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#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year#and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire#and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f#friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl#acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what#are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and#friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me!#LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after#everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to#invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me#i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother#and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids#so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo#any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷♀️#but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd#and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk#THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date#w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a#few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay#scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK#like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl#like is that even doable#but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much#.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us#god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x#but it would be soooo funny#I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed#popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x#i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like#its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe
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the thing about aplatonicism is that just like aromanticism and asexualism, it doesn't inherently mean you don't want friendships, every individual apl person has different needs and wants in regards to friendship and each person will go about it differently.
I for example am aplatonic and don't specifically feel platonic attraction as in, i don't feel a drive to befriend people. I don't get "friend crushes" or ever get the desire to befriend specific people. I am personally, very open to the possibility of friendship if someone else approaches me and we vibe. I am not platonically attracted to them, but I also do get enjoyment from socializing with others in that way and can become attached to them, etc. Platonic attraction does not equal caring about someone/being good to them. Attraction is not moral in that way. it just is.
Just like how some ace people still enjoy sex, even without sexual attraction. Some aplatonic people still enjoy friendship, and some don't. And that's okay! There are so many types of relationships out there that people can form and explore what makes them happiest and it looks different for every person and that's such a wonderful thing.
#my husband and i are both aplatonic and it manifests in VERY different ways for each of us but like. its neat its cool#i don't have many friends bc i don't seek ppl out but i love talking to people. i am a very social anf i like to think friendly person#i also have incredibly strong morals about treating people with kindness and trying to make the world a gentler place.#bc platonic attraction does not determine how good a person is or their morals#you can have 0 friends and still be a good person who treats people well#we NEED to get away from the idea of 'person with no friends = bad'#bc like. its a bad concept. its inherently flawed and bigoted and shit. tbh#the power of friendship isnt the most powerful thing actually its not any worse or better than any other relationship#friends arent worse or better than romantic partners or family or coworkers or strangers#its just another relationship and subset of attraction and putting it on a pedestal isnt a good thing actually#just how ace advocacy that relies on claiming romance is the best thing in the world is flawed#aro advocacy that claims friendship is the most important thing is just as flawed#all are equal. theyre not better or worse just different#rot posts#anyways unprompted apl post its just been on my mind
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ya girl Steve is not doing all that great in college work life
#tryna convince myself to do an essay rough draft by thinking how it could “”””impress””” a guy in my English class that i can’t tell if i’m#crushing on bc i’ve never been in feasible romantic situations (ie crushing on some1 not a fictional mythical entity) or if there’s just#serious mutual “we should b friends but oh god how do i actually talk to them” tension#either way there’s undoubtedly smthn here I just gotta get past aaaaaalllllllllllllllllllllllllll the social trauma from being ostracized#in middle school & having absolutely 0 consistent real friends in high school; i swear to that axolotl i am on constant Survival Mode at#school & it shows so badly#should’ve (ie an “excuse me” or “thank you”)#and typing this is EXTREMELY counterproductive rn I’ve been here for like 5 minutes#anyway i feel stupid for this because it feels like smthn i should’ve been doing in high school but thank the undiagnosed adhd for#annihilating my “high school experience” in favor of homework I could never complete and still can’t apparently#like for christ’s sake could i at least be doing good at schoolwork & creative projects if i can’t have a social life#or instead have a few friends to make it feel like there’s less pressure on the hw cuz there’s more important things in my life#literally screenshooting this rn to know to talk to my therapist abt it. doubt she’ll b able to help but might as well yeah#i don’t want it to be obvious how much self loathing & pity & general angst i’m holding when i talk to ppl but I’ve never ever been a good#emotions actor & never will tbh.#AND my minecraft house looks ugly. send post
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i need to try to come back to myself
#i dont like me now#and honestly i would understand others not liking me as i am now#bc like i wouldnt want you to get attached to this neet version of me either#so yeah.... just need to push myself to do the things i love instead of overloading myself with media as a distraction#from the literal things i love#im somewhat okay in human interactions now#at the very least i try to take care of ppl around me#but i am crushing my own dreams and not even letting myself care#and if i read one more you should rest advice online..... i need some tough love otherwise im going to stay in my bed dreaming forever#vent post#0 notes to me
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Do you help small simblrs get noticed by sharing their posts? I’m smaller blog and I really wished that larger blogs would share everyone’s content. Do you only share larger simblrs posts? You seem to get much interaction with posts too.
listen min vän, I've seen this anon ask go around, and I'm certain you know what my answer is gonna be.
