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Oddly, I had something similar. Doctors/nurses saw something in one of the ultrasounds and told my parents I was a boy because of it.
My parents had a baby shower, and they got a lot of "boy" stuff (literally just blue stuff from what I remember them telling me).
It wasn't until another visit when either the person doing the check up mentioned "girl," or my parents said something about me being a "boy" and that was "cleared up," so they were having a girl . . . Or so they thought (and still do I guess).
Anyway, my name was supposed to be Nate Isaac, and I have no idea why I never tried out the name.
I'd be real interested in any similar stories from others just because I find it so fascinating (and kind of funny that ... yeah, sex/gender isn't that easy for professionals either).
super curious today about how people feel toward the names they might have been given. apparently i used to ask my mom about my âboy nameâ several times a week and get really sad i couldnât have both my given name and that name. being trans this is hilarious to me now so wondering
also curious how this intersects with being trans!! i feel like my fixation with it definitely had a lot to do with that, so idk add in tags? if you feel like being trans makes you more/less curious about it
#weird enough ive had a least one or two friends tell me they had the same exp-#- the one i remember is a cis woman and a self proclaimed test tube baby so not trans man. just rlly funny to me how much this happens -#- idk the actual numbers but its so funny hearing another person talk about them being a boy in the womb... im pretty sure we still have -#- the ultrasound somewhere that showed âambiguousâ genitalia for me đ
#long#trans#tgnc#experience#gender#pregnancy#abuse#man²
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Can I request number 6, âyouâre making that face againâŚâ with Blue and/or Vio? I absolutely adore that duo, and feel they could use more bonding. I mean, if thatâs alright with you, first and foremost!
The blorbos >:) ofc it's gonna be Blue AND Vio >:) though I forgot the prompt list so idk if line continued or it's hurt comfort or not but here's fluff and crack
If it is one thing to note about them is that Blue has a very specific relationship with each hero and friend.
Red and Blue are known to be glued together, wherever one goes the other is right behind him. Green and Blue are known to complete each other in a way that they are each other's strength. Even Blue and Shadow are known for something and it's their constant nagging and roughhousing.
Though Vio and Blue?
They're known for being odd. Their opinions and personalities clash in a way where neither was wrong for it. Which.. makes their agreements a horrifying experience. Blue is known to go and be around crowds, something about hating being alone despite how he barely ever talks in these gatherings. Vio could notice his awkwardness from a mile away and he scoffs every time.
If Blue was right beside the captain in a gathering with well-known nobles, Vio would be outside away from the noise. If Blue was up early in the morning doing the dishes for some damn reason, Vio would be just heading to bed after setting a mug in the sink. He enjoys cleaning, and Vio enjoys not taking responsibility- jokes. That was a joke. He is the most accountable person ever and owns up to it-
Anyway.
Point is.. they clash and balance depending on the time of day. It's either their greatest strength or worst weakness. That was their reputation and Blue liked it! He takes joy in knowing they oppose one another! It makes things interesting!
Which is why they must never ever EVER find out about this little hangout of theirs. They won't ever hear the end of it!
The hangout? Their little bookclub that consists of two individuals and an occasional cat?
Now look.. for Blue's sake, he does not want anyone outside these walls of the study room to hear about his ramblings about why these books about science and history are the best ever (except for Vio) because apparently he doesn't want to acknowledge he did a complete 180 as soon as he found a good book.
For Vio though? He doesn't really care, he would invite them but he knows Blue would die and never show up again and since he enjoys his reactions and debates, he just.. teases that he would invite someone. Just to scare him and watch him throw the book and try to scramble away. It's funny to him.
Which is what makes these hangout way way funnier to him.
"Ah.. Blue?" he starts, almost innocently except for the smug smile on his face.
Blue, who has a scowl on his face so stretched that it was almost uncanny, snaps a glare at him. Eyes blazing with fury along with his red face as he holds the book Vio chosen for him, one that is very on the nose on its genre based on the cover.
"What." he manages to get out through his clenched jaw that Vio just grins at.
Now look.. here is the issue.
Vio takes Blue to the library to return and buy books with, and on the way they agreed on the types. Blue will get one of those 'horrible annoying excuse of a romance story' that Vio recommends and Vio will pick up one of his 'oh so great scientific ground breaking discovery-' and long rambles of why his genre is better (it is not but whatever)
Except here is the thing. Vio didn't mention to him that he wants to read the book at the library until they found both books and he knows Blue won't back out at all due to his prideful front and refusal to get 'scared' of a 'stupid book with stupid people who don't even have good chemistry!' His excuse for their change of plans was that he missed the library and wanted to later wander but knew Blue was busy so it's best to have their mini meet up there.
His actual reason is because he got bored and wanted to mess with Blue's fear of being perceived but that's besides the case-
"You did not read a single page." he points out bluntly. To which Blue scoffs as he reveals the book and shows him the back cover that he was staring at. "There! That's one! I did!" he hisses in a hushed voice.
For his sake, Vio did take them to a corner spot that had few seats at. Away from the entry and people just so Blue doesn't actually run off.
Vio flips through his book, something he would be seen with and not questioned for. He had a reputation apparently that since he was 'quieter' he was one of the 'smarter' ones and while yes he won't deny it. People are mistaking his ability to adapt as being smart. The truth is that he is absolutely horrible at these things, it's his quick thinking that saves him.
But he won't let them know that. He won't mind fueling that deception and pretend. It's not really his fault if people assume things about him! He just.. doesn't confirm it! That's all!
Anyway, this makes his situation easier. Boring? Yes. But much easier since it fuels the lie that he is smart because who else would bother read about science and all?
But back to the main point! These books are boring! There's no drama! No horrible one-liners! Nothing entertaining!
Which was why he decided for a change and got Blue to stay at the library with him. If he's gonna die from boredom, might as well create some entertainment!
That's why he sits criss-crossed on the floor just in front of Blue, leaning against a shelf. Blue did almost go for the seat before seeing Vio choose the floor and joined, his excuse was that so Vio didn't feel alone though Vio noted the subtle ear twitch. Telltale signs of his attempts at lying.
Though when Blue shifted and sat with his knees to his chest and his body hunched in an uncomfortable reading position. Vio knew then that it is an attempt to hide as if he wasn't already off.
"Come on. It isn't that bad." he snickers and Blue rolls his eyes and read the synopsis in a horrified voice. His voice shaking as he gripped the book that he is almost worried he would rip it apart.
The story isn't horrible! It's a tale of a florist and a baker who had a meet-cute and filled to the brim cheesy flirts and many many puns that Vio rolled his eyes at.
He chose it for two reasons. He knows every cheesy scene will kill Blue and make him shrivel up and die right in front of him.
And the second reason is that he likes puns. His obnoxiously loud laugh at Green's puns had to be real. No one would fake laugh like that. Especially Blue.
"Vio I hate them."
"Come on it isn't that bad."
It was.
"Her name is Rosie. She's a florist. Are you kidding me."
"... Your point?" Vio asks innocently and Blue groans and tries to kick him. Vio snickers at the reaction.
Eventually, he does hear a page flip. He glances up from his book to see Blue's face, an expression so forced so strained it had to be painful as he read the chapter title.
His gaze narrows as he glances up with an unamused look.
"What?" he asks, trying to bite back his laugh.
"... the chapter title is a flower pun."
All of them were.
"I know. Funny right?" he asks on purpose, observing him.
"... No it isn't."
His ear twitchs, Vio noticed it twitch. He got what he wanted. Blue continued to read and every now and then, he would glance up to see an exaggerated look on the other. A reaction that had to be purposefully exaggerated.
Though he notices two things. One is where he does look in pain as if it pains him to read the fake dating trope with the baker and florist.
Though the other reaction.. he couldn't place his finger on it. There was a twitch on his lips, a scowl that was forced but not in a dramatic way. He pairs it with the skimming eyes and flipping of pages.
Then it slows and he would stare at it dumbfounded and reread it (he assumes?)
"Ah.. Blue?"
Blue, who seemed too focused, snaps back to reality with eyes wide like a deer in surprise. "Uh yeah? You found it interesting?" he asks instantly, referring to the science book. Ah. He forgot he had to read too... oops?
"Yes. I wanted to ask if you're alright?" he asks, this time genuinely curious over Blue's thoughts than to tease him.
"Yes I'm okay. I'm annoyed though."
His ear doesn't twitch. Hm.
"Why?"
".. I'll tell you about it later." Blue mutters before going back to reading. Vio assumes it was just to get it done.
A couple of glances again and the expression was back. This time Vio didn't wait as he points it out. "You're making that face again." he says, bluntly.
Blue jumped, closing the book though his finger was still in it as he snaps to look at him. "What face?!" he hisses.
Vio stares for a minute before spelling it out. "You're clearly having strong opinions. It isn't like you to stay quiet and not give me your thoughts on it." he says.
"Maybe cause I don't want to be heard?!"
"Unlikely. It never stopped your complaining." he retorts.
Then for a long staring match, Blue sighs in defeat as he shuffled to sit right next to him and whispers. "It's stupid. It's cute. I hate them. They're funny. Why are they taking so long to be together. Their pining is painful and I'm eating it up. Can you shut up and let me finish and pretend this never happened?!" he hisses into his ear before going back to reading.
Vio, smug as ever, grins and goes back to reading his book. "Glad you agree." he whispers back, "... But I won't let you pretend it never happened." he jokes, just to watch Blue react violently with the book getting thrown and him getting up with a 'IM LEAVING' followed by Vio running after him with a laugh, leaving the two books aside just to chase his friend.
Of course he would let him pretend this never happened.
Mostly.
Not really.
#four swords#blue link#vio link#adel writes#if you notice any typo or repetition its cause I did not proof read or edit this đ¤Ą
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ââđ˘đŠđđąđŚđŹđŤđ°đĽđŚđ : Venti x gn!Reader
âđđđŻđŤđŚđŤđ¤đ° : near death experience, youâre confused asf about everything, bad writing cause i suck, spoilers for the we will be reunited quest!! And also for ventiâs backstory, venti is serious for once (yes itâs a legitimate warningđ¤)
âđđ˘đŤđŻđ˘ : Some angst, some fluff? Idk byeđ¤¨
âđđ˛đŞđŞđđŻđś : "It's okay, it's over now" he kneeled to be at your level, his arms still wrapped around you, and you didn't have the energy to fight your urge of nuzzling into him. "I'll always be here for you, wherever there is wind, remember I'm here too. You only need to ask." (2.8k words)
âŞđđŹđąđ˘đ° : iâm an idiot simp, i did this in one sitting and half asleep, english isnt my first language BLA BLA IM SORRY FOR MY POOR WRITING BUT HAVE THIS
basically you donât know if you can trust venti or not, head says no, heart screams yes
Also, I was listening to stormterrorâs lair ost while writing it, just because its fucking amazing, you might wanna listen to it too
Iâm nervous to post this?/&:! This is the second fic iâve ever finished in my whole life
i love venti and heâs hot in his god outfit i donât make the rules
KAY ENJOY <3
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"Please, anybody... Just help me."
Saying you were exhausted would have been an understatement. After reuniting with your sibling, you had been frantically searching for clues about khaenri'ah and ways to Inazuma. With no luck, you couldn't find any traces of Dainsleif or of your twin. The ruins had been sealed and you had no idea what happened to the inverted statue or the corpse you had found there. Desperately, you clung into every little information you had, you would have turned every rock on this archon damned continent if you had to, which is what led you into those ruins near Guilli plains.
Walking along the destroyed buildings your eyes caught sight of a dandelion and you froze. You missed them so much, why couldn't they go back home with you? All you ever wanted was to be by their side why, why were they running away from you?
You remembered your travels, the moments you shared together, their protectiveness over you, the fondness in their eyes when you smiled at them. You remember the times you got hurt and healed one another with your now missing powers. You remember sleeping by their side and being grateful to the universe to let you keep your ray of sunshine everywhere with you. How ironic.
What had they meant 'once you reach the end of your journey' ? What does that even mean? Stupid twin, if they knew you were here the whole time, why hadn't they come to you? Why were they always leaving just when they were within your grasp? Why? Did they know how much you missed them and how much your heart broke when you finally saw them? Did they?
You only realized you were crying when a small gust of wind had your wet cheek react to the cold, breaking your train of thought. Wind.
The wind is everywhere, you think, free as a bird, always accompanying every citizen of this world, never truly alone. With this in mind, you resumed your exploring, slower this time.
A sigh escaped your mouth. You didn't want to admit it, but the wind did comfort you a little. Almost as if he was here. God of freedom and of the breeze, he was more a singer than a protector and you couldn't bear to think about him. Was it true? What Dain said... Did he destroy this nation? Was he the cause of the scenery that still haunted your nightmares up until 500 years later? Your brain simply couldn't accept that Venti, your Venti, you catch yourself thinking, could have made such an act of wrath. He was the epitome of freedom, why would he take the very thing he based all of his existence on from mere mortals? Barbatos simply couldn't be afraid of being overpowered, he didn't even care about power. All he wanted was freedom and happiness for his people. Surley this couldn't be right?
But then again, who were you to deny the wipe out of an entire nation? The gods did it. They were afraid that Celestia would be overthrown by the pride of humankind, the destruction of khaenri'ah by divine beings was a fact. There was no misunderstanding about this. That was the one thing you were sure of. So why did you feel like crying even more now?
The mere thought of a gentle soul such as Venti committing innocent people to an eternity of suffering didn't sit right with you. Even when his dearest friend Dvalin had turned against him, he didn't try to stop him, didn't even ask the dragon to save him. He healed and helped him, gave him a choice.
'What is freedom if demanded of you by a god?' was the same person that asked this question the same one who committed mass murder? Genocide?
Did the little wine-lover bard you had grown fond of destroy all hopes and light your kin had?
You remember that night when he freed Stanley from his burden, freed his and his friends' spirits. You had marveled at his action, in that instant he was a god, and he definitely hadn't struck you as a murderer. You remember that look of silent pain and grief in his eyes when he sang the tales of the nameless bard he had taken the appearance of. You knew he trusted you enough to share his story, something so personal, you could almost feel the war that took down the tyrant of Mond. Oh how much you cherished that evening, treating him to some well deserved dandelion wine afterwards, his favorite, and asking him to sing you more about the time where was nothing but the spirit of a breeze.
Your heart broke a little, remembering his rosy cheeks and drunk smile, you wish you could talk to him, ask him what happened. What did he do, was he really as dangerous as you had been told? If so, then why did you feel so good around him? Why did you feel like you could give hi-
You stopped walking upon seeing a ruin guard up ahead in the distance. You're so stupid, you think. Feeling this way is not gonna get you anywhere, especially with how the bard had been missing for a few weeks now. Ever since you had last seen your sibling.
Where was he, where was he wandering off to? You walk towards the disabled ruin guard, not really paying any mind to it, still thinking about the god you longed to meet with. If you could see him, what would you even say? Would he even answer your questions? Why did your stomach feel so light and funny when you thought about seeing him, why aren't you angrier?
You're almost at the killing machine's level now, so lost in your thought you don't notice the five other similar robots hidden behind a wall next to it. You notice them only when it's too late and you've already turned them on while thinking about examining them and collecting their serial numbers. When you hear the familiar tick of the mechanism turning on, you internally panic and think about running away only to calm down moments later and think to yourself that you can simply beat it and take what you came here for. Even if you are emotionally and physically tired, you can manage, you think.
That was before hearing five other consecutive ticks right after it, and all around you.
Turning around, your gaze falls upon the small army of field tillers. Fuck.
Paimon wasn't with you today, you had asked for some time alone which she hesitantly accepted, so you couldn't ask her to go fetch help. You would have been worried if you had all your capacities but with the state you were in, you were wondering how you were going to survive this fight. You were alone, none of your companions with you, and deeply weakened by the busy day you had and the few hours of sleep you had managed to steal away from the night. Was it today you would meet your doom, with all your questions and uncertainties unanswered?
You tried your best to fight with the strength you had left, but quickly grew desperate after what felt like hours of efforts to swing your blade and being able to only take one monster down out of the six. It didn't help that you got injured along the way, their blows becoming harder and harder to dodge. After being thrown on the grown for the third time, you understood you had at least two broken ribs and that your shaking legs would soon fail you as well.
Fear crept upon you, you would die here today, alone. Alone. You couldn't talk to your sibling after all, couldn't understand. You didn't even get to talk to him one last time. Him... You would die without the knowledge of the truth about your bard. You would die alone. You didn't want that, you couldn't look death straight in the eye.
"Please, anybody... Just help me."
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In Mondstadt, there was a musician, a weird singer everyone had heard about at least once. He lived off of his songs and was mostly known for having a great story-telling and being an alcoholic.
The number of people who knew the true nature of his identity were few and he was perfectly content with that. He didn't wish to be a god anymore, his gnosis had been taken away anyway and it's not like he had any power over the city of wind nowadays. Even if his people still worshipped him as Barbatos, it didn't sit right with him to be called a god anymore. It actually never did, he thinks to himself with a smile, he never really took any responsibilities that came with the divine title which is why he was so weak today. But it didn't matter to him, his smile turns into a soft giggle.
Sitting on a mill that was once born from his steps he looks fondly over the city he founded. Even if they were godless, the citizens were still thriving and free. He cared oh so very deeply about the place even if he rarely, if not never, showed the affection within his heart. He remembers the day he grew strong enough to dispel the storms over his actual Mondstadt, and made the weather gentle enough so that there was no need for fireplaces. Nowadays, he loves watching birds nest into the chimney tops and seeing them found their own home. It gave him a sense of belonging like no other, not above his people, but walking among them and watching them nest into this cocoon he created. He was proud of what happened to his land and would do it all over again if he had to.
Especially since it led to him meeting you. This thought doesn't catch him off guard, you often roamed around in his mind after all, and it's not like he didn't write at least three songs about you and your feat, your smile, your courage...
Ah there he goes again, rambling about you in a whisper. He turns around to the statue of him his people erected in his honor, chuckling at how they never made the connection with his signature braids. His, but not really his, since he had stolen this form from someone who was much more deserving of this power than him. Seeing his friend being honored with the statues of the seven around the land made him happy, he hoped that it was a good enough thank you gift in return for everything that the bard whom he couldn't even remember the name of anymore did for him.
Upon gazing at the statue, he remembered telling you of his long gone friend. It was the first time he had talked about him to someone else, he didn't even mention it to Venessa, she who made him believe in himself again. He could ask himself why, but he simply knew that you had something different, more than meets the eye. Perhaps it was because you weren't from Teyvat, or perhaps it was just you being as simple as your natural self but he was simply and utterly captivated by your being. You inspired him to no end, at first he thought it was because he had never met someone like you and he loved new things! But as time grew and he got to know you, he understood quickly the meaning and depth of his passions. He thought of it with a light chuckle, content with your presence alone. He really did need and want you around.
So why did he purposely avoid you like the plague?
The wind had brought to his ears that you had met with Dainsleif.
And your twin.
His first reaction was to search for you, talk to you, he wanted to be here to know what happened! You had searched so long, he couldn't contain himself, still listening to what the wind told him, he started running with excitement but... But wait, Dainsleif was... He told you what?
Oh.
So you heard about Khaenri'ah. He had stopped dead in his tracks and turned back, only sending a warm current of wind your way, hugging you from afar.
He wasn't ready to talk about this yet, not ready to face you and absolutely not ready to answer your questions. He was a coward, he thought, running away like that but what else could he do, really. It was only natural for him to be as uncatchable as air.
A sorry excuse to avoid the fact that even if his past had marvelous story like the one of the nameless bard, it also had its share of darkness, something he wasn't ready to dive back into. Especially not now when your arrival has been shaking this world up like it hasn't been since at least 500 years.
But oh, how he longed to see your face or to hear your voice. So he asked a breeze to report to him what you were up to, and where you were. Just in case! he tells himself, what if you needed help ehe? But he knows you're competent and you won't need the help of a weakling coward like him anytime soon. Or so he thought.
Because when the breeze only gives him a few words back, his blood runs cold.
"Please, anybody... Just help me."
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As you murmured these words in your desperate state, not really for anyone but yourself as a last resort, a prayer of some sort, you tried to stand by leaning yourself on your sword and failing miserably. You didn't dare look up as you heard the loud footsteps of the metal giants coming your way. It was over, and you barely managed to accept it.
As you rested your forehead against the cold handle of your sword, you closed your eyes, tears starting to make their ways out of your closed eyelids. All you could feel was remorse.
A soft breeze moved your hair slightly and your chest felt like a black hole had taken place where your heart used to be, regretting to not have been able to meet him under the tree at Windrise one last time.
The breeze quickly grew stronger, until it felt unnatural and you looked up from the ground, only to close your eyes again immediately when you realized the wind was too powerful for you to keep them open. If you had struggled to see though, you would have been blinded by the white light that soon illuminated the whole ruins. You didn't have enough time to register the situation when you felt a hand being laid atop your shoulder, snaking around your collarbones and pulling you back into... nothing? Another arm circled your weak form and a voice you immediately recognized said
"I've dealt with things worse than you, now crumble."
