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tylurrs · 10 days ago

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Here’s pookie dancing and smiling and laughing bc I miss him so much right nowwww

#hansumfella #4 days since the last live #crashing out brb

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ohdorothea · 2 months ago

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While everyone is distracted by wrapped I gotta say I do think Beyonce deserved the top spot of that greatest pop stars of the 21st century list and I’m not sorry

#Taylor has been making pop music since what 2012 if you count red #beyonce released 4 in 2011!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#she is the blueprint she is the best of the best #I said what I said!!!#like if the list was greatest pop stars of the past ten years I could see Taylor at the top of that list #but the last 25 years?????#she’s only been making pop music for half that time!!!!!#and yeah I know her numbers are higher but I don’t think numbers equal cultural impact or greatness #plus I’d say Taylor is still improving in her live performances even now in terms of pop star performances #whereas Beyonce has MASTERED it and has been killing live pop performances for the last 25 years non stop #so yeah for me it’s Beyonce allllllll day

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chronologically-challenged · 6 months ago

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25 year old Bonnie, after trying to get friendships and relationships of their own, now realizing how buck wild their family is: What do you guys mean you guys decided to spend the rest of your lives together only after knowing each other for a few months

#'bonnie you did too' 'I WAS 10'#isat #bonnie isat #isat spoilers #also older bonnie having a slight crisis over the fact that yeah they really were really close to not having their isa mira sif and dile #in their life like yeah time loops but also... say thinks went well and the king was killed no problem... they would have gone home to their #sister and then... who knows maybe it would have gone well but it might have been the last they saw of their family #and thats scary to think about especially since that day went so many ways but only in one of them did they agree to travel together #makes you wonder about chance meetings and trying to build normal relationships #especially with the context of being a savior of vaugarde it must be kinda weird for them #anyway bonnie retroactively being baffled by their ride or die family is funny to me #tbf the family also probably has regular friendships too but bonnie's main point of reference for healthy relationships are 4 wild af people #who decided to risk their lives to save the country (5 if loop is there) and then decided to just keep hanging out forever plus their sister #who is probably figuring out this stuff on her own anyway so prob cant give the best advice #rip bonnie trying to find a balance between not really befriending anyone and 'hold up Ill bury the body for you' crew

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6ebe · 5 months ago

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Applying for 50 jobs within 12 months and not getting a single offer is almost an accomplishment woah I’m so talented x

#it’s killing me j wasted the last 3 months of my life working full time unpaid (internship)#and I was like. j need to suck up this bc it’ll get me a job #and I’ve applied to 25 jobs since starting this internship and I have not succeeded in getting a job #I just want to kms I’m ngl #my current org has offered me a full time job buy for a salary that’s literally minimum wage #so. that’s pretty fucking crap #I applied to 25 jobs in the last month while working full time . like I am so exhausted #I had an interview yesterday morning literally the morning of my grandmas funeral and just got emailed now that I haven’t gotten the job #yknow? I’m just heartbroken at this point #and I still have 1 week left working this internship and there’s literally no point #I was literally a middle level manager in this current job for no pay even worker across a weekend once #and it’s literally for nothing 🤣🤣🤣#I have a masters degree !! and 4 months of full time work experience and another several years worth of working part time #it’s not like I’m one of those grads who’s never worked a day in their life #and like i know no one can get a job these days. like barely any of my friends have anything #but money is beginning to become a little terrifying. so shelving the corporate applications and time to go back to being a barista again #not that I’m even guaranteed getting a job in that.#just spent a week living with a friend in Boston who IS employed straight out of undergrad for a rly cool nonprofit #literallt living my dream yknow what that rly challenged my ability to just be happy for my friends #I just don’t know how I keep on going like this tbh

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rpfofficial · 1 year ago

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character wrapped 2023 💥

tagged by @davidtennantpussytulpa ^-^ i didn't know how many to do so i copied tara and did top 10. i know the severance guys are Four Of Them but i can't separate them theyre all equally important to me

will graham (hannibal), em haywood (nope), aziraphale (good omens), mark & dylan & helly & irving (severance), hawkeye pierce (mash), martha jones (doctor who), ivan karamazov (the brothers karamazov), kim kitsuragi (disco elysium), stewy hosseini (succession), ruescott melshi (andor/rogue one)

i will tag... @fagician @britomart @libraryfag @roadwhores @majorbaby @globuspolski @hadleyfraserfaggot @tenderscience if u want to ^-^