For a short answer, I reblog whatever I want, my intent when reblogging is to reblog content I enjoy- simple as that- but I also reblog to show my mutuals/followers content that I believe was made by someone who is passionate about their work and is proud of what they make, I don't want to reblog content that feels washed and was made for the sole purpose of like farming :/
For a long answer:
First of all, I don't consider myself a "big blog", maybe a medium sized blog, internet-logic has rotted my brain to believe that below a million followers is small so take that as you will (im healing from this mindset tho lmao), but I'm frankly not as big as some people on this platform/simblr (which doesn't matter, all our content is phenomenal regardless, 0 followers or 10k followers), I don't know what gave you that impression 😭 I only recently hit 150 followers and just recently started to get a lot of interactions, which was surprising, but moreso Im just glad more people get to see Roo 😵💫 So again, I say I do not feel as tho I am a big blog :P Second of all, I reblog whatever content I enjoy, sometimes it's sims, sometimes its not, and when I reblog it, yes I do have the intent of sharing it to my mootys and followers so that it can be seen, but the intent is showing off work that people are passionate about, if you blatantly care about likes or reblogs or follows, it WILL show up in your work, it will be obvious, and more often than not, your content will not be as ingestible as content from someone who literally lives and breaths on making characters and showing their lore. I also don't reblog every post I see, not because I don't think it's "good enough," but because I don't want to swarm my blog with tens of hundreds of posts, be it sims or not. I see SOO many simblr posts where I'm like damn I wanna reblog this but I don't know what to say, or I dont have anything to say (which I should specify that this does NOT lower the quality of the post by all means), at which point I feel bad for reblogging and not having anything to say- I'm also... not legally required to reblog every post I see, my mutuals make phenomenal posts, doesn't mean I need to reblog their stuff, if they are upset because I didn't reblog their work, then that's just someone who cares about likes/reblogs and I don't like those kinda ppl 🤷♂️ U should be on simblr to enjoy and share your work, not to get some useless internet points on a post. Lastly, which kind of ties into the last one, I don't only share larger posts, if anything, I find myself more prone to reblog smaller posts (smaller is subjective but usually anywhere from 0-20 notes) just because it means that less people have seen it, and thus I'm opening the eyes of my mutuals/followers to the beauty of this smaller blog's post.
To conclude this essay of a post, I personally recommend getting the hell outta that mindset, because I used to have that mindset when I started and, at least to me, I could see that mindset show through my work. I've recycled this mindset into "I don't wanna post because I want likes and reblogs, I wanna post because I want people to perceive my brainrot in real time", what I mean by that is that I just want to post just to share my stupid characters, which usually is Roo. The likes/reblogs mindset is and can be super unhealthy for you, and again, I recommend getting out of it, recycle it into something less taxing on the mind.
