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mollyrolls · 11 days ago

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highlights from my notes app. 30/79 and i couldn’t even finish the last chapter

⋆.˚⟡ ࣪ ˖ AKAASHI KEIJI

undone ⋆.˚⟡ ࣪ ˖

she would do anything for her best friend. including, but not limited to, pretending to be his girlfriend, so he can get the attention of the girl of his dreams, as much as it hurts

PAIRING: akaashi x fem reader

STATUS: complete

TAGS/WARNING: unrequited love, fake dating, angst, pining, friends to lovers, university au, language, alcohol use, warnings may change

MDNI: will contain adult content (marked in chapter)

TAGLIST: complete this form to be added

PREVIEW: real

CHAPTER ONE: evidence

CHAPTER TWO: complications

CHAPTER THREE: close

CHAPTER FOUR: truths

CHAPTER FIVE: plans

CHAPTER SIX: act

-> SEQUEL

#reading this bc p*riod cramps are keeping me up and i want to die. surely this wont go badly #He captioned it: My pretty girl” kms #iwaizumi: i’m sorry to text you so much. i’m just bad at stopping myself” kms #I’m obsessed with you.” ow #she wants to believe her and everything she says.” there are so many pains in my body this might be the first unique experience i’ve had.#i think i’m getting a stomach ulcer /srs #She is sorry. She feels sorry for him.” ok the best analogy i can think of is in lying on a bed of knives and every line is just a little #bit of pressure that pushes me deeper into the knives so it’s not this overwhelming unbearable pain it’s just slow and uncomfortable and i #want it to stop but it’s beyond my control now also i feel blood dripping down my back #Yeah but I give a shit about you” a tall tall wall looms in front of me #after weeks of nonstop contact won’t answer her texts.” what if i ripped my stomach out #No” Akaashi says. “Can I kiss you?” i think i’m being cooked like a rotisserie chicken #ok ok this actually might be too much for me i’m going to be so sick please #let me paint the picture. it’s 5:40 am. i’ve been up since 3 battling the worst cramps i’ve had all year. been stuck in my head abt my own #irl crush dilemma. this fic is abt akaashi keiji. who i have never been normal about. so i obviously have invested feelings #. i feel like this is what being cheated on feels like. this is a genuine attack on my person and my well being i am being cheated on in #my whole interior feels like tar #my heart feels like how you feel when you start to drown like that sense of bubbling over and the loss of breath and irrational brain feels #god now i’m openly reading this like it’s me and something tells me that this in this moment is going to be the worst decision of my life #i’m pretty sure i took my antidepressants. here’s hoping #i let out a sound that was a bit like a strangled wail and i tried to be quiet i tried so hard but i woke roommate up #she hasn’t fallen back asleep since then it’s been an hour #i think this is grief. like i’m feeling real unmitigated grief.#internally i am wailing at the top of my lungs i need to scream i need to sob i need to have some kind of catharsis before my body implodes #Is she still watching?” kill YOURself #i just wished death on akaashi keiji what has the world become. maybe i’m having a lucid nightmare and this isn’t a real fic #and surely it’s a happy ending right i said in delusion #my period cramps are nothing compared to whatever concoction of gross painful awful gut wrenching pain sobs anguish peril grief you’ve done #this is like when i read in another life for the first time but a hundred times worse #That some sick small part of her still wishes it was Akaashi instead.” ok

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