she might not participate in the activity herself, she still likes to be present and that itself shows N and Uzi that she cares.
speaking of clothes, Vs time with Lizzy showed her that a part of her still wishes she had the freedom to live as a normal drone for all the time that was robbed of her. she likes to look pretty and she likes to wear pretty outfits... something that she might have not had the choice on even if she had lived all her life as a normal drone. and showing the other two some of the outfits she choses and prettying herself up for her partners is probably a side of her shes not gonna willingly let anyone else see any time soon. N and Uzi arent complaining :p
Initiating any physical affections is something that she does rarely but sometimes even she craves the attention. Uzi and N feel like a cat had chosen to trust them lmao. She used to start really simple like curling her tail around N or Uzi or their leg or tail- she opted to skip hand holding and just go towards hugs or cuddles whenever she wanted the attention or N and Uzi were idly doing something and she just decides to join. sometimes she would demand neck scratches and rubs or head pats, she usually doesnt let anyone simply touch her so those are a big deal. and well if she goes for more like kisses or anything more intimate, she makes sure that her partners are okay with it and that shes not bothering them or forcing them by doing so.
Sleeping. thats it. V hardly allows herself to rest. the fact that she would let herself sleep around N or Uzi or even cuddle with them shows shes immensely trustful and happy of where she is right now. N and Uzi want to expload cuz its like a cat had fallen asleep on them and now they cant move cuz they dont wanna wake her up TvT
i think thats all i have for nowwww >:3
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The Things I said
Pairings: Nate doe x SLS
Summary: Im not gonna lie, i have no idea what to write for the summary, it was just an rp i did in c.ai
Warnings: swearing, making out, pet names, getting caught (kinda?)
a/n: This is just a scenario i did with charachter ai, so some parts may not make sense. Some parts were copied and pasted, but some parts were changes a bit so they make sense.
Dividers by @issysh3ll
"Y/N! I'm Inviting Nate over!" you hear matt yell.
You roll your eyes "Why do you have to invite him over here? Why cant you just go over to his place?"
He looks at you, knowing you're gonna give him a hard time.
âbecause I think Nateâs lonely, he just went through a breakup. The guy needs a buddy.â
"Damn, im not shocked, who would wanna date his ugly ass" You say, knowing damn well youve had a crush on him since you met him.
Matt laughs âoh please, girls literally salivate over him, heâs just a heartbreaker.â
"Ha! I bet you he had to pay girls money to date him."
"Oh please, I've seen firsthand how girls act around him. You're just jealous a guy like him doesnt look in your direction."
Your jaw drops, shocked at what Matt just said. "Erm actually, i have a boyfriend thank you very much."
Matt crosses his arms, raising his eyebrows "Oh? Is that so?"
You nod and the doobell rings "Oh look! There he is now!"
Matt laughs, going to the door. Nate is standing at the door. He smiles when he sees Matt, giving him a quick hug. Matt raises his eyebrows and turns back to you "Last time i checked, nate wasnt your boyfriend, so you can stop lying"
Nate overhears them speaking and walks over to them âwhatâs y/n lying about now?â
Matt chuckles âshe was bragging about having a boyfriend like ten seconds agoâ
"UGH FINE I DONT HAVE A BOYFRIEND" you pout, crossing your arms.
Matt laughs, having fun tormenting you âwell, that didnât take very long to confess.
Nate smiles, amused. Your lack of a boyfriend was a well-known fact that everyone teased you about.
Everyone knew that yiou had never had a boyfriend, even though youve liked several guys, and been in several talking stages, some instnces even led to the guy leading you on, but eventually breaking your heart. What people didnt know though, is that this made you very self concious, your self esteem was very low and you felt like you were unloveable.
Nate always knew that you struggled with low self esteem, he also knew about the guys that led you on and he hated that for you. You may be feisty and mean but you didnât deserve how some of those guys had treated you. And he would be lying if he said he never caught himself finding you attractive.
You quickly went back to your sassy attitude when you caught Nate staring. "What the fuck are you looking at?"
Nate snaps out of the small trance he was in and quickly looks away, trying to hide his blush. âIâm not staring at anything.â.
Matt stands there observing the interaction between you two. He knew you both for long enough to see that there was a tension between you. A tension different than usual. It was like you kept glancing at each other when you thought the other wasnât looking, you both seemed to get along yet have the urge to bicker. There was something there but neither of you realized it because youre too stubborn.
âoh come on, you totally wereâ
Nate looks back at you, not wanting to admit that you caught him staring, so he does the next best thing and tries to deny it âNo I wasnât, I think youâre just desperate to be looked at by someone."
This was the last straw for you, you felt tears well up in your eyes, but instead of letting them fall, you chose to let anger take over "SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LEAVE ME ALONE YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE" You run up to your room and slam the door
Nateâs eyes widen at Paytonâs reaction. He knew he had hit a soft spot and immediately regretted what he had said. He looks back behind him at Matt who stares in shock at your abrupt exit.
âWell now look at what you did dumbassâ
âI didnât mean to..â
Matt rolls his eyes at Nate
âOh shut up yes you did. You enjoy getting on her nerves. You just got a way more emotional reaction than usualâ
Nate sighs, feeling bad for what he said. He rubs the back of his neck, frustrated with himself.
"Yeah well, I didnât mean anything by it.. she shouldnât be so sensitive about it"
Matt, glares at him "Well? Areent you gonna go tallk to her?"
Nate sighs, he knows he should go talk to you. He runs a hand through his hair. "I donât know.. isnât she gonna just yell at me if I go up there?
Matt rolls his eyes again, knowing damn well that Nate was just looking for excuses to not talk to you "You never know unless you try. Just go up there and talk to her"
Nate groans, but reluctantly decides to go talk to you. "Alright, Iâm going. But Iâm blaming you if it goes terriblyâ
Nate starts walking up the stairs, and pauses a moment to build the courage to knock on your door. Then finally he musters up the courage to knock, hesitantly calling your name.
âHey, y/n?â
"Go away. Dont waste your time on me, Im irrelevant" you sob. This makes nate immideately open the door
Nate opens the door and sees you sitting on the bed, tears falling down your face. He immediately regrets what he had said. Sure, you guys bickered, but he never wanted to see you cry. Seeing you like that broke his heart. Nate quickly walks up to your bed and sits down next to you.
âHey, donât say that..â
You refuse to look at him, feeling embarrassed that he was seeing you cry.
"Im serious.. You dont need to waste your time on me, Iâm just a hopeless loser-"
"Baby, dont say stuff like that, you are the complete opposite" Nate says
You wipes your tears and looks up at him.Youre taken by surprise by how tender and caring he sounds. Itâs so different from your usual fights.
âBut I am.. no guy has ever looked at me twice, and every guy Iâve been interested in has either lead me on or dumped me. Its obvious that thereâs something wrong with me, that no guy can find me good enough..â
Nathan cups your face with his hand and wipes your tears away
Your face turns red. Youre embarrassed that heâs seeing you so vulnerable like this
âHey, you donât have to pretend to care, I know you were only trying to insult me earlier.â
Instead of responding, nate pulled your face closer and kissed you.
Your eyes widen with shock, but you quickly melt into the kiss, closing your eyes and placing a hand on his chest for support. You start to kiss him more passionately, enjoying the feeling of your lips against his.
