#..idk if thats a tag ppl use but yknow

[casey-complains]

thomas sanders stop using intrusive thoughts to mean "any slightly weird or suggestive thought that crosses your mind" challenge

(quick tw - discussion of intrusive thoughts, incest, trauma, implied sa amd violence under the cut)

dealing with intrusive thoughts was a genuine comfort video to 12 year old me, because thats around the age my intrusive thoughts developed from "what if you kissed that guy you barely know" to "you want to fuck your cousin*". hearing someone say i wasnt some horrible person for having these thoughts was really positive for my mental health!

(*fyi, textbook definition of intrusive thoughts is "An intrusive thought is an unwelcome, involuntary thought, image, or unpleasant idea that may become an obsession, is upsetting or distressing, and can feel difficult to manage or eliminate." dont twist my words into being pro incest or whatever. my intrusive thoughts mostly stem from my trauma - put the dots together.)

but now thomas, as well as half of the internet, portray intrusive thoughts as something silly and nonserious. the whole reason i put that footnote in about what an intrusive thought truly means is because the term has been watered down so much, walking up to someone saying "i get intrusive thoughts about murder and having sex with my family members" would get me so many weird looks and judgement.

having a sexual thought about something like the pixar logo isnt an intrusive thought. if anything, its hormones - theres nothing wrong with being horny thomas! you should know that by now, with all the sexual content youve been posting to your mostly child audience without any warning you wont be so pg anymore!

im just,,, sick of this man.

[pilotstreets]

this is not meant to be mean spirited but im like. always a little annoyed whenever i open the tøp tag and have to scroll through eighty posts that are all different variations of "cant stand twenty one pilots anymore but my middle school playlist hits hard" or something where it HAS TO BE SAID how this person DOESN'T CURRENTLY LIKE THEM as if that makes them a better person on tumblr or smthin. like.... you just walked into my house while i had friends over to tell us you can't stand this thing we love very much and then left. what.

[dullahandyke]

Not otherkin but I believe in their beliefs almost solely bcos describing tender actions as 'human' ticks me off. 'The act of impulsive communal creation is so human' ywah well I bet some lizards could do that. And pretty well too

[scourgefrontiers]

its rly rough still kind of lowkey being interested in media that u used to be into but stopped engaging with when u realized it wasnt like Good Media to be interested in

str8 up im talking abt hetalia and dmmd for me. i miss the characters and designs and stories and fan content i used to engage with. i view them with a different perspective now and that perspective knows that theres very problematic and shitty parts of the media that shouldnt be like..excused. yknow?

at the same time i do tend to defend ppl's right to be into problematic media as long as theyre critical of it and recognize why the problematic parts are bad and dont excuse/praise/support them. maybe i should extend that to myself tbh. i always feel like im a nasty person for still thinking of stuff like that but maybe i need to give myself more credit. im in a much better headspace to indulge in shitty media than i used to be lol

i still dont feel super comfortable posting abt it on main yet but hey thats what sideblogs are for i guess

[dukeofthomas]

Loved ur musings on btas (along with other stuff !) btas Tim to me is just some abomination of Jason with some tim ?? Characteristics that they've put that industry implant's name on.

Which was sort of basically confirmed so you'd probably love watching those eps too ! Just ignore when he's called tim ! That is not him LMAO

his design seems so good,,, i'll do my best to mentally replace 'tim' with 'jason' lol

[vomiting-rainbows]

MY LIVE REACTION OF READING HS OMG😱😱(currently in act 6)

yep yep not gonna explain a lot to this just a LIVE REACTION of me reading hs just wanted to start sharing my experience reading this comic gonna start using the tag #m live reaction when i do this so yeahg lets go (click on the read more)

alright shes just awaked in prospit she was just about to pick the mail but a explosion just occurred she cant remember what exactly happened idk if shes okay or shes dead in the real world because yknow ppl when die them awake in derse or prospit

oh no

OH HELL NO

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

well what a nice come back of mine to continuing reading this very nice

SERIOUSLY EHEN THIS MOTHERFUCKER WILL DIE HUH IM SO TIRED TO SEE HIS ASS , ITS BETTER HES DIE IN HORRIBLE WAY BECAUSE OMGGG THIS GUY ITS WORSE

THE OTHER GUY OF JACK TEAM IS NOW KILLING JAKE W PEANUTS (hes severely alergic) OH FUCK YOU

oh well shes okay this godcat saved her in the last second when the explosion happened yayyy

hmmmm i wonder whats wrong w this picture

yeah her dad was not very happy when the explosion happened he immediately told her to go to her room right now, BUT LOOK HER BESTIE IS CALLING HER.

