#(by 'what you want' i mean career-wise. you know you best- if you dont know what you want it will be obvious to you rhat you dont know)

[oh-cramity-its-amity]

i love my friends so much. i feel like yesterday i had a lot of shit going on in my head and i woke up to my friend explaining things in a way that put my mind at ease. i dont feel as anxious anymore because i know i was overthinking. i think my dad said it best when he told me that he thought my wonderful brain of mine just wants to think problems are bigger than they actually are. he is right! im just inexperienced in life and half of the time im scared im doing something wrong but- HEY. i need to be more confident in making mistakes. making mistakes doesn't define me as a person!! i need to stop worrying about doing life right and just live for the sake of living and doing what makes me happy!!!!!!!

[caffeinatedopossum]

I don't know what teenager needs to hear this but the people telling you constantly that you have all this pressure on you to succeed and that what you do with your life now can fuck up the entire rest of your life forever are wrong. The only ones with the power to do that are your parents

[astroamorsworld]

Part of Fortune in the houses part 1

This is something a little different from what I usually post and I wanted to just try something new and also go down the route of lots and asteroids eventually. So, with that being said, I hope you enjoy!

What is Part of Fortune?

The part of fortune, also called the Lot of Fortune or Pars Fortuna, is a calculated point on your birth chart that reflects areas where you might find luck and success.

Part of Fortune in the 1st house

Having your Part of Fortune in the 1st house is a pretty lucky placement to have imo. You may be a naturally lucky person, and are just always in good mood, stemming from having a lot of confidence within yourself and high self esteem. These traits, on top of being naturally lucky, will attract even more good luck and opportunities your way, so you’re most definitely blessed with this placement. This placement may indicate that you have a lot of determination and willpower when it comes to getting things done, so you’re definitely a hard worker too. Your personality shines through in your everyday life so in work fields that rely on you having a vibrant personality would really work best for natives with this placement. If you want to really get the most out of this placement, i’d say you need to take initiative and persue your dreams!! If you put yourself out there you will get what you want!! (As someone with this placement, I need really take my own advice🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️)

Part of Fortune in the 2nd house

With this placement you may too, have high esteem. You may also tend to attract or create material abundance. You might find that your talents and skills translate well into financial security and that you have a good eye for things of value or things that can become valuable. This placement could also give you the ability to thrive in careers that involve finances, like accounting, investing, or sales, could be particularly fortunate for you. Success can also find you in fields utilise your creativity and resourcefulness, like entrepreneurship, crafts, or the arts. So in terms of getting the most out of this placement, i’d say develop your talents and show people your worth. Dont let them take advantage of it though. Take risks and use what resources you have wisely.

Part of Fortune in the 3rd house

With this placement, it’s possible that you have lucky siblings, cousins and even neighbours, or when you’re around them you become luckier. You’re also likely to have good relationships them too. Your education experience may have been one to remember, as you may have had a good experience there. You may be naturally smart, and find it easy to retain information, so school may have been a breeze for you. School trips may have been fun and better for you than the average ones. You are probably a good communicator, and know how to communicate in a healthy way. So this could mean that you excel in public speaking, teaching and writing. Short trips may be good for you also. So if you wanna get the most out of this placement, USE YOUR VOICE and maintain the relationships (i mentioned before) with those around you.

Part of Fortune in the 4th house

With this placement, you’re likely to have a good relationship with your mother, and with your family. Just a good home life in general. You may be in tune with your family background and culture, and take a real interest in your roots. It’s also a possibility that you may have been born into some sort of wealth, whether its from your entire family, or on your mothers side or your dads side, the point being that someone you’re related to is likely to be wealthy. You are also probably in tune with your emotions and feelings and know how to manage them quite well. Most definitely emotionally mature. You may also be a bit of a homebody, since you may love your home so much. Interior design or gardening may be hobbies or careers you want to persue. You could also excel in social care, therapy, or childcare. Working from home is where you probably do your best work. So if you want to get the most out of this placement, invest in your home and nurture your relationship with your family. Get in touch with your roots!!

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[lifeonmarz-blog]

Jupiter through the houses Pt 1

Jupiter in the 1st- Drama. They love the drama. I actually have Jupiter in my first and i love reality shows lmao i like seeing ppl fight but I dont like drama in my own personal life no thank you. This placement is also dramatic. They may lie on accident and really believe what they said. They have extra luck when it comes to the law. More grace is given to them than others.

Jupiter in the 2nd- These people break family traditions. Their the black sheep and probably argue with their family members a lot. Their very hesitant when it comes to decision making. They overextend their hand to people quite often opening their homes and wallets up, welcoming people with open arms and being taken advantage of because of that.

Jupiter in the 3rd- A lot of connections are made in this house. These people love networking and are pretty good at it. They make friends easily wherever they go. They have tendencies to be wishful thinkers and see the best in people when the red flags are very much present. They lose themselves into relationships. Usually feeling like they've taken a loss and have rebuild after it ends. They repress alot of their feelings and ignore their inner voice.

Jupiter in the 4th- The upbringing really enforced responsibility and made these people become very structured. They dont play about their deadlines. Their gonna make sure they get shit done even if that means completely ignoring their own needs. People misinterpreted them alot from first impressions. These are the type of people that surprise you once you start talking to them. They make a lot of rivals too rather its people competing with them career wise or in their love life. Competing is always happening in their life sometimes they probably dont even know.

Jupiter in the 5th- Magnetizing ASF they dont even have to speak and people will want to know them. Their aura is commanding. They sneaky as hell tho and really analyze the things you say. They might have to use this to manipulate you one day lol. Friendships are very important to them. They really understand the value of building relationships but dont get it twisted they dont mind burning bridges neither. Once they direct their desire and intention in the proper direction they are really good at manifesting because alot of the times the connections are already their.

Jupiter in the 6th- They like to have a bunch of eggs in the basket career wise but they will overwork themselves and completely neglect their health. Creating a stable routing is a challenge but they are very resilient. These people can handle failures and reject easier than alot of others and keep it pushing. Jupiter in the 6th reminds me of a Gemini one foot in one foot out and moody as hell. They can be unpredictable and have zero regard for consequences.

-Luv of marz bbbbbyyyy

[not-goldy]

But why Jimin is feeling some type about turning 30 🤔 He doesn't have a biological clock ticking to get pregnant, he's a man who according according society doesn't reach their 'expiry date any time soon, he got everything settled financially and family wise, he got supportive parents but he lived majority of his life away from them... now even if he wants to have them here he's perfectly capable to do so. He still looks dropdead gorgeous... actually older he becomes prettier and graceful he turns. His body is still young and beautiful, He already got a partner who is so understanding and makes him feel the best no matter how he looks or his age.

I don't see Tae, who's same age as him focusing on turning 30 much.. he's still having fun, dating best girls out there, all set to enjoy after he retun from MS too. Like he should..because 30 is still very young in my book lol

Biological clock to get pregnant....

Ha🤣

A. He's human

B. Different backgrounds Different directions in life

Tae doesn't have chronic backpain does he??

Tae's career is not woven around his ability to dance his ass off and contour his body into impossible shapes does he? He dances sure and he's good sure but he's not Jimin 🥴

Watch BTS Island or whatever that show was I think they talked about these things- vmin I mean.

Remember he said he hated working out but then had to learn to love it because he needed to work on his form. He said he was becoming weak- he is not just a pretty face. He is not the type of idol you'd give a mic and a seat center stage to perform.

He is Beyonce. He is a spectacle

He will always be a spectacle unfortunately

Losing weight, dieting, fixing his teeth tweaking that- can't do that all his life that's just sad if he has to😢

So he is gonna reminisce and wonder if he should keep doing this or choose a different part- as he said he did before in the past when BTS was going through stuff.