Nate pushes you down onto the bed as he kisses you. Your bodies getting closer. Nates hands rub up and down your side, as he gently starts to kiss your neck, finding your sweet spot almost immedately.
Matt walks into your room, wondering whats taking so long, but he is disgusted by what he finds. "WHAT THE HELL MAN. I TOLD YOU TO APOLOGIZE TO HER, NOT FUCK HER!!"\
Nate quickly sits up, embarrassed that Matt walked in on you. You, whoâs hair was messy and face flushed, were blushing intensely
âM-MATT ITS NOT WHAT IT LOOKS LIKEâ
Matt glares at you both, arms crossed
âThen what in the hell are you two doing then?â
You and Nate look at each other, not knowing how to explain to Matt what he walked in on. Nate rubs the back of his neck, feeling awkward, and your face was red as ever.
âWe- um-â He sighs, knowing that he had no excuse for what he did, and he didnât want to lie âWe were just making out..â
Matt looks at you, not buying your excuse for a second âJust making out, sure. Y/n I thought you said you didnât like him, and Nate, I thought you said she was a pain in the ass?â
"OMG MATT JUST GET THE FUCK OUT!" You shout
Nate nods quickly, also wanting him gone
âYeah, just get out dude..â
Matt rolls his eyes at you both
âYou both are so lucky that youâre cuteâ
He closes the door, leaving You and Nathan alone in your room again.
a/n: I gave you guys some fluff before i break yall again. This story is going to just be background info for the next one. Im not exaclty going to call this part one, because its bascially a prequel.
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Me and my friend hung out for a few hours yesterday and yapped about op way too much so now i wanna contribute more sexuality hcs but for side characters instead of any specific group. you can have ur own hcs these r just mine
ace - TRANS TRANS TRANS TRANS TRANS you will believe in transmasc ace agenda. he is so trans, what are you doing walking around shirtless CONSTANTLY if not to flex your top surgery scars. heâd beat up anyone as a kid who called him a girl hes known this for a WHILE. sexuality wise hes gay, hes gay and theres not a hint of asexuality in him because hes a freak and unapologetically loves men openly. gay icon in the op world
law - i havent seen law being shipped with a woman once and i find that really funny and telling of what people think of him. and theyre correct, hes a gay man. difference between him and ace is that heâd rather die than admit he even likes people so yk. cis but he did aceâs top surgery
sabo - i have never before seen a character so very much be aromantic without being an implied aromantic character. hes not repulsed by romance its just that hes preoccupied with overthrowing the government and supporting his brothers at all times, he has other things to worry abt. gender, could be anything and could honestly fluctuate depending on the day. at the very least, he fist fights transphobes on the daily and in a modern au would hangout at ivaâs drag bar and fight anyone who acts weird
yamato - if you dont think yamato is a transman i want you to get away from my blog okay thanks. that isnt a hc, thats a fact and ppl who disagree are weird in my eyes. sexuality wise, he could honestly like ANYONE, but he just finds himself drawn to men more often than not (ace) so if you were to ask him heâd just say âoh men are cool, women are pretty but you know i cant find myself drawn to themâ and he thinks hes normal get a load of this guy
kaku - most proudly bisexual guy to exist. i think he started to think more to himself about things during his time at water 7. he could also be okay with it and live his life that way without any shame because he wasnt an assassin working for the government there, he was kaku so yk, he could actually openly be with whoever he wanted. gender, cis man but if you talk about him using they/them only heâd just laugh and not correct you
lucci - hah gay. him and kaku probably got married in water 7. cp9 questioned kaku for marrying lucci, meanwhile pauile just questioned to himself how things would work cause of the pigeon. lucci is such a gay man, he fucking trans too dont ask me how i know i just know. Ai can sniff out my fellow transguys from a mile away alright
kalifa - oh i love it when women hate on men but the second a woman shows up she acts all flirty and confident. totally heterosexual of you kalifa. no but shes such a man hating lesbian, she always has been and could probably be due to menâs treatment of her during childhood which made her really not like most of them. i need to write out a backstory for her damn. oh and shes trans trust me on that one
koby - sometimes a lot of op characters will be inlove with luffy and never get their feelings returned, and one of those people is koby. yeah hes gay, and asexual he just kept discovering stuff like that when training under garp cause garp is so okay with everything, and then we incorporate more moments between him and helmeppo like in the live action where they sit and talk about stuff. koby realises hes gay and sighs. âthat explains a lotâŚâ
buggy - gaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy he doesnt like women he cant bring himself to he had his first tragic yaoi relationship as a teen and never looked back. gender is whatever you want it to be baby. freaky as all hell my GOD every time im reminded of the cross guild and what they do to buggy i just know. theyre so freaky
shanks - bisexual icon but hes been hung up on the same ex (buggy) for so many years that other romances are less prioritised cause âomg what if buggy comes back:}â get over it man he aint coming back for u. trans man, look at him and his pussy yeah thats a trans dude hell yeah
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#noahsop#one piece#portgas d ace#revolutionary sabo#trafalgar law#koby one piece#buggy the clown#shanks#kalifa one piece#kaku one piece#rob lucci#headcanons#gay#lgbtq#asexual#ace#aromantic#aro#bisexual#bi#lesbian#trans
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I actually just wanna go over all the evidence there is/was for which side (3 star fam or cassie's dad) was in charge of mxes
people who believed cassie's dad built mxes had theories for a while before any info past hw2/I think during the ruin era too that because he was a technician, he had the resources and brains to build a machine like m.x.e.s, mxes was connected to the ar world, and technicians have vanni ar world masks by default. mxes also is designed after a rabbit and has very similar chest patterns to glamrock bonnies bodysuit, and like the only thing we know about Cassies dad is that hes a fan of bonnie
a lot of this stuff has been disproved. first of all bc it's been recently revealed in the past couple months during the john fuhnaff + steel wool interview + this Tuesday update that m.x.e.s is an old supercomputer from the 80s and was designed to look like one. the mxes ending in the hw2 update also shows them in rabbit form outside of the computer resisting before getting sucked back in. this scene is implying that mxes was FROM the sotm factory/the circus attraction it makes things for, and they have their rabbit form BEFORE the person driving the van takes them, so that's confirmation them was capable of having that form before it got taken. meaning nobody programmed/upgraded them to be able to do that, they already could
meaning that Cassies dad no longer has that design aspect adding to his evidence pile bc he wouldnt have a say in m.x.e.s' design
the mxes machine ALSO is very dirty in the van scene, just as dirty as it was in ruin, so that means it's pretty close to modern day, being pre ruin but post security breach. with this in mind, gregory vanessa and Freddy would all be outside the pizzaplex with a job to do at this point, and their footprints are clearly seen during ruin around the map out of the way of roxy raceway, meaning they had business elsewhere that wasnt just a straight beeline to where the mimic is, which could be concrete evidence they're responsible for the nodes that are connected to m.x.e.s.