#and now i will explain them all in detail #cos i started watching hannibal back in like. january or february and will immediately set up camp in my head and started to settle there #*I* pay rent to *HIM*. he lives there permanently. sweating and monologuing constantly #em was not only the character of 2022 but also of 2023 and of 2024 and the rest of the decade and all decades to come #she had such an impact on me keke palmer's performance will live with me forever and i love nope so fucking much #i almost didnt include her because nope was more of a last year obsession. but she lives on #aziraphale.........no comment #severance.......i love them all so much and at first i wanted just irving and then just helly and then i realise i cried over mark this week #and then i realised i couldnt possibly leave out dylan when hes probably my favourite character. so then i settled for all of them #hawkeye is my fucking wife. enough said #martha... well i knew i had to have a doctor who character. i thought maybe the doctor but then i thought their companions mean more to me #sometimes at least. i did have a fourteen icon for a while but then i was like but Donna..... and then i thought. well #these past few months at least martha jones has been eating away at my heart. i go batshit insane when i think about her #her impact. her grace. her power. so she had to go on the list.it was a toss up between her and donna for sure though #then i figured i had to include a karamazov since reading that book took up half of my year. and ivan was my favourite of the 3. so <3 #kim goes without saying. literally nothing to be said hes the character Of All Time. to me #stewy also goes without saying ive had so many Stewy Save Me moments since the beginning of season 4 all the way to the end of the year #i miss him every day. he is the moment. i wish there was more of him all the time #and the last one is a bit of a wildcard cos all my insanity abt melshi has been on my andor sideblog.#but rest assured ive been thoroughly Not Normal about him. he literally side appears in 4 episodes and has 11 total minutes onscreen #but i love him. so much. and hes occupied most of my thoughts since september. once again his impact his power his grace. his homosexuality #enough said. that's all. thanks for reading. this was a great year for autism and madness #tag game #🍪

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itsalwaysdark · 2 months ago

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and when i live on my own ill be able to decorate like real life decorate ive never gotten to do that in real life b4

#like im not barred from doing it Nd i do like. a little bit kind of but its like. Idk my entire life is a very transient thing and im rly #rly rly not used to being in one place for a long time so as a kid we never rly decorated ever #and like obv i wont be Owning a house or anything like that so itll still have to be moveable but i can like. but furniture that i like and #stuff... ive never gotten to do that b4 even in um. wa. i didnt rly get to do any of the decorating even when i was in the actual house bc #him and the roommates umm. did all that. Okay well now ive sort of freaked it by making myself think of that so im going to go stare #longingly at the floorplan i did #bc umm. well ideally id like to move into one of the apartments thats right across the way bc theres a couple of apt buildings like right #there 5 min walk tops and one of the places Has an open one but no floorplan #i wont be movjng out for ages i just wanted to look at floorplans yk #but like i said no floorplans BUT theres one a bit further away not rly walkable bc its umm #youd have to walk on the interstate and stuff and um. no sidewalk and everything but theeeeeeeeee thing had a floorplan #still very close by like 2 min drive but yk. but i still did my little mockup floorplan with that apartment instead #i want it to be closeby so everybody can come visit and so that i dont die and explode . i dont rly want to continue living in this town #4ever once km like Normal and have savings and ive got everything worked out i wanna maybe move to chicago or something since il is better #for the transgenderisms. + ive always wanted to try living in a big city at least once and i think itd be awesome #but thats Ages and ages away like maybe 5 years depending on how good i am. weeee will see if 5 years in the future is like on the table 4 #me LOLLLL 24 year old connor seems rly crazy to imagine. but anyways....#but itll be nice to move out and still be in town bc then i can have the same job yk . and maybe ill know how to drive atp and i can like .#buy a car ..or something . if i do know how to drive #which i probably should since this town very car dependent and i dont want my mom to have to drive me to work esp if umm. i dont live with #them ... im just rly rly rly rly rly fucking scared of driving but i know also in my heart that when i do know how to drive the bond between #me and that car will be crazyyyy like. idk how many of you followed me last year but you may remember my insane bond with angel my cart from #work and there was a lot gokng on woth that <- was Very delusional at the time and i was convinced that she was a sentient thing and had the #power to make my life better or worse if i upset her so i said good morning and goodnight to her every single day so that i could have a #good day . looking back on it probably was something to be concerned abt but whatever.... she is still my best friend and i do miss her #deeply #her bathtub and heater were my besttt friends when i was in wa LOL. i was quite unwell #bathtub is still in my room tho yayyy. heater lives with lamp now and angel is of course at my old job....#bathtub currently is holding a project i gave up on. everyone say thank.you bathtub im looking at her right now