END OF THE LIVE‼️

thats where i stopped but dw i will continue showing yall more THE FUCKING TUMBLR WOULDN'T LET ME PUT MORE IMAGES SO I ENDED UP SHORTING THIS A LOT, bye bye i prommy i will show yall more and come back w this so yeah bye bye

[uglycowplant]

sims tag

tagged by: stole from the dash lol

1. What’s your favourite sims death? cowplant for sure! i also love the vending machine one lol

2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? maxis mix! i use only maxis match hairs but i sort of mix alpha clothes,,, but not like suuuuper alpha clothes??? yknow,,, lol

3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? no. why would i

4. Do you use move objects? all the fucking time. i cant not use it

5. Favorite mod? i love custom recipes! and also mccc, ui cheats, and more cas columns. cant play without em. i also used to play with some slice of life and wonderful whims features, but stopped after the infant update... idk if ill get back to them anytime soon tho

6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? i got city living, vampires, and cool kitchen at the same time! i actually wanted outdoor retreat but i was 12 and mt dad bought them for me and somehow i mixed the links lmao (we used the sims website to buy them)... i still to this day dont own outdoor retreat and idk if ill get it anytime soon

7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? like living!

8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? probably bree wisteria. i think a lot about how i didn't end up using them as the heir...

9. Have you made a simself? yes! i have a whole post of dressing my and my friends simselves in different universes!

10. What sim traits do you give yourself? bookworm, clumsy, and socially awkward. i dont own highschool years so i actually used loner instead tho

11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? the new browns!

12. Favorite EA hair? i love the cottage living ones! except agnes' one. it has a weird texture

13. Favorite life stage? children! idk why, i just like playing with them and decorating their rooms

14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? definitely a player. i actually am renovating the entire game rn for when im done with my current legacy so ill have a cool looking save to play not so berry in, and im enjoying building a lot more than i anticipated!

15. Are you a CC creator? not at all. i cant even make recolors

16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? nope. but id love to get to know ppl on here more!!

17. What’s your favorite game? (1, 2, 3, or 4) only ever played the sims 4 (and a little of my cousin's sims 3 when i was 7 but i dont remember much) so i cant really say lol

18. Do you have any sims merch? nope. i do want a cowplant sculpture tho. something resembling a funko pop. if they'd ever make a collab with funko id get them!!

19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? nope. i do watch a lot of sims youtubers tho

20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? i used to make sims from shows and play as them with aging off (i actually have an entire arrowverse save that im considering making into a full on dc save). now im more of a legacy player, especially with challenges and stuff

21. What’s your Origin ID? romychet. follow me! i upload all the renovations im making lol

22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? i dont have a fav atm but it used to be @miikocc and @casteru for a loooong time!

23. How long have you had a simblr? like a year and a half maybe? idk

24. How do you edit your pictures? literally just add a psd as a filter and thats it lol

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? honestly all we got lately (book nook kit, green house kit, growing together) are all what i really wanted... i dont own any of them yet (i do however have the greenhouse kit as cc) so i don't have anything im that interested in! maybe a more in depth elder pack? tho i barley play with them atm

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? cottage living! it's soooo cozy and cute and i love it for my family gameplay! and speaking of family gameplay, i think that once ill buy growing together itll become my fav! i also looooove parenthood!

[lostintra]

name : Xamri

pronouns : they/them

preference of communication : tumblr ims atm, might add discord idk yet.

most active muse: koa, the men i have in replies are pretty active rn in general but his muse has been strongest hc wise too.

experience / how many years: too many. rping off and on since i was 13/14 but didn't end up on tumblr side of rp till i was like 18 and its been quite awhile since then.

best experience : 2015-2017ish, had a good group of partners that also interacted a lot ooc and did indie groups together and watched movies together on rabb.it and stuff. good times.

rp pet peeves : think we can all agree on godmodding without any kind of prior communication, rushing replies, passive aggression ooc

fluff, angst, or smut : i like them all but i feel like i tend to fall in to writing angsty by default but these days seems to lean smutty lately. could probably use more fluff.

