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Idk man Faybelle and Bunny are such a compelling dynamic. Like what do you mean girl whose destiny is to not be invited to anything is rooming with girl who starts the plot of her story by leading the main character to the scene. What do you mean girl whose destiny is constantly trying to avoid being late meets girl infamous for the party she will crash halfway through. Also the fact that Bunny canonically takes care of Faybelle’s pomeranian, who is the only person/creature she will willingly admit to liking apart from her mom???
There’s just so much surface level animosity between them that’s undercut by a surprising amount of trust and care, how could you not like them?
#i’ve literally been losing it over these two if you couldn���t tell but THEYRE SO GOOD#and it’s all unspoken it’s all subtext and it’s driving me insane!!!!#add bunny’s relationship w alastair into the mix and.. aghhhh#bonus points if she breaks up w alastair cause she realizes she has a crush on faybelle#the week that faybelle gets together w briar#ever after high#eah#bunny blanc#faybelle thorn#bunelle#lost and found#also while i like them romantically they make one hell of a platonic pairing too#bunny x faybelle#faybelle x bunny
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Soukoku as tiny forest creatures?
I hope this counts!!
#bungo stray dogs#bungou stray dogs#bsd#bsd art#skk#soukoku#bsd dazai#bsd chuuya#bungo stray dogs dazai#bungo stray dogs chuuya#my art#has it been a month since I last posted I am losing track of time#I started this like two weeks ago or wait…did I ask for suggestions two weeks ago lol#this is messy#i hope this counts though lol
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Girl if only you knew the Bigolas Dickolas Time War trend was inadvertently set in motion by a horror writer who loved that queer genre-bending book so much they made a whole shamelessly queer genre-bending podcast
#hfth fandom#this is how you lose the time war#bigolas dickolas wolfwood#this has been the strangest two weeks#tihylttw
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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!
#cats#holiday#OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few#days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart#rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart#so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag#and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day#last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few#hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent#ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect#because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make#me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these#'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a#few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is#getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better#and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo#I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c#Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after#like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was#doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally#ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully#whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos#ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely#though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart#stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive#things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***
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Be me. Set alarm to wake up earlier. Get period cramps debilitating enough to be sent back to bed after like 3 hours
#asterchatter#I’M PISSED !!!!!!!!#Actual worst thing ever. it’s been like 3 cycles in a row that painkillers haven’t done SHIT and i had to lose a whole afternoon to cramps#ibuprofen And paracetamol you have failed me#This has just been such a rancid miserable week if im being honest it’s kind of funny#AND MIDTERMS IN TWO DAYS EVERYBODY GIVE IT UP FOR LES PARTIELS#AREN’T I A TOUGH NUT TO CRACK 🙏#vent
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In reference to this post; I was gonna reply in the comments but once again, it got too long, and I figured I might as well make a brief post about this because shit's interesting but the OG post was getting so long I didn't want to extend it any further. So. New post.
But I'm also going to make this a lowkey follow-up to this post, where I briefly talked about whether or not Crocodile is worthy of a redemption. Because I did have multiple people reply to it, mentioning they don't think Crocodile needs a redemption, which isn't wrong. Villian redemptions come down to personal preference (some people like them more than others generally speaking), and the specific circumstances of a character and the story they go through. (Personally, I am a fucking sucker for a good redemption story, and One Piece? Has how many redeemed villians? Kuma, Hatchan and Bon-chan? Perona too? Buggy and Mr 3 if we're generous??? I'm sure I'm forgetting someone, but the ratio is quite low is my point) The reason I want to bring that up again, is that depending on what Crocodile's trauma really boils down to (**since we don't know for sure what it is**), it could go against the very core messages of One Piece if he just dies without that trauma being resolved. And at the same time, if his trauma is what I think it is, then he can not heal from it without being redeemed. And the opposite is true as well, if his trauma isn't what I think it is, then he doesn't need to heal from it, and he doesn't need to be redeemed. I do have a whole separate post slow cooking in my drafts right now so I don't want to go too deep into that subject here and now. But the point is. If we want Crocodile to open up and be vunerable and heal from his shit, it means he's either getting a redemption arc or redemption in death. The latter is way fucking sadder, but again, a whole separate post.
BTW quick apology but I figured since there's a bunch of shit in this post that I've written about separately before, I might as well link to those posts for like context, so people can get where I'm coming from with my nonsense while keeping this post brief-ish
BUT ONTO THE ACTUAL SUBJECT As I have kind of mentioned before, I do think Crocodile probably has multiple layers of trauma going for him
We know losing to Whitebeard Did Things to his psyche for certain
I think it's very plausible he might've been betrayed by his former crew if he ever had one
I think it's likely Dragon didn't take too well to him transitioning
And between that and Crocodile already having tried to kill Luffy multiple times, he probably believes his son would never accept him as his other dad, especially since he already hates him.