You realized that if you couldn't feel a chest behind you while still being embraced by his arms, it was because he was floating above you, and not standing behind you. A look in his direction confirmed your suspicions but what stunned you wasn't the fact that he was flying, but the attire he wore. Barely covering his body, a white set made of materials that seemed like clouds and liquid gold contrasted perfectly with his regular green clothes. His hair was glowing green and his eyes that were focused on the ruin guards up ahead had a marvelous shine that you had never seen before. He had that same aura he did the night he freed Stanley, but there was also something different about the way his hands gripped you a little too tightly or the way his voice sounded.
"Venti.." You muttered his name, relief and affection flooding you all at once, in his presence you felt as if nothing bad could happen to you. How foolish could you be, just a few hours ago you were speculating wether or not he had wiped out an entire civilisation and now here you were, being saved by him and feeling safer than you had in months.
"Close your eyes, I don't want give you a headache" he said, slowly floating legs first towards the ground. His unusually serious voice surprised you (and him) but you did as he told you. Letting go of your sword and leaning back into him, you let him deal with the monsters ahead of you.
"It's okay, it's over now" he kneeled to be at your level, his arms still wrapped around you, and you didn't have the energy to fight your urge of nuzzling into him. "I'll always be here for you, wherever there is wind, remember I'm here too. You only need to ask."
Being protected by a god really didn't feel that bad. Especially when you were in love with said god.
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Thank you so much for reading whatever this is until the end :â)
Donât hesitate to comment or reblog, tysm <3
Ps: venti loves u and so do i do pls take care of urself mwah
#genshin impact x reader#genshin impact headcanons#genshin impact#genshin impact angst#genshin impact scenario#venti x reader#venti x traveler#venti x lumine#venti x aether#el writesâĄ
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his smile is colder than you remember. or maybe itâs his eyes. his once vibrantly warm brown eyes now look a little dead.
âtooru, hi!â you chirp nervously, looking around the large cafe like there might be more people to recognize while you grip the hot cup of tea in your hands tightly despite the way it was beginning to burn your palms through the sturdy paper. âwhen... when did you get back from argentina?â
he doesnât respond at first, gaze penetrating your face, and you canât tell if heâs trying to take in your aged features or make you uncomfortable. you figure itâs the latter when you start to squirm and only then does he look satisfied enough to speak.
âiâm just visiting for a few weeks. needed a break. how have you been?â he asks kindly, but something in his tone is just a little bit off. strained even.
âiâve been... iâve been good, actually,â you mutter, huffing a tiny laugh as you realize that it feels true for once. âjust got my dream job, so things are probably going to get hectic pretty soon, but iâm excited, you know? itâs what iâve been working for for years.â
oikawa looks like he wants to smileâa real, genuine smile where the corners of his eyes wrinkle slightly and his cheeks flush a pretty pink from how wide it is and his face eases up just a tiny bitâbut he hesitates, biting his lip instead.
âthatâs amazing, (y/n),â he says, and try as he might, he canât hide the affection coating his words. âiâm so proud of you. we, we should celebrate. i know you mustâve worked hard for it, so let me treat you.â
your cheeks warm at the offer, nodding happily. maybe things arenât as tense as you thought.
âthat would be great! how long are you here for? we should make sure it isnât too close to your leaving day so you donât stressââ
âbabe!â a voice calls suddenly, and you perk up immediately at its familiarity.
you turn in search of the person, and you canât help the grin you shoot them. you wave frantically before holding up a finger to indicate that you would be just a few minutes more. they nod in understanding, and you watch as they point in the direction of a corner where you can see your things and theirs lying on top of a booth. making sure you see, they wait until you nod in confirmation, smiling one more time, before they head in the direction of the table.
your smile shrinks slightly as they walk away, but the fondness doesnât. shaking your head as if to rearrange your thoughts, you turn back to oikawa.
his eyes are dead again, but they arenât looking at you anymore. instead, they follow your partner as they move through the crowd of people in the cafe. then he scoffs softly, and he returns your gaze.
âso you really did it, huh?â thereâs a bite in the way he says it, and you gasp softly at his change in demeanor.
it reminds you of the bitter, insecure boy you met in middle school. the boy you saw wandering the halls with a fake air around him, one of confidence and power. the boy who looked like he would crack if you stared at him too long, if you bothered to try to get to know him more than he allowed. the boy he was around you before you fell in love.
âdid what?â you ask cautiously.
he scoffs again, and now his lips are pulled back in that domineering, sugary sweet grin he developed in high school. you hate that grin.
âyou moved on.â
and it hits you like an icicle to the heart, the coldness of his voice.
âyeah. isnât that,â you trail off before starting again. âyou told me to, tooru, so i did. whatâs wrong with that?â
you want to throw your tea when he scoffs once again, like youâre stupid for not understanding why heâs acting so weird.
âthereâs nothing wrong with that,â he says. âitâs just funny, is all. werenât you the one who said you would never let go?â
the cup in your hand caves slightly as your grip squeezes tighter around it. the liquid inside splashes over the edge just a little, and you hiss when it lands on your thumb.
âthat... that was a long time ago. before you left,â you say, and you hate that it sounds like youâre trying to justify some wrongdoing because you havenât done anything wrong.
âi know. i just figured youâd actually stick to it. i, i just, i guess i should have known you wouldnât stick around.â
the cup crushes in your hand, but this time, you donât feel the sting of the tea meeting your skin. your mind races too much.
heâs doing that thing he used to do in high school, you realize, when he was hurt but didnât want to confront it. the thing where he would say things, things he didnât mean, so that he could hurt you in the same way he was hurting. the thing he didnât always realize he was doing. he just desperately wanted to be the one with the upper hand, and as much as he cared about people, he cared about protecting himself more.
youâd fallen victim to that thing a number of times back then when you knew that he needed the support to get through it. he just needed someone to care enough to help him. you could understand him then. but now...
now you didnât understand him at all.
âno,â you spit out, and he jumps at the way the cup crumbles in your hands, and he jumps again when he hears the frustration in your voice.
âno, you donât get to be mad at me when youâre the one who decided to leave. i was willing to come with you and support you and stay by your side, but it was you that told me not to. and still! still, i said i would wait for you, until you were ready to have me again, but there were no calls, no messages, no letters, no nothing!
âand i saw you, on your socials! you looked happy. happier than you ever did here. you looked so happy, and you looked like, like, you looked like you had moved on. from japan, from the past, from... from me... so yeah, i figured it was time i did the same, because if you were happy, than i was happy. thatâs all i ever wanted for you, tooru, and you were, so it seemed fitting that i let go.
âbut i refuse to be made to feel bad when this is what you said you wanted from me! i spent months wondering if i made the right choice when i let you get on that plane all alone, if there was more that i could have done to make you realize how much i cared, and supported you, and loved you! and iâve finally realized that i did enough! that we just werenât meant to be. i moved on because you did. because i was ready to.
âso no, tooru, you donât get to be upset about how everything played out. you donât get to be upset with me.â
your chest is heaving by the time youâre finished. it almost hurts to breathe, but you donât have time to think about that because the noise of the cafe surges back into your ears. you look around, suddenly embarrassed about your outburst, but youâre relieved to see that no one is focused on your words. theyâre all frantic about your hands and the tea that spilled to the floor, steam still floating up from the puddle that formed at your feet.
except oikawa. his cheeks are that pretty pink you used to love, and his mouth is opening and closing like a fish. heâs staring at you with those same dead eyes, but for a second, you think you see something flicker in them. he opens his mouth, this time looking like heâs going to say something, but before he has the chance, another distressed voice cuts in.
âoh my gosh, love, your hands!â your partner yelps, suddenly by your side, fumbling clumsily as they throw your things over their shoulder so they can tend to you. âoh gosh, um, excuse me, can you grab some of those napkins for us, please?â
theyâre talking to oikawa, who seems to blink out of his daze just then before grabbing a handful of napkins to give them.
your partner taps the napkins across your hands desperately, and theyâre holding you so gently and with so much care that you finally feel the burn of the fallen tea. thankfully, the burn isnât anything too serious, but the skin throbs visibly and aches slightly. your eyes water. they notice.
âhey, no, itâs alright, okay? look at me, love. iâll get you another one, okay, but first i need to make sure youâre okay,â they mutter to you, eyes darting across your face with worry.
you sniffle, shaking your head instantly, and then you lean heavily into their side. youâre tired and your eyes hurt and your chest feels so tight, and you just want to go home. itâs almost as if they can read your mind because before you can utter the words, theyâre mumbling into your hair that theyâll make you some at home instead. they start to guide you to the exit; with every step away from the scene you had made, you feel lighter.
you had loved tooru, all those years ago, and you had wanted him to come back for so long. youâd hoped that one day he would wake up and realize how much you yearned to be with him, or that he should call you just to see how you were. youâd hoped that he would realize he still felt the same way you did. but you could only put up with so much, after being left in the dark for so long, after dreaming for so long, after being disappointed for so long. you realized that now.
you were happy now, even if it wasnât by his side.
oikawa can see it, the happiness that follows the two of you out the door. he longs for it, but he doesnât move in pursuit of it. instead, when the two of you are finally out of sight, oikawa allows another scoff to fall past his lips, but this time, tears fall from his eyes as well.
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â from elle ! this was pure pain but in the best possible way ?? like wow đanon you are absolutely amazing and talented please this made my heart actually ache oh gosh ;-; you are so so good i donât think words are enough to describe you aaaaa !! anyways for my addition (under the cut as always), i decided to do a lil flashback before oikawa decided to come back. i was v intrigued by oikawa leaving reader in the dark so this scenario stemmed from that. idk if this will help, but i listened to taylor swiftâs i almost do on repeat while writing
notes / warnings : timeskip!oikawa x gn!reader, scenario, angst, wc: ~1k (perhaps my longest margins entry ??)
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Twenty-seven.Â
Youâve reached out to him twenty-seven times today. This included calls, text messages, and voice memos. Â
They were always sweet; always checking up on him, asking how he is, if heâs getting along with his new team, if practice was tiring, if he was taking care of himself. You always thought of him first, put him above yourself. Oikawa knows it shouldnât be that way, but the small, selfish part of himself couldnât help but love it. Him being oceans away didnât seem to change that.Â
The front door shuts just as his phone lights up, your name appearing on the lock screen. The heart by your name taunts him, reminding him of what once was. Oikawaâs eyes scan over your text message, tears pricking at the corners. Heâs unsure if itâs from the brightness of the screen contrasting with the darkness of his apartment, or your words. Possibly both.Â
[ y/n <3 : itâs getting late over there, i hope youâre getting some rest. take care⌠]
Oikawa bites his lip, closing out the notification as soon as he finished reading, immediately regretting it. His lock screen is still a picture of the two of you, mocking him. But if he shut his eyes tight enough, he could almost imagine it.
The pale blue sky, the sun shining down on the two of you, the cool breeze blowing through his hair, the smile that spread across your face, the faint pink flush on his features, his arm around your shoulders, the way you leaned into his touch. Your presence is warmth, your eyes brought him comfort, your hand resting on his cheek gave him peace.
His phone pings again, snapping Oikawa out of his trance. Another message.
[ y/n <3 : i love you. ] Â
Twenty-nine.Â
Twenty-nine calls, texts, and voice messages. Youâve reached out to him twenty-nine times today. Yesterday you reached out to him thirty-five times. Last week it was at fifty.Â
But Oikawa Tooru didnât answer a single one.Â
A sigh leaves him, stuffing his phone back into his pocket. He doesnât bother turning the lights on, the quiet sounds of his shoes hitting the wooden floor fill the room. Oikawaâs steps are slow, like each one physically pained him to take. Nighttime was always the hardest to bear, the most difficult to resist. Itâs when the temptation to call you is at its peak.
Oikawa stands in front of his living room window, hands in his pockets. The view of the city never failed to take his breath away; bright lights from the buildings that towered over the hundreds of people on the street, their nights only beginning as they hopped from one bar to another. Practice was too much today, his body beaten and bruised from the long hours of setting, receiving, blocking, and serving. Thereâs a strain in his muscles that he canât shake off, and if it werenât for that he would have been part of the city nightlife too.
Nights are the hardest. He doesnât have volleyball or his teammates to keep him occupied. Heâs not dancing his heart out with strangers who vaguely recognize him, music blaring in his ears, taking pictures to post on social media the very next day. Night are the hardest because his mind always leads him to you.Â
Midnight for him meant that it was midday for you. Have you eaten yet? How is work treating you? Are you getting along with your coworkers? âŚdid you think of him like he always thought of you? Questions that he could have the answers to within a few seconds; all he had to do was reach for his phone, look for your name â the only one with a heart next to it, and press the call button.
Instead, Oikawa reads through your texts. The ones where you ask him how heâs doing, the ones where you quickly summarize your day, the ones where you tell him you love him. His heart flutters before it aches, the grip on his phone tightening.Â
His heart has always belonged to you, Oikawa knew it from the very day you met. He knew it when he confessed. He knew it when he asked you to be his. He knew it as you went on dates, as you celebrated anniversaries. He knew it through every fight, in every kiss. He knew it when he got on the plane that took him miles away from you.
Oikawa also knew you deserved better than him. He knew you deserved someone present; someone who could be there with you, physically. Clearly, he canât be the one to do that anymore. This is for you. At the end of it all, what heâs doing is for you. Maybe it would make everything easier. Youâd think heâd move on. Youâd hate him. Itâs for the best, right?Â
He hopes heâs wrong, but Oikawa persists anyways.Â
Out of sight, out of mind. Isnât that how the saying goes?
It was much more difficult than Oikawa thought it would be; after all, youâre probably just as stubborn and persistent as he is. His phone lights up, signalling a new text.
[ y/n <3 : i really hope youâre okay, tooru. ]Â
This makes thirty.Â
He bites the inside of his cheek, a futile attempt to stop the tears that streamed down his face. A choked up noise leaves the back of his throat, surprising himself. He could have ended both his and your pain, all he had to do was type out a reply.Â
But the flurry of contradicting emotions stop him from doing so. Oikawa wants you to live your life, to move on, to forget him, to be happy without him. At the same time, he wanted you to wait for him, with open arms and that smile he loved.Â
His fingers move on their own, slowly but surely, as quiet sobs raked through his entire body.Â
[ iâm always going to love you. ]Â
Oikawa almost sends it. But he doesnât.
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"I've never cried over a broken dryer before"- "and you better not start now"
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Part 1 | Part 2
A/N: got nothing to say for myself really, just listened to a song, the idea hit me and i haven't written anything non science related in a decade so i gave it another go....that being said i realised i am awful at emotions lol. Side note i am from the UK so if some things seem off i apologise
Copyrights @joyfulhopelox
Pairing: Jungkook x reader (College!AU/ University!AU)
Warnings: ? mentions of skin? terrible fluff and flirting attempts
Word count: idk, it would not stop ~4k
A bop. A bop and some alcohol. That is all you needed after a long tiring week of studying for finals and cramming for your practical assessments. This week had been the last week of exam season and you were more than grateful that it had ended. You did not particularly care about how youâve done on the assessments. That was not your present selfâs problem, that was something for future you to worry about. Presently you just wanted to take a nap and head out with your girlfriends on a night out to just dance and drink all the stress away.
You werenât a drinker, not by a long shot. You barely touched alcohol once or twice a month, and that happened mainly when you would have a get together with your friends. It was hard not to get sucked in when everything around you was so loud and chaotic it made you want to be part of the chaos not just an observer. Youâve done the whole âbeing sober whilst your friends got drunkâ and you swore to yourself it would never happen again. Funny how nights out looked disgusting and cliche when you were actually awake to witness them. From the group who ended up dancing on the tables, to the group who dispersed to hunt for one night stands, to the group who decided to pass out at the bar or in the toilets and then you, the sober one left to pick everyone up and send them back home safely and make sure than no one got into a fight. You sometimes wondered how the hell you got home alright when you ended up actually drinking on these nights out as none of your friends seemed willing to stay sober and watch over you. For once, you were not going to question your luck and just roll with it.
Before you settled for a nap though you knew you had to go downstairs to do your washing. Being a student during exam season meant you were surviving on microwavable food, lots of caffeine, sugar in all sorts of forms and that your tiny dorm room looked as if a hurricane has passed through it with dirty clothes all over the place and bedding that has been left unwashed for at least 2 weeks. You felt disgusting and unfortunately the neat freak in you kicked in, unsuppressed anymore by your pre-exam anxiety. With a sigh you started undoing your bedsheets and stashing them in a basket along with other bits and pieces of clothes. Making sure that you got your laundry detergent and your key card you started lugging the basket out of your room praying to the Gods that the lift was not broken.
Living on the 8th floor had its perks, but not when you were in a sleep deprived hurry. All you could do is check the numbers going down to the lower ground hoping that the lift would not stop at any other floor. But of course your luck would run out, on 3rd floor the lift slowed down and stopped, making you release an angry huff. âOf course it wouldâ you muttered to yourself as the doors opened only to reveal a tall men impatiently tapping his foot. Huffing he too got into the elevator making you aware of his stature. He may have not been as tall as some of the men youâve seen but he was clearly working out as his muscles made him look way broader than his stature permitted. A gym rat, you rolled your eyes and tried to move the laundry bag and yourself into the corner, the space feeling too cramped for your liking. The dragging sound of the bag made the person turn around and give you a curious glance which you dismissed quickly. You werenât interested in conversing with strangers on a normal basis let alone a gym rat. Nothing against them, you just had nothing in common and your tired brain did not want to make up a polite small talk.
âLower ground?â the person asked you, surprisingly the voice was soft and clear, something you had not expected of him. It made you glance at him, âyeahâ you nodded after composing yourself. The person nodded making their long bangs fall into their eyes which prompted the next two surprises for you; in an attempt to settle his bangs out of his face he not only revealed a muscular defined arm which youâd have to admit was kind of attractive- youâd have to be blind not to notice, but also an array of random tattoos all over his arm and hand. The other surprise hit you a moment later after you realised youâve been staring at him for a second too long and you sniffed and turned your face away. The smell of alcohol was coming off of him strongly as if heâs been drinking for a few days straight and his pores exuded it. It took you all you had to not cough. Frat boy, gym rat- this guy was ticking all the âno noâ boxes and so regardless of how good looking he was he did not deserve second thoughts.
Your prayers being answered, you reached lower ground quicker than expected and you prepared yourself to rush out of the lift. However, the clothes basket was heavier than youâd thought so instead of a swift exit like youâve planned, you closely resembled Santa dragging his toy sack.
âWould you like some help with that?â the guy whoâd turned around and observed you amusedly as you struggled extended a hand in your direction. You huffed and dropped the basket on the floor and couldnât help but notice the basket he held in one hand and how the effort made his muscles and veiny arms that much more noticeable. Hot.
ââS all good thanksâ however, you were not going to accept his help. You just wanted to get these damn clothes in the wash so you could go and nap away the remainder of your post exam stress. The guy held your gaze for a second too long before he raised an eyebrow and looked unconvincingly at your basket and your face, which was red by now youâd presume. Then shrugging he carried on walking towards the laundry room getting further and further out of your view, and you could have sworn there was an extra spring in his step. That fucker.
After monumental efforts you managed to drag everything to the laundry room only to notice that it had been left propped open by an empty bottle. Entering with difficulty you made your way to the closest washer available and dropped the laundry basket on the floor with a relieved sigh. Bending down to start putting your clothes in, you could definitely hear a snicker behind you. Whas thatâŚ.? Of course it was, you were the only two souls in there. Everyone else was probably either enjoying some much needed sleep or partying the evening away already. Deciding to ignore him you continued to pile your clothes into the machine and soon enough you got distracted so much so that you did not realise you had started humming.
âNice voice you got there, but do both of us a favour, leave it for when youâre on your own will you?â another snicker from behind. Flustered you whipped around, âwhat?â his gaze on you held a smouldering effect making you feel as if you were pinned down by just its sheer force. His dark eyes, whilst amused, were also narrowed on your form as if commanding you to listen to what he was saying. Your breath hitched and as much as youâd tried to shrug off the feeling and the temptation to not listen to him and turn around, you found yourself unable to. Trying to hold his gaze your eyes wavered for a split second when the tip of his tongue peeked out from between his lips to wet the lower one. A gesture so fleeting, done as if by habit, but paired with the intense gaze it had your throat constrict and your instincts had been to follow his moves, your own tongue coming out to lick your own suddenly dry lips.
Had you intended to do this to toy with him? No. Has it worked? Judging by the way his eyes travelled slowly and purposefully down your face towards your lips, you could swear it has. Refusing to give him more vulnerability than that you turned around with tremendous efforts and continued pilling clothes into the washer completely missing the way he stared at your ass that was now on display. Biting his lip he gave you another once over before returning to his own washing.
You couldnât help to glance his way every time you would turn around to pick up more clothes out of the basket. He was sporting a concentrated face, his lower lip caught between his teeth, his broad shoulders and the way his arm muscles were defined by the effort were making you breathless. However, what made your head spin and your heart to skip too many beats for it to be healthy was what happened next. You blame your bad luck - or good luck- for glancing at him only to catch him grab his shirt and give it a tentative sniff and a shrug. So he knew he reeked, but your snicker turned into a hiccup as soon as he had grabbed the hem of his shirt and pulled it over his head.
Normally a situation like this wouldnât phase you, you have seen plenty of men naked. But this one, this one was a special one. His bunny like features, defined nose bridge, jawline and floppy but rugged hair were a complete contrast to his defined jawline and...oh lordâŚ.were those six or eight abs??
