#1 pill a day for me

[pebbles-scatter]

be honest. can you tell i'm undermedicated?

[royalarchivist]

Pac: I'm- I'm worried about it! Oh, I don't want to be locked up again! I don't want to be kidnapped again, you know? I don't want to be in prison! [He starts hyperventilating] I just want to do what they told me to do!

Tubbo: [Overlapping] No one will know you did that! No one will know.

Fit: Yeah, that's not gonna happen! It's not gonna happen, it's ok.

Pac: It might happen! It might happen! It happened with my friend! It happened with my son! Why wouldn't it happen with me? [Sighs]

Tubbo: There's gotta be someone left to hold down the fort!

Fit: That's right, you gotta stay strong!

Pac: I'm the weakest of all, you know? I'm the weakest of all the Favela.

Fit: You're not the weakest Pac, don't say that.

Pac: –I am! I am. I am.

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Tubbo: C'mon, just point me in the general direction, and it'll be fine! And–

Pac: I'm scared, I'm scared to say! I'm scared to say–

Tubbo: No, no! Just say it, just say it! Like–

Pac: I'm- I'm worried about it! Oh, I don't want to be locked up again!

Fit: Pac– it's ok!

Pac: I don't want to be kidnapped again, you know? I don't want to be in prison! [He starts hyperventilating] I just want to do what they told me to do!

Tubbo: [Overlapping] No one will know you did that! No one will know.

Fit: Yeah, that's not gonna happen! It's not gonna happen, it's ok. Wait, Pac– when–

Pac: It might happen! It might happen! It happened with my friend! It happened with my son! Why wouldn't it happen with me? [Sighs]

Tubbo: There's gotta be someone left to hold down the fort!

Fit: That's right, you gotta stay strong!

Pac: I'm the weakest of all, you know? I'm the weakest of all the Favela.

Fit: You're not the weakest Pac, don't say that.

Tubbo: Yeah, so why would they take you?

Pac: –I am! I am. I am.

Fit: No no no no– you're strong Pac, you're strong.

Tubbo: [Overlapping] You're not the weakest Pac, you're not the weakest!

Pac: [Overlapping] I don't want to be that guy, I don't want to be the weakest and like, the saddest of all. I wanna be happy! [Sighs] That's why I took the pills also...

Tubbo: You seemed– when–

Pac: I wasn't happy.

Tubbo: I mean, you were happy when we were chatting before about about the railway? Maybe- maybe there's other- other places to find joy, other than a briefcase full of very... unlabeled pills?

[souenkun]

I love yewww questionable merchants from old-era japan who lives for a totally different quest from their day jobs ❤️

[mochasucculent]

"She's so 13 year old coded" I say about my character who is 13 years old

[brionysea]

for the record I'm keeping my #arcane and #arcane critical tags separate because 1) it's rude to go into a show's main tag to complain about it and 2) this way I can still go into the arcane tag on my own blog to enjoy season 1 stuff without being perpetually disappointed by season 2

[wriokitty]

This whole day I have just been yelled at by patients on the phone for long periods of time one after the other I’m at my limit truly

[oxymoronicdumbass]

dude i stayed in my bed till 2:30 doing fuck all and i’m still tired wtf

[gothsuguru]

suguru really is so perfect for a vampire!au… the long black hair that goes down to the small of his back, his lowlidded gaze that looks naturally lustful, and his sharp fangs that peek out slightly when he smiles at you… unintentional but he knows you have an inkling about what he is. he wants to see what you may do or say, if you choose to do so that is. his mouth salivates on its own accord when his eyes follow your pulsepoint that’s jutting quickly out of your neck… he thinks about how warm and sweet and delicious your blood must be. suguru wonders if when he bites, whether you’ll moan or whine or scream in ecstasy. he’s hoping that you’ll do all three i think <333

[blackcurrant-juice]

wondering why im so fucking sleepy for no reason then remembered I forgot to take my meds for 3 days

[sydmarch]

can't wrap my head around recreational opioid use (not talking about pain management that turns into dependence obviously) like every time I've had to take them the most positive effect I think ive ever gotten aside from the pain management ofc is "kind of sleepy & cozy I guess" like ok I feel the same thing after having drammamine and a glass of wine & that doesn't also make me nauseated and constipated & miserable. at least uppers are FUN.

[arcadian-vampire]

Ohh my fucking god... I am so so stupid sometimes??

I've literally been sitting here for ages (genuine hours) trying to figure out why I couldn't get the 'Even Peyote' stitch to work like it did in all the tutorials I attempted to follow, but I. cannot count.

I was sooo sure the main tutorial I looked at was using seven rows, because I counted them!! Repeatedly!!!!! Using my fingers and everything!!!!!!!! When they were in fact. using six rows. SIX. AN EVEN NUMBER. THIS STITCH NEEDS AN EVEN AMOUNT OF ROWS TO WORK. That should be obvious by the name, but I just?????? The tutorial had an odd number! So clearly an odd number would work for me too!!!! I counted, I swear!!!