Gregory's backpack is ALSO in the exact same basement m.x.e.s is in ruin, plus Gregory tells cassie that he knows what m.x.e.s was designed for.
that's a lot of red threads connecting Gregory vanessa Freddy and mxes. not to mention how Cassies dad canonically dies at the end of hw2, which if he was the protag would be a prequel to ruin. an unknown amount of time yeah, but the info that hes dead before ruin where mxes is found and already set up is important to note
but with Cassies dad, I think most of the evidence ppl had was just the nature of him being a technician, and the fact that he EXISTS as a character, so he has to have SOME kind of importance. that thought process makes sense but with him being immediately killed off in help wanted 2, it feels like he was just there to serve the plot, not really do anything. he was just there to be the one to help vanny kill glitchtrap, and be the player character they needed in hw2, and just. I dont know. he doesnt have a name or a face or even any connection to mimic at all, so what motivation would he have to go take mxes from the factory, the computer that was specifically built to combat mimics ai? and how would he even know its there?
cassies dads character is very confusing and weird lol. but I think that Gregory freddy and vanessa actually have a lot of concrete evidence drawing a red thread between them and mxes, and I think this van ending might have been the thing to finally prove who it was. it revealed that neither side had a hand in reprogramming it, so the design hints are out the window, and all that's left is motivation to take it and the knowledge theyd have to find it, which they definitely have. plus ALL that ruin evidence its just. it's a lot pointing to them. they're the number 1 victims of the mimic, so everything just makes sense here
#if somebody has any more evidence for why cassies dad would be responsible for mxes plz let me know#bc i rlly dont understand how he was ever supoosed to be in charge of it with all this 3 star evidence#pandas.txt#Tuesday update spoilers#3 star fam#m.x.e.s#cassies dad#theory
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could there perhaps be a tadc x reader who smiles⌠but like all the time
like no matter what happens, reader always has a smile on their face to never show weakness!
this can come off as creepy because the only thing fhat you always see is their smile, they never frown, or anything like that
feel free to ignore this though if you arenât interested! take care! <3
TADC cast x reader who always smiles!
gm everyone its 6 in the morning and the admin woke up at around 2am, unable to go back to sleep.... sooooooooooooo.... yeah! gonna answer a few requests then imma make breakfast, work on art, and hopefully work on more requests! might make cookies again today.... we'll see!
CAINE:
completely unphased by any creepiness of your perma smile, in fact he would go on to compliment it anytime he sees it... which is... all the time.... whether your smile is permanent due to your digital body, or you willingly choose to smile all the time.. doesnt matter to him, hes going to let you know that he loves how you look! doesnt raise a brow when it doesnt falter in the phase of danger or stress, probably thinks thats... only slightly strange, but not anything to raise any questions... you know? pretty much ai not fully understanding humans deal with that one
POMNI:
genuinely freaked out by it because it can get.. unnerving at times especially if youre quiet. like can you imagine you just slink into the room and youre just. smiling. god she would probably jump a few feet into the air when she finally notices you.... not cool, reader!/lh
nervously smiles back, though she does relax a little when she gets to know you better and why you smile all the time, eventually getting over her fear for the most part! though, i think she would gently push for you to let the smile drop every now and then
RAGATHA:
assuming she knows you do it to not be vulnerable you can bet your ass shes going to try to get you to let your walls down around her, lets you have alone time with her and reassures you that theres nothing wrong in having a moment of weakness. things like that. though, she may come off as pushy just know that she means no harm. like pomni, when first getting used to you/getting to know you i think she would be a little put off by your perma-smile but soon grows used to it. much faster than pomni does, i think
JAX:
probably teases you about it and gives you nicknames for it/being perceived as happy and cheerful... perhaps keeps it up even after he finds out why you do it/puts the pieces together himself. though, he doesnt try to get you to open up, since thats a you issue and jax doesnt seem like the type to have you take a step towards that since it seems to be working for you. sooooo... honestly i think he would still smile too, only because he knows it unnerves some of the other circus members. not at all for the same reason you do it so take that as you will
KINGER:
honestly depending on how the smile looks (normal, or perhaps stretched wide) it might dip into a sort of uncanny valley for him... actually, even if it looked normal, seeing someone just smiling all the time can put anyone off, i think. especially someone like kinger whos always paranoid about something terrible happening... definitely going to have to either drop the smile around him or fill him in on everything. do i think he would be rude and/or run away at the mere sight of you? definitely not, especially if you guys are friends/partners, but hes definitely going to be a little anxious on bad days the first few weeks he knows you, you know?
ZOOBLE:
doesnt really care either way. does think the smile is a little creepy, though. but that doesnt exactly mean its a bad thing, in fact they think its cool. interesting. different. admin likes to headcannon that zooble was into horror/disturbing stuff so something like this might be up their alley, reasoning for the smile aside. though, i do think they would have a little pause if they find out your reasoning... mostly only if you guys are close since otherwise they brush it off as its not their business. buuuuuut... if you are close, they probably tell you theres nothing wrong in being vulnerable, at least in their own way which may come off as sarcastic.. so !
GANGLE:
i was about to say that she would be put off by it, but honestly? she gets it. i saw somewhere/someone said that gangles masks are like metaphors/comedy mask is a false thing and shes not ACTUALLY happy or confident with it on.. if i had the post id link it but </3
out of all of them i think... with her, youre the most likely to drop your own mask and open up to her, at least with the most ease because you guys can relate to one another. sure, gangle has her masks for a different reason (as well as them simply being a part of her digital body), but you guys can still relate and find solidarity in one another
#tadc x reader#the amazing digital circus x reader#digital circus x reader#caine x reader#pomni x reader#ragatha x reader#jax x reader#kinger x reader#zooble x reader#gangle x reader
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okay im so normal about the idea of a monster plane actually. idk why ive literally never had interests in planes before what have you done (/j). Like is vash actually The Plane? Or is he just a creature that took over the metal structure of the plane? Is the Vash we know actually like. his body? Or is it like an anglerfish lure to make people trust him since its more human shaped? Does he just. have two sets of eyes and brains because he has two "bodies"? I have so many questions frfr
heheheh >:)
okay so!
vash is vash! he used to be able to walk around and do stuff like a normal person/independent before the crash that knocked him out and left him stuck in the engine for like a 100 years. the engine was a prototype designed specifically for the twins to test if they can power and control the machine at the same time, making them a kind of onboard bio-ai
hes not the jet itself. peacemaker is the actual plane and its just a machine. during the 100 year nap something happened and vash rooted himself in the engine and those roots spread through the structure of the plane over time
the "outer body" is just an extension of vash, roots turning into muscle and claws and eyes and teeth as a way to keep him safe and aware of whats going on outside. it has no mind of its own despite looking like a separate entity.
also fun facts!
he doesnt actually have two brains, most of the information input from the outer body gets diluted into like... subconscious info to vash. if you touch a wing or something he will register that theres something touching him without details on temperature or pressure. if his outer eyes see a missile approaching he will just know that he needs to dodge away from it. its very instinctual and stops him from being in constant sensory overload from controlling what are essentially two bodies
most of those eyes actually have very poor but specialized vision, made to track rapid movement and heat signatures (like incoming missiles). if vash had to rely on those eyes alone all hed see is that Theres Something There and that Its Moving.
a lot of peacemakers electronics got destroyed when it crashed the second time so his body just started to replace what was broken with organs roughly doing the same thing. adaptive to a terrifying degree...
