#*vent

[femtguy]

i don't mind when a post is only for trans women or only about DIY estrogen at all.

what i mind is people using language like "trans people" when they're only addressing trans women and "DIY HRT" when they mean DIY estrogen.

it's literally THAT easy to not erase trans men from existence in the trans community. just use the words you mean instead of choosing words that constantly imply the trans community is only trans women and HRT can only be estrogen.

and saying that we're whining or trying to make everything about us when we point this out is so fucking mean. we're whining because we don't want our very existence erased within our own community. right.

[officeobject]

Yeah, I HOPE so.

I feel like I won't likely won't end up being happy in life, and the chance is small, fear is high, back-up plan is shoving a boyfriend in my life in order to half-ass the reasons for happiness that I "don't need".

[foxes-atthedoor]

If you cared you would be here, but you're not and you never will be so stop wasting my time.

[ufoscomeandgetmeplease]

”I have spent my live resisting the desire to end it“

-Franz Kafka

[strangeaxel]

I hate BPD so much, i hate it so much, i just want it to stop being like this.

I'll just go to sleep maybe I'll dream something nice but my god i hate my brain so much I don't even know who i am or what i need, i just want to feel okay i feel like im never enough for anyone. Im just tired and scared,ni hate how life isn't like the movies, i want my life to be a big fiction where im the protagonist, i watch movies and series and i just feel so much jealousy.

I wonder where my friends are, i wonder where my parents are. I wonder where's that childhood I've always wanted. I know I only have one chance to be alive and this is what i get? Remembering my childhood with a 8 year old me begging my mom to kill me bc i didn't want to keep being alive, i just wanted life to end at the tender age of 8 years old and my mom only laughed at me. And my dad doesn't even love me, he never did, i hate him so much as much as he hates me or even more. Idk what to do.

I ain't no perfect human, I'll never be as im sick since i was born and everywhere ill go I'll disgust everyone. Idk what to do anymore. I just want this suffering to stop. Talking isn't useful either, i just want some lovely arms to rest on and feel like I'm in the home i never had.

I hate to know how tough it is to have someone with mental illness as your friend or family, i hate to know im a burden and i hate to know that nobody will actually relate to any of my interests. The world should have stopped in 2015. i envy people that have friends and still do that bullshit of "no, im fine" and say internally "oh i love them, they're so lovely but I'll just keep quiet so i don't bother them" and their friends and family would die to know their state, selfish bullshit, i know you're sad and all but where tf did you get that idea??! I literally would die for your situation. My lord. I wish i could just have what you have. I wish i was skinny, i wish i was innocent, i wish i was a kid again and stop everything that's coming to me, i wish i had born somewhere else, i wish i wasn't me, i wish my brain wasn't like this, i wish nobody hated me, i wish i didn't hate everyone, i wish i could live, i wish my dad love me, i wish my family love me, i wish everyone love me, i wish i was a good person, i wish i was somewhere else.

I won't accept im 20 next year, I won't accept my life is ruined, I won't accept i am still alive.

I wanna be an idle teen. Something i couldn't even do. Im that autistic girl that died in her couch, that's me, it's just that nobody know it, nobody knows my parents don't care enough, nobody knows i drop off school bc of bullying and depression at 13 and that i rot in my bed.

The whole, "K*lling urself is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" bullshit is spouted by the ignorant lucky ones who have only had temporary problems. Some people's problems are permanent so maybe try offering actual help and support to them rather than regurgitating an overused phrase that means nothing to people with real struggles.

[mikokiara]

Look at me.

[thecinnamongirlll]

[effroid]

[ cw: art of heart ripping out, scars ]

I would do ANYTHING for you.

[sealightblue]

"thank you elmo" we all say in unison

i actually really needed this today :(

[cryingbard]

"Oh my God, there you are!"

[autism-princess]

Fr man:( I hate my body

If I was sk1nnny life would be easy

[femtguy]

cis gay men calling me a mutilated woman and saying i'm only trans to try and 'convert them' to be straight.

like are you really that arrogant? you think i underwent surgery, hormones, social ostracization, hate crimes, all to convert your ugly ass to become straight?

this faggot on faggot crime has got to fucking stop. they're not gonna pick you. you will forever be the dirty faggot to them and i will forever be the freak tranny to them.

if you are upset that you are attracted to me and then find out i have a cunt, that's YOUR problem, holy fuck. but i promise you, if you call trans men mutilated women, trannies, homophobic straight girls, or anything of the kind. WE WILL NOT WANT TO FUCK YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE. we are not so thirsty for cock that we'll settle for a transphobic piece of shit.

[ohio-thestate]

oh man I sure do love getting headaches that are so bad I get nausea from the pain

[anonymous-ventss]

What if I became some fucked up inbetween? More empathetic and kind, but also more distant and cold. I love more freely, but now at a safe distance

Pain really change people, Some become cold, and some will become no reaction at all.

[ufoscomeandgetmeplease]

I was never supposed to make it this far.