#(and well ok I accepted liking girls before accepting I was trans) (but still)

[senkayro]

still thinking about that time I went to some lgbt support group (which was actually more like a meet up for queer people that happened every tuesday) that I was esp interested in because I heard it was mostly genderqueer and I was just about to start testosterone- but everyone there treated me so weirdly. I tried to start a few conversations, only to be brushed off, and the ones I had were stiff and I felt I was making them uncomfortable and so I felt uncomfortable and stressed out so I left.

but it's fine, a bad day, I was tired already, I'll try next week, since there is supposed to be an integration party with card games and shit. and the next week I finally managed to introduce myself. and it's cool! I have a few conversations and there is this one dude who is also trans and I tell him how anxious I was last week, and-

"oh, yeah, sorry, some of us had bad interactions with radfems so they can be a bit sus"

and I'm fucking staring at him like

"haha, what do you mean???"

"well, you just look like a lesbian, haha."

I didn't come back

[snakeredbirdbatkatana]

Clone baby AU TimKonBartCassie

Part 1

"Don't be mad."

Tim is more than aware he might not be the most sane, he also is more than aware that sometimes he does things that can be considered rage inducing or morally wrong but he can't say he regrets his choices.

Especially when she's seven pounds four ounces and just holding her makes him ready to burn the whole word down.

A perfect blend of him, Kon, Bart, and Cassie which oddly enough was extremely difficult to do since as it turns out genetic sequencing which is already absurdly complicated gets even worse when you add two more people.

She's perfect.

It was a spur of the moment decision a nightmare that drove him right back into the center of his grief.

He was staring at his previous cloning calculations and for a moment he was so incrediblely selfish.

He wanted a piece of his friends proof in a way of how deeply devoted he is to them. Something that no matter what couldn't be taken from him, something he could love unconditionally.

In a darker part of his mind he admits that the baby, his child who is incredible could have been just his and Kon's a half kryptonian but in his experience that is still too mortal.

But combined with a speedster and demigod he might have just made an unbeatable weapon. Not that his little girl will ever be that, he won't allow it.

"Tim is that a baby?" Kon gasps.

He only had held her for five minutes the greatest thing in the word had only been alive for ten minutes before he raced to titans tower holding his precious cargo.

All of them, the other parents? His friends sitting peacefully watching some program completely unaware of what's he's done. Not that it stayed that way for long.

"Is that Luci?" Bart asks.

All of them turn even Tim completely shocked his entire explanation that he had been planning for the last few hours gone with one sentence.

"Bart do you know this random baby? Also Luci what kind of name is that? Tim why do you have a baby?Cassie demands trying to sound stern but everyone can tell is beyond confused.

Bart who had gotten up walks not an once of speed the calmest any of them have ever seen, over to him a soft smile directed at apperently Luci although Tim agrees wth Cassie it's a weird name and not what he was planning.

"Our son, and Luci is a nickname, and if I'm right Tim just spent the last twenty four-ish hours creating him."

Before he can comprehend half of what Bart just said. Luci?

Is being cradled head perfectly surported by the speedster along with soft cooing from said speedster looking so natural as if fatherhood was created just for him.

Finally he finds his voice.

"Daughter, but Bart is right she's ours."

A giggle interrupts the cooing before a smirk paints Bart's face.

"No it's definitely son but it will be a good few years before he's able to voice that specific issue, not that it's much of an issue with all the money your daddy has isn't that right little lightening?"

And once again Bart is back to being absurdly attractive holding their child that Tim is getting a feeling he had prior knowledge of. Who also is trans? Maybe? which is completely fine of course but back to the whole Bart clearly knows something.

"Imp, ok I get the whole Rob made a baby with our DNA thing. No offense but I'm not exactly surprised Sunshine, your crazy we love that about you, but Bart why are you talking like you already know them."

Kon asks sounding very tired which Tim is a little offended by, he's not crazy.

Also how dare he be so accepting of Tim's cloned child as if this is Tuesday and Tim does this everyday he definitely does not, he's not Batman well ok maybe a little bit like him but still.

Wow Tim is way to sleep deprived if this is his inner monologue right now.

"Because I do. Lilith right? That's the name you had in mind apperently he doesn't actually mind you going with that for now since in his own words it inspires his much scarier name. God I love that kid."

Tim blanks.

He swallows throat suddenly really dry.

"Bart did you go to the future?"

He is trying to process but is now very scared is a time line fractured? Could his child not exist, and nevermind the whole Bart apperently already has insider info on the child his child that Tim just made ten fucking minutes ago.

"Oh no nothing like that."

He laughes out as if Bart hasn't been sitting on life changing information for who knows how long. Which is also extremely hypocritical of him considering secret child and timeline shenanigans that he was just panicking over.

"Our wonderful, gremlin, of a child ran into me actually some evil rouge with Time Travel powers which was a whole thing."

He pauses clearly rejoicing in some memory of their child that again Tim you know his mother wasn't privy to. Even though Tim is a man which would make him Dad but he created the baby so he should have been the first to have fond memories.

"I went to interrupt said fight not knowing and your child, yah Robie he was hundred percent your child, threw a DNA test in my face told me to get out of his way and absolutely demolished the dude before who I believe and I am just speculating here, was your brother's kid grabbed the dude and threw him into some weird portal before vanishing."