âWhat in the name of abs are you doing?â sputtering you turned to fully face him. What a mistake. He did the same so now you had a full frontal view, first row, VIP seat to his naked upper body. That was definitely a six abs package. Shrugging, which by lord made everything tense up in ways you did not need to see, he threw the longsleeve into the wash and slammed it shut. All that did not take more than 5 seconds but to you, it seemed like a slowed down eternity in which your eyes got a good view of a muscular anatomy.
âWhat, itâs dirty and iâm doing my washing?â he stated as if it was plain as day and absolutely normal to get naked in the laundry room.âIn the name of abs? Should i be calling you a peeping Tom?â A slow forming smirk that made him look dangerously mischievous made its way onto his face.
âPffft, what? I said in the name of gods, what are you on about? Why would I be looking at you, whilst you think itâs perfectly fine to strip in a public place??â he laughed at your clear distress but chose to not to mention your choice of words. âHardly public is it? Thereâs just you and i in hereâ he rebutted whilst turning around to scan his laundry card onto the machine and pressed start. You scoffed indignantly, âwhat am i chopped liver? Iâm not goddamn blindâ you mumbled, not for his ears but instead chose to say out loud, âwhat about the poor souls who will see you in the lift back up? Is that not a public place?â
Unbeknownst to you he had clearly heard your previous statement, his smirk once again widening, so you had actually been looking. Good. Clearing his throat he put on as much of a serious face as he could âI think itâs unfair to call them poor, this is not cheap accommodation, if they live here it is clear that they are anything but poorâ he knew what youâd meant by poor, but just the annoyed tick in your eyebrow that appeared at his statement was worth it. Choosing to stay silent instead of taking the bait, you returned to your laundry. Only to curse out loud- you had finished it and upon scouring your belongings haphazardly you realised your card was missing. Vaguely remembering you had only taken your room card you groaned, this was not how youâd intended to spend your afternoon before the party.
Without a secondâs notice, a tattooed hand with a card appeared before your eyes and the washing machine burst to life. Indignantly you whipped your head around to look at the owner of said hand, âwhat are you doing?â only to come face to face with the end of a defined collarbone and jawline. And by all that is saintfully just, the line of his throat was just as attractive as the whole of the man. Being this close to him rendered you absolutely useless, jumbled thoughts ranging from âi need to pay him backâ to âwhat is he even doingâ to settle in the end to a single thought which you also voiced out loud without even thinking. âYour moles are prettyâ. You had managed to get past the expanse of his neck to the outline of his lower lip when you noticed his mole, and to your defense- it was cute, but with the whole package, cute is the last word you had in mind. More like- it added a completeness that you would not think he needed but there it was.
He swallowed thickly, enjoying for a second too long the glazed look you had on your face as you said that. âAnd you have nice eyesâ he retaliates even though this is the first time heâs had a closeup look at them. Bright and sparkly, unknown to the both of you, a mirror of each otherâs. Sparkly with a promise of something. Something which would have to wait forâŚ.if you had your way, forever, if he had his way- a second. You finally willed your legs to step aside and away from the unclothed man.
âUh-thanksâ you never stutter, but something about the heavy and thick air around makes it hard to take controlled breaths. âFor the washing i meanâ you correct yourself. You will never admit to him out loud that him complimenting your eyes made your heart stumble and your brain freeze. You turned around to escape the situation, completely missing the amused expression on the manâs face. âYou are welcomeâ he extends his hand out walking to your side not missing the way you try to put some distance in between the two of you.
âIâm Jungkookâ he smiles, a complete 180 from his appearance, his smile was warm and genuine, the type of smile that is reflected not only in his eyes but his whole face. His nose scrunches up too cutely, you think to yourself. He somehow resembles a bunny? Mustering up all the courage and bravery your heart still had, you grasp his hand. Hm, soft, odd for a gym head. You knew what he was asking for, but you would not give it to him. As cute as he is, you still tried to tell yourself you were unimpressed. âAnd iâm a poor soul who lives in this block of flatsâ you mutter âi will pay you back for the washingâ.
As soon as you reached your tiny cramped room and settled down for that nap youâve been craving, you could not help but replay the last words he said to you, sounding way too smug for his own good. âIs that you telling me to put a shirt on for your sake?â
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ROSE I AM FREAKING OUT HAVE YOU SEEN THE PREQUEL STUFF???? WHAT IS GOING ON, my god... I was literally about to go to sleep, decided to check Tumblr one last time and see this.... what WHAT!! WHATTTT!!!!!! I don't even know if this is good bad or what but just JENSEN IS PRODUCING A SUPERNATURAL PREQUEL AND DEAN'S GONNA BE THE NARRATOR OR Sth LIKE???? -đ¸
YEAH i am normal about this <3 (jk i am also freaking out) welcome to: people screaming to me in my inbox about prequelgate ft. j/2 fallout theory. let's goooo!
Another copypasta and suddenly chaos machine is full on gay I love this prophecy
you know whats funny i just checked the j/2 tag and i feel like for the first time in a long time they are starting to realise that maybe THEY should be the ones who are "gutted" *sips tea*
ROSE HOLY SHIT ROOOOOOOOSE ITS HAPPENING HOLY SHIIIIIT
YEAH
Nevermind just read prequel and well good luck I guess but just you know kind of bleh who wants to watch John Winchester well letâs have hope anyways
i know a lot of people are bummed out but i am kind of very excited actually?? i trust robbie and even though yeah j*hn winchester turned into a nasty abusive bastard, it can be interesting to explore how it all started (imo). it's just the first of many stories they can tell.
I can only accept this circus if itâs Dean telling the stories to his and Casâ kids and then we have a revival to show that the whole finale was in fact the end Chuck wanted there Jensen I fixed it
i would not say no to this
heyloo bee anon here
um- wtf is happening?
jackles prequel series?? why? i want to be excited about this but sheesh im scared
because supernatural is never dead <3
okay, but, jensen... john winchester â jdm, you donât have to go /that/ hard for him đ
true true... though i am waiting for jdm to comment on this, please i need it
WAIT A SECOND J2 FALLOUT THEORY TRUE??
LMAO HELL YEAH BESTIE
Rose you really picked the worst time to sleep for real
bestie it was literally 4 in the morning, what do you expect from me sdfjsfhsf
I canât literally canât we were all right LMAO j2 fallout theory is real and cockles (Misha supporting Jensen) is [gunshots] Iâm just laughing cause what the hell is this timeline weâre living LMAOOOOOOOOOO
we would always end up here <3
Do we have the copypaste anons to thank for JP basically confirming the J2 fallout? lol đŚ
yes, everybody say 'thanks annoying idiots!'
ROSE, WAKE UP, COME HERE,
THERE'S A LOT GOING ON FFS
YEAH I KNOW BUT I NEEDED SLEEP
Anticipating that there's going to be a lot of yelling about the prequel on here: I am cackling, but also, I mean, the first time Dean got a look into his parent's past, Cas was the catalyst: literally entered Dean's mind and catapulted him to the 70s. So idk, it's not completely unreasonable to expect some Cas cameos, maybe setting up a parallel timeline since Dean is narrating. What I'm saying is, this is Jackles, he's getting JDM and Misha in on this lmao -Honeymoon Anon
you were right lmfaooo also i fully agree. misha's tweet further cemented that thought for me. he knew about this prequel and i dont think he is cas-baiting us, i think he'll be involved. i'd also be obsessed to see jensen and jdm act together again (though idk who jdm could play seeing as it's a prequel and he is way too old to play young j*hn)
longlivethetribbles heeft gevraagd:
Heyyyyyy bestie, are you SEEING the absolute madness going on right now holy shit
well a little late but I SURE AM BESTIE
bestie wake up pls s16 finale just dropped.
- đŻ
and WHAT a great one it was
I love coming home from work to see all of the chaos unfolding on Tumblr and Twitter. I'm absolutely buzzing right now. I'll probably still be here by the time you wake up and check tumblr đ - đ˘
lmaooo and were you still awake?? did you see my freak out??
Oooh bestie wake the fuck up, I know youâre gonna be excited for this one jsnsjsj
god i had SUCH a morning like. it's 12:00 now and all i did since i woke up is check tumblr rip
short summary: jen and dee gain the rights, they post on ig/twitter about a prequel ft john and mary that no one asked for, the fandom loses its everloving shit as usual, they trend on twitter thanks to the beloved twt intern who missed us, misha qtâs jen about cas possibly benefiting from being in the prequel, then j*red qtâs jensen abt how his feelings got hurt by him not being told about a prequel his character as no involvement in & he initially throws a tantrum, and the rest is history - đŚ anon (ps: i hope this helps a little, iâve been scattered brained trying to keep up with it all night lmao so pls let me know if i missed anything, bug crew !!)
thank you so much darling i figured it out eventually but this is a helpful summary!!!
I hope you enjoyed waking up to all of this XD -đ˘
i sure did!!! also that answers my question about you being awake lmao
I WILL NEVER EVER EVER FORGIVE MYSELF FOR SLEEPING THROUGH ALL OF THIS DRAMA AND NOT EXPERIENCING IT IN PERSON I DIDN'T NEED THIS SLEEP - tea anon
well the party was still going strong this morning so im not TOO "gutted" see what i did there lmaooo
Now that you are caught up with the news... So idk if you remember this but...didn't jarpad tell jackles he was up for a reboot in an online panel? And jackles answered that this was news to him??
-đŻ
yeah i think you are right but he was clearly joking and didnt expect jackles to actually be working on something already
J2 anon spare more of those anons let's finish this - tea anon
please, we're having a ball in this bitch
I saw a post on tumblr where someone said now that Kripke gave J&D the rights, maybe theyâre starting with a prequel just to end on a reboot in years time and honestly ? I wanna believe that so badly. This is tinhatty but what if this is all calculated in a way that makes it so that Jensen is slowly starting to fix everything that was wrong with spn - now that he has the rights and heâs slowly making spn his own story ?! I mean he did say in his ig post he wants to âfill in the restâ - and maybe Mary and Johnâs story is only the beginning of spn related content from J&D to come ??? Maybe he wants to give spn the justice it deserves ?? Thoughts ??
i dont think this is tinhatty at all i think this is very possible and not that much of a reach. i could see this happening yeah for sure
want to hear something funny. I found out I had a ruptured blood vessel in my eye because I was sending my friend a video freaking out when the prequel news dropped and I noticed the corner of my eye was red af. and when I got back online jared had tweeted.
DJFHSJD ANON THE CHAOS OF IT ALL, HELP, are you okay? <3
rose.. bestie... how are you feeling about The News? nsfshsf being european is a curse </3 đ
i feel GREAT im living for it i feel on top of the world tbh (and yeah it really is dsjfhs)
What am I waking up to I can't WHAT I rested my eyes for like 5 minutes help *hits reblog button* - anon anon
yep yep essentially djfhs
âJensen and Misha are Co workers who barley talkâ
I canât be sure of course but Iâm fairly certain that this is the copypasta that brought the j/2 fallout theory back to life. Whoâs apparently âbarely talkingâ now? skansjsjsj. Itâs almost prophetic, these j/2 anons have superpowers Iâm telling ya.
-poker face anon
next time we get one of them we should be thanking them lmaooo
ok, but are we gonna talk about the "When Daneel and I formed Chaos Machine Productions, we knew that the first story we wanted to tell was the story of John and Mary Winchester [...]"-quote because the way this is phrased implies they formed CHAOS MACHINE Productions with the intent of telling this story (first), i haven't been in this dumpster long enough but the name just tickles me in that Misha way, isn't it so sus??? am i missing something???? i mean with this announcement they SURE lived up to that name... đ§Š-anon
you are absolutely right, chaos machine SCREAMS misha and we are all here for it!!
hey hey hey. joining the clownverse, there's no way THEE cas girl danneel doesn't know just how much the fandom loves misha and cas. so 2 + 2 = misha in the spn prequel!
AGREED
So I think I finally managed to catch up on wtf happened while I was asleep and my brain melted. What a shit show to wake up to.
Anyway thoughts.
I don't hate the idea of a Mary&John sequel. I think it has the potential to be good (It has the potential to be really bad too, so I'm kind scared).
đŻď¸đŻď¸đŻď¸ manifesting Mary being badass and John being kinda uselessđŻď¸đŻď¸đŻď¸
As for the Jensen and J*red thing.
I can see Jensen not telling J*red even if they are still friends, because J*red is kinda good at accidentally telling Secrets. He could have told him right before he announced it so, so that J*red didn't have to find out from twitter. He was on the show for 15 years, he is bound to get asked about it. The public twitter meltdown was really unprofessional so. Like you have Jensen's number J*red. You could have sorted that out in private like a normal person, but instead you choose to act like a toddler throwing a tantrum.
Is it weird that I'm actually going to be kinda that for them if the actually had a falling out, even tho I don't like J*red all that much. They seemed to be really important to each other and while I thought before that the might have triefted apart a bit, I didn't think that the where actively fighting.
- đ anon
the thing is, the polite/normal thing for jensen to do was text him before announcing it on twitter. it's weird he didn't, and that makes me believe that maybe yeah they did have a falling out. especially with the way j*red responded to it on twitter. if he had no other reason to be this upset (no prior beef or falling out) you'd think that he wouldn't be responding like this. on the other hand, the man is a mysterie to me so who the hell knows. i'm not gonna mourn about it if they did/do grow apart because j*red is just.... awful imo.
#frog anon#bee anon#peacock anon#subtlerainy#honeymoon anon#bestie mutual#honeypot anon#turtle anon#butterfly anon#tea anon#ladybug anon#anon anon#poker face anon#puzzle pieces anon#snail anon#good lord i think i got more anons about this than about anything else before lmao#good luck to anybody who actually reads this <3
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*sequel* to actual fucking quotes from the shiftblr coffeehouse discord server
once again, it's out of context because x1000 funnier
also x1000 longer than previous post
"ur satan is gnc af"
"Bestie Iâm already having gender envy over a fucking demon please"
"O_O ODEPIJHFbavevisdpvfhzdcnjawedsidjksjdkoeirjfmkdsoeirujdksodifjndmksoidfjdksidfj ITS" NOT IN MY FRAFTS IS SPEDNT 1 hour PN THAT SHIT"
"AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"
"ohoho sexy"
"I am very proud of myself"
"himbo x edgy fuck"
"YOU COULD SQUISH HES CHEECKS"
"he has teefs"
"SQUASH"
"good for biting đˇ"
"he's a himbo basically"
"BÍĚĚiÍŤĚĚtͧÍÍŻeĚĚĚ"
"bifth"
"i havent watched blue exorcist in years but mr okumura my beloved </3"
"MY LIFE QUESTIONS HAVE BEEN ANSWERED"
"is it important information to mention that the person i put up for my turn is the son of satan" "I know like 1 thing about everyone who isnt ranboo lmfao"
"crimes"
"tumblr sexyman"
"idk why but my first thought was cowboy onceler"
"I vibe with him but he is very long and twisty"
"steampunk e-girl"
"steampunk tumblr sexyman"
"Canonically bi crimelord I agree!!"
"OOO FRIEND SHAPED"
"ARTIST SIGHTED"
"they look like someone i would want to be friends with but is way cooler than me so i'd never actually talk to them"
"babby..... would die for him"
"honestly i probably kin him"
"i'm sure he's lovely but he looks way too much like my ex i'm sorry-"
"i'd be down for another rotation! i have another twink to show y'all"
"Also :00 blonde friend"
"Let us all infodhmo"
"Hsjagdvbs shhh im on phone"
"Nix woukd you like to joon?
"skitters away"
"I have two braincells and they both drink dumb bitch juice"
"oof wait whats the order again i have 0 memory"
"i want to bond with him over cosplay-"
"Awkwardly watches in band kid"
"One day I'm gonna a broadway star"
"which isnt to say they were bad. they were just fortnite dancing during rehersals"
"I threw it so hard my glasses flew off and slid under the stage right divider"
"anyway heres my boi"
"emo"
"haha emo"
"virgil sanders kinnie"
"he looks like he listens to my chemical panic at the fallout boy"
"Bro I bet he'd kick my ass with his deck"
"bird man my beloved"
"fuck i had so much to say and then i forgot it all"
"Birds!!"
"guiguhuh"
"crabrave"
"She sounds like someone I would end up stealing her personality"
"yess name collector gang"
"alias glass aiden haven absinthe fish brick rice"
"But I have Cypress, Remure, Genesis, Lemres, and Comet"
"And she's named after a mars candy bar bc alien"
"Hey, if plato went by plato, you can be king thief"
"im not dissing my gramma like that shfojd"
"My dad has seven legal names" "bitches be like *looks at fictional character* *steals their name* it's us we're bithces"
"coraline lowkey traumatized me but i adore it regardless"
"mmmmmm magic man :]"
"°0° green man"
"criminal (affectionate)"
"he would shoplift a candy bar from walmart and then brag to all of his friends about the sick stealing he did"
"despite the fact he's canonically been capable of overpowering a minor deity"
"i would commit so many crimes for him"
"Very babey"
"Yes please tell green man he is very pog"
"he also keeps a lot of dumb secrets"
"but I will sorely miss the chaos and energy of this here chat until I wake again" (by request XD)
"i just say words and if they're funny then they're funny"
"* or extremly chaotic either works"
"at this point we are just taking turns rambling"
"oH--"
"bc my brain has a schedule"
"Hopefully they have gyoza there or I will lose my mind"
"hehe yes spooky man"
"my ghost glucose guardian"
"the head of the undead group that lives there, and we end up dating. (yes I date a ghost, no I will not be taking constructive criticism /lh)"
"ghosts r just inherently sexy"
"i mean im becoming a squid thing so"
"Raven quirk raven quirk!!"
"Šâ m p"
"ĹĂŚmp"
"mothman: ooh lamp you look very nice today! do you come here often? mothman: wait shit no"
"I'd date a ghost"
"mine is still accurate, i am still sobbing (/j)"
"p e e p e e"
""@nick wilde is a tumblr sexyman" is the best thing i have ever seen"
"im sorry im cackling like a dying hyena"
"you're all 12 year olds"
"PEENIE"
"He once caused global warming on accident so he could get a tan"
"god, what a himbo. i love him"
"that reminds me of my friends kin assigned me jesus"
"Man outside of battle be like: princely crying but then in battle hes like: "CATACLYSM! DISASTER! DEVASTATION!" Chill out man"
"Every time I talk about satan it never fails to shock people it's my favorite thing to do"
"im kin assigning him roman sanders" ""Oh yeah he caused global warming because he wanted to get girls" "he what""
"oh damn i forgot satan was straight"
"twink appreciation club"
"give us the twinks"
"my first thought was bottom-"
"so many people to try and get his dad to love him"
"daddy issued"
"OH MY GOD ITS WILBUR"
"Big boy but"
"anyways janus is swagggg"
"........................."
"gib twink"
"give twink then i will share"
"holds him gentle like hamburger"
"This dumb bitch opened a book that said "do not open" and got possessed by a little bastard"
"he is. fragile creachur"
"klug is beauty klug is grace i would let him step on my face"
"If I'm playing swap and I have to hear one more "Pwanet Powew" Im gonna lose it"
"Who is to blame? Pandora or the box?"
"Bakugo isnt my type but I respect the drip"
"i say like my type isnt long-haired pretty boys and girls that look so gnc that people have a history of confusing them for men"
"hes a gremlin and i can appreciate a pretty gremlin"
"that is to say i am attracted to VFlower vocaloid. This is a confession."
"note i am a lesbian"
"You may like Schezo wegey"
"why does he have one single expression"
"soul soul eater passes the vibe check"
"magic wand"
"I Want To Hold His Hand"
"i would commit a war crime for him any war crime idc which one"
"my favorite one is when he sounded rlly gay because he said "Muscular bodies keep me satisfied""
"p e a n u t"
"Klug is a homophobic homosexual its just facts"
"grug from the croods is peak male performance"
"jaw drops to floor, eyes pop out of sockets accompanied by trumpets, heart beats out of chest, awooga awooga sound effect, pulls chain on train whistle that has appeared next to head as steam blows out, slams fists on table, rattling any plates, bowls or silverware, whistles loudly, fireworks shoot from top of head, pants loudly as tongue hangs out of mouth, wipes comically large bead of sweat from forehead, clears throat, straightens tie, combs hair Ahem, you look very lovely."
"tag yourself im the fireworks shooting from the top of the head"
"i like essays"
"central time gang"
"11:11 pog-" (wait... is that a suprise angel number?? yes it is lovelies just for you <3)
"Then again im also a dumbass bitch who wonders what the souls in soul eater taste like. SERIOUSLY THOUGH. THEY LOOK TASTY AS HELL!!!! LIKE GODDAMN BRO YOU'RE MAKING ME FUCKING HUNGRY. Like. that shit- it's Bone Apple motherfucking Teeth. hell yea my guy. Im hongy now.... shlorp I'm seriously considering this. Like. They seem kinda like a liquid? But a solid? Are they like jello? The fuck they taste like my guy???? I keep imagining they're like sour, like sour candy maybe? Or do they taste salty? Sweet? Maybe some combo of two? Do they even have a taste or is it about the texture? The sensation? God my mouth is watering what the hell. I am starving. I think I need to go get a cookie. I'm gonna go get a cookie. Brb. I'm better. I'm still craving souls though. Which is a weird-ass cringey thing to say but I'm being dead-ass rn. They just.... look tasty???? And I wanna eat one. Thus. I am shifting to Soul Eater for the express purpose of satisfying my fucking cravings. enjoy"
"points were made"
"jello? more like helloooo schloooAHFJDSDAIDWNALDHSJKDAIDANDM"
"WAIT I THINK I HAVE AN ANIME GIRL BITING VIDEO TOO"
"anime girl voice: mmm! mm... ahhhhmp!! mmm, mmm... aaahmp!"