(And I do think it's likely he might have some additional early childhood trauma based on how Oda writes these things normally but whatever that could be is an absolute mystery)
And if I'm right and those are (some of) the different layers of his trauma, then for Crocodile to open up and heal from it you'd need to do it step-by-step, layer by layer
I think Luffy accepting Crocodile would be the most important thing, above all else. Because if Crocodile loving and caring about his son is the only shred of humanity left in him, if Luffy is the only thing Crocodile cares about anymore while believing no one else will ever do so for him, then having that feeling returned is the key to getting Crocodile to just start to heal. If his son can't accept and forgive him then what would it matter what anyone else thinks? In my mind, Luffy is The Sledgehammer that can break Crocodile's walls.
But that's the first layer, the first step to getting Crocodile to become vunerable
If he does have that betrayal-based trauma, then I think finding people who would actually follow him and be loyal to him would help him heal on that front. And... This probably sounds strange, but I think Mihawk is the best candidate for it. Not just because he could be to Croc what Zoro is to Luffy (in many ways), and not just because of the Romancing SaGa 2 comparisons, but because Crocodile does already seem to respect Mihawk on some level. Like he specifically invited Mihawk to start Cross Guild with. IDK if they have like shared history before or if it's just because they're Fellow Former Warlords or simply because he knows Mihawk is strong and in a vunerable position (after losing his Shichibukai Rights) or what, but despite Crocodile saying he doesn't trust people, he seems to trust Mihawk enough to invite him. And he seems to respect Mihawk's opinions on things, like he might view themselves as equals. So if Mihawk, The Greatest Swordsman In The World of all people, genuinely expressed faith and loyalty to Crocodile... Yeah, I think that would do a lot for Croc. Especially if Mihawk found out about Crocodile's baggage and chose to follow him despite/because of it.
But if we want Crocodile to Heal ALL THE WAY. He and Dragon need to have a talk.
Which will not be easy, considdering like.
Look at that fucking expression on the panel on the right. Dragon is more than likely beyond furious with Crocodile over what he did in Alabasta. And for good reason. And frankly, I can't tell if they can ever come back from that.
(Sidenote, but this page these panels are from (from Chapter 1058) follows immidiately after the page where Buggy introduces Crocodile and Mihawk to Cross Guild, Dragon's placement on the bottom right of this page matching perfectly where Crocodile was placed in the previous page. So considdering what Dragon says and the expression he makes... Man, if there ever was a way for Oda to tell us what Dragon thinks of Crocodile without explicitly having him say it, yeah, this would be it)
And I'm sure that even if Crocodile got over whatever heartbreak might've happened between him and Dragon and just moved on... The fact that Dragon never called Crocodile and warned him about their son being a pirate, with a bounty, who might be on his way to the Grand Line, where he could stumble his way to Alabasta, where Crocodile was famous for his Pirate Crushing Heroics mind you... Yeah. Crocodile would have a perfectly understandable reason to be furious at Dragon too. He almost killed their son without knowing because Dragon never warned him, never told their son's name to him, never told his OWN full name to Crocodile.
So needless to say.
They have a lot of differences to overcome. Things they've done that they'd both need to look past, forgive and forget. Somehow. And I'd be lying if I didn't admit I'd find it damn near impossible to happen.
But can you imagine, if despite everything, Dragon still loved him? And was sorry about whatever the fuck happened 19 years ago? And didn't want to lose him again?
I think that would be the thing that would help Crocodile heal all the way in the end.
If Luffy is the first step, then Dragon is the last.
#Moon posting#OP Meta#Crocodad#Sir Crocodile#Either that or Mihawk and Crocodile actually get together#Honestly doubt Dragodile will happen because. I can not imagine Oda giving us a canon gay couple#I would literally not complain at all I would lose my god damn mind (in a good way)#I just think Crocodile has too many deathflags (If Crocodad Real). Like he's probably going to sacrifice himself protecting someone else#Probably Luffy. Maybe Dragon. He's probably gonna die is the point.#It's more likely he dies loved and forgiven than gets to live loved and forgiven#But like I said that's a whole different post I've been struggling to write for almost two weeks now lmao#Mainly because the sheer amount of deathflags make me so impossibly sad I don't wanna pick it up again jdhgkfg
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Sometimes my brain gets the words "children" and "chickens" mixed up, so it ends up like:
Children (singular), childrens (plural)
Chick (singular), chicken (plural)
Then I have to sit for a moment and think about it and remind myself it's... not that hahah
#it doesn't help that my grandmother says “childrens”#one chick... two chicken...#one children... two childrens...#am i making sense here???#the insomnia has been bad this week lads#i fear i am losing it
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I'm what the Rugrats called a 'paper-pusher' at an office job with no life and death stakes. I should not be this stressed out about going to work 😭
#This might be the biggest nothing-burger ever and I've been anxious for two weeks for no reason#Or it'll be a big battle that could end up with me losing my job#And sometimes I feel like a big baby for crying about going back into the office more days per week#But my quality of life has drastically improved since I got to work from home???#Like night and day difference! So am I really a baby for saying I don't want to make my life worse again?
