#ADHD hyperfixation is a beast
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The Suckening: Ends Me: Ok :( Anyway *Proceeds world build an entire VTM city/town from the ground up, all complete with a fleshed out map, 15+(and counting) NPCs with complex backstories/goals/flaws, 3-4 different plotlines that coteries can play through, and plans to play this chronicle with 4 different coteries, which will have their own specialized changes to accommodate for their backstories/needs/wants
#jrwi suckening#the suckening#jrwi the suckening#vtm#vampire ocs#vampires#vampire#vampire the masquerade#please all my friends are in the coteries so i cant post/info dump about it and it is eating me from the inside#its called Kindred College btw#i will be posting NPC doodles me thinks pretty soon#ADHD hyperfixation is a beast#genuinely GRGAHHRUARGHHRURGAH UURRAGHHAGHRURGAH#i also have never GMed a TTRPG before#i am absolutely fine#VTM IS SO COOL YALL DONT GET IT ITS SO *explodes into a million pieces*
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I can feel it in my bones, my hyperfixation is changing.... Nooooooo-- I still need to get all the Mysme bad ends and fill out the albums and-- and-- AND! I still need to replay V's route and AE to form my final thoughts on the game!!! nonononooo I was so close to having a complete playthrough 🥹😭💀
Ikemen prince beauty and her beast has my heart now. I'm too deep in 😔
Damn gatchas 😒😮💨
#SAL#SAL thoughts#SAL thoughts 💭#shower thoughts 🚿#shower thoughts#ADHD#hyperfixation#the tides are changing#oh nooo#💔#mystic messenger#mysme#ikemen prince#ikemen prince beauty and her beast#beauty and her beast
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yo what the fuck you meant to do when you run out of content of or your niche hyperfixation. Like. On all platforms. Source content? Consumed. And reconsumed. And reconsumed (Like a fuckin cow or sum idk) . Fanart? Seen them. Yes all of them. Text posts? Seen them all. Edits? Watched all of them. Fics (of which there are FEW which have THE BLORBO)? read them. Gifs? There’s only so many scenes you can gif, dude. deleted scenes? Been there. Bloopers? Done that. TIKTOKS? IVE SEEN THEM. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO IM NOT SATISFIED
#“Make your own” I will throttle you /nm not /Srs#/lh#/hj#yes this is about Lancelot from natm#honestly I am tempted to just start reading about Arthurian literature but given my uncanny ability to hyperfixate on niche things#I think that is a dangerous path#this is the Romeo and Juliet hyperfixation guy#also Natm Lancelot is specifically the one I’m hyperfixated on#So Merlin Lancelot doesn’t do it#And neither will. Legendary Lancelot#yes I have gone and looped Dan Stevens’ Evermore from the live action beauty and the beast just bc he plays Lance so it sounds like him#Yes I have watched a bunch of Alexander lemtov videos because he is played by the same actor as lancelot#What else can I do the natm fandom only ever talks abt jedtavius#Sigh#niche interests#hyperfixation#adhd#adhd problems#natm#lancelot natm#fandom culture
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Anyone who watched the Mighty Nein after it ended genuinely not know how they got here? I don't mean how you found CR. Like it's kinda foggy but I think I just saw a cool animatic and decided I needed to know. Got to the end of the Whitestone arc in c1 before deciding I wanted to start somewhere more recent.
What I mean is, you binged the campaign in a pretty efficient amount of time. And you remember watching it. But you have no idea how you did it.
We're talking 141 episodes, most 4-5 hours each. I know hyperfixations are a magical thing. But I don't think I was doing anything else while watching. Like I wasn't flipping between it and music or videos, I didn't have ao3 open in another tab, I wasn't fidgeting or making something with my hands. At most I may have been on the switch but it wasn't often.
Yet here we are. I somehow entered a fugue state where all I remember from that time is stuff about the campaign, but nothing about how my life had been going. And then seeing EXU after, which had been hot off the press, and going hm they look fun. And it all just spiralled from there.
Meanwhile here I am, obsessed with this new round of dumbasses, but I can't even diligently watch a 30 min recap without having 6 other tabs to pause and flit between every 2 minutes.
I just wanna know what the fuck past me had going on to be so efficient. In my eyes, she is truly a completely different person for this reason alone. A creature possessed. I'm not complaining, I LIKE it here, I just think she oughta share the recipe for future generations. We could be reveling in so much other cool shit if I could open my third eye on command.