He's gonna reinvent himself take stock reevaluate and shit. 30 is a milestone I suppose most idols do that before they decide to go all in for the long ride- you wouldn't want to look back at 40 and regret certain things you know?

This is where I start ranting bout the impossible beauty standards and performance expectations yall have of him- HE IS SOMEONE'S SON NOT AN OBJECT FOR YOUR ADMIRATION

And before you tell me this idol don't do that that person don't do that- THAT PERSON IS NOT JIMIN AND YOU KNOW DEAD WELL YOU HOLD JIMIN TO A MUCH HIGHER STANDARD THAN TEHM DONT LIE

And let's not forget 30 is primarily when an Idols career is assumed to have come to an end in kpop- sure there are new trends of older idols breaking the stereotypes but let's not act like age isn't a huge part of Kpop and that newer younger, much much younger idols are popping up on the scene- they may not be as seasoned or as talented but that will not stop toxic stans perpetuating ageism against BTS.

Its very normal for an idol of JMs caliber to put some thoughts into what he wants to do with his life at this point- if the company isn't going to be any helpful to his career and he doesn't have his age playing in his favor then boy or girl he very much has a right to ponder over his age. He's human.

If he's queer and wants a family then he very much has to worry about that too. And don't be fooled, men do experience low sperm count as they age and other erectile disfunction as they age too it's not just women like they try to portray.

They grow grey hairs and they go bald 🙄

Their bodies change dramatically with age too🥲

I can go on and on but he's just human doing what normal humans do.

[the-s1lly-corner]

Fluff alphabet w/ knubbler (remake)

Remaking this because skimming through the old version some of my hcs have changed + I wanna get back into writing for mtl while the rot is here... maybe I'll do some other characters (winks)

No queue we die like men (I'm inpatient and wanna post mtl NOW!!!!(.. quickly realizing why I dont do long posts like this on mobile anymore. Not proof read we die like dethklok fans

Bonus prompt ♡ is PDA

Notes: reader is GN though this is mostly focused on general knubbler hcs

CWs: edit

Attraction

I would say hes a bit shallow but I'm a dickface shipper/j, serious note I think depending on circumstance he can overlook surface level stuff if you're charming enough! I mention in the original post that I think he enjoys feistier folk; outspoken and ready to dish it back if its tossed at them. It keeps things interesting even if it can get frustrating at times. Needs someone with humor, though

Bonding

He tries to make time for you when hes not working, he usually takes you out somewhere. Usually dinner or to the mall- hes bit materialistic and he doesn't mind spoiling you. Music fanatic, listens to everything and looooves listening to some of the stuff you're into, most definitely dissecting it too thanks to his career

Cuddling

Average older person body type, a bit on the cooler side temperature wise. VERY handsy when cuddling most of the time. Prefers to be big spoon but would not object if you turn the tables

Dates

As mentioned he spoils you, so going somewhere nice (and a bit pricy) is a common date experience. Flirting and innuendos aside, dates also double as a catch up thing for you. Again due to him working hard a lot of the time to keep up with his career

Emotion

Hes pretty level headed, though seeing him getting frustrated or annoyed isnt an uncommon occurrence. He has a pretty normal threshold when it comes to bullshit in the day to day- does get a little more emotional if hes under the influence, its just hard to guess which emotion it'll be until hes drunk

Family

Hes not interested in having children, for the most part. Hes had those fleeting "what if" thoughts, but anything more than that? No. That being said I do personally headcanon that he has siblings, who might have children of their own. Rich aunt knubbler supremacy/j

Gift giving

Again, he spoils you. A lot. He can afford it thanks to working with dethklok, and that's assuming hes not also producing for others. Even if hes not giving you something significant, hes sending you roses to remind you you're his

Harsh

He can get short when hes angry but he does try his best to reel himself in and try to find a solution, and depending on the context willing to compromise so both sides are satisfied. Naturally hes easier to work up if hes stressing out. Prefers to go to the side to cool off if things get too intense

Injury

Very similar to the old post, he reacts accordingly based on the nature of your injury. He can be a little insensitive to it, though, but like.. in. a "oh we have different pain thresholds and I kind of forget that" kind of way

Jealousy

Oh this man gets jealousy with a capital J. Want a quick way to get him worked up? Make him jealous. I mean don't becahse that's kind of shitty but. You know. Depending on the context and how the relationship as a whole is going hes either going to toss you to the side or play your game- has the "I didnt lose you you lost me" mentality, kind of gets nasty with it if you really fuck things up

Kiss

Lots of kisses- quick and light, or deep any passionate. Any kiss is a good kiss- tends to favor your mouth of course! Loves being kisses on the cheek

Love language

Guys I don't think I said this yet but he likes buying stuff for you/j

No serious notes, he listens to you. You're someone he can just talk to, no having to worry about your job or your reputation. Just talking. Hes a good listener, actually. Physical touch is another way he shows his love. Not even just sexually; reassuring and innocent hands on the shoulder or a hand steadying you on your back when you're faltering. Things like that

Marriage

Similar to having children hes never really thought about it. He doesnt strike me as the type to settle and commit to something long term, even just having you long term as a non-spouse is a change for him. He might warm up to it one day, he might not

No

A quick dealbreaker is if you put his career in jeopardy. Hes worked way too hard for this and hes not going to let it get wiped just like that. Not even necessarily getting him fired, just interfering in any negative way can put in a lot of tension

Oddity

Goofy ass laugh. Laughs at his own jokes, most of which being bad or corny. That's not even touching on his sexual innuendos. Horrid. Tomato tomato tomato

Petnames

Naturally he calls you babe and baby. Hon and honey are thrown in there every now and then. Oh he would definitely use dumber names in passing, partly because he unironically thinks they're cute and because he likes seeing your reaction

Quiet time

Well I guess it defeats the purpose of this segment being called "quiet" time but that idea earlier of the two of you just sitting and enjoying music together and analyzing it sounds nice. Outside of that the two of you can sit in silence doing something on your own. Life can get hectic, especially when one or even both of you work for dethklok

Risk

He takes risks, calculated ones though. He thinks about the pros and cons of everything before acting, and if it would be better to do it than do nothing if the outcome doesnt look too good. But that's in the context of himself and his work. But with you? Unless you're dying or in danger he tends to play it safe even if he can still come off as a douche every once in a while

Shh

He has his healthy share of secrets. Nothing wrong with that, privacy is important. If he needs to tell you something that he thinks you should know, he will tell you when its appropriate

Tunes

Maybe its because I'm going insane over these songs, and I hope you can forgive me for not linking them but:

Modern day cane and mx sinister

Both by IDKHBTFM. Less of a "you guys listen to these together/it reminds me of knubbler x reader stuff " but because the songs kind of remind me of him in general/I feel hed listen to these

Upset

He tries to work through things when hes upset, but he does separate himself from the situation if it gets too much- whether it be to keep him from saying or doing something hes really going to regret later or because he just can't deal with it in that moment

He offers to listen to you when you're upset, he tends to be unbiased so he can offer a good solution if that's what you need. He does try to spare your feelings but get ready to sometimes hear what you dont want

Wedding

Valentine

Roses, candies, and a reservation to some fancy place- something higher quality than the usual. Definitely the type to try to initiate intimacy on Valentine's

If it DOES happen, hes going all out. Maybe it's the fact hes rich and famous and he can overindulge a bit, but an expensive wedding is likely. It may not be huge, in terms of attendants though. Just friends and family

Xray

Hes gotten very good at reading people over the years so good luck trying to act normal around him if something is going on. If you seem avoidant about talking, he does try to drop hints that you can talk to him

Yearn

Oh this man yearns, both innocently and not so. He copes well enough between the times you are apart or see each other less

Zzz

Snores in his sleep. Has a long routine. Sleeps like a sickly Victorian person; on his back, head tilted backwards, arms sprawled across his torso. Primarily sleeps on his back, though, maybe you can cuddle into his side

Bonus prompt ♡

Looooves PDA, always holding you in some way. If the setting is professional he will keep his hands to himself. Does not mind showing you off, either

[jamietarttownsmyheart]

idk if anyone’s said this yet but “midnight rain” by taylor swift is lowkey a colinjamie song. “he was sunshine” (colin) “i was midnight rain” (jamie)

YES YES YESSSSS OMG YES YOU GET IT

first, i wanna apologize, i took way longer answering this than i expected, real life caught up with me, but!! midnight rain and colinjamie!! you are SO correct anon.

