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soooā¦ tell me more about that heiping smut. that sounds relevant to my interests for some reason. (yes, yes i just want to hear more about it bc i love it a lot. SO WHAT. DON'T JUDGE ME.)
(what if i put this one on anon! WHAT IF.)
Why, I can't imagine why a WiP titled "Laire fic heiping smut outtake" would be relevant to your interests! š (And I have a feeling I would have known this one was you, too. CALL IT A HUNCH. XD)
[The WiP Title List, if anyone else would like to ask about one. ^_^]
ANYWAY, about a year ago, @laireshi wrote this AMAZING Heiping fic, Exploration, that had this line in the second paragraph:
It wasnāt as if he was actually expecting an answer, between Yabaās inability to speak more than one sentence a weekāand Xiazi was rather sure Yaba had used up all his words for the month begging in bed last night, and yes, he was very proud of himself for that oneāand this having to do with the Zhang familyās Super Secret Stuff.
And that bit between the em-dashes caught me by the fucking THROAT and wouldn't let go. So I asked Laire if she would mind if I took a stab at writing that night before when Xiaoge used up his month's worth of words begging in bed, and her response was basically "YES PLEASE". ;D So I did. š
It's a bit under 3300 words now and I have maybe... one more scene to write plus some snuggling? I also have quite a bit more begging to get in for Xiaoge to fill that quota. XD So far most of his begging seems to be some variation of Hei Xiazi's name, but Xiazi doesn't seem to mind. ;D
But basically this has become an exercise of Hei Xiazi trying to figure out exactly how much soft pampering, how much teasing, and how many orgasms he can get away with giving Xiaoge before Xiaoge actually starts begging for real and not just screaming his name. šš So far we're at... three teases and two orgasms with Xiazi already planning round three?
It'll be a wonder Xiaoge can even WALK by the time the fic takes place. XD
(And yes, I just got distracted rereading the fic for the nth time while I was taking that tally. I really do need to finish this one and post it. MAYBE AFTER GRADING HELL WEEK IS DONE. AS A TREAT. š)
In the meantime... snippet behind the cut? Yeah. I think a snippet behind the cut. ^_^
Showers, Hei Xiazi had always thought, were a revelation.Ā They'd not been common place when he was born, but they'd been installed in the house as soon as they were available.Ā Xiazi had reveled in them then and continued to do so now.Ā The pounding of hot water on sore muscles, the buildup of steam opening pores and congested breathing, the speed with which the grime fell from his overworked bodyā¦ yeah.Ā Still a revelation.Ā But sometimes, just sometimes, there was no replacement for a nice long soak in a hot bath.
Especially with the right company.
Xiazi slid his fingers back into Yaba's hair, massaging his scalp as he lathered, then letting his hands drift lower to the tight column of Yaba's neck and shoulders.Ā Did those muscles ever relax?Ā Sometimes Xiazi wondered if Yaba even knew the meaning of the word.Ā Digging his thumbs deeply into the muscles at the base of Yaba's neck, he slowly dragged them upwards to the knobs at the base of his skull.Ā Steady pressure, deep strokes, coaxing those muscles to unwind, to let go of their knots, to ease the headache that surely must be forming from all that tension.
After barely a minute of those gentle ministrations, Xiazi was rewarded with a subtle, barely-there shiver and a long, low moan.Ā Moments later, Yaba's head fell back to rest against Xiazi's shoulder, his body quickly following, settling softly into the curve of Xiazi's body.Ā Exactly what he'd been waiting for.
Xiazi rinsed his hands in the bathwater, then filled the bowl he'd left aside for just this purpose.Ā Shielding Yaba's eyes with one hand, he lifted the bowl and slowly rinsed the shampoo lather from his hair.Ā Bowl by bowl, the lather washed away into the tub to mingle with the water, leaving Yaba's hair sleek and soft, his body growing heavier against Xiazi with every bowl full of water that sluiced over his skin.