#is it cuz i was already spoiled for the ending? i already knew about the 'everyone lives' thing?#i even already knew that molly dies. and caleb was fucked up. but i was still so engaged#i mean ive loved seeing cr3 live cuz i get to experience it without any spoilers. but maaan have i had to workshop some focus strats#which isnt unusual for me. the unusual thing is NOT having to do this. cr2 the beast that u are#fuck man i couldnt even hone in on the m9 one shot. the fuck was i ON for cr2 smh#maybe i just value the journey more than the destination#ive always known this but i never thought of the power it might hold#critical role#cr2#the mighty nein#mighty nein#m9#sea rambles#hyperfixations#adhd is like the rival ive fought bloody battles against for 1000 years but also we flirt sometimes
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question for batb fans! When you read fanfics how do u imagine the characters?
#batb 1991#batb 2017#belles magical world#Batb the enchanted Christmas#Beauty and the beast#hyperfixation#disney parks#poll#Adhd#Autism#audhd
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#when i tell u the hyperfixations i had that made me acquire these skills absolutely consumed me#i would make so many dresses for my dolls when i learnt how to stitch#like i would spend all weekend on the hut my f*ther made for me just making clothes for the dolls#the puzzle/riddle hyperfixation was short-lived but i owned like 15+ puzzle boards and i would always solve riddles#when i learnt how to make sketches i spent so many papers making portraits and dresses i used up like 3 sketchbooks in 3 months#i was thought to play chess when i was 6 or 7 then i was a fucking beast my free time was spent practising#the electrical thing was so fucking random but i would voluntarily fix the outlets at home just 'cos i can#i tried to learn all about wiring and stuff and i've gotten so good at it#the nail one started more to divert my attention from nail biting to actually taking care of myself and i just gor super hyperfixated on it#i found a broken necklace when i was younger and turned it to a bracelet and i was just recycling and making new accessories for months#making origami was a friend's influence#it started with braiding then i found out that i'm also good at cutting/trimming hair so i explored that#and making dessert is my absolute favourite#ik i'm not a very reliable cook but please let me make the dessert and you won't fucking regret it#polls#tumblr polls#adhd#hyperfixations
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heyup peoples!
im Creacheur. pronounced like creature, however if you keyspam and it's anything like cerhahatr that's how my name is spelled. i also go by Dethana, Feather, Canary, Beast, Space, Elodea, and Romanov- you can call me any of these, although i respond to Creacheur the most, and the majority of the rest are just nicknames/trying out chosen names.
I use she/her, they/them, xe/xem, and space/bird related neos. He/him is only acceptable if used in the same way one would refer to a cool animal or inanimate object from a ways away (Look at the rock! Look at him, he's so pretty! // He's going so fast!)
I am nebularomantic (only applies to IRL situations), and mostly unlabeled/questioning, however I am leaning towards sapphic and acespec related labels and demigirl/xeno/penumbrian genders.
I am in the EST time zone
I am a angel/other/ficto kin! My kintypes include canaries, mountain bluejays, raccoons, crows, and I am learning more terminology so expect this to be updated at some point <3
Hyperfixations include: Dungeon Meshi, Sonic the Hedgehog, Hermitcraft, the Life Series, Empires SMP (season 2), Animation vs Animator/Minecraft, Portal (2), Ace Attorney, Night at the Mueseum, Team Fortress Two, Sam and Max, and Venom (movies).
If you want to become mutuals hit me up! I would love to have more friends :) Welcoming mutuals from completely different fandoms/with no fandom overlap.
Keep in mind I AM A MINOR!!! IF YOU FOLLOW ME WITH AN EXCLUSIVELY 18+ OR "minors dni" BLOG I WILL BLOCK YOU AS THAT MAKES ME VERY UNCOMFORTABLE!!! PLEASE USE A NON NSFW ACCOUNT TO FOLLOW ME
diagnosed adhd and suspected autism. i want to rip someones arm off with my teeth!!!
My post tag is CreacheurSpeacher, and my reblog tag is CreacheurMegaphone
I am a fic writer, mostly for Hermitcraft and the Life Series, but i have some Empires stuff in the works and maybe a TF2 fic as well. Master post with all my fanfictions and AU's here!!! Feel free to ask me questions about any of them :) I also yapped about the plots of some of my au's here; I have no idea how much crossover there is between the two posts. My pronouns.page can be found here!