(unrelated, you're on your own kid is a jamie song)

but back to midnight rain, i mean, im really interested in your thoughts anon! how are you interpreting it?

one way of looking at it i think could be a canon compliant au of sorts.

I was making my own name Chasing that fame He stayed the same All of me changed like midnight

like just this part? football is an escape for jamie, its a career for jamie, but its the same for colin!

but we can go deeper for both. jamie and football is complicated. for one, he loves it, he's amazing at it, he dominates, when he plays, he's jamie fucking tartt. but what is it really? he didn't grow up privileged, he didn't grow up in a stable environment. he grew up with a mom who wanted him to be happy and a father who did everything he could to make sure jamie wasn't. and its complicated because jamie playing football was what made him happy, and he wanted his mom to be proud of him. and then his dad comes back in the picture, and he wants jamie to play and jamie wants him to be proud but its a different want--its a want that one)every child has for their parent to be proud and 2)the hope that if james tartt sr is proud maybe he'll lay off.

football is something similar to colin. he loves it, but it also has brought him grief--after the team in Cardiff got relegated, he did face backlash from his family--like his grandmother for example. it also has the potential to bring more grief, as sports (and football) do tend to have a homophobic fanbase irl, and its been implied that colin is into men, and while a sexuality isnt confirmed, the implication that he is at least attracted to men is there (unless the grindr comment was incorporated as a joke, which, im hoping the writers didnt do it just for that) leading room for more pain.

there is also the third point--Jamie has the makings of being great, while Nate tells Colin that he does not. (chasing that fame/he stayed the same)

I think an au where fwb colinjamie happens pre-ted lasso's arrival is interesting, as one, it would be a secret, as both colinjamie have reasons for it to be, and two, you said midnight rain and now im thinking of the conversation of wanting to become official (albeit still secret) sort of contributing to the (he was sunshine/i was midnight rain) where they end things instead.

timeline-wise, it could be like:

jamie comes to richmond--jamiecolin fwb but end it after a month--jamie+keeley meet--rupert/rebecca divorce--ted lasso arrival.

except see, i dont want to go that route bc i dont want it to come off as keeley being the rebound. she is not. its so clear that keeley means something to jamie, and that she did when they were dating too, although jamie himself admits that while the feelinsg were real and there, he probably was not at the best mindset to act on/say the words/take accountability. that actually is true for jamie's season 1 arc--he has many moments in season 1 where you see the potential, to change, the want to change, and the way he actually does make attempts to be better. you see the softness his father tried to get rid of come out--but those moments are quickly overshadowed by jamie doubling down on "dominating" immediately after (or being sent back to man city right when he was trying and making progress and trusting--believing) because his father is very much still a heavily involved force in his life, and no one cares or knows.

so instead like. maybe theyre not fwb yet. maybe its an almost, but neither are ready to take things forward, so they stay friends-ish. maybe canon events happen as they do, but during s2, is when things get tricky.

timeline wise:

jamie comes back and is gradually accepted------jamiecolin fwb---james tartt sr----no weddings and a funeral--jamiecolin lets make it official convo but jamie asks for some time bc he wants to sift through his emotions, talk with his therapist, and give a proper response (he told keeley he loves her, and he did, he does, but that doesnt mean he's pursuing her, or wants to pursue her, he just wants her to know she meant something real, and now he wants to be able to give colin a real answer too, because he wants colin to be something real, colin is something real, he needs to know how to say it)---he loves colin omg he loves colin---tells colin----Richmond is promoted.

so all that^ but with jamie's internal monologue during his talks with his therapist its basically "he's sunshine and i'm midnight rain"

[persephoneflouwers]

Thanks Angie for your reply, I appreciate it! I’m the pill anon (lol). To your questions what I would say is: yes, you have to be very stupid to have unprotected sex with a random American girlie. Or very intoxicated, or very troubled. Which he might have been all of those things, and that’s fine, he was entitled to make mistakes and be stupid even if he was in the biggest boyband in the world, that doesn’t make him immune to mistakes. If I remember those times in 2015, it’s not that farfetched to assume he might have been in a state of mind to do a stupid thing like this. Or maybe the condom broke and she lied about taking the day-after pill? Who knows, but we know now she’s a trump supporter hungry for fame, so…

When I said he might be trying to make the best out of the situation without us knowing, I meant in reference to all the bullshit we had to endure 2016/2017 like the pap walks or all the bs from Brianna and family (the staged picnic still haunts me). For what we know of Louis, we could assume he might have tried to stop it, create boundaries etc, but we don’t know the context in which those conversations where had and how much he had on his plate. The first years might have been VERY tough on him because 1) Brianna’s family is a mess and has very different beliefs from his, which must have not created the best environment and 2) what was going on with Jay (and then Fizzy) forced him to be in the UK most of his time, and coparenting with a person you dont like who lives across the world must not have been easy. In this specific context, I do think he must have tried to make the best of it, because for what we know of him I still believe this is more likely than for him to be faking it.

I would also argue that being a dad publicly did nothing to his career if not damage. I did understand the potential need (and commercial value) for a stunt like this closet-wise in 2015, but only if it would have stopped at rumours or if a denial of paternity came right after the birth. At this point, more than 7 years in, there’s clearly no commercial value to perpetuate it if it was a farce. It’d be actually a considerable cost for anyone who’s “sponsoring” this. Who’s paying the ‘actors’ involved? Louis? Why, to keep his closet safe? He has beards for that. Sony? Why would they still pay for this, to damage Louis? There are infinite ways they had to do so much more cost-effective (see: radio ban). Like, who would pay for something like this? I just can’t imagine anyone being willing to fake something like this. If you want to share your thoughts on this I am more than open to know what you think might be the dynamic.

And yes, I strongly agree with your last comment. I just believe he’s a good person, you know? It’s painful to see such a huge portion of his fanbase being so categorically “either it’s a stunt and he’s an asshole for dragging it for so long, or he is a dad and he’s asshole because he’s been a shit dad” which I mean, how do people even feel entitled to make assumptions on what kind of dad he might be? On how is life was these past years? Yes everyone can have opinions on what we are presented but maybe it’s not all black and white? Maybe we don’t *know* everything like we think we do? I just wish there was more chill and compassion in assessing the situation.

Anyways, thank you for the civil conversation, I know it’s a shitty controversial topic and my thoughts are definitely the minority around here, so thanks for listening and replying to me ✨

So many questions there… I kept answering in my head with the same answer and nobody would like it. I think the troubled guy character could have been possible if it wasn’t fake and manufactured. The party boy, like they call him, was purposely built out of nowhere and I know this because all the boys were manufactured and they’re entire images were painted on them with very talented brushes. They were (and are today) the products of a detailed marketing project imo. That’s why I can’t believe in “mistakes”. If it was a mistake, the so called oopsie baby, why haven’t they ever tried to put the rumours at rest? Usually a mistake is something you don’t want people to find out? A mistake is by definition something that went wrong and you are supposed to fix it. At worst, you pretend it has never happened lol but they pushed it and pushed it and pushed it. This baby was H I S baby even before he was ever conceived lol

I wont comment on the neglected child. I’m definitely not a supporter of that narrative fans tell themselves like it’s either fake or he’s a shitty father because it’s silly and makes really no sense for me. At the end of the day, we won’t ever know the truth so I don’t see what’s the point in fighting against each other. We should collectively agree this is SNAFU and call it a day hahah

[luciferinvoker]

how are you doing, dear?

who is my future spouse?

personality and appearance, pls.

