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we were up all night
me: WE'RE FUCKED UP đđđȘ
Shu: haha, yeah, we are âșâșâš
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU???
ah right I forgot that I'm the only one who deals with the consequences of ANY SHIT
(I almost hate this bro. almost.)
#-đŻ#-đ#bruh#đđđ#plural stuff#actually plural#plural system#endo system#endo safe#pro endo#plural punk#plural gang
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the boys long for the cage (me, im the boys)
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Told our councilor about us! Just mentioned it a bit haven't gone onto depth about it yet but plan to next week. Mostly she knows about Steven and Little bird and I mention Peter and Jelly so hopefully it goes ok. She seems to be understanding and said that if it's helpful and helping me then it doesn't really matter if it's "real" or not. Which definitely made me feel a lot better :) - â + đ and also đș is upstairs bc I was talking about him.
#osdd 1b#osdd system#plural system#did osdd#osdd#plurality#system stuff#multiple#plural#system#-đ#-â#-đș
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was sanders sides also your system awakening or was that just me. like oh seeing people donât have different parts of themselves talking to each other and building relationships!! thatâs so me!!! wait what do you mean thatâs called dissociative identity disorder!!!
Oh hello, and partially yes. Some of our first discovered members were from Sanders Sides and we also related/relate to it heavily. There is a reason it's still one of our favorite series after 6 or so years /light hearted
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Ika(2020-2023)
gone but never forgotten, with me in our mind forever. you got me through so much, and I am eternally grateful for it. I'm glad I could give you such a long, fulfilling life filled with love and treats. there's a reason I called you 'sweet potato' after all, my chunky scrunkly.
you loved that tube, didn't you? you and Niko both. it's funny to think about it, how you both chose the same spot(even though it was a different tube. you loved the first one so much you chewed it up!). I wonder why sometimes.
I always wished to be able to talk to you. rats are so intelligent, I know you'd have something interesting to say. oh well, I guess we're just not that far along technologically yet. I hope I'm still here when we get there though. that would be fun.
I'll stop here before I can't see anymore. I hope you're having fun cuddling with Mom and running around with Niko and Mochi, wherever you are. love you forever Ika <3
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yeahh we
an important reminder tho: u don't have to force yourself to do something if u guys don't feel like it k?
u can do it later
chill out đđ
bro there r so many people in this body yet NONE OF THEM can be assed to do something productive!!!!!
- đ€
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t..that s..system makes me u..uneasy.. nhh.. whine...
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Whenever I see a queer invalidate another queer's relationship with god, I just get disappointed. "We need more complex queers!" You can't even handle religious queer people.
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Alfie sketches đ
I gave him lore! He was very beloved his whole life, but heâs also too powerful to keep in control so heâs not allowed to leave the hotel đš he doesnât intuitively have much of a moral compass, but he really looks up to his big sister â„ïž
#He loves to read and if Charlie is like rapunzel Alfie is like Belle đ#this was fun#it felt like one of those cute creative journal exercises you do in school đ«đ„č#my doods#radioapple#hazbin fankid#hazbin fanchild
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Older!Rafe, DILF!Rafe, pet names, kissing, praise, angst, soft!Rafe, swearing, smoking, drinking, unprotected p in v, oral (male receiving), cum tasting, spanking, choking, rough sex, degredation, rough oral, ownership kink, orgasm control, multiple orgasms
Thank you to my lovely beta reader @oceandriveab love you bae đđ©·
Rafeâs POV:
"I love you, man. But, I'm home for one fuckin' week. Leave me alone. Yeah?"
"The Azimut deal is major, Cameron," my boss groans. âWe really need you face-to-face in Italy.â
"I havenât been home in a month. Iâm gonna be gone for another few weeks," I chuckle in disbelief as I rub the sleep from my eyes; this fucker is tryinâ to pull even more of my time away. âSend, Top. Iâm sure heâll be able to land the deal. Alright?â
"We both know he wonât-"
"Not my fuckinâ problem," I cut him short as I drift into the driveway.
"Your loss. Thatâs a shit ton of money, man.â
"Yeah⊠Well, I got plenty of that. We done?" I taunt.
"Fuck. Youâre killinâ me... See you in a week, Cameron. Give the best to y/n and the kids."
"Umm yeah... Gotta go," I sigh as I watch the scene play out in front of me. Jesus Christ. Problems already? This kid... Why is he me? Fuck. I'm gettinâ it back tenfold. I roll down my window, eavesdropping shamelessly, watching Harbor Thornton clamber the rest of the way out the window. Max leans toward her, cig dangling from his lip, no shirt on his muscular body, and a neck full of fresh hickeys.
"Tell him you went to Macyâs house, princess," he smirks, exhaling two streams of smoke through his nose. "I'll be right down. M'kay?"
"Don't take too long, Maxi. We're gonna be late."
Maxi? I can't help but snort out a sleepy snicker.
"Late for a party? Weâre always late, Thornton. I just need to get my shit. Then, we can go to your house and get you dressed.â
âI canât wait for you to see my costume, baby. Maybe you can take it off me later.â
âMâplanninâ on it.â He hooks his hand around the back of her neck, fingers tangling in her bleach-blonde hair.
"Maybe we can sneak into Piperâs parentâs room," she mumbles between sloppy kisses. Enough. Make it end. I open the truck door, slamming it shut. The two of them fall silent.
"Welp. Now or never," I gripe as I press the door openâ Harbor lowers herself down the side of the house, clearly aware of my arrival as she does her best to hide. Like it matters, sweetheart... Your BMW is parked right outside the gate. "Have a nice day, Harbor," I sigh.
She looks around the house, giving me a guilty grin and a wave. "Uh-h... Hi, Mr. Cameron," she stammers. "You too." Harbor looks back at the window, no Max to be seen, quickly scampering to her car. An even thicker cloud of smoke pours out, wafting away. Jesus Christ, bud. I throw my head down, shuffling up toward the door, climbing up a few steps before grabbing the knob. There's a stir behind it already. My babies. Jerking it open, stepping through the threshold, a roar of joy following fast.
"Daddy!" Poppy shrieks at the top of her lungs. Her feet patter against the hardwood floor, Rory trailing close behind. I squat down to their level, waiting for them to round the corner. I meet their twinkling eyes, smiles doubling. They crash into my arms, crawling onto me to get closer. I hold them tight, taking in their smell. A wide smile sets on my lips as well.
"I missed you, two."
"Missed you, Daddy," Rory smiles. Poppy gives me an all-too-wet kiss on the cheek before nuzzling in again.
"I love you, Daddy," she whispers.
"I love you, princess. And I love you too, bud."
They leave as soon as they come, tearing back to the kitchen, leaving y/n standing in the doorframe, giving me a moment. She chuckles warmly, a beautiful smile playing on her perfect lips, giving me butterflies. Still. She walks my way, wrapping her arms around my neck. Picking her up in a hug, I pull her in tight. "Fuck. I missed my girl," I mumble against her skin, pressing a gentle kiss on the crook of her neck. "I love you, babydoll."
I set her down on the ground, not letting her leave my arms. Matching her gaze, I feel myself at peace again. "I love you too, baby," she whispers. Damn, I missed her voice. Cupping her soft cheek in my hands, I kiss her again, feeling her smile against my mouth.
"What?" I laugh lightly.
"You kinda smell like weed," she hums.
"That ain't me, honey."
"What?" She draws back, wide-eyed. "Max?"
"Mhmm..."
She rolls her eyes and shakes her head in frustration. "I said no weed," she whizzes. I blurt out a laugh, throwing my head back. Y/n slaps my chest, a little scowl setting on her pouty lips. "Rafe... He has ISS."
"ISS?"
"In-school suspension..."
"Oh shit. What'd I miss?" I breathe as I shut my eyes tightly. "Lay it on me, princess."
"Apparently, he sells weed."
"Why?" I whine. "It's not like he needs to..."
"He said we wouldn't buy him that truck he wanted? So, he's gonna buy his own."
"Allâs I said was he had to wait âtil his birthday or somethinâ. He wants a fuckinâ Raptor, y/n. Shit starts at 80 Gâs⊠Maybe get a job? Help me around the office? Do somethinâ besides jackinâ our boat, drinkinâ beers, and golfinâ. Jesus fuck, that kidâs somethinâ else."
"Technically... he did get a job,â she breathes as she rests her palms on my chest, calming me down slightly.
"Technically... I guess," I huff, rolling my eyes away. "He is killin' me. Did you know Thornton was here?"
âTopper?â
âHarbor,â I correct her. Y/n's mouth falls open in disgust. "She was not... She didnât come through the front.â
"Think they wanted some privacy, honey," you groan, shuddering in disgust, y/n echoing the same.
"Can you talk to him?" Y/n whispers, her tired eyes pleading with mine. "I thought I was doin' a good job, RafeâShit's fallin' through the cracks. I wasnât even gonna do anything with the twins for Halloween⊠Just dress âem in one of Winnie and Maxâs old costumes and pass out candy.â
âWinnieâŠâ I smile, just thinkinâ about my pride and joy. âWhereâs our girl at?â I ask as I look around the house, just the sound of the twins pattering feet left behind.
âYou donât wanna know,â Y/n sighs as she tugs her phone out of her back pocket, showing me a picture that has my eyes doubling.
âThatâs Win?â I ask as I look down at my angel in next to nothinâ, slamming my eyes shut in mental exhaustion. âWhat is she supposed to be?â
âLittle Red Riding Hood?â Y/n sighsâ the two of us silently coming to terms with the fact that our babies are anything but babies anymore.
âSo, sheâs gone then?â
âJust left with Jackson Mayb-â
âDonât finish that sentence, pretty girl,â I mumble as I wrap my arms around her shoulders, pulling her in for comfort.
âItâs been a mess here, Rafe. Iâm not doing a good job-â
"You." I stop her, pressing a rough kiss on her forehead. "You are doing an amazing job, y/n."
"Thank you," she whispers weakly. Y/n's attention gets ripped away, brows furrowing in irritation as she glances out the front window, watching Max lower himself from above. "Now? Please."
"Of course, honey." I give her one last kiss, turning toward the door, breaking out in a little trot, throwing the entry open. "Max!"
Max turns on his heels, looking back at me annoyedly, his mother's scowl and a button nose, the rest of him all me. "Rafe."
"Scuse me?" I challenge, making him shift his stance, crossing his arms over his tight white polo, rocking back and forth on his heels.
"I'm just kiddin'. Calm your tits,â he scoffs.
"Sure⊠I missed you. Weren't you gonna say 'hi' or anythinâ?" He crushes the grass with his boat shoe, throwing his gaze to the ground to avoid eye contact. "Max?"
"Missed you too. Sorry... I just didn't want a lecture âbout Harbor-â
"Harbor?â I laugh tiredly. âThe Thornton girl is the least of my worries. Why are you sellin', bud? You could get a job or help-"
"Rich comin' from you," he snips, cutting me off with a cruel laugh.
"What does that mean?"
"It's like the pot callin' the kettle black. You were literally a drug dealer. You dealt drugs, Dad."
"That shit was different ."
"That shit was worse," He sneers, turning back in the direction he was going. âMâsellinâ grass, not yayo. Fuckinâ hypocrit,â he yaps over his shoulder.
"Just get a normal job, Max. Like one with a W -2 ... Work with me-â
"Nah... 'Cause you don't get it,â he turns around, angry and quick.
"What don't I get?" I lift my voice, causing Max to return his stare to mine, looking back at me in disbelief.
"Youâre never home. Whatâs there to do if you ainât here? Huh?â
"Max-"
"What, Dad? Seriously... I'm gonna be late to pick her up. Itâs Halloween. Give it a rest-â
"Cut the shit, Max," I mumble. "She's on the other side of the gate." He gives me a smirk, holding back a chuckle as he takes off his captainâs hat, running his fingers through his hair with a smug smile before putting it back on. "You two beinâ safe?" I ask gently.
"Not talkin' to you about that, old man."
"Holy shit," I puff, covering my eyes with my hands as I do my best not to lose my mind. "I'm your dad, Max. I worry about that shit."
"Of course we are. I'm not a stupid like-"
"Like me? Only me. Right?" I stop him before he can go any further, seeing the first look of remorse in his sights. "I know you weren't about to talk about your mom, Max." He throws his gaze to his feet again. "What would she say if she heard you talkin' like that?"
"She'd be upset," he mutters feebly. "Don't tell her I said that. I'm sorry."
"We just want you to be safe. Okay? It wasn't easy for your mom and me for a while. We just want your life to be easier. We aren't tryin' to ruin your life. And we can talk about the job tomorrow. I donât wanna ruin your night. I'm sure we can figure out somethin' that doesn't involve you sellin' weed." He nods, giving me a soft smile. His mother's smile. Max turns around again, stepping away.
"I love you, bud."
"Love you too, dad. I'm glad you're home." There's no sarcasm in his tone, warming your heart.
"Oh, wait! Did you two need me to pick you up tonight?" I ask as he passes through the gate.
"The fuck do you think?" He cracks up, flicking me off with a smile.
Love you too, buddy. Turning around, I trudge up the driveway toward the house. Well... I don't know if I made it better or worse. But, that was somethin'.' I close my eyes, taking a deep, needed breath. The front door opens, and Y/n steps, strolling toward her SUV with the twins in hand. She opens the side, letting them climb in, walking back to the trunk.
Her dress sways with the fall breeze, heels strapped around her ankles. Wow. Iâm struck with dĂ©jĂ vu. She wore a dress just like that on our first date. I couldn't keep my eyes off her. That face, that smile, her voice, her curves. She knew how to work 'em all.
Babygirl⊠Y/n reaches inside, the hem of her dress riding up her thighs. The slightest peak of her perfect fuckin' ass. A smile spreads across my lips. Y/n knows I'm watchin'... She knew it then, too. I need her... So fuckin' bad. It's been too long.
I walk toward her while she digs through the twins' travel bag, hastily taking hold of her hips, pressing myself against her ass, making her giggle. She winds up slowly, relaxing her back against my chest, looking up at me over her shoulder. "You're stunning. Fuck, you look so damn good, y/n," I rasp.
"Thank you, daddy. So do you."
"What are you doinâ, ma?â
âGetting them costumes. I feel guilty, Rafe,â she sighs with embarrassment. âI canât believe I didnât. The older kids are a disaster; the house is a mess-â
âDonât feel guilty, baby. The kids are fine. Theyâre just teenagers. Yeah? And you arenât a maid. I canât believe youâre keepinâ up with everything like you are. Get outta here, baby. Buy yourself a coffee, get us a bottle of wine for later, pick up the costumes. Let me handle these two. Unless you want me to go-â
âNo!â She stops me fast, laughing at her rash reply. âNo. Iâd love to get outâ.
âAnd, Iâll talk to the housekeeper about cominâ once a week. Oh, and Harbor⊠Iâll ask her to come over when Iâm outta town so you can take a break. You deserve it.â
âYou sure,â she asks apprehensively.
ââCourse Iâm sure, pretty,â I croon as I cup her cheeks, pressing a kiss on her lips. âWeâll get these kids dressed up, walk around the neighborhood for a bit, put âem down, and have some time for ourselves.â
"That would be amazing." She turns her body into mine, arms wrapping around me, slipping into the back pockets of my slacks. "A night to ourselves. Huh?â She smiles at me coyly.
"Yeah⊠Weâll snag the good candy, bury a few glasses of wine, and have a good nightâŠâ
"I canât wait, Rafey. I need you so bad."
"Well, shit," I chuckle lustfully. "You're readin' my mind."
"It's been too long." She leans in for a kiss as she squeezes my ass.
"I was just sayin' that, y/n." My hands weave through her hair, tugging slightly.
"You should feel how wet I am for you..."
"That so?" I slip my hand down, tracing slowly up her thigh, feeling her lace panties soaking wet.
"AHHH!" Poppy screeches, making you both jump, jolting the two of you out of your feral state.
"What the hell..." I grumble, making y/n laugh. "You good, princess?" Poppy smiles brightly from her car seat. Her blonde curls bounce as she nods 'yes.â
"She's been doin' that all week," y/n breathes.
"I'm sorry, baby. You're a patient woman," I hail as I pull her in for a hug. "Thank you."
âAnything for you, daddy.â
Shit. I rub my hand over my smile as she steps away, smacking her ass before she can get too far, chuckling to myself as I watch the recoil. So fuckinâ sexy. Y/n meets my gaze, giving me a little wink as she steps into the front seat. Yeah⊠Thatâs my girl.
âYou two wanna go play on the trampoline?â I ask, offering up the only thing thatâll pull them out of the vehicle without tears. The two squeal with delight as I free them from their seats, climbing out of the car, running toward the back before I can even shut the doors. I stand in the drive, waving at y/n as she pulls out. She looks happier. Fuck, she just needed time to herself.
Hurry home, baby.
Readerâs POV:
You pour a coffee for Rafe and yourself, adding some Baileyâs to top it all off. It had been a long, tiring week with a never-ending list of tasks with him away. But he was finally home. Rafe leans down at eye-level with your daughter, fixing her little cat ears. He turns to your son, swathing the superhero cape around his shoulders before tying the perfect bow.
The twins giggle, bright smiles plastered all over their round faces as their favorite man dotes on them, the two sneaking in hugs and kisses when they can. Rafe reaches into the back pocket of his slacks, grabbing his phone, snapping picture after picture of the duo, looking back at them proudly.
The four of you step out into the night, hand-in-hand. You walk through your beautiful neighborhood, an unsaid contest between the kooks of who could outdo who, each one of the stately manors more done up than the last. Jack-oâ-lanterns flicker on the entrances, spooky music swelling all around.
You look up at Rafe and smile. Even though it was decades ago, you couldn't help but see that same college boy you fell in love with; Rafe still rocking a backward cap, his crisp polo poking out of his cozy North Face jacket. Heâs exchanged his jeans for khakis and his red SOLO cups for a travel mug. But the man only looks better with age. The glow of the streetlights highlights his strong jawlineâ grizzled with the perfect 5 o'clock shadow. His beautiful blue eyes follow the twins as they run freely from house to house. Rafeâs fit, he always has been, but the way his muscles move under his clothes has you dying to rip them all off.
Heâs talking business, telling stories about some big deals he closed. You try your best to focusâyou really do, but you get lost watching his perfect lips as he speaks, catching the little looks he steals between sips of coffee making your head spin.
Rafe was working so hard for your family: closing deals, making a name for himself, doing what he loves and still coming home being the husband and dad you could only dream of⊠Heâs perfect. You'd drag him home right now if it wouldn't break the twinsâ hearts.
Your kids run over, laughing and squealing with delight, opening their bags wide to show the two of you their treasures. Rafe kneels down, looking in the sack, asking them about their loot. âWhatâd you get? Show me, princess,â Rafe invites, his tone softening as she speaks to her. Your daughter reaches into the satchel and points her tiny finger at a few king-size candy bars. Rafe sneaks his hand in too, grabbing a Reeseâs cup. Your daughterâs eyes widened in horror; Rafe signature scowl and glare cutting into her dad.
âDaddy!â She scolds, crossing her arms over her chest.
âOh - Umm,â Rafe panics slightly as he stands up, towering over your daughter, looking down at her as he fumbles for his wallet. âI didn't steal it. Alright? Daddy was hungry, was all. How much do I owe you, sweetheart?â
âA dollar.â
âA dollar?â He gasps as he fights a wide smile. âYou drive a hard bargain.â Rafe thumbs through his wallet, pulling out a dollar and one more as he catches Rory hoping for one too. âNâwhat do you have for me, buddy?â He questions as he crouches down, looking in the bag. Rory sticks out his tongue as he reaches inside the pouch, looking for something for Rafe, pulling out a taffy. Rafe scrunches his nose in disgust, contorting it into a smile before your son catches his eye again, making you laugh.