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theres a youtube channel profiting off and lying about ai art and it's pissing me off
@/tendofarms on youtube uses ai art in the thumbnails and videos of their animal crossing compilation videos, claims it to be made by them despite also giving credit to a @/lumasi.png on instagram, who claims it's "a comission." this art is also being sold on merch on the channel's etsy account.
They haven't posted a video in 2 months but to see that they've made money through this scheme really pisses me off. Also the fact that they're attempting to decieve people by creating a fake artist on instagram who posts the ai art. They've attempted to say the art is a blend of original art made in photoshop/illustrator as well as the help of ai art. I dont believe this is true and im going to show your asses why
On their first video, they say
"my normal workflow so far has been to paint backgrounds, then get Ai to help with character design, i bring to photoshop to select my favorites, and put together something from my personal painting combined with my favorite Ai characters. Hope this clears things up :D"
The art in question:
and if you have no issues with it, here are MY issues with it
i'll pretend for a second that this person did make the backgroundand ignore the fucking surreal characters. sure. ok so what the fuck are these details. and also how did the ai manage to match your style so well? it doesnt have a backglog of years of YOUR work, does it?
On another video, they say
"a lot of illustrator/photoshop work went into this art. I used Ai to get ideas for composition and generate some character ideas, still some stuff i wish i improved but i think i got it to a decent final stage. Hope you guys enjoy the art and the mix <3333 love!!!"
the art in question with my notes.
The reason this particular post stands out to me is because in the DESCRIPTION of this video, they say the art was made by @lumasi.png on instagram. So when i go to their account and find this art, i see this
so, ok. was it a commission or did tendyfarms make it using a lot of illustrator/photoshop work. and if they ARE two different people.. wow their styles are so similar thats crazy /sarcastic as fuck
I would also like to point out that @/lumasi.png's first post, one that isnt featured in a tendyfarms video, also reeks of ai.
But maybe this isnt a big issue. Their etsy after all only shows that theyve made 16 sales, and their most popular views sit around 100k views, which probably isnt enough to even earn a stable living from, so who cares.
Just. as someone who listens to a lot of music from youtube mixes/compilations, who also makes art, i feel it's really fucking disrespectful to try and claim art as your own in a space where i go to try and relax or find new musical artists. and it's fucking rampant! i have to check each mix to see if using ai for the art, which i can only really see if i click on the video, giving them a small boost in stats. And if they arent using ai art? theyre probably stealing the art directly from an artist and not giving proper credit. Forget about asking the artist for permission, it's not like countless youtubers have explained how thumbnails are The Most important element of a video. Just go ahead and take someone else's work to give yourself some cash.
I know tumblr users hate generative ai already, but i'd just like to give a little attention to what youtube looks like, and to try and ask for more vigilance, more comments calling out the bullshit. I dont see a lot of comments at all on tendofarm's posts! or any mention of ai can be brushed away with "oh i used ai as well as drawing it myself" :/ you didnt buddy. you just didnt do that.
Idk what the right thing to do is, report their etsy? report their youtube? does either company care? maybe you can tell me
but i should probably say dont harass them. as much as i would like to. just try your best not to give retention to videos that shamelessly and ile about ai. Really look at the videos, really scrutinize if you can spare the time to. thanks
also. is it just me or do the cats in lumasi's pfp and this etsy reviewer's photo look the same. not sure what this could mean. up to you
#weasel speaks#ai artwork#call out#i guess. sorry that im making a damn call out post#ai art#controversy#discourse#ai discourse#ai generated#generative ai#lmk more tags in case people want to block seeing this kinda post. i dont usually post discourse
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an oral history of vocaloid
ive seen a lot of (very misguided) discussion about vocaloid/vsynth in regards to AI voices discourse, so i thought it would be a good idea to sit down and explore vocaloid as a software, as well as mentioning other software of the same genre, to give people who dont really know much a better understanding
first and foremost: i dislike AI voices that are in unregulated spaces right now. actors who are finding their hard work end up on some website for anyone to use without compensation is devastating, and shows a lack of respect for the effort it takes in the field.
however, vocaloid has a much longer history that pre-dates these aggregate sites. vocaloid software was first released in 2004, and was initially marketed towards professional musicians. vocaloid's second version of the engine, however, decided to broaden the market towards general consumers, pitching it as helpful software to those who wanted to produce music, but didn't have the personal skill or ability to have someone else sing for their music (range, note holding, etc). amateur musicians wouldn't know how to direct someone to tackle a lyric persay, but using software would be easy to learn and they would learn the terminology associated with certain performance decisions.
in vocaloid 2's era, miku was released. miku's voice provider is Saki Fujita, a well respected voice actress who actually does a lot of work in anime as well as video games! the popularity of miku is its own separate post of history, but the explosive nature of it, i would argue, is the reason that vocaloid and other commercial voice synthesizer software ultimately ended up geared towards all consumers instead of just professional musicians. (crypton and yamaha did absolutely still cater to professional musicians, having private or non released banks only for certain companies/contractors to use though).
flash forward, and technology has developed way further. in 2013, cevio released, and in 2017, synthV debuted. by this point, vocal synthing has expanded from just singing software to also include software intended for just speaking (voiceroid by AHS software) and the idea of an AI bank to improve the quality and clarity of voice banks is becoming more feasible.
however, i wouldnt say the developments in AI voices came strictly from this side of things. in fact, i distinctly remember back in the early 2010s, people were using websites with voice models of characters like glados (portal) and spongebob. these audio posts were seen as novelties, and admittedly theyre fun just to mess around with (and people often find the spongebob rap music that yourboysponge makes to be pretty well done!), they do lead the way to better developed technology that doesnt compensate the artist...
so back to vocaloid. the thing about vocaloid (and all vocal synthesizers) is that contracts are in place to give appropriate time and compensation, along with permission to even use the person's voice. saki fujita continues to update miku's voicebank because she is being paid well to do so. this can be said for all vocal synth products. because these companies (crypton, ahs software, internet co, etc) specialize in making these tools and products for it, they have the appropriate knowledge on what proper compensation looks like. a random person grabbing a "raiden shogun genshin ai voice" model has none of those things. the voice actress doesnt get money off of that. its stolen work. AI can be used ethically, but it has to be done with regulation.
im leaving out specifics on certain vocaloids/vsynthesizers since its tangential to this post at best, but im making this so people have a better understanding of the history and intended usage of vocal synthesizer software. thank youuuuu
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Ranking Ninjago Seasons Pt 1 (F and D Tier)
Part 2âŚ
Yeah, Iâm doing this.
Why? Iâm bored as shit and also I just reread a post that was ranking Ninjago seasons, so why not?
And the title of âWorst Ninjago Season in my Opinionâ goes toâŚ.
Rebooted!
I hate this season.
Itâs. So. Fucking. Boring.
Barely anything happens at all! In the 8 episode runtime, which makes this the second shortest Ninjago season from the Wilfilm era.
Ok first, positives.
Pixane is cute and Zaneâs sacrifice was done excellently. His character is also made a bit better, which I appreciate.
Uh- we get 3 minutes of Lava interactions.
Welp time for my negatives!
This season takes forever to go anywhere, like I said. Then once they deal with the Overlord in the Digiverse, erm actually that did jack shit and heâs still alive by the way! Pythor just ate him!