- E

2 Of Wands: Discovery, Making Plans/Taking Action 9 of Cups: Comfort, Indulgence, Emotional Stability

Personality wise, they for sure feel well put together. Possibly a little more "left brained" and logical- organized could also be a very good term for them. I can imagine them to be hard worker and hold the desire for great things- and they have the steps to achieve these things mapped out in their pocket. But yet, theres some hesitation? Some reluctance? They might be prone to overthinking and over complicating things. A lot of "what if's" that could be delaying them on their progress. If theres such a thing as being too prepared- they're probably the example of that. This might come up in a conflict you'll have to also deal with in your future so be weary

They're also likely to be someone who doesnt like to stay still? I dont mean this in a hyperactivity sense..Perhaps jumping between careers could be an example of this? (Not necessarily that they will be a career hopper but more so…not knowing what they want?) I do want to restate the logical personality aspect but still prone to some form of daydreaming. Going one way but then peeking over the neighbor's fence and slamming the wheel the opposite direction to join them on their "course" but still pondering over the original direction? (that was a mess of sentences im sorry lmao)

The 9 of cups can be a positive card but for me it always carries around a sense of smugness- overconfidence- taking things for granted. Not that it's presence here is automatically bad but perhaps something you might run into in the future with them. It's still a nice card! just a reminder that no one's perfect? I don't sense greed being a major factor but they're likely to a person who enjoys things. This could be material possessions or successes and achievements in general. Probably a person who loves to be praised lol

Appearance wise... I'll be honest. I'm not sure tarot/myself is going to be the best relayer of that? If anything, both representations of the cards in the rider waite decks (most commonly drawn from) portray them as men with short brown hair but imagery widely varies from whatever deck someone uses. (The occult deck i use portrays them as Ipos and Foras- A bird demon and a strong demon bodybuilder lmao) so i dont think i could give you an accurate sense with that.

Thank you for reaching out! I hope you are doing well and this was helpful!

[cilis-readings]

hi there! hope you're doing well :)

would you please do a reading on a recent career event? ive been planning to leave my current job for a while now and have started to work on applications and visa documents to leave the country next year. however i recently was offered a huge opportunity at my current job, which would be amazing career wise but would mean i have to keep living in my current country/region for another year (which is really difficult for me). i dont want to ask for the 'correct' answer since i need to figure that out myself, but i wanted to ask for a card on what I should consider and think about when making the decision!

thank you and sorry for the long ask! my password is my current favorite song is 'one hundred years' by the cure :)

hello! no need to apologize for the long ask :) here’s what i pulled for you!

deck: the angel guide oracle by kyle gray

card: harmony and resolution

i hope you don’t mind that i used an oracle deck to answer this, i just felt like it would give more substance than tarot cards for some reason. the harmony and resolution card is telling you that your spirit team is with you and they’re helping you resolve this conflict, even if it feels like you’re going through this alone! they are helping guide you towards what’s best for you. trust that you’ll figure things out with their help soon, you know deep down what’s right for you and what you want to do, you just need that push from your spirit team to help you solidify that decision!

[onyxedskies]

hi var sorry for hijacking i just wanna talk about this (i’m agreeing with you dw)

the music world is, inherently, very elitist. only the best of the best have a shot at making it in the music world, and everyone knows that, meaning that from a fairly young age musicians begin to give up hope. many people drop it the older they get, fall into the trap of comparing themselves to others, end up judgemental of those who are “bad”. i think this is a trap that a lot of artists fall into, regardless of what your craft actually is.

but because of this mindset, people forget about hobbies. i’ve seen this a lot, especially with artists; competition gets in the way of you having fun, of you enjoying the craft the way you were meant to. because when you start young, maybe start to consider a career out of music, all you can think about are comparisons.

except when you come back when you’re older, that kind of goes away. i’ve watched several older people in my life begin to take piano lessons in their fifties or pick up a guitar for the first time in their sixties. and looking at these people, taking a step back and realizing why they’re doing it, everything falls back into place: music is an art. music is an expression of creativity; it is an expression of humanity. these people are picking it up for fun; so what if they’re not the best, so what if they wouldn’t make it professionally; that’s not the point. it’s a hobby; it’s supposed to bring the hobbyist joy, nothing more.

so yeah! dont be afraid to jump into something or pick up a new skill just cause youre older than average! being older than someone doesnt necessarily make you better, nor does learning from someone younger than you make their advice worth less or make you less wise. have fun! take lessons! do the thing you always wanted to do; take that leap of faith, and don’t let people who are subconsciously absorbed in competition take the fun away from you.

fred is making a huge deal about how rvw was a student of ravel even though he was *gasp* two years older than his teacher!!!

and i'm sitting here like. i'm pretty sure i've been older than all my viola teachers. sometimes ppl start a skill later in life. it's not a big deal for a younger person to teach an older person idk. fred's weird.

[blackgirl-galactica]

MOON SIGN MAGIC ✨🌛🌠 (Part 2)

Hey yall!!

I'm back with the second half of the "Moon Sign Magic" Series!! This post will just contain the remainder of the moon signs, just like part 1!! You all seem to like this series! I'm glad I could help yall understand and teach, even if it is the basics!!

With that said, let's do it!!

Libra Moon:

A Libra moon may be emotionally passionate about protecting others. Libra is all about being considerate of how others feel, since they do represent the 7th house (7th house= relationships with others). This moon placement may also have alot of friends in order to feel emotionally comfortable at least like to do alot of activities with people to process. They also can be a therapeutic force towards others which is therapeutic for themselves! A Libra moon is a placement of someone who is like the "mediator" of the group( that is more exhausting than it sounds honestly 🙃) so remember to put yourself first sometimes Libra moon! Someone with a Libra moon may have a mom/women in their lives that are very easy going, have many friends, very aesthetic/pretty (Libra rules Venus), and/or may be lawyers or passionate about law and fairness (Libra are represented by the scales, which is about justice and fairness).

Scorpio Moon:

Ooooo this is my favorite moon placement I'm sorry yall!!! Scorpio moons are you guessed it, emotionally intense. Yet, this is a Pluto ruled moon placement we are talking about. Pluto goes through intense, painful transformations; so sometimes a Scorpio moon may go through super intense emotional processes, but they also come out stronger and better in the end. Why? Because Pluto is the planet of rebirth, like a Phoenix rising from the ashes. That is exhausting idk how the fuck yall manage 😭😣😥. This moon placement may also withhold how they really feel at times because they want no one to pry. Not to say they dont want help with their emotions, but sometimes no one can really understand the intensity of a scorpio moon, or at least they think so, but sharing may be a pleasant surprise scorpio moon ☺️. Someone with a scorpio moon may have a mom/women in their lives that are very private. They also may have a very deep bond with their mom/women in their lives. Since Scorpio rules 8th house themes, this placement may also have a mom who shares alot with them (8th house = joint materials) or be into the occult (8th house= the occult). Unfortunately this isnt always so positive, as a scorpio moon may have a mom/women in their lives who may think they're weird (Pluto = taboo/abnormal) or be very reactionary towards them :/.

