#A DAILY STRUGGLE FOR ME

[a-walking-fandom-reference]

needing to use a heating pad for chronic pain vs bad body temperature regulation causing heat flashes

[valeriapryanikova]

hey, *violently throws these grian doodles in your face*

[kirby-the-gorb]

[solifloris]

"even if he's the worst version of all the calebs from then to now, you still want him?"

lvl 51 affinity call — i still think about this call a lot not just because i have nightmares often too and i definitely would have called him too LMAO 😭 but because. this line... there's something so heartfelt about this exchange that i just 😭 my heart feels like it's twisting but /pos 😭

you can just. you can see how much he always wants to do for her, how much he's always wanted to do for her, even through everything that he has been doing already. bec he's been doing a lot!! so much!! it's how he's been trying to show love bc that's how it used to be!!

yet... the reality remains that things aren't how they used to be. and then he calls the him now the "worst version".

he knows. he knows that the person he is in the present isn't the person she's always had in the back of her mind, isn't the person she's familiar with, isn't the person she's the most fond of... is the person that has hurt her. he knows that she's been sensitive about the way he's been doing things, knows that sometimes the things he does doesn't make her happy.... and i think he really just... he sees it, you know? it's not something he just notices and then does nothing about... he's aware. aware that, making her happy, taking care of her like he used to... he doesn't know how to do it properly, doesn't know if he even can anymore. things are different this time. he's still learning to come to terms with that... still trying to deal with the struggles of presenting this whole self that he's very much aware of—without hurting her this time. and i think that a lot of the times :( like in this call :( he just really wants a certain reassurance from mc that he's doing something a little better...........

:( just :( the vulnerability jumps out so much here :( i really want to give him the biggest hug :(

it's such a myth callback... :( he makes me so ill i'm so sick to my stomach 😭 (/pos)

[dailyinkk]

day 1!

[forgetfulmachineart]

[ID: A digital two page black and white comic of a young Megumi Fushiguro and teen Gojo Satoru. First page: Megumi looks sadly at Gojo sitting in a fetal position, partially covered with a blanket. The next three panels are Megumi contemplating before putting their hands out to summon Mahoraga but is interrupted by Gojo's head shooting up and yelling "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?" The next panel is Megumi hugging their torso and saying "You... you said that it was for emergencies..." Below that is two panels of Gojo very simply drawn where at first he's confused then realized what Megumi meant. Second page: In the first panel Megumi looks small and distressed. The second panel they look incredibly annoyed as Gojo starts patting their head. The third panel takes up a majority of the page. In it, Gojo is patting Megumi's head while saying "You're a good kid, Megumi. Thank you" with "but never do that again" in smaller text. A smaller panel in the bottom right has a simply styled present Megumi with a shadow of their eyes labeled "Realizing they almost killed their dad" /End ID]

They're both trying their best

[daily-grian]

new Flight Rising dragon just dropped. Dusthides give me Impulse vibes for some reason.

[mortimerlatrice]

huaien, xiaobao's wife

timelapse

[daily-basil]

Omofalls!Basil Italian confirmed???

[lostlibrariangirl]

April 23, 2024

114/366 Days of Growth

Reviewing my notes for the upcoming ISC2 CC Exam last weekend.

It is tomorrow (24.04) ... I am so nervous 🥹

[quarriart]

The Darkroom. Part 5. End. (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4)

[supertyphoon-kai]

NeuviFuri is hilarious they're the type of couple where the slightest show of the other's skin short-circuits their brains like a victorian man seeing a woman's ankle for the first time.

[doostyaudi]

Uhm. Ignore that it's the 10th and not the 9th. Im not forgetful what r u talking about

[above-the-foldd]

do you ever just

wanna rant

but don’t wanna bother your friends

so you keep it to yourself

[sainteclectic]

as a random aside just for a little fun fact: the reason heart didn't get brain damage from the accidental blinding is because heart doesn't have a brain. he's a mental construct, so he doesn't need a functioning brain and nervous system. he only has a circulatory system because he's the heart, so injuries to the head don't do anything except bleed.

similarly, mind doesn't have a circulatory system, only a nervous system, so heart had to shoot him in the head if he was going to kill him. and shooting for the head instead of the heart is a great way to miss your shot.

[cuties-in-codices]

Where do you find these manuscripts? Is it like a website or do you find it randomly??

hey, thanks for the curiosity! lenghty answer below the cut :)

1)

medieval manuscripts are typically owned by libraries and showcased on the library's websites. so one thing i do is i randomly browse those digitized manuscript collections (like the collections of the bavarian state library or the bodleian libraries, to name just two), which everybody can do for free without any special access. some digital collections provide more useful tools than others (like search functions, filters, annotations on each manuscript). if they don't, the process of wading through numerous non-illustrated manuscripts before i find an illustrated one at all can be quite tedious.

2)

there are databases which help to navigate the vast sea of manuscripts. the one i couldn't live without personally use the most is called KdIH (Katalog der deutschsprachigen illustrierten Handschriften des Mittelalters). it's a project which aims to list all illustrated medieval manuscripts written in german dialects. the KdIH provides descriptions of the contents of each manuscript (with a focus on the illustrations), and if there's a digital reproduction of a manuscript available anywhere, the KdIH usually links to it. the KdIH is an invaluable tool for me because of its focus on illustrated manuscripts, because of the informations it provides for each manuscript, and because of its useful search function (once you've gotten over the initial confusion of how to navigate the website). the downside is that it includes only german manuscripts, which is one of the main reasons for the over-representation of german manuscripts on my blog (sorry about that).

3)

another important database for german manuscripts in general (i.e. not just illustrated ones) is the handschriftencensus, which catalogues information regarding the entirety of german language manuscripts of the middle ages, and also links to the digital reproductions of each manuscript.

4)

then there are simply considerable snowball effects. if you do even just superficial research on any medieval topic at all (say, if you open the wikipedia article on alchemy), you will inevitably stumble upon mentions of specific illustrated manuscripts. the next step is to simply search for a digital copy of the manuscript in question (this part can sometimes be easier said than done, especially when you're coming from wikipedia). one thing to keep in mind is that a manuscript illustration seldom comes alone - so every hint to any illustration at all is a greatly valuable one (if you do what i do lol). there's always gonna be something interesting in any given illustrated manuscript. (sidenote: one very effective 'cheat code' would be to simply go through all manuscripts that other online hobbyist archivers of manuscript illustrations have gone through before - like @discardingimages on tumblr - but some kind of 'professional pride' detains me from doing so. that's just a kind of stubbornness though. like, i want to find my material more or less on my own, not just the images but also the manuscripts, and i apply arbitrary rules to my search as to what exactly that means.)

5)

whatever tool or strategy i use to find specific illustrated manuscripts-- in the end, one unavoidable step is to actually manually skim through the (digitized) manuscript. i usually have at least a quick look at every single illustrated page, and i download or screenshot everything that is interesting to me. this process can take up to an hour per manuscript.

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in conclusion, i'd say that finding cool illuminated manuscripts is much simpler than i would have thought before i started this blog. there are so many of them out there and they're basically just 'hidden in plain side', it's really astounding. finding the manuscripts doesn't require special skills, just some basic experience with/knowledge of the tools available. the reason i'm able to post interesting images almost daily is just that i spend a lot of time doing all of this, going through manuscripts, curating this blog, etc. i find a lot of comfort in it, i learn a lot along the way, and i immensely enjoy people's engagement with my posts. so that's that :)