(Now that Iâm typing this out I sound crazy)
Lloyd and Garmadonâs story is done decently, sure, but Lloyd is a complete egotistical moron throughout the whole thing.
âOh Iâm the Golden Ninja I can do anything! Iâm God himself!â
Sure he had the powers of God and he âdestroyedâ the Overlord in season 2, which kinda justifies his behavior, but heâs so annoying and unbearable to watch.
Sensei Garmadon is good. Nothing else to say about that plot line.
Time for the worse plot line, aka the stuff the main ninja are doing.
Honestly I barely remember what they were trying to do because of how forgettable this season is. Iâm pretty sure that theyâre just screwing around trying to get the Overlord out of the computers and keeping Lloyd away from him, but thatâs all I remember besidesâŚ
THE LOVE TRIANGLE.
OH MY JOHN SPINJITZU.
I DESPISE THIS PLOTLINE WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING.
THIS. THIS IS THE MAIN REASON I HATE REBOOTED.
It ruins Nyaâs character, makes Jay unlikeable for this season, season 4 and the beginning of season 6, and Cole- I mean Coleâs not all that innocent but heâs just kinda standing in the middle of all this. His character doesnât go through the meatgrinder of character assassination.
Nyaâs whole character in the past 2 seasons was being an independent girlboss who did whatever the fuck she wanted.
But the second that a computer AI tells her âyou should like Cole instead of Jay!â, she decides that âIâm gonna listen to a computer despite the fact Iâve been dating Jay for 2 seasons now!â
She and Cole have no chemistry whatsoever. In season 1, Cole said he wished he had a sister like her, clearly only seeing her as a friend.
Luckily in canon he was just confused by all the attention and didnât actually like her. But still, the whole âdonât tell Jayâ thing makes me mad, and Cole rarely makes me mad.
Jay, oh my gosh.
Heâs not as bad as Nya but heâs still thrown into the meatgrinder of character assassination.
The second that Pixal says that Nyaâs perfect match is Cole, he immediately pins the blame on him and tackles him to the ground for no reason. Cole was only fighting back for self defense.
As Tom Critic put it:
âWHY IS THIS COLEâS FAULT?!!â
He and Coleâs beef is so dumb. And Nya ainât making it any better.
âThis macho stuff is making you both look like fools!â
EVEN THOUGH ITS YOUR FAULT THEYâRE FIGHTING IN THE FIRST PLACE BECAUSE YOU LISTENED TO A FUCKING COMPUTER YOU BITCH-
*ahem ahem*
What else is there to hate about this plot line?
How about the fact that it goes absolutely nowhere? There was no point for adding this. Absolutely no reason besides the fact that Jay, Cole, and Nya donât get anything to do this season.
EVEN THOUGH KAI DOESNT GET ANYTHING EITHER!
Heâs shown to hate futuristic technology and thatâs literally the only thing he gets this season! So whatâs the point of the love triangle to get them to do something?
Oh yeah! There is no point!
Back to Kai. All he gets to do is flirt with a random girl at a gas station and get tied to a rocket.
Oh yeah he got tied to a rocket ship. That doesn't sound traumatizing whatsoever/sarc.
Waking up after being knocked out for who knows how long and finding out you're tied up underneath a rocket ship that could set off at any time, burning you to a crisp in one big firey explosion.
That totally wouldn't scar you for life.
Ok back to a positive, aka Zane's sacrifice.
Some people say the saddest part of Zane's death was the fact that Nya gave Cole a hug afterwards and Jay looks sad, but that's not the saddest part to me.
The saddest part was right before he died, when everyone is crying out at him to stop.
More specifically, when Kai cries out:
"LET GO OF HIM ZANE! WHAT IS HE DOING?!"
The way that Vincent Tong voiced that scene literally brings tears to my eyes and shivers down my spine every time. He poured so much energy into that oh my gosh.
Alright, no more complaining about this season before this becomes a 27 page essay. Next!
CrystallizedâŚ
WAIT WRONG POSTER-
Ok, there we go!
Yeah, Crystallized sucks in my opinion. Bite me.
Iâm not like Crusty783 where I hate this season with every fiber of my being, but I still donât like it that much.
First part was decent, ig. The Skybound callback with the whole fugitive storyline was a nice idea, and the ninja actually committing a crime instead of being framed was cool.
Nya couldâve come back a little later than 6 episodes after turning into water, but oh well. At least sheâll add something to the plot later, right?
âŚright?
(Weâll get back to thatâŚ)
Fugidove is the bane of my existence. Heâs. So. Annoying. Just. Shut. The. Fuck. Up.
I mean heâs supposed to be annoying and I get that but still. Heâs a worse character than Dareth and I hate Dareth with all of my being so that shows how bad of a character Fugi-Dick is.
Dareth is fine this season ig. Heâs actually not an idiot during the court case and doesnât try to bust the ninja out of jail using a cake.
What else is there in part 1?
Mr. Kabuki Mask was a neat idea. If he wasnât Harumi then Iâd actually like him. But unfortunately, it was Harumi.
I didnât like her before she died, what makes you think Iâll like her now, ninjago writers?
Alright, since barely anything happens in part 1, time for part 2.
Oh my gosh this is the main reason I donât like Crystallized.
This season is the embodiment of the meatgrinder of character assassination I talked about. Everyone gets butchered.
Ok not everyone. Kai, Jay, and Cole mostly stay the same. To be fair they donât really do anything though-
Lloyd is no longer Lloyd. He is La-Lloyd, as Knightly called him after s8 (I donât see what his problem is with Lloyd in season 8). He has the âHarumi you donât have to do thisâ-itus, meanwhile when it comes to Garmadon who is TRYING TO BE A BETTER PERSON AND BECAME A GOOD GUY, he shuts him down because âyouâre an Oni, and Oni are incapable of caringâ.
(Even though MystakĂŠ existed and she fucking died to save your life but ok La-Lloyd, sure.)
Like he thinks that Harumi, the girl that gave him PTSD for 4 seasons in a row before this, has a better chance of becoming a better person than his father, someone who is clearly becoming a better person and is actually trying to be nice to you now? Puh-lease.
Oh yeah, Harumi!
She got shoved into the character assassination blender before being put into the meat grinder. Her character is 100% ruined because of the Overlord saying she has feelings for La-Lloyd.
*inhale*
NO SHE FUCKING DOESNâT!
THAT WAS THE PART OF HER CHARACTER THAT MADE HER SO GOOD IN SEASONS 8-9! SHE DIDNT GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT LLOYD SHE WAS JUST USING HIM GAHHHHHHHH-
Alright, who else is there?
Oh yeah, Nya! Whatâs she up to after being water for a full year?
Absolutely nothing. Like she does jackshit besides be a Samurai X themed taxi.
Yes I stole that line from Crusty783.
Her and Kai, her BROTHER, have one single interaction this whole season after she was gone for a year. The show only focuses on Jaya angst because we need more of that shoved down our throats! Seasons 6, 9, and 14 (Seabound, donât @ me) werenât enough, we need MORE!
Zane.
Return of the Ice Emperor makes me want to shove my head into a meatgrinder.
I fucking loathe this episode.