Collecting user boxes...
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Okay, Genuine Question
If I were to write stories based on Cookie Run: Kingdom and/or The Walten Files, would there be people interested in that? 'Cause after Walten Files Episode 4 dropped on Friday and the entire Beast-Yeast even in CRK - and quite a bit of ADHD tendencies to hyperfixate - I've been wanting to write for both fandoms. Would you all be interested???
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Introducing!
WARNING: my English is awful and practicing it is one of the reasons why I registered. Sorry :_. Please don't criticize me for this or anything else.
Hi. I am Bridgett/Bridge(or Vess for headmates), she/it, 16 y.o(25.05), UTC+7. Host of system, in front 90% of the time. I registered because I liked plural community here. This is my personal blog, but it is possible if others will write here. I will post my thoughts, about plurality or not, and resources like userboxes. Requests are open
DNI (thin ice)
Anti endos(!), any radical opinion, support any discrimination, very religious. You still can interact and use my works(if they exist), but if you want to conflict, it would be more comfortable for all of us if you leave now.
I need TW on religion and caffeine. I also can get triggered by better artists than me. And I don't want to talk about politics.
About system
Name - Sick Fantasy, no collective pronounse but statistically more she/her. Paragenic, neurotraumagenic, sepagenic, misaconscious, co-con flux. I DIDN'T CHOOSE TO BE PLURAL. Languages - russian(native), ±English, learning Japanese. Simply plural work in progress
5 headmates front regularly, somehow appear about 15, I won’t headcount all. I mostly use “we” to the entire system, but not always. I can call headmates headmates, alters, characters, or just fools and assholes. I am in an in-system relationship. We are only trying to self-accept
About me
INFP, 4w5 so946, melancholic, chaotic good, sociophobic extravert. Neutralship. Pro- to many things if it's doesn't involve harming and conflicts. I have chronic depression, get therapy, promote support and research for MADD, was practically diagnosed with ADHD as a child. Omni, demiromantic, bellussexual, gendercura, genderfloret, ambiamorous.
I live to create an animated series based on daydreaming, and the alters came from it. I'm a member in many fandoms. Very many. I can't list them, but these are mainly popular or completely unknown games and cartoons. Now I have hyperfix on genshin and "jellyfish can't swim in the night". Listen any music, genre and language don't matter.
Blurred kinnlist(I have problems with self-awareness, sorry): Mahiru [Jellyfish...], Kanade and Ena [PJSekai], Mr Jewel Box [THHK songs], Ame [NSO], Pomni and Gangle [TADC], Moxxie and Fizz [HB(yes...)]; Noelle, Fischl, Chiori, Kachina and Citlali [Genshin]; Huohuo and Firefly [HSR]; Fluttershy, Scootaloo and Luna [MLP]; Corin, Seth and Caesar [ZZZ]; Horuda [Yansim], Abby [FNAF movie], Sybilla [Spyroom], Fuuko [UDUL], Darwin [TAWOG], Jack [Beastars](I haven’t read it yet, but my friend says so)
And a lot of songs, but I won't put them all here :_. Ok, take this (twcw, in short listen carefully) ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♪ ☆ ☆ ☆
Some about headmates...
🧿 Wallery/Var/Валера/ワレル (he/don't care) - co-host, janusian, psychodemon, japanese, queerphob, aggressive beast but protects me. 7000+ y.o(11.10). Associations - red, green, hallucinations, betrayal; Tail from HSR, Princess from THHK songs, two-faced chaotic villains(Bill Cipher, Discord, Alastor, Kinito, Yellow's Flowey ect) and song あきらめよう by tsumikusa.