also I just wanna say that if I reblogged EVERY post I liked/saw, I would have over 20,000 posts and I just KNOW everybody would be annoyed as piss if I reblogged stuff at that frequency (since in order for me to achieve that number, I'd have to reblog like, 100-500 posts every 12 hours 💀)
#honestly I've been plenty more happy since dropping that mindset and now I am so much more comfortable when making content#I do get happy when I get reblogs and likes. but that's honestly just a normal human reaction 🤷♂️#validation = serotonin/dopamine/wtv = joy ykwim#what i rlly mean tho is allow yourself to enjoy the likes/reblogs. but dont rely on it and dont make it your sole purpose for posting#i just wanna reiterate that everybody on simblr does and can make phenomenal content. none of us make piss-poor content#even the ppl who post for likes/reblogs can make good stuff. but I really believe that passion overrides skill#you can be a blog with 0 followers and 2 likes to your name. but as long as you are passionate and enjoying posting. that immediately boost#your post quality by a million#yapping#Anonymous
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i truly think some folks on here would rly benefit from sitting with themselves and their willingness to dismiss posts / fics with low interaction count as "flops". like yes i love the Look At My Flop Posts Boy energy we have going but also i have quite frankly never posted a flop in my life bc all of my posts are bangers to ME
#thinkmin!#when i say 'some folks' im not talkin abt moots / friends / followers but more just ppl i have seen in the wild#to everyone reading this tho: every single post is a banger if u label it so in ur mind#ur 100k note shitpost is a BANGER. ur 0 note 150k slowburn fic is a BANGER also can u give me tips on how to write something that long#idk it just makes me sad a little bit to see ppl getting discouraged and putting themselves down and diminishing their work#bc of some Metrics on some App#my qualifications to talk abt this r i have Never posted a flop post in my LIFE and i also have never had a fic get over 1k notes#idk. i know it's easier said than done. in no way am i diminishing fic writers' frustrations w lack of interaction—ive been there too tbh#ig my point is like. all posts r bangers ESP if u put ur time n effort n love into it and it brought u joy
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taps glass. hello... is anyone in there... 👁️👄👁️
#✮─( ooc )─☄#(oh my tags still work)#(weird)#(not my deadname still being on here i'm cringing lowkey)#(hello hi wow is anyone even alive how is comics fandom doing in general)#(or am i just posting this for like 0 ppl)#(eternally glad i bound this url to an email i'd remember)#(because the amount of human sacrifices made for this url were too many to give it up)#(fr)#(anyway hi? gonna change that alias on the blog soon but )#(i go by Jane now)#(if... anyone cares... or is still alive........)
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don’t know how 2 say “if I unfollow u as a mutual I promise it’s nothing personal” without just saying it but like. If u primarily rb unrelated stuff frum art I might unfollow from time 2 time (esp if it’s a lot of discourse related stuff) bc I’m becoming increasingly aware of how bad I am at monitoring and filtering my own racing thoughts when it comes to viewing an excessive amount of discourse posts. I will still check in and rb and probably even refollow once I get my brain set back on track but yah. If this means anything
#I was on a rly good streak for a while where I had my online vibe curated rly well and now it’s all strange again and I’m aughhhh aughh!#it’s nothing personal to anyone I follow mutual or otherwise I genuinely have really poor control over racing thoughts and stuff.#this obviously excludes the important current events going on I’m talking abt just. More general stuff.#that rly only applies to me specifically.#I just wish that there were easier ways to go about interacting w my online friends bc auuu auuuu I don’t wanna “break the mutual”#I don’t want ppl to think I don’t like interacting or seeing their stuff all the time#but when it’s like a 9:1 media criticism / queer discourse to art ratio#even when it’s like! stuff I agree about! Eventually it just makes my brain spin like a top .#AUGH.#text posts :0]#ramgling sorry I just got a sudden Very fucking bad stint of anxiety and am realizing I gotta remember what made being online Enjoyable#If I’m going to Keep being here
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hi I hope ur having a lovely day <3
today is always the most enjoyable day ♡
#yotsubato was right#lmao so#this was my last post before hitting post limit for the day#which won't reset for another 3 hours#so i am being told by the universe to get off tumblr and go enjoy today even more lol#🫡 anons will be on for another 3 hours + a lil grace period for the last ppl who didn't know until they saw the answers being posted#also to the ace arch anon i would love to talk more about it 0: what would u like to know?#though i could just say whatever later (❁´◡`❁) just not sure what u r interested in about it!