plots or memes : plots. i think i tend to take more inspo from plots than memes. but i lowkey suck at plotting when there isn't a basis of chemistry naturally starting between muses or ooc between muns. i think i get better at plotting the more comfortable i am with someone and like i know you're interested yknow. (hence why i also typically dont reach out first cause im a chronic overthinker and feel like i might be bothering you otherwise.)

long or short replies : short is great but i tend to ramble a fuck ton anyway like my answers here. i dont expect ppl to match length tho.

time to write : whenever i can lol usually more active at night.

are you like your muses: not really so far, but they're all pretty new so we shall see. a few are neurodiverse and so am i, thats bout it rn lol.

tagged by: @somethingscft

tagging: i think some of the ppl i would've tagged already were by others so anybody who sees this and wants to give it a shot lol

[addoration]

fanfic writer 20 questions

i wasn't tagged but @zebsfloppyears invited anyone who wanted to do this to do so, n i was bored. hope u dont mind vienna!

1. how many works do you have on ao3? 79. i have 79 works. and im working on a long fic rn so i probably wont be uploaded another fic for a while to make that number rounded. its bothering me. 2. whats your total ao3 word count? 232,222 3. how many fandoms have you written for and what are they? 7 fandoms! most.. prolifically? if i may use that word.... for loz breath of the wild, and his dark materials. 4. what are your top five fics by kudos? 1. finding words enough - i legit dont remeber much of this but basically link is mute and revali speaks on his behalf. ppl seem to love it. rated G. 2. making cocoa for spencer reid - just a lil criminal minds family piece between rossi and reid, idk. bit of a character study! rated T. 3. magic might stain the air - my first merlin fic i posted (out of 2. lmao) but i really hate this one becaue i rushed it and i could have done so much better!!!!! rated M, beware tags. 4. snow on snow, snow on snow - i rllyy dont remember this one at all. lmao. link/revali pre-slash, rated G. 5. whenever we feel - we evaporate - i think? this was my first fic on ao3! and it's the first part of a lil aziraphale/crowley series that became dearly beloved to me but i never really got back to. rated T.

5. do you respond to comments? why or why not? i do now!! i didn't used to because i had an ocd thing about seeing the number go up when half of them were my responses, but thats an obsession that has since left me. i want to apologise to everyone who commented n didnt get a reply sdfghjsf i feel so awkward n i cant respond to comments made years ago now lmao. now i love responding to comments, its such a joy to communicate with my readers and thank them for their kind words!!!!

6. whats the fic you've written with the angstiest ending? i dont write angsty endings; the fics can get as angsty as possible but they must always end happily. sorry :/

7. do you write crossovers? no, i don't. they're not for me!

8. have you ever recieved hate on a fic? not hate exactly.... but i do recall one comment telling me they thought i had rushed the work and it was a bit sloppy (not in so many words tho). i totally agreed with the commenter but i was a bit :/ at reading that yknow

9. do you write smut? if so, what kind? i have been known to write smut occasionally, though i dont think i have a "kind" or a "brand".

10. have you ever had a fic stolen? not that i know of, but (as vienna said in their answer), it's not something that i think about or check for!

11. have you ever had a fic translated? nope! i welcome it though.

12. have you ever co-written a fic before? nope! in theory i would be open to it however i am probably very difficult to work with lmao

13. whats your all time favourite ship? such a hard question because it rlly depends what fandom im currently in, but. baruch/balthamos live rent free in my head. as do aziraphale/crowley, espeically my specific brand of them which is queerplatonic <3

14. what's a wip you want to finish but dont think you ever will? lmao if you had asked me a week ago, i would have said my current longfic, when you catch him, he burns through your heart, like a shooting star burns the skies but im actively up and working on that again, so. i guess something i dont imagine i'll return to any time soon is my series of harth/link fics, you hold my touch in you, simply because it's been a while now, and i dont imagine that such a minor npc as harth will be in botw's sequel, so... how will i rekindle my desire to write for them. idk! it's all up in the air though - i haven't necessarily abandoned any of my unfinished fics, theyre just on indefinite haitus.

15. what are your writing strengths? i would like to think that my poet's voice shines through my prose and therefore that my description is sufficiently good! lmao i have to sometimes physically stop myself from writing 5 paragraphs waxing poetic about the scenery. also honourary mention to dialogue. im pretty proud of some of the lines of dialogue ive written.