Fuck, he's killing me. You feel your cheeks warm up as he walks back to you, looking down at you with loving eyes. Your heart swells with devotion as he slips his hand into yours, feeling the warmth of his palm. He lifts your hand, kissing the top. But itâs not enough; Rafe pulls you in by the hand, kissing your lips instead. âI missed you, baby,â he mumbles against your kiss, his voice dropping slightly lower, sending chills across your body. He smiles against your mouth as you echo the same sentiment. âYou look so sexy tonight,â he drawls, his southern accent bleeding through his compliment, his tone warm, and sticky sweet.
âYou look so good, daddy,â you praise. Rafe groans against your lips, living in your words.
âItâs after bedtime. What do you say, baby?â He asks as his large hand falls down your body, pulling you in by your waist. âLetâs go home.â
Rafeâs eyes widen as he walks through the door. "No fuckinâ way," he praises as he drinks you in, taking in every inch of your frilly maidâs costume. His beautiful blue eyes fall to a lusty haze. âNâI said âyou werenât a maid, baby⊠You makinâ a liar outta me. Huh?â He asks as he twirls you under his finger.
Rafeâs rough hands slip under the hem of your lace stockings, following the little straps of your garter belt, clipped to your barely there panties, still hidden under the satin skirt. âDaddyâs gotta get you out of the house more⊠âSpecially if youâre gonna come back with gifts like this. Youâre spolinâ me. Fuck,â he groans drunkenly, looking down at you in awe. He takes you into his strong arms, tossing you playfully on the mattress.
Rafe mounts the bed fast, crushing you under his weight. His lips capture yours in a heated kiss."You taste good... You smell so fuckin' good, darlin'," he purrs as he buries his head in your neck, stroking his clothed cock against your throbbing pussy. "Damn. I missed this."
"I missed you, baby. C'mon... I need you inside of me," you pant in that pathetic tone that gets you anything you want.
"Jesus, y/n," he moans, chuckling sinfully.
"Why are you dressed, daddy?"
"Good question." He sucks off your bottom lip, tugging at it with his teeth. "Can I leave these on?" Rafe asks, snapping the garter belt around the fullness of your thighs with his big fingers. You smile and nod.
"Panties, too..." You add.
"Well shit," he breathes onto your lips, instantly gliding two thick fingers up your soaked cunt, making you suck in a breath. Rafe takes his digits between his lips. "You're dripping, y/n."
"Haven't stopped thinkin' about you since you left."
"Me either, y/n. You're so fuckin' sweet."
"Rafe..." You pout.
"Shit, baby... I forgot what a slut you were for me."
"How could you forget?" You giggle against his lips. "Clothes. Now."
"Mmm... Yes, Mrs. Cameron."
Rafe steps off the bed, tossing his shirt off his built body. You study him carefully as you slink to the edge of the bed. He grasps his belt in his hands, tugging the leather loose. "Let me?" You sigh as you rise, sky-high heels clicking against the wood floor.
Rafeâs eyes continue to roam your curves as you unfasten his top button, splaying his zipper, pulling his slacks down low. He grabs your chin, drawing you up. His blue eyes lock on yours; Rafeâs stare is hungry and deep. His grip is rough. Not enough to hurt. Just enough to let you know he's in control. This is what he wants... What he's craving at this moment, and you are more than happy to oblige.
"You're my good girl. Aren't you, y/n?" He groans, making you wetter.
"Yeah," you sigh.
"Tell me, y/n."
"I'm your good girl, Rafe."
"And you listen to me, and me alone. Don't you, baby girl?" He runs his thumb along your bottom lip, making your heart thump.
"Yes, daddy. Only you."
"Daddy? I love the way you say that, baby.â Rafe pushes you back on the bed. You sit on the plush mattress, looking up at him innocently as you toy with the elastic of his boxers. He gives you a little nod. You take your cue, pulling them off, following his thick cock to the tip, letting it spring free.
"Fuck, Rafe," you sigh, gripping him in your hands, precum glazed on his tip. You quickly swipe your tongue across his swollen head, swirling for good measure.
"Y/n..." He draws out your name as he towers over you, looking down at you with lust-blown eyes. Rafe drops down on one kneeâ his strong hand lifting your calf, sliding your spike heel off your foot, kissing your leg unhurriedly before working on the next. He's taking his time, savoring every inch of you before dropping the shoe to the floor. You inhale sharply as he hooks his hands around your legs, tugging you to the edge of the bed.
His calloused finger meets your knee, tracing slowly up your thigh. Your breathing starts to quicken, and your lips part. You look between your legs, watching your husband spread your thighs. "Rafe," you moan as he teases your entrance with the tip of his ringed finger.
"Y/n." He draws out your name, working it deep. "Who's pussy is this, baby?"
Fuck.
He dips in another finger, thrusting it in and out... in and out. Your eyes drift back up his body, watching his abs and arms flex with each thrust. Rafeâs eyes greet yours, the most beautiful blue; he lets your gaze linger on his a little longer. He doesn't punish you, rewarding you with a smirk and some pressure on your clit.
"Mmm... Yours," you whimper. "My pussy is yours, daddy."
"It is... Isn't it," he chuckles as you start to rock with him. Rafe drops to his knees, causing you to draw your legs wider. "Fuck. I could cum just lookin' at you, y/n." His tongue meets your pussy, licking a line to your clit, latching on for a momentary, releasing you with a pop. Your head falls back. An airy moan slips your lips. "Remember when we met? You were such a bad girl, y/n." He kisses his way up your stomach, past your ribcage, grabbing and pressing your breasts together. "No one could tell you what to do."
"But you..."
"That's right." Rafe grabs you roughly, pulling you from the bed and drawing you to your feet. His hands work up your body, weaving into your hair, pulling slightly.
"Get on the chair," he whispers against your lips.
"Yes, Rafey." You walk across the room, Rafe, meeting you fast. The man is on you before you can even reach it. His broad chest presses flush with your back, kissing your neck harshly. "Fuck, baby," you whine. He shoves you, causing you to fall forward. You grasp the back of the chair while his strong hands palm your ass under your slutty maidâs costume. Rafe grabs your thong, snapping it against your skin. His hands return to your body, working over your skin, slapping your ass, causing you to groan.
"First time you sucked my cock, we were at Tops place. Remember?â He spreads your ass and spanks you even harder, causing you to cry a little louder. âYou were dressed like a Playboy bunny,â Rafe drawls as he grabs himself in his hands, stroking a few times as he takes you in. âYou didnât even take the ears off.â
âYou remember?â
âShitâs burned into my memory, baby,â he sighs as his large hand follows the length of your spine. "You look even better now, sweetheart."
"So do you, baby? We fucked the next night."
"Mhmm⊠Yeah, we fuckinâ did. Night one. Youâre such a good mommy, baby. Who woulda thought you used to be such a whore back in the day. Huh?â
âMmm⊠You bring out the slut in me, daddy. You always have.â
âYeah, baby. Thatâs right.â Rafe seizes his dick by the base, tapping it against your ass with one hand, using the other to grope your skin."This fucking body, y/n," he moans as he presses his tip into your entrance. "It's just so damn perfect."
"Shit," you hiss as you feel a stretch.
"And these tits." He grabs the straps of your costume, brushing them off your shoulders, pulling it down past your tits. He reaches around, grabbing your breasts as he glides in a little deeper.
"This waist." His hands drift lower, mirroring his words, driving his cock in a little more. "These hips," he grunts, taking hold of them, bottoming you out, causing you to wail.
Rafe draws out slowly. "Baby, please," you sigh, craving more. He thrusts into you again. Your head falls forward. Rafe snaps his hips into you, setting a rapid pace. Skin, cracking skin. He spanks youâ a prickling sting is left behind. "More, Daddy," you beg.
"I don't know, baby... Your ass is pretty red," he taunts. "You sure?"
"Yes. Fuck!"
"Atta girl." He slaps you roughly on the other side. You feel his hands wrapping around your throat, squeezing just enough that you can feel your pulse. The chill of his rings felt against your skin. Rafe rolls his hips into you, deliciously slow, using his grip as leverage to drive deeper.
His hands push higher, gathering your hair. He tugs your strands, causing you to rise, arching your back. He's unforgiving, pounding into you just like you were craving he would. "Fuck me, y/n," he demands.
"Yes," you moan, using the back of the chair to steady yourself as you fuck him back. Working Rafe in and out of your soaked cunt. You bounce and grind, rolling your hips as Rafe praises you. Your ass claps against his toned hips as you take every inch of his long dick, filling yourself to the brim. "Rafe!" You cry.
"Fuck, y/n. Let me hear you, sweetheart," he rasps.
You lose yourself, fluttering around his cock, gripping his wrists as he takes over, rutting into you quickly. "Fuck, Rafe! Just like that." Pitiful cries pass your lips as he proceeds to wreck you from behind. Rafe doesn't let up till he feels you relax around his cock, your head falling back on his chest as he rocks in and out.
"I missed you so fucking much, daddy," you whimper. Rafe kisses your shoulder gently, working his way up to your ear.
"I missed you more, baby. You're my girl, y/n. You know that? You always have been."
"I'm your girl, Rafe," you pant.
"Does my girl want more?"
"Never stop," you chuckle breathlessly.
"Anything for you, y/n." Rafe thrusts into you roughly, making you fall forward, gripping the chair as you expel a breath. He presses your head against the plush backrest, increasing his tempo. "Ugh... Do you hear that, y/n?" You try to nod. "Mmm... You're so damn wet." He turns you around, pulling you back into his arms. Your kisses are wild and deep as you cross the room to your bed. "Can you taste yourself, y/n?" He mumbles against your lips.
"Yes," you mewl.
"Can you ride me, baby?" He groans.
"Yes, daddy," you sigh blissfully. Rafe falls onto the bed. You slip away before he can grab you; Rafe chuckles darkly, twining his fingers behind his head.
"Couldn't get enough?"
"You're right, baby... I'm sweet," you laugh breathily against his cock, watching as goosebumps spread across his thighs.
You wrap your fingers around his length, licking your slick off, eyes burning into his. "Holy shit, baby," he moans, throwing his head deeper into the pillow. You flick your tongue across his slit, tasting the both of you together. Rafe's hand glides from your bangs to the top of your head, taking a tight hold. He presses you down on his cock, bobbing your head up and down to stroke his throbbing dick.
You can feel Rafe striking the back of your throat, tears pooling in your eyes. You flutter your lashes, feeling your tears run in two little rivers down your cheeks. "Ugh... You're so beautiful, baby," he grunts. His eyes roll back as you drop your hand, rubbing little circles against your clit, moans pouring from your lips between strokes. "Come'mere," he chuckles raspily."We gotta do that later... Please, baby. I need more of that."
Rafe grabs your hips, guiding you on top. You rise on your knees, grabbing Rafe's hand, sucking his fingers, cleaning, circling your tongue around his wedding band. He draws them down to your clit, rolling them gently. "All I could think about when I left the house was you, y/n. I couldn't wait to get home. You make me feel so fucking good, y/n." He gives you a sinful smile as his tongue skimming along his rosy bottom lip.
"You make me feel so good, baby," you breathe, slinking your frame hands up your frame, the skirt still pooled around your hips, boobs bouncing with every movement.
Rafe grips his thick cock in his fist. "All I could think about was seeing you naked, princess. Look at you now. Huh? Never thought Iâd get to see you like this⊠So fuckinâ good to me. You know that?" He slides his tip through your silk, circling his head on your clit. You let out a breathy moan. Rafe's eyes roll back again. "Your little noises and this wet fuckin' pussy." He presses his tip in, and you feel the stretch. "Mmm... Grab the headboard, y/n." You grip it as Rafe takes hold of the small of your waist. He thrusts up into you roughly.
"Rafe!" You cry. He lets out a growl, thrusting into you a few more times for good measure. He relaxes on the bed, beckoning you with his stare. "I want you deep in my pussy, daddy," you sigh, sinking slowly, letting your cunt swallow up his big dick. He sucks a sharp breath, snatching your hips, holding you in place.
Clasping the headboard, you start to circle your curves, rolling and working yourself on his length. "Holy shit, honey," he moans. You can hear yourselfâhow wet you are for him. Rafe can hear it, too, giving you a little smirk. "Still so wet for me?"
"Sucking your cock always gets me wet, daddy. You know that."
"Fuck, baby."
You reach back, clutching his thighs, bouncing on the mattress, nail sinking into his skin. "Shit. You're deep, Rafe," you whimper.
"So fuckin' deep." You look between your thighs, watching his long cock slicked with you once more. Rafe can feel you tightening around him; he can see the look in your eye. "That's my girl," he rasps. "So fuckin' good for me. Can you wait, baby... Cum when I tell you?"
"Rafe..."
"I thought you listened to me, y/n? Can't you wait, mama?" He chuckles as he applies a little more pressure to your clit.
"Plea-" You stutter as your body quivers uncontrollably.
"Cum." You scream his name as you toss your head back. Your orgasm radiates through your body, making your toes curl, popping off your heels. Rafe continues to thrust as you fall apart. Your muscles tighten around his dick as he works at an insane pace. "Fuck, y/n... That feels so fuckin' good, baby," he moans. "So tight."
He throws you to your back, stepping off the bed, looping his arm under your thighs, pulling you exactly where he wants you, right on the border, before slinging a leg over his shoulder, your heels tumbling the rest of the way off onto the floor. Rafe tips into you, pressing a rough kiss on your lips as he starts to thrust again. His tongue reels with yours. The two of you, utterly exhausted, panting into your kiss.
"Almost there," he mumbles, fighting back his climax to get you on last time. He wraps his arm around your thigh, using that to drive himself deeper.
"S-Shit, Rafe," you stammer. As you feel him strike your g-spot, making your body tremble.
"Again?" He gives you a cocky smile, getting exactly what he wants. You nod rapidly as tears gather in your eyes, overstimulated.
"Can you cum for daddy?"
"Y-Yes. Yes. Shit," you stutter as you grab ahold of the edge of the bed, tossing your head back. Rafe grunts and moans as he thrusts sloppily. Tears fall from your eyes as you close them tightly, your climax claiming your body. A choked cry passes your lips, giving him all you can muster. You feel the warmth of his release, Rafe answering with your name on his lips.
Rafe mounts the bed, pressing a soft kiss against your mouth. His lips drift to your flushed cheeks, kissing away your tears. "I love you, baby. I love you so much," he respires as he holds you close.
"I love you. Never leave me again..." You sigh blissfully.
"I hate leavin' you. But, fuck, do I love comin' home to you, princess." Rafe chuckles as he plays with the costume around your hips, smiling against your lips. âKeep this on for a little while longer. Yeah?â
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â meet cute of the century âą
the last thing you expected when you volunteered at your cityâs local animal shelter is to meet the hottest cat person in the world. now if only heâd just adopt one of them so youâd stop ogling him every time he drops by.
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FEATURING; wonwoo x reader
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 WORD COUNT; 25.4k words
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 TAGS; meet cute, strangers to lovers, pining, discourse abt being an idol as a career, mild angst, smut
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 NOTES; it's finally done!! and it turned out to be the longest oneshot i've written ever T T i reaaally didn't mean it to become this long but i got overly self-indulgent so here we are :3c also psa that this story features a handful of other characters from the series, so if you find them familiar that's totally on purpose HEH
this is part of the doting on you! series.
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 SMUT TAGS; unprotected sex, service top wonwoo, praise kink, voice kink, first time together, fingering, creampie, ofc they're grossly in love
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P.S. i reserve the right to refuse to add you to my taglist if you don't have any age indicators in your profile :^)
There are a handful of things that a college student can do with their free time. Studying, hanging out with friends, and maybe even picking up a hobby of sorts. You, on the other hand, use up all the hours youâre not spending on your undergrad thesis or sleeping the day away at an animal shelter just a few minutes away from your apartment.Â
Your friends constantly wonder how youâre still able to maintain a remarkable GPA with a part-time job thatâs starting to look full-time, but you just laugh their questions off for the most partâsaying that other people have got it worse than you, but can still perform leagues better academically.Â
You also tell them that most of your motivation comes from all the unadopted animals from the shelter. You started as a volunteer just to kill time on weekends when youâre free, but even if you knew better than to get attached to all those adorable faces, you eventually found yourself on the employee roster anyways.Â
Now youâre rushing to finish your degree so you can get a neat sugar mommy job thatâll let you afford to adopt everyone thatâs been stuck in the shelter for nearly a year or more.
Okay, maybe not everyone because youâre no fool with a savior complex. But just enough to give a few furry friends a new home, right?
âDonât look now,â your coworker, Mina whispers conspiratorially while youâre in the middle of snacking in the break room, âbut that cutie youâve been crushing on just walked inside. Heâs checking out the cats out in the playroom as usual.â
Right. Apart from your altruistic dream of adopting as many animals as your financial capabilities can allow, thereâs another reason youâre always looking forward to your shifts at the shelter. A reason that youâre a bit too embarrassed to let your friends know about.
You nearly choke on a potato chip when Mina informs you of the news and she immediately breaks into a fit of laughter. Glaring at her, you compose yourself with a long gulp of water before saying, âI do not have a crush on him.â
âSure,â she plays along. âIf you consider making googly eyes at the guy every time he drops by as ânot having a crush on himâ, then Iâll concur.âÂ
âI hate you.â
âNo you donât, sweetheart. Now get out there and sweet talk him into taking one of the kittens home! Pretty sure he wants one if heâs been showing up as much as he did for the last two months.âÂ
While you wouldâve argued that the so-called cutie youâve been crushing on could just like seeing the cats play around in his free time, you donât really have much energy to play mental gymnastics with Mina. Youâve had a long day of revisions and other nonsense materials you have to submit for your majors, so youâll let this one slide.
Your workplace is as bleak as every other shelter youâve seen a few times in your life. Gray walls, concrete floors, and steel cages stacked on top of each other. It looks more like a prison than anything, really, but itâs the staff and those kind-hearted souls who rehome animals that have long been abandoned that give the entire place some life.
While Mister Cutie That Youâve Been Quote-Unquote Crushing On doesnât exactly fall into either of those categories, you like to think he still leaves the building just a touch more colorful once he walks out of the front door.Â
Speaking of color, heâs wearing a loose, dark green shirt that falls just below his elbows. Cutieâas youâve deigned to call him not because you think heâs cute but because youâre yet to get his nameâhas one palm flattened across the viewing glass of the playroom. Heâs wearing his usual black face mask today, but from the way his eyes glint behind his glasses, youâre just going to assume heâs having a good time just by watching the cats frolic inside.
âYouâre here pretty late,â you state nonchalantly before standing a few feet away from him.Â
âIs that so strange?â he murmurs with a chuckle, surprisingly not startled with your sudden entrance before glancing your way. âI always show up here at this hour, donât I?â
God. No matter how many times you hear his voice, you just canât get over how deep it is. But before any of your thoughts could show on your face, you get talking.
âTrue. Youâve sparked a debate among the volunteers about your line of work, actually.â Not exactly. Youâre not sure if any of the volunteers have even seen this guy, since they mostly work day shifts. âAnyway, are you just here to check âem out or am I finally going to hand you the adoption papers?â
His eyes crinkle a bit before he shifts his gaze towards the playroom again. Most of the older cats have already been put back in their respective cages. All thatâs left inside are the kittens with way too much energy to spare. The director, A.K.A., your boss, believes that itâs best to tire them out first before settling them into individual enclosures for the night. Keeps the place nice and quiet for the evening shift fellows like yourself.