🎆 NNico (it/its > neo) - socializor, procomship, radqueer, radincluse, cute overtolerant ect but really cool person, puts its own comfort high, but someone else’s even higher. In dreams plays the role of a butler(?). 17 y.o. Associations - purple, night, internet; KAngel from NSO, Charlie from HH and Hai Yorokonde by Kocchi No Kento
🌫️ Exy/S.A. (he/him) - protector, anxiety holder, poor boy who always screams and catches panic attacks if something doesn’t happen according to his plan :_. 14 y.o. Associations - scary derealization pictures, investigation board from movies, anchan; Tweek from South Park, I haven't watched yet but maybe Anxiety from Inside Out
🍫 Choco(-retta Firsot) (she/her) - little, innocence holder, silly childish child who loves the whole world. Don't hurt her, others defend her. 8 y.o. Represents inspiration. Associations - sweets, sun, plushies, bright accessories; Olya from Tiny Bunny, Hook from HSR, a lot of cartoon songs
These were the main ones, now let’s quickly talk about the rest important
🎧 Kari (she/any) - Choco's babysitter and janusmate, music holder, chill teenager(13 y.o.) who doesn't care about anything. Kinns Ellen from ZZZ
🔏 Marya/Meirine Firsot (she/her) - gate keeper, order keeper, Choco's sister, strict, rude, constantly watches everyone and is tired of it.
🩸 Director (she/her, на Вы on russian--) - berserk, inadequate theater owner, performs gore on stage, if she will front, we will be imprisoned. Signature song
❤️🔥 Javello (she/he) - arsonist, cartoon's main antihero who wants save(???) the world, in system we have crazy pyromaniac, but good companion. Choco's evolution lol, 16 y.o. Signature Songs
🕳️ Aice (he/him) - shock absorber, owner of cats collection, blind aggressive guy who will swear on you
👄 Okufano (she/her) - oikeian, hypersexual mommy who will flirt with you
💡 Uni (she/her) - antidepressant, comforter, my girlfriend, romantic, humanization of aristocratic floor lamp, speaks pre-revolutionary russian--. Signature Songs
Well, i think, that's all. I’ll add more later x). I always have trouble with goodbyes, so I'll just give you this and go, ok?
Pfp made in this maker. I use dividers by @cafekitsune, @saradika-graphics and @thecutestgrotto. IT'S VERY CRINGE FOR ME TO POST THIS, PLEASE SORRY THOSE WHO HAVE READ.
#plural system#plurality#plural community#endo safe#pro endo#endogenic system#pro endogenic#endogenic safe#system stuff#maladaptive daydreaming#introducing post#plural#anti endo dni#intro post#pinned post#blog intro#pinned info#info post#idk how to tag this
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Intro: (Please read)
Hello! I’m Onyx and this is my Call of duty blog! This is mainly gonna be about black ops, (specifically black ops one) and it’s mostly gonna be memes that I made, incorrect quotes, and maybe the occasional fanfiction, who knows.
Here’s some other things about me~
- My pronouns are He/they/it/pup (I use other neopronouns as well but these are the main pronouns I use)
- I am a transgender demi-boy and I am abrosexual.
- I have ADHD and hyper-fixate on things. My current hyperfixation are: Minecraft, beauty and the beast, and ofc: Call of duty: Black ops one
- I also really love to RP(role-play) so if y’all wanna role play about my hyper fixations and become friends DM me 👍
- My favorite COD characters are: Viktor Reznov, Alex Mason, Dimitri Petrenko, Raul Menendez, and Frank Woods!
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DNI: Basic dni, (Transphobes, homophobes, racists, rcta, etc.)
Also- my ask box will be open if anyone wants to ask about head-cannons for a certain character or wants to share theirs! :> (you can ask me about anything though lol)
Also here’s a thing I’m thinking of doing: Black ops one fanfiction requests! I’ll get to that in a later post though maybe, thank you for reading my intro! Have fun in here guys!
#CODblackops#call of duty#intro post#hyperfixation#memes#incorrect quotations#randumb#send me asks#viktor reznov#dimitri petrenko#alex mason#frank woods#raul menendez
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hi :) - 9.19.23
Hello, my name is Presley. I am 20 years old, and I am currently in my first semester of law school.
I am also extremely mentally ill. I was diagnosed with severe clinical depression in the 9th grade, having dealt with suicidal ideation since the 5th grade. I am a suicide attempt survivor, and I have been on mood stabilizers ever since. I was also diagnosed with ADHD a few months ago.
Due to my mental health issues, life hasn't been particularly easy for me, especially when it comes to basic life skills like time management and the ability to accomplish basic tasks.
I finished at the top of my class in high school and kept a high gpa in undergrad simply because I am smart, not because I applied myself and worked super hard. I am a terrible procrastinator. My brain can only start working on something if there is an impending deadline, and even then I still struggle to do it.