"i think it sounds great i'm going to start eating like that"
"several people are typing"
"do these look edible to you"
"forbidden gummies"
"when I was on lsd I couldn't eat my fruit gummies because I thought they were alive because they had little faces on them"
"oh shit yeah don't do drugs"
"anyways general consensus is puyos are edible, ty for your input everyone"
"everypony is a word so powerful it can bring nations to its knees"
"pls the self control it's taking me not to say "hewwo everypony" in gen chat when someone new joins-"
"hewwo evewrypony uwu deaw cewestia i hopwe it doewsnt wain owo"
"ive cooked up a sowution wiwth the knowwege ive acwued. they say a kitcwen time saves niwne, but im just savwing two. Ive gathewwed the inwedients to make a time sowbet. Thewe's hawdly woom fow seconds when the seconds mewt away."
"I had a ten year old sister... you know what happened to her??? very sad, very tragic... she turned eleven....."
"NIIICE"
"Guts dont say the secks word :( /j"
"watch your fucking language in front of the president"
"im so sorry lumi"
"i think you're like ehhhh 8/10 funny"
"now me???? 10/10. Hilarious"
"sometimes i have to take a step back and remember that this is the same guts i follow on tumblr /lh"
""ok every here's some good shifting advice!!! uwu have a good day" "yeah i did lsd and ate fruit gummies""
"i have one setting and it's whatever this is"
"my bitch ass cat just pushed the door open with his fuzzy face and now my sleeping dad is being lulled into dreams by Cosmo Sheldrake's 'Pliocine'."
"me on discord: nick wilde"
"me on tumblr: shifting water! haha funne! me on here: my hermit crabs are cannibals also i want to eat souls."
"im sorry yOUR VIBESA RE JUST SO DIFFERNT"
"u give off older cousin ive never spoken to but always admire at the family gatherings vibes"
"what the fuck"
"BC I HAVE LIBERTU"
"If you adopt me then yes"
"am I qualified for dad jokes???"
"we're all a lot smarter on tumblr"
"I'm like "awww... sweet... sweet little shiftlings... posting such sweet shiftling content... so pure, so wholesome... does not even know abcs....""
"can't think before you speak if you never think B)"
"I'm not responsible enough to be a mom"
"cat pet"
"show us pictures of the cat or i will do Crime"
"maybe thats me being a coward tho"
"MOTH!!!! MOTH MY BELOVED"
if y'all want I can make this a series bc shiftblr keeps giving me more content
#tw drugs#tw swearing#tw cannibalism#tw crime#tw food#tw homophobia#shitpost#out of context#out of context quotes#lumi's quotes
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all dead hearts to you
Description:Â George and Dream have never met in person. It isnât a problem until Dream calls George to tell him heâs going to kill himself.
check this out on Ao3 if you wanna be cool!
Authorâs Note:Â Not me crashing recklessly into another fandom (also this is assuming sapnap went home to Texas after living with dream idk let me live)
title from Dead Hearts by Stars
also I'm new here, anyone wanna give me a welcome to the boys?
warnings: suicide warning (obviously) but no actual suicide, general anxiety and panic attacks
Itâs 3am when George gets Dreamâs call.Â
Late, but only really for him. Itâs still before midnight in Florida, right around 10pm. Heâd like to say that heâs so practiced with converting time zones that he doesnât even have to think about it but he still has to count backwards on his fingers, thinking on the jump between late late nights and early mornings.
Heâs still awake but the leds in his room have been turned to red, set to the dimmest mode. He was streaming with Quackity up until about half an hour ago and his room has settled back into quiet again.
He feels the thrum of anxiety as he hears the ringtone. Dream usually only calls him when George is about to sleep through something important or if heâs on the road. George wonders if he forgot something today or maybe he let something slip on his call with Quackity.
Now that itâs on his mind, he realizes that he hasnât heard from Dream all day. Or yesterday?
Theyâve both been busy, though George has been busy with the usual things and Dream said something about needing to put his affairs in order or whatever that meant. They usually text at least but even that has been quieter.
George grabs his phone off his desk and picks up the call.
âDream. Whatâs up?â he asks. George runs a quick hand through his hair, checking his screen quickly. Itâs a real phone call, not even a discord call. âHey, Iâm putting you on speaker. Iâm gonna put on my pajamas.â
Heâs about to set the phone on his dresser when Dream says, âOh, I probably shouldnât be on speaker.â
Thereâs something off in his tone. Something flat. It sets Georgeâs nerves on edge.Â
âYeah? Okay.â George tucks the phone back by his ear, slumping back on his bed. âDid you have something you had to tell me?â
âYeah. George, Iâm going to kill myself.â
Everything in George stills.
And then starts to spin.
âWhat?â
âIâm going toââ
âYouâre not serious.â George jerks upright, ignoring the lightheaded feeling sinking its fingers into his skull. âDream, this isnât funny.â
âI donât think it is. Itâs just going to happen.âÂ
Thereâs not even a tremor in Dreamâs voice. George canât feel anything past the bone deep shock in his system.
All he can think of is Dream, wrists bloody and split open. Dream, fingertips dusted white with the residue of unnamed pills. Dream, rope burns fracturing the long line of his neck.Â
Dream, dead.
How is he even going to do it? Is he actually going to do it? George wants to ask but then he realizes he doesnât want to know.
He imagines the first time he sees Dream in person is when he attends his funeral.
He imagines all the words heâs held in for so long, waiting and waiting for the moment he could say them to Dream face to face, finally being said to dead air.
But George canât say that so all he manages is an obstinate, âNo.â
âYes.â
âNo.â
âYes.â
âStop disagreeing with me.â
âGeorge,â Dream laughs. Laughs.
George feels dizzy with the disbelief swirling inside him. Surely this canât be happening. What reason would Dream have to make this up though? Dream would never joke about something like this. Why is he laughing?Â
How can Dream be so casual when Georgeâs world is shattering?Â
He doesnât know what a future without Dream looks like.
Theyâve always lived miles apart but Dream has never felt so far away. George has never felt like this. Like he couldnât reach him.
âDream.â Dreamâs laugh cuts off as soon as he hears the plea in Georgeâs voice. âIs something wrong? Are youâ I can come there. I can be with you tomorrow. Sapnap can stay with you again. You donât have to do thisââ
âI know. But I want to. So Iâm going to.â Any trace of mirth is gone. Dream sounds the same way he did when he decided he was going to break a world record or make YouTube work for him.
Determined. Steadfast. His voice has the steely confidence of knowing he wonât fail.
Usually itâs inspiring but now the familiarity of it just makes George sick. Heâs never known Dream to be someone content with failure.
George's phone digs into his palm as his grip spasms. He tastes blood.
And he doesnât even know why yet.
âWhat happened? Whatever it is, we can fix it.â
Dream sighs. âNothingâs wrong, George.â
âThere has to be something wrong. You can tell me,â George insists. Then he changes tactics and lies through his teeth. âI swear I wonât tell anyone else. We can work this out together, just the two of us. Just tell me whatâs wrong.â
âI already told you nothingâs wrong,â Dream repeats.
âThen why would you⌠do that?â George trips over the word, rephrases it instead.
And then Dream rips that tiny defense to shreds.
âYou can say it you know,â Dream says. âIâm going to kill myself. You should probably get used to it actually. People are going to ask you about it. Iâm sorry about that,â he adds as an afterthought.Â
The harsh, blunt words sting against Georgeâs skin.
âDonât apologize,â he strangles out. âDonât apologize for that out of everything. Just donât do it.â
âGeorge,â Dream breathes, exasperated.
âI just donât understand,â George begs. For the first time, his voice wavers.
Dream, cold gun in his cold hands. Dream, long limbs hanging over the railing of a bridge as he stares down. Dream, slumped over his table with a bottle of vodka nestled near his feet.Â
Dream, dead.
Dead.
Dead.
âDonât cry, okay?â Dreamâs voice softens. George forgot how gentle Dream could be with him when he wanted.Â
âI didnât want to make you cry. Look, itâs justâŚâ Dream trails off. Eventually, he continues even quieter. âThis is it, you know? This is the top, this is the peak. It canât go on like this forever, crazy numbers on videos and trending on twitter and all that shit. Iâd rather go out like this than wait to hit the bottom. Doesnât that make sense?â Dream persuades.
âNo,â George insists, all the air leaving his lungs at once.
âCome on, George. Can you even picture yourself growing old? What happens when weâre 30, 40, and all of this is gone. Do you want that?â
The sick part of it all is that George has imagined the future. He imagines it lovingly, not viciously. Not like this.
He imagined a future with Sapnap and Bad and Karl and Quackity but most of all with Dream. He wants so badly to be with him. Sapnap talked about living together, how great parts of it had been, how he would have stayed if he hadnât had to return home for family, and George so selfishly wants that for himself.
And heâs always known thatâs not what Dream pictured. Dream doesnât want what he wants. Dream doesnât want to grow old with someone, much less George.
Can you even picture yourself growing old?
It hurts because George can and he always wanted it to be with Dream.
âWhat are you even saying? Do you want me to kill myself too?â George bites. He scrubs viciously at his eyes and stabs at the power button of his computer, teeth piercing into his lip as he waits for it to turn on.
âNo, no, of course not. I would neverâ Come on, thatâs obviously not what Iâm saying.â
George fumbles with his keyboard, pulling up his discord messages with Sapnap.
He just needs someone else to help him, someone else to know. Someone who can do what he canât. Someone who isnât as fucking helpless as him, who doesnât live an ocean away and who has never seen Dream in person and has never touched Dream, not once, has never known what the sun feels like in Florida.
Of course he was lying when he said this was going to stay between the two of them.
This isnât the kind of thing he can do alone.
 George: Sapnap dream says hes goingÂ
George: to kill himself
George: you have to get someone to him
George: call 999Â
George: 911
 Sapnap: what
 George: please now sap Im on the phone with him
 Sapnap: are you joking
 George: no
George: do it
George: please fast now
 âAre you typing?â Dream questions, a note of warning in his tone.
George jerks. âNo, Iââ
Heâs cut off by a beeping from his phone.Â
His heart stops.
âWhatâs that sound?â Dream asks.
Sapnap is calling him.
George can picture him, knee jumping as he clutches his phone, hoping against hope that George is joking. He can practically hear the adrenaline trembling in Sapnapâs voice, can see the way Sapnap stands and paces.
He canât answer though. He canât leave Dream.
George declines the call, hand shaking.
âWho was that?â The question is flat.
âNo one,â George says too quickly.
âNo one?â Dream repeats. Only a second or two passes before George hears the same beep through his phone speaker, this time coming from Dreamâs end. âWow look whoâs calling me. Sapnap. Wonder if he changed his name to No One,â Dream says without emotion.
 Sapnap: fck are you serious
 George bites his tongue, wincing.
âDreamââ
 George: y
 George canât manage to type anything more before Dream snarls, âYouâre such a fucking snitch, you know that? Itâs fine though, I thought this might happen. I was gonna call him after you, for the record.â It almost sounds like Dream is smiling. Georgeâs heart twists. Why is he smiling? âI know you have to try as a friend to save me, or whatever you want to call it, but you really donât have to. I want to do this. Iâm going to.
âItâs not like you could really stop me anyway,â Dream continues. âYou donât even know where I live. You barely know what I look like. What, are you going to ask the police to search the entire state of Florida?â
âSapnap knows,â George whispers.Â
He tries to shake off the savagery seeping into Dreamâs voice. He tells himself Dream is defensive, Dream is nervous, Dream is scared. Dream isnât thinking about what heâs really saying.
Though things have never mattered before, the fact George has never been to Florida, that George has never seen Dream in person. But now Dream is weaponizing them against him, forcing George to acknowledge that for everything their relationship is, it can never replace an in person friendship. And Dream has always been a better fighter than George.
âNo, he doesnât. Me and Sap rented a house, remember? We never went to my house. I never sent him my actual address, I checked.â And Dream sounds so smug. Like he won.
Georgeâs gaze darts back to his computer.Â
But he already knows Dream isnât a liar.
 Sapnap: I dont know his address
Sapnap: fuck
Sapnap: Im calling bad
Sapnap: dont let him hang up
 âPeople are so dumb about it, you know? They tell all their friends and then they get caught before actually doing it,â Dream goes on, not paying attention to Georgeâs disconsolate silence.
âBut youâre telling me,â George mutters. Hopelessness strings through him.
Sapnap isnât writing anything else. George can only hope Bad picked up.
âYeah but youâre literally in another country. What are you going to do about it?âÂ
George canât manage any words. He doesnât even know if he remembers how to breathe.Â
Dream is right, he always seems to be right. George just wishes it wasnât about this. Anything but this. He has to believe that Sapnap and Bad will figure something out. He has to trust them.
âJust think about how many people are found before they actually do it,â Dream goes on in Georgeâs quiet. âBecause they canât commit. Most people are cowards. Itâs dumb honestly. Just do it or donât.â
âDonât then,â George whispers.
His eyes burn with unshed tears. His fingers spasm on his bedsheets.
He doesnât know what Dream wants. Does he want George to beg? To get on his knees and plead with him to save his own life? Because he would in a heartbeat but he doubts it would make a difference.Â
Dream sighs. âI feel like youâre not listening to me, George.â
âNo, I am.â Georgeâs voice rises with his wrath. Suddenly all his terror and frustration comes to a bursting point. âIâm listening. Iâm listening to you talk about killing yourself. I just think youâre wrong. I think it would be a lot fucking braver to stay alive even if your views go down, even if youâre not fucking famous, Dream. What the fuck? Youâre a fucking coward for trying to leave!â Georgeâs breaths heave through the staticy phone microphone. His fear and anger wind him.
Thereâs a moment of emptiness.
Then, lip curling, Dream says, âTrying to leave you?â
George chokes.
âWhat?â
âDonât try and pull this card, George. Thatâs what youâre trying to say, isnât it? Iâm a coward for leaving everyone behind? For leaving you?âÂ
Dreamâs voice drowns out Georgeâs. George flinches, though Dream canât see it.Â
âDonât be so fucking selfish. I hate that, you know that?â Dream growls. âEveryone thinks theyâre enough to save someone all by themselves. Wow, the sheer force of your love just fucking yanked me back from the edge of a cliff, give me a fucking break,â Dream scoffs. Georgeâs ribs feel tight. âYou canât just reverse psychology or guilt me out of this.â
âJesus, Dream, is it so hard to believe that maybe I care about you and I donât want you to fucking die?â George grits out.Â
The room swims before him. He canât remember how to uncurl his fingers.
âWell itâs not up to you, is it?â Dream practically smirks.
And thatâs it, isnât it? The winning phrase. Because Dreamâs right.Â
Itâs not up to George.Â
George can only listen helplessly as Dream considers his own grave. Heâs a constant witness to the storm that is Dream. He was always grateful to be dragged along in Dreamâs hurricane winds and now he dreads the day they calm.
âYouâre being cruel,â George murmurs. His aggression leaves him as soon as it came.
âIâm being honest,â Dream contends.
George sinks his head into his hands. âWhy did you even call me then? Toâ to gloat?â
Dreamâs voice goes low and quiet, vulnerable. Georgeâs insides twist and melt and contort. âNo, no, I just⌠I donât know. I just wanted to talk to you one more time.â
âDonât say that,â George hisses. The words are half muffled into his palms.
âDonât say what?â Dream asks defensively.
âDonât say one more time. You canâtâ you canâtâ'' It all hits George at once. Heâs going to lose him.
Heâs going to lose Dream.
Before he knows it, heâs sobbing into the phone, loud ugly heaving sobs. âDonât do it, Dream. Iâm serious. Pleaseâ Just wait for one of us to get there. We can be with you. We can help.â
Dreamâs voice hardens again. âYou mean you can stop me.â
âDreamââ George starts to beg, trying to figure out how to lie without Dream catching him.
But Dream beats him to it.Â
âIâm gonna hang up nowââ
Panic rips through George. The shock of it physically hurts in his veins, in his heart.
âNo!â he almost screams. âDream, Dream, donât hang upââ
âOh my god, relax. Iâm calling Sapnap. Iâm not doing anything yet.â He can almost hear Dream rolling his eyes. Itâs not comforting.
George sniffles. He knows it sounds pathetic. Heâs not one for pity but if it gets Dream to keep talking with him, heâs willing to stoop to any low. He just doesnât know if he can believe Dream.
âCanât you just⌠stay on the phone with me?âÂ
âWhat, forever? Is that your plan? Just keep me on the line until someone inevitably finds me somehow?â Dream mocks.
Yes.
âNo,â George says instead because he thinks itâs what Dream wants to hear.
Dream switches tactics. George recognizes the persuasion in his tone.Â
âDonât you want me to call Sapnap? Shouldnât he also get the chance to talk with me?â Dream questions.
Guilts rests against Georgeâs ribs.Â
Of course he wants Sapnap to get the chance to talk to Dream. What if this is their last chance to talk? But George is too selfish to think about it much.
âThatâs not what youâre asking me. Donât try and pull that shit. Youâre asking me to hang up. Youâre asking for me to say goodbye and IâmâŚâ Georgeâs voice drops, almost inaudible. âIâm not ready.â
âGeorgeâŚâ Dreamâs voice trails off. His next words are nearly silent, something bitter and mournful about them. âYou know I love you, right?â
âI know,â George mumbles.
âAre you gonna say it back to me?â Dream demands. George doesnât know what holds him back now but something does.
âYou know I do, Dream, whyââ
The dial tone rings in Georgeâs ears.
Dream hung up.
-
Not even 30 seconds pass, not nearly enough for the abrupt end of their call to sink in, when Georgeâs phone is ringing again. He fumbles with his screen but manages to pick up.
âGeorge?â
Georgeâs heart sinks. Itâs not the voice he wants to hear. That he needs to hear.
âBad?â
âYeah,â Bad affirms. âAre you okay?â
âAm I okay? Am Iââ George scoffs and it feels like it rips his throat. He feels like he wants to scream. Like he wants to punch a wall. Like he would give anything to be somewhere warmer right now. âNo, Iâm obviously not okay, Bad. Heâs going toâ toââ
âI know. Sapnap told me.âÂ
Badâs voice is collected, even. It just makes George more frustrated. How can everyone be so fucking calm about this?Â
âGeorge, just try to take some deep breaths, okay?â George ignores the suggestion. âSapnap is on the phone with Dream. He just hung up on me to talk to him. Iâm driving there right now, okay?â
George pauses. Something cold washes over him. He doesnât know yet if itâs relief.
âYouâreâ youâre driving to Dream?â
âYes,â Bad affirms. âWe just have to keep him talking to someone for the next hourââ
âHour? Are you serious? Thatâs too long!â George knows heâs screaming now. He doesnât care.
âGeorgeââ
âWe have to call an ambulance, the police. There has to be someone we can call.âÂ
George squeezes his eyes shut, trying to think of other ways they could possibly get there in time. He comes up blank. He canât accept it. He canât.
Dream, alone. Dream, bereft. Dream, dead.
âI know but I canâtâ I was trying to tell you.â Badâs words are muffled. It sounds like heâs biting the inside of his cheek. He confesses, âI donât know his exact address. Sapnap is going to try and get it while he talks to him. Iâm driving to Orlando and hopefully Sap knows it by the time I get there but weâre justââ
âNo, no, noââ
George thinks of Bad arriving just in time to find Dreamâs body still warm. Heâs going to be sick. His chest hurts. His lungs burn.
âTry and take some deep breathsââ Bad placates as George speaks over him.
âIâm never going to talk to him again. Heâs going to kill himself.â George is spiraling. He canât stop himself.
âGeorge, Iâm going to get there in time.â But Bad doesnât sound sure of himself. George zeros in on the weakness.
âYou donât know that,â George hisses.
âThis is hard for all of us, George!â George startles at Badâs yell. Heâs heard Bad raise his voice before but never at him, never seriously. âIâm sorry,â Bad apologizes, words quieting again. George hears a sniffle through the phone.Â
Badâs crying.Â
God, George is a terrible person. He didnât even think to check in on Bad. Badâs the one who might find Dream halfway there or already committed. Heâs the only one whoâs even close to being able to do something and maybe thatâs the worst position to be in.
To be so close and lose a friend anyway.
âYou donât have to apologize. Iâm sorry, I shouldnât⌠I know itâs hard for all of us. I know youâre doing everything you can. Youâre doing more than me.â George tries to laugh but it gets stuck in his throat. Itâs not funny anyway.
âItâs going to be okay,â but it doesnât even sound like Bad believes himself.
âI donât think I can talk about this anymore,â George murmurs. He feels exhausted. Thereâs so much adrenaline coursing through him that it hurts. âCan we just talk about something else just⌠just for a little?â he begs. Like anything could distract him from this.