âNot yet, sadly,â Cutie says with a sigh before pointing at a small black kitten huddled up in a corner. âThat oneâs new, isnât it? I donât think Iâve seen him around before.âÂ
âHer,â you correct. âHer nameâs Hani. Sheâs a stray that someone from the university Iâm attending brought in last week. It was pretty ugly, actually. Poor thing got into an accident and was bleeding everywhere. Good thing our usual vet was paying a visit when they came here.â
âOh? Thatâs a relief then. No wonder sheâs got a little limp every time she walks around,â he observes with a saddened tone. âBut I digress. You mentioned you were attending university?â
âŠOkay, whyâd the topic of interest suddenly shift to you?Â
But since itâs a harmless enough question, you reply with, âYeah. The one thatâs just a few blocks away. Itâs kinda why the person who found Hani brought her here instead of a vet clinic. The nearest oneâs like half an hour away.â
âGood call, good call.â He nods with a look of understanding. âI hope someone comes and adopts her. She deserves all the love she can get. Well, everyone here does of course.âÂ
You flash him a conniving smile, raising your brows a few times. âYou could give that to her.â
Cutie shakes his head with another low-pitched laugh. âAs much as Iâd love to, myâŠliving conditions wonât be suitable for her at all. Or any of the other animals for the matter.â
âHm?â You stare at him curiously. âYour landlord doesnât allow pets or something?â
âMmm⊠Not exactly.â
The conversation pretty much ends there. Cutie excuses himselfâsaying that someone is waiting for him at home. You donât know why your heart deflates a little at the very real possibility that he has a significant other. Then again, if youâre this whipped when you havenât even seen his face, you could only imagine how easy it would be for him to settle down with someone who has.
Either way, itâs none of your business. And correction: youâre not whipped. JustâŠhyper aware of his presence every time he stops by.
Despite the fact that youâre dead-set on filing this strange fascination you have for the guy, howeverâŠ
âWait!â
Cutie turns around to face you with an inquisitive look. âYes?â
You swallow thickly, deciding to just bite the bullet before your nerves get the best of you. âWhatâs your name? I canât keep calling you CuâI mean, Glasses Guy in my head whenever you pay us a visit.â
He blinks for a few seconds, obviously nonplussed by your forwardness but you donât think your pride can take it anymore if you had to refer to him asâ
âYou can call me Woo,â he says warmly and you can almost see the smile that stretches behind that black face mask.
Shit. Did your heart just stutter?
âMister Wooââ
âJust Woo is fine.â
âOkay, Woo,â you start, kind of liking the way that something thatâs obviously a nickname rolls off the tongue, âjust let me know if you ever want to take Hani home. Weâre open twenty four-seven, as you already know.â
He nods. âSure thing. Is it okay if I can get your number for that?â
Now you have to fight the urge to scowl at him after heâs been so nice to you all nightâand every other night heâs dropped by.Â
This guy isnât flirting with you. He said it himselfâsomeoneâs waiting for him at home. Plus, heâs expressed consistent interest in adopting a kitten for himself a handful of times before. Maybe he just connected with Hani on a level thatâs above the others. Enough to ask for your number since the possibility of him bringing one of these angels home is becoming more and more real.Â
Yeah, thatâs definitely the reason!
So you give it to himâhastily scrawled behind an old flier gathering dust in one of the drawers on the front desk. Itâs way too big to write just yours and the shelterâs contact details on, but the other calling cards are nowhere in sight. Youâll have to ask Mina if sheâs seen them onceâ
âThanks. Iâll keep in touch,â Woo tells you while folding the sheet of paper into a sleek black Louis Vuitton wallet.
Wait a minute.
Before you can even seriously ponder about what job heâs got to be able to afford that, Woo is already out of the doorâheading into the evening streets without once looking back.Â
âGosh, I swear that guyâs an idol in disguise or something.â
Thatâs the first thing that Mina tells you when you find her doing a few rounds among the sleeping dogs in the far back. You havenât even spoken a single word about your most recent exchange.Â
âWhat makes you think that?âÂ
âHe just exudes idol vibes, yâknow? Shows up here when the place is deserted. Always acts subtle and inconspicuous. Oh and not to mention how hot he looks even with a face mask on! He could be that one idol your little sister is crazy about.âÂ
You roll your eyes at her odd ways of deduction. âMina, Iâve seen enough of Haewonâs Mingyu merch to last a lifetime and Woo definitely does not look like him.â
âOh?â Your coworker perks up with a mischievous smile. âYou finally got his name, huh?â
God. This is going to be a long shift.
The next time you see Woo is, surprisingly, not at an ungodly hour in the shelter.Â
Well, itâs still at an ungodly hour, but the change in venue is a little baffling. You were up all night studying (read: cramming) for a major exam that youâll take at eight in the morning the next day. When you were finally at your witâs end, you decidedly hauled yourself away from your laptop and fluttered off to the only twenty four-hour coffee shop in the neighborhood.Â
You donât usually frequent this place because youâve tasted their shitty americanos firsthand, but youâre not in the mood to grind some beans yourself and youâre much too stubborn to drink anything instantâconvinced the powdered concoction would only make you sleepier.
So here you are, in line for an espresso because youâve decided to give them the benefit of the doubt that maybe not everything on the menu tastes less than itâs worth. With how many other students are pulling all-nighters here, that should be testament enough that they tolerate the placeâs drinks enough to linger.Â
But, to your horror, when youâre right in front of the graveyard shift barista, he informs you that wireless payments have been temporarily disabled and that theyâre only accepting cash up front. You make a show of patting down the pockets of your hoodie to check for your wallet even if you know damn well that you left it back at your apartment on purpose. Just when youâre about to resign yourself to buying shitty instant coffee at a Seven Eleven instead, the person behind you in line clears his throat.Â
âUh, I can pay for her drink.âÂ
You donât think youâve ever whipped your head around to check for a personâs identity faster than you did at that moment. Itâs not that youâre particularly obsessed with the low timber of his voice or anything, but youâd recognize the way the shelterâs late night regular speaks in a goddamn heartbeat.
âWoo?â you scowl as he maneuvers himself to the front of the line, bringing out that same Louis Vuitton wallet you were ogling the last time you saw him.Â
He pulls out a few banknotes and places them on top of the counter with what you think is a smile behind his mask. âCouple that with four iced americanos please.â
You purposely hold your tongue about your personal vendetta against that particular drink as the barista nods, punching in Wooâs order and asking for a name. Just when you thought heâd say the same one heâd given when youâd asked, howeverâ
âSoonyoung. Oh, and Iâll get those drinks to go, please.âÂ
Your gaze is on him the entire time as the two of you shuffle to the end of the counter to wait for your drinks. Woo is doing a pretty okay job at playing it cool despite the fact that he lied about the names on his orders. Or maybe he lied when he told you his name was Woo.Â
Either way, does it matter? Itâs not strange for people to make up fake names for baristas to write on their coffeesâMina does it all the time. But something about the idea that the man standing in front of you doesnât look like a Soonyoung bothers you more than it should. It makes you wonder what his actual name is and if itâs weird to ask when he already gave you one to address him withâ
âDidnât think Iâd see you here,â he suddenly says and you nearly have a heart attack.
âUh,â you start somewhat dumbly, before finally getting a hold of your brain. âI live around the area. Thought I could use a drink if I didnât want to sleep through my lecture notes.â
He lets out a low chuckle and at that moment, you let yourself observe him a little more closely. His hair is hidden behind a black beanie which he expertly paired with an equally black parka thatâs zipped up all the way. Heâs wearing a different pair of glasses todayâone with thick, black framesâand youâre starting to get an idea of what his favorite color might be.
âIs that why I havenât seen you at the shelter these days?â he wonders. âEvery time I dropped by last week, you werenât on shift.â
Oh. Shit, heâs been visiting still? And he was looking for you?
âYup, I needed to take a few days off because if I wanna graduate, Iâve got to keep myself from failing any of my majors,â you explain as briefly as you canânot wanting to go into detail about GPA requirements and your thesis. âHow about you? Whyâre you out and about at this hour, Soonyoung?â
Itâs kind of adorable, how the tips of his ears flush pink at your words. âSoonyoungâs one of my friends. I actually went out tonight because I lost a bet and had to buy four of us coffee.â
Youâre not sure how and why you feel a wave of relief wash over you, so instead, you brush the feeling aside before leaning against the counter. âLost a bet about what, pray tell?â
Woo is quiet for a while, as if contemplating if he should unveil his losses to someone whoâs virtually still a stranger before letting out a defeated sigh.
âMario Kart.â
The snort you let out draws a few curious stares from other customers sitting near the counter and you force out an apology thatâs underscored with a hiccup of laughter. Woo doesnât seem at all offended by your reaction though. In fact, he seems even amused by it.
Not ten seconds later, the barista calls out hisârather, Soonyoungâs name and he hands you your drink while he carries a takeout package in his other hand. You try not to think too much about the way his fingers brush against yours when he gives it to you, thanking him despite the obvious redness settling across your cheeks.
âI actually meant to text you last week but I didnât know if you were comfortable with it,â Woo admits as he opens the door to the coffee shop for youâthanking him as you step out of the air conditioned space and into the humid evening air. âI wanted to ask about the adoption requirements at the shelter.â
Part of you is a little skeptical about his explanation because⊠If heâs been dropping by your workplace as often as he claimed last week, then he couldâve just asked the other staff about the details. Why wait until he meets you again to bring it up?Â
But of course, youâre way too polite to ask that to his face.
âI donât mind you texting me about that orâŠanything, really,â you say, turning up the flap on the lid of your espresso before taking a small sip. Bearable. âItâs not like Iâm too busy to respond to you. Well, I kinda am, but I can spare a few minutes.â
Woo nods with a soft laugh. âOkay. Iâll just get into detail via text later. I gotta bring these coffees back or theyâll chew me out for the rest of the night for being late. Oh, but do you need someone to walk home with you?â
The idea of having your not-work crush escorting you home flusters you more than it should and when you take another sip of your drink, it nearly goes down the wrong hole. Woo pats your back in comforting fashion when you sputter from your coffee, tears stinging your eyes as you attempt to breathe like a normal person. Fuck, you must look so fucking weird right now.
âI-I, um, sorry about that.â You cough into your fist, laughing uneasily as you grip your drink a little too tightly. âNo, itâs fine. I only live a few blocks away.â
Now that you mention it, does that mean Woo is the same? If heâs out here in this specific neighborhood at this specific hour, that would only mean he lives in the area, or is at least staying for the meantime, right? But before you could get swept up by your own curiosity, you immediately sweep any and all ideas under the rug.
âOh, thatâsâthatâs good to know.â
He sounds disappointed. Why does he sound disappointed?
âSo I guess this is goodbye? â you start.Â
Woo nods briskly. âYup. Iâll keep in touch.â
You chuckle. âThatâs what you said last time.â
Whoa. Were you propositioning him or something? Sometimes, it baffles you how one minute, youâre choking on a cup of coffeeâseveral shades embarrassedâand the next, youâre practically daring him to text you like he said he would.
âAnd Iâll make good on that as soon as time permits.â Woo shakes his head with a laugh. âIt was nice seeing you again, though. Good luck with your exams.â
You canât help the way your cheeks heat up yet again at the thought of him having remembered that you mentioned your exams. âThanks. I think I need all the luck I can get.â
When Woo turns to look at you through those thick-rimmed glasses, you almost wish you could see the smile thatâs undoubtedly spreading behind that pesky mask of his.Â
âIâll be happy to give it to you every time then.â
Today was probably the shittiest day of the week.
Not only did you spectacularly flunk the exam you took this morning whilst running on less than two hours of sleep, but your thesis adviser emailed you about several concerns regarding the latest version of your manuscript. Needless to say, you spent a good chunk of your day holed up in the university library, consulting new reference materials to back up your data since the ones you used were much too outdated for your adviserâs liking.Â
It shouldâve been something youâd consider a walk in the park, given the many revisions that have preceded this one, but it just so happens that youâve got three more exams to worry about for the remainder of the week. Meaning, you had to squeeze in a few minutes of studying in between editing your newest draft and telling yourself that maybe it wouldnât be too bad if you got held back for one semester before graduating.Â
Youâve been so caught up with your piling academic responsibilities that youâve barely looked at your phone. You only deigned to dig it out of the deepest pit of your backpack when you got a little hungry and wondered if they still let food delivery guys past the school gates. To your surprise, youâre greeted with a few text messages that you immediately feel horrible for not replying to the moment they were delivered.Â
Unknown Number [10:45]: So about those adoption requirementsâŠ
Unknown Number [11:33]: Oh. Sorry, I forgot to introduce myself. Itâs Woo.
Ignoring the fact that youâre obviously famished, you hastily type in a response after marking down Wooâs number with a black cat emoji right next to his name. It takes a moment because youâre so shaky, you end up suffering from a few typos here and there.
Me [13:10]: hey! sorry i was a bit busy and i just saw theseâŠ
Me [13:10]: what do you wanna know? iâm on a self-imposed lunch break rn
Woo đâ⏠[13:15]: No worries, I figured you got a long day ahead. Hope lunch is good at least.
Me [13:16]: actually, i havenât ordered anything yet âcause time got away from me but Anyways
Me [13:16]: you wanted details abt the adoption process?
Woo đâ⏠[13:18]: What? You haven't eaten yet?
Me [13:18]: yeah, but itâs no big deal. i could just have some food delivered.
Woo đâ⏠[13:19]: Well, Iâm out right now. I could just buy some food for you and drop it off.Â
Your eyes practically bulge out of their sockets when you read each word of Wooâs text message. Is he being serious right now? The guy just paid for your coffee last nightâa coffee that you forgot to pay back because of how surprising the circumstances were. Now heâs offering to buy you lunch?
Me [13:20]: you really donât have to, i swear!! iâve still got a few discount vouchers in baenim
Woo đâ⏠[13:22]: I insist. Iâve got my bike with me anyway.
Me [13:22]: bike? like, a bicycle?
Woo đâ⏠[13:23]: Mmm. Close. Anyway, what food do you want?Â
Now what the hell does that mean?
Part of you feels like you should be freaked out with howâŠkind heâs being to you. The world is full of weirdos who play the nice guy just to do something despicable to you in the end. Yet another part of youâa less reasonable one, admittedlyâinsists that Woo is nothing like that, despite the fact that you barely know the guy.Â
Then again, youâre tired, stressed out, and barely slept a wink last night. If the hot guy youâve been quote-unquote crushing on is offering to buy you food, whereâs the harm in accepting?
Me [13:25]: fine. i could use some yangnyeom chicken and tteokbokki.Â
Woo đâ⏠[13:26]: Nice. I know a good place.Â
Woo đâ⏠[13:27]: Iâll head out in a few, so just text me the address.
Right after sending your universityâs pin location to Woo, you start to consider the chance of him being some sort of serial stalker. Could he be biding his time, trying to let your guard down and easing personal information out of you so he could do something nefarious when he gets you alone? Fuck. Maybe itâs a good idea you didnât let him walk you home yesterdayâŠ
But despite the very real possibility of Woo being someone with bad intentions regardless of how nice he is, you see no problem in meeting him at the school gates when he arrives with your food. In fact, you donât even feel apprehensive of him in spite of all the ideas you conjured in your head over the past hour. Â
Me [14:15]: where are you?
Woo đâ⏠[14:16]: Parked by the curb in front of a bookstore. You canât miss me.
 Me [14:16]: i donât even know what you Look like today, genius
Woo đâ⏠[14:17]: I told you, Iâve got my bike with me. I donât see anyone else looking the same way within a twenty meter radius.Â
You have to fight the urge to roll your eyes. For someone you deemed as âniceâ, he can get pretty mouthy if he wants to.Â
You head to the general direction of the bookstore that Woo was talking about as you try to ignore your growling stomach. Given that the lunch rush is more or less over, the usual crowd of pedestrians has considerably thinned out and it makes it easier for you to scan the vicinity for any bike-wielding impromptu delivery guys.Â
However, the only person that does stand out to you is some dude wearing a black leather jacket, chilling next to an expensive looking motorcycle as he taps away on his phone with a matching pair of leather gloves and everything. His face is obscured by a black helmet and you wouldâve let your gaze go past him had it not been for a sudden realization that hits you right there.
Bike? Like, a bicycle?
Mmm. Close.
âWoo!âÂ
Of course the leather jacket-clad, expensive motorcycle-wielding man looks up at the sound of his name being called from across the street. The visor of his helmet is drawn all the way up and you could see that he isnât wearing his glasses for good reason. He seems to perk up at the sight of you before grabbing something from the trunk of his motorcycle and jogging to meet you where you stood.
Youâve seen him sporting a spectrum of comfortable outfits during his late night visits, but this is the first time youâve witnessed Woo looking as dapper as he is now.
âLate lunch delivery?âÂ
You donât even try to hide the way you roll your eyes as you accept the paper bag he hands to you. âThanks. How much do I owe you now? You already got me coffee and now lunch.â
He shakes his head and you find it a little ridiculous, considering heâs still wearing that huge helmet of his. âItâs on me. Itâs the least I could do to repay you for being so accommodating.â
âWoo, I havenât done shit for you âcause youâre yet to properly talk to me about the adoption process. What on earth are you talking about?âÂ
âBut you will do shit for me when we do talk about it. Iâm just repaying the favor in advance,â he rebuts cheekily before pulling back the sleeve of his jacket to check for the time. âThough as much as I want to do that now, I need to catch a flight in a few hours.â
That makes your expression morph into disbelief. âYou need to catch a what?â
âA flight. Gotta head to Japan for a few days,â Woo tells you nonchalantly, as if heading to Japan for a few days is something people do on a regular basis. âCan you make sure no one else takes Hani home before I can settle everything on my end?â
You tell yourself that youâve got time to mull over what this guy does for a living some other time. Clearing your throat, you manage an awkward smile. âUm, yeah, sure thing. Youâre really attached to her, arenât you?âÂ
âYou can say that again,â he laughs softly. âShe kinda reminds me of myself from a long time ago⊠But anyway, Iâve gotta go. Tell me what you think about the chicken when youâre done with it?â
You nod. âIâll be as brutally honest with my review as possible.â
âJust the way I like it,â Woo replies, eyes crinkling with amusement.
When you head back to the library, the person you were sharing a table with looked after your stuff for you while you were gone. You thank her profusely before settling back into your seat, grabbing the takeout packages from the paper bag that Woo personally delivered to you.Â
Before you can start wolfing down the delectable-smelling chicken he brought, however, you notice a cute sticky note plastered on the lidâa doodle of a cat with glasses and a speech bubble that says you can do it~ scribbled on the corner.
Donât overwork yourself. Itâs been ages since my last exam, but I know how hard it can be. Make sure to eat properly so you can absorb all the info you need.
When your head bangs against one of the many wooden tables in the library, the person seated at the far end stares at you with a concerned look. You canât muster the energy to assure her that everythingâs alright, though becauseâŠ
That quote-unquote crush of yours?Â
Itâs starting to become a little too real.