It wasn't often that Yaba let himself be taken care of like this.Ā It was weeks, months, sometimes years, after their each reacquaintance before Yaba would let his guard down enough to let Xiazi do this for himābefore he could even begin to understand why Xiazi would want to.
After all, you maintained your tools, certainly, but you didn't buy them sweets.Ā You didn't hold them close while they slept.Ā You didn't coax and caress them until they agreed to let a day go by when they wouldn't be used.Ā You didn't show them affection.Ā And Yaba, Hei Xiazi had long since learned, viewed himself as nothing more than a tool, unless someone taught him otherwise.Ā And that was the worst thing of all.
But today, when Hei Xiazi had drawn a bath for himself, had teasingly invited Yaba to join him, Yaba had surprised him.Ā His expression had softened, those too long fingers drifting through Hei Xiazi's hair as their gazes metāone shielded and one guarded, though not so much as it had once been.Ā He'd left the bathroom, then, puttered around in the hotel room for a while, turning off lights as he moved.Ā He left only one lamp lit, softly reflected light the only illumination once he was done.Ā
"Admit it, you just want to get a gander at my gorgeous eyes, don't you?" Hei Xiazi had said, as Yaba returned and slipped the black glasses from his face.
Yaba had shaken his head, a smile so fond crossing his lips that Xiazi's breath caught in his chest like a lovesick teenager's.Ā Moments later, Yaba was peeling out of his clothes and slipping into the tub, and here they'd been ever since.
#wip title meme#eirenical writes things#snippet#dmbj#hei xiazi x zhang qiling#hei xiazi#zhang qiling#laireshi#other people's fic#fic recs#seriously guys#if you HAVEN'T read exploration i highly recommend it#along with all of laire's other heiping fic#and the rest of her dmbj fic#...ok just go read ALL of her fic#100/10 would recommend#ššš#nothing too steamy behind the cut; just heiping sharing a bath and some hair washing and gentle massages#and a TEENSY bit of angst... as a treat#;D
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A Batfam AU where instead of going to get Dick to be Robin again Tim uses necromancy to bring Jason back from the dead. He just leaves Jason on the Wayne doorstep with a 'do better this time' sticky note. Batman can't find out who did it and Tim stays his little latchkey self with semi ok but distant parents (cus canonical they weren't really abusive just not there which isn't good but they could be worse). His parents bring him along on trips but again they love him but they just leave him to do as he pleases. so in Paris he ends up still getting trained by Lady Shiva. This keeps going and Tim just keeps reviving batfam members, if they fake their deaths and Tim tracks them down to check on them. They still have no idea who their shadow is, they can't find him, Tim likes it this way. Bruce goes MIA and Red Robin happens just minus Tim actually being Red Robin. The JLA doorstep gets a passed-out Batman with a 'I can't believe I have to keep doing this shit' sticky note on his head.
#now you're probably going Batcaves i see those fics all the time? and my retort is those are babyified Tim Drake fics. he then gets adoped#the batfam and has a coffee addiction. i want a Tim Drake that treats the batfam like how wildlife rehab centers treat animals. they make#themselves knowable of the subject. they're striving to improve their quality of care. establish safe working habits. share skills. put car#of the subject over personal gain. be professional and humane. protect welfare of the subject. release the subject as soon as appropriate.#it's just his subject is batvigilantes not a racoon that was on the side of the road.#tim drake#batman#robin#dc comics#dc universe#detective comics#batman comics#batman and robin#batman au#and i think Jack and Janet being abusive is getting boring. have them be ok parents. they give tim a long leash but fail to see hes using i#for his own fun. they never told him he CANT learn necromancy and revive bat vigilantes how was HE supposed to know it's a bad thing??#maybe they should have looked at what he was doing while they were off. (like Phineus and Ferb. He asked if he could learn self-defense.#he learned from Lady Shiva not at the YMCA. He asked if he could read a book on necromancy! you didn't tell him he's not aloud to use what#he learned! he asked if he could go to the cemetery to see Jason! you didn't say he couldn't revive him! and so on)#Tim: mom can I learn self-defense while in Paris?#Janet: that's a good idea there are so many pickpockets here a little training would be nice for you. do you know a place?#Tim: Yes! her name is Sandra#Janet: cool. if you think she's the best choice. here some money.#Tim: Thanks Mom!#janet drake#jack drake#fanfic idea#fic idea#fanfic ideas#batfam
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I think someone should study the fact that all of the moral issues people have with coleen hoover are just the modern day version of "this erotic literature will corrupt our pure women!"