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the gazette - daku // no idea what this song's about but it sounds really sexy
#yeah i spent 0 minutes thinking of what to post in the last week but i have been enjoying this a lot lately#i watched the premiere of bb25 last night and dickens kept honking his really loud screechy rubber chicken#so i hid the chicken and gave him his stinky (cow hoof) but then he kept dropping and throwing around his stinky really loudly and stinkily#he's just not a good guy to watch live tv with#i hope the white kid who wants to be a lawyer is evicted#im glad cory was dragged to the nether region#so is he not in the house? is cory not in fact in the house? where do you keep him? someone has to feed him#ive been awake since 5-6 am again#i got a post suggested on my dash of a bunch of random people some of which were decked in visual kei#most of them i did not recognize and neither did op supposedly#and at the bottom op tagged someone and mentioned that they've only heard like one gazette song and they don't know who they are#but they're so hot they keep looking at pictures of them and i was like... oohhhhhhh this makes nothing but sense#i feel like the only people i see talk about the gazette or its members are huge fans or so they seem#but i guess i also understand that if their big fans are obsessed with their looks then like.. random ppl..#will also just find them really attractive. its the random person to vkei fangirl pipeline#if you're a random person here's a song rec from their last album for you#the gazette#song rec#j rock#tbt#visual kei#shut up kaily#Youtube
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I always feel silly looking in selfshipping tags and seeing everyone else’s F/Os because they’re relatively “normal” (like they��re from popular media, or they’re humans or at least humanoid) and the majority of my F/Os are not that. Some of them are humanoid (and you can make cases for a few of them to be depicted like that and I do imagine them as humanoid instead of what they look like canonically) but I think the grand majority of them are obscure, particularly in comparison to a lot of the F/Os I’ve seen. I don’t feel BAD about it or too embarrassed (beyond the normal amount of embarrassment I still have over this) but it’s just a bit funny to me. So many people have F/Os from anime and meanwhile I’m sitting here with 3 F/Os from the same fucking Newgr0unds series.
#f/o tag#typed NG like that with the 0 to hopefully not go in the main tag for it#i won't lie i am very tempted to make my list less obscure for the very few ppl who visit my blog.#idk if i'm just losing my sense of shame about it or what? who knows.#i think i will eventually make a pinned post so it shows up and ppl know which f/os are which#it's in my about technically but idk how often ppl look at those.
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do u ever just like. have little moments that make U remember u r not entirely mentally sound
#speculation nation#like. hmmm. me having no real anxiety about who's gonna take care of me when im old#me seeing a post w/ someone talking about it and like it's a very reasonable thing to be concerned about#but me seeing that & being like 'if i get to the point where i dont have anyone to take care of me then im just dying'#no qualms about it. that's just kinda how i live my life in general so me being old it wont really matter#like YEAH maybe it is kind of weird to live my life with the perpetual philosophy that as soon as i have 0 ppl who care about me#then i just am not going to be living. tee hee#see the thing is im a fairly likable person so i do not see this being a problem.#that's the thing i tricked myself into having a will to live#made a mental contract with myself 10 years ago to never do anything to my life so long as i have Someone who cares about me#sometimes a will to live lies in the people you love. and that's just how it goes#but yeah me not having anxiety about growing old bc either i have ppl who will help me out or imma just die. like idk it's not complicated.#i got plenty of time until then anyways. that's a problem for Later Me#suicide ment/#Uhmmmmmmmmmm suggested lol
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want to send asks so bad to people but cursed with being a sideblock....when are they going to just let you send asks from sideblogs i feel crazy 😭
#chimechatter#i like to send asks to ppl but theyre always anon bc im mega insane about my privacy so i cant let people knowing my main blog or ill die#(except its literally just like. funny posts. on there. thats it. I have 0 identifying information. its fine)#sorry to everyone that i am mutuals with who doesnt actually know bc tiumblr sucks assssss
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the stereotype of rwingers becoming trans and then trying to become leftists shouldnt be a "ewww you're morally impure and havent been a perfect progressive since you were a fetus like I have" type of thing, if anything it should open up a broader conversation on how a lot of people amab are basically from day one being indoctrinated into the right thus making it harder for people to accept themselves and thats very concerning and we need to do something to stop this.