Youâre in the middle of throwing out old files from the back room archive when Mina peeks her head into the doorway and says, âYouâve got a visitor again.â
One glance at the old wall clock hung above the steel cabinets tells you that itâs midnight, but you know for one that this mystery visitor isnât Woo this time around.Â
Youâve been keeping in touch with him through Kakao, since you canât exactly afford to send international text messages to Japan and your new friend(?) has been keeping you posted about his shenanigans for the past week. He hasnât replied to your last message from over three hours ago and youâre not so delusional to think he got on a plane back to Korea and is suddenly here to surprise you.
When you see who it is, though, your heart warms just a little.
âWhy havenât you been texting me back?â Haewon, your sister whoâs two years younger, gets up from the seats lined up across the walls of the lobby. âI missed you!âÂ
You shake your head before pulling her into a hug. âI missed you, she says. But youâre really just looking for someone to show you around the city again, arenât you?â
âHey, missing you and needing a chaperone arenât mutually exclusive,â she huffs and you notice that sheâs in full fangirl gear againâa lightstick hanging off a strap slung across her shoulder, a windbreaker with her favorite boybandâs logo sewn on the front pocket, and of course, a photocard of Mingyu dangling from her little handbag.
Despite the fact that sheâs also in college, Haewon chose to stay in your hometown in Jeju to pursue her studies there instead. The first few months since you left were the hardestâso unused to not having your little sister go on and on and on about how much she loves SEVENTEEN. But youâve also come to appreciate the peace and quiet that living alone in Seoul affords you.Â
Besides, with how much money sheâs raised for being one of the more well-known event organizers in her fandom, Haewon can pretty much come visit you in Seoul whenever she feels like it.Â
âIâm guessing your thirteen boyfriends have a thing going on?â you ask before glancing over at the playroom to make sure there arenât any kittens left inside.Â
Haewon nods enthusiastically. âYup, theyâre having a mini fanmeet outside their company building in a few daysââ
âIn a few days?â you parrot before gesturing for her to follow you in the break room so you can get changed. âWhatâre you doing out here all dressed up then?â
Your little sister rolls her eyes. âUnnie, Iâm not some weirdo who wears their merch on a regular night for no reason. I came from this little cupsleeve event for Wonwooâs birthday. Things ran a little late because we had to help clean up at the cafĂ©.âÂ
While youâre not well-versed in fandom jargon, you have learned a few terms from Haewon here and there. Plus, she already took you to a cupsleeve event for another memberâs birthday once. Youâre not really sure who it was because the only one you do consistently remember is Mingyuâyour sisterâs ultimate bias, apparently.Â
âWhat made you stop by then?â you wonder as you exchanged your work uniform for a loose shirt. âYou didnât tell me you were coming in advance. I couldâve fetched you from the airport.â
âI did tell you in advance.â She pouts. âBut you said you were busy working on your manuscript when I did, so it mustâve slipped your mind.â
Oh. Okay, now you feel bad. âSorry. Iâll make it up to you this weekend with dinner?âÂ
Haewon whines. âUnnie, their fanmeet is on Saturday and I leave on Sunday.â
âSo? How long is that going to be anyway?â
âUh, all day?â
You sigh. âFine. How about you crash in my place tonight and we can rewatch Hometown Cha Cha Cha while stuffing our faces with ramen?â
âDeal.â
After timing out for the evening, you say goodbye to Mina, whoâs just waiting up for your other coworkers whoâll cover the next shift. Haewon talks your ear off about what happened in the event she attended as you both walked back to your apartment and, while only some of the things sheâs saying makes sense to you, itâs nice to be in your little sisterâs company again.Â
âOh, by the way, here.â
You stare at her curiously as she rummages through her bag, handing you a photocard enclosed in a dainty-looking toploader.Â
âWhatâs this for?â you ask.Â
âYou told me back then that Wonwoo was your type,â Haewon explains with a grin. âSo I did my best in one of the parlor games and won that extremely in-demand photocard just for you.â
You scan the piece of idol merchandise in your hands for a few minutes moreâstaring at Wonwooâs face as if waiting for him to speak. You never really understood the appeal of collecting photocards. As long as it makes Haewon happy, you wonât bat an eyelash.
But now sheâs giving you one to keep for yourself and the more you stare at the idol printed on the sturdy paper, the more you think that youâve seen him somewhere.
Then again, Haewon has been talking about these boys since they debuted years ago. The familiarity mustâve stemmed from those numerous fancams and music show performances that she forced you to sit down and watch with her.Â
âYou better take care of him, okay?â Haewon pouts. âIf I see him suddenly being sold for a high price, Iâm never going to let you live it down.â
âI barely know how the market for this works, so you donât have to worry about that,â you chuckle before carefully sliding the toploader inside your own bag. âSo what ramen are we eating? Shin Ramyun or something else?â
Me [21:17]: btw, when are you coming back again?Â
Me [21:20]: someone was asking about hani earlier and i feel like youâve gotta come back here to assert your dominance.
Woo đâ⏠[02:35]: Shit, sorry. I forgot about the time.
Woo đâ⏠[02:35]: My friends and I had a birthday celebration at the izakaya near our hotel. Itâs been a while since we got to unwind like this.
Woo đâ⏠[02:36]: Anyway, whoâs the funny guy who thought he could have my cat?
Me [02:38]: wow. YOUR cat? đ€šđ€šđ€š
Woo đâ⏠[02:40]: Youâre still awake?
Me [02:40]: yeah, my little sister is in seoul and weâre binging our favorite drama
Me [02:41]: how about you? why are You still awake?
Woo đâ⏠[02:45]: Taking care of drunk friends. Remember Soonyoung?
Me [02:45]: what about him?
Woo đâ⏠[02:47]: Pleading for forgiveness in the toilet while he retches his guts out.
Me [02:47]: huh. some birthday party. whoâs the celebrant anyway?
Woo đâ⏠[02:47]: Me.
âWhoa. You okay?â Haewon asks when you suddenly lurch forward on the couch, choking on the ramen you were in the middle of slurping.Â
You thank your sister when she offers you a glass of water and you gulp it down to soothe the burning sensation in your throat. âItâs fine. I just received a surprising text is all.â
âFrom a boyfriend?â she teases.
You scowl. âNo. From a friend. Just a friend.â
âBoo. But youâll tell me once you land yourself your very own Hong Dusik, right?â
The look on your face only worsens at the reference sheâs made to the drama thatâs still playing on screen. âIâd actually rather die than have someone like Dusik as a boyfriend. If the whole enemies to lovers thing works with Hyejin, it really won't with me.â
âTrue, youâve always been a mellow lover,â Haewon agrees and you roll your eyes. âThatâs why Wonwoo would be perfect for you~â
âI think me landing a Hong Dusik-esque boyfriend is more likely than me getting together with a world famous idol but okay.â
Youâre momentarily distracted from your conversation when your phone vibrates in your lap again, andâ Fuck.Â
You forgot to reply to Woo.
Woo đâ⏠[02:55]: Fell asleep on me already?
Me [02:56]: no, no. sorry. my sister was just talking to me.Â
Me [02:56]: anyway, itâs your BIRTHDAY?
Woo đâ⏠[02:57]: Hahaha, yes. Itâs been a while since I could sit down and actually celebrate it with my friends.Â
Me [02:58]: is that why you went all the way to japan? for a little birthday getaway?
Woo đâ⏠[02:58]: Hm⊠something like thatÂ
Me [03:00]: iâll give you haniâs adoption papers as a gift
Me [03:01]: that or you let ME treat YOU to something nice for a change
Woo đâ⏠[03:05]: Well, Iâll be back in Korea this Saturday, but wonât be free until late at night.
Me [03:05]: back to regular programming, huh?
Me [03:06]: we can celebrate later if youâre busy, you know.Â
Woo đâ⏠[03:07]: Itâs okay. I wanted to spend time with you anyways.
âYou sure thatâs just a friend youâre talking to?â Haewon asks with an unimpressed stare as you choke on your instant noodles for the second time. âThe only way Iâd react like that to a text is if my friend told me one of our professors is fucking his TA despite being married. If thatâs the case, you gotta let me in on the juicy details.â
You make a face at her. âIsnât that way too specific?â
âIsnât that way too specific?â Haewon mocks. âWhatever youâve got going on with this friend of yours, promise Iâll be the first to know once you make it official?â
âHaewon!â
For the sake of your own sanity, you only reply to Wooâs message once youâre tucked in bed and Haewon is comfortably dozing on the couch in the living room. Sheâs a heavy sleeper that passes out quickly after a long day, so you donât feel particularly worried about your little sister barging into your room when you type out a response.
Me [03:43]: gotcha. just meet me at the shelter after your thing.Â
Me [03:45]: happy birthday, woo.
You donât wait for him to type out a reply anymoreâeyes drooping into slumber as you let the screen of your phone fade into sleep mode.Â
Unbeknownst to you, a man who just finished putting his intoxicated friends to bed an ocean away stares at your chat history with a fond smile, heart racing just a few beats faster at the prospect of what awaits him at home.
Youâre just about done cleaning up the big dog kennels when Woo drops by on a bright Saturday morning.Â
The sound of his deep âhelloâ nearly made you drop all the cleaning utensils you were about to put away. When you turn around to confirm that the shelterâs nighttime regular has indeed switched things up and decided to visit during daylight hours, youâre too busy scowling at him to mind the fact that youâre all gross and sweaty from all the hard labor.Â
Sure, you texted him about taking up a day shift today, but you definitely didnât expect him to visit when he just got back to Korea a few hours ago.Â
Surprisingly, Woo isnât donned in all black this time around. Heâs wearing a gray pullover with some muddled text you canât quite read with the hood pulled all the way up, concealing the white cap resting on top of his head. Of course, his signature face mask is still in between you and his no doubt handsome countenance, but youâll take what you can get.
âWhatâre you doing here?â you ask, a bit breathless before you notice that takeout bag heâs setting down on one of the empty tables. âI thought youâre not gonna be free until tonight.â
âThought you could use another lunch fix,â he says nonchalantly. âWell that and I wanted to personally give you some cool trinkets from Japan.â
The sentiment makes your heart stir a little, but you end up voicing out a dry laugh before stuffing the shelterâs cleaning paraphernalia inside the broom closet. âKeep doing all these nice things and Iâll start thinking youâre in love with me.â
Woo laughs but does absolutely nothing to deny the allegations.
âHere.â Your brows arch a little when he fishes something from the pocket of his hoodie, handing it to you. âI wasnât sure which one youâd like so I just got all of them.â
Youâre a bit reluctant to receive his gift in your current stateâdirty hands, dirty clothes, dirty everythingâbut Woo doesnât seem to mind when he drops a small plastic package full ofâŠ
âKitties!â You coo out loud at the assortment of colorful enamel pins inside before gawking at him. âSeriously, Woo, youâre way too nice to me. Iâm starting to feel indebted.â
He shakes his head with an adorable laugh. âItâs nothing. I swear. They just reminded me of you when my friends and I passed this one booth at a festival.â
Shit. They reminded him of you?
âSo are you finally going to sit down and talk to me about adopting Hani or are you gonna keep skirting around again, mister?â You place a hand on your hip, pointing an accusatory finger in his direction as you tuck his gift safely in the back pocket of your jeans.
âSurprise, I actually came here to do just that. I still have an hour free before I have to go to work,â Woo admits and him mentioning work taps in on your innate curiosity about what he does for a living. âBut your coworker said something about rounding up the dogs and putting them back in the kennel?â
Oh. Shit.Â
As if on cue, Minaâalong with a few on shift volunteersâemerge down the hall, all of their hands gripping several leashes as an army of dogs fills the hallway with excited and agitated barking alike.Â
âAre we good to go?â Mina yells over the noise.
Trying not to look too disappointed that your time with Woo has been cut short, you give Mina a thumbs up before striding off to meet them halfway. You take it upon yourself to take a few of the dogs off one of the volunteersâ hands and he looks at you with withering relief when you do.Â
âYep. Everythingâs as fresh as a daisy now,â you inform them. âHope these guys didnât make too big of a mess up in the front though. That would mean Kinoâs turn for cleaning duty came a little early.â
âHey!â The volunteer in question complains. âIâve got a date later, noona. Donât go saying weird stuff like that.â
Youâre just about to tease him a little more but you suddenly feel the force of a couple of former strays tugging you forward disappear. Thatâs when you notice that Woo made his way to your side, guiding the dogs silently as he helps lead the first of them to the kennel.
âOh, you donât have to,â you insist but your friend(?) merely shakes his head.Â
âItâs no big deal,â Woo reassures.
It doesnât help that this particular hallway is a little cramped. Youâre practically standing arm to arm as you all make it to the end. You can practically smell the expensive cologne wafting from his clothes amidst the scent of dog fur thatâs starting to permeate the air. When Woo lets out another soft laugh when one of the dogs he has on a leash licks his hand, you know itâs over for you.
It takes about half an hour to settle all fifteen big dogs into their respective cages and by the time itâs over, youâre convinced that you need a shower now more than ever. As Mina and the rest of the volunteers head back to the reception room, you decide to take a break and help yourself to the takeout that Woo personally delivered yet again.
âThanks for your help. Cleaning day is really one of the toughest days of the month. Especially when we have to clean up the big dog kennels,â you sigh before plopping into an empty seat in the break room.Â
âDonât mention it,â he says and you find yourself imagining a smile behind his mask yet again. âI actually have a dog at home, too, so I would now. But sheâs definitely more tame than these guys.â
That makes you pause. âIs that why youâre beating around the bush so much about adopting Hani? You think she wonât get along with your dog?â
He hums a little before stuffing his hands in the pockets of his hoodie. âThatâs one of the reasons, yes.â
âWell, you wonât know unless you try,â you huff as you unseal the takeout packageâthe delectable scent of yangnyeom chicken pervading your senses. âAnyway, youâre going to sign the papers this time, right? Right?â
You have a feeling that youâve finally got him cornered, but before Woo can even formulate a response, a ringtone that definitely isnât yours starts going off inside the break room.Â
Your friend(????) answers it with a wistful sigh.Â
Itâs so quiet that you can vaguely make out the voice at the other end of the line saying, âHyung. Everyoneâs looking for you. Where are you?â
You try not to stare at Woo as he takes the call out of pure decencyâdistracting yourself with your food. But you canât help but listen in when their conversation is the only thing you can hear at the moment.Â
âYeah, Iâll be there soon. Tell everyone Iâm sorry for the hold up, Mingyu.âÂ
The moment that name leaves Wooâs mouth, you freeze mid-chew. Did he say Mingyu? LikeâŠthe idol that Haewon is downright obsessed with? No⊠It was probably just someone with the same name. It is pretty common, after all.
When he ends the call, you flash him a tight-lipped smile that manages to conceal your momentary surprise. âRain check?â
âRain check,â Woo sighs in agreement.Â
You nod. âItâs okay. The more you keep delaying Haniâs adoption, the more presents I get from you.â
âAnd youâre absolutely right about that,â he humors you before reaching out to ruffle your hair. You havenât even recovered from that little gesture he just did when he asks, âHope our plans for later are still up though?â
Woo mustâve caught the look on your face with the way he retracts the hand that was just on top of your head to snicker into his palm. âDonât tell me you forgot. We were supposed to celebrate my birthday, remember?â
Curse you and your habit of making plans at ass oâclock in the morning. You always forget them!
âUh, it kinda slipped my mind?â you admit sheepishly as you pick at your food. âI ended up going for a day shift âcause I have to see my sister off at the airport tomorrow.âÂ
He nods in earnest and it kind of makes you feel bad about your short term memory. âItâs alright. Iâll just drop by some other time to get the paperwork over with. Iâve disturbed you enough as it is.â
âNo, itâs fine!â
Your sudden outburst makes Woo look up at you with a confused stare. âHm?â
âI-I can still meet up with you later,â you stammer and you have to force yourself not to bury your face in your hands out of sheer embarrassment. Pull yourself together, damn. âIf youâre not too tired from your plans for the day, of course.â
He mentioned something about having to go to work, and while you canât imagine what sort of work has to be urgently done on a Saturday, youâll still respect his time.Â
Woo blinks for a few seconds, as if still digesting what you just said before his eyes disappear behind his glasses with a soft chuckle. Your brows cinch together, not getting whatâs so funny.Â
âNoted. Iâll come pick you up here later, still? If youâre not comfortable with sharing your address with me yet.âÂ
Heâs so thoughtful, you might actually give him all your personal details at this point. But at the end of the day youâre actually a person with a head full of common sense, so you answer him with, âSure thing. Thanks for going out of your way to come hang out despite how busy you are.â
âNo, thank you for always putting up with me,â Woo insists with a shake of his head. âI swear Iâm not hassling you with this whole adoption thing on purpose. Thereâs justâŠa lot of things to consider on my end. I hope you understand.â
You wave away his concerns with a laugh. âJust keep getting me more of this chicken and weâll call it quits.â
âYouâve got yourself a deal.â
When Woo sees himself out of the break room, you fumble for the plastic package in the back of your jeansâtaking one of the adorable black cat enamels before pinning it in the front pocket of your uniform. You canât help the smile that creeps up your face when you see your reflection on the small mirror sitting on the table.Â
How could you be this down bad for someone whose entire face youâve never even seen before?Â
Haewon đȘ· [17:20]: Are you suuure you donât wanna come to the fan meet?
Haewon đȘ· [17:21]: Iâve still got a few extra passes :3c youâd get to see wonwoo in the flesh!
Me [17:30]: why do you want to set me up with wonwoo so badlyÂ
Haewon đȘ· [17:31]: Bc weâre sisters? And itâd be cool if we stanned MinWon together?
Me [17:32]: âŠnot even gonna ask you to elaborate on that
Haewon đȘ· [18:00]: Unnie ă
ă
Me [18:00]: why? whatâs wrong, hae?
Haewon đȘ·[ 18:05]: Mingyu looks sooooo much better than I remember
Haewon đȘ·[18:06]: The girlfriend allegations must be true
Haewon đȘ· [18:06]: Only a man in love can smile like that!
Me [18:07]: or: a man who relies on fanservice to get paid?
Haewon đȘ·[ 18:08]: RUDE!!!!
Haewon đȘ· [18:08]: Hereâs a pic of Wonwoo to shut you up
Haewon đȘ· [18:09]: [Sent an attachment]
Me [18:10]: idk if i should find the fact that you think some kpop guy affects me in any capacity amusing or concerning
Haewon đȘ· [18:11]: !!!! Take that back wtf?? Wonwoo isnât just âsome kpop guyâ?????
Me [18:10]: sure he isnât.
Haewon đȘ· [19:45]: Good news!!
Me [19:45]: youâre finally going to get off my back about the whole wonwoo thing?
Haewon đȘ· [19:46]: No ^_^ My Monday final got canceled so I can stay in Seoul for a day more!
Haewon đȘ· [19:46]: Aka you donât have to wake up early to drag your ass to the airport w me
Me [19:47]: oh. thatâs cool. whatâre your plans for tomorrow then?
Haewon đȘ· [19:48]: Gonna attend the pre-recording for a music show :3
Me [19:50]: âŠHaewon i swear to god if you ask me to do what youâre about to ask me to do
Haewon đȘ· [19:50]: Come with me pretty pleaaaase?
Haewon đȘ· [19:51]: Iâm using my adorable dongsaeng powers to get you to agree
Me [19:55]: thereâs no talking my way out of this, is there?
Haewon đȘ· [19:55]: Nope <3
Me [19:56]: fine. just text me the details. i need to go out soon.Â
Haewon đȘ· [19:56]: HEHE have fun !!
You werenât lying when you texted Haewon that you had to go out soon. You agreed that youâd meet up with Woo for his post-birthday celebration at 9 P.M. Hell, you even called a local bakery to have a personalized cake made for pick-up before you head over to the rendezvous point. Everything was already set right from the start.