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the nhs loves to gradually publish every single one of your blood test results over the span of a weekend except for your egfr. this is because they are evil tormentors <3
#:)#literally keep getting another result and it's like. oh my blood count my hemoglobin my iron levels my electrolytes#like wrdgaf because the only one that matters is the egfr!!!#i desperately need to know if the kidney damage done by the biopsy has stabilized yet or if i'm actually fucked lmao#oh but on the upside i'm officially no longer anemic because the hormone injections worked way better on me than expected ^_^#they were supposed to keep my hemoglobin at a steady mild anemia level at best#instead i'm now firmly at the lower end of the healthy range. if you care <3#i also need the results in because once they come in that means i get two whole weeks where they leave me alone#which will be the first and longest stretch of time i've not been ferried to a hospital all year#need this transplant to take place sooner rather than later because i think i'm gonna end up losing my mind#oomfies please never get kidney failure it's the fucking psychological abuse trenches out here!
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at this point i have to assume the ongoing chest pain is from living in this fucking house
#no apparent heart problem. if its somehow a muscle ache that has persisted >6 months#then its also managed to Not be from noticeable muscle damage while still lasting that long#and if its not the stress from being here then idk. cancer does show up in the family 💀#if it is just a muscle ache then i would like it to be over#but my god man. im gonna lose it#the problem with living in ur parents house is that they will make fuck ass decisions abt it#and u cant do anything Esp if ur freeloading lmao#maybe im just prone to stressing myself out like a fucking tarsir#*tarsier. but like goddddd#tfw theres a million unfinished and contributing things to a possible infestation#like. tell me why the bathtub has been unusable for probably a year now#and also theres a HUGE HOLE IN THE WALL WHERE THE EXHAUST GOES THRU!!!!!!#that they probably knew about but apparently didnt think was a concern#and when approached about 'hey i dont think (liquid) fumigation is gonna last if u dont fix this'#the response is 'thats why u fumigate every like 6 months'#NO??? FIX THIS FUCKING HOUSE?#AND THEN LIQUID FUMIGATION TOO???? AURGHHHHHHHH#anyways also have to assume its not like. actual physical environment problem#spent two weeks out of house and it persisted. but i suppose if its bad enough#it would do that...?? but then why is no one else in the house suffering -_-#either its extremely localised to my room or its straight up not that#dad keeps insisting its long covid. near as i can tell ive never caught covid#while its possible it was low/no symptom im relying on the fact that no one else got sick in the house#and when people get sick in the house i do test also. and its always negative. but who knows
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tooth pain will make u want to kys
#ive had it for up to seven months now and my dentist thinks it's bc of stress and clenching my jaw#its true im extremely tense#but i fear that coupled with my head bite malocclusion it has caused a fracture#idk what to do or how to check bc apparently fractures arent visible on xray#i dont wanna eat at all the whole day i just drink water then when i come home n try to eat the pain flares up n i lose all appetite#ive been crying about it every day for the past two weeks i feel like im losing my mind#like my dad cooked rice today i was so hungry i took two bites bit down on a seed or kernel and my chest immediately caved in#when i see my brother doing the bare minimum dental care no flossing nothing drinking only soda every day#not having been to the dentist in years never having had braces i want to cry even more#i love my teeth so much the way they look everything i cant stand that theres smth wrong with them
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paper due in 27 hrs no figures made outline yet unfinished and dopamine levels are at ZERO i may lie back and sink down into the burning center of the earth as my skeleton is crushed by pressure unimaginable
#why! can’t! i do any of the things I need to do!#i need to go over some paper abstracts and I need to write my outlined methods section. but my brain is so understimulated it won’t let me!#willow’s life#sorry for complaining two days in a row I’m just. losing it#this project has been a disaster from the beginning and the only problems that’s even semi my fault is that I didn’t work on it last week
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Tommorow I'm going back to school
Which means...