I literally cannot count six things, and apparently can't pick up obvious context clues either! Like what the hell

I have this issue really really bad with stuff like baking too-- counting scoops of ingredients is so damn stressful, but I can't Explain it to anyone because I don't even understand it myself. I just. can't count sometimes. A lot.

I've heard of dyscalculia, but I've always been like 'well I can often add numbers decently, so I don't think I Can't Do Math At All', but jesus christ... It is Not Normal to spend hours trying to count six beads

I also have dyslexia, so it really shouldn't be surprising that I might have more. But god. This is so fucked

And I kNOW I have a Realization like this every few years, but listen. I also have memory issues. My brain is so fried 😮‍💨 I'm doomed to repeatedly be confronted with the fact that I'm a little bit stupid, and to be somehow surprised at it every single time

[perihel1on]

adhd medication on backorder again i'm ready to start killing

[pollyna]

I just hope this fucking month will be done soon because I can't anymore with it. It felt like fifteen months long instead of the normal 31 days long.

[cassatine]

hi hello i liiiiive!! had to take a mental health break, by which i mean i went a little bit. well. crazy. crazier? i sort of stopped sleeping for a while. not great 0/10 do not recommend. still in recovery stage, which sucks ass. had to go and take the waters like a nineteenth century heroine with the vapors. also got initiated to stick and poke, not like a nineteenth century heroine with the vapors (unless??).

[aenslem]

can we just take a moment and appreciate the fact that young puts the weapon down to use his fists, it needs to be physical for him, he needs to feel rush when he hurts him, and I love it, I am here for this, I am here for these two being wild about each other, it's just beautiful

if he wanted to kill rush, he would just shoot him, he does not want to kill him like 'kill him', but he wants to beat him so much, he wants to feel rush's life in his hands, that way he can have some control over whatever they have going on between each other, this 'need to beat you' mode is so good, I absolutely enjoy it

yeah, there are better things to enjoy in life than watching how two idiots on screen would fight, but there are some sports where people pay to watch those things, I just chose to enjoy it between a space drama, mostly caused by one of the jerks above

I am trying to imagine what their relationship would be like if the show was not cancelled, and they did become more, um, 'friendly' I guess I can call it friendly, less physical, which obviously sucks for me, I enjoy them getting physical. I think even when they are on good terms young would not be able to not be aggressive with rush in some ways. it would not be life threatening like in this scene, and rush would know it, but their arguments would be heated, and I think young would use his strength, maybe pushing rush to a wall a little too hard, stopping him by holding his arm a little too hard, I think whenever young would realize he is losing an argument he would try to get into rush's personal space, it's the way he shows his strength, he can't win with his mind, but he can win by force. he knows it, but also, I think he would not do it intentionally all the time, with rush it's always unintentional, heated and brought to the point where you can't control yourself and you give into it and act on impulse.

I think it would start with less and less aggression in fight, and more enjoy outdoing\outsmarting the other one. like playing a chess, like, you can be smart as rush and win, but you also need to be a good strategist, so young does have something to offer here, he can challenge rush, and I think he has the chance to win a game. so they would be around each other as if they play a chess. the more they would play this game the more they would want to win, they would make the other one learn some new tricks to win, I think they would make each other better by learning thing or two from one another, and by the end of the show they would actually enjoy having an argument, having a talk, maybe one day they would just talk, you know, like normal people, and it would not end up with one accusing the other one in sabotaging something, or lying, or whatever.

rush just crawling away, and young trying so hard to not finish what he started, you can see he wants to beat him more, but he is tired of this as well. have you seen a man who is so tired by trying so hard to not kill smb? love it

they are trying so hard to control things, but they can't even control themselves

as if it is not about control and power for you, man. when he offers rush to work together in 'darkness' he looses his shit and the talk goes the wrong way, just because young wanted rush to report to him, not him consulting his actions with rush. you want to control this man, but he is like a force of nature, you both are like two hurricanes meeting at some point and you either collide and become even more dangerous together or destroy each other and everything around you.

oh, and let's appreciate this screencap here, idk, I just love it, because I love men suffering, also robert carlyle has pretty hands there

he ain't wrong here. young does something on impulse and then regrets, he can be calm and strategic, but when it comes to something he cannot control, something like rush, he is all about emotions, bringing out the worst in him, and causing to act based on impulse rather than thinking about his actions through, he does it after, and it usually ends with regret, as we saw in 'justice'. yay my fav part <3

anyway, idk where I was going with this but here we are

oh and you know what I love about young? he is a man of force, using fists instead of words, but he actually listens if you talk to him, and even if he does not always understand it he tries and is not opposed to explore something new and learn and stay on an ancient ship with 10 more people and the man who framed him for murder just to find out what lies beyond it all. you may say it's because he feels responsible for those people, and yes, he does, but I also like to think that it's not just responsibility, but young just wanting to go to unknown places to see wonders of the universe.

[dogboner]

i spent so much of my life loving quietly and i'm done with it. i have nothing to be ashamed of and nothing to hide. i talk loudly and proudly of my partners, their transness, our queerness. i spent so much of my life being told by family, by the church, by my peers, that i needed to do it quietly if i wanted to love the people i love. no more.