But then you ended up falling asleep while scrolling through Twitter and now the clock reads 10:45 P.M., and youâre rushing to pull on a ratty sweater instead of the cute outfit you planned for the night as you rush out of your apartment.
Me [10:47]: FUCK IM SORRY
Me [10:47]: i was SUPPOSED to take a five minute nap but i didnât realize how tired i was
Me [10:48]: are you still up to hang out? i totally get it if not though.
You immediately stuff your phone in the pocket of your jeansânot even bothering to glance at Wooâs reply when it vibrates with a text notification. Your conscience is much too guild-ridden to read any sort of reassurance heâd undoubtedly give to you despite how long youâve made him wait.Â
Two hours, jeez. Youâd be furious if someone was that late on you.
When you arrive at the shelter after doing a couple of quick detours, youâre panting like you just won first place in a marathon. Needless to say, itâs a pitiful sight to behold when Woo is leaning across his motorcycleâlooking much too attractive in that stupid leather jacket of his.Â
âIs this what the kids call fashionably late these days?â he chuckles.
If you werenât so apologetic, you wouldâve rolled your eyes so instead, you give him a crumpled paper bag with a smile that borders on overcompensating.
âHappy birthday?â
Woo looks like he was just about to say something until a quiet mewl interrupts him midway. You gaze at him with a puzzled look until he stifles a soft laugh, pulling the lapel of his jacket open to revealâ
âHani?â You scowl.
The black kitten is tucked away snugly in the inner pocket of Wooâs jacketânearly blending in with the leather. Itâs almost as if two pairs of big yellow eyes are staring at you from a void.Â
âFinally got the papers over with when you fell asleep on me,â Woo chuckles before scratching behind her ears. âSo I guess it wasnât so bad that you made me wait for two hours.âÂ
âHey, I said I was sorry!â
âYes, and I heard you,â he insists before peering inside the paper bag you gave him. âWhatâs this?â
âNo peeking until we get to your good old thinking spot,â you scold, smacking his hand away.Â
A hand that you just noticed is also clad in a leather glove.Â
He shakes his head playfully before putting his arms up in surrender. âFor someone whoâs two hours late, youâre pretty demanding.â
âWoo!â
During his last few days in Japan, Woo told you about his favorite thinking spot thatâs specifically located beneath Hannam Bridge. Thereâs an old watchtower that was built before the bridge even existed. I go there when I want to clear my head.Â
When he said he wanted to bring you there for his belated birthday bash, the ghastly possibility of him turning out to be a serial killer luring you to your doom crossed your mind for half a second before you ended up agreeing anyway.
Now here you are, drowning in the musk of his cologne as you press your cheek against the fabric of his jacket. Heâs definitely going past the speed limit with how sharply the wind sings in your ears, but instead of complaining about it, you tighten your arms around his torsoâletting the warmth of his body seep into yours.Â
âItâs not so scary if you donât think about it too much,â you hear him shout from the front. âLook to your right! This is why Iâve always liked doing late night rides!â
Easy for him to say. Heâs brave enough to harbor a kitten inside his jacket and a person whoâs never ridden a motorcycle before at a hundred kilometers per hour! But despite how terrified you are of falling off his bike, you do as he says anyways.
When you tilt your gaze in the direction of the Han River, youâre immediately greeted by the dazzling lights that glimmer across the water. You havenât been to the districts on the other side of the river, but you think youâre content with getting to see them from afar.
With the roar of an engine ringing in your ears. With the summer evening breeze whipping past your face.
With your arms around someone whoâs slowly but surely leaving his mark in your life.Â
âAre you sure this is legal?â
Your companion glances behind him as he makes his way to the aforementioned watch towerâa knapsack full of god-knows-what slung around his shoulder while he carries the paper bag with your âgiftâ in his free hand. âIâve never seen a single âNo Trespassing' sign since Iâve started going here ages ago, so probably.â
âProbably?â you parrot and Hani, who youâve deigned to carry in your arms after that grueling motorcycle ride, meows as if sheâs just as incredulous as you are. âSo itâs still possible for us to get arrested?â
âYeah, but whatâs life without a little risk?âÂ
Unbelievable.
Yet, despite the common sense you were oh-so proud of this morning, you still follow him up the winding steps of the watchtower, which is hardly even a watchtower given that itâs a few meters beneath the widest bridge in the city. Woo wasnât lying about his strange description of it after all.
âWell, here we are,â he announces when the two of you reach the platform on the very top. The edges are lined with metal rails that are beginning to rust with age, but seem sturdy enough to grant you some sense of securityâno matter how sparse. âIâll just set this up. You can go enjoy the view if you want.â
Woo doesnât even let you get a word in before he unzips his bag and brings out a checkered picnic blanket. He gently lays it across the dusty concrete, smoothing out the fabric before fishing some more stuff inside his gym-bag-turned-picnic-basket. You keep yourself from making any snide comments about his choice of venue because despite the unorthodox location, you actually get why heâd find it peaceful here.
Itâs far enough from the freeway that the sound of vehicles rushing through the night can barely reach your ears. If you listen closely enough, you can even hear the water flowing below much more clearly. You close your eyes to get a better feel of the placeâimagining a six-foot something guy leaning across the rusty railings as he watches the city lights sparkle across the Han River.
âThere we go.âÂ
You startle when you feel Wooâs warm, leather-clad hand on your shoulderâprompting you to turn around and see his handiwork. In the middle of the picnic blanket is something that looks suspiciously like a portable emergency light. How he got his hands on something like that, youâre not entirely sure, so you decide to focus on the other details instead.Â
Like the two unopened bottles of soju right next to a take-out package of your favorite yangnyeom chicken.Â
âDidnât we agree that I was treating you to something this time around?â you grumble as you absentmindedly stroke Haniâs fur.Â
âWe did, but then you overslept andââ
âOkay, fine! Point taken!â
Woo snickers as he hands you the paper bag you brought for the trip. It looks even worse than it was when you ran all the way to the shelter and you can only hope the package inside isnât completely ruined.Â
You decide to let Hani down inside the gym bag that Woo left unzipped. Surprisingly, the newly adopted kitten makes a home out of it quicklyâcurling up into a ball as her tail swishes every now and again. Cute.
âDonât judge, okay?â You breathe out nervously as you take the plastic container out of the bag. âI had a legit cake custom-made and everything butâŠyeah. Overslept.â
When Woo doesnât respond a second too long, your gaze nervously rivets to his face to parse for a reaction. Was he disappointed? Should you have gotten a different design?
The moment you see the dazzled look in his eyes, however, you realize that isnât the case.
He receives the little cupcake with open arms when you give it to him. Itâs chocolate topped with bad fondant icing art, but you didnât really have a choice. When you spotted it in the convenience store earlier, you grabbed the one that looked most like a kitten and dipped. Itâs nice to know that he might actually like it after all.
âOh and uh, sorry, but I couldnât bring any candles for you to blow,â you add sheepishly. âYou can just make a wish and pretend.âÂ
Wooâs gaze drifts to you for a moment before his eyes crinkle with laughter. âI donât really have to do that though. My wish has already come true.â
Huh?
To your chagrin, he doesnât elaborate. Instead, Woo invites you to sit on the picnic blanketâcarefully removing his boots so he wouldnât track dirt all over the food and you follow suit.Â
You fill the silence with your goings-on for the rest of the day and how exactly you ended up dozing off and heâs kind enough to listen to every word. However, when you ask if he wants to do a toast, he shakes his head.
âI need to drive you back, remember?âÂ
You shoot him a dirty look. âSo you took me all the way out here just so I can have two bottles of soju all to myself while you sit there and listen to me talk about my day?â
â...Yes?â
Men are so fucking infuriating sometimes, you can hardly believe it.
âNope.â You firmly shake your headâplucking the bottle opener he set down on the blanket to pop the caps off. âYouâre drinking with me. Just quit driving past the speed limit so we wonât die in a freak accident.âÂ
You immediately notice the stiffness in his shoulders as you shove the bottle of soju in his hands and part of you feels kind of bad for being pushy. For a moment, you allow yourself to scrutinize him for a bit longer. What could possibly be deterring him from drinking after going out of his way to do all this?Â
Thatâs when you realize he still has his mask on.
Does heâŠhave issues about people seeing his face?
That would definitely explain why he hasnât once taken it off in all the times youâve met him so far. With that in mind, you promptly decide to tell him that okay, he doesnât have to if he really doesnât want to, but then Woo is already reaching up to peel the blasted face mask off.Â
Your chest seizes with panic, hands flying in front of you to keep him from doing something against his will. But the effort is futile because it only takes a second for him to remove andâŠÂ
Fuck.
Cue the choir of angels because goddamn does this man look like heaven.
Woo shifts somewhat uncomfortably under your stare, as if heâs waiting for you to blow up all over his face or something. But youâre much too mesmerized by too many things to form any sort of response right away.Â
The sharp cut of his jaw. The gentle curve of his Cupidâs bow. The tinge of red spreading across his cheeks.
âI canât believe youâve been gatekeeping yourself from me all this time,â you whisper with a strained laughâpurposely peeling your gaze away for the sake of your own sanity. âI knew you were hot, butâŠGod. I hate you.â
âYouâŠdonât recognize me?âÂ
The question brings you out of your feelings for a moment, making you glance at him with a questioning stare. âAm I supposed to?â
Woo gapes at the question like he didnât expect that to be your response before shaking his head vigorously.Â
âN-No. Anyway, you said I was hot but you hate me?â
You narrow your eyes at him before taking your first swig of soju. âDonât start getting all cocky with me, mister! Iâve got eyes and I canât help that youâre objectively attractive. Just stating facts here.â
When Woo smiles for the first time without the figurative cockblock that is his signature black face mask and honestly? If you died right now, youâd die happily.Â
The night presses on in a haze of soju, spicy chicken, and the occasional visit from Hani who uses either of your laps as her personal bed for about five minutes before switching to the other person.Â
This is the longest youâve been with Woo and youâre starting to realize that he isnât much of a talker, which you completely understand. You canât imagine someone whoâs hell-bent on keeping what he looks like a secret for so long being a chatterbox.
âOh, but you mentioned something to me at the shelter one time,â you pipe up before scooping a forkful of chicken into your mouth.Â
âYeah? What is it?â Woo asks softly as he pets Haniâs back.Â
Feeling just a little bit tipsy from the alcohol, you try not to stare too hard at his handsome face or the way his lip curls at the edges with a tiny smile when Hani purrs from his touch.
âYou said Hani reminded you of yourself from before,â you whisper as your gaze drifts to his leather-gloved hands. âIs it okay to ask what you meant by that?â
The sound of the river flowing beneath the watchtower fills your ears as you bask in the silence. Itâs a pretty personal question. Youâd totally get it if he decides not to answer, but youâre much too curious to keep yourself from asking.Â
âWell, I wasnât a stray or anything, but there was a time in my life that I felt soâŠaimless. I lost someone near and dear to me, and I didnât know how to deal with it for a very long time.â
Hearing the earnest ring of Wooâs voice, you force yourself to snap out of your subtle inebriationâscooting a little bit closer to him on the blanket to make sure you catch every word.Â
âI didnât get into a life-threatening accident like this one did either, butâŠâ He trails off for a moment, stroking the scar that you know runs along Haniâs sternum but has long healed with his fingers.Â
âI managed to get back on track when the people around me showed me their support. They didnât leave even if all I wanted was to be left alone. If it werenât for them, it mightâve taken me even longer to move past what happened. Worse, I might not have moved past it at all.
âWhen I saw Hani that day, she looked scared of all the other cats. Like she wasnât ready to let anyone get close to her just yet.â Woo breathes deeply before taking a small sip from his bottle. âI guess I was the same way, too. Healing isnât linear. Sometimes, when I think Iâm all better, one day, I just spiral back to where I started in the next one. ThatâsâŠkind of where you fit into the picture, actually.â
The brief pause in his story makes you blink at him, surprised. âMe?â
He nods. âYou used to feed the strays in your neighborhood, right? You even had a schedule and everything.â
âThat was months ago,â you mutter. âYou mean you already knew me back then? Because of that?â
âIâŠactually live in that area, too.â He clears his throat, that familiar blush settling across his cheeks once again. âI often saw you feeding the strays because thatâs usually the time I got back from the cemetery. One day, things got a bit too much and I kind ofâŠbroke down in the park instead of just doing that at home.â
He says it like heâs embarrassed and now that he mentioned it, you vaguely remember consoling a stranger during your days before volunteering at the shelter. You donât recall much of it thoughâjust the memory of awkwardly patting his back before sending him off feeling just a bit better because you saw him smile a little.
Other than that, youâre drawing blanks.
âHow exactly did I help you, though? If you donât mind me asking.âÂ
âI wouldnât say you helped me or anything, butâŠâ Woo pushes his glasses up the bridge of his nose while slyly avoiding your eyes. âI distinctly remember you saying something likeââ
Hey, itâs just a bad day. Or a bad week. Or a bad month. I donât know. But itâs not a bad life. Itâll get better soon. I promise.
Fuck. Maybe you do remember.
âIt didnât really mean much to me at the time. Honestly, it kind of pissed me off at first,â Woo admits with a guilty chuckle before taking another sip. âBut you were right. Sometimes, things got worse. Other times, it got better. But one day, I realized that I got to a point where it doesnât hurt as much anymore.
âIâm not usually this open about my problems, but I learned overtime that talking about them makes them less taxing to deal with. Almost like Iâm just talking about the weather, you know?â He smiles softly and you swear your heart melts at the sight of it. âAndâŠI also donât want to be closed off from others anymore. Back then, I mostly just kept everything to myselfâbottling it all up until it was just unbearable.âÂ
âNow youâre here spilling your guts out to some random college senior,â you snicker before taking another swig of your soju. You pout when you realize the bottleâs all empty before placing it back on the picnic blanket. âThatâs some character development.â
âIt really is.â
The silence sets once more and your eyes wander off to the city so close yet so far away. The lights from the skyscrapers glimmer like stars across the calm waters of the Han River and you like to think it compensates for the fact that the sky is blocked out by the bridge stretched far and wide above you.Â
This isnât how you imagined your first stargazing date would be like, but itâs a good start.
Although, the moment the idea crosses your mind, youâre quick to jolt at your own thoughts.Â
This isnât a date. Youâre just celebrating his birthday together. Alone. On a picnic blanket. With one of the loveliest sceneries youâve laid your eyes on. In a place where he claims that he never once showed to anyone else.Â
âHey, is thisââ
Your breath hitches in your throat when you turn to look at Wooâonly to find his face mere inches from yours.Â
âWhat?â he whispers and despite the fact that youâre wearing a sweater, you feel goosebumps rise across the skin of your shoulders.Â
âUh.â Fuck. âIs this a date?â
His mouth curves into a smile that you canât quite get a read on. âIt can be what you want it to be.â
âOkay,â you breathe out, suddenly feeling hot all over as his eyes flicker to your lips. âJust so you know, I donât kiss on the first date.â
When Woo laughs again, itâs a deep-seated noise that makes your insides tingle with an indescribable feeling. You donât really want to give it a name.
âOkay,â he repeats before pressing his forehead against yours. âWe can have our first date next time then.â
Of course the sly fucker dives in for a kiss anyway.
âH-Hey,â you whisper in between, trying not to get too distracted with how plump his lips are as you keep holding him still by his broad shoulders. âYouâre going to end up crushing Hani if you d-donât cut it out!â
Woo sighs against your lips before pulling away regretfully. For a moment, he stares at the sleepy kitten on his lap, gazing around cluelessly after being roused from slumber. His expression softens for a moment as he scoops her up with both hands, settling her down in the comfort of his gym bag. She lets out a satisfied mewl before curling into a ball once more.
âBetter?âÂ
Youâre not sure if heâs asking you or the cat, butâŠ
âBetter,â you whisper before fisting the lapels of his jacket and crushing your lips with his.
You donât know where youâre pulling all this pent-up frustration from. During the very brief period that youâve gotten closer to Woo, your general opinion about him never really deviated from heâs cute and heâs hot. Nothing more, nothing less.
Yet here you are, gasping into his mouth as he flattens his tongue against yours. A strong arm hooks around your waist, pressing your bodies infinitesimally closer and your skin is slowly hitting a fever pitch beneath your clothes. Something wild and all-consuming burns in your veins and you channel it into a moan that makes his grip on you grow tighter.Â
You donât know how exactly you wound up on top of his lapâknees planted on either side of his hips as he continues devouring you with no intention of leaving anything behind. You can feel the expensive material of his leather gloves when his fingers graze along the hem of your sweater. Your skin tingles like every nerve ending has been set alight and if you werenât already rendered dizzy by his intoxicating cologne, youâre in for a ride with each second his touch hikes further up your torso.
Woo sighs against your lips before pulling away momentarilyâeyes aflame before he removes his fogged up glasses with one hand, tossing them somewhat carelessly on the picnic blanket.Â
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.Â
Why was that so hot?
Youâre too stunned to even draw a breath as he stares you down without the constant partition of his glasses. Has his gaze always been this sharp? Have those eyes always been transfixed on you?
âThisâŠThis wasnât part of the plan, if youâre wondering.â Woo croons out the words huskily. Like an afterthought he only considered out of concern for you. Cute. âI swear I didnât have any ulterior motives whenââ
You giggle, before pressing a kiss on his nose. Wooâs eyes widen just a fraction.
âWhat made you cave then?âÂ
The way his Adamâs apple bobs has no right to be that alluring, but it pulls you in anyway. âYou looked really cute tonight.â
âIs that all?â
âUm, I thought it was sweet that you still got me a cupcake after you overslept?â
You groan, forehead bumping into the crook of his neck. Jesus Christ, he smells so fucking good. âHow long are you going to hold that over my head for?â
You feel the vibrations of his laughter humming against your connected chests and your heart swells as Woo wraps his arms around your frameâpulling you into a firm embrace as the heat that engulfed the both of you slowly simmered into the cool evening air. You can feel him tracing idle shapes along your shoulder blades and the small of your back, and it does nothing to keep you from melting into his touch.
Itâs so strange how easily you gave into him. Youâve formally known Woo for about three months and became legitimate friends(?) for less than three weeks. If you told Haewon about this whirlwind romance of yours, sheâd hit you upside the head and tell you youâre being way too hasty for a man.Â
But if itâs a man with a black kitten taking a nap in his gym bag while he kisses you senseless underneath one of Seoulâs busiest freeways, you suppose you can make an exception.
âWe should go,â Woo murmurs softly. âYouâve still got to accompany your sister to the airport right?â
âMmm. Nope. Sheâs staying a day longer,â you inform him with the same quiet tone, letting your fingers trail up to his hair so you can toy with the strands in your fingertips. âBut I do have some more edits to get over with in my final manuscript, soâŠyeah. We should go.â
Despite wanting nothing but to stay there in Wooâs little safe haven, the two of you manage to miraculously peel yourselves away from each other. Your face is hot the entire time you helped clean up his little picnic setup. When he shuts off the portable emergency light, you squint as you parse your way through the darkness.Â
You kind of end up tripping on air like a complete idiot, but before you can tumble off the rails and into the river, Woo catches you by the waistânot so different from how he held you ten minutes prior.