âYeah George.â George can hear the sympathy in Badâs voice. Heâs too far gone for the pity to bother him. âLet meâ Let me tell you about what I did this weekend on the SMP.â
George sucks in a sharp inhale. âNotâ not the SMP. Can you talk about something else?âÂ
âOf course,â Bad agrees easily. âSo last Friday I went to visit my familyâŚâ
George lets Bad talk in the background. Every once in a while, one of them will sniffle or sob or take a breath thatâs too shaky to be normal. Neither of them mentions it.
George listens to people walk past his window, their voices carrying up into the stars.
The noises of the highway drone on through his phone.
Bad drives.
-
George thinks about what it would be like to go on without Dream.
Heâll never be the same, he already knows. It will haunt him for years. For the rest of his life. The thought of being so close to someone and then losing them.
Death is natural. He knows that. But itâs the intentionality of it that aches the most. The idea that Dream would leave behind everything for something so painful and unknown.
And George just knows⌠part of him will die with Dream and never come back.Â
George doesnât know who heâll be with that part missing.
part 1/3, though the next update wonât really be an update but it will be soon
#dreamnotfound#dnf#just gotta get those tags out of the way#dream smp#fanfiction#dream smp fanfiction#dnf fanfic#tw suicide#mcyt#mcyt fanfiction#thewar#dream team#pls just go to Ao3 I'm begging you
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I saw that you like CATS the musical. What are your thoughts on the movie?
AAAAH AHHAHA oh man oh boy y'all should BUCKLE IN cuz it's a ride
my simple thoughts? it's entertaining if only because it butchered the stage show so badly in an attempt to idk modernize it? Well, modernization is one part of it I think. The other part I'll go into below lol. I don't necessarily hate some of the more modern renditions of the songs (mostly the ensemble sets like Jellicle Song for Jellicle Cats) but then others are just... so poorly done it's insulting.
I've said this at the end of this whole rant too but I'm gonna put it up here in case people don't (justifiably) wanna see me go on and on about it:
The movie wasn't made for fans of the musical. It was made to make money and I believe they choose, at least partially, to do that through making it the weirdest and worst possible adaptation they could so that people would want to go see the train wreck. Which, really, worked! It was all people could talk about for a good while so like... Goal achieved, I guess.
A MUCH MORE COMPREHENSIVE ANALYSIS UNDER THE CUT cuz i don't wanna. flood your dash with... this
ALRIGHT SO. Most of my friends know I'm actually a huge fan of new adaptations of things. I love remakes (provided the people making it are coming at it with some form of heart and not just... cash grabbing which is more often the case) I love seeing other peoples interpretations of characters, or changing settings. It's one of the reasons I like American comics so much, getting to see different writers takes is fascinating.
I think musical movies can be wonderful ways to introduce people to a stage show that might have been unavailable to them otherwise! Chicago, for example, is one of the BEST musical to movie adaptations in my opinion. It kept the heart of the show, it's funny and the song numbers are done really well.
There are of course other famous examples, such as Grease or Bye Bye Birdie. Hairspray was also a wonderful take. These are simply off the top of my head, there are of course more.
CATS in particular has a history. If you go through my CATS tag you may see a few posts from @catsnonreplica which posts photos from non broadway productions of CATS! It's a fascinating read and I love, love, love looking at the other interpretations of the characters! CATS is a musical full of fun and wonderful characters if you take the time to see past the ridiculousness haha and the Korean and Japanese runs of CATS especially have some of my favourites.
How does this relate to the movie, I hear you say well. As you might has noticed the movie's interpretations of the characters is........ lackluster at best and downright uncanny valley at best.
CATS is, at its core, a ridiculous thing. I will fully admit that! But it's fun, it's entertaining and if you pay a little attention you can actually get the plot. (Honestly I don't understand when people complain it has no plot but that's a whole other rant for another day)
The movie was... obsessed with this idea of like... semi realism? Like obviously, as a fan, I think they should have leaned into the over the top character designs but instead we got...w ell:
Bombalurina:
Demeter left and Bomba right. Demeter was actually cut! From the movie which is. upsetting lmao.
Macavity is one of the worst offenders for me:
Macavity was... I wish I could know what the hell they were thinking there cuz it's even in his song? Ginger cat??? THAT IS NOT... A GINGER CAT...... but I digress. I would show more examples but I think you get the point.
So. We've butchered the characters appearances. Okay that's fine but what about their personalities?
ALSO BUTCHERED.
There's... there's a lot to unpack here. Just for context: the Jellicle Ball happens once a year and the Jellicle leader chooses a single cat to be reborn into a new life. In the stage play all the cats who are nominated for this honour are on the older side (Jenny-Any-Dots, Bustopher Jones, Skimbleshanks, Gus The Theatre Cat, and eventually Grizzabella) AND are always nominated by another cat. Not themself, unlike the movie where they all seem to nominate themselves.
Jenny-Any-Dots went from a doting grandmother figure who's celebrated for her selfless volunteering and tireless work into a conceited, vain younger cat who is obsessed with fame.
It's an incredibly strange dichotomy. I don't doubt some of it isn't the result of the uh people playing the characters honestly. I do think some of them did the best they could! I don't really blame Jason Derulo, for example, for Tugger. And honestly, Tugger was probably closest to his stage version (while being a trouble maker, he's shown to show Deuteronomy an immense amount of respect)
Speaking of Tugger! This will bring us to one of the biggest grievances with the movie and that is how they handled Mr Mistoffelees.
So... Ugh. So. We have Victoria as the pov character, which imo is like whatever in the grand scheme of things, and then we have Misto who they have decided will be get live interest cuz... Of course. Misto is shown throughout the musical to be awkward, unsure of himself and well. Really, kinda incompetent. Which is Wild cuz in the stage show he might be aloof but he's fairly confident in his powers.
So, Old Deuts gets kidnapped. In the stage show Tugger is the one to bring Misto forward! It's really quite sweet, imo, and I'm showing myself as a Tuggoffelees shipper here, but again Tugger is previously shown to be pretty conceited but then here he is boosting and hyping up Misto to bring Deuteronomy back. My friends and I have lovingly dubbed this the boyfriend hype song.
SOMEHOW. The movie manages to make this, easily, the MOST BORING number in the whole thing. Which, again, WILD. Misto awkwardly stumbles through his whole song, which again is... Boasting of his supreme magical powers which movie Misto clearly. Does not have or believe to have. The song, to me, feels super awkward and unnecessarily drawn out in the movie which sucks cuz it's one of my favourites in the show.
The declawing (heh) of Mr Mistoffelees actually reminds me strongly of how they changed Gaston in the live action Beauty and the Beast movie. He's gone from a beloved figure in the animated movie to someone so disliked in the town that Le Fou has to pay people off to say nice things about him. It's just. Wild character choices were made!!
Skimbleshanks the Railway Cat is probably my favourite in movie non ensemble number. It feels the most... Genuine? Compared to the other nomination songs.
Other problems include but are not limited to:
The inconsistent size scale of the CATS which throws me off constantly.
The weirdly overt sexual overtones added to MANY of the songs (Jenny and Bustopher being the worst)
This is just a personal gripe and opinion but I don't like that they used the UK version of Mungojerrie and Rumpleteazer. The American version is both better known and tbh way more fun. Teazer's giggle? Adds ten years to my life every time.
Victoria's added solo song, Beautiful Ghosts, while I like the song as a song it doesn't fit the style of message of the musical. In the movie she's singing directly to Grizzabella who's being an outcast for years that she should be grateful she even has memories of being part of the tribe?? What?? But I know they had to add an original song to be able to be nominated for awards in like the Grammys n shit (which is why all musical movies will have an original song, fun fact!!) kinda funny they went to the effort though considering........... I don't think anyone could have genuinely believed CATS 2019 was gonna win anything but golden rhaspberries.
Movie Mr Mistoffelees has made repeated appearances as my sleep paralysis demon
The various cut characters, shout outs to Jemima, Demeter and Jellylorum especially
Bombalurina being a henchman to Macavity rubs me the wrong way
God I've written... So much. You probably get it by now haha. Like I said at the beginning, I try to go into any adaptation with an open mind but... Let's be honest, this movie wasn't marketed to people who are fans of the musical.
It was marketed, and made, to make money. And they choose to do that through, I think, intentionally making the worst possible version ever. Bad press is still press and the more outrageous people said the movie was the more people wanted to go see exactly what kind of train wreck it was.
Which is a disservice to the stage show, honestly, and all the people who've worked on it over the years.
But what can we do, right?
And besides all that, I do... Still own the movie version and I do still rewatch it on occasion. It is entertaining even if it's in a train wreck kind of way. I usually end up watching the 1998 version, then 2019 and then various tour runs that are on YouTube. (I highly recommend the 2016 tour, it's very good)
So in conclusion. It's fun (?) to watch. I enjoy picking things apart and doing analysis (if you couldn't tell!) so like... I don't hate it?
It did what it set out to do, I guess, and I can't fault it for that but. It's not a fair metre with which to judge the stage show imo. But I know it's not everyone's cup of tea, haha.
Jazz hands. I'm more than happy to elaborate or just chat about CATS if anyone wants! I grew up listening to the Broadway CD since I was a toddler so it's been! A very long standing obsession haha. Probably the only other thing on par with CATS is my obsession with Jurassic Park which I've also been a fan of since I was 3 (but that's a whole story in and of itself)
#astrix thoughts#cats the musical#Thanks for the opportunity to talk about one of my hyperfixations anon!#And to anyone who reads this whole mess lmao
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The Swear Jar
Ok so I wrote some fanfic for yall :) its MCU fanfic, in an AU (idk which just go with it my dudes). I hope yall like it :D Here is a link to the fic on AO3. Characters: Peter Parker, Tony Stark, Steve Rogers, Bucky Barnes, Wanda Maximoff, Vision, Sam Wilson, Clint Barton, Natasha Romanov | Word Count: ~1900
This story begins on one fine Sunday when Mr. Steve Rogers purchased a rather large jar. He bought a package of labels and a large sharpie as well. When he got back to the Avengers Tower, he took a label, wrote âSWEAR JARâ on it, and stuck it to the side of the jar. Then, he put it on a side table for everyone to see.
âRogers, what the fuck is that?â Tony had asked when he saw it.
âA swear jar,â Steve explained simply. âWhich you should put a dollar in, by the way.â Tony sighed dramatically. He then took out his wallet, removed a single, and leaned over Steve to get to the Swear Jar.
âFine. Here you go. One dollar.â Tony said.
Now, whenever a resident of the Avengers Tower heard the call of âLanguage!â from Steve, a few moments later they also heard the clink of the glass jar. Peter Parker, who was a spectator of these rather funny events, noted that Clint and Tony were the ones called out most often.
But, alas, most adults do swear, and everyone eventually put at least a dollar in the Swear Jar. Even Peter had added a dollar or two to the Jar. But it was truly self-imposed. He hardly ever swore around adults, and if he did, it was a âDamn!â or the occasional âShit!â that had slipped out by accident. But, since the appearance of the Swear Jar, that hardly happened anymore.
This went on for about a month before The Incident, as Peter called it.
Peter had been working in the lab with Tony. They were working on their own projects but they enjoyed each otherâs company, so they worked in the same lab. They had been working for a while when Tony leaned back in his chair and sighed.
âYou want something to drink, kid?â Tony asked.
âSure,â Peter said. âHow about a coke?â
âSure thing,â Tony said and promptly left.
Peter was unfazed by Tonyâs abrupt exit and went back to working on his project. A few minutes later, there was a knock at the door.
âTony?â Peter looked up. It was Steve. âOh, hi, Steve,â Peter greeted him. âWhatâs up?â
âIs Tony here?â Steve asked. Peter shook his head.
âNo, he just left. You can stay, if you want to, though.â Peter indicated to an area next to him where Steve could sit.
Steve sat, and Peter went back to his work. They sat there in silence for longer than Peter would have expected. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Steve flipping through papers and poking various parts and tools. Peter didnât mind, but he wondered if Tony would. When will he be back? Peter thought.
Then, all of a sudden, Peter was ripped from his thoughts by a sharp yell.
âFuck!â
Steve was sucking on his finger. He took it out of his mouth to look at it.
âFuck, that hurt,â he said, quieter this time.
Peter realized in that moment that he had a decision to make:
Confront Steve now, make him deposit a few dollars to the Swear Jar, and tell everyone
Donât say anything and use this as blackmail
Peter went with option number 2.
âWhat happened? Are you okay?â he asked Steve. Steve looked at him and they made eye contact for just a moment.
âYeah, Iâm fine. I just got a paper cut.â
âOh, that sucks. Do you want a Band-Aid?â
âSure.â
There is actually another Incident that Peter would rather not talk about. In his mind, this is dubbed The Moment.
Peter and Steve had been helping some SHIELD agents move some things from one side of a building to the other side. One of those things just so happened to be a fridge. The agents expressed that they would feel a lot better if Peter and Steve carried it together, even though either one of them could hold it by himself.
They were squeezing through one of the narrower doorways when Peter caught his hand between the fridge and the doorway.
âFuck,â he swore quietly. Peter let go of the fridge with that hand and shook it out.
Before Peter could grab onto the fridge again, he made eye contact with Steve. Just for a moment. And when Steve didnât call him out, he realized Steve had made the same decision he had made.
âAre you okay? What happened?â Steve asked.
âI caught my hand between the fridge and the door,â Peter explained.
âIs there anything I can do?â
âNo, thanks. Iâm fine.â
This arrangement continued for around a month and a half, where Steve and Peter felt comfortable swearing when they were alone together, but kept the secret when they were around others.
The only thing that threatened this secret, was Bucky Barnes.
Bucky Barnes had been on a mission in California for the past two months and was finally allowed to come back to New York. When he walked into the common room in the Avengers Tower, one of the first things he spotted was the Swear Jar. Peter watched him eye it for a few minutes. Finally, Bucky caved.
âSteve?â he called.
âYeah, Buck?â Steve called back.
âWhatâs this?â Bucky asked, his voice sounding like a parent that had just discovered an impromptu mural.
â...Itâs the Swear Jar. See? Itâs got a little label on it,â Steve explained, indicating the label on the front.
âAh, I see,â Bucky nodded condescendingly. Peter watched him from across the room and came to a realization: Bucky knew that Steve had the dirtiest mouth out of all of the Avengers, but he decided to use it as blackmail, just as Peter had.
About a week later, Peter decided to organize another video for the Avengers YouTube channel that he ran, called Miscellaneous Inc.
The video begins with this opening card:
Itâs animated. The sparkles come and leave out of sync.
[cut]
Some of the Avengers are sitting in a circle. They each have a whiteboard. Someone speaks:
âI swear to god, Clint, nobodyâs forcing you to do this!â
[cut]
Peter Parker is sitting on his bed, criss cross applesauce. He waves at the camera.
âHey, YouTube,â He greets the audience. âItâs me, Peter, saying hello to you on this fine Wednesday afternoon. Today, I have somehow convinced a whole bunch of the Avengers to play âWhoâs More Likely Toâ with me! I honestly donât know how I convinced them to do it, but I did. Anyway, I asked you guys to ask some âWhoâs More Likely Toâ questions on Twitter, and I went through them! FRIDAYâs gonna read them out, though, so if you put emojis it might sound a little weird.â
[cut]
Peter, Tony, Steve, Bucky, Clint, Natasha, Sam, Wanda, and Vision are sitting in a circle, each equipped with a handheld whiteboard and a pen.
âHi, camera!â Peter waves to the camera, mostly to make sure everyone else is aware of it. âYou may notice that we are a few Avengers short. I promise, they are not dead. These are the only people I could convince to play with me. So far, that is. Should everyone introduce themself?â Peter asked and looked around the circle. Nobody really gave a definite reaction.
âWeâve all been on your channel before, yes?â Wanda asked.
âI guessâŚâ Peter said.
The video froze and became a bit dimmer. Suddenly, names and arrows appeared on the screen, going around the circle, each appearance being noted by a small ding.
â Tony Stank (Iron Man)
â Peter Parker (me :D)
â Steve Rogers (Cap)
â Bucky Barnes (the coolest)
â Clint Barton (Hawkeye)
â Natasha Romanov (Black Widow)
â Sam Wilson (Falcon)
â Wanda Maximoff (Scarlet Witch)
â Vision (Vision)
âPeter,â Peter said to the camera. âDo something cool during editing. A message came up on the screen: âI got you ;)â
[cut]
âOkay.â Peter clapped his hands. âLetâs get started. To reiterate, this is the âWhoâs More Likely Toâ Challenge. How you play is basically, a question is asked, like, âwhoâs more likely to land an arrow in the bullseye on the first tryâ. Then you write down who you think would be more likely to do that and then we all compare our answers. Does that make sense?â
Everyone nodded their heads.
âGreat. FRIDAY, please read the first question.â
âWhoâs more likely to say something theyâre not supposed to in front of the press?â FRIDAYâs disembodied voice said.
Everyone wrote on their whiteboards for a few moments.
âOkay, letâs see your answers,â Peter said and turned around his board. Everyone followed suit. There were quite a few answers. The two most popular were âmeâ (âThatâs not an answer, you guys,â) and Peter.
âNext question!â Instructed Peter.
âWhoâs more likely to break something and leave it for the next person to fix?â
The most popular answer for that one was Tony.
Whoâs more likely to accidentally knock someone out?
Steve.
Whoâs more likely to keep saying âone more tryâ on a trick shot?
Sam.
Whoâs more likely to have a weird secret habit?
Clint.
Whoâs more likely to tip off a metal detector by accident?
Answers evenly split between Natasha and Bucky.
Whoâs more likely to swear the most?
Peter had been waiting for this one. He curated the questions so he knew this one would show up eventually. He saw Steve and Bucky make eye contact. He watched as Bucky turned toward him and looked him straight in the eye. It was as if he was saying, âNow is the time to break our silence.â
âTurn your boards!â Peter instructed. They all did. Apart from Peter and Bucky, the most common answers were Tony and Clint.
âSteve?â Tony asked. âPeter, did you hear the question? They said the dirtiest mouth.â
âYeah, I know. Bucky, you can back me up, right?â Peter looked to Bucky for someone to back him up.
âI only have my word, kid,â Bucky said solemnly.
Then Peter remembered.
âHold on, actually. I have something. FRIDAY, show me that day Steve and I were in the lab together!â
FRIDAY rolled the clip. Then, everyone was able to see the true Steve Rogers. They were all shocked, to say the least. Steve sat there with a dumbstruck expression, as if he wasnât sure what to do with himself.
âSo what do you have to say for yourself, Capsicle?â Tony asked him.
âUh...Iâm sorry?â Steve tried.
âYouâre damn right youâre sorry!â Clint yelled playfully. âIâve lost at least $100 to that damn Swear Jar! Speaking of which, what do you do with all the money?â
Steve stalled for as long as possible, but it was inevitable. He would have to tell them.
âI spent it on art supplies and ice cream.â
âYou did what?!â
[cut]
Peter was back on his bed. He waved to the camera again.
âThank you guys so much for watching! I can try and convince them to do this again sometime if youâd like! See you next time!
The video ended. Peter turned off the camera.
âSteve is going to kill meâŚâ
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Modern day spy/assassin AU where former singer/musician/~artiste works in a cozy little coffee shop neatly sandwiched between a bookstore and, idk, a flower shop.
Expected to be one of the hottest new stars coming out of Oxenfurt if it hadnât been for that scandal with fellow band member and rumored lover Valdo Marx over alleged song theft and so on. Followed by a messy break up - band and personal - and a drawn out legal battle that drained what money Valdo hadnât stolen from him.
(And a year or so after all that Jaskier doesnât like to think about too much before he got his feet back under him and a friend mentioned this coffee shop she frequented, and anyway, heâs doing much better now and also somehow ends up owning it himself when its previous owner retires and sells the business to him for like, five bucks, because the power of friendship or something, idk.)
One day on his way home he stumbles over someone half dead in an alley and is like oh, oh, no because the last thing he needs is another scandal attached to his name?
Like.
Heâs kept his nose clean for just over six month now, has been playing around with new melodies and bought a new notebook for lyrics and whatnot. Looked into playing at some local places, not really wanting to be a megastar or whatever these days, but he loves music and performing in a little bar somewhere would be nice, you know?
ANYWAY.
Turns out the guy isnât actually dead, thank goodness but might as well be? Has this medallion around his neck, a cat? Which, okay, whatever heâs seen stranger and heâs getting his phone out to call an ambulance or whatever, crouched next to the guy.
Memory from the CPR course he took in college surfaces in his mind - the instructor was hot and even if Jaskier never got the guyâs number he learned valuable life skills. (And also met Shani and that proved better than getting the guyâs number because sheâs one of his best friends and also incredible and anyway.)
Reaches out to check for a pulse, which is when the guy grabs his wrist - surprisingly strong grip for someone who looks like he lost a fight with a freight train - and hsi eyes snap open and they are...extremely striking and not at all normal - cat eyes, to go with the cat medallion and hahaha, oh shit, this is bad, bad news, isnât it?
The guy tries to threaten him, which. Not as effective when the growl heâs trying for just sounds sad and pathetic, and anyway, thereâs something...not fear, no, in his eyes, that has Jaskier forgetting to put the call through for an ambulance.
Itâs very close to fear though. Worry? Concern? Something that Jaskier relates to in some incredibly fucked up way.