#and no amount of shouting 'men bad' will fix this btw. not that some of you care. you just want to shout....#and then ur like 'im just venting !!!!' on a post that's clearly made to get attention and reblogs.............#if ur just venting why are u providing links and wanting to spread this information#i just hate when ppl have a lot of shit to say but never any solutions. its like. great thanks i already know that. now what.#now what do we do to make things better? and if it required you to change in any way would you be willing to do so?#and some ppl dont wanna answer those questions bc they just want to rant but for some reason cant do that w/o trying to make it#a political post to get reblogs on tumblr..? if its a vent post turn off reblogs. like.???????#bc you providing links n shit and making it seem like you want the info spread but no one can critique you on how you provide#0 solutions or ideas in any capacity on how to fix things and just only ever demonize men- is giving heavy propaganda vibes#like i dont think ur doing it intentionally as propaganda i think ur just defensive but thats how its coming off#you're basically saying 'men bad' and thats it. like thats the only substance to what you're saying. theres never a solution.#theres never a light at the end of the tunnel. just. men bad. forever and ever. and that feels propaganda-y to me.#like as if you're a rwinger trying to convince me black ppl are all violent by only ever showing me stuff of black ppl being violent#and not even ever providing solutions to a fake problem so the natural conclusion i the viewer am to come to is 'black people violent.#always violent. should avoid' bc thats how racist propaganda works...... and... well.... *eyes your blog up and down*... yeah...#and thats not me saying 'men r oppressed like black people' thats me making an analogy that's similar. idk why acting that way#would suddenly be okay behavior if its about men instead........ like........... tf. doing this about anything is weird and sus as fuck lik#what possible reason would you have to antagonize and demonize something that much#its like. that subreddit of people who hate dogs. like they cant ever see dogs in a positive light ever and its just like weirdly cruel#for no real reason...? idk... and even if they have valid trauma about dogs like... maybe this level of vitriol to where you are quite#literally foaming at the mouth isnt good for you and you need to like look into why that's your reaction and why you think its ok to act#like that#and i dont mean that in a 'lol ur foaming at the mouth' i mean it in a 'im genuinely concerned about how upset you are' kind of way
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i went from super determined to make a long as fuck post abt rei's route to being like "eh maybe i won't, ppl are allowed to have their low iq takes" to seeing a take so cold and stupid that it's ignited my drive to actually write a post abt rei's route and why 90% of ppl who talk abt his route are severely incorrect
#sd#i was so annoyed last night seeing someone say rei changed himself FOR HIS FATHER of all ppl that i went on a rant on twitter @ 3am LOL#im pretty much gonna take that thread and make it a lil more cohesive and insert screenshots from rei's interrogation specifically#to back up what i say#bc everyone and their mom follows guides no one knows the things EYE know... you don't know rei like i do#when i first played the game i did rei's route first and i purposely didn't follow a guide#and bc i didn't follow a guide while interrogating rei i had to start over a couple times BUT ALSO#there are a couple things i remember him saying that NO ONE who complains abt his route even mentions#so i think in general rei's route should get a long post because there's like 0 meta posts about it#i'm also gonna do one abt madarame's that i already STARTED but have not touched since starting it LOL#anyways i am deeply disturbed by how many ppl just... miss the point of his character arc 😭#to say he changed himself for his father's approval when he didn't even want to meet up with him and he wished for him to die...#rei. he started acting more manly for daddy's approval. rei? the same rei who said he hated his dad. rei. the one who was disowned. that re
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#cryptic ramblings#in the tags#help everyone in the tumblr community i was invited to is posting intro posts and i am so fearful of being Known and Witnessed 😭#they seem nice dw im just like 🧍🏽♀️#feelin wack abt things per usual#also unrelated but#dating app diaries#i feel like i am. just not attracted to the ppl im matching w on my dating app 😭 and i cant help but feel like im being so shallow abt it#i just dont know what to doooo...#i think listening to so much chappell roan and then remembering that i have 0 romantic/sexual experience is doin smthn to my brain :/#(i mean. i aint gonna stop listening. shes too catchy for me to stop listening. i just gotta get over myself. but. easier said than done)#sigh...
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