As you might have already inferred, those habits don't fly in law school. In law school, you have one exam at the end of the semester worth 100% of your grade, built on ALL the material you learned throughout the semester (and you learn A LOT of material in law school). There is no way to cram right before your exam. You must manage your time wisely throughout the semester to stay on top of your work and ensure you have a good handling on the material before you move on.
I am currently struggling to do just that. I am six weeks in, and I am massively behind. Executive dysfunction is very real and it is crippling. I struggle with simply starting a task, and finishing it is a completely different beast.
My brain loves to hyperfixate on things, and 9/10 it is not the thing I need to be focused on. As a result, I will have a laundry list of things I need to do, but find myself unable to do them because I am only focused on that one thing.
However, my brain also says that I must get everything on my to-do list done before I can call it a night. Therefore, I will lose sleep and STILL not get anything done. I was recently awake for almost 48 hours because I told myself that I couldn't sleep until I checked off everything on my to-do list. By the time I finally gave in to exhaustion, I had yet to do anything on it.
It is also extremely difficult for me currently to perform even basic life functions. I've already missed several classes because I simply couldn't find the energy to get out of bed. When I do, I feel like I've run a marathon before I even walk out the door just from waking up and getting dressed. By the time I get out of class, all my energy has disappeared. It takes everything in me just to feed myself at least once a day (and I usually love to eat). When it comes time for me to do work, I am absolutely drained, and my work seems so overwhelming and unapproachable.
All of these things have caused me to be extremely behind on school work, and that is a difficult thing to sit with. Especially when you need to do well because you still have to graduate undergrad, and you have scholarships you need to keep.
It also doesn't help when everyone else around you seems to be well prepared and fighting for the top spot. It makes you begin to wonder if you're even cut out for it, even though this is something you want more than anything else in your life.
Please don't worry about me though. This isn't my first rodeo. I've been dealing with these issues for the past 8 years, it's just that the stakes are much higher right now. I am in therapy, I am taking my medicine, and I have a wonderful support system of family and friends. After everything I've been through, I believe in myself enough to say that I will make it out on the other side, and I will finish this semester strong. I'm just going through a rough patch :)
I am simply here because I would be writing these things down in my personal, private journal anyway, but I want to share them in hopes that they reach someone who needs them. I've made it my mission since I was finally diagnosed in the 9th grade to help break the stigma around mental illness and mental health issues. I want people like me to know that they are not alone in this, because I want to know the same. I also want them to know that feeling these feelings is nothing to be ashamed of and that it's okay to ask for help, because I would be six feet under right now if I had never realized that and gotten the help that I needed.
If you're going through some tough times, just know that I'm sending so much love your way and that I believe in you. You're doing awesome with the hand you were dealt! <3
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#mental health#mental illness#law school#law student#wellbeing#self care#journal entry#blog#adhd brain#anime#fanfic#hyperfixation#brainrot#mental health matters
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things that happen in original wip:
- a massive corporation five seconds from overthrowing the emergency government (the corporation caused the emergency) is defeated by a not-tiktok-but-obviously-tiktok trend
- the main character fights and kills a corrupted monster version of herself from another timeline in the first chapter. this monster also kills the secondary main character, whose disembodied soul lives inside the main character’s iphone for the first act. the main character works retail and was literally just trying to close the store two minutes early
- they defeat the final boss, who is the actual boss (ceo) of the evil corporation turned into a big scary monster, by hitting it with a car
- online community of hyperfixated nerds who edit a wiki about the overworld for fun serve as integral sources of information and plot development
- the premise is transparently a metaphor for graduating college/being in your early 20’s during the pandemic. also losing interest in passions from adolescence bc of capitalism and depression and failure and grief
- main character keeps doing damage to herself with bombs, bc the entire thing is very zelda tropey and i strive for realism
- that super cringe oc you made with your bestie at 14 years old is real and she “died” for your sins (the sins are hers. she’s not real. she’s not dead. you made her real. you let her die. she’s your friend, and she’s not gone, but neither of you know it. you betray each other at the end of the second act. she dies at the end. you ride off into the sunset together. it’s complicated)
- there’s a big worm monster in the desert section, naturally. it’s your transmasc online friend and he is saved by his own need to correct people who are wrong about his big worm monster hyperfixation. i’m obsessed with this minor character. i just need to mention him whenever possible
- imagine the health potions from zelda are sold like monster energy drinks and also responsible for mass terror and death but everyone is too busy doomscrolling to figure it out. that’s fucked up
- heroic influencers exist and they fight ar monsters (think pokémon go) on instagram live bc no one is allowed to go outside and fight real monsters anymore
- the two main characters are so in love it transcends memory and physical form. i am still not sure if i will make them kiss
- your overbearing pretentious conservative-leaning 11th grade ap lang teacher who definitely clocked your undiagnosed adhd, the weirdly professional and mysterious thirty-something running your preferred fandom discord, the ceo of an evil corporation trying to control the world, and botw dark beast ganon are all one character. she is betrayed and destroyed by your best friend, the brilliant young person she once groomed and manipulated into dooming the world. you kind of take a back seat for that one
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Intro <3 !