16. what are your writing weaknesses? hhghgh action. handling a big plot sensitively. ive been really struggling with making sure ive got hold of all my threads in my long fic. i dont think ive let go of any yet but im constantly paranoid that ive dropped one lmao. also i find action so hard!! the pacing of it, the choice of words, the making sure the reader doesnt get bored by not over or under describing whats happening! hhg.

17. what are your thoughts on writing dialogue in another language? if this means in the sense that a character is speaking a different language in the fic, then. i've seen it done a few ways. personally i ofc want to understand whats being said, so i like it best when the line is written in english but perhaps put in italics, with a tag saying smth like "they said in french/whatever langauge". ive also seen it done as typed in the langauge followed by the english translation in italics. either way works, i just don't rlly like it when it's completely untranslated!! even having like a lil dictionary in the end notes works.

18. what was the first fandom you ever wrote for? good omens lmao. i wrote fic before that but im not going into that, and i dont even think i could find it again bc it's lost in the depths of ff.net. i was also 13/14. so yeah :/

19. what's your favourite fic you've ever written? ppl dont really like this fic bc it's gen/not shippy and possibly also bc it was inspired by music, but. i have a real soft spot for my fic rose quartz and cool safflina. (botw, T) i wrote it while listening to la dispute's album panorama, and i think having the music helped me write with such a good flow. it's a very poetic piece, though. not for everyone. i also rlly like the great frost of 1684 (good omens, Gen) though neither of them are anywhere near my popular works' stats.

20. who do you tag? low pressure tagging @snidgetwidgeon, @itcantbe, @cyraclove, @unmaskedcardinal and everyone else who fancies it!!

[scarletanpan]

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Kind of funny to have the misfortune of going on tt for the first time in months like checking on my abandoned lab experiment only to run into. All types of wild stuff yknow and then the blk girlfriend effect v out of context and being like oh. thats.. then scrolling through the tag to so many vids but. Also dangelo mentioned it in a vid the same day funnytiming but like. Ik tiktok isnt the app for me thats why i dont engage bc im a huge spoilsport ik its j some couples trying to be cute and like if they liked it whatever but. Damn lil wild how Many ppl made videos like this its. Rlly true to that much of an extent?? Part of me cant help but feel vague concern I can't help it but also lets be real there is. On some level the expectation for most blk women to idk. Do whatever they can for their partner to the point of self sacrifice, while also maintaining an image of bettering themselves thats prob the story of most of the women in my family like. Not to be that person my sis lowkey fixed her bfs whole life for 7+ yrs while getting a degree and he j said she couldn't make it w/o him. I've seen the emotional and physical turmoil it takes on so many blk women esp on top of pushing urself to be successful its just.. cute trend in isolation ig.

But nothings rlly isolated still cant like it. Bc whyy are we Creating a joke expectation for blk women to help their partner glow up like. So we're saying if u date a blk woman u should expect her to start fixing everything abt the way u dress and talk and act or?? Ik the trends j dress style rlly but still alarmed by how many videos there were I couldnt find the end . Idk if theres something I'm missing like. W hy does this happen sm? And look part of it could be coincidence bc most vids don't say how long its been or when those pics were from could've been 2020 idk but. Just not a fan of what it implies anyway. It happened in may i think no one cares ik but absolutely wild. Also ig it being talked abt in a v recent video might bring it up but like why?

I didn't have time to check all the tt comments while looking through how many existed under the tag but. Tiktokt truly breeds some weird ass trends like the number of couples hopping on that I. Would personally feel so weird abt that also not my exp whoops tried my best rlly but some blk women have issues and suck and I j hope ppl dont start acting weird abt us also suffering from flaws and not feeling the active need to make their s/o more attractive or something Im here for the fucking ride im sorry. I wont be giving constructive criticism actually I will be rooting for everything my partner chooses to do tho

[crumble-system]

☣️ Nyx -im adding the previous tags but now we're home we can like do another reply that has more like brains

This was really sweet whoever sent this, especially for like things that have been going on that like nobody else knows but like this system.

note we're gonna ramble a shit ton so under the cut <3

🧯Conner - We always love asks like these, especially when we don't expect them. But this did cheer us up a good bit.

