#12 year old me would be so proud of me

[tired-old-men]

Dude where was this blog when I was 12? I was obsessed with the Brotherhood so much I had the whole family tree memorized. I would info dump at the drop of a hat. I would be so feral about these sad old men and no one- not my family, my friends, or even my dogs- understood what the FUCK I was even talking about so eventually I just shut up and stopped thinking about it. And then my dash is full of Knuckles and now I’m like *gasp* “THE SAD OLD MAN CLUB!” and then you are just here??? Talking about this thing that I literally thought no one except me cared about??? Hello??? Shall we have a spring wedding???

MY BROTHER IN ECHIDNA I FEEL YOU ON A METAPHYSICAL LEVEL!!! I have never connected so hard to an ask in my life. I was hella obsessed with these guys in my teens! I knew their family tree by heart, knew their lore inside and out, I doodled Edmund and Dimitri in my science notes in class constantly, shit these guys lived rent free in my brain with how much I daydreamed about them! I might have had like 3 people tops on deviantart at the time that I could even talk to about these guys, who actually knew who they were and even made art and content for them.

Then came a period of time I ended up leaving the sonic fandom entirely, probably a mixture of being made to feel discouraged in liking my interest from my offline peers and family (back when liking Sonic din't made you a cool kid but a target) as well as getting hyperfixated on other things I just... moved on sadly. It wasn't until last year I want to say, that I stumbled upon @julie-su's art and realized that it was made in recent year, that I got genuinely excited for these guys and the sonic fandom again. You can also imagine my subsequent heartbreak when I found out about the Ken Penders lawsuit and how all of these beloved characters ended up... But as the saying goes if you want something done right you gotta do it yourself! Got sad that there's no more art of these dudes time to make some! It's how I ended up coming back to tumblr and getting to meet more echidna loving individuals and honestly I wouldn't go back not one bit. I'm sad that I feel like I missed out on the Archie comic fandom era back when the comics were still publishing, but I'm glad to be making up some lost time by indulging in the grandpa gang with my online buds. I can't imagine my life without these sad old dudes living rent free in my mind, they keep me entertained, they make me laugh, and bring me much comfort. It makes me so happy to see fans of these guys and new content being made for them just get me so fucking excited and happy.

Most of the time making content for them seems like I am screaming into a void considering how obscure they can be. But in the end, I don't I think I have had more fun creating art and writing than when I started drawing them again. In a way I keep them alive in my memories through my works and that makes me happy. I know the few that know and love these characters also love to see them still around, and have been big inspirations for me to create my own stories and headcanons for these characters and I will forever be grateful for them enriching my life with their creativity. Always a delight to meet someone that loves these tired old men as much as me, your comment literally made my day! Thank you for being awesome and for even liking my works, It really means a lot to know theres still love out there for these characters. I'm always happy to chat with a fellow guardian fan so please don't be a stranger! Besides, we have to frolic down the hills of Angel Island in the eve of our honeymoon~

[miammey]

I am cringe, but I am free

I just kept seeing Aphmau’s content show up on my fyp and stuff and gave in

[spaghett-onaplate]

depression is really weird actually wdym i spent 2.5 years of my life in bed

[unidentifiedflyingorganism]

Let's take ibuprofen together 👍

[aropride]

this website is like if five thousand people could read my diary

[lovelyamneris]

I used to write the cringiest hoa fic when I was 12 on my mom’s PC computer and I wrote one called “Victor’s Daughter” and all I remember about it is that Rufus kidnapped the OC and he was screaming at her to build the Cup. Clearly she was the Chosen One instead of Nina in my fic LOL. I really wish I could find it and read it and cringe at myself but my mom’s computer is broken and so it’s forever lost in the void of terrible fics I wrote at twelve on Microsoft Word <3

[fuckspn]

sam told john "you did your best" and i whisper-screamed into the void of my empty apartment NO HE DIDN'T

[thatringboy]

alright but HOW deep were you into ut

back when I was on amino, of all places, I frequently participated in Paperjam Sans and crew RPs. My OCs could beat up your OCs

[2024skin]

Delighted by the thought that 8 years from now I could be a totally different person and I can't possibly predict how I will turn out

[rosie-lav-art]

I didn't have an Anime Drawings phase as a kid, so I get to start at Middle School Level as a 27 year old 😭 at least I can only go up from here!

Please recommend a blorbo or two of yours for me to draw. I need to practice!!!!! I have so many years of practice to catch up on before I find a style I can do easily/consistently 😭

[navysealt4t]

sure sometimes life is shit, but sometimes i look in the mirror and imagine little 12 year old me who never thought she could be this. look where we are now. look who i am

[one-of-your-girls]

every once in a while i feel the inexplicable urge to listen to bruno mars

[paranormaljones]

22? And that’s the best you could do? I’d point and laugh if a 12 year old had made that, but for someone your age? I almost pity you.

HAAA the timing of me discovering this in the midst of some very sweet anon love could not have been funnier XD

Thank you for this, I now have the motivation I need to go make some more ugly ass drawings when I get home from work. I've had a ton of ideas on the back burner but I haven't had anyone to spite in so long. I've missed you 🥹

In case anyone's curious, this is the horrible abomination that my beloved hater is so mad about.

[there-will-be-a-way]

It's wild growing up as a socially awkward child with little friends and then becoming popular in literally every group setting as an adult

[foralwaysandforever]

not me ordering the mysterious benedict society puzzle book to cope AND because i get to prove i'm just as smart as the target audience (12 year olds) <3

[im2tired4usernames]

I want their fuckin freedom they have no chores no responsibility they can go out with their friends when ever they want for however long they want they can sleep in there bed all day they eat drink drive vehicles use the phone have a home with no bills no expenses they can spend their money on stupid things that bring them joy with no worry of the gas they burned in someone else's vehicle or if there's dinner at home they have no worries about laundry no worries about dishes no worries about the messes they make because they know I'll clean it up always I want to be viewed by my family and by my friends as someone who is an actual person with limits and boundaries and who has goals and dreams they'd like to accomplish in the day besides laundry for 16 people and not a tireless cleaning machine. I want to be able to rest and have hobbies I want to be able to do things with my partner and my friends again I want to be able to fuckin daydream and make up stories again for Christ sake I want to feel like a person and not a corpse forced into playing "tradwife" I want the freedom they all have while I'm in the background doin they're dishes.