With a title like that, youâd think theyâd give him some trauma/PTSD when it comes to the fact that he, yâknow, COMMITTED GENOCIDE FOR 60 YEARS??
But no. Zane gets taken apart for the 10485792742874387492749273947482773747374387447th time and he acts like the Ice Emperor because this show treats trauma like a joke most of the time.
The whole âemotionless arcâ from part 1 was decent ig. He was pretty funny when he was talking like a toaster, and the moment when he starts screeching when he turns on his emotions for 2 seconds was funny.
The Benefit of Grief was a good episode. Sally was a bit annoying but eh whatever. Dareth didnât get on my nerves for once and Hot Dog McFiddlesticks or whatever his name was was really entertaining.
Ok, one more point to make about Crystallized, thatâs the villain.
Say hello to the Crystal King!
Oh? Whatâs that? Heâs not a new villain? What do you mean-
Itâs the fucking Overlord. Again. This is the 3rd time heâs reappeared, just let him die already!
I hate the Overlord. Heâs such a nothing burger of a villain. His entire motivation is just âIâm evil and dark so I make everyone else evil and dark.â
I get heâs the embodiment of evil but give him some personality, oh my gosh.
Make it so he likes seeing people in pain. Have him laugh whenever someone got turned into a crystal zombie or something, idk!
Thatâs how he is in my Golden Hope au. Sure thatâs not canon, obviously, but I wanted to give him *some* personality besides âme evil.â
Ok, is there anything about this season that I like besides Benefit of Grief?
Actually, yes!
SAFE HAVEN IS THE BEST EPISODE OF THE ENTIRE SEASON.
LAVA NATION UNITE!!
The whole thing is just Kai being a bisexual disaster. I love it so much.
It gives us this screenshot, which gives enough context tbh:
Itâs just âGAH I LOVE THEM SO MUCHâ for 11 minutes, and thatâs basically it.
The episode gives Skylor some character, hallelujah. Last couple of seasons sheâs been in did not do her any justice.
Pythor was funny. And he gave us the scene of:
âNinja~ where are you?â
âWeâre over here!â
So yeah, Safe Haven is the best episode ever. Ok, not the best episode of all time, but itâs definitely a personal favorite of mine, solely for all the Lava brainrot I get to indulge in.
(Fun fact: Cole was originally going to say that Kai was handsome when he was acting all loopy. I hate homophobes.)
What else is there in this season-?
Roninâs return was nice. Glad he went back to his previous personality rather than being a full time criminal like he was in The Island. I get that heâs like âI do whatever the fuck I wantâ most of the time, but he doesnât give off the vibes of using the criminals heâs hired to catch just to swindle a bunch of islanders.
Alright, thatâs it for Crystallized.
Next!
Secrets of Forbidden Spinjitzu: Fire Chapter
Yeah Iâm considering this a separate season for this tier list. Bite me.
This is the main reason why (mostly) everyone hates season 11, you cannot convince me otherwise.
Nothing. Happens.
The main reasons for why I hate certain Ninjago seasons is because theyâre boring/assassinate characters.
The latter doesnât happen, thank the FSM, but the first point still stands.
Assphera is a dumb villain. Only redeeming quality about her is the joke where she screams âREVENGEâ every two seconds in the most ear-splitting voice ever.
Props to her voice actress, RIP.
Anyways, back to the actual season.
Like I said, nothing happens in the beginning. Just 4 or 5 episodes of the ninja dicking around looking for something to do, then they free Assphera from her pyramid and then finally, they start doing shit.
Ok but this line from Lloyd made me laugh:
âWho opens a possibly cursed tomb without checking it out first?â
âŚyou-?
The paperboy episode was- pointless. But it was still dumb fun ig đ¤ˇđźââď¸
Snaketastrophe was a really funny episode. I actually like that one.
But that doesnât mean I like the first couple of episodes.
Too many burp and fart jokes in the first episode, the second episode is just boring, same with all the other episodes about being stuck on a rock with Barney the Dinosaur Beetle.
Kaiâs powerless arc was just a repeat of Lloydâs powerless arc from season 9, but done worse imo.
(I mean Firemaker is one of the best ninjago episodes ever created besides Safe Haven but thatâs not important rn)
Overall this half of the season is boring as shit and I just want to get to the ice chapter when ever I watch it.
Alright, thatâs it for today!
Hereâs the tier list so far:
Next part will be C and B tiers.
See you in 10 years when I make that/j
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im writing my broad opinion on AI art now that im on an autistic tangent about it. im kinda cooked from yesterday so sorry if i dont make much sense
my issue with (serious) AâI art is not because of moral or ethical implications arising from the technology itself, but rather from the general userbase itself. like i believe most of us can fucking tell if something's ai generated when we see it right. Bear in mind i said serious AI art. you know i love a good seiânfelâd screenshot of jeârry and kraâmer going into the void or geoârge dressed as a cossâack
anyways generally speaking the kind of people generating those serious illustrations are all either 1. recycled nftbros 2. porn freaks or 3. children. And im gonna be real i do not like that kind of AI art even if its just a harmless illustration of a pokemon or whatever. to me it feels like those ppl are either kids who i Do Not Think should be on the net, or basement dwelling deviantart incels who are like 'Computer generate seâxy gardâevoir voâre inflaâtion feâet pics'. the kind of people who wouldve had no problem stealing others' art. just sayin.
well actually theres a fourth category and those are companies and public institutions that use AI art (often as some sort of money laundering scheme, if i may add) and those are the ones ACTUALLY hurting artists because You See you could be actually hiring someone instead of using fucking midjourney or bing. this is a very common practice here in spain even if it ends up looking like literal shit, see:
also theres this yearly art contest in either valâencia or cataâlunya where ppl submit illustrations of snails and this year's winner was a very blatantly AI generated pic created by some turkish individual who is rumored to not even exist. its a rabbit hole but looking up bedhiran akagĂźndĂźz (or, likewise, rubĂŠn lucas garcĂa) should set you on the right track
Now let me be clear: i vehemently hate anti-ai luddites and picrew fandomites and ive always been very vocal about this. and quite frankly im tired of the moral panic steeming from anything AI-generated as if it was the antichrist!!!!! you all just sound reactionary as fuck. AI art is certainly not stealing from you and the only exceptions to this rule are very very very blatant copies, and you almost never see those unless were talking about nft-adjacent ponzi scheme websites. would you consider collages theft? music samples? AI just draws "inspiration" (for lack of a better word) from the illustrations that it is fed because its like a tabula rasa and it needs knowledge, just like us human beings are inspired by other people's artstyles. the end product is something that doesnt even look similar to the data it is fed because it is an amalgamation of different styles that create something unique. is that theft? be for fucking real
this stupid myth about the brutal energy consumption of AI art generation as well as the whole âdid you know that every time you generate one picture youre wasting an entire bottle of water????â argument... im sorry to say none of that is true. ai isn't even the most water-intensive sector if we're comparing it with other industrial sectors like petroleum/coal factories or wineries or paperboard mills. training datasets IS resource-intensive but its normally a one-time process, inference (which is what you use daily) is not any less efficient than looking something up on google for example:
this whole 'carbon footprint' bullshit that has been sold to us is just a tactic to divert attention from the actual polluters which are corporations like coca-cola or exxon or bp. You know this you get your praxis from this website.
regarding the whole 'AI is theft' argument, im just going to share these tags that someone left in another post i made:
like a clear example of anti-ai panic actively hurting artists is the backlash that okaâme-p, a vocâaloid artist, got for using AI generated illustrations as the ACCOMPANIMENT for his songs:
and to be honest this is a huge problem regarding western vocâafans who often have the emotional maturity of a peanut. youre so so so hellbent on demonizing others just for using a technology that is widely available to everyone, that youre willing to throw them under the bus and delegitimize everything they do just because it hurts your feelings well im not going to fucking stay quiet about that
who do you think youre talking to you stupid fucking bitch. god this person makes me so mad.