Especially because we've been bed rotting just a bit because the consequences of not having meds nor therapy rn while having gone through THE horrors of this and last year of having alot of our Hugest trauma of our adolescence just becoming raw again. [this is also why mockingjay, philly & blaze 2 EXIST]

which has led us to just remember alot of the struggles that led us here.

also the many fucking jumpscares (though like all of them went positively and the people who did accidentally jumpscare us have been the best of sports & have VASTLY outweighed the negative of the original terror from being spooked)

🎱Ribs - YEAH I've definely like been told actively by alot of people of how much we like bring light & warmth to our friends and acquaintances. which has helped alot at Not being as like unstable as we would've been elsewise with all the curveballs and twists.

ALSO getting back in contact with people we were worried abt contacting & missed, helped a fuck ton because they'll all been fuckin supportive as hell.

plus telling the one (aka the dude who came into our notes like "idk if u hate me but i miss you and worried abt you" while I WAS literally venting abt missing them & being worried abt them was funny ngl) that like, WOOPS I'm here bcs of you & them being supportive as they can but still learning as a singlet helped <33.

UHHH also like getting SUPER GENUINE love from the people who we were missing and got into contact into with helped A TON. also telling them all parts of the Why Man saga helped & getting like support for what the fuck that lil shit put us thru.

adding that said person whose why I fromed also like helped during what blaze is GONNA probs talk abt

🔥Blaze - ILY BABE (ribs)

OKAY so the person who caused ribs to form, unknowningly has kind of helped me a ton to be able to help the person who got ME to form.

Which like it felt so fucking GOOD being able to do what I did recently to help said person whose why I'm here. I FUCKING improved. I GREW and I CHANGED for THE BETTER.

it's like been so funny seeing like within like a year go from one of the most DISTRUSTED to be in front due to being much more of a Perseuctor/Perpetrator combo AND JUST. Very much ACTING out because nobody in this fuckin system was listening BCS our communication was SHIT.

TO being like one of the most trusted & seen as one of the better protectors & alters to deal with stressful convos and shit to de-escalate things when the going gets ROUGH.

THE PERSON who caused me to form I don't think they REALIZE fully yet that when I said "Yeah, I was actually there for that." I LITERALLY MEANT. I FORMED THERE. AND WE WERE THERE. AND THATS WHY. THAT MEME WAS SO TERRIFYING.

BUT YKNOW HOW IT GOES, I WAS KING. DID GET JUMPSCARED BY THE DUDE CONNER ALMOST WENT TO WHEN RIBS FORMED & WHEN I FORMED NOT TOO LONG AFTER NOT TOO LONG AFTER.

also got jumpscared by THE DUDE who let us into the server where I formed, like a week later... IT WAS just to say "there's a scammer in general" but now i get cursed to see that he's fucking playing roblox now. BCS discord thinks its funny.

so like I have been RIDING the high of helping the person who caused me to form and MAKING SAID PERSON LAUGH. BCS said PERSON deserves to HAVE A GOOD DAY.

☢️ Prodigy/(Doxie) - I AM only in front for a moment to reply to this as for understandable reasons the others dont want me in front rn, and i dont wanna be either

THO I love my friends who knew me when I was still bumbling around as a newbie & the ppl ive met after coming back in EARLY 2024.

we need therapy & meds, and i need to work on myself way more b4 I can be in front for extended periods of time and not at all rn.

��Pablo - IM also only in front to write my piece & then peace out because ya im working on my issues too.

the message was kind and love it! ty, me & prod are going back to work on ourselves.

(we are also still working on an apology, just NOT a good time for us to attempt that)

🍋 Gayle - Yeah we've kept moving forward despite everything that's happened in the past, or how much THIS year keeps testing our strength.

like oh my god, ribs, conner and blaze u mfers are so fucking strong. i COULD not do the shit those three have been doing.

i just kind of applaud those three for being brave because they want to protect their found family of friends. AND also being strong enough to talk thru issues and shit with others.

also thank them for helping me with all the FONT bullshit <3

🎃Skull - also thanking them for help w the FONT bullshit, and also ty blaze for not teasing me abt my source once u realized that I had a legit issue with it. and also making that whole party for everyone who looks like one of our abusers, that cheered me up a ton.

🍬Candy - yeah yeah thank you blaze for helping skull be more confident, and also for sitting with me when my other thing I am the holder of gets bad when skull isn't able to. & also like helping for when you blaze, ribs or conner notice when I'm starting that ..down that road..

also ty for the multiple white & blue/blue&white hater party in headspace ribs and blaze. that shit has been fun to work through all that shit.