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mayclair · 1 year ago

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celebrated my birthday w/ my friends today & felt possibly the most loved i have ever felt in years. maybe life IS worth living <3

#we went out for coffee that ended up lasting for like 4 hours and i did not stop laughing the entire time #and i got! so! many! presents!#v happy about that bc its been years since i've celebrated my birthday with my friends and therefore many years since i've been able to be #excited about the gifts i was getting LOL #oh and i also got my favorite cake and ate so much i felt like throwing up but like <3 we live we love we learn <3 #ALSO my parents got me a new phone for the first time in like five gajillion years bc my current phone randomly shuts off in the middle of #the day for no rhyme nor reason and no one's been able to fix it so <3 v excited about that too

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mer-se · 3 months ago

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lil hiatus away

#trump winning hit hard #harder than I thought because I didn’t think he’d win #we all met up the next day and had depression strolls #lots of vents and talks and anger #window shopped and actually shopped #looked at expensive guitars and little hamsters find fun in every place we go #we all made food with/for my niece and talked at my table for hours #played among us like old times till 1 am #got emotionally rejuvenated by the ocean #had plans with a friend that fell through so another time maybe or not idc anymore hahah she’s persistent though #I’m kinda over everything!#this 4:30 sunset always gets me bad for a while #on top of heavy world changes too like do that shit in summer #my dads friend Chris is visiting and that always makes me happy #I heard them cracking up watching South Park in his room last night was the cutest shit #reminded me of old times I miss living in Boston that whole era #wish we could have a redo #or even when he lived here with us after #maybe he'll move back this way someday #or go up that way since won’t ever be able to afford a house where I wanna live #or get out of the country all together #hiatus away was nice especially from Instagram and fb they're horrible places right now #unfollowing and unfriending everyone rn idc who u are #and honestly idky I still even have tumblr now I ask myself that a lot #more and more lately #have a good day #and take care of yourselves

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mbat · 24 days ago

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its funny being still fairly a noob when it comes to the sonic fandom despite living adjacent to it basically my whole life, cause im looking at this newer stuff and im like 'oh thats cool and fun, ok i liked that' and then i glimpse into the fandom and people who know WAAAAY more than me are like 'THAT WAS FUCKING HORRIBLE WHAT THE FUCK DID THEY DO TO THESE CHARACTERS'

i feel like im more correct because honestly im just having fun

#my post #that last line is more jokey cause opinions are opinions so like no one is technically correct #but come on lmao #sonic #i liked the knuckles show for example. the other day i clicked on a video by a youtube account that seems to be entirely about sonic stuff #and i keep getting videos suggested by him since #and he has one talking about how much he doesnt like the knuckles show #im only 4 minutes in but hes talking about how he doesnt like the echidna elders portrayal here and im like #'wow my ignorance of this character makes me enjoy this way more lol'#also bro was like 'can you imagine THIS guy being the leader of one of the most fearsome tribes in the galaxy?'#yes actually because intimidating scary people can also still be fun and silly #especially old people like have you met old people who act so silly and then tell you the most fucked up stories imaginable after #but also this dude clearly expected the knuckles show to be more sonic-y than it was but like. if it was then it would end up being require #viewing for the movies and no one wants that.#also the entire show aside from some moments just takes on a generally more silly vibe #i mean granted the entirety of the live action movies tends to do that #but especially this show

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discoreptile · 28 days ago

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As of yet unnamed game card art!