#she literally. she literally writes modern day bodice ripper romances. y'all grandmas#consumed that shit as if tomorrow wouldnt come#hell i myself think that her writing sucks but. im not gonna raise a rabble or go on a moral crusade with 'oh i am so worried for the young#girls who might read this and think abuse is ok!' which is just. so incredibly stupid#and is one of the instances where people will literally blame anything but the abuser themselves in a DV situation#(and like doesnt account on how girls can and do know how to differentiate fiction from reality#me reading smutty bully harry stiles fics at twelve with dubious consent didnt lead to my grooming#because i *knew* that an asshole beating you up at school and then saying no i love u now was wrong and abusers#are way more insidious than that#there are also people going 'oh but her being widespread is the reason why media literacy is so low' baby it doesnt work like that#the booktoker saying she cant read stories that are too complicated wouldntve been miracolously a good reader if coho didnt exist#she wouldve just read. harry potter or other YAs. media literacy and reading comprehension are tools that can be sharpened#but aren't really *gainable* yknow unless they are put into you really young thru school and we all know school doesnt do that#also comment i found funny was someone going 'teens who read coho will grow up saying that wuthering heights is a love story'#<-da hell is that thang. whuhei is 100% a love story all the players being assholes doesnt mean it isnt a romance
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every byler creator who has ever felt unappreciated or has never seen their work on a rec list or has stayed awake for hours working on something for it to get no interaction or has had their work passed up in favor of the big fandom favorites or has never been taken a chance on or has ever come last in a poll they didnāt ask to be on or has felt self conscious about posting or about calling themselves a creator if what theyāre posting is not a magnum opus or has created something for themselves and still hoped deep down that people would love it: get behind me. iāll protect u
#iām five foot three and terrified of confrontation but iāll go down swinging#andi would like me to add that she and i are standing on top of each other in a trench coat fighting for u all#thea is also wearing a trench coat but itās just her and tutter in there#u all better fear theaās fully developed frontal lobe and streamlined leadership experience (her words)#but seriously guys like#maybe iām taking fandom too seriously or whatever but i know how scary it can be to put urself out there#especially in fandom spaces where the whole point is u want to enjoy urself and be accepted and not be judged#iād be lying if i said that luck and timing wasnāt a huge part of why ppl enjoy my fics#and iām flattered that my name shows up in rec lists a lot but. there are so so so many talented writers that go unnoticed when ppl fixate#on the same 5-6 names#and i know bc iāve been them for other fandoms!#especially in this community there is such a big issue with putting big creators up on a pedestal#expecting them to be perfect and to keep churning out high quality stuff for free on demand#twt is something else too . like iām not even talking abt that rn#and people always saying stuff like#āatp i refuse to read fics unless theyāre by _ or _ or _ā#just know that even if u are not one of these names u are so so valued and appreciated#get behind me fr#ok Bye <3333333#š«#byler#/astro posts
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iām coming for another one of yall this mood board monday. this one is for you and me on the rock by @the-sun-and-the-sea
#now youāre just gonna have to hear me out on this#this fic had a lot of soft and romantic imagery but since im relying on the internet i picked a lot of pics based on vibes#for example for the first pic (top left corner) thereās obviously not an aesthetic for making wedding nets so i went w the wedding dance#so i could ref the convo they had about marriage#then the next pic is a ref to their lil dinner dateā¦ thereās no dinner (just flowers) cos i couldnāt fit it in all in the frame š#the next pic is also vibe based itās just to capture how silly they get#cos thereās a scene where finnick puts on a capitol accent and annie is like whatever! (in a silly way)#next pic is to 1) emulate the sunset vibes 2) a nod to them running AROUND when finnicks prep team goes to 4#ik this pic is obviously not that sorta frantic vibe at all but remember it was me and