🌟Philly - YEAH they (as in more the others, the G6 [2015-2019] gang specifically aka Conner, Ribs, Gayle, Prod, Blaze and Nyx) really were really touched by this.

I know they've been going thru a helluva time, it's kind of why I exist. beacuse of the whole, the person who caused ribs to form & the person who caused blaze to form literally jumpscared those guys by posting ACCIDENTAL jumpscares that were close enough TO said EVENTS that they both got worried.

which led to blaze 2 and me splitting off and yknow being here to curse y'all.

UHHH IDK what I have to say abt this because like.. I am sort of apathetic, and just NOT emotional. think like coping shit + like latching onto my source being specifically Philly in (CRAB MAN SERVER). which kind of got their emotions removed.

🧲Blaze 2 - <333 iDK WHAT 2 SAY MYSELF.

the others DID really well. BUT we have been celebrating our acomplishments, THO more like privately. because god i cannot tell any of yall how fucking much the others and generally the system want to be LOUD and PROUD for how far they've come

Along with HOW much they just wanna say HOW MUCH they love the ppl they consider friends OUTLOUD AND PUBLIC, THEYRE just very much dealing with RSD and BPD BEING BITCHES.

SO they've been subdueing themselves even more, even if they wanna do it. ALSO bcs they wanna respect ppls boundaries, it's why they're NOT saying CERTAIN NAMES. OF PPL THEY LOVE.

ribs though blaze classic is done making fun of your whole CLOWN ACT abt seeming like you hated ppl but in reality you genuinely missed them though weren't letting yourself say that bcs you did not want to seem weak and were dealing with paranoid of others trying to hurt them just to get to us.

im not, im saying it outloud MF. you don't get to just tell sweetfinlet abt it. GET EXPOSED FOR ALSO BEING A LOVER.

🐦Mockingjay - THEY'VE BEEN CELEBRATING A TON OF THEIR VICTORIES.

👑Waldemar- HELL YEAH handshake, im joining you im exposing blaze proper.

clarity abt the vents is that alot of reprocessing of old events had to happen because the censored person triggered alot of alters heavily enough that they regressed & Lost access to the Full truth of the past

Very much they had to process things in a way very similar the Psychonauts 2 Level, "Psi King's Sensorium"

With the whole Confirmation Bias, Law of association, Confabulations, and just the memories were twisted.

This person also Accidentally began to use alot of tactics that older abusers & toxic ex-friends would use on us in the past, as they were Way more dependent on us than we were on them and in a misguided effort for connection they attempted to make us more dependent on them.

(or at least we hope it was accidental, that's what we want to believe. despite it all.)

Also the censored name is not crab man bluzombie nor why man willie. It's censored as despite it all we don't want ppl to find nor attack that ex-friend, they're Not worth the effort.

THERE'S A BUNCH OF WIP POETRY THEY'VE BEEN DOING SINCE 2023 and HAVE working ON pUTING IN A VIDEO. TO SHOW THEY LOVE THEIR FRIENDS

ITS SAPPY AS SHIT. IDC IF THEY CALL ME HOMOPHONIC.

🎆Flare - (I WAS BLAZE 2 BEFORE THE OTHER ONE, BUT NO BLAZE LETS HIM BE BLAZE 2 BUT I HAVE TO BE FLARE IM STILL PISSED)

I'm stealing this from MJ but...

I LOVE THEM, BUT THEY'RE A MESS. THIS SYSTEM IS KIND OF MY FOUND FAMILY OF IDIOTS.

THEY'rE CRYING OVER ONE OF THE POETRY THEY ALL WROTE FOR THAT. THIS IS A NEWER ONE.

"As I always wanted as a kid, to hang with people ; friends to just

Talk together for hours, or just exist silent as we both do our own things

Go on adventures with

Dispell eachothers worries with

Be not just seen, but also accepted whole heartedly

...

And I've found those people

Even for some it took some time to realize they were still there"

🌤️Mr A - Everything eventually will be okay, and that's what keeps us going. Also spite. Alot of spite.

Love keeps us going more though, we are filled with love always.

🧃Sour - I AM still GETTING uzed 2 being here again, ESP with the huge party we GOT now. BUt yea this is sweeettt. felt like i should say somethin

🍐Wasabi - YEAH this is NICE. I like the ENERGY we've been getting, this is why I keep refusing to leave front BUT im too shy to talk to the nice ppl we've been around. </3. im still halted by these haunting memories but im getting stronger, I will be as annoying if not MORE annoying than the others. u hear me

🍾Sparkling - I don't front as much these days as I'm helping with headspace matters but <3 this was nice.