âCareful,â he mutters as he lets you go and you canât help but silently mourn the loss of his touch again. âI donât want to be accused of being a murderer.â
You snicker as he gently scoops Hani out of the gym bag and back into the spacious compartment in the lapel of his leather jacket. For a sleepy kitten, sheâs surprisingly compliant. âI actually thought all this time you were some sort of serial killer trying to lure me to my doom.â
âYou thought that but you came with me anyway?â
âWhy not? Youâre hot.â
That night, you let Woo drive you back home now that heâs more or less beaten the serial killer allegations. You tell him that he doesnât have to walk you to your apartment, but he insistsâsaying that he can afford to leave Hani on his bike for a few minutes.Â
Of course, it ends up with another heated makeout session against your front door. This time, those stupid leather-clad fingers hike high enough on your back to toy with the clasp of your bra while his other hand remains tangled in your hair to pull you impossibly closer.
âI have to go,â he rasps before swiping his tongue along his bottom lipâgiving you a sudden itch to sink your teeth into it. âBut youâre making it really hard to leave.âÂ
Heâs making it really hard to tell him to go home, too, but as much as you want to kiss the night away, you still have some of your wits about you.
You chuckle as you reluctantly extract his wandering hands away from your body. Woo sighs in surrender with a nearly inaudible laugh.
âYou already bent my I donât kiss on the first date rule, genius,â you remind him breathlessly. âDonât push your luck just yet until weâve had that so-called first date next time.âÂ
He grins. âSo thereâs going to be a next time?â
Deciding to keep him on his toes, you bat your eyelashes coquettishly at him. âOnly if you want to.â
Woo leans in to press his lips against the corner of your mouthâtrying his best to suppress the grin on his face.Â
âIâll hold you to it then.â
Despite having lived in Seoul for four years and having a hardcore fangirl for a sister, todayâs the first time youâll be attending the pre-recording session for a music show.Â
Needless to say, you feel like an outsider amongst the fans armed with all sorts of idol merchandise and dressed in the prettiest outfits. Haewon managed to mooch a lightstick off one of her friends for you to use, but despite the fact that you know not a single soul would give two shits about you here, the alienating sensation remains.Â
âHey, donât be too nervous,â your little sister chortles as the marshals usher the crowd into the studio. âAll you gotta do is wave that lightstick to the beat. Youâll blend right in, I promise.â
You crack her a nervous smile. Oh, the things you do to make Haewon happy.
Itâs a little bit of a blur from there. You squeeze past the throng of fans while simultaneously trying not to lose your sister in the crowd. Some of the staff are handing out photocards that you hear are exclusively given away at this specific broadcast and were worth hundreds of thousands of won. Youâre not sure which member Haewon got for you, but knowing your little sister, she mustâve snagged one of Wonwooâs.
When the two of you are settled in your seats, you take the time to admire the set. You never imagined idol music show stages being this massive in person. In fact, you never really spared an active thought about them. Most of the info you do know about these kinds of things are secondhand accounts from Haewon from all the times sheâs been to several broadcasting studios across the city.Â
âDid you bring the PC I got you last time?â she asks before taking out the broadcast ones out of their plastic package.Â
You shake your head. âSorry. That Wonwooâs sitting in a different bag.â
âWell, at least you havenât sold him,â your little sister laughs before handing you one of the cards in her hands. âI told the staff to give us Mingyu and Wonwoo, but they gave me Hoshi and Wonwoo. Itâs okay though, âcause Hoshiâs my bias wrecker anyway.â
Ah. More fandom jargon that youâre just now hearing about.
Just as the staff is starting to do the final preparations on stage, you decide to check out the broadcast PC that Haewon just gave to you. When your eyes land on Wonwooâs face, however, you suddenly feel your blood freeze in your veins.Â
YouâŠdonât recognize me?
One of the staff members announces that the boys will be out shortly to begin the pre-recording session but the words are all but muted in your ears.Â
Because how the hell can you focus on anything else when the face of the man who drove you back home last nightâthe man who kissed you until you were lightheadedâis plastered on a photocard that could be exchanged for an entire fortune?
This canât be right, you muse with a scowlâfishing your phone out of your bag as your trembling fingers make haste to open your messaging app. He canât be the same guy.Â
Woo đâ⏠[09:35]: Good morning, I hope you got enough rest!
Woo đâ⏠[09:36]: I have a schedule later this morning so I might be MIAÂ
Me [09:40]: itâs cool. i just woke up actually hahaha
Me [09:40]: i also donât mind! iâm heading out with my sister in a while too
Me [09:41]: have fun at work(?)
Woo đâ⏠[09:45]: Haha I will :) Have fun with your sister!
With a deep breath, you lock your phone just as the lights start to dim and the crowd cheers their hearts out. Haewon urges you to turn on your lightstick and the part of the studio thatâs filled to the brim with an audience is lit up with hundreds of dazzling lights. Â
You wouldâve appreciated the sight if only a certain someone didnât play you for a fucking fool.
Just as promised, the boys that your little sister has been crazy about since their debut all fill the stage gradually. Some of them greet the fans with wide grins and silly little gestures. The others are a little more reserved with their greetingsâall shy smiles and reserved movements.
Like Wonwoo, for example.
After several years of only knowing Mingyu thanks to Haewon, this is the first time you were able to pick out another one of them on stage with ease. Why wouldnât you be able to recognize him?Â
He had you pressed up against your front door only a few hours ago.
It all made sense now. The affinity for keeping a face mask on. The late night visits. The fact that he seems to make an exorbitant amount of money from a job he doesnât want to disclose.
Woo is Wonwoo from SEVENTEEN.Â
And he somehow forgot to let you know over the course of your time together.Â
You try to keep down the frustration that burns in your throat, making you feel like the roof of your mouth is stuffed with cotton. Itâs much easier to mask your feelings once the performers all get into position and the music starts. The loud beat blaring from the speakers coupled with the well-practiced fanchants from the audience easily overpower the sound of your hitched breathing. Even Haewon was too engrossed with the performance to notice your distress.
Still, thereâs not much you can do about it now. Especially when Wonwooâs the one who starts up the first verse of their newest song.Â
He looks soâŠdifferent from the gentle giant youâve come to know over the past few weeks. Thereâs a dangerous look in his eyes that you know is all for show, but it makes your spine tingle at the sight of it nonetheless. The words to the song are raspily sung into the mic and if you werenât convinced that he and Woo arenât the same person, you most certainly are now.
After all, itâs his fucking voice that got you so down bad in the first place.
Once his part is done, Wonwoo quickly heads over to the next formationâa complete professional by heart. He belts out each dance move with such perfect precision and you wouldnât expect any less from an idol whoâs spent years honing his talents. But despite how awe-struck you are to see this side of him in person, it just wasnât enough to completely erase the feeling that youâve been betrayed.
It stings even more when the song ends and the studio is filled with deafening screams from the audience yet again. For once, Wonwooâs stoic expression cracks with a handsome grin as he and the rest of his bandmates huddle together and exchange high fives.Â
That person on stage is both the man you caught feelings for and a stranger at the same time. He easily smiles at the fans the same way he would smile at you, but the difference between Woo and Wonwoo is that only one of them is willing to show this part of his life to the rest of the world.Â
Did he not trust you enough? Did he think youâd act like some crazy fan if he told you the truth?
You love Haewon. You love your little sister more than anything in the world, but you canât pretend that things are okay when the man who kept you in the dark is standing right in front of you, clueless of the revelation that occurred to you just now.
âWhere are you going?â Haewon calls out when you make your way out of the rows of seatsâearning yourself a collection of glares from the other fans in the vicinity. âUnnie, hey!â
The last thing you want to do is ditch her for something you promised youâd see through until the end but youâre just so fucking done. You donât want to see Wonwoo right now. Or hear him and his stupidly perfect voice through the studioâs sound system.Â
Right now, you justâŠwant to be alone.
About two weeks after you stormed out of the first and last music show pre-recording youâll ever attend in your life, things have more or less mellowed out. Sort of.
Youâve been taking fewer and fewer shifts at the shelter as graduation draws ever-so near. But aside from wanting to focus on getting your academic backlogs over with, you also wanted to stay away from the one place that Wooâor should you say Wonwooâcan easily find you and subsequently corner you to talk. Because you donât want to talk to someone whoâs basically been lying to your face the entire time youâve been friends.
Well, you suppose if you really donât want to hear even a peep out of him, you shouldâve blocked his number altogether. But thatâs not really the case.
Your phone buzzes while youâre in the middle of signing off adoption papers to a couple who wanted to adopt one of the shelter cats. You thought it was pretty adorable of them to make that decision since having a pet together is almost as good as having a kid together after all.
Thinking it was from your adviser, you snuck a glance towards the notifications in your homescreen. But when you see a familiar emoji plastered on the senderâs nickname, youâre quick to put it face down on the wooden desk.
Woo đâ⏠[09:35]: Good morning. Are you at the shelter today? Can I speak to you?
How he has it in him to keep texting you as if you havenât given him nothing but radio silence for the past two weeks, youâre not sure. Wonwoo mustâve sensed that something was amiss the moment you stopped replying to him altogether, but he never tried to pester you about what was wrong. Instead, he simply continued sending all those messages to check in on you despite the fact that itâs almost as if heâs talking to a wall.
Well, itâs not like you have time to entertain him now anyways.Â
âAre you sure she doesnât have a name yet?â One of your clientsâthe boyfriendâasks as he smooths down his newly adopted Maine Coonâs fur.Â
The girlfriend rolls her eyes. âYou heard the nice shelter lady, Vern. This one just wouldnât respond to any name they tried to give her.â
You agree with a half-hearted laugh, trying your best to ignore the guilt thatâs perpetually swelling in your heart the longer you ignore Wonwooâs pleas. âYup. Our director said sheâs got a bit of an attitude, but I think she just has high standards.â
Vern the Boyfriend makes a funny face at that. âSo youâre saying that she doesnât like the names sheâs been given so far?â
âMhmm. We tried Cupcake, Winter, Princess, and Lily, but she liked none of those. Try naming her something fancy. â
âChairman Meow?â
âVern.âÂ
âWhat? You gotta admit itâs funny, Sohee.â
Sohee the Girlfriend rolls her eyes. âYes, but itâs an overused pun now! Think of something else.â
âHmm. How aboutâŠMilana?â
âIs that because Seokmin wouldnât shut up about his trip to Milan?â
âUgh, yeah. Two months later and he still wonât stop talking aboutââ
âThe gorgonzola he had for dinner the night before he flew back to Korea. I know. You wonât stop talking about it either.â
âHey, Seokmin-hyung pays great attention to detail when it comes to food. You canât help but want it, too.â
As you observe the friendly banter between the couple, you canât help the smile that spreads across your face. You donât come across two people who complement each other as well as they do, and from the curious glint in their newly adopted catâs eyes, you think she likes being in their company as well.
âFine, letâs test it out first,â Sohee huffs before scratching behind the Maine Coonâs ears. âWeâre going to call you Milana. Does that sound good to you?â
When the cat nuzzles her hand with a pleased meow, Sohee and Vern turn to glance at each other at the same timeâtwo matching smiles plastered on their faces.
God. You can only wish to have what they do.
Once the rest of the documents have been finalized, you and Minaâwho just got back from updating the vaccination records for all the animals in the shelterâsee your most recent clients off. Vern the Boyfriend, Sohee the Girlfriend, and Milana the Child are off to the streets to start the next chapter of their lives or whatever.
When the door to the front entrance clicks shut, you let out the longest, deepest sigh known to mankind. Your coworker stifles a laugh.
âLooks like someoneâs jealous,â Mina comments.Â
You whine. âHow could I not be jealous of that? Theyâre so in love, itâs sickening. They even got a kid together!âÂ
âYou know, you could easily have that too if you just stopped avoidingââ
âOh, look at the time!â You interrupt her a little too theatrically, stomping off to the direction of the break room. âGotta go meet my thesis adviser. Kino and the other volunteers should show up in the next hour, though!â
You donât catch the frustrated look on Minaâs face as you make a hasty retreat, but it doesnât make you any less guilty about trying to skirt around the topic every chance you get. Minaâs always had your back during these past two weeks. Though you never told her why youâre avoiding your not-so-quote-unquote crush like the plague, sheâd always come up with excuses and alibis to throw him off your trail.Â
Which, coincidentally, happens again just as youâre changing out of your uniform.
âI donât suppose youâre looking for a sibling for Hani?â you hear Mina sigh from outside.
The person sheâs talking to laughs softly. âNo. I think you know why Iâm here again.â
God. That fucking voice.
âWell, again, sheâs not here,â your coworker bluffs. âAnd uh, word of advice, I get that youâre hot shit and all, but if you keep trying to bother my friend who, for some reason, doesnât want anything to do with you, I might have to call the authorities.â
Whoa, whoa, whoa. Wait a second.
Thatâs a little too different from the typical âoh Iâm sure sheâll come around one of these daysâ spiel that Mina always feeds to Wonwoo every time he visits. Sure, youâre not yet ready to face him yet after everything thatâs happened, but itâs not like you want him thrown in jailâ
âUh, right. I get it,â he says awkwardly, clearing his throat in the process. âItâs just that she hasnât spoken to me in days and Iâm a little worriedââ
âThatâs clearly a sign for you to back off, buddy.â You can almost see Mina with her arms crossed, rolling her eyes. âIâve been keeping myself from saying anything about it, but Iâve always found it strange how often you visit a goddamn animal shelter. And now that sheâs clearly avoiding you, youâre still trying to corner her? Are you a stalker or something?â
Fuck. This isnât how the conversation is supposed to go!Â
Minaâs job is to just politely drive Wonwoo away so you can slip out of the building without having to talk to him. But your coworker mustâve misinterpreted your persistent reluctance to meet him as genuine fear andâŠwhile youâre glad you have a friend who looks out for you like that, sheâs going about all of this the wrong way!
Wonwoo doesnât speak for a long time and your heart squeezes at the notion that heâs been called all those harsh words when all he wanted to do was talk to you. You didnât even give him any reasons as to why you suddenly decided to cut him off. But instead of marching out there to face him and clear the air yourselfâŠ
You stay hidden in the break room like a fucking coward.
âI understand why youâd assume that, but I donât have any ill intentionsââ
âThat's exactly what a guy with ill intentions would say,â Mina scoffs. âDo both of us a favor and just leave, yeah? And stop trying to contact her when she obviously wants nothing to do with you anymore.â
The silence hangs thick from outside and despite being in the break room, you swear you can almost choke on it yourself.Â
Youâre not sure what expression Wonwoo is wearing. Actually, you donât even know him well enough to know those kinds of things. The most youâve seen of his face was during that quiet night you spent together two weeks ago and youâve severed contact with him all because of something that he probably could have explained if only you gave him the chance to.
âOkay,â he whispers so softly, you almost donât catch it. âThanks for your time.â
Fortunately, Mina doesnât try to add any more fuel to the fire. All you hear is the sound of retreating footsteps and the sound of the front door clicking shut.Â
Itâs only when your coworker pokes her head inside the break room that you realize youâve been holding your breath.
âHeâs gone now,â she murmurs with a comforting smile. âAnd if he doesnât stop bothering you even after that, Iâll raise the complaint to the director himself. Iâm sure he can pull some legal strings to keep that guy out of the area for good.â
You find it kind of ironic that a few minutes ago, Mina was teasing you about him and now things have escalated into restraining order territory. But you canât really blame her for it.
Especially when youâve done nothing to clear up the misunderstanding.
âRight. Thanks, Mina.â You manage a thin smile, fingers absentmindedly drifting to the black cat enamel you still pinned to your uniformâs chest pocket.
âI really appreciate it.â
Haewon đȘ· [10:30]: Unnie hiii
Haewon đȘ· [10:33]: Can you call me as soon as you read this? Xoxo
You get to check Haewonâs message three hours late because finally, finally youâve managed to defend your thesis after innumerable sleepless nights and neverending changes to your manuscript draft. Your panelists and advisers had nothing but praises to sing about your workâeven going as far as to promise that your paper will definitely be published in the next volume of the academic journal youâd been secretly hoping itâll get selected for.Â
Itâs still surreal that the only thing youâve got left on your university to-do list is to attend the commencement rites scheduled in three weeksâ time. Four grueling years have really just gone by in a flash.Â
After enjoying one of your last lunch breaks in the quad with some old classmates whoâve also conquered the figurative beast that is their undergrad thesis, you excuse yourself for a while to give your little sister a ring. Haewon picks up on the second ring.Â
âAbout time you called,â she huffs. âI thought you were sleeping in the day again.â
You shake your head with a laugh despite the fact that she canât see the gesture. âNo more sleeping in the day for me âcause Iâm graduating.â
Haewon gaspsâloud enough to create static across the line. âReally? Oh my god. Thatâs good news then! Mom and dad were actually getting worried about you, you know? Youâve been throwing yourself into that stupid thesis of yours for a month now.âÂ
It takes a while for you to formulate a response, something akin to guilt creeping into your heart at the prospect of worrying your parents sick. But then again, whatâs done is done. You can catch up on the several hours of sleep and countless brain cells youâve lost trying to make your final manuscript actually make sense.
âItâs all good now,â you reassure. âAll you guys have to do now is fly over to Seoul for my graduation and I can pack my bags and go back to the countryside as soon as I can.âÂ
You half-expect Haewon to laugh off your haste to travel back to your hometown and say something about how youâre better off in the city than this old dump.Â
But youâre met with silence instead.
âUm,â she starts nervously after a few moments. âI know most of the stuff thatâs been stressing you out is gone now, but⊠Are you sure youâre okay?â
The question makes you swallow thickly. âOf course. Why wouldnât I be?â
âUnnie, Iâm your sister,â Haewon says a-matter-of-factly and you can almost picture her scowling at you. âWe both know youâve been acting really weird ever since the pre-recording. I couldnât pester you about it âcause I had to go back home the next day. And I didnât want to bother you while you were finishing up your thesis.
âSo now that all those obstacles are out of the way, do you mind telling me whatâs wrong?â
The sound of the other students milling around the quad rings in your ears as you process Haewonâs words. When you take a deep breath, the exhale is accompanied by defeated laughter.
Youâre an idiot to think you could ever escape your little sisterâs scrutiny.
âI know youâre going to give me shit if I say itâs nothing you should worry aboutââ
âYouâre right,â she interjects. âI will give you shit.â
ââbut it really is nothing you should worry about,â you continue anyway, toying with the hem of your sweater with a wistful sigh. âLong story short, itâsâŠboy problems. Boy problems that Iâve ignored long enough that they just went away all on their own.â
At the other line, Haewon makes a strangled noise as if thatâs not the answer she was expecting. âCome again?â
âYeah, Hae. Your big sister actually has boy problems,â you chortle. âWeird, right?â
âYes and you didnât even bother telling me about it at all?!â She crows angrily. âYou have to give me the gist or Iâm hanging up and booking the next flight to Seoul.âÂ
For a moment, you hesitate and give yourself a moment to think about what you can and canât tell Haewon over a phone call when sheâs a whole plane ride away from you.Â
She absolutely cannot know that the boy in question is Wonwoo. Youâll probably spend more time trying to convince her that what youâre saying is true than avoiding a pity party. So instead, you tell her:
âWell, this boy and I hadâŠsomething good going for us, I think. I like him, you knowâreally, really like him. But then one day, I found out that heâs been keeping this important thing about himself from me.â A sigh. âLike, I know some stuff is none of my business, but itâs so easy for him to let others know about thatâŠthat thing, yet somehow he never bothered to tell me. I couldnât help but feel like he didnât trust me enough.â
Surprisingly, Haewon lets out a hum of understanding. âYeah, thatâs kind of a dick move on his part. Did you confront him about it?â
You find yourself tongue-tied for a momentâa bit embarrassed to admit to your little sister that you chose the cowardâs way out of this.Â
âUm, thatâs the thing. I kind of ghosted him when I found out,â you tell her sheepishly. âI donât think he knows the reason why I suddenly just dipped to this day. Havenât spoken to him inâŠtwo months.âÂ
âUh-huh. So all this time, youâve been burying your guilt in schoolwork. Is that it?â
The straightforward tone catches you off guard for a second. âThatâs notââ
âUnnie,â Haewon calls out firmly, making you close your mouth. âAgain, Iâm your sister. I know things about you that others donâtâthings that you donât either, probably. And trust me when I say this, but you are not the confrontational type. Donât worry though because itâs perfectly fine to avoid the things you donât want to deal with. Especially if youâre dealing with a person thatâs more trouble than theyâre worth.
