#(im actually just tired and mentally exhausted)

[insaneinpink]

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[fawnsky]

"these are the best years of your life" SAY SIKE RN

[xlcovo]

i hate how i have disappears from the face of the earth depression instead of works extra hard until you reach a breaking point depression

like yes both are bad but the lack of motivation makes me more depressed. i would SO rather overwork myself until i snap and do something a little silly because at least then i wouldn’t be a complete waste of oxygen

[aranock]

Fucking begging supposedly leftist people to stop being sanist while trying to advocate for marginalized groups or talking about politics. Being bigoted in one way isnt helping combat other forms of bigotry or helping you to fight against fascism and other harmful ideologies. For example, when you call all transphobes/terfs etc "insane/crazy/psycho" etc you are not helping me as a mentally ill trans woman, you are just being bigoted to me in a different way. You are also validating the sanism that a lot of those exact people believe in.

Viewing bigotry, hate, terrible ideology and all things you deem bad in the world as synonimous with people like me is just hatred. You are part of the problem. Using denigrating terms for people like me as equivalent to those persecuting me is not fucking helpful.

Y'all can understand how someone who calls everything they view as bad "gay" is homophobic but then can't seem to piece together that calling everything you view as bad "crazy/insane etc" is sanism. Hint if you view a marginalized group as synonimous with everything wrong in the world you're a bigot too.

I am just so so so sick of how obvious it is that most of you see people like me as the embodiment of evil. You need to accept that sane people like you are just as capable of terrible acts and beliefs, above and beyond that you are going to have to reconcile with the reality that the vast VAST VAST majority of bigots are "sane" like you. That the vast majority of violence done in this world is done by sane people. I get that sanism is your emotional support bigotry that helps you sleep at night, because you get to Sit there going "I cant do and believe terrible things, I'm not "insane" like those bigots and fascists. I have the essentially good brain, unlike these evil bad brain people." but from where I'm standing your sanism is dangerous to me just like the people you're incorrectly calling crazy are, and you need to take a long look in the mirror and start deconstructing that. Because until you do, you are no ally, accomplice, or safe person for me. Big fucking hint those people you are decrying hate people like me and say the same shit about everyone they dislike that you do. Centrists and neoliberals and bigots and conservatives and fascists are not terrible because they're insane or crazy or whatever diagnosis term you're incorrectly throwing around this week, they are terrible because of their beliefs and because of how they seize and use power.

If you have ever agreed with something I've said you have agreed with a crazy person. If that sentence makes you uncomfortable or squeamish you need to unpack where that comes from or you are going to keep hurting marginalized people like me.

Just thoughts from one of those scary insane people you spend so much time ostracizing and demonizing.

[schizorrs]

snorting my psychotropics in cuz im too tired, i will either hurt my brain or puke

[chiimeramanticore]

waow

[ramblingsfromthytruly]

i feel so tired....

[rttingd0ll]

I hate whenever my parents tell me I'm annoying, it makes me want to cry

[eepyava]

[idontwannabeherealone]

I hope that you can see that behind all the pain, behind the overthinking, I only wanted to love you. I never meant to hurt you, I never wanted you to feel anything but pure happiness… but I caused you to lose that instead

[dotteds1lk]

[scary-friend]

Current Mood

it’s literally midnight but here I go

[metamodernisms]

[ninasbooknook]

everything i do is a joke. people aren’t laughing with me, they’re laughing at me. i am the joke. the way i speak, the way i look, the things i say. all of it is a joke. they don’t take me seriously. i have put up with being the outcast for so long. i had no friends in primary school. then i started highschool and i became a joke, an outcast and a weakling. i guess everyone thought i was a joke in primary school too, they just didn’t say anything. they think i don’t see how they laugh at me. they think i’m so gullible. i know how funny i look, i get it. nothing i say could be taken seriously because i am a fucking joke. maybe it’s the autism that makes me stand out but sometimes i don’t want to stand out. i don’t want people to look at me and realise how different i am. i know im different but i hate that people think that just by taking one look at me. i hate being perceived.

｡ﾟﾟ･｡･ﾟﾟ｡ ﾟ。 - nina's book nook

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[rttingd0ll]

maybe I'm sick

[eepyava]