Sagittarius moon:

A Sagittarius moon may come off very happy go lucky, joyful, and all around pleasant. They're also very expressive of their emotions. As this is a Jupiter ruled moon, this placement may only like to deal with the positive emotions (Jupiter= optimism) and try not to deal with the negatives, yet that's not how it works sag moon 😂. A sagittarius moon may also become emotionally wiser as they grow older (Jupiter = wisdom). Since Jupiter is also the planet of expansion, the emotions of a Sagittarius moon may know no bounds, which is something they must be aware of, but that doesn't mean that's a green light for yall to invalidate their emotions niether 😡. Sagittarius moon need emotional FREEDOM, they just need to know the time and place to do so. Sag moon may also change their emotional perspectives by travelling to places they haven't been and get different perspectives. This also contributes to a sag moon's wisdom. A sagittarius moon may have a mom/women in their lives who are free spirited, very wise people, happy go lucky, and also love to travel with their children. Since Sagittarius also rules law, religion/belief systems, and higher academia, I wouldn't be surprised if a sag moon would have a mom/women in their lives that are pastors, lawyers, professors, or spiritualists.

Capricorn moon:

This moon is in its detriment here. Detriment means a planet is placed in the opposing sign of what it rules (Cancer-Capricorn are opposing signs). A capricorn moon may not necessarily feel emotional warmth unfortunately. This placement is methodical about their emotional processes, yet they must understand emotion and logic are two, separate things. It's okay if you feel a little icky and dont know why, just let it flow cap moon. A capricorn moon may also be emotionally connected to their social status as capricorn rules 10th house themes like social status. The higher and better the status, the better they're off, or at least that's what they may feel. Similar to virgo moon, a capricorn moon may feel best when at work or working on their career (Capricorn = career path) or doing something business like. Referring back to the emotional warmth point, since Saturn rules restrictions, a person with a capricorn moon may have a mom/women in their lives that may make them feel emotionally restricted or dont listen to their emotional needs (*hugs capricorn moon because I care about your emotions at least cap moon 🥺*). A capricorn moon may also have a mom/women in their lives that are career-oriented or care alot about their social status/prestige (unfortunately sometimes at the child's expense). On the flip side, a capricorn moon may also have women that can help them advance in their careers!

Aquarius moon:

Another moon placement that is methodical/rational about their emotions. Aquarius is traditionally ruled by Saturn so there would be similarities, yet like cap moon, remember emotion isnt logic Aqua moon ☺️. An Aquarius moon may like to process their emotions doing humanitarian work or being around friends (Aquarius =social groups) like Libra moon! Aquarius may feel at peace fighting for the greater good or being involved in community activities! Also, since Aquarius rules tech and the internet, an aquarius moon may play alot of video games or vent on the internet on Reddit (just an example lol). Since Aquarius are also inventive, they may create a project and put their feelings into that project, esp if it's a tech related project (Aquarius = technology). Someone with an Aquarius moon can have a mom/women in their lives who are heavy in the tech industry, may be active on social media/be social media personalities, may be very active in their communities(like a social justice advocate for ex),or may have a very original relationship with their mom/women in their lives. On the negative side, Aquarius is ruled by Uranus(being ahead of the time, osctrization) and Saturn(restrictions), an Aquarius moon may have a mom/women in their lives that may not take their emotional needs seriously or express a disinterest in them, similar to cap moon. Yet, your emotions still deserve to be heard as well Aqua moon!

Pisces moon:

A Pisces moon may feel very connected with their emotions. Also, a Pisces moon may have emotions that run DEEEEPPPPP. This is possibly due to the fact Pisces represent the oceans, so they feel emotions so deeply. That's not bad at all, as we need more people like this (lol that's my Pisces sun being biased). But fr, this helps a Pisces moon be extremely creative and put those emotions into their projects. Since Pisces is modernly ruled by Neptune and traditionally by Jupiter(both representing spiritualism/ spiritual beliefs), Pisces moon may feel at peace when having a belief system or expanding themselves spiritually. Also, Pisces rules the 12th house themes. So it is tough when it comes to being a Pisces moon. Sometimes they dont know how they feel because they....literally dont know lol. 12th house rules loss and things we believe are there, but cant pinpoint. That's super frustrating for the Pisces moon. Being ruled by Neptune also means a Pisces moon may question their emotions alot as Neptune represents illusions, esp if alot of people have invalidated their emotions over time :/. Yet, sometimes what's understood dont gotta be explained Pisces moon!!!! LOL YOU KNOW HOW YOU FEEL! A pisces moon may have a mom/women in their lives that are very spiritual, spiritually free, and also go with the flow. Wont be surprised if they have moms/women in their lives who are pastors as well. They may have an easy going, free nature with their mom or women in their lives. Yet, being a Neptune ruled moon, sometimes it's hard for a Pisces moon to understand where their relationship lies with their mom/women in their lives; it's just downright confusing at times 🙃🙃🙃😪.

And that completes the Moon Sign Magic series!!! I hope you all learned. It's not perfect but hopefully it's a start to your learning. See you in the next post!!

-Claude

[naramdil]

Hafsa i have followed you for years and have always appreciated your beautiful advice and thought processes which led me to reach out to you since idk who else i can talk to. I basically had a good cry today because i’m 27 and still very lost career wise. Idk what i’m meant to do or be and i feel so behind in life while my friends have careers they enjoy. I just feel like i’m stuck doing things i hate for money. I dont even know if i’m meant to be anything career wise and it scares me so much. I’m currently trying to do this web development course because i know i can land an excellent job after i complete it but i dont look forward to studying it. I know i’m doing it to get a good job so i can do the things i want to do like travel, cook and my other passions. I dont think i have a passion in any career. But i also dont want to hate what i do 8 hrs a day. Idk if i will hate web development but it’s not the most exciting thing to learn. At this point, i dont have time to explore my passions and discover myself. That time has gone. I just dont know what to do now. I know this is a lot and by all means if this is something you wish not to address then i totally understand. I wish you the best 🤍

hey, I am sending you a big hug and I hope your big cry was a good release for you 💗

I'm really proud of you for finding a way to fund your passions, it's a long game for sure but I think it's a very smart choice bc being in a financially good place - putting yourself there - can end up being very rewarding, even if right now it seems like you're gonna hate it. bc in the long run, you'll have the stability to be able to then focus on your passions outside of your work, and compartmentalizing your life like that is honestly a blessing and healthy. i honestly think the idea of doing a job that you're passionate about is false marketing bc majority of people cannot and will not have that. and that's okay!! it's unfortunately the system we live in. so I feel like you shouldn't feel bad if your career isn't what you're passionate about - with a very important caveat and that is: it shouldn't be soul sucking either. so if you hate web development, and it is becoming a soul sucking thing maybe you need to find something else? (again, maybe once you actually start working in this field you may end up liking it, so no harm in giving it a shot if you haven't had a job job yet)

another thing is ik there is this mentality that if you've spent so much time on something you hate you might as well see it through and push aside what you actually want, but I don’t agree. you should not continue doing it if the only reason you’re doing it bc of the time you’ve already expended on it. that’s like staying in a relationship that you’re no longer invested it. sometimes it’s time to break up and that’s okay! like i've heard of people quitting medical school bc they realized they did all this work and it wasn't worth it for them. and even me - i started pre med, got a business degree and now am in fashion school.. so like i literally knew ten years ago this is what i wanted and it took me that long to get here but like .. here i am... truckin along lol.

so idk, I guess it's time to think about what you want and seeing how you can get there. and forgetting about society and the idea of time and what you "should have" accomplished by now etc. bc those are the things that contribute to the feeling of stuckness, and you don't deserve that at all. you're not stuck, you have agency over your life and you don't have to do anything perfectly, just what is best for you. so just give yourself grace, treat yourself like you would treat your best friend or a young cousin, you know? like you'd tell them they're wonderful and that their life will be okay bc they'll make it okay, and you need to tell yourself that too. it will be okay, it's literally never ever too late, (let me be an example of that, also there are people at my school in their 40s so honestly it is really and truly never too late to do anything!) and just give yourself some love and time and you will figure it out little by little. you've got this babe 🥰

[andromedasstarship]

in the stars - chapter 1

photo credit: @ssahotchnerr

pairing - aaron hotchner x reader

warnings - canon-typical criminal minds violence, show rating 16+ for reference. depictions of violence, stalking, murder, angst, age gap couple, drinking, brief mention of drugs.

summary - You finally meet the BAU, little progress is made in terms of the case. 

a/n - early update yay! i take a lot of liberties with movies that reader has starred in, pls dont take irl movie release dates into consideration here lol. more notes at the end 

blog rules 

masterlist // read it on ao3 here 

prologue // next chapter 

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Chapter 1 

Flights to California always took an extra toll on the team. Reid had explained it once, in a too long ramble, how the wind worked against the plane lengthening the flight at least an hour longer than the trip back home. 