âButâŠyou said that you really, really like him. Present tense.â She pauses briefly, as if letting you digest what sheâs saying a little better. âIf the circumstances were even slightly different, I wouldâve cheered you on for ghosting someone who hasnât been one hundred percent honest with you because, duh? Deserved. But from the way youâve been coping with what happened, I canât help but think that avoiding him like this isnât what you wanted to do at all.âÂ
Haewonâs words flow from the speaker and lance straight through your heart, and you start to wonder when she started sounding so reliable. Youâre used to looking out for her even with the distance separating you. But ironically, itâs in your last year of college that your sister effortlessly dissected the dilemma thatâs been plaguing you for weeks.
âLook, I think youâll feel much better about all this if you just talk to him,â she continues when you donât utter a word in response. âNot that Iâm siding with some semi-lying jerk, but maybe he had his reasons for hidingâŠwhatever he was hiding from you? If he gives you a bullshit excuse, then at least the ghosting will finally be justified, right?â
Her frankness makes you snort. âI guess.â
âGood. Now hang up and call him now.â
â...What?âÂ
âYou heard me.â
âHaewon, I canât just call him out of nowhere after ignoring him for so long.â
âPfft. Of course you can! If he doesnât answer, then that still justifies the ghosting because he obviously doesnât want you enough. Men like that donât deserve you, unnie.â
â...Fine. Point taken.â
You end the call after Haewon makes you swear to keep her posted about the situation and your love life in general from now on. Sighing, you reluctantly scroll through your messaging appâfinding a conversation thatâs long been buried by more recent texts from other people after he sent his final messages to you.
Woo đâ⏠[02:35]: Itâs been three weeks since you last replied. Hope youâre doing okay.Â
Woo đâ⏠[02:36]: Mina told me that you wanted nothing to do with me anymore but I really donât understand why becauseâŠarenât we good? Didnât we have something back there? Or was I just reading you wrong the whole time?
Woo đâ⏠[02:55]: Either way, she was right about one thing at least. Iâve probably made you uncomfortable with my texts. Kind of pathetic now that I think about it.Â
Woo đâ⏠[03:01]: Iâm sorry for constantly bothering you like this. Itâs just thatâŠI want to know what went wrong.
Woo đâ⏠[03:05]: Itâs getting harder for me to sleep at night knowing I fucked up something that couldâve been the start of something nice. I was already planning our first date, you know?
Woo đâ⏠[03:10]: Fuck. Now it just sounds like Iâm gaslighting haha.
Woo đâ⏠[03:17]: Maybe I am. Maybe Iâm not. I donât even know anymore.
Woo đâ⏠[04:25]: What I do know is that I miss you. So much.
Woo đâ⏠[10:05]: Uh. Sorry about all of that. I had a few drinks andâŠyou know how it goes.
Woo đâ⏠[10:12]: Iâll stop texting you for real now.Â
Woo đâ⏠[10:15]: I hope your studies go well. Thank you for being part of my life, no matter how short our time together was.
Fuck.Â
This is going to be much more difficult than you thought.
You donât really blame yourself when it takes you a few days to decide whether or not you should call Wonwoo. The choice has been weighing on you like a cloud above your head and you had to decline several invites to go out from your friends because you simply cannot sit still, knowing that you have to do something aboutâŠwhateverâs going on with the two of you.
Part of you insists on just leaving it as it is. Wonwoo is an idol thatâs almost a decade into his career and youâre much too certain that heâs met enough people in his life to deem the loss of your company specifically a big deal. He has his members, his fans, and anything else a person could ever want.
So what if some college senior he doesnât even know that well just ghosted him out of nowhere?
But even with that logic, you still end up holding your breath before pressing the call button one Tuesday afternoon.Â
There are a total of five attempts made and all five lead you straight to voicemailâeach instance making your heart grow heavier and heavier once the prerecorded message comes to an end. You secretly fear that he mustâve blocked your number altogether. Why wouldnât he after youâve wasted his time as much as you did?
Others wouldâve considered this as a sign to just give up. The universe is basically telling you that the brief time you shared together would yield nothing more. Wonwoo has his own career to worry about and as do you, now that youâre finally going to be ejected from university and into the life of an unemployed fresh grad. Youâre better off not chasing after the things youâve purposely run away from in the first place.
So why on earth are you looking up the exact address of his company building, making the long commute for the slim chance of running into him against all odds?
The security around the area might look lax but you can spot the assortment of security guards stationed both inside and outside of the company building pretty easily. Given the nature of the business theyâre running, it would make sense that theyâd put up all possible countermeasures against people who might try to inconvenience their artists in any way.
Not wanting to be branded as a crazed fan, you decide to keep your distanceâpurposely lingering outside the shopping center just across the street as you brainstorm how exactly youâre going to meet up with Wonwoo.Â
But as the minutes ticked past, your sense of reason is starting to overpower your desire to clear things up with him. For one, you donât even know what his schedule looks like. How can you be so sure that heâll even be there today? Worse, would Wonwoo even want to speak with you after everything? Despite having kept the fact that heâs an idol a secret to you all this time, he has all the right to refuse speaking with you when you never even gave him a chance to explain himself.
The noise of the busy district fades in the background as your eyes fall to Wonwooâs final text message. You havenât even thought of texting him since you considered reaching out. But with the fact that your earlier phone calls didnât go through, you donât think you can bear seeing your apologetic messages get denied in the very real chance that heâs blacklisted your number altogether.
God. You feel so pathetic.
âHey, itâs you!â
You immediately blanche at the feeling of someone placing a hand on your shoulderâturning around to see who it is only to be met with the sight of two familiar faces.
âOh,â you voice out somewhat dumbly. âMissâŠSohee? And Vern?â
The couple who adopted a cat from the shelter flashes you pretty smiles, the two of them carrying grocery bags in each arm. Sohee perks up when you recognize them. âYup! I didnât expect to see the nice shelter lady around these parts. What brings you here?â
âJustâŠstuff.â The laugh you spare them is a little too forced, but if they notice, they donât comment on it. âHow about you guys? How has Milana been?â
âFeels right at home in either of our apartments,â Vern chuckles. âYou were right about her having high standards. We always end up doing our grocery shopping here instead of the supermarket near my place âcause Lana refuses to eat any of the cheap cat food being sold there.â
Sohee sighs in agreement. âMhmm. You wouldnât even think she was a rescue with how high maintenance she is, but weâre idiots that dote on her all the time. Itâs just a good thing we work right across the street from here.â
Feeling endeared with how much they spoil their new child aside, the latter part of Soheeâs statement catches your attention for a moment. âSorry? You work right across the street?â
The moment the words leave your lips, the charming smiles on their faces falter before the couple before you share a look. A brief moment of telepathic communication mustâve occurred between the both of them, as if wordlessly discussing whether they should respond, but in the end Sohee relents.
âYeah. Vern and I work at HYBE,â she chuckles. âIâm actually surprised you donât recognize him, since heâsââ
âA very loyal employee that the nice shelter lady canât possibly recognize,â Vern interjects with a cough into his fist and the immediate reaction makes it easier to put two and two together.
Heâs an idol. One hundred percent an idol.
Deciding to play along, you offer up a nod in understanding. âI see. Guess you guys are heading back for the day?â
âYep. We had one of the other membersâuh, I mean, one of our friends look after Milana while we had our grocery run,â Vern explains not-so-smoothly.
âAs much as weâd like to stay and chat for a while longer, our baby kind of needs us,â Sohee tells you with an apologetic look. âI hope things at the shelter are running smoothly! Weâve seen how dedicated you guys are to taking care of those poor animals.â
You nod. âOf course. Iâll see you guys around?â
âAnytime!â
You and the beautiful couple exchange quaint bows in farewell before the two of them start walking away. But with each footstep that they take further and further away from you, the itch to run after them and ask what youâve been dying to when they said they both worked at HYBE grows all the more unbearable.
Cut it out, you mentally hiss at yourself. You canât bother other people about your issues with Wonwoo. Thatâs just a whole new low.Â
You shouldâve just gone the opposite direction when the conversation ended. You shouldâve just directed yourself to the nearest bus stop back to your apartmentâburied all of this in the past where it belongs.
But itâs as if your body has a mind of its own. The next thing you know, youâre sprinting towards Sohee and Vern before they could cross the next intersectionâsurprising the couple with your sudden re-entry.
âDid you need something?â Sohee asks, accommodating and confused all at once.
Now or never.
âYes, actually,â you dole out breathlessly, pursing your lips before adding:
âDo you guys know where Wonwoo is?â
Out of all the ways you thought this day could turn out, you never wouldâve imagined being in the backseat of one of HYBEâs music producersâbreezing through the cityâs freeway as she interrogates you about just how exactly you know Jeon Wonwoo.
âSo youâre the reason heâs being so off lately,â Sohee chuckles before switching lanes. âWonwooâs always been the quiet type, but sometimes you can just tell when thereâs a lot on his mind. Isnât that right, Vernon?â
Vernon, who you come to realize is part of the same group as Wonwoo, glances at you from the rearview mirror with a shake of his head. âI can vouch. Wonwoo-hyungâs been working on sharing stuff with us, but of course thereâs still some things heâd like to keep to himself.â
I also donât want to be closed off from others anymore. Back then, I mostly just kept everything to myselfâbottling it all up until it was just unbearable.
Great. Now you feel twice as horrible.
âHonestly, I was kind of scared that you guys would think Iâm a sasaeng,â you admit with a dry laugh before settling further into the carâs plush upholstery.Â
âWhile we have no reason not to think that with all the weirdos popping up these days,â Sohee starts before her lips curve into a smile, âit just so happens that Soonyoung also canât keep his mouth shut about Wonwooâs little crush.â
That makes your face heat up a little. âSoonyoung likeâŠWonwooâs friend?â
âYou might know him better as Hoshi,â Vernon explains.Â
Hoshi, Hoshi, HoshiâŠ
You snap your fingers once you figure it out. âYeah. Heâs my sisterâs bias wrecker.â
âNow we learn that your sister is a fan, too? Huh. Small world.â
âAnyway,â Sohee interjects. ïżœïżœïżœThe reason why we believed your explanation was because Soonyoung described Wonwooâs crush as an animal lover. Heâs not so much of a blabbermouth that he gave us more details aside from that, but Vernon here told me about how Wonwoo always comes late to their unit meetings because he keeps making all these detours first.â
Vernon stifles a laugh. âI actually found out about the shelter because Coups-hyung insisted that we follow him around to figure out where heâs been going. It didnât occur to me at the time that his animal lover crush and the nice shelter lady could be the same person.â
At this point, you can honestly get used to being called a nice shelter lady. But that aside, you canât help but flush even further at all the things being revealed to you right now.Â
ItâsâŠa lot to unpack.Â
First, Wonwoo has a crush on you? A complete nobody? Then again, from how often heâs been seeking you out before things went to shit, you could infer that heâs at least a little bit interested from how he kept going out of his way to see you. Heâs even late to meetings because of his little visits. This so-called crush was quite obvious, you just donât like how flustered hearing it out loud makes you feel.
âBut then Wonwoo-hyung just started showing up on time to our meetings during our comeback promotions,â Vernon continues. âWe were glad we didnât have to keep waiting for him to start, butâŠwe also noticed that heâs been kind of down lately. The first time it happened, I assumed it was just an off day for him, though now that we met you like this, thatâs definitely not the case.â
Wonwooâs been feeling down? Because of you?
If the roles were reversed, you can say that youâd feel the same if he just stopped talking to you when you thought you were already growing closer. It doesnât help that the last time you were together, you shared far too many kisses that mere friends should indulge each other with.Â
You sigh, leaning your head against the headrest.
Youâre such an idiot. A selfish, inconsiderateâ
âWell, here we are.â
When the car pulls over, you donât even realize that Sohee already left the freeway and drove into one of the roads overlooking the Han River. You can barely keep yourself from choking on your own breath when you spot a very familiar motorcycle parked in front of the vehicle. It doesnât help that Sohee pulled over a certain spot underneath the elevated highway that youâre very much certain youâve already been to once before.
âHyung doesnât know that we know about this place. He never brings anyone else here,â Vernon informs you with a small smile. âFrom the look on your face, we can assume that heâs already brought you here though, right?â
You canât even deny it at this point. âYeahâŠâ
Sohee moves to unlock the doors before glancing behind the driverâs seat with an encouraging look. âWell, how about you clear things upso we can start going on double dates and stuff.â
âSohee,â her boyfriend groans.
âWhat? I think itâd be a great idea.â She pouts. âWe can even rope Nari and Mingyu into tagging along. Then itâll be a triple date.â
âWhat she means to say is,â Vernon cuts in before Sohee can get another word out. âNo pressure. You go sort out the stuff you need to with Wonwoo-hyung. Iâm sure the two of you can make the best decision for each other once you get to talk properly.â
The best decision, huhâŠ
Your new friends watch you with wordless encouragement as you open the door to your left, letting out a long-winded breath so you wouldnât be too psyched out by the circumstances. You thank them both with a subtle nod as you gather enough courage to see the person youâve been longing to meet again for a while now.
Now or never, you repeat to yourself before finally stepping out of the car.
Wonwooâs thinking spot looks much different in the day than it does at night.
You had a pretty hard time navigating the short terrain from the road to the old, weathered steps of the watchtower because of the lack of proper illumination. If it werenât for Wonwoo guiding you the entire time, you wouldâve face planted into the pebbled pathway on the first few steps.Â
The sun is already setting when you make it to your destinationâred orange rays splintering through the high rise buildings on the other side of the river bank. Itâs not difficult to spot Wonwooâs tall figure leaning across the rusty railing of the watchtower, a gentle smile gracing his handsome face as he plays with the growing kitten in his arms.Â
He doesnât notice you at the foot of the concrete steps right away, too engrossed with playing with Hani to take in the rest of his surroundings. But the longer you watch them from afar, the more your chest twists with guilt.
All this time, you never really thought about how Wonwoo mustâve been faring since you ghosted him. You merely assumed that heâd still be living his best life despite what happened between the two of you. The thought that heâll still be better off without you in his life spurred you on to solely focus on the things youâve got going on your end. You didnât consider just how your actions would affect him. Not even once.Â
But now, despite having such an adorable cat to keep him company, it isnât hard to tell that heâs not in the most stellar of moods.
Itâs not like youâve seen Wonwoo smile a lot when you still knew him as Wooâno thanks to his silly little face masks. But you always liked how his eyes crinkled behind his glasses whenever you said something he finds funny or amusing. The easygoing body language he always seemed to have around you.
Thereâs none of that now.
âWonwoo.â
He visibly stiffens at the sound of someone calling his name. Cautiously, Wonwoo tucks Hani closer to his chestâglancing around for anyone who could have infiltrated his safe haven.
When his eyes land on you, you can almost hear his breath hitch from where youâre standing.
Seeing no indication that he doesnât want you here, you swallow the lump in your throat before climbing up the stairs. Each step you take is familiar yet foreign at the same time and you can hear your heart pounding in your ears the closer you get to him. The startled expression on Wonwooâs face doesnât falter even when youâre mere feet in front of him on top of the watchtowerâlike heâs having a hard time grasping your existence.
Hani, however, doesnât seem all that fazed. The black kitten mewls in delight at the sight of you, squirming around in Wonwooâs arms, which seems to snap her owner out of his stupor.
His throat bobs. âYou know my name.â
You laugh softly. âIt isnât hard to figure it out when youâre as famous as you are.â
Silence permeates the air by the riverside as Wonwoo processes the words you just told him. He sucks in a breath through his teeth, hands absentmindedly running across Haniâs fur.
âSo thatâs why,â he chuckles with a shake of his head. âI shouldâve knownâŠâ
You mirror the gesture somewhat vigorously, your throat closing up from all the things you want to say. He doesnât deserve to be left hanging all because of that stupid reason alone. He doesnât deserve those hurtful words from Mina.
Most of all, he doesnât deserve to feel this shitty all because you were too much of a coward to communicate with him.
âIâm sorry.âÂ
He startles at your apologyâobviously not expecting that to be the first thing you say to him after two months of radio silence. âW-Why are you sorry? I should beââ
âIt was unfair of me to just ghost you like that when you havenât explained yourself,â you murmur, tucking your hands behind your back as you stare down at your shoes in shame. âIâm sure you had your reasons for not telling me right away, but⊠I selfishly thought you didnât trust me enough to let me know.â
âNo,â he quickly clarifies. âItâs not like that at all. I trust youâso much.â
âI know,â you sigh. âIt took me a while, but I realized that along the way. The last time we were here, you entrusted me with the story of how you coped with losing someone. You entrusted me with your thoughts, your feelings, your secrets. And I took all that for granted because you didnât tell me you were an idol.â
Wonwoo falls silent for only a moment as if considering what words to say next. Hani seems to sense his distress, cuddling up to his chest in an attempt to soothe him. He notices what sheâs doing right away and Wonwoo scratches behind her ears with a breathless chuckle.
âIf itâs any consolation, I didnât plan on hiding it forever. I knew you would find out eventuallyâjust not as soon as you did,â he murmurs. âIt was also unfair of me to take advantage of the fact that you didnât know me as Wonwoo. ButâŠI wanted to keep my career out of the equation first because itâs nice being treated like a normal person. You never put me on a pedestal or looked at me like I was some sort of god.
âYou treated me like I was human.â
This time, youâre the one whoâs at a loss for words.Â
Having Haewon as a sister, you have this preconceived notion about idols where they have the world in the palm of their hands. You thought for the longest time that all they had to do was go up the stage to sing and dance and look beautiful and the rest will follow.Â
Hearing Wonwoo tell you this easily subverted all those assumptions.Â
Youâve never been good at telling people the things they need to hear. Thatâs Haewonâs area of expertise, not yours. So instead of offering up any words of comfort, you quickly close the distance thatâs been keeping you apart to throw your arms around his broad shoulders.
Wonwoo freezes up when you pull him into a hug and he loathes the fact that he canât even reciprocate it given that he has his hands full. Itâs kind of adorable how careful youâre being to make sure you donât accidentally squish Hani between your bodies.Â
Suddenly, all that heaviness thatâs been lingering in his heart for weeks dissipates in a flash. Wonwoo relishes in the feeling of your warmth seeping into his, resting his forehead on your shoulder as he holds back his emotions.
âCan we start over again?â you murmur. âWe still havenât had our first date, right?â
When you feel the sound of his laughter rumbling in his chest, you canât help the goosebumps that rise across your skin. âWow. I didnât expect you to forgive me that fast.â
Pulling away for a moment, you shoot him a dirty look. âJeon Wonwoo, are you saying Iâm easy?â
âNot at all.â Wonwoo grins and you can barely look at him without recoiling at how good he looks.Â
His hair has grown much longer than you remember and seeing the smile that oh-so easily hooked you in deeper than you already were, you already know that you canât ever hope to put up a fight.Â
Not when heâs so love-of-your-life-shaped.