(The way he felt when Valdo Marx fucked him over and everything heâd built fell apart around him, and anyway, yes.)
He doesnât even know why, he does, or why he ends up hauling the guy up to his apartment and patches him up best he can with wwhat he has on hand.
Will probably end up being murdered by the guy the moment heâs on his feet, but eh, thatâs a problem for future Jaskier, really.)
Anyway, Aiden - because of course itâs Aiden - is super suspicious of Jaskier and his everything and there is indeed a moment where he pins Jaskier to a wall with a kitchen knife - it was an apartment-warming gift from Shani and Essi and Jaskierâs more worried about it being damaged than Aiden slitting his throat, which just confuses Aiden?
Because what even is Jaskier and his priorities???
But he doesnât kill Jaskier and the knife gets put back and aside from that little bump in their relationship they actually become friends after that.
Jaskier takes to referring to Aiden as a stray cat whenever one of his friends or whoever asks why he buys more groceries or hurries home after work instead of sticking around to gossip a bit the way he usually does.
 Aiden thinks itâs hilarious as opposed to insulting, which is great seeing as how Jaskierâs pretty sure the manâs a hitman or assassin or other similar career?
(Might be the way he mentions past jobs and his dark sense of humor and also the time he could have killed Jaskier if he felt he was a threat? So, yes.)
And Aiden, okay.
Got burned or something to leave him half dead in an alley for just anyone to stumble over and since Jaskier hasnât made any fuss about him moving out decides he might as well stay where he is for the time being, you know?
He goes and gets a job...somewhere to help with rent and so on. Offers Jaskier enough hints to make it sound like heâs out murderizing people right and left the moment heâs out of the apartment, but then Jaskier sees him helping Triss bring in deliveries out behind the flower shop so he knows Aidenâs been fucking with him on that front and is like, dude, not funny.
(Aiden begs to disagree, but whatever.)
And then!
A month or so after Aidenâs back on his feet Jaskier runs into one of the owners of the bookshop next door?
New management and so on, and oh no, heâs exceedingly hot.
White hair and gold eyes and, sure, heâs not the most talkative guy around? But Jaskierâs cracked tougher nuts or some other way of phrasing it that doesnât sound like a euphemism.
Also, also, thereâs another painfully attractive man working there who is incredibly sweet and has a menace of a goat that they have instead of a bookstore cat?
Which.
Seems like a bad idea since Jaskier often hears about how Lil Bleater nibbles on the books if someone isnât watching her and anyway, it means he gets to listen to Eskel lament about her latest misadventures while Geralt stands there and tries not to let on how amused he is by both the bookstoer goat and her owner and Jaskier is like shit, because Geralt and Eskel are so, so hot and heâs only human and Aiden, Aiden, do not laugh at his pain, you utter bastard of a man.
ANYWAY.
Shenanigans in which Geralt and Eskel think Jaskier has this insufferable bastard of a former stray cat at home and Jaskier piiiiines like a sad bastard while Aiden laughs and laughs and laughs.
(It should be pointed out that not once in all the time Aiden started working for Triss - and Geralt, Eskel, and Lambert - who Jaskier has heard all about but not yet met - have seen one another even though they spend most of the working day a few hundred feet apart, because Plot Reasons.)
And then!
Some shenanigans in which Geralt or Eskel - who are totally spies who are using their cozy little bookshop as a cover - get tangled up in trouble and Jaskier stumbles on them with this incredible sense of deja vu.
He drags them into the coffee shop to patch them up, and he forgets to lock the front door, which is convenient because then Aiden wanders in hoping for a free coffee?
(Power of ~friendship, and also roommates, and yes.)
Jaskier is kind of covered in blood - Geralt and Eskelâs - and Aiden is immediately in Assassin!Mode because heâs fond of Jaskier, right, owes him his life and such.
But also, Geralt and Eskel who have also had their oh, oh no heâs hot moment when it comes to Jaskier are likewise fond of him - and working up the nerve to ask him for a date, but thatâs neither here nor there - go into Spy!Mode and thereâs an honestly kind of terrifying, kind of sad stand-off.
Jaskier is in Adrenaline!Mode because fuck his life, of course Geralt and Eskel canât just be incredibly hot bookstore owners and is like âIf you fuck up my coffee shop I will not be happy, and also please consider my delicate sensibilities,â
Which manages to stop whatever fight was about to break out and he essentially does the Chris Pratt with the raptors thing, only with a couple of spies and his assassin roommate.
Pretends the three of them arenât throwing menacing looks at one another as he patches Geralt and Eskel up and then is like âWell, that was fun!â because no, no it was not, and his heart is going to burst with all the tension and whatnot in the air. and hahaha, this is fine.
Which of course is when Lambert comes stomping through the front door and there is even more Drama and Angst because his ~forbidden relationship with Assassin!Aiden and heartbreak when it was assumed heâd been killed by his agency a few months back, but wait, heâs still alive???
And idk, just a lot of ridiculous spy movie cliche nonsense in which Jaskier is reluctantly dragged into things because he saved Aidenâs life that one time, and is piiiiining for Geralt and Eskel and of course he gets taken hostage and they have to band together to save him but shenanigans and ~plot twists and so on.
(And then when it seems all is lost Triss and her utterly terrifying girlfriend Yennefer actually save the day because they, too, are spies and Jaskier would honestly like to know if heâs the only normal person he knows or what, because really, what are the odds???)
Whenever the death-defying events and such are over Jaskier does, actually, go on a date with Geralt and Eskel and some smooching happens.
(Technically not their first, because that happened after they saved Jaskierâs life in that oh thank god none of us died moment after all the danger and excitement, but none of them mind, because smooches.)
Lambert and Aiden make fun of the three of them, but gently because they, too, are prime targets for mockery as they also decide to try a proper relationship and not just stolen moments here and there, and anyway, anyway
A year or so down the road Jaskier gets tired of coming home to find the two in compromising situations and is like, why, though, which conveniently happens around the time Geralt and Eskel approach him about moving in with them somewhere and heâs like, well, if he must, like heâs not thrilled about it because heâs kind of gone on the two of them, you know?
So they get this place big enough for the three of them and Lil Bleater and Aiden and Lambert get his old place and it all works out?
Sure, sure, there are a few close moments where Geralt and Eskelâs work puts Jaskier in danger, and that time whoever tried to kill Aiden targets Jaskier and so on?
But heâs like, eh, it happens, because obviously it does.
Which means Geralt and Eskel take it upon themselves to teach him to defend himself - and half the time it ends in smooches and sexytimes because hand-to-hand and being pinned to mats and adjusting his stance while learning how to use firearms and such, you know?
But also Aiden and Lambert teaching Jaskier knives and explosives - âIâm sorry, but one of these things is not like the others,â in regard to Lambert and his explosives, but itâs a ~bonding moment, so whatever.
(Also, also, that time Jaskier was able to defuse a bomb in some highly improbable and ridiculous bit of shenanigans with spy nonsense and Lambert being a smug prick about it for forever afterwards.)
And then Jaskier finds out Geralt has this incredible kid with Yennefer and what the hell is his life that all these people know each other and he doesnât find out about it until ages afterwards, but anyway.
Ciri is awesome and after her Vesemir comes to meet the guy two of his sons are in love with, and Coen shows up along with other assorted characters Iâve forgotten and anyway, yes???
(Also, also, Yennefer happens to find out about Valdo Marx and she straightens out that mess quietly and efficiently in such a way that Jaskier doesnât realize it until long after the fact and is like hm, because he didnât think she particularly liked him, but apparently he was wrong? Which leads to brunch dates with her and Triss and gossiping about the other idiots in their lives and discussing Jaskier giving Ciri music lessons and anyway, yes.)
#witcher nonsense#geraskel#geralt/eskel/jaskier#aiden/lambert#technically not a fic#vagrant fic#stray cat au#ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ#long post#the witcher
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worst chefs in seoul (outline) â kim seokjin x gn!reader
⼠word count: 3.9k | reality/cooking show au | crack | fluff
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⼠a/n: weâre back at it again with another wip i never finished lol. this one is the outline for what was intended to be a social media au (as evidenced by some of the notes i left for myself), though itâs likely thatâs not how it actually wouldâve come out. iâd love to hear some of your thoughts/reactions, and i hope you enjoy âĄ
day ???
start w y/n and yoongi goofing off on twitter
the whole y/n eating a moldy grape thinking itâs a kiwi thing
and yoongi panicking bc of it
could transition into them talking about the finale episode of their favorite show: worst chefs in seoul
theyâre both huge fans, and equally complete disasters when it comes to culinary skill
yoongi likes the show bc he likes the competition aspect and tbh he got addicted after y/n forced him to watch the first season w them
y/n also likes it for that reason, but the main reason they watch it is bc of a certain kim seokjin
anyway, they talk about the finale, and then yoongi says something about the next seasonâs ânominationsâ coming up soon
y/n jokingly says theyâre going to nominate yoongi bc of that one time he made tacos with dog food
and yoongi fires back w the time they managed to light the microwave on fire making cup oâ noodles
they agree to let each other live
âŚ..for now
sike!
the two actually do end up nominating each other w/o the other knowing
y/n honestly just thought it would be funny if yoongi got picked and yoongi was like âfuck it why notâ
little did they knowâŚ..
while the nomination guidelines assure that the selection process is completely random, this is a reality show
meaning for anyone w a brain thatâs obviously not the case
contestants are actually chosen by the showâs assistant producers and approved by the chefs themselves and then the higher ups
but who are those assistant producers??
none other than park jimin and kim taehyung
neither of them keep their involvement with the show a secret, and one takes it a teensy bit more seriously than the other
anyway, theyâre usually told to find a batch of contestants (that they feel) would conjure up the most drama for the show
it is tv, after all, and they have to keep people watching
and that part is crucial
to their credit, they do (somewhat) succeed for the most part
jimin selects yoongi and namjoon from the nomination pool bc he thinks joonâs clumsiness w yoongiâs nonchalant nature will work for max chaos
and taehyung chooses y/n and jungkook bc while their competitive drives are similar, y/nâs subdued nature has a big chance for conflict w jkâs out-there attitude
(how do they know all this? theyâre experts at what they do leave me alone)
day ??? 2.0
y/n (and yoongi, secretly) is ecstatic when they get the emails/DM/whatever that theyâve been âchosen for the next hot season of worst chefs in seoul!â
but then yoongi asks if itâs allowed for them to know each other and accept the nomination
like theyâre best friends. is that going to present some kinda problem thatâll get them both kicked off??
should only one of them accept it?
(heâs immediately ready to sacrifice his own nomination bc he knows how much y/n cares about this stupid show)
y/n says theyâre not going to let him do that bc they were both chosen, meaning they both should get to go
butâ
âitâs fine!! we can just pretend we donât know each other when weâre on set!â
and so theyâre off
to some undisclosed location in seoul
day 0
jimin and taehyung are the first to greet everyone, collecting all four contestants together for a tour of the dorms
and y/n starts texting yoongi in a panic bc both of their dumbasses forgot that the contestants are separated into teams as soon as they arrive
yoongi prolly says smth like iâm two feet away from you why are you texting me
(y/n reminds him they canât make it seem like they know each other)
yoongi acts like itâs not that big of a deal
prolly says thereâs a good chance theyâll end up on the same team
and if they donât they can just hang out in the dorms when the cameras are off and away
which is when jimin loudly announces that this season, each team is getting their own dormitory
and that contestants will be required to stay in their dorm while filming the season, except for approved âoutingsâ for the show
he moves on before anyone can ask what that means
theyâll be allowed to pick whichever dorm they want to stay in for the first night, since they want to get the contestantsâ reactions on camera when they reveal the teams
but after theyâre revealed tomorrow, itâs your dorm and your dorm only
y/n and yoongi automatically gravitate towards each other
they end up together in the ânewâ dorm, which yoongi grumpily notes is practically bigger than their whole apartment
y/n wonders if they ended up in seokjinâs dorm, and gets excited at the thought of this being a âtestâ to see which chefâs team theyâll be on
to which yoongi asks what makes this dorm his?
âidk i just...feel his aura in hereâ
â.......okay, weirdo. iâm gonna go âfeel his auraâ in the bathroom and take aââ
âyoongi!!â
y/n can either ask what yoongi thinks of the other contestants or they can both pretty much blow them off entirely for the time being
idk which yet
day 1
next morning, the contestants are woken up bright and early by none other than our favorite assistant producers
the wake up call comes in the form of a new group chat between the six of them
along with a link to âdownloadâ the calendar for the shooting schedule
(which is really an app/virus that disables certain functions on their phones)
((such as most social media and texting numbers outside their âparametersâ))
after thatâs all hashed out, jm & t explain that this group chat is for any and all notifications and updates about the show, as well as any questions and/or concerns the contestants might have
like
âcan i just vote to eliminate myself now and go home?â and
âhow do i get this fucking thing off my phoneâ and
âwhen do we find out what team weâre on??â
the answers to which are
no
youâll find out when filming is finished
and right now!
they tell the contestants to get up and get dressed as their first day on set officially starts now
y/n and kook immediately jump into action and leave the gc
joon lags behind a little confused but follows the flow
yoongi, ever the people person, gets aggressive when they donât answer his questions about their goddamn malware
âis this even legal?? are you even fucking allowed to just disable our devices like this?â
âwhat if thereâs an emergency??â
âlooks like youâll just have to find out, huh?â
yoongiâs phone then crashes and wonât let him unlock it until the first block of filming is finished
jm: âoops ĆŞ(ËâŁË)Ęâ
day 1 recap
we find out through our superfan what happens during the first episode
(maybe do something like this person is some kinda press/ânewsâ account dedicated entirely to w.c.i.s. and the two chefs)
((mayhaps they leak the contestant list before it goes public??))
((jimin and tae could have some kinda unspoken rivalry w them lol))
anyway the story is told through them in a series of twitter threads
(plus a few messages from y/n to yoongi freaking out about the teams they get put on)
first event of the day is: the team announcements
yoongi and joon end up on team kim seokjin and y/n is on team jyp w kook
being split up puts a bit of a damper on their plans, and with this stupid cell block they donât know if theyâll even be allowed to talk to each other
none of them get much time to react, though, as theyâre then shuffled off to their respective kitchens
where they finally meet their respective chefs
and, lo and behold, y/n is goddamn terrified
jinyoung is even scarier in person than he is on tv
âdonât laugh at me yoongi!! this is the guy who made a girl sob on live television!â
âand now ur gonna be the next person whatâs the problem lmaoâ
while y/n tries to get past their fear, theyâre given their first official task: work together with their new partner to create a meal of their choice
the catch is that they arenât allowed any help from their chef yet
and since the teams were just announced literally like 10 minutes ago, none of them have had much of a chance to get to know each other
(the network knows this, and does this on purpose since most of the seasonsâ first episodes are spent either arguing or being completely lost)
things go about as well (read: badly) as expected
y/n and kook soon discover their very conflicting personalities and spend the majority of the round bickering back and forth about what to make/how to do it
meanwhile yoongi slaps a piece of sliced cheese directly on the stove while joon runs around like a chicken w its head cut off
in the end, team jyp somehow manages to come out victorious
they cobble together some (semi) edible banana milkshakes to present to the judges
(âtogetherâ meaning y/n wanted to make plain vanilla milkshakes and kook switched it for banana milk when they werenât looking)
yoongi and joon tried (keyword being tried) to make grilled cheese
but between yoongiâs cheese-to-stove method and joon dropping their two pieces of burnt toast right before the timer rang
they didnât get many points
as their reward, team jyp has the honor of picking what theyâll be making tomorrow
theyâre given the rest of the day to think and talk it over while team ksj is told to reflect on what went wrong in todayâs trial
back at the dorms (now in their separate teams), y/n finds that yoongi finally graces them w a response
(and that they were right about which one was âseokjinâsâ dorm)
yoongi tells them about âthat little shitâ locking him out of his phone and that he honestly just wants to get tf out of there contract or not
y/n convinces him to stay and stick it out, if not for them then for the prize money at the end
yoongi then asks what dish theyâre going to pick for tomorrow, and asks if they can pick something he at least has an idea how to make
cue y/n saying that they were thinking of suggesting one of seokjinâs signature dishes but not knowing if kook would go along w the idea
âhe kept trying to switch out our ingredients for banana milk and i donât know how to tell him to knock that shit offâ
âhonestly you know iâm not one to take charge but he wasnât even listening to me!! whatâs to say heâs actually going to listen to the PROFESSIONAL chef here to help us??â
âaNd SPeAkINg oF THaTâ
cue y/n whining about how they wanted to be on jinâs team and itâs not fair that they both got stuck w jinyoung AND a bratty kid on their team
yoongi sympathizes since he was looking forward to them being on the same team, but makes y/n agree that if he has to give the competition a chance then they have to give kook one too
âi mean yeah he seems like a bit of a dumbass but isnât that why weâre all here? bc we have no fuckin clue what to do in the kitchen?â
hmm...fine theyâll give him a chance
but they still think heâs a lil shit and donât really wanna talk to him at all, let alone reach some kinda compromise on what to make
they donât get much or a choice, though, as they both receive a mysterious message from...jungkook? in another group chat?
the contestants find that they have all been manually added to another gc
except this one is missing the two assistant producers who love to breathe down their necks
everyone but jk is immediately suspicious
is this some of trick to get them to screw up?
to break some kinda hidden clause in the contract none of them actually read?
wasnât that thing they downloaded supposed to block incoming messages like this?
âbut wait, yoongi, then how were we able toâŚ?â
but as of right now, they donât get any answers
and theyâre all too afraid to ask anyone but each other
âwell weâre all here so...we might as well get to know each other right?? :Dâ
this is where we get our first in-depth look at the four people stuck on this show together, who in their lives nominated them and why
(y/n and yoongiâs lying skills are put to a bit of a test as they each rush to pull stories right out of their asses)
kook talks about bambam and says his nomination said smth about âadding banana milk to everything f*ckin thing he makesâ
he doesnât really get why that was enough to land him a spot on the show but he thought it would be pretty cool to be on tv and just went along with it
namjoon talks about hobi and emphasizes that heâs not that bad of a cook
he just gets nervous and confused when it comes to recipes and cooking which expresses itself in the form of his unabashed clumsiness
joon then asks if theyâll really be prevented from having any outside communication until filming is finished
he, like yoongi, questions the legality of deceitfully installing the block on their phones
y/n says there probably was some kind of hidden clause that allowed them to do that, as they âcanât imagine seokjin would take part in a competition that abuses its contestantsâ
to which joon replies that they donât actually know seokjin so they canât really âimagineâ anything about how he will or wonât act
right as yoongi is about to jump in and tell him to back off, jungkook decides that thatâs way too much legal talk for him
he forces changes the subject back to the gc as a whole and says that even if theyâre prevented from talking to their friends heâs happy theyâll âat least have each other :Dâ
y/n feels like part of that is directed at them and feels bad for how they thought he was âjust a dumb kidâ before
namjoon, however, is still hesitant
heâs not sure if this chat could get them in trouble in regards to the show and their contract and what not and says that they all should probably delete it just to be safe
but that is unanimously vetoed by y/n and kook (and yoongi, reluctantly) and they decide that if the block allowed it to pass through then it must be allowed
before joon can argue anymore, they all receive a message from tae in the âofficialâ gc
he briefly explains the lights out policy of the dorms and tells them that theyâre probably going to want a good night's sleep for their âbig dayâ tomorrow
yoongi then says smth like âwell...guess thatâs lights out thenâ and jk responds excited as ever w ânight guys!! see you all in the morning! :)â
and y/n can feel their soul leaving their body for even thinking anything ill about him
day 2
contestants are woken up bright and early by alarms they didnât set
(âoh great, so they just hijacked every app on our fucking phones thenâ
jimin tells them all to hurry up, get dressed, and meet the chauffeur outside bc they canât afford to be late
(âliterally! every second you waste is money docked from the networkâs wallet! so get your asses in gear, guppies!â)
y/n and kook get outside first, but yoongi and joon are nowhere to be seen
y/n decides to text the q & a gc to get the dirt on seokjin
they kinda start sucking up to jimin and tae to see if theyâll reveal any info, particularly about what the chef is like and if itâs possible for him to talk to the âotherâ teamâs contestants
and while the producers are pleasantly surprised that one of the contestants actually want to use that gc for something other than yelling at them
they unfortunately canât give much info besides what most people already know
and confirm that one of the chefs talking to the otherâs students was probably not allowed, but that itâs also never really happened before so theyâre not really sure lmao
(âtaehyung!!â âwhat? was i not supposed to say that?â)
jimin cuts the conversation short there as yoongi and joon arrive and they all get on the shuttle for the set
taehyung does say one last thing tho
âgood luck!! hopefully they donât tear u up too bad!â
but first
our superfan gives us the downlow on the competition and how it works
after being split into teams, the contestants will rotate between âtrainingâ w their chef and competing against each other in timed trial rounds
prizes can be won for both events, but the ones for the trial rounds are generally more competition based while the ones for the training rounds are more about luxury/quality of life while filming
each trial round win counts as a point towards the teamâs score in the competition
only trial rounds affect this score
once a certain number of points has been reached (5), that team moves into the next phase of the competition
instead of working as a team, they are split up and now have to work against each other to win the favor of their chef
and in the finale, after one last big cookout competition, an individual winner is chosen and crowned a âformerâ worst chef in seoul
once the contestants arrive on set, the chefs reiterate that today is just a training round
(they all let out a collective sigh of relief)
and itâs a good thing everyone woke up so early bc theyâre just in time to learn how to make breakfast!!