pinterest against the world#next pic is a reference to annie being comfty and cozy w finnick and being in his bed reading her books#next pic: sunset imagery + them cuddling. next pic: reference to annieās frizz. next pic: canon odesta wedding cos of the very last scene#next pic: ok i just think this one emulates odestaās vibe in this story and other stories by miss mdr#like the way theyāre wrapped around each other and looking at the ocean#next pic: all the sea glass jewelry options were UGLY so i just had to rely on beachy jewelry imagery to ref the lovers day scene. sorryy#next pic: annies stuff in finnicks room <3 like her books and mirror and stuff#ok iām done going ham in the tags but again i needed to explain myself since SO many of these were just based on a vibe of a vibe#mood board monday#odesta#annie cresta
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Oh man, I feel you on the Medstar books. And I, too, love to work them into my fics as often as possible. That and The Approaching Storm for good measure. It's also important that she was at Umbara.
Now that I finished the Medstar books later night, I just borrowed The Approaching Storm and plan on digging in to it!
I've been wanting to weave in the Umbaran Campaign into my story in some way beyond a simple mention, but I'm kind of stuck with no ideas on it rn unfortunately.
I wouldn't be surprised if they retcon it completely, but I also want to add her imprisonment on Felucia and subsequent rescue by Aayla shortly after her Knighting (since it's still considered to be canon in some way?). Of course the Legends story of it doesn't match with canon in any significant way so I would make major changes to it so it could fit into the timeline properly, but I feel like it could be a major turning point for her mentallyālike the final nail in the coffin (or close to it) leading up to the Temple plot.
I have a lot of ideas and I really want to start writing it out, but at the same time I'm overly worried about characterization and it's completely stopping any progress. I really want to talk through my ideas before I work on it, but I don't really know anyone to talk to here other than my friend (who I assume would be willing to listen but she doesn't really know Barriss beyond looking over my shoulder while I was crying over TOTE).
Idk it's just super important to me that I do it well bc I love her character so much and I want to do right by her especially when she is so misunderstood
#(now realize this would probably have been better to post on my sw blog but heyš¤·āāļø)#all my emotional investment for the past 2 months has been directly tied to writing this story like i'm going insane a little š#I've actively been avoiding reading anyone's non-au fics bc I don't want to accidentally take someone else's ideas#which is kind of killing me bc there are so many that I want to read already#but I'm choosing to wait until I've finished or at least outlined the majority of the story before reading anyone else's stories#the outline is already at 10k words and I'm so far from finished and stuck on so many aspectsš#I guess it also means a lot to me bc of what I have done so far and the deep dive I'm trying to do into her character and mentality..#has been helping me a lot with processing my own cptsd and depression#ok sorry for rambling this just has been consuming me for months with no outlet
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I rewatched the cat returns last week (I watched it once for the first time last year) and it's so funny that it became one of my absolute favorite ghibli movies for no reason
#the vibes are?? unmatched??#like all ghibli movies have this comfortable vibe but there's something so light about the cat returns#I really like Haru as a protagonist tbh there's something charming about how normal she is#like I feel like I could have made up that story playing with my cat plusies as a kid and that's very special to me#The cat bureau is such a silly concept#I haven't watched whisper of the heart either WHICH MEANS I have no context for Baron and he is delightful like that!! yeah go cat figurine#Haru going from ''I can't marry a cat!!'' to ''...Ok maybe just MAYBE the fancy cat tho'' was the funniest thing they could have done#I do not judge her#also the cat returns ao3 has so much going on?? like hello?? it was not that deep but the ground was soft and the writers were ready to DIG#like for the movie popularity I read a lot of really cool fics it was a nice surprise
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20 hours later and I still can't get over Kacy....