#pixelart #pixel art #card game design #card games #scottish mythology #Happy new year gang #I've been on my course for a good while now. I have a new very close friend from it and have made a few others as well #Our little group is in a discord and we're all a good bit nerdy haha #I'm far from the oldest one in the class/group which is always good to see #We got two weeks off for winter break which is great. We come back tomorrow. I'm not ready lmao.#But with the time I got I treated it like a game jam. Me and friend were like “we got two weeks let's make what we can”#And I wasted the first few days. Not by not working but by using AI to try and help with code. Turns out it's terrible at it.#I've been openly anti-AI but our course encourages us to use it for coding so I thought it would be good at games.#Nope. It's dogshit. It worked for a while but I ended up working so much more efficiently just making the code myself #So this new game. It's a card game. you might be thinking “This has nothing to do with the 16 characters you were making what happened??”#It's all connected. ALL of it. Greenhollow. HoaM. Elphame. This new project. The 16 characters. They're all connected.#It's gonna sound like the story will be oversaturated and it is. But I'm not worried about that rn. Just making sure the game is fun.#And I can confirm: The game is fun. It's playable. Graeme and I have been playing it a ton and I feel so happy. I love designing the cards #I don't want to explicitly state what's up but here's a clue: These 20 cards are all playable by the ISTP character #That will either make you understand completely or not help you at all.#Anyway. I'm tying in previous projects so they all get to tell their story. My sister made designs for characters ages ago #and I'm finally getting to show them. One is on one of these cards. But I intend to show all of them and tell all their stories #Of course since there are so many characters a lot of the little side stories will be optional.#I'm getting ahead of myself. But I'm loving doing art and programming for this rn. Tomorrow I return to DA lifestyle...#But at the end of the month I'll be a lot less busy and might get to work on this again. No idea of a release ETA #but in 2 weeks I've done 20 cards. I'm hoping for between 128-256 (I love symmetry). That said it's faster once I'm in the habit of it.#I have a little bit of programming left before this version is final (4 cards left) but yeah. It's looking damn good.#I'm not as manic as the last post but I am very proud of myself #Also 2024 was my favourite year for movies lmao. Inside out 2 wicked and sonic 3 were all amazing All 3 make me sob like a baby #2024 was crazy. I lived so much hahaha. I met a lot of people and travelled so much and got so fit (then lost it all in winter)

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jentlemahae · 1 month ago

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#i really need to go back to ams asap i need to at least be in a different country than my father #he’s still trying to coerce me into moving to italy which is crazy since i’ve been saying i don’t want to stay here since i was 15 yo #i don’t think im perfect at all but i think im a pretty sweet person and i dont like hurting people and hes trying to take advantage of that #idgaf if u built me an apartment !!!!!! leave me alone !!!!!!!!!!!!!#not only is that apartment not even wheelchair accessible (if u build it for me i think that’s a basic requirement ?) but it’s also #disrespectful to me bcs i have made it ABUNDANTLY clear that i do NOT wanna be in this country !!!!!! why are they ignoring my own desires #and i mean if i had to be in italy for some unknown reason he would be the last person i would stay with #i think i would rather be homeless and sleep on a park bench #ive been having nightmares about living w him and his family for days #next year istg im coming back for like 4 days

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maraeffect · 2 months ago

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hi everyone, this is my monthly check-in <3