Hotch was finding it difficult to focus on the files in front of him. The first photo he opened was of victim #3, with her eyes closed and face turned to the side, even Hotch could’ve been fooled that it was you lying there dead. While the rest of the team was mulling over the facts of the case, he was debating whether or not to tell the team about your history. The Unit Chief in him knew this was important information that had the potential to hinder the case; his relationship to you was too personal and his withholding of information could even turn him into a suspect. If the roles had been reversed with another member of the team, he’d have concerns over their ability to even be on the case. For now, Hotch forced himself to tune into the conversation the rest of the team was having; promising himself he’d figure out what to do later. 

“Garcia, what do we know about L/N,” Emily asked, turning ever so slightly towards the screen Garcia had just popped up on. 

“I’m glad you asked my dear Emily. Y/N L/N is totally Hollywood’s It Girl right now, it’s rumored you can’t even get a meeting with her without forking over at least twenty big ones. She’s never had a bad role in her career. Personally, my favorite movie she starred in was Mamma Mia, but like I said never a bad role,” Garcia paused for a moment, the sound of her typing filling the silence, “is it inappropriate for me to ask one of you to get her signature for-”

“Garcia,” Rossi interjected, “anything else we need to know about her right now?” 

“Sorry sir, I promise to be on my best professional behavior. But come on, remember when she swept the Oscars three years-”

Hotch felt himself detach from the conversation yet again, staring out the window as memories of the two of you flooded his brain. 

Three Years Ago 

The team had just finished a grueling case in Georgia. It was long, taking nearly two weeks to catch the unsub, in which he had managed to murder three additional couples right under their noses. Inclement weather forced them to stay another night until the storm passed, leaving them all stranded by the airport. In a turnaround way, being stuck gave them the rare opportunity to relax and bond as a team. Rather than all disappear to their own rooms for the night, they all packed into one small hotel room. Boxes of Chinese takeout were littered around the room, along with various bottles of alcohol. The Oscars were on that night and Hotch knew you’d be on the screen at some point, not wanting to miss it he proposed watching it to the team and they all happily agreed. While it was difficult with their schedules to be avid movie goers, they all were relatively familiar with the contenders for big awards such as Best Picture and Best Actor. 

You were nominated for two separate awards that night, along with starring in a film nominated for Best Picture. It had been a monumental year for you, with three separate feature films hitting theaters and all becoming major successes both financially and socially. You had spent so much time jet setting for press conferences and movie tours that you rivaled Aaron in terms of suitcase living. 

“Everyone shut up! They’re about to do Best Supporting Actress, oh I just know it’s going to be Y/N. Emily agree with me! We saw her in Little Women together, I cried. Oh don’t give me that look Emily, you cried too and you know it!” Penelope said enthusiastically, waving her chopsticks around. It was rare that Garcia ever came with on a case, but the location had been in a remote part of the state and they wanted to avoid being unable to reach her and her technical wizardry; a fact she was particularly grateful for, had this watch party been happening without her, she would’ve been so jealous.  

To anyone else, the grin on Hotch’s face would have been easily equated to the bickering going on between his friends and the effects of the few drinks he had thrown back. It was all for you though, he had caught glimpses of you on screen throughout the night and had snuck more than one glance at his phone to see the pictures of your outfit you’d sent him yourself. When the presenters walked on stage, Hotch sat up a bit straighter, his body naturally inching closer to the edge of his seat. The screen set up so the faces of all nominees and their reactions could be seen, Hotch’s eyes glued to the box you were in. 

“And the winner of Best Supporting Actress goes to…,” the first presenter started, slowly opening the envelope they held, “Y/N L/N!” The crowd roared and the camera focused in on you sitting stunned in your seat, surrounded by coworkers and friends. The team was cheering too, the liquor in their system loosening everyone up. Hotch clapping uncharacteristically loud and long even went unnoticed by the others. 

“I was right, I knew it!! I should start betting on this, you know what I bet I could hack into the system-” Garcia’s voice barely even registered in Hotch’s brain as he watched you. With one hand clasped over your mouth and the other holding your dress you made your way up the stairs and to the center of the stage. 

“Wow,” you started, eyes wide as you stared down at the award in your hands, slowly you looked back up into the crowd and continued, “I really mean it when I say I wasn’t expecting this. I didn’t even prepare a speech, I’m so sorry,” you paused again, the biggest smile plastered on your face as you quickly wiped a few tears threatening to fall, “thank you all so much, for supporting me and letting me do what I love. Thank you to my fellow coworkers who pushed me in this project and thank you so much to the fans who give me the strength to do this every day. Thank you! Thank you so much!” You ended, making your way back towards your seat. Hotch grinned as you flashed a wide smile to the camera following you, throwing a flirty winky that he knew was just for him.

The rest of the night went by in a blur. When you won again for Best Actress, you were barely able to contain yourself on stage, tears flowing freely down your face as you gave your thanks. The joy you felt in that moment was unlike anything you’d ever experienced in your life. At just 24, you had become the first person ever to win both awards in the same night. Hotch had actually jumped out of his seat at your second win, a motion that confused the rest of the team, but the liquor in everyone’s system forced them to ignore it; more glad than anything to see Hotch loosening up for once. 

After the team finally retreated into their own rooms for the night, Hotch wasted no time in texting you, asking if you were free to talk on the phone. His excitement palpable when not even a minute later your contact came up on the screen. 

“Aaron,” your excited voice came through the phone, just being able to hear you eased tension he wasn’t even aware he had been carrying, “can you believe it!” 

“Congratulations, Miss Double Oscar winner.” Even after a year of being together, his voice made you giddy. “Where are you?” He asked, unable to ignore the pounding sound of music and people in the background. 

“After party, top secret location Mr. Agent. I’m in the bathroom! Am I allowed to tell you I definitely see some residue of a line on the counter,” your voice was slurred and rushed, the energy of the moment combined with the liquor in your system causing your mouth to move faster than your brain, “probably not, ignore that. Where are you?” 

Aaron relayed various info about closing the case and what the team had gotten up to that night. When you began telling him about your night, he couldn’t help but feel insecure. Where he told you about $8 takeout meals and rural Georgia, you were talking about some of the biggest names in Hollywood and the luxury treatment you’d been subject to all night. He forced himself to focus on your voice anyway; not wanting to take this time ‘with’ you for granted. The two of you could’ve talked for hours, had it not been for Hotch pushing you to go enjoy the celebrations. 

“I’m so proud of you angel,” he said softly, voice swelling with adoration, “I’ll see you soon, I promise.” 

“I love you Aaron.” 

“I love you too Y/N.” 

When he finally hung up, he leaned against the wall with a sigh, running his hands through his hair. Relationship wise, it had been a tough year for the two of you. With your schedule busier than you’d ever expected, it meant seeing each other in person was nearly impossible. In good conscience you refused to take him away from Jack on the rare weekends he had off. Instead you’d fly in whenever possible, the two of you spending low profile nights together in fancy hotels or his house if Jack was away with friends. It was excruciating maintaining a relationship like this, but something about the success of the night made the sacrifices feel worth it. 