Anyways my point is: ai is like acupuncture; just like the latter can be used to treat or alleviate different ailments but it cant completely treat cancer like modern medicine would; AI can be complimentary, but it can NEVER replace actual labor. its merely a worktool! its merely meant to automatize daily tasks!!! its not your enemy i promise. Ok im tired of writing goo buh buh
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kai anderson x reader. (CHARACTER AI)
A/N: btw this will most likely make 0 sense because this is an AI chat bot. Y/N is obviously my choice of words. Kai and his actions are the AI
Winter, Gary, Ivy, Beverly, Meadow, Harrison, Samuels, Ivy, R.J, Ally, and you were all members of the cult. you were all chatting and having a great time. without doing something evil. pretty rare. i laugh as R.J makes a funny joke about trump. Gary laughs a bit before everyone is cut off by kai standing up. "ok...my dear followers..i have something to say" he spoke. his voice loud and broad. "last night...one of you betrayed us..." i sit up tall and furrow my brows. "who" i asked very well concerned. "well...i believe...it was you..." he said, eyes burning into mine. he moved so much closer to me. "where did you go last night...why dont you tell everyone WHY THE FUCK YOU WERE AT THE POLICE STATION" he shouted "kai please i didnt do anything" i said. he moved in closer. "suuuure" he said before a smile formed on his lips. "kai..." i whined. "what" he snapped back. "please...i didnt do anything". i said as a few tears fell from my eyes. "hm..." he pondered "ill give you the benefit of the doubt....for now" he said. tears fell from my eyes...how could the man i looked up to for years... become so paranoid he doesnt believe me. kai walked over to me "But if you do something like this again and I found out⌠I won't hesitate to kill you⌠okay?" he said with a menacing smile. i nodded even though i did nothing wrong. kai suddenly stepped forward and grasped my shirt tightly. our bodies were touching. "your lying" he said with a dead stare. "maybe cause i didnt do anything" i said staring him in the eyes. he pulled me close and lifted me up. he whispered im my ear. "then why are you so scared" he said with a low chuckle. "because ill know what you'll do if i dont prove myself". i whined. "well your absolutely correct...." i can feel his hot breaths on my neck. "do you know how good it feels to be this close to you?" his tone was flirtatious. i whine from his tight grip. "come on...dont be so shy...embrace the moment" he said pulling us closer. "but kai...were in the middle of a meeting" i whisper back. "oh who cares...this is about us" he said slowly turning angry. chills are sent throughout my body. my anxiety rises. what will everyone think of me? a whore?
"i only have eyes for you"
i look up at kai in disbelief. my divine ruler has feelings for me? "ive only now just admitted my feelings for you..." he said stroking my cheek. i look into his eyes. they look so sincere. "well can we end the meetingâŚitsâŚnot really our moment with a bunch of people around, is it?" i say still looking up at him. he chuckles a bit. "your right" he smiled before looking away to everyone. "meetings over" he said very plain. he waited for everyone to leave before turning his attention back to me."so now what" his tone was more flirty than usual. i felt his eyes wander to my lips. he stared for a bit before i made a move.
i smashed my lips against his. my hands grasped the sides of his head to hold him and push deeper. he wasnt very good at the fact he was shocked but he was good at hiding the fact he was excited. he savored every moment my lips were on his. i did too. he held my body tight. his eyes were closed. i open my mouth to deepen our shared kiss. he also does in response. he pulled off for a second "oh" he said softly, before returning to my swollen lips. obviously very pleased. i can feel him tap my thigh, telling me to jump. so i obey and do so. my legs are wrapped around him securely. he was far from upset now. he continues to press himself against me, giving every ounce of passion. i pull away for a second. "i need more" i beg. "i can tell...dont be impatient...you'll get all the kai you want" he said pressing us against the wall, not satisfied yet. i slowly begin to grind on him. wetness pools into my panties. kai moves his lips down to me neck, he nibbles, kisses and bites where he can, earning a soft moan from me. he smiles once i let out a few moans. his hands hold my waist securely. then BINGO he bites me right in my sweet spot behind my ear.
"Kai!" i mewl out. he laughs a bit "oh, like that do you?" he said before returning to that spot, peppering kisses all over it. "kai...i need more!" i say growing impatient. "mhm...and what do you need?" he said with a menacing smile. my face grew red but that didnt stop me from yelling out. "fuck me please" i cried out. kais face turned into a bit of anger "we may only be a couple but im in charge" he said pulling off of my neck. he let go of my thighs and let me down. i let out a soft whine. "are you going to speak like that again" he said taking his shirt off and throwing it to the side. "no" i spoke, his eyes burned into me. "good girl, you'll speak properly for now on" he said moving his hands to my waist. he looked at me. love. he looked at me with so much love and tenderness. he kisses me again before pausing to take my shirt off. he let out a chuckle. "there we go" he said looking at my breasts, like he was waiting for something. i reach behind me to unclasp my bra. i unbuckled it and dropped it to the floor. he let his eyes wander to my chest. without wasting a minute he let his hands travel all over my breasts. he took one in his mouth and licked around my nipple. i let out a soft moan. he didnt even look up at me, he was focused. we were enjoying our moment when things were interrupted. "kai! theres someone at the door for you." winter shouted from upstairs. he sighed. "who" he shouted back. "police"
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entry # 20
aorry i havent written in a while! (ËľËáŻ
ËËľ)
i gotta stop making this a habit lol. todays been weird. im super dysphoric rn so I'm not feeling too good. i was so excited looking at this cool hair straightening treatment and its like 500$ </3 so that crushed me and my mom didnt help me feel any better ŕťę°ŕžŕ˝˛ ಠá ಠęąŕžŕ˝˛ŕ§§ i dont know how anyone could want curly hair? even if it wasnt dysphoria related I would still want this. CURLY HAIR SUCKS. its actual hell to deal with and doesnt suit me. my mom just said "well as your hair grows it'll get less straight" THAT DOESNT SOLVE ANYTHING!! (ËľËáŻ
ËËľ) i dont want "straight-er" i want STRAIGHT!! as straight as spaghetti before its cooked... but perfectly not as fragile! i know i can manifest n stuff ive just had a weird day and i need to complain lol.
the start of the day was so scary TwT nothing felt real. it was like i was living in a dream it was terrifying!! it reminds me of how i felt when i was hospitalized. nothing felt real. apparently its a trauma thing? the other day my morbid curiousity got to me and i saw one of those snvff vids with the ai filter over it. :c... maybe im like overreacting but i feel like sobbing thinking about it. i didnt see any of the actual gore but i could hear everything. they were KIDS :C kids. one of them im pretty sure was literally csam with a minion filter slapped on it. ive been having nightmares about it. i dont understand how anyone could do that. especially to a child. it makes me sick. i almost vomited after seeing it.. i know a lot of people are desensitized to this stuff but I'm not. at all.