I go by Michelangelo or any variation of that
(usually michael/mikey but names dont mean much to me)
but i recently found out that i'm the host of a system so if any tags are signed off with a different name thats why
dont care too much abt pronouns but i typically use he/him, ve/vir, and xe/xir/xem. mix it up, get creative. typically dont use she/her but ynever know
body is 21, we're an aries if u wanna make any judgement off of that, autistic + adhd if that wasnt obvious
i do post occasional nfsw/suggestive content, never anything too crazy but if youre a minor id prefer if you didnt interact with those posts, i have no way of enforcing this as i dont check my notifs unless theres tags but i am a full adult, i do pay rent and bills and taxes. on that topic i probably wont follow you if youre under like. 16/17ish. no hard feelings i just am an adult and im not around kids very much as the 2nd youngest of 4 so. if youre under 16 dont do drugs stay in school all that good stuff. i love you, go to bed on time. i've been on this website since i was 11 and it shows. dont be me.
dms are always open ! i'm not amazing at holding a conversation unless its abt my current hyperfixation (rn its zelda/lu) but i love to yap. if you follow me and we're not mutuals dm/ask me and ill follow back! I don't rly pay attention to my followers so i typically don't follow ppl unless theyre consistently posting abt one of my interests and i remember to
I talk in the tags a LOT feel free to <- prev or rb addressing my tags but i typically assume no one will read them all the way through. i'm writing whole essays. im oversharing. call op a college admissions office bc I'm telling my whole life story. if my tags make you uncomfortable on your post please let me know and i will apologize/delete them if you wish. i dont have a concept of tmi and tend to misread/miss social cues/the vibes so i apologize if i misstep
please let me know if i reblog any stolen artwork/ai generated anything/ etc
‼️‼️i am not spoiler free for anything (even if i myself havent seen the content) i dont have any sort of tagging system ‼️
list of my active fandoms! old hyperfixations tend to creep up on me so this is not complete
- bungo stray dogs (bsd beast fans pls follow me i adore beast)
- legend of zelda (all games + lu/links meet aus)(legend fans pspspsp)
- the witcher (mainly the show but i got attached to a character thats not even actually in any of the games. aiden i love you.)
- cars (2006, 2011, 2017)(yes entirely unironically)
- Voltron legendary defender. (again. yes. unironically.)
- star wars (mainly the main series and animation since i havent read thr or played the games)
- jujutsu kaisen (2nd years stan)
- the magnus archives (gerry delano fans i love you)
- percy jackson (mainly the books and musical, i dont care for the show much but i adore the actors)
- gravity falls ! (i actually just got into this like, last month. binged the whole series in like a week at age 21.)
- my hero academia (my hs best friend made me watch s1 and i got attached to aizawa hawks and the todorokis sorry)(im convinced the todorokis were based on my family. im literally natsuo. dont ask abt dabi unless u think you're prepared)
Non Fandom Interests
- I write ! once i start uploading ill link my ao3 here but its rough out here (microsoft word)
- I draw ! i mightve posted my art a few times but as i mentioned i dont have any tagging system so maybe I'll make one for art or link another social at some point
- this mostly falls under loz but i love video games :3 i MOSTLY play loz but animal crossing, minecraft, and random silly da games ive collected over the years are my pride and joy. i want to play the witcher games but i have assassins creed black flag and im really bad at it. (i only have nintendo consoles (ds, 3ds, switch) rn but i want a decent pc at some point. the sims calls to me.
- Politics! my politics are very important to me as a leftist so if you're right wing we will not get along. if i find out that youre racist/homophobic/transphobic/a zionist (i am jewish)/sexist/etc i will probably block you. id say no hard feelings but i dint mean that.