âitâs not like we had much of a choice-oof.â
âanyway! team jyp, since you won the pretrial round yesterday, you get to decide what both teams will be learning how to make today. so, y/n, jungkook. think carefully. what do you want for breakfast?â
y/n is about to suggest seokjinâs signature strawberry and cream crepes when jungkook, who is still half asleep, blurts out âomeletteâ
(also iâve decided that jackson is the host of the show now and iâm not changing my mind)
and itâs decided. theyâre makinâ omelettes
(y/n is only a little bit peeved)
shuffled off to their separate kitchens, y/n is reminded of just how terrified they are of jinyoung
sure, they thought he was scary yesterday when they realized they were on his team, but now he has to actually teach them and they canât help but think heâs going to make them into an idiot sandwich by the end of the day
as such, they try to keep half-asleep kook in between them and jinyoung at all costs, even if it meant running around the kitchen like a lost puppy
jinyoung, fully aware of how the show portrays him and how fans view him, notices this almost instantaneously
but he unfortunately doesnât get to pull y/n aside to address it before jungkook starts digging through the fridge for banana milk and almost throws the entire carton of eggs on the floor
professional chef jyp mode: on
and theyâre off
itâs a little difficult with y/n dancing around the kitchen anxiously and jungkookâs absolute aversion to being told what to do (as y/n predicted), but jinyoung manages to whip them into shape long enough to (barely) make a ham, cheese, and âgreen onion? wtf is that?â omelette
team seokjin, however, does not favor as well
yoongi apparently doesnât know what tf a green onion is either and just throws in whatever green vegetable he can find while jin is struggling to keep namjoon from setting himself on fire
âŚ.and it turned out to be celery
that, plus joon somehow managing to burn the omelette to a crisp, costs them the training round
y/n and kook start to celebrate their victory and actually working as a team when jackson informs them that their âprizeâ is they get to eat what they cooked while the other team gets whatever is left over on the catering table
âi hope you listened to your chef!â
â...jungkook, please tell me you used actual milk in thisâ
âumâŚâ
back at the dorms, the contestants share their thoughts on their first day of training, as well as their first official day w their chefs
(also include y/n saying something about their banana milk omelettes actually not being half bad)
y/n immediately recalls how much they were terrified of jinyoung, almost cutting their finger off when he glanced over their shoulder when they were slicing the green onions
jk agrees, adding smth about how he didnât think a scowl could ever be so intimidating
âit reminded me of my momâs face when she found out i tried to pierce my own ears in the bathroom in middle school!! i was too afraid to push the needle all the way through and walked around with it in my ear all day until one of my teachers finally noticed and sent me to the office!â
...ok jungkook
during all of this, yoongi and joon are both like...wtf
âseokjin was literally nothing but nice to us. even when namjoon almost set his sleeve on fire lmaoâ
âhyung how did u manage thatâ âdoesnât matterâ
jungkook thinks the difference in the chefs is hilarious, but y/n is only upsetti spaghetti
they go on a bit of a rant about how badly they wanted to be on jinâs team
saying something about how jinyoung is scary and mean and theyâre almost positive he can sense their fear or something and probably use it against them while jinâs team would be so much better on the sole fact that they wouldnât feel like he would turn them into an omelette for getting something wrong
cue jk being all babey asking âyou...donât wanna be on a team with me? :((â
and y/n immediately PANICS and tries to explain that NO, itâs not HIM but yoongi saves their ass by saying that seokjin is just their favorite and thatâs all
jungkook feels better, but then namjoon is like âhol up. we all just met. how could you possibly know that?â
insert more y/n fumbling and jk confusion
yoongi (once again) covers w some bullshit story that he was able to just guess that based on what y/nâs said in the gc so far
joon wants to question it further, but jungkook informs them that the lights out call just came in before he can
another yoony/n sigh of relief
in private, y/n freaks out to yoongi for almost blowing their cover to the others
prompting a short conversation over whether they think they can trust them or not
y/n admits that theyâre warming up to kook, but is a little suspicious if namjoon will keep their secret yet
convo ends with yoongi saying something like âwell, the kidâs right about one thing. at least we know we have each otherâ
end.
#kim seokjin x reader#kim seokjin x you#jin x reader#jin x you#bts jin x reader#jin#kim seokjin#bts jin#jin fic#seokjin fic#bts x reader#bts x you#bts crack#bts fluff#me releasing my old wips to try and make up for the fact that i haven't actually written or posted anything for months?#it's more likely than you think#my writing#on hiatus đ
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catch a break, part 2
requested? yep, continuation of a request by @faithiebrock01â
this fic includes:Â owen grady x ready, fluff(?), ooc? kinda? lots of question marks today
warnings:Â some graphic imagery, the indom kinda uh eats a person so thereâs that, but i donât think i got too much into the details so,, also im pretty sure my grammar and tenses are all over the place in this lmao
summary:Â chaos. thatâs... kinda it. a lack of understanding and a great deal more of underestimating a genetically-engineered animalâs intelligence and abilities definitely creates a mess that you canât even begin to clean up.
a/n: so... my last update was... apparently a month ago... im SO sorry... covid really fucked me up, it got IB exams cancelled and idk how to feel! im sorry! but uh i will definitely try to be more consistent (ahem) with updates, i feel so bad oh no but đĽşplease still give this lots of loveee
word count: 1.8k+ (oops)
part 1Â //Â part 1.5
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Your body involuntarily tensed upon entering the Indominus's enclosure. You were looking for an entire dinosaur (which, when you think about it, was weird; how did something that enormous go missing?), and yet couldn't help serenity that bubbled inside you from being in a forest and submerged in nature's sounds. Talk about conflict.
Owen immediately walks over to the claw marks, hands reaching out to trace over the whitened cement. If you didn't actually know him, you might've called him excited to be here. You knew he wasn't.
You'd only been standing in the heat for a few minutes but could already feel your clothes gradually dampening with the sweat that started to gather. "How the hell would that thing have gotten out, anyway? Not like it could've walked out without anyone seeing it."
Barely a second passes before the too-familiar sound of rustling leaves comes from behind you. Too far to be something on the ground. Too crisp to be just a few leaves you stepped on. And much too loud to be just the wind. Owen's shoulders tense visibly before he turns back to you, already trying to make sure you were close by.
Your eyes meet his in silent confirmation. It's still here.
Right before the warning signals from your brain can reach your limbs, a roar rips through the jungle-like enclosure, so deep and so loud that it vibrates in your ribcage, as though you stood too close to the speakers at a party and someone was playing bass-boosted hits.
Owen reacts before you do, grabbing your wrist and turning the other way. Your legs move on their own accord, stepping into a sprint before your brain actually registers what's happening.Â
The security guard that was frozen stiff in the control room must've been keeping an eye on the two of you with the cameras while you were in the enclosure, because the reinforced gates a few feet away from you started sliding open. You only hoped you had enough time to slip through the opening before the Indominus did.
But just as you and Owen closed in on the gates, they started to close again. Owen throws the briefest glance back towards the control room, as if the guard could hear the nearly audible 'what the hell?' his face was giving off. You push the wrist he was holding towards him. Keep moving.
Adrenaline fuels your bodies, steering you and Owen on autopilot towards the gate that, at this point, seemed like it was moving further away. The gap through which youâd escape wasn't getting any wider either.
Owen reaches his hand out, extending his form, as though he was holding open the doors to an elevator. As if it would stop hundreds of tons' worth of metal and cement.
Your ears ring. Owen's body slips swiftly through the still-narrowing gap of the metal gates as his grip on your hand tightens almost painfully. A reminder that both of you were going to make it out of that enclosure. I've got you. You're with me.
And you do; you nearly crash into him as you push your legs just that much more so that you could catch up to Owen.
You turned back to look at the gates, feet still running on autopilot. Instead of seeing the gates close and finally allowing your body to come to a halt, hooked claws slipped through the seemingly too-small gap, its tips digging into the hard, layered cement as though it was anything but.
"You're fucking kiddâ" You barely get the entire sentence out before Owen pulls you to the side, pushing you under an SUV as he followed a second later.
You manage to turn your head to the side, straining your eyes as you tried to gauge what the hell this animal was trying to do. Turns out, it wasn't that hard to figure out â you watched the workers' scrambling feet run across the gravel, trying to get themselves to safety, only to be followed by the too-large and too-scaly feet of the Indominus. You watched as its claws came to a brief halt behind each man and woman, before a distant thud ensued, followed by a headless or torso-less figure dropping onto the ground. You watched as those same claws grow nearer to where you and Owen were.
You gripped his hand. Your breathing was still labored, not having been able to come down off of the adrenaline that still kept you going.
Owen's hand pulls out of yours, prompting you to snap your head towards him in worry. What are you doing? Where are you going?
He seems to read your mind, nodding slightly as a response. He pulls a drop point knife from his back pocket, reached up above him and immediately started to tear apart some of the thicker linings on the underside of the vehicle.
You jab your elbow into him as silently as you could; what the hell was he doing? Was he going to blow up the car while you were still under it?!
He ignores you, continuing his relentless crusade on the wiring. Soon after Owen pulls them and empties its contents over the both of you as you scrunch your nose and eyes up. You're showered with cold liquid â water? No, water didn't stink; this was gasoline. Would this hurt the baby? Now you're really worried. You'd always trusted Owen in making decisions before, especially regarding your raptors, but now you were starting to question him for the first time.
A crunch in the gravel makes you spin your head to face the exterior of the car. It's those claws again. You'd almost forgotten about them in your, what now seems like blissful ignorance, worrying about Owen and his knife work.
Owen's hand grips your outer forearm, swiftly turning your body sideways to face him as he does the same. He didn't want you to keep looking. You feel his hand cradle your head to his chest.Â
Warmth spreads across your back. No, not from what Owen was doing. It was a literal, physical warmth. Like someone turned a fan on, but it spun out hot air instead of cool air. Like what you'd feel if someone whispered so close to ear that you could feel their breath on you.
It was the Indominus. Didn't take a genius to figure that part out. Except, now that you knew what it was, your nose seemed to involuntarily hone in on the metallic hints of the air that continued to fan across the both of you. Blood.
Your eyes screw shut as you press your forehead farther into Owen as the Indominus lets out a low growl from the base of its throat. It was so close to you, you felt your chest vibrate with the sound.
Almost as quick as it came, the Indominus struts away from the vehicle, away from you. The thumps and vibrations ripple across the ground, fading with the Indominus's continuous, low growls.
The gravel shifts once more, only this time it was right next to you, and the source of the sound was Owen â one you knew and one that was much, much, more comforting than some genetically-engineered beast. Fishing for his phone, he pushes his hips up to reach into his back pocket. His fingers move deftly across the screen, swiping and punching for some currently unknown number. The hand behind your head holds you closer to his chest.
The dull ringing of the phone is interrupted, "Owen! The Indominus escâ"
"Yeah, I fucking know it escaped! You didn't see Y/N and I running for our fucking lives, Claire?!"
So it was Claire on the other end.
"Of course I saw, Owen. I saw everything. Are you okay? How's Y/N?â"
"You don't get to fucking ask how we are, Claire. You put us in that room. You put your workers, your security guards and yourself in danger. You put Y/N in danger," at the mention of your name, you lift your head away from his chest and place a hand in its place. You could tell he was getting a little heated. Ever since you'd gotten together and started working with the raptors, he'd been extra-sensitive about your getting in harm's way.
"Speaking of security guards; the one that was with us in there? Yeah, his head's just making its way down the Indominus's digestive tract. So yeah, we're fuckinâ peachy."
Silence follows on the other end. Owen heaves out a sigh, as though reluctant to be having this conversation.
"Y/N and I are gonna make our way back to you. Keep an eye on that... thing. You need to keep it the hell away from your park guests, otherwiseâ" Owen pauses. Not a single one of you wanted to say, or even think, about what would happen, otherwise. He hangs up with a huff.
"C'mon, baby, let's get you outta here." He slides himself out from under the car as you begin to do the same, getting to your side just as you're about to get up. He dusts off your shirt, taking your face in his hands with the gentlest cradle.
"Are you okay?" he tilts your head from one side to another, looking for injuries, "Did it getcha? Scratches? Bruises? Does it hurt anywhâ"
"I'm fine, Owen," placing your hands on his forearms, you bring his frantic movements to a stop, "this head might just fall off if you move it anymore, though." You try to joke.
He lets out a breath, "S'not funny, baby. I don't know how you're still laughing after that."
"I'm just tryna make you smile, love," you give him a gentle but reassuring grin, "no, but really, I'm okay. Promise. A few scratches, I think, but that was from the gravel."
"Besides," you start, "some 40-feet tall dinosaur could never lay a claw on me." You puff your chest out comically.
Owen laughs heartily. "You're somethin' else, y'know that? God, I dunno what I'd do without you. Too strong for your own good," he pauses briefly to entwine your hands, "c'mon, we still got a long way to go before we get to the control room. We'll take the bike, yeah?"
You let out a small 'mhm' in response, smiling up at him before he turns to lead you to where his motorbike was still, supernaturally, scratch-free except for the fact that it was turned to its side.
Owen turns back to give you one last smile before letting go to pick up and reposition his bike. You take those few seconds to let your smile drop as your mind and hands wander back to your stomach for the nth time that day.Â
"C'mon, Y/N," he beckons you from the now upright bike, "you alright?" He seemed to notice your sudden change in expression.
"Yeah, I'm good," you bite your tongue, not wanting to add onto his currently growing list of worries, "Let's go."
#owen grady x reader#owen grady imagine#owen grady#jurassic world#jurassic world imagine#chris pratt#chris pratt imagine#chris pratt x reader#owen grady reader insert#chris pratt reader insert#fic#faithiebrock01#catch a break#astra-musings
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Ep 121: mmmm tape recorder turning on without them knowing goes brrr. AAAhjhdsjfhjdf "do you mind if i call you jon" its like "can i call you elias?" is this the dream guy with the tendrils? who wants to bet the boat is captained by peter lukas? big man if it killed yall how are you still here. oh boy the tape is doin that thing. who do we think it is? did he wake up? hmm. ep 122: lol jon. 6 months!?!? bruh quit movin big man. he just Knows things sometimes you know how it is. nah b/c i can relate to feeling like other ppl/ things arent real, thats the biggest mood BUT i think it is kinda pretentious to entertain the idea that youre the only Real person. If you dont see a body dont believe it. i'll hold out hope for a bit. theres not a new archivist is there? surely i wouldve heard about that. oh god peter what changes did you make. ep 123: web development. hope its about spiders. she blames him. bruh why. if they hadnt done anything the world would've ended piss off melanie. why are ppl acting like he chose to be in a coma for 6 months. we know this they just appear. no longer "head archivist of the magnus institute, london" now he's just "the archivist" covered in spiders? cuz ik the spider has to do with controlling what youre doing and all this stuff but i cant think of how this connects to that. ep 124: ugh vertigo. is michael crew an old man? oooh. fairchild. how did he know it was martin? hmm. GRR I LOST MY NOTES AGAIN. FROM EPISODE 125 - part of 131. ep 131: bruh he's so hard to understand big man ur voice is so low. Jared Hotworth. the boneturner. "the ones i helped find their proper bodies" name a better top surgeon? our favorite trans ally? ep 132: woo field trip into the coffin! static lol. he says "chill out im just poppin in for a quick recall mission" is the rib thing actually gonna work? bruh it feels so odd and contrived but he's an odd man with some odd powers so idk. rip that archivist ayyy statement time. voices? recordings? are those tape recorders? was it the tape recorders? did they pull him back? i hope so b/c if the rib thing actually worked im gonna be so disappointed. ep 133: predicting the lonely? tundra. like the lukases. hmm. sanikova! like sanikov land. so its the hunt? i suppose? yeah. so daisy's clearly rejecting the hunt, which makes sense cuz she doesnt seem to like the entities that much. wait so are we just not gonna talk abt all the tapes playing on the ground?? no? ep 134: not an archival assistant anymore? Adelard Decker (or however you spell it) i recognize that name. 15th power. i was right there are 15. the extinction? im trying to remember what ive heard. oooh spooky. no i gotta be real i dont understand this fear but i'll believe you that its a thing. ew lukas is so squealy. lukas can turn invisible? oh boy. oooh martin put the tape recorders there. lol lukas is worried he's gonna be an avatar of the eye. ep 135: yoo its the third Daedalus statement! maxwell rayner (reiner? reigner?) i dont know who that is but ik its somebody. is he the cult leader guy? church of the divine host? 4 people?? what? did they kidnap somebody and keep them up there?? oh dear jon are you dying? did he try to See or Know or whatever? why does everyone call basira detective lol. ep 136: he was the one from the spider movie that ate ppl right? the special effects artist? is it annabelle cane? "its a joke jon" lol. hmm they wanted to record the therapy session with melanie? i wonder who that is. i almost wanna guess annabelle cane but im not sure. ep 137: this is the one! he went to the other place and read the war statement but it wasnt the one she took. not the music again. sounds like the slaughter. who the heck is eric lol. "the watcher's crown" like the crown of eyes we saw in the piccrew ep 138: oh boy Robert Smirk time. is that elias? as unhelpful as usual. if new powers can be "born" can others die out? did jonah magnus wear the watchers crown? maybe they were born from our fear or maybe our fears were born from them. ceaseless watcher does ceaselessly watch so. idk what you want
big man. yeah jonah for sure did something. ep 139: agnes!! lol that one dude threw off all their plans thats so funny. BUT this does tell us something. the tree in the backyard of the hilltop house? not made by her. it going down didnt kill agnes. im guessing gertrude tied agnes to the house using the tree? u good jon? cuz every time you try to Know smth intentionally it seems like it causes you great pain. how come he can do it accidentally with no problem but the second he wants to know smth of plot relevance he gets a headache or whatever ep 140: lol pagan exultation. classic. "oh thats my rib" lmaoo. ppl are always so mad at jon and his Eye powers except when it benefits them. they're like "oh you shouldnt do that its not right" and then all of a sudden they want to know something and its all "oh cmon jon its the only way" ep 142: oh god jon what did you do. its interesting she's giving her statement in the way that they do when jon Asks. did he see her in the Coffin? and so he's following her? ok cmon jon you're supposed to let them come to you. lmao ikr martin. "start to hear the blood" "suure." lmao ep 143: lol that awkward moment when gertrude is already dead. big J if you die im gonna kill you. bruh. ayo helen? i guess it worked? ep 144: lol this reminds me of that one edgar allan poe story where he kills the old dude with the weird eye. spooky music stuff. lol thats my favorite symptom of a heart attack its hilarious. so its smth abt the location probably? bro i feel like you should write down the numbers idk. 162830165049 564846474827. seems like the distortion? like the kinda thing that causes you to go crazy because of the numbers. oh boy is it the extinction again. bro what?? im?? his dad just died and he's like eh. martin dont be mean. he's being all lonely again. big man ur pushing ppl away. oh god its fucking squealy boy. ep 145: that almost sounds like breekon/hope... Arthur? agnes. aah was he from the lightless flame cult. a tree. lol he's just ranting rn. hehehe fuck landlords amirite. yay someone tells jon outright to go to therapy. now do it big man. ep 146: oh great! the distortion! i'm making a spiral themed building in mc right now! jon maybe accept you did a bad? nah this goes back to what i said before. they're fine with him compelling ppl when its convenient for them but otherwise its "no jon you cant, youre a monster jon" the tapes didnt turn on. i spose that means its not important? i agree with daisy, this seems unecessarily dangerous. ep 147: is that a tape? the first tape? well that went better than i expected tbh. BAHAKJASHDJKF she did the "can i call you jon" like nikola says "elias, can i call you elias?" damn annabelle is such a girlboss. oh! the one thing from the picrew. its been a while since ive connected smth to that. lol all the other avatars always talk abt their patron so lovingly and the jon just. absolutely hates the eye. ep 148: lol thats the most elias thing. "i just like the way it sounds" ep 149: did he disappear? bruhh. ur lonely powers are popping off i guess. oops i accidentally deleted my notes for 150 - 152 ep 153: thats the cult right? yeah. it doesnt sound like the church of the divine host? idk. if it is the church of the divine host then they worship the dark right? so is the eleventh the dark star or wtvr? it almost sounds like the corruption b/c of the oil or grease or whatever. oh dear what happened. oh its the hunters. theyre so annyoing. not an "it" he has a name. he's a person. is this a page from the skin book? ep 154: oh shit this is gerry's dad! oh shit he quit! oh dear god. jon don't you do it. haha martin. yeahhhh... is he gonna tell the others? cuz you know theyre gonna get mad if he doesnt. oh also picrew connection! the bandages over the eyes? yeah thats this im guessing. ep 155: oh good he told them. oh my god what did you do. lol i have no mouth and i must scream. nah you get none of my sympathy you're straight up murdering ppl. its like the desolation, destroying lives to sustain your own. ok but taking their statements doesnt
kill them. oh... bye melanie. ep 156: lmao imagine if the tape recorder spoke back. oh boy decker! i swear we got a statement from him already. oh god mirrors scary. They're gonna eat the body arent they. Yup... sounds like the flesh or the slaughter, but I'm not sure. Could be the extinction for sure. Smth at the center! Like Helen mentioned. God Peter you dick. Ep 157: peter's just so :/ another decker statement i see. a statement about the corruption? hmm. maybe its not abt the corruption. the extinction. lol pandemics. topical. John Amherst. helen? lol i can hear admiral purring in the background. oh cmon helen dont be like that. im trying real hard to like you but you make it so difficult. ep 158: did they fucking free the stranger? im gonna lose it. you absolute dumbass. im sorry who is that? jonah magnus? my guy. peter. you absolute dickhead. that's elias. (im p sure i had this spoiled for me that elias is jonah) oh dear this is her death. god peter you prick. i hope this is a pop off martin moment and not a "martin you idiot" moment. i hope the hunters kill the stranger entity. or she kills them. furry daisy pop off! yeah fuck you peter martin can make his own decisions. you know that clip from Twisted where jafar says "ok what the fuck was that" martin D: ok like i know its gonna work but still D: D: ep 159: peter you bitchboy. because if im alone i cant hurt anyone else. imnotgonnacryimnotgonnacryimnotgonnacry do it do it do it do it. pop off jon. ok its a pretty good idea for a ritual i gotta be honest. she didnt even have to blow it up lol. oh dear that was certainly a noise. "he gets you" did he not have jon already? he's back! our boy is back! awwww thats so cute. ep 160: oh right this is the thing in the safe house. i love him. "obviously im going to tell you if i see any good cows" martin my beloved <3 :)) oh boy who is this. fuckin. people. jonah you dick. gahh. you can tell he's trying to resist so hard lol. ohh. hehe keep an *eye* on him. altho if the extinction is a real thing he needs to be marked by that right? lol he sounds so intense im sorry- i want martin to just burst in and be like "look at this cow i saw!" its so dramatic and for why.