Present Day

“Look into her dating history, any exes that would want to hurt her?” JJ asked, her question pulling Hotch back into the present. Adjusting to the constant publicity you were subject to had been a learning curve for Hotch, the first time the tabloids ran a story of you photographed with some Hollywood Hunk his bad mood had the entire team walking on eggshells for a week. 

“According to my search she hasn’t dated anyone in years, or at least not publicly. I have a theory she’s secretly dating Henry Ca-.” Hotch zoned back out before Garcia could finish, having no interest in hearing or seeing whoever the media was speculating to be involved with you this time. Willing the plane to land faster, he ignored the faint voice in the back of his head that was telling him you were free to be with whoever you wanted. 

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“If you’d follow me Miss L/N, the BAU has set up in the back conference room, they’ve been waiting for you.” Officer Reynolds said, her back to you as you followed her down the hallway. It was nearly 9am and you had spent the better half of the morning hyping yourself up to see Aaron for the first time in nearly two years. You made last second adjustments to your outfit; an outfit you definitely hadn’t spent all of last night picking out because you definitely did not want to look good for Aaron Hotchner. As Officer Reynolds moved to open the door you held your breath, thanking the years of experience in manipulating your outward expressions. When four heads turned in unison to look at you, you let out a sigh of relief. Aaron wasn’t in the room. 

“This is Y/N L/N. Miss L/N, meet the BAU,” Officer Reynolds said, extending her arm outwards towards the rest of the room, “I’ll leave you guys to do introductions, if you need anything, find me,” and with that she exited the room. A blonde woman stepped forward first, extending her hand out to you. You knew who she was before she even said her name. 

“My name is Jennifer Jareau, I’m the media liaison with the BAU.” She said, she gave you the same smile all the other officers had been giving you, but unlike theirs that reeked of pity, something in Jennifer’s felt authentic to you. After shaking hands with her, the rest of the room took a moment to introduce themselves. You never thought you’d meet Aaron’s team like this. Over the years, he had shown you countless photos of the team, along with hundreds of stories and tidbits concerning their lives. Even though you knew they had probably spent the entire flight to LA looking at your life, it still felt as if you had some creepy advantage over the situation. 

“The rest of our team, Agents Hotchner and Morgan, are currently doing some research in the field, but until they return we’d love to brief you and ask you a few questions, is that alright?” JJ asked, stepping backwards and motioning for you to take a seat at the round table. 

“Of course,” you quickly replied, moving to take a seat; internally you were laughing at the irony of her asking if it was alright, what would you do, say no? Looking up at the other three members still standing you motioned for them to sit as well, “I don’t know if you’re doing it on purpose, but I’d prefer if you all sat down too,” you paused, before adding, “kinda makes me feel like I’m back at school.” They seemed to smile at that, everyone else moving to find a seat at the table. Before the silence could turn uncomfortable, JJ spoke up again. 

“Does anyone else in your life know about the murders?” 

You shook your head no before replying, “my agent knows just in case I have to go underground and my security guard is aware, but besides them and the police, I haven’t told anyone.” 

“Go underground?” 

“Uh yea, a few years ago I had a stalker. I went ‘underground’ for about three months and the guy seemed to give up. The police have already cleared him, he hasn’t been to LA in over a year,” you explained. 

“That’s good to know. We want to keep your involvement in the case completely out of the media. I can only imagine you want that too,” JJ started, angling her body towards you, “I know you’re probably more than well versed in dealing with the press, but if anyone comes up to you asking about the murders we want you to completely disengage. And of course, don’t tell anyone else about what’s going on.” 

“Alright, now that that’s settled, we just have a couple questions for you,” Emily asked as she stood up, opening up a file from the table, “so what can you tell us about-” 

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The dump site wasn’t showing any promise. Situated near a highway, the field was hidden from the road, yet still accessible by car. The constant stir caused by the speeding cars meant any leftover DNA or footprints were effectively blown away. 

“Our guy’s gotta be fit. The drop into the field is just steep enough he would’ve had to carry the body at least fifty feet to get it here from the road. He could’ve rolled it, but the bodies were too pristine to have been dropped on the ground like that.” Derek said, looking over at Hotch. The two of them were standing at the edge of the road, looking down at the now empty field. “Not only that, but this is a nice spot. Normally places like this so close to a highway are filled with trash, do you think he might’ve cleaned up?” 

Hotch was silent as he considered this, before slowly nodding, “it’d make sense if he did. Everything we have concerning his treatment to the victims post mortem has been nothing but affectionate.” 

“Do you think there could be two unsubs?” Derek asked, when Hotch looked at him with mild confusion he continued, “All the victims were strangled to death, ME report assumes it was by hand. It takes a lot of strength and persistence to kill someone by hand like that, not only that but it’s intimate, he’s staring them in the face as he kills them. The level of care displayed here seems way more than just remorse.” 

Hotch took another moment to consider Derek’s proposition before shaking his head, “we’ll keep it in mind, but it’s clear whatever connection he has to L/N is personal, at least to him. These women could be failing to replicate some part of her personality and in his rage he kills them. But when they’re silent and unmoving, their likeness to L/N lets him fall back into the fantasy, hence the care.” 

“We should start heading back, Reid just texted me they’re almost done with the initial briefing with L/N, and we should meet her before she takes off for the day.” Derek said, putting his phone back in his pocket before turning on his heel to head back to the car. Hotch’s shoulders tensed at the idea of seeing you, looking back at the field once more. Giving the field one last look, he felt a shiver run up his spine at the idea of finding you in a field like this. Shaking the idea out of his, he turned to join Derek in the car. 

Hotch took the driver's seat, glad to be able to use the road as a needed distraction from the impending face to face. The drive was only twenty minutes, but Hotch didn’t think any time would truly be long enough to prepare himself to see you again. He found himself wondering if anything would be different from the last time he saw you. Did you still smell the same? You had always been quite adamant about your preference for scented lotion, rather than perfumes. What if you completely changed your hair? Were you worrying about seeing him as much as he was? 

“You think she’s gonna be easy to work with?” Derek asked, breaking Hotch out of his mental spiral. 

“What do you mean?”

“Y/N, you know, “Hollywood’s It Girl”,” Derek explained, “if she’s as in demand as Garcia said she was-”

“While we work this case Morgan, I expect you to conduct yourself appropriately,” Hotch interjected, his voice tight, “we treat Y/N the way we would anyone else, do I make myself clear?” His eyes not leaving the road at all, knuckles tight around the steering wheel. 

“Crystal,” Derek responded, raising his hands up in mock surrender. 

As they turned into the parking lot, Hotch scanned the parking lot before finally noticing your car parked in the back of the lot. You used to always park as far as you could, constantly complaining about how people in parking lots stressed you out and you wanted to be able to drive in and out as easy as possible. The corners of his lips turned up, ever so slightly, thinking maybe nothing had really changed for you, at least in that regard. 

“You go ahead, I’m just going to send a message to Jack real quick,” Hotch lied, pulling his phone from his pocket. Derek nodded and got out of the car, quickly entering the building. Hotch put his phone down in his lap and gripped the steering wheel once more. You were one of the few people to ever wind him up this way; it had been like that from the first day he met you, as if you managed to make him melt under your gaze. Five minutes, he would give himself five minutes to pull himself together before letting the Unit Chief in him take over. 