[Spoiler alert for those who haven't seen ncis hawaii 2x20]
Them...reenacting their first meeting...on their anniversary...just looking at each other w heart eyes and soft smiles...*look at a photo of them* *cry*
that scene! that episode!
kate leaning in whispering excitedly in a busy bar to lucy (strangely enough, it reminded me very vaguely of a scene from this fic i love) to keep going! and let me tell you i was not prepared for the zoom out showing just how close they really were and kate's hand on lucy's arm! and lucy's hand on top of it! like hello is this allowed
and can we for a second appreciate that while lucy made the first move, kate answered in kind telling her to come closer? i feel like we focus on lucy's game a lot (rightfully so bc girl's got moves), but as their banter, lucy's praise (almost always highlighting how smart and charming kate is), and this scene show: whistler's got mad rizz too LMAOOO
lucy saying in the beginning of the episode how she wanted to celebrate their awesomeness as a couple and how far they've come and then the episode ending with them at the bar they first met, reenacting their first conversation, where kate literally spells out the differences between that night and this reenactment (they're too intimate now to commit to the casual dance they were doing the first time and that makes me wanna scream), where we can see clearly just how far they've come with their body language, their easy, intimate conversation (Kate reassuring Lucy that it isn't silly and being all for it, s1 kate would never), them breaking character laughing at themselves, enjoying this moment with each other and the love that would eventually come out of it
all this plus everything we got in 2x19, kacy is so fucking back baby
#ncis hawaii#kacy#asks#everyone should go read that fic this is a promsie promotion post in disguise#im so sad that the seasons ending already! it feels like we just got lucy back#but these last two epispdes have really made up for her absence and made me feel something again LOL#the way they look at each other is insane#first of all lucys so brave for chatting up a hot woman in a non gay bar bc jesus christ#but also kate with the its hard to hear you you want to sit closer like ok bitch!!#and they were both so hot in that scene!
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happy one year to her and one of my better opening lines for a fic <3
now, because i'm curious:
#to hell and back again#i genuinely can't believe it's a year but i guess that's how time works huh :')#anyway umm gonna leave some retrospective thoughts in the tags:#1. i hold this fic near to my heart but also have a very complicated relationship with it now-#mostly bc i feel like my writing has improved so much and it's hard for me to reread parts of this lol#2. i honestly feel like it's a product of its time? like i think if i was publishing it now people wouldn't like it nearly as much#(especially with the opening line wHICH HAS A POINT AND COMES FULL CIRCLE AT THE END OK JUST TRUST ME)#3. on a sadder note this also means it's been a year since we had to put my family's eldest dog down#i remember i was gonna post this first chapter later when i had finished another fic up#but then our dog just like. straight up started dying on my mom's bedroom floor#and my mom was too distressed/upset to take her to the vet so i had to put her in my car and take her on my own#and then had to go to work right after that#so yeah i was upset and was like 'well dammit im gonna post this then bc it's silly and makes me laugh and i am sad'#so yeah!! some thoughts and behind the scenes info for anyone who's bothered to read this many tags#idk these things just feel like Tags thoughts not Post thoughts#anyway thanks for all the love this one has gotten!! i'm glad people are still enjoying it though *will voice* it's been a year mike#byler
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and btw im in my hater arc rn. as time goes on the more i find a lot of 'fandom' stuff insufferable (i like art n stuff. just the way that fandom refits every media to fit a single mold and set of boring archetypes is exhausting.)