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Youâre a disgusting, abuse-survivor-shaming cunt. I hope you choke, I truly do.
So I get way more of these kinds of messages than I could possibly ever count. Have been for years. I donât generally reply to them the way I mock some other hate messages I can at least have fun with, because like, whatâs there to say about this kinda thing, yâknow?
I donât know how to get people to understand that there is NOTHING hypothetical about my anger about the things in fandom I get angry about. My rants about dark fic are PERSONAL, they have NOTHING to do with some arbitrary moral superiority stance. I donât make assumptions as to othersâ survivor status or motivations for writing various things because I donât HAVE to, my anger and frustration are with the OUTPUT, not the inciting reasons.Â
My hostility towards fandom comes directly from the hostility fandom shows me every time people try to convince me that I have no reason to have the reactions I do to the way they interact with the extremely combustible topics that define my own trauma and that of others. And the fact that fandom at large has decided that the ONLY acceptable reactions from survivors upon seeing others engaging with these sensitive topics in any way they choose, is either to be silent, or to take part in it.Â
I donât have to know which writers of which fics are or arenât actually survivors attempting coping mechanisms of their own to be fucking furious at the way fandom has literally commodified these traumas, made them exploitable by making the catchphrase âsome people write dark fic to copeâ all-inclusive, utilized by anyone. With no shame or self-scrutiny as to the fact that YOU at least know if you are or arenât a survivor, and if you arenât one, you have ZERO business offering this particular line up as a defense to any survivor taking issue with the ways you embrace particular topics in particular ways.
The only things I have any interest in shaming people for is their choices, the fucking CHOICE to turn on any survivor who dares say âI have issues with this takeâ and this goes for abuse as much as it does rape. Iâve lost count of the number of authors over the years who HAVE spoken of being rape survivors specifically but then turn around and treat childhood physical abuse as their personal playground, with none of the care they put into crafting rape storylines on display when they casually have male abuse survivors punching each other in every other argument and just citing âboys will be boys.â I can have sympathy for their status and experiences as rape survivors while still being upset at how they simultaneously perpetuate so many of the untruths that make it so hard for abuse survivors to affirm that they have actually been abused rather than call it something that its not, something that theyâve seen writers call it because the writers simply donât want to inspect the fact that theyâve casually and without awareness written their characters abusing another.
Itâs not a zero sum game.
I get angry not because I feel powerless in my own life (I donât, actually, thanks, Iâve taken actionable steps every single day to fix whatâs wrong in my own life and lol thatâs power baby), and not because Iâm fixated on my own trauma and unwilling to move past it (lol yeah I have no money to spend on anything BUT therapy because Iâm committing to the highly specialized and expensive therapy I only arrived at after years of trial and error with other forms because I just donât want to move past any of this, okay sure).
Nah, I get angry because of the galaxy brain intellects who smarmingly just decide on this view of me for themselves, condescension dripping from every âwell-meaningâ expression of contempt sympathy, with zero examination of the fact that like.....idk guys, its a little hard to move past my trauma when everyone ELSE seems more fixated on it than I do! LOL, so weâre just gonna skip merrily on by the fact that the only reason its an ISSUE for me in fandom is because its EVERYWHERE in fandom, huh? âMind the tagsâ people parrot mindlessly, as though its not like tags HAVE to be created with self-awareness for what people are supposed to mind, or like I havenât had people literally try to trigger me with tags aimed specifically at getting under my skin as âpaybackâ for something I wrote (out of moral superiority, naturally, not a visceral display of emotion, never that). As though the tags have anything to do with the fact that even outside of Ao3, there are incest-themed shipping weeks every single month of the year, that every major discord server and fic exchange and other fandom wide event demands participants be âship-friendlyâ which might as well be code for ânot friendly to anyone who doesnât prioritize ships over survivors,â like fandom hasnât created a culture in which people are more inclined to be defensive over how people make writers FEEL about stuff theyâve written than they are to be defensive over how certain writing makes various survivors feel.
Iâll never get over how a fandom that universally expressed disdain for Devin Graysonâs disrespectful handling of the sensitive topic of rape has obliviously embraced every form of euphemism under the sun for their own content, and just flat out REFUSES to concede that there is ANY room for criticism in ANY handling of even the most sensitive of topics. Because thereâs no sensitivity allowed when it comes to any topic in fandom....unless its the writerâs sensitivity, that must be respected at all costs.
Does that not really strike you as....odd? Arenât there lines out there about how no society or culture or environment that truly embraces free speech can simultaneously embrace freedom from criticism? And yet time and time again, its anyone who dares criticize - in ANY fashion - the HOW of what someone wrote, not even the WHY, theyâre the ones termed authoritarian, censor, the one attempting to SHUT DOWN conversation rather than expand upon it. Tell me, what conversation was THIS anon and similar ilk attempting to invite? Every criticism I write of fandom invites people to engage with it. I fucking BEG people to engage with it. Youâre the ones who choose not to. At least not in good faith. Because its only when I refuse to let you move the goalposts from anything other than this being about me reacting to what you wrote, no aim at doing anything other than being a reaction to an action, not an attempt to tell you what to do, just an attempt to get you to tell me WHY, if it really is as defensible as you loftily claim it is - then why is it you just canât tell me, straight to my face, that it doesnât matter what negative reaction your writing evokes, you donât actually have to care? Cuz you donât, of course. But if youâre that content with your own motivations, your own impact, why so uncomfortable just saying that?
The funny thing is, I truly donât make any assumptions as to the why of anyone writing dark fic. I have a lot to say about the fact that we all know damn well that at least some of the people offering up the âsome survivors use dark fic to copeâ arenât speaking of themselves when they do so, but I have ZERO interest in imagining who that is and why. Iâve spoken of the fact that its willful naivete to assume that even if your own motivations for writing certain content are innocent in your own mind, you canât assume the same of EVERYONE. That its nothing but willfulness to pretend that actual predators donât peruse the same content. That the very same factors that make Dick Grayson so appealing to survivors, for example, as a strong heroic character who neverthless has been victimized and violated more than once - the flip side of this coin is this of course makes him EQUALLY appealing to people on the other end of things....a strong heroic character who nevertheless can be victimized and violated more than once.
And yet I honestly, truly have no interest in figuring out who might be whom, when it comes to writers, and I donât assume everyone who writes or reads certain content in certain ways is in the latter camp. IT DOES ME NO GOOD, to go through life assuming that many people are all potential rapists or inclined to side with my own rapistsâ or abusersâ side of things. I CHOOSE to give people the benefit of the doubt there, I assume perhaps they ARE survivors trying in good faith to cope with their own trauma and defensive about hearing that butts up against with other survivors trying to move on in other ways, or that theyâre simply people who grew up in fandom being told there is nothing they can write that can be termed wrong, and have trouble with such a deeply held conviction being contested. Or perhaps only got into shipping incest because the âfandom eldersâ of various fandoms like SPN deliberately and with full intent once upon a time pitched incest as being the same kind of taboo relationship that the same kind of people who forced gay men into secretive relationships were against....that incest ships and closeted gay ships were basically the same, and so as the latter became less of a thing as media showed more open gay relationships, incest ships became more of a thing among fans who were really compelled by the secretive/âsocietyâs against themâ aspect of forbidden love.
I donât assume any of that on a ONE TO ONE basis with any single writer or reader because I donât KNOW their personal story and Iâm not TRYING to. It makes no difference when Iâm not talking about or arguing against the WHY of someone doing a thing, but the HOW. The end result, and the interactions it creates in the environment in which their output is published, shared, celebrated.
All at the expense of any survivor who doesnât enjoy seeing things theyâve struggled with getting taken seriously about, maybe all their lives....not taken seriously, and offered up as just a themed week on the latest fantasy porn prompt generator. The problem with incest shippers isnât even just âyou ship incest, why do you do that,â its that you canât seem to manage to do it without assuming anyone who objects is only doing so out of a place of moral superiority. You try and make it a hypothetical argument âwell what about when you do thisâ as opposed to something rooted in the here and now of the personal. Weâre not talking about what ifs, weâre talking about what is. Deal with that before you try raising something else, instead of always raising something else so you never have to deal with that.Â
The problem is people condescendingly assuming we have ZERO basis for any objection, or any negative reaction at all. Its our own fault, you see, for being too stupid to get that fiction doesnât affect reality (even though weâve debunked that time and time again). Its our own fault, you see, for not getting that its not really incest BECAUSE (a claim that is never actually as universal as it tries to pretend to be, and thus is never more than a distraction for the specific argument that prompted it). Its our own fault, you see, for not getting that this isnât really a big deal, there are bigger problems, and its awfully sad if weâre so fragile and delicate we canât handle someone enjoying something that has nothing to do with us (even though its never your call whether or not it has anything to do with us, just as its never our call what your specific motivations for writing specific content might be).
The problem is the same thing Iâve been dealing with all my life, and all the more exhausting for it being front and center in fandoms that claim to be escapism and catharsis for survivors....as long as those survivors perform in the manner fandom is comfortable with....aka the manner fandom has exploited and commodified in order to make certain manners of enjoying certain topics possible and defensible for ALL fans, regardless of their own connection to such topics, or motivations surrounding them.
Denial, avoidance, and abdication of responsibility. Thereâs no problem if YOU donât see a problem, after all. There canât be a problem if you just refuse to acknowledge a problem. A problem has nothing to do with you if you simply have nothing to do with it.
And all the while, you continue engaging in the same behaviors that provoke the same reactions that you refuse to ever actually engage with or address, relying on gaslighting to try and sell people and everyone around them that THEYâRE the real problem....its us that have no respect for freedom of speech, creativity or the creative process, other peoplesâ traumas, the difference between fantasy and reality, etc etc ad nauseam.
We see people waving away instances of physical abuse with textbook abuse apologism, and weâre told we donât know what weâre talking about. We see people offering up wording and phrasing in the comment sections of fics that are literally textbook grooming techniques we recognize from our own experiences and weâre told weâre imagining things. We see characters raping others without it being described as rape and weâre told we didnât mind the tags, even though oddly enough, none of the tags actually said ârapeâ but rather other euphemisms and if they arenât in place to tell readers not to expect actual rape in the actual fic, then, what purpose is it they actually serve, again?
But sure.
Talk to me some more about survivor-shaming.Â
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đĽhewwo can I pwease get a romantic male matchup for bnha (darkbox bc I live for angst) (music box) when you have the time uwu
Levi he/him gay entp supposedly (also if it's not too much to ask please no characters under the age of 18 please)
I've been described as having a strong and loud personality, I'm extroverted and outspoken. I'm pretty eccentric too.
I value friendship, kindness and standing up for others.
Goal wise I'm pretty aimless. I dont have any goals, if I die well I guess that's it babey. In the meantime I'm just here to help animals and people who need it.
Positive traits: I always stick up for people in need, I'm good at reading people, I'm good with animals, I love to make people smile and laugh, cheerful, good at talking my way out of bad situations, uhm. Friendly!
Negative traits would be: hot headed, loud, stubborn, arrogant, comes across as intimidating:( good at getting into bad situations, gets into fights very often. Can be spiteful, I've been described as a pyromaniac so theres that. Can be sadistic
What pisses me off: my father. I can and will cause trouble for that man for as long as I live. And people who pick on the weak.
My hobbies and interests areeee: true crime babey! Crying over video games, baking, the occult, taking naps, dream interpretations and tarot readings
Likes: animals, cats specifically, stars, fire, sunsets, supposedly haunted places, storms, being dramatic for the hell of it, tormenting people in a good hearted way
Dislikes: uhhhh hot weather I guess.
Quirks: uh I have 5 cats! Ones my fathers but he never takes care of his cat so i pretty much count him as my own (plus he likes me more than my dad and it pisses my dad off hehe) I have weirdly accurate intuition, it makes reading people easy, knowing what they want to hear and what they dont.
Uhhh dates and relationship wise I'm honestly happy doing whatever my s/o wants to do. All I want is to see their face light up.
My love language is physical touch, I dont like touching people but if it's someone I feel strongly about youd have to pry me away from them.
I once got kicked out of a library for starting a fight in it, trashy I know but I wasnt going to stand there and do nothing while my friends were being bullied and pressured into getting involved with a really dodgy man. I scared the bullies off for good at least B) they never bothered my friend again babey
Oh I'm also known around the area I live in as someone who's good at finding homes of lost pets. Often times I come across a lost animal and befriend it in no time and use my connections to find its family.
Sorry if this was rly long and thank you for your time!! I hope you have a fantastic day uwu if anything's too difficult to come up with ideas for I'm more than happy for you to change anything to make it easier for you too!
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heya! here i am with another late matchup but i hope you still see this. i'm sorry about the delay (âŻ_â°)
bnha: i match you with . . .
natsuo todoroki !!
⢠this was one of those "heureka!" moments for me. you both hate your dads and hot weather? it's a match made in heaven! okay jk, these are just nice add-ons.
⢠what really made me consider Natsuo were your values and personality. kindness and friendships are important to both of you. Natsuo's a medical student so i am convinced helping others is high on his priority list too. he loves your driven and passionate nature because he doesn't go sugarcoating bs either.
⢠you're definitely the more energetic one while Natsuo only gets hot-headed about the things that are the most important to him. i think it's a good compromise, you can help each other out :)
⢠he was a little taken aback and cautious of your explosiveness at first but warmed up to it quickly after learning what a kind person you really were. now he thinks your dramatic attitude is funny during your sillier moments ŮŠ(ââżâ・)Űś
⢠speaking of, you lads met at an animal shelter. there had been a dog that was astray in the neighbourhood of his home, so Natsuo, being a responsible boyo, took it to the local shelter.
⢠then there you were, standing by the help desk with five kittens wrapped in your jacket in your arms. apparently someone had been trying to drown them so you'd taken care of the situation accordingly.
⢠Natsuo understood jumping into a lake to rescue the poor animals because he would have done the same, but you could have had just called the police?? it was extremely ridiculous but admirable at the same time to beat all those guys up.
⢠your chat turned into a pleasant conversation afterwards as you were waiting for the animals to finish their check-ups. Natsuo was a bit shy but you didn't mind and kept the chat going which he appreciated.
⢠later he volunteered to help you look for good homes for the animals you'd both found. during this project the two of you got to know each other quite well and ended up hanging out together afterwards!
⢠and from that point on, everything fell into place naturally. the growing spark between you was undeniable and you both knew it. Natsuo definitely liked you longer, he was just a lil dense about it . . .
⢠you're nothing short of a hero in his eyes but dear lord he worries for you. when he's attending lectures he sometimes can't help but wonder if you're all right and not getting involved in anything violent.
⢠attends to your possible injuries while nagging you not to be so quick to start a fight next time. in return, you playfully bully him for being such a mom.
⢠you join forces with Fuyumi to pick on him about your relationship. even though you're already together, soft Natsuo still blushes when his affection for you is brought up, it's entertaining for both you and Fuyumi.
⢠idk if you've heard but Natsuo's 181cm tall!! hugging someone has never been easier even if you happen to be taller than him. the only thing is his skin's naturally kind of chilly so he's lowkey worried if you dislike it but you always assure him he's perfect!
⢠one time he was stressed over exams so you baked him some blueberry muffins. he gave you the biggest hug and kiss because it's exactly all these little things you do that set his heart racing for you âĄď¸
⢠"last night i saw a dream about being a frog and eating giant flies, it was gross."
⢠"oh, that just means your love life is about to become fun."
⢠"i'm not sure how those two are related."
⢠"just trust me. i'm a pro at this."
⢠he also likes giving you headpats as much as he likes receiving them! his hands are quite big so he often runs his fingers through your hair when you're cuddling or hugging. it's especially relaxing after a long period of studying. also him carring you on his broad back Ô
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⢠you enjoy the little things in life and complain about your fathers together. you've agreed to wait a while before even mentioning your relationship to them because, honestly, Natsuo doesn't want any more horrible influences in your life.
⢠you get him sucked into the world of video games. it's always fun to watch him struggle but he never gets salty about losing maybe a lil he adores your smile as you laugh at him for being so bad at them.
⢠your dates include: helping out at animal shelters and retirement homes, video game and movie nights (especially about true crime), arcades and astronomy tower explorstions. i feel like Natsuo's more into traditional, romantic and chill dates and that's your usual thing. though i see sometimes you going to get coffee and ending up solving a 50-year-old murder case instead (â§Ďâ§)
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â despite Natsuo's best efforts to distance himself from Endeavor, it wasn't quite as easy and everyone was very much aware of the Todoroki family. and now the son of the number 1 hero had a lover.
â it wasn't actually that troublesome at first. some newpaper paparazzi occasionally annoyed you but you didn't care for them. most of the time Natsuo and you had your peace during dates aside from a few casual fans.
â but of course there are all sorts of people out there, some out for revenge, some for money, and being desperate means using even the lowest of methods to get what you want.
â so one time it happened, and it was all that took. several bitter villains thought they'd get their revenge through you, silly as it may sound. they made a big show of kidnapping you and demanding Endeavor to 'make up' for his wrongdoing. but all got resolved thanks to heroes, the only casualty being Natsuo's heart from almost exploding from worry and his deepening hatred for his father.
â later on, it wasn't that Natsuo was worried about you not being able to handle yourself, he feared what might happen if more of powerful villains came after you.
â so, after some debate, you agreed not to meet up for a short while to let the fuse of the incident settle down. it would be safer once the media forgot about it. you still texted and chatter over phone though!
â but then a week turned into two weeks, then into a month. you were wondering what was taking Natsuo to say the coast was clear and did a straight-up inquiry through a video chat.
â you could see he was restless the entire time. he said you should wait longer just to be sure everything was calm before meeting up. you became irritated because he was obviously lying and not being his normal, brutally honest self.
â why was he giving you this crap straight to your face?
â truthfully, Natsuo hadn't been sleeping all right recently. ever since that day he had reoccurring nightmares about something awful happening to you. they were just dreams, he knew. yet considering his ruffled up past and the frequency of those horrible visions, it would have been lie to say he was unaffected.
â paranoia just wouldn't leave him alone, and no matter how much he wanted to hold you in his arms again and hated making up stupid excuses, the voice at the back of his mind whispered this was for the best.
â after a month and a half had passed you've had just about enough, however. whatever reason he was keeping you in the dark for did no longer stop you from crashing into his house and demanding the truth.
â Natsuo knew you and expected this to eventually happen. after you made such a powerful entrance though he also knew there was no getting around it this time. really, it was comforting knowing you cared so deeply.
â he told you exactly what had been happening and you resisted the urge to punch him in the arm for having such a mindset. but the look in his beautiful grey eyes was so heartbreaking you threw yourself to embrace him instead. your touch was everything Natsuo had craved for for all this time.
â you skillfully assured him for the next couple of hours while keeping the talk light-hearted (he had obviously been overthinking way too much already). soon enough the issue was resolved and you had a sleepover right there to make uo for the lost time (Shoto and Fuyumi kept eavesdropping on you because y'all were being way too loud in a cute way).
â "i love you, Natsu, but if you ever keep something like this a secret from me again, i can't guarantee the safety of your arm or your front door."
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â If I Had An Airplane by SayWeCanFly
â This December by Rick Montgomery
â Round & Laundry from Carole and Tuesday
â Haven't Had Enough by Marianas Trench
â Bowie On The Radio by Ryan McMullan
âĄď¸ runner up: Dabi / Touya Todoroki
thank you for requesting, hopefully you enjoyed this! i'm really pleased about matching you with Natsuo, it's just so perfect. have a lovely day and remember to take care of yourself âĄď¸
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