#not feeling so great lately...there's a lesion on my other knee now #and it most likely is cancer.#they want me to wait another 10 days for an mri???? like ur crazy #if u think i can wait that long.#sighhhhhhhhh.#anyway.#some cool things have happened #like spending all day in nyc with my partner on friday <3333 #and um. i did wnt to vent about smth so uh.#ED tw #lately #my energy has been too low for me to wanna cook. which in turn made my stomach shrink a LOT #since i've been surviving by grazing on snacks.#and i didnt even realize i lost weight until i went to the doctor.#i didnt realize though that it would be even MORE lost when i weighed myself without my winter clothes #and uhhhh. i currently weigh what i weighed in my senior year of high school #which is the FIRST time i've been under a certain number in over SIX YEARS.#and i havent struggled at all w body negativity or ED thoughts in over a couple years. but.#now that my ideal gender expression has shifted more to the feminine side. and now that ive lost weight.#my brain INSTANTLY latched onto that #and was like omg YES do more of that #and it feels nice. this time im FINALLY not struggling to suppress my appetite!!! my body is doing that for me!#and obviously im still eating enough to live on #but still a huge caloric deficit. and rn my wheelchair shit keeps breaking on me. my mobility company is INCOMPETENT.#and my insurance might tell me i have to wait FIVE MORE YEARS for another type of chair......I WILL DIE BY THEN.#ugh everything is so complicated now. and im ALWAYS exhausted bc the sun sets at 4:30. i've just stopped binging and i replaced it with+#a LOT. of retail therapy. i've easily spent probably 1500 of my credit limit in the last 2 months. but you know.#that and not eating are 2 of the ONLY things i can control rn. out of all the fucking bullshit these useless people and my body put me thru #anyway. i'm sure you can tell how i feel rn. i'm just going to try doing anything else today.#vent

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gutsfics · 2 months ago

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ik that in canon the yacht club classmate type is supposed to be like. what if this high school straight up had a yacht club.

but tbh i think its more like that episode of Community where Shirley and Pierce take a boating class but theres no body of water anywhere near Greendale so theyre just. in the parking lot. pretending theyre out at sea or something

#what im saying is that the yacht club classmates are less annoying than actual real life yacht club members. to me #ok well maybe not *less* annoying but a different kind of annoying #this opinion created by when i spent a month of the summer helping my aunt and her husband move into their new home #& we spent thursday afternoons at the yacht club bc hes part of a boat crew that does races every week #it was Thee Whitest Place we went to my whole time we were there #the club's 100 year anniversary was the day of the last race before i left & they had a live band that was 4 dudes on guitar & 1 on drums #it was awful. nowhere you could go to get away from the noise & at one point my aunt and i just. left the club and sat in the car for a bit #& since my uncle isnt actually a member it was parked some way up the street away from the club #hm. i feel the need to specify that no one in my family is rich least of all this aunt and uncle. he just really likes boats

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gu6chan · 4 months ago

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Your post about The Most American Sandwhich just made me imagine Leonard as an American... Leonard scuttling about at a Walmart parking lot, trying to fit all the food he bought in the trunk (enough to hermit away for the next few weeks begote he has to restock again)

this is a bit late but this has me WAILING........ american leonard, what groceries will he buy........ do you think he would treat him also to The Most American Sandwich

now introducing: the U.P's youngest resident

also during the process of scribbling in his hoodie i looked at it and almost started crying

#gu6chan's doodles #leonard drakengard #drag on dragoon #drakengard #this is so FUNNY bc i shit you not my dad used to do a similar thing growing up except on a monthly basis #like i used to HATE going over to live with him bc going from nürnberg; one of the most populated cities in germany to laterally no one #living within walkable distance + my dad only leaving for groceries once a month BY HIMSELF it was literally just woods i HATED it #just miles and miles of trees......... i used to treat it like a goddamn vacation and get dressed up in my best clothes whenever he said i #could come to the grocery store with him but by the time i came out he'd normally leave to go by himself by that time anyways 😭 fun times #luckily not everyone was that isolated as me but i will say if ive learned anything about northern michigan/The U.P every parent is just as #insane fansjcjsmsnd also people WILL just go missing out of the blue???? usually really young kids whose parents are touring or elderly ppl #with alzheimers or so. though they also do get the occasional Normal 20-30 year old every other hunting season 😭😭 last year a 72 year old #guy went out with his dog and only the dog came back and we STILL haven't found the dude. theres no way hes alive now since it was JUST #reaching winter when he disappeared but like. i wonder where he is. its CRAZY up here #anyways the UP is even more insane and I'm glad I don't live over there because holy FUCK.#every visit has been an absolutely surreal experience #that fact and the guy who just up and walked into the woods i mentioned were both vague inspirations for this little detail spread lmaoooo #that and the fact that a LOT of people up here and ESPECIALLY in the UP are either drug dealers or sex offenders who are trying to find #somewhere isolated to get away from the police (re: insane parents) that or some crazy shit in their past theyre trying to run away from #all this to say: leonard is prime candidate for weird little U.P hermit who just suddenly walks into the woods one day and #1. is never seen again #or 2. his decaying corpse is found facedown in a river 4 years later. is it suicide? foul play from whatever he was trying to get away from #in his past that led him to the UP to begin with? no one knows. they all forget about it within 3 weeks #speaking of decaying; this is not to be confused with my unfinished drafts for silent hill leonard whose been decaying there for months...