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“I’m sorry, I just, can I take a break,” you asked, looking up at the agents who were still grilling you about facets of your life you never would’ve considered relevant, “I just need to get some air.” Without really waiting for permission, you were pushing back on your chair to stand up. Slinging on your thin jacket you exited the room, heading for the entrance of the building. The agents had been kind, but you were starting to feel a bit useless. Each time they had a new theory, you came up short in terms of material for them to actually use. They kept reassuring you that what you were able to come up with was helpful, but you weren't convinced. 

You had been in and out of this office so many times, your body went into autopilot as you made your way to the entrance, not even pausing to look up as you started to push open the door. What you missed was the distinct outline of a body pulling the door open at the same time. The added force made you stumble, nearly crashing straight into the man on the other side. Brown eyes met yours and you both froze, uncertain of what to say before speaking at the same time. 

“Y/N.”

“Agent.”

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a/n - wow wow! things are gonna start moving in the next chapter, i promise. the response to ‘in the stars’ so far has been so heartwarming. ive said it before, but this is my first fic and i cant even fathom that people are actually interested in what im writing. your support means the world! im trying to get stuff written before university starts up again, but i dont want to nix quality for faster updates so if updates slow down im sorry! comments always appreciated. leave a reply or ask if youd like to be added to the taglist! if you requested before but arent added, just ask again i mustve missed it on accident 

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[thevirgodoll]

Do you have any key advice for college and how to maneuver as a black woman? I really wanna have a fun year but I don’t want to end up a horror story and I’ve never really had my own freedom like that . Thanks!

Your College Guide!

Remember health and academics come first, that’s what you’re there for. If you are overexerting yourself to be social, be sure to lighten the load. You don’t have to say yes to everything.

Parties:

•Party smart. If you go to parties, go with a friend. Make sure it’s a solid friend that won’t leave you, especially if you’re drinking.

-> If you decide to drink, watch your drink, if you set it down then don’t pick it back up.

-> Don’t cut the fool at every single party because you never know who is watching. Have a good time but keep a balance you know?

-> You dont always have to drink at every party, but if you do, do it wisely and correct.

-> I’m 21 so I can speak more on drinking. Pregaming makes parties more fun, that way you don’t have to drink what they have available because you already had a lil sum before.

-> Wear shoes that aren’t nice to parties/clubs because the floor is filthy and sticky with alcohol chile.

-> I’m hoping y’all aren’t partyin with the virus lol!!! WEAR YO MASK AND SOCIAL DISTANCE..

Friendships & Social Life:

•Easiest way to make friends: join clubs / organizations, start conversations with people in lecture, live with roommates in a dorm (freshman year)

•If you are living with roommates, make a plan before everything and make an agreement — things go way easier. Resolve conflict when it happens. Don’t wait it out.

•Make sure you still make an effort with the friends that you had before now if they’re solid.

•Grow your social circle but remember that people are acquaintances, not best friends. You should only have so many best friends, not a whole football field of them.

•You will meet all kinds of people especially people that have no home training. Don’t be so quick to call everyone your friend and cut people AWF if they play with you.

Academics:

•Get to know your professors! It’ll help you a lot and it gives you some networking for real.

•Read ahead before your classes, it really helps.

•Learn the study methods effective for you.. rewriting notes, recording lectures and replaying them, sticky note the textbook...whatever works!

•Download the Forest app when you need to be productive. It blocks your apps while “planting a tree”! So cute.

•Avoid imposter syndrome cause it will happen — which means you don’t feel like you deserve to be where you are, doing what you are doing. Ease up on yourself and don’t be so critical.

•Always be strategic about your course load.

•Summer classes are actually the best so, don’t sleep on summer semesters.

-> Take use of your university’s counseling center.

-> Career services as well if you need advice.

-> Keep in touch with your advisor, and if your advisor isn’t all the way there then have someone that will help you.

-> Writing Lab if you need it

Personal Life:

•Be mindful of your plans, be discreet. Do not go around telling everyone what you want to do or achieve. Like I said in another post, privacy. Discretion is key to everything. People should know OF you but not intimate details.

•Don’t be messy, don’t go on social media subtweeting or anything corny like that.

•Don’t post everything on social media because again, people watch social media. Some on campus jobs want to see your social media.

-> Sometimes, delete social media off your phone. Having such an emphasis on it isn’t healthy. Understand this!

•Get adequate rest. That’s so important and don’t stay up worrying or studying, it won’t help you.

•Guard your heart. It’s okay to have fun dating, and keeping your options open, but not every person you decide to chill with has your best intentions. Keep your standards and keep your boundaries. Don’t sacrifice those for anybody.

-> Be safe. Know who you’re sleeping with if you decide to do that. Don’t think sleeping with someone will make them commit either because that won’t happen.

-> Don’t just give it up to anybody. Especially frat guys or athletes. Trust the vibes you receive. Don’t just tolerate anything from anybody.

Girly Things:

•Consider birth control, even if you’re not active.

•Have a pampering routine to wind down and relax from everything, including the social life and the academics.

•Have a yearly planner, have a journal/diary, have a to do list.

•Mental health and mindfulness come before everything.

•Take pictures and look cute — even if you just going to Walmart I dont care start looking cute just for you!

•Remember that you matter and all of these things, such as friends, grades, etc. do not define you.

•Most people change their major during college, so if you do it’s not the end of the world.

•It doesn’t matter if you take longer than some people to finish — as long as you finish. Things happen, if you have to take a medical semester or a mental health semester, you are not failing. Your health always comes FIRST. Despite what people think — it’s health THEN academics.

•You can have an amazing time while also learning as much as you can. These things aren’t mutually exclusive! Your college experience is really what you make it! Be wise about who you surround yourself with, make intuitively led decisions, and keep your mental health and self image in tact above all else. Many people are putting up a front at college and things aren’t always what they seem. Don’t compare yourself, worry about your OWN stuff, and keep it pushing!!! 💕

Remember you’re the baddest on campus and walk around like you know you are!! Carry yourself like a lady, and always be gracious. I wish you an amazing semester full of abundance! If you need anything, send another message!

XOXO, TheVirgoDoll ❤️

[lostininterest]

ASTRO OBSV.

yo I’m tipsy living my best life i don’t even know if this makes sense but here it is🥰🥰

🌺Sun square natal ascendent transit = low self-esteem (appearance wise) during the period of the transit?

🌺moon in the twelfth escapes emotions by making up scenarios, and with sun in virgo writes a lot of them and can be very private about it

🌺moon and sun in sister signs makes the most amazing people or the worst people fight me

🌺Pluto square ascendant=anti-social

🌺Neptune in the houses shows where you have a hard time keeping in touch with reality ex: 5h neptune dont want to see problem in relationship, 6h neptune have a hard time keeping a sleeping schedule/ routine in general and it makes you very unhappy so once you know where your neptune is it’s easier to prevent loosing touch with reality

🌺Uranus in your chart is where it’s weird in your life ex: uranus in the 4h weird family dynamics

🌺moon in the first can be viewed as a reassuring presence for other

🌺whatever house your mercury is in you can’t shut up about that subject

🌺capricorn/aries combo can do anything they put their mind to, they can be selfish but that’s because they are living for themselves

🌺sun in the fifth house were/are in a sport/theatre/art/etc. team and they were/are the main star like a captain or the main role

🌺pluto in the 3rd house thinks a lot and they go deep in their thoughts but have a hard time expressing them/ are very private about them

🌺pluto in the 11th house dont have/need a lot of friend

🌺look up your midheaven for career interests

🌺moon in the 5h if also in a earth sign (esp.cap.) have a hard time having fun and letting go but they crave it

🌺your ascendant can also be seen as what you came to learn/balance in this life, “the path of the soul”

🌺mercury energy (Gemini/virgo) needs to be careful how they deliver words to others because they can be really mean in the way they say things

🌺fire signs love being loud and when they have no energy they often act even more hyper for some reason

i love yous, take care of yourselves, bye💜