i just get really easily annoyed lately. and have been unfollowing people on a whim a lot. its not personal i promise
#fandom culture has made me actively dislike shit i was fixated on a year ago. looking at your ninja turtles#its not even like what they were doing were particularly offensive it was just exhaustingly boring#im sorry i just really dont care about ur 2 million fics about leo being a sadboy. or one million seperated aus.#theres definetly a part of the whole situation in general which has been me coming to terms with my own internalized misogny#actively re-examining my tendencys to gravity towards male characters#idk maybe its making me dislike art more. but idk. ive always analyzed why i react certain ways to certain things. this isnt new for me#anywaays. i had been following a bunch of ninja turtle blogs and they sorta kept messing around with shows like ninjago too#and at some point i was just like. i dont know if these shows are actually that good guys. i think youjust like shows for little boys#and fandoms tend to shaft female chars so it sure helps that their casts are 98% male .#maybe theyre not your blorbo maybe theyre just Guy McAverageMan. thats not inherently bad but you have to consider it.#guys rottmnt is isnt even that good . its not that good ok. its alright/pretty good. and the movie does a few neat things#i feel like ive become one of those people that turn 18 and then immediately go 'minors dni'. im not there yet but i just.#we're watching kids shows. its ok . you can say it.#you may have noticed ive been reblogging a lot of dungeon meshi stuff. i read it all over the past week.#but here's the thing. i thought it was mid/good for like 70% of it.#i think its got some really really cool worldbuilding ideas and stuff#but i think a lot of the writing was sorta. uninteresting to me.#my discord friends have been raving over izutsumi for months.#but i found her presence in the story to be weird and underdeveloped. she felt out of place and her introduction felt clumsy#i felt when the story was ramping up the manga got a lot better. because again theres some rlly cool ideas at play#all the shit with the lion? incredible. the way all the infighting led to more problems bc the elves refuse to explain anything? rlly good.#marcille landing in power? reallly good shit. (i still thought it was a lil undercooked still tho)#i cant stop thinking about laios in that climax scene. i think he shouldve been feral a lot more often#uhh. i got distracted. fandom bad and annoying.#saw a post talking about marcille realizing izutsumi is only 17 and then describing how 'omg shes a mom now' and i wanted to throw up#im done. i swear. im done talking for real. aagh#text
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it was lowkey crazy to me that when i was making a playlist for ldpdl and one for myself at the same time, i kept adding in all of the same songs, like back then i didn't realise just how similar we were...idk maybe i'm projecting too much on him but his character is just sooooo relatable to me and some of my experiences and just his general feelings/vibe too
#it's his repression. catholic guilt. sadness. they all exist within me too#idk sometimes thinking about louis hits too close to home#another thing is i was seeing someone who is exactly like lestat and as expected it didn't go down well#i could not have found out about loustat and iwtv at a better time (when things were going to shit and our relationship was burning down)#it was a bit weird reading loustat fics and being reminded of my relationship with her like the similarities are scary#but like i said i could just be projecting lol#ok back to writing my fanfic fr bc it's healing me#me yapping#sorry for oversharing it will happen again
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idk the "i only know a few mutuals of ievaās from mutual friends while i was ceneid (who i wonāt be mentioning here), but i do know a few, and i havent ever followed (or even heard) of a private blog from them." part gets me because me and ivy are friends (i love you ivy <3) and elise had this blog. elise was on this blog. she had a tag. THIS IS A PRIVATE BLOG!! SHE HAD AND KNEW ABOUT MY PRIVATE BLOG BTU IG THAT DOESNT COUNT!!! UGHHHH