🌝Allie - I just wanted to :3333, i have nothing to actually add. I'm just a special uwu. i need attention.

🕹️First- idk im dancing. ik we need to do owed art but that's a tomorrow thing, we're still having a moment. they'll understand.

🌼Just a gentle reminder that you bring a special kind of light and warmth to the world that often goes unnoticed by you, but it is so incredibly meaningful. Despite everything you've faced, you keep moving forward, and that’s something to be really proud of. Celebrate accomplishments, big and small. Your existence matters. You matter. The world is absolutely a better place with you in it, there is no argument there. Keep believing in yourself and growing, because you make a difference just by being you. Everything will eventually be okay and you are worthy of proving that true. 🌼🌼Just a gentle reminder that you bring a special kind of light and warmth to the world that often goes unnoticed by you, but it is so incredibly meaningful. Despite everything you've faced, you keep moving forward, and that’s something to be really proud of. Celebrate accomplishments, big and small. Your existence matters. You matter. The world is absolutely a better place with you in it, there is no argument there. Keep believing in yourself and growing, because you make a difference just by being you. Everything will eventually be okay and you are worthy of proving that true. 🌼

OUR REACTIONS TO THIS,

Never know how 2 react when ppl actually say love affirmations to us wholeheartedly but ty ty

ESP LIKE when we're in these depressive isolation episodes that we get in

Though we're getting better at dealing with em

[criticaaaaaaaal]

[capricores]

please learn to love your natal chart and read more about the developed and empowering qualities of your placements!! i spent so much time hating my chart and feeling like it was so messy + caused this inherent doom but now i love my chart and recognize all its power and beauty and it's weirdly helped me to develop those good traits even more, and encouraged me to use those hidden and/or innate talents as ways to solve the "problematic/difficult" areas of my chart!!

also learning to love the inherent traits from your placements and viewing them in a positive light (or as an area you can work on), instead of some bad trait you’re stuck with forever - is the best thing you can do

[apple-os]

okay some of the tags got cut off because i was going on too much but long story short i wanted ppl to talk about themselves and the way i do that is by talking about myself because i also expect that to just be the norm

and i am not going to change that for people who didnt even care to properly get to know who i am outside of joking and vidya gamez

communication is important and if u hide things from someone and expect them to know theyve hurt people despite everyone pretending everythings fine then thats on you

short story long tho ,,

ive said it here im autistic i cant always tell the vibe in places im unfamiliar with. got strong vibes of "i hate but like u" friendships in this one server. turned out to not be showing good enough vibes and fitting in well enough. because i was masking a little too heavily and not thinking about what i was saying before i said it

thought things were fine and dandy because im largely oblivious to a lot of things unless people tell me. i just figured folkz were fine with me talking about things i enjoyed or loved and myself because thats what most people tended to do when they wanted to be friends as...far as i knew

but here we are and ive been called pretentious for talking too much about myself and my girlfriend despite never having expressed that i wanted everything to be about me, quite the opposite in fact

my girlfriend whom ive been in love with for about a year now and only just became an item with so you can imagine why i talked about her a lot after everything thats happened between us

i never said nobody else could talk about themselves!! i got a little offended over a dumb joke once mainly because ive heard it so many times!! i talked about my country and its history and some culture and apparently people didnt like that either!! i made some kind of stupid jokes i wouldnt usually make in any other situation, like oh yes im a misogynist and oh yes i am definitely a transphobe when i am trans, and i have a girlfriend who i love very much!! said girlfriend is upset shes been spoken for, might i add

no i do not hate women! by god, NO, I AM NOT S/PERSTR/IGHT. im just a dumb obnoxious dude who is loud and talkative and tries to be approachable and occasionally fit in when they can

i can imagine this is more of a miscommunication than malice on some people's part, but i also am very mad that i wasn't even heard out before being called pretentious and being told i talk too much about somebody i love not to mention one of my friends was sidelined when trying to reason with the person who lashed out at me

i like talking about my gf,, so what? you know u can talk about your partner too yknow id love to hear it or i wouldve if not for the fact that u shut me down when i dont even know u and i thought we were bantering because u called ur friends and urself sigma for making sex jokes around minors as a minor urself but i also yknow wanted to express that i didnt like that in some way, which is one of the only issues i had with all of u up until this point i thought it would be funny and silly to say i didnt care if u folks were sigma. which sounds really silly put like that but anyway, i didnt express it was a joke well enough apparently and that led to the outburst