âSince weâre at the point of catching up, Iâm actually graduating in three weeks.â
Wonwoo sharply turns to look at you with a scowl as he puts Hani in a little cat backpack he got for her. âThree weeks? Shit⊠I think weâre going to have a concert at that time.â
You wave away his concern with a smile. âI didnât mean I was expecting you to show up at the venue, doofus. Canât have any weird rumors about you going around by attending my graduation.â
âRumors about what?â he challenges.
âYou know.â
âI actually donât.â
âWe just made up ten minutes ago, Do you really want me to bail on you again?â
âHey, I just thought that if you ever want to spark some dating rumors, we can make it happen any time.âÂ
âWeâre not even dating!â
âNot yet.â
âWhat?â
âItâs just like you saidâI still owe you that first date, donât I?â
â...Have I told you that youâre insufferable?â
âIâm actually surprised you didnât start calling me that when I kept visiting the shelter too often to be considered normal.â
âThat reminds me, why were you visiting the shelter so much?â
When Wonwoo hands you Haniâs cat backpack, you take it as an invitation to hitch a ride on his motorcycle. After all, it would be uncomfortable to have it sitting between the two of you. However, he takes you completely by surprise by answering you with:
âI like you. Thatâs why.â
It takes you about five whole seconds to recover from what he just said but itâs five seconds too late because Wonwoo is already chuckling to himself as if he deserves to have the last laugh.
âYouâre lucky that I like you too,â you mumble as you carefully hop on his rideâsitting comfortably behind him while making sure Hani is strapped securely behind you. âIf I didnât, Mina wouldâve made our boss file a restraining order against you.â
Wonwoo hands you a spare helmet before putting on his own, laughing again as he clicks the lock in place. âDating rumors and stalking rumors? Being with you sounds like such a big hassle now.â
âAre we going on that first date or not?!â
Two months after graduating and four weeks into officially dating Jeon Wonwoo, you find out the real reason he was taking so damn long to make up his mind about adopting Hani.
The landlord doesnât prohibit petsâhe loves them, actually.Â
His dog, Seol, is a little shy, but she gets along with Hani just fine.
But then his old roommate, Mingyu, dropped by to visit Wonwooâs apartment one day, sneezing all over the place like itâs pollen season. Except the pollen in question is cat fur and it just so happens that he didnât bring any of his allergy meds for the trip.
âAs much as I want to cuddle on the couch catching up on the Marvel Cinematic Universe with you guys, I gotta go,â Mingyu explains while blowing his nose into a tissue. âIâll die if I spend even a second longer here.â
Wonwoo throws a piece of popcorn at him. âDidnât you say that youâre going on a date with Nari?â
âOh. That, too.â
âIf she finds out that you just remembered as an afterthought, sheâs going to kill you,â you tease while shoving a handful of your movie snacks into your mouth. âAt least, thatâs what Iâd do if Wonwoo did the same thing.â
âOh, she will. Thatâs why neither of you are going to tattle on me,â the beefy idol huffs before tossing the soiled tissue in the trash bin. âAnyway, Wonwoo-hyung, you should totally keep in touch with this pet sitter that Seungcheol-hyung discovered recently. A bunch of other artists leave their pets with her whenever they have tight schedules.â
Your boyfriend merely looks at him with an unimpressed look. âAre you saying that just so I can leave Hani there when you come over to play video games with me?â
âYes.â
Mingyu leaves shortly after receiving a phone call from his girlfriend, Nari, who sounded nothing short of furious when she asked where on earth he is and why heâs late for their date again. Wonwoo tells you that his best friend has a thing for pissing off Nari just so he has an excuse to do grand gestures for her without his girlfriend complaining about it. You tell him that he should start doing the same too.
âBy the way, youâre flying back to Jeju for a while, right?â Wonwoo asks once the credits start rolling in the film playing on his TVâthe loose grip he has around your waist tightening ever-so slightly.
You shift your weight on the couch to cuddle closer to him. âYeah. I havenât seen my parents and Haewon since I graduated. Plus, I donât have to start working until next month, so I can afford a last-minute getaway.â
He nods. âI still think itâs funny you havenât told your sister about me. Are you ashamed of me or something?â
âQuit saying weird stuff, Jeon Wonwoo,â you huff before hitting him in the chest. Damn those firm pecs. âI just want to see the look on her face when she finds out Iâm dating the person she ships with Mingyu for fun.â
âAnd I still canât believe my future sister-in-law is a Gyuldaengie.â
You try not to think about how he said Haewon is his future in-law. You really do.
Once the last of the end credits pans on-screen, the bonus scene at the end of every Marvel movie starts playing and you canât help but snort when Eddy gets snapped back to his own universe before he can even pay off his tab to the bartender. Just when youâre about to ask Wonwoo if he wants to watch the next movie, you realize heâs had his eyes on you the entire time.
âWhat?â you laugh.
âNothing,â he whispers. âI just thought you were really pretty.â
âWonwoo, you tell me that every thirty minutes. Donât you get tired of it?â
You yelp when he abruptly pulls you onto his lap, steadying you by the hips so you wouldnât accidentally topple to the floor. He flashes you a lazy grin as he traces circles along the curve of your thighs and you can barely suppress a groan when you look down at him.
He might look like some otherworldly creature every time he kills it on stage, but you love this Wonwoo just the sameâdressed down with his glasses sitting all crooked on the bridge of his nose, hair falling across his eyes.Â
âNever,â he says simply.Â
Thereâs something oddly sensual about the way he says it and at that moment, you catch on to the half-lidded look in his eyes. You gulp, gaze instinctively wandering around his apartment to look for Hani and Seol, who you spot dozing next to each other in the kitchen.Â
Now that youâre sure none of the kids are watching, you let out a defeated sigh before lacing your arms around his neck and leaning down to kiss him.
Wonwoo is a guy you caved and kissed before the first date, so itâs pretty natural for the two of you to fall into this degree of intimacy every now and again. His effect on you is especially lethal whenever you spend several days apart because of the nature of his career.Â
But even if youâre yet to cross that line with your boyfriend, the possibility of it finally coming into fruition becomes more and more real every time his hot tongue slides against yours.Â
âWonâŠwooââ you gasp when you feel his cold fingers sneak up your shirt, hands firmly grabbing your waist to keep you in place.Â
Your boyfriend chuckles and the low vibrations that come from his chest shoot straight to your core. âI know tonight was supposed to be movie night, but youâre making it really hard to keep my hands off of you.âÂ
âThatâs what you say all the time,â you groan as he takes your bottom lip between his teeth and tugs. Fuck. âAlways blaming me for your lack of self-control.â
âI canât help it when youâre so fucking beautiful,â he murmurs against your lips before tugging you back down for another heated kiss.
Youâve fooled around with Wonwoo a handful of times and during said times, youâve gotten an idea of howâŠinto it he gets when pleasuring you. Itâs almost as if he delights in seeing you come undone for him even if itâs just with his mouth and fingers.Â
Itâs during those moments that you canât help but imagine how he would be once the two of you finally take things all the way. But for all your teasing about how he has questionable self-control, Wonwoo has done nothing but respect the boundaries youâve clearly set when you started dating.Â
âFuck,â he rasps when he pulls away briefly, resting his head against the cushions of the sofa as he closes his eyes. âBaby, weâve gotta stop or else I might just cave and fuck you.â
You simper. âYouâre the one who started this.â
âYeah, and thatâs why Iâm putting a stop to it before I end up doing something you donât like!â
You shift around on his lap for a moment and Wonwoo is convinced that youâll give him some reprieve and get off of him before he loses his mind. But then he realizes youâre grinding your hips against the hard-on heâs sporting in his sweats.Â
Chuckling to yourself, you pull him by the front of his shirtâpressing a chaste kiss on the corner of his mouth before leaning into his ear to whisper:
âWhat if I want you to fuck me, Woo?â
The deep growl that resonates in his throat sounds so fucking hot, you can feel a gush of slick surge between your thighs. He doesnât say a wordâmerely opting to keep his hard stare on yours as he wraps your legs around his waist. You immediately get the gist and hold on tight to him as he carries you out of the living room and into his bedroom.
âIâm giving you a chance to back out again, sweetheart,â he sighs as he kicks the door shut behind him. âThink you can handle it when I get serious about fucking you until you canât walk?â
The mental image he conjures in your head has you mewling in his arms, prompting you to pepper his neck with sloppy kisses as he gropes your ass like itâs always belonged to him.Â
âThink you can actually make good on that though?â you challenge with a soft chuckle, grazing your teeth just below his collarbone. You wonât biteâknowing that his stylists will give him hell for it if he shows up to work with hickeys. âWe both know you like to talk big sometimes.â
Wonwoo breathes out a condescending chuckle before gently easing you on top of the mattress. You didnât think it was possible, but you swear you get even wetter when he takes off his glasses and licks his lips at the sight of you.
âOh, baby, youâre in for a fucking ride.â
Thatâs how you find yourself with your back pressed against Wonwooâs insanely sculpted chestâboth your mouth and pussy stuffed with his thick fingers as he works you open enough to take his cock. He slides those thick digits in and out of your wet channel, making sure you get used to the stretch all while he muffles your noises at the same time.Â
Normally, he likes hearing you get whiney and desperate for him, but thereâs a charm to seeing you slobber all over his fingers as you clench up around the ones buried in your pussy.Â
âFuck, baby. So goddamn tight for me,â he whispers huskily in your ear and the sound of his rough voice layered with the lewd squelch of your cunt makes your insides tingle. âBeen thinking about having this pretty pussy all to myself for a while now. You gonna let me have it now, baby? Let me wreck you on my cock?â
Wonwoo easily has the hottest voice youâve ever heard in your entire life. While you often think about how you can fall asleep happily just listening to him talk about anything under the sun, itâs an entirely different story when heâs spouting all this filth into your ear as he prepares you for an overdue dicking down.Â
âYes, pleaseââ You sob pathetically when he takes his fingers out of your mouth, curling your arm behind you so you can blindly grab his hair and mend your lips into a messy kiss. âWonwoo, I need you so bad.â
âDesperate little thing,â your boyfriend chuckles before withdrawing his fingers from your needy hole. The loss has you writhing in his lap, one hand shooting out to keep him where you want him but Wonwoo coos into your ear as if to pacify you. âShhh, baby, I need you to come first before I fuck you. Youâll be good for me and let me make you come, right?âÂ
Shit. Who are you to refuse when he propositions you like that?
âI need an answer, sweetheart.â
âIâll be good,â you gasp almost immediately as your boyfriend starts parting your pussy lips with the hand that was muffling your cute noises. âIâll be so good for you, please justââ
âJust what, baby?â Wonwoo teases and you nearly cry.
âM-Make me come on your fingersâŠâ
He hums, slick fingers gliding along your slit. âNot if you donât sayââ
âPlease,â you whimper before grinding your pussy against his hand. âWonwoo, I wanna come. Wanna come so bad. Want you to stuff me full of your cock. Want you toââÂ
Itâs almost like he tapped in on every single nerve ending in your body when his dexterous fingers find your clitârubbing the puffy bud in fast, tight circles as you start twitching in his arms. Wonwoo lets out another evil laugh as he forcibly pries your legs apart. The firmness of his grip leaves you no choice but to thrash around as he builds your orgasm from the ground up, trailing wet kisses along the column of your throat as he teases an orgasm out of you with the sound of his voice coupled with his sinful ministrations.
âSo wet and ready for me. Have you thought about taking me inside this sweet little pussy? Do you think you can even fit me when youâre this tight?â he breathes into your ear and you donât even have the dignity to bite down your moans anymore. âYouâre so close, sweetheart. Let yourself go and Iâll give you what you want. Iâll blow your pretty back out over and over until youâre sick of me.â
Never, you want to tell him. Iâll never get sick of you, stupid Wonwoo.
Funnily enough, that silent jab at him is quickly followed by a mind-numbing release. It washes over you like a storm surging into a calm shoreâoverloading every cell in your body with pleasure until the only thing that comes out of your mouth is a broken rendition of your loverâs name.Â
Wonwoo talks you through your high because he knows youâve got a thing for his voice. Knows just how much tighter you get when he whispers filthy words with a sultry sweet tone.Â
And when he growls, âGood fucking girl,â into your ear, youâre convinced he just made you come again while still riding the waves of your first orgasm.Â
For all his vigor, Wonwoo is surprisingly patient with you as you recover from what he just put you through. He plants brief kisses all over your neck and face until your breathing finally evens out and you stop seeing stars in the seams of your vision. Your boyfriend offers up a gentle smile when you finally come toâleaning in to kiss your nose.
âYou still want more?â he whispers, exercising enough restraint to be revered despite the fact that you can feel his hard, leaking cock pressed against the small of your back.Â
A soft, somewhat weak laugh makes its way past your lips as you turn around to peck his lips. Wonwoo smiles against your mouth and you canât help but do the same.
Then, you issue another challenge.
âDo your worst.â
Youâre grateful now more than ever that Wonwoo is the easiest person to talk to in the entire world. You can practically count the things that he wouldnât want to discuss with you on one hand alone.Â
In other words, youâve already had the necessary conversations about sex, should you ever have it with him in the future (A.K.A., right now). Wonwoo knows youâve been on birth control ever since you moved to Seoul all those years ago. He knows that you get yourself tested at least once every month if you can and assures you that he does the same.
On the other hand, youâre well aware that your boyfriend has a thing for coming inside, and now that youâve gone this far with him, youâll gladly let Wonwoo make his fantasies a reality.Â
He only agreed to it once you promised to tell him whenever you feel like heâs going too far or if heâs doing something you donât like. You swear you wouldâve married him on the spot, if it werenât for that tiny voice in your head that suspiciously sounds like Haewon telling you off for losing it over a man whoâs doing the bare minimum.
With those measures in place, you feel safe enough to let Wonwoo press your face down onto the mattress as his free hand grips your assâfucking into your tight cunt as he tries (and fails) to keep himself from being too rough with you.Â
He really, really wanted to be gentle, considering itâs your first time to lie together like this. But your unfiltered reactions do nothing but test both his patience and self-control in more ways than one. All his plans on making love to you in good old missionary have been tossed out of the window now that youâve given him the green light to actually fuck you until you canât walk.
âWonwoo,â you moan, fists curling into the sheets as he cants his hips deeper and deeperâthe head of his cock hitting spots your own fingers could never hope to reach. âS-So fucking goodâŠâ
âYeah?â he breathes raspily before leaning down to press his chest against your back, wanting to engulf you in the heat of his body until itâs all youâll ever know. âMy pretty baby loves my cock that much? You want me to fuck you all the time now?â
âUh huh.â You nod before letting out a high pitched keen when he amps up the speed of his thrustsâslamming his hips harder against your ass.
Wonwoo thinks he could really get used to the sight of your pretty pussy sucking him in like this. Youâre so greedyâclamping down on him as tightly as you do as you moan his name like itâs the only word in your vocabulary. But how could you not when each vein that runs along the underside of his perfect cock drags so deliciously across your velvet walls? When his ballsâhot and heavy and full of enough cum to fill you to the brimâkeep clapping against your pussy with each powerful thrust?
Itâs the first time that you got to get a taste of what your boyfriend is capable of in bed and you can only imagine every instance that will follow once allâs said and done.
When he feels your walls start to spasm around his length every now and again, Wonwoo presses a sloppy kiss across the cut of your jawâa hand sliding between your thighs so he can find that little bundle of nerves that made you fall apart only several minutes ago. Your reaction is immediateâcrying and squirming below him even when youâre helpless against his massive frame pressing you down into the bed.Â
âIâm so close, baby,â he groans into your ear, holding out for as long as he can just so he can feel the sensation of you coming around his cock. âYouâre almost there, too, arenât you? My good girlâtaking my dick like itâs always been yours. Can you come with me? You can do that for me, right, sweetheart?â
The fondness in his voice strings you even further apart and youâre nothing but a mess of pleasure and delirium as Wonwoo continues his assault on your poor, abused clit. He knows just the right amount of pressure to use and manages to time his thrusts with each delicious pass on that oversensitive bud. Â
Itâs all over before you know it.Â
You let out a long-winded moan that will definitely earn him a couple of noise complaints from the neighbors but Wonwoo doesnât have it in him to fucking care at the moment. Not when your walls are clamping down so tightly around his cockâmaking each stroke all the more tantalizing as your pussy milks him for everything heâs got to give you.Â
You mindlessly babble a string of I love yous against the sheets, a trail of drool dripping onto the mattress as Wonwoo fucks into you with heightened ferocity. He catches every single word you say and he tilts your head to the side so he can kiss you. Your boyfriend forces your tongue into a dance with his own until his hips stutter and stopâwhite hot emission surging into your cunt in thick spurts that he hopes would stay inside you for days if he can help himself.
Youâre a messâface painted with a fucked out expression as your pussy leaks with a mixture of yours and Wonwooâs cum. The mere sight of it is almost enough to make him hard again, but he tells himself that he can take you up on marathon sex next time.
For now, he just wants to clean you up and tuck you back into bed.
âWoo?â
He turns to face you with a questioning look. Your boyfriend just finished with your mandatory aftercare session and is in the middle of making the bed comfortable enough for some post-sex cuddles. âHmm?â
âYouâre still free next week right?â you ask, drawing silly shapes on his chest with your finger once he finally lays down next to you.
âYeah. I donât have any major schedules untilâŠâ He pauses before conjuring up an imaginary calendar in his mind. âNext month. Why?â
Despite all the debauchery youâve subjected each other to in a single night, your face still flushes as you consider what youâre about to ask him. Wonwoo smiles at that. Cute.
âHow do you feel about flying to Jeju with me so I can introduce you to my family?â you ask shyly, gulping with a nervous laugh. âI totally get it if your management wonât allow it though. Itâs hard to keep the media off your back when youâre so famous andââ
He doesnât do this often, but Wonwoo shuts you up with a firm kiss.
âWhat are you talking about?â he murmurs, caressing your face tenderly. âOf course I want to meet them.â
When your eyes light up at his confirmation, Wonwoo swears that he couldnât be more in love.
Me [11:23]: hae, iâve got good news~
Haewon đȘ· [11:24]: Youâre bringing Mingyu with you to Jeju so we can get married?
Me [11:26]: very funny
Me [11:26]: not to spoil your delusions or anything but iâm bringing my boyfriend
Haewon đȘ· [11:30]: OmgâŠÂ
Haewon đȘ· [11:30]: Rudeness aside, is it the same guy from before?Â
Me [11:31]: yep
 Haewon đȘ· [11:32]: AAAAAAAAA
 Haewon đȘ· [11:32]: I canât wait to meet him!
 Haewon đȘ· [11:34]: He better be treating you right or Iâll drop kick him off Jusangjeollidae
Me [11:40]: youâve already met him though~
Haewon đȘ· [11:41]: ?
Haewon đȘ· [11:45]: Unnie, what do you meanâŠ
Haewon đȘ· [12:32]: Hey!!!!
âą end notes: if you've made it til the end, congrats! this is the last of the doting on you! series (for now~) and i really hope you enjoyed reading through it as much as i enjoyed writing it!! special thanks to all the friends that read through this for me T T i wouldn't have done it without any of you ueueue and to everyone that has been patiently waiting for me to put up the last installment for the series, thank you for waiting <3 i hope you guys continue to support me with my future work as well!
this is part of the doting on you! series.
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