I'm finally buying myself some nachos!!!!
#I've been waiting for so long#my mother is reminding me every day to lose weight but I' the one that has finals in less than two weeks so i decide what im going to eat#tasty food#nachos#my stuff
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[crawling out of the pits of hell]: happy birfday Gu.zma.... ouaauughh [collapses and disintegrates]
#this day is off to such an insanely bad start#i'm kind of losing my mind a little bit. it's like. REALLY bad.#found out brother likely had covid and so all these new symptoms i've been struggling with are probably from that#and who knows if they'll stick around!#he's been hydrogen bomb baby coughing open mouthed everywhere for the past two or three weeks#and then we have no hot water all day and no water in general for a few hours#tomorrow will likely be the same#parents are having a new furnace installed bc our old one bit the dust a couple weeks ago#we also will not have any heating At All for the next few days but that's not much different to how its been basically all winter#and the guys installing this thing might need to do construction in my craft corner area of the basement 🧍♂️#my sister came down and helped me move all the furniture. but now everything is even more of a mess than it has been since November.#head in my hands. yeah. awesome stuff.#vent //#dandy.cmd#also have a counseling appt today and she's been useless at best and actively harmful at worst the past little while#so i am ermmm wanting to skip the appt but then i will get into trouble (yes im an adult yes i can still get in trouble)#(if ur mentally ill and say or do the wrong things + have a history of being in psych ward already... well. u can land in there again.)#idk what to even tell her at this point like. if i say anything real then she is just dismissive or mean????#idk. okay. signing out of here bc crikey i am saying far too much this morning !!!#SORRY GUZ I WISH I COULD CELEBRATE UR MADE UP BDAY. UNFORTUNATELY.... GESTURES WILDLY. YEAH.
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Irrelevant picture but, anyone who is here from AO3, I am going on hiatus for a while. 2025 has not been kind to my family and it's taking a toll. There has already been one death this year, and I now have two family members with terminal cancer. There's more going on and it's just all piled up. I need time to focus on my family and grieve the losses I've already felt this year.
I will be back and I will finish You're (Not) My Neighbour. I love that fic so much and I want to be in the right place emotionally to write the funny, dramatic, lovingly stupid ending I have for it in my head. I'll see you all at the ending, when I'm ready to get there. In the meantime though, I'll probably still be shitposting through my grief here. Lol
#2025 has been incredibly hard#i lost my 12 year old cat in january which broke my heart in a way i still can't fully comprehend#he defined every moment of my life for the past 12 years; he was my first thought when i woke up and my last thought before i slept#i fit my entire life around giving him the best life possible these oast few years as his health began to decline#so suddenly i find myself without any routine or purpose#and utterly bereft of the mortal thing I'd tucked my heart into#he is in an urn on my windowsill as i type this. just out of frame of the pic above#but i digress. January was hard enough#then in feb. the day after i had surgery my dad's childhood best friend was taken to hospital with liver failure and sepsis#he passed away two weeks later#it's been so hard for my dad. i can't imagine losing my best friend like that#at the beginning of march my sister also revealed she is pregnant. NOT goood news btw she does not have a job#and her boyfriend is the worst man alive i will not get into it here but i hate him#and she shares a room with me bc we are limited with space here and as i said. no job#and then my uncle collapsed and cancer was discovered to be widespread across his entire body#that one just came iut of nowhere. like he is not recovering. thats it.#and my Nana is now fighting lung cancer#which already took my Grandad in 2018#so i am not doing ok! no one i know is doing ok! i also have to move out of my house!! so my sister has room for her baby! i am overwhelmed#and tired. and i miss my cat#dogbunni diary log
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finally got a real laptop!! I can type on documents now without everything stopping
#whatever new policies the district has been trying the past few weeks have made the school “laptops” completely fucking unusable#they banned every extension including the offline document editor and adblock#allowed them again by the end of the day#banned them again#and now one in every 5 google searches gets blocked because it flagged something somewhere#and it didn’t allow you to add a different google account. so no way to ever actually get the information from the search#did i mention. that. what i had been working with the whole year was#it takes 10x longer to type because it’s so slow and every time i switch tabs there’s a 5% chance it messes up and loses everything#that was still within the range of what i considered usable#my best friend saw me trying to work on the Assignment once and he was like what didn’t you used to have two windows open at once#with a ton of tabs in each one a couple years ago?? how much worse did the school laptops get?? you should consider getting a real laptop??#anyway it’s so refreshing being able to. do basic computer things without difficulty#only issue was that i had to fix the fucked up trackpad settings. but it works fine now#my posts
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