#idk another part is just like. how she's like 'we could all constantly be lying'#but we could all be telling the truth.#how terrible is your life; elise? to have to always believe that you are not surrounded by love and truth? that people want to lie to you?#like maybe she doesn't know that me and ivy are friends but..#i'm on her blog?? like i've sent asks#nordicbananas has appeared there#UGHHHH#anyways <3 im sick of this.#this is EXACTLY like that one person#like. ok not exactly#but so manythings that she did. so many things that she says. just. echo them#sigh.#idk and idc how many pets she has like i dont think it's probable but i do not care girl why would you bring that up#if somehow she is reading this. babe don't make any more blogs. you dug yourself a hole until you reached the core of the earth and even-#-then youre trying to go further. just delete tumblr. dont go on the website. if you do; only read fics and then close the tabs.#dont do this to yourself. dont do this to everyone who knew you or ones who know people who did.#it's getting old; it's getting sad. it's just sad elise.#sighh.#:shroom is typing...#sorry for the worse than great subject on the selfship blog i just wanted to say *something* yk#i love you all <3
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thinking about a fierce pjo fic featuring sally and percy ā¦. but alas ā¦. odesta week is calling
#ok alas is a bit too strong of a word#like realistically this fic idea is not going anywhere it just took hold of me at an inconvenient time#but like#who else is up having sally jackson thoughts#should we have a class discussion about sally jackson#shoutout to sally jackson i love her but i also resent her i am proud of her but im also disappointed#no one warns u about loving books u read as a child well into adulthood bc wtf sally jackson#wait or is it sally blofis nowā¦? idek#ooh wait cos donāt get me started on that either#like glad u were able to compartimentalize those feelings as an adult but percy had to process all that as a kid#ooh i have to go i canāt be getting so heated over a fictional character rn itās not that serious
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#im sure i'll lose followers and prob get hate for this#but#ok so i used to be in the fantastic beasts fandom#like actually in the fandom and writing meta and shipping characters and reading fanfic#even wrote a fic myself#made a bunch of moodboards#(and there was a lot of push-pull between ppl like me who wanted to engage critically and note homophobia antisemitism racism etc and ppl#who refused)#(but anyway)#when the 3rd movie came out i was planning to buy a ticket to a dif movie and sneak into the theater#and i was going with my friend#who's a trans woman#and who has been in prison - mens prison - and experienced a lot of traumatic things there bc of being a woman in a mens prison#and the idea of sneaking into a theater made her scared bc its illegal - she was scared of prison again#she wanted to just buy tickets#so i did#what would it have been if i prioritized the greater discourse over an actual person#i dont think im now personally responsible for all the transphobia in the uk#jk rowling is a person with agency who is choosing to do what she is - shes the one to blame#look. im not saying it doesnt matter and i am def not saying to buy this game#in fact specifically dont buy this game - i see this as a boycott#but idk i think we could use more nuance#anyway guess im problematic now
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You know when a show has a mainly female cast and the fandom is compromised of 90% gay women and any male character is either tolerated as a lesbian ally or dead/used as a jerk for hurt comfort fics/both? That's me with most of the DC men. They can stay as side characters supporting nonbinary folks and women's stories but any attempt to centre them and my eyes droop shut.
#dc rambles#This mainly goes for Bruce Jason and Tim#Dick is 50 50 and Damian and Duke I find it easy to get engaged with fics about them#But Tim or Jason centric fics are just not for me like ok you're sad what's your sister up to right now#Is she having a good day is patrol going well is she going to show up at all since you baited me into reading this fic by tagging her#dc
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currently reading ellie and joel fanfic at 4 am. jesus christ. man. :(
#am reading so many fics about ep 8 and going crazy#they care about each other so much and it hurts so much#ellie was so alone and scared and desperaste#she didnt know if joel was alive or dead she was trapped with a horrible man#and she was never safe#and joel had no clue where ellie was. if she was safe or dead or hurt#all he knew was that she was taken by men whilst trying to protect him :(#and god the last 5 minutes were horrible#i cried so hard#bella did such a good job playing ellie holy fuck#her screams her rage her anguish and brutal fear :(((#and god. when joel found her and it was just#āits ok baby girlā DO YOU WANNA KILL ME??????#sorry. am going crackers tonight#some blue thoughts#tlou spoilers
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