I will probably update this as needed/whenever i remember to <3 ty if u read this and i love you have a great day
#im so sorry yona apologist post this is more important in my silly little mind#I AM STILL A YONA APOLOGIST SHE DID NOTHING WRONG#SHES MY WIFE AND I LOVE HER
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Yo autistic/ adhd people, reblog this with your hyperfixation timeline in chronological order
here’s mine:
Beauty and the beast
Mystery diagnosis/ Tornados and tsunamis
Phantom of the opera
Undertale
Supernatural
Good omens
Sherlock Holmes
Sam and max
Our flag means death
Bonus: special interest in psychology
#i tried to just stick to the ✨full immersion✨ ones lol#also left some out because of the subject matter#I kind of fixated on one of the most horrific events of human history and didn’t want to lump it in with lighthearted fandom stuff 😬#autistic#adhd#special interests#hyperfixations#reblog game#biceratops
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I am so far behind on my comissions it's not funny anymore. I know you struggle with them so any advice?? Should I cancel them? Give them the paltry stuff I have written for free as an apology? Like I don't want to upset anyone but I feel bad stringing them along! What do you do?
I had to formulate a list of stuff I try to do upfront to help mitigate damage.
For starters, anyone who commissions me, I try to let them know upfront: I have a real life job, I have unmedicated issues that make it very difficult, and I really, really struggle with a consistent schedule. I'm actually quite pathetically sickly so I never accept payment upfront-- only after I've delivered. After a certain amount of time, I'll pretty much just give them the story for free because months and months can go by with nothing. I try to keep in contact with those who have commissioned me and let them know what the deal is, but I am finicky and disorganized by nature-- I despise it but until I can afford medication, I'm sort of foxholed, here. One of my biggest issues is they end up so fucking long and detailed that they turn into a monster and suddenly it's overwhelming and it's not living up to my expectations. I sit there going "They're going to hate this, I can't make them pay for this." because overall, I still struggle with and ultimately dislike my writing style and don't feel it's worth paying for.
All of my writing is on a whim. That's a part of the problem. I hate that I can sit down and pop out a piece when I have a commission, but I can literally spit out a 4,000 nightmare in 30 minutes when sometimes I can stare at a screen for hours and nothing comes to me or I hate what I've written with a commission. It's extra pressure because there's a level of expectation there. It's a different beast with commissions over requests and that's to be expected sometimes.
I genuinely hate it, but I don't have insurance and my head is a chaotic mess and it is so, so hard to do things sometimes. Even writing. Even video games. It's part of why I struggle with multi-chapter stories. It has to be my hyperfixation and I have to be in an okay headspace. My job intervenes a lot. That's why I take casual commissions and I rarely accept anything with a deadline. It has to be a casual exchange for me.
I think the best thing you can do is be super up front on your commissions page (if you even have one-- I don't for this very reason. I accept commissions because I have bills to pay but I feel wretched advertising it like a service when this is the case) and try to keep in contact with your customers. Finding a way that is easiest to write is pivotal, whether it's easier lying in bed or having to sit at the computer. Maybe start off only taking small commissions at first (1,000 to 2,000 words) and work your way up when you become more comfortable. (Medicate your fucking adhd if you have it, that's a personal tip from me.)
Most people are incredibly understanding, especially when they don't pay for it upfront. If you're feeling overwhelmed and just can't right now, maybe let them know and offer to finish the story on your own time for free. Ask them if they just want what you've written. Honestly is the best policy here. In my experience, most people are totally fine waiting.
I know exactly what you mean about feeling terrible about it, so feel free to close commissions if it gets too overwhelming. Really, truly, most people are incredibly kind and are completely fine. Most of the time, they just tell you to take your time and hand it out when you're ready, and I don't think I've had anyone be dissatisfied yet.
The best policy is honesty. Just be incredibly upfront about everything and let them know the deal. It gets easier when you can find a way to force yourself to write, but that's a tricky one. At least producing anything of quality in that case.
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Can we start refering to neurodiversaty like rabies? /lh
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This creature is ridden with adhd. It maddly hunts down its next hyperfixation, blindly scouring the internet for a target.
The beast finds someone willing to listen to infodumping. It begins foaming at the mouth, now unstoppable in its rambling
#i have adhd#this has been ficking in and out my mind for hours now#ella ramblings#lmk if you approve lmao#neurodivergent#neurodiversity#rabies#rabid animal sounds
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