in some ways i can understand why the anger was there, but i cant understand why it was left to simmer for so long, nor can i really understand the need to trashtalk me behind my back [which im fairly certain was happening the way 2 ppl described me in the same ways and other reasons]

wont pretend im not at fault in some capacity. i shouldve used my head [and tonetags] when talking to others. but um. the communication error was the main problem and was largely not my fault so ,, idk what to say on that other than maybe set boundaries when you make friends next time ? anyway yeah thats all rant over

ppl who like making friends solely with one-note cardboard boxes who will hang out with them when it's convenient and never open up about who they are as people and what their lives are like dni

[enderspawn]

Quick question, I been in the fandom for a long ass time (since the first sadist animatic since I was a fan of sadist since their Batim days) so I think I good grasp on all of the folk in the smp but uh.... I kinda realised that I have no clue why c!Niki hates c! Wilbur and even more so, why does everyone thinks she's a girlboss for it??? Did I miss an entire plotline orrrr?

(sent this to a couple of other folk, hope you don't mind)

admittedly, im not the best well versed in it either (i'd recc going to mia geoguessbur, whos tbh the expert on c!wilbur and c!niki imo) but the short of it is: he realized the anger she had previously associated with tommy (because he "ruined everything", also see her attempted murder) was wrongly placed. he didn't do anything! ....and then she shifted the blame and that anger to wilbur instead of her like... dealing with her emotions. oops!

as for the girlboss thing... i think depending from person to person WHY they do it varies.

part of it is a willful ignorance of c!niki's character and her arc and instead working to fit her to a trope, i'm sure of it. likewise (though a bit cynical), i feel like a lot of people dont follow the female characters/ccs but dont want to LOOK like they dont so they... kind of fake it til they make it kind of thing? using the girlboss method is a great and easy way to show support for a character without having to actually care nor show any amount of depth in investment in who that character actually IS or going through. Again, thats a cynical view though and absolutely not the only reason ppl "girlboss-ify" characters.

some of it is encouraging bad decisions in the same way ppl chanted for wilbur to blow up lmanberg-- yeah its not healthy, but its fun and dramatic so im gonna be positive about it! go off!

some of it also (at least for me so im counting it) is like.... its more complex than you can get into comfortably (or at least casually). theres nuance and morals and what they're doing isn't right but its not a simple choice either. so you just... say girlboss instead and move on? again its also tied to the second point where you're encouraging bad actions, but with this point as compared the other like... intent that it IS deeper than that, its more tragic. you're glossing over it for the sake of levity, if that makes sense? Its a tragedy and you like it. (admittedly tho, i've used this type of "girlbossing" the most with like... c!quackity and the prison arc bc i was too tired to debate morals FJDSKLFJ)

its important tho to keep in mind the difference in how ppl treat male vs female characters with the "girlboss-ification" no matter what though. are you treating all female characters the same and glossing over their depth or erasing their character to fit a typical "strong girl" or "boss girl" archetype? also ties back to the first point, is your support superficial to make yourself look good?

theres definitely a trend in fandom i think to ignore the depth with female characters and their actions/motives while digging in deep to the male characters. men are allowed to be a tragedy while women are ''empowered'' by their tragedy. as an example off top my head: the eggpire. ive seen multiple points talking about the underlying tragedy of members like bad or ant and how they got to that point, but most ive seen about hannah are just... "yeah shes evil now #girlboss".

this isnt to say that you SHOULDNT acknowledge the depth of those male characters, nor to try and like.. single out eggpire fans, its just the clearest example i can think of. multiple characters going thru the same/similar scenarios, but the reception to them is different

despite all the of above, i dont think "girlboss-ifying" a character is inherently a bad thing. At least when used responsibly, like the second or third option presented. it IS a fun shorthand for "thing character is being active and doing things i like", often with a unsaid message of "this character is doing BAD things that i like". i dont think it should be tossed aside or never used, just used mindfully. again: why are you treating this character like this? how much do you actually know about the situation? etc.

[possum-tooth]

he calls the mansion not a house but a tomb, he's always choking from the stench and the fume. the wedding party all collapsed in the room, so send my resignation to the bride and the groom

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