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weirdo09 · 5 months ago

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who needs kids to pick on them when you already have a built in bully?

#cade’s things #cade’s thoughts 💭#I just love being bullied everyday by my mom #don’t you?#I also just love when she says that she’s gonna go and do things for me but never does or backs out last minute “somebody else can do that”#shoulda never showed her my school outfits like I do not give a damn abt them kids if they pick on me they pick on me but you’re obviously #not gonna care or be told abt it like ??#you really think I give a damn abt them kids who can’t even wash themselves properly ?!?!#also just like I do not dress for them I don’t buy clothes and be like “will I get bullied in this?”#and you talkin bout you tryna help me over an all pink outfit? a pink shirt wit white writing and pink leggings is too much pink?#like it’s a pink outfit that’s the point I don’t care abt them I just wanted to wear it #then I’m giving attitude all for saying that I’ll just pick out another outfit for that day since you don’t like that one #that’s what you said? started goin on a whole rant about how you bought a shirt for them leggings then went ahead and was like #“you’re only gonna be wearing jeans?” like yeah #i don’t have that many pairs of leggings for a 4 day school week #and that outfit was gonna be my only legging outfit but I can’t just wear a pink Regina George shirt and pink leggings wit white shoes that #would be too much pink? okay I really don’t care anymore #then wanna complain about my closet and the fact we’re moving and you don’t wanna spend a whole day packing it up like.#i did not choose to go to a one bedroom apartment where i’mma be living in the dining room area ?!?!#eh whatever #don’t really know why you care it ain’t like you gonna be wearing it and also for the last time I do not care about them kids #they don’t run my life if I got bullied you would not care and blame it on me or my clothes like right now #jesus christ I just can’t

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seilon · 9 months ago

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genuinely it is so depressing to spend money drinking just to end up doing nothing interesting and just sitting around

#i need friends who like. doing things.#i need more friends in general but i mean yeah.#would love to have an actual college experience one day. I’ve been in college 4 years or so and I’ve never been to a party and I’ve never #made lasting/close friendships. since pre-covid I haven’t really made friends at all #all my friends (all four of them) are from high school #it’s really fucking pathetic actually how incapable I am of making friends or having a life #and it just feels like a huge fucking waste of time and a waste of a college environment #part of me wishes I would rent at a place full of mostly other students and get a roommate I don’t know (as much as that’s a bad idea if #it’s anything like last time) just so I can be around people and be forced to meet people #also so I can avoid getting lowkey fucked over because my friends I’m supposed to be renting with eventually don’t want to pay a #significant amount of rent and I’d end up paying way more than them just because they supposedly can’t afford it (we all have about the same #income.)#gehsdhdhdhshhd #they also want to rent a place with four of us total and I just. really don’t want to live with that many people. like I think it would #drive me fucking insane. I need control over my surroundings and that leaves me with no control and I don’t like it #and a million other reasons I don’t like the idea #it was originally just supposed to be me and one friend. so. this was not the plan #hahsgshhshh anyway kill me #I’m in that post-drinking state where all pleasant affects of the alcohol have long since worn off and I’m just sort of left a hollow shell #depressed and disappointed.#and I have to go to work this afternoon woohoo awesome so cool #kibumblabs

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