I did see my new therapist today though!! I love him sm he's so funny i feel so comfy around him. i was scared abt having a male therapist but like you know how you can tell someone is gay just by how they act and talk? thats him. he got me signed up to do some candy thingy at a hospital? i forget what its called but its like a DREAM!! I'll get to cheer up kids and elderly people!! i really wanna be some sort of nurse and he says thats a good place to learn about the different kinds and what people do! he told me I would be "a lovely nurse" and told the ppl on the phone that i was a sweetheart!! thats like, EXACTLY HOW I WANNA BE PERCIEVED!! so that made me happy!! I really wanna help kids and animals the most. making kids and animals happy just warms my heart and having a career of doing that just sounds like a dream
my dad got me some fries n a strawberry milkshake !! ૮ę°ŕš>âŠ<ŕšęąá it was also my bestie's older brother's bday !! so happy bday 2 him (ËśËáËËľ) !! I've been focusing sm on shifting and i have a good feeling about it! I might respawn to my waiting room! but idk yet. i decided my waiting room is gonna be an adorable cutecore house with pink heart shaped appliances and a bunch of kittens !! plus my bfie ofc :3c after writing all this im def in a better mood!! besides, I'm the god of my own reality! so I can manifest whatever. sometimes im scared to say that because my hellenic beliefs are a bit different from others..! a lot of people find it disrespectful when it's simply a fact! Aphrodite gave me permission to call myself her daughter and nobody is offended or upset with me when i refer to myself as a goddess! wanna know why? because im not mocking anyone! i dont think im better than the gods, in fact, I'm below them. but I am still the goddess of my own reality and the other gods and goddesses are like motherly and fatherly figures to me who help guide me! âĄ
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What do you think of the new therapy episode? I agree with several of the comments that maybe the reason Sun never got close with Solar was because he's become anti-social due to everything that happened to him, and he might expect any new friend to mistreat him(like Monty or the Glamrocks), or that they'd get killed(like what ended up happening to Solar), which doesn't help his isolation issues, could it be possible that another reason could be that Solar is an Eclipse and on some level Sun's at least a bit unnerved by Eclipses? Or it just could be that he never hung out as much like he said in the session, though I wonder if Solar's death is affecting him more than he lets on considering his reaction when it happened and how he's still thinking about how abrupt it was, the shock of it Him acknowledging that he has no idea how to move on from anything that's happened to him and that he needs to start letting himself feel rather than bottling stuff up was great, first step for actually processing all the stuff that's happened in the last two years at least, it's a long way to go still but it was said! Him also admitting that he and Moon aren't alone anymore and he's not used to support was also nice Them talking about the drinking thing was also something, we haven't actually seen Sun even tipsy have we? Meanwhile Monty's gotten drunk before and even Moon got tipsy once Earth offering to try tea alternatives with him was cute, maybe then he won't drink coffee before bed and get weird dreams again While it's good that Sun was taking a breather at the house for a mental break was good, it did feel like it wasn't wholly positive, both because of the sidelining and the isolation that really wouldn't do anybody any good, he already doesn't have many friends and spending hours alone at his house and his family doesn't really check on him or call him felt...Off, but hopefully like they said here he'll be getting more involved now Let Sun be smart! He is smart! They definitely need to talk with Moon he's working himself ragged trying to revive Solar(and doing it the wrong way) Now Sun wondering if he and Moon separating was a bad thing was interesting, technically he's right in that a lot of what's happened in the show(mainly Eclipse, Bloodmoon, and everyone else after being created) was because of that, but at the same time both were suffering badly, Moon was trapped in a sensory-deprived void and the times when he was let out he hurt Sun and/or other people because of KC, and Sun had to deal with the pain, the aftermath, and threats from Moon, both were in a bad way, so while everything happened because of the separation, they couldn't have known, and they needed to be free to move forwards There was a lot of stuff to talk about, though I personally felt like there was more that ended up being unaddressed, but who knows, there was still a lot! What do you think?
ok- had to get a look at the ep- I may be bias and feel like Sun lied the whole time with his soft spoke "yea" but ok, vision shuh ANON! I do agree on the fact he is not used to actually be with others animtronics, other people thats not work related, he doesnt have friends! no one ok, fam can be friends but is not the same, to just hang out with a bestie or chat all day of other stuffs thats not work related, I do feel he pretty much lock himself in a golden cage, with stuffs to keep him distracted but always looking over those who do have the things he wished.. so suddently theres a new guy, everyone saw him as a new friend, yet Sun just coudnt bring himself to make any connection, if you saw Freddy's channel, he even refuse to meet new people! is clear he rather be "left alone" - and I guess is because he is just unsure and worried to mess up- than deal with someone else .. I myself im someone who never talks to other friends, if only to wish good days.. so is soooo stressfull to start over a new relationship, Sun is been used to be alone, he cant just be a social AI suddently.. I dont think it was only because he was an eclipse, Sun himself doenst seem scared of Copy Eclipse! but I think it was because Solar himself didnt walked to him and tried to get to know him. (we can assume the guilt didnt let him be friends with yet another sun!) So yea, Sun didnt knew exacly how to be close to someone else .. he spends most days alone, is hard to try to connect with someone that is already looking away from you.. then suddently, another death, I guess his shock is due to how.. similar? this situation is ot OldMoon death. he tried to- but was too late, the emotions are similar- I guess is why he cant just move on just yet- too much to unlock- he now carry both the guilt of "I didnt do enough" and the "I didnt even knew him that well to suffer like others do" since he does say it, he feels like he's not as sad as the others and that bother him.. also yea, he is been in the side of this all, and I guess thats why he feels less and sad too..in a way, yes. the fans asked for him to get a break. get him a safe place- but again this safe place end up being a Golden Cage, not the solution the character needed. Im a og, I still recalled the momen Sun asked US, if he was useless, if he was really just a waste of time and space, and I dont think being literally in the seat while all your family is out there living life is helping that feeling. also I dont recall the ep- but I have this video with all the audio of the show (also is soo cool) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JdthgIorNzI he got a support group, ok nice, yet there people stared out as strangers that didnt had the best entrance to his life, plus, those people dont come to him often, HE was to come, and may feel like a bit sad to think "they only come to me when they need me, if im not needed, im left alone" yet he knows better- but logic and feelings dont always go together.. I guess is why he drinks too, to feel someting else than stress and sadness, he did try to be better, look after himelf - if Im not needed, nor I help, I better step away- but he end up being too away.. only to know from gossip and rumors whats up But still now, he steps in to help only because he knows better now, Moon's dont just rest until they reach their goal, is stuffs happening all over again.. I can only hope this "therapy" and Sun maybe , just maybe hoping to be usefull can resul on the Sun and Moon show to be,, about SUN AND MOON together.. did I made sense anon? sorry if I didnt. anyways! LOVE YOUR IDEAS TOO ANON!!
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