Tim is gonna lose his fucking mind his baby who he just created.

Grows up to be a superhero which alright not surprising, but also apperently one of his siblings has a child also not surprising. But they apperently travel through time together and cause chaos how fucking lovely he is starting to feel really guilty about everything with Bruce.

Oh my god he has to tell Bruce. But first.

"Which sibling?"

He doesn't actually know what's he's hoping for maybe Dick's kid yah, a sunshine child, chaotic but nice yah that sounds like a good influence. On once again his twenty minute old son? Daughter something? Whatever baby.

"Well based on the guns, and arrows that were floating around. You also can't forget the helmet I would say that was Arsenal and Red Hood's very own precious bundle but Luci wouldn't give me a straight answer but what would you expect when we raised him."

Tim's tired very tired he doesn't even stop himself from face planting onto the floor. Everything will make more sense after a nap a very long nap.

Oh my god Jason procreated is his last thought before he falls into a nightmare filled sleep.

[pepper-makes-art]

relavity falls stans, graunts, n friends

oK THEYRE HERE NOW AND NOT JUST FIDDLEFORD!!!

fiddleford can be found here!!!

i wish i could've done more sketches but im a bit busy atm </3 will def do some on the weekends though!!

on the au:

instead of taking place in 2014, it takes place in 2024 now! which doesnt rlly change much outside of appearances and slang lol.

bold is what their au name is

stanford (ford) <--> dipper

pretty self explanatory! i feel like stanford'd be an x-men fan, hence the x patch on his shoulder lol. also yes, dipper is a trans woman here. and she has glasses bc fuck dude i hate drawing regular eyes.. i thought the design looked a bit empty, so i decided to make that cool glove thing ford had dipper's robot hand thingy!

stanley (lee) <--> mabel (mason)

stanley now wears a hat. hoorah. nothing much to say here besides him also smuggling shanklin in (w/o the knife unfortunately). mabel's still impersonating her sibling (who, before the portal scene, doesn't know that she's a girl now) under the name of mason, but has ultimately shed her sibling's fashion tastes for her own. mabel wears a turtleneck UNDER the suit bc she doesnt feel heat apparently!

candy <--> wendy

candy's now a 15 yo asian kid who took up the cashier job under grauntie bc she needed more extracurriculars and the experience. totally cant relate to that haha. wendy's now a 12 yo mischievous lil lumberjack who's best friends w/ stanley (i thought it'd be interesting since theyre all now still associated w each other) and who has ALL the middle school tea (which is A LOT)

grenda <--> soos

as much as i want the ages to line up relatively (haha get it.), i think it'd be funny if mabel just hired a bunch of teenagers to run the shack (not sure what to call it). grenda's the 15 yo handy(wo)man who has the voice of an angel and the golden mentality of "smash with couch"! soos is now a friendly n equally naive 12 yo who's best friends w stanely (yada yada) and who somehow always solves problems

on dipper and mabel (will be using he/him for pre-transition dipp):

hoo boy. i see SO many ppl arguing abt their relationship, and i just gotta say, i can tell who has siblings and who doesn't! (joke. thats a joke. mostly) anyways, theyre good siblings!! up until high school, where after drifting apart somewhat, they have a big argument abt where theyre going in life - dipper wants to go to insert rlly good college name and become a scientist while mabel, well, she doesn't know where she wants to go. unbeknownst to them, while theyre fighting, their parents are also fighting. suddenly, their parents split, and mabel is forced to live with her mom and dipper with his dad, far apart from each other. dipper (wearily) accepts this while mabel silently resents dipper for his submission

dipper attends his dream school but is unhappy in his schooling years. afterwards, with his 12 phds or whatever the hell, he goes to a quaint town named relativity falls... mabel becomes an artist of sorts, taking commissions n such, but finds that this doesn't exactly lead to profit. she then becomes a sort of con(wo)man and psychic in attempts to capitalize the strange. she DEF doesn't get into as much srs trouble as stanley did back in his day, but she still lands herself in hot water from scamming and stealing across state lines...

im tired rn so lmk if yall wanna hear more lol.

[yukurie]

Ok! So Danny has their living body that is 100% physical but can still use some ghost powers and then they have their ghost form that for all intensive purposes is closest to their “true self” yeah? Based on pure emotion, instinct, and thought processes, etc that make Danny who they are as a person right? These two forms are often depicted as linked in a fundamental way where if one gets hurt the other does as well should Danny change, what if that also reflected on Danny’s internal self views? Here comes my whole idea, Danny is transfem and this kinda starts to reflect on their forms starting from her ghost form and since the two are linked her living body starts to follow

(sorry I know transmasc Danny is the common interpretation of Tran!Danny but I’m not transmasc and don’t wanna step on any toes or say anything offensive, it’s not my experience so imma base it off of me and what I kinda want for myself sorry)

Basically Danny (at least for a while) doesn’t notice anything (she’s been a little busy after half dying after all) and neither do Sam or Tucker at first, until Danny starts to get used to her new ghostly self and starts accepting that thats just part of who she is now her ghostly body starts to act on another thing in her mind that she isn’t fully aware of or is aware of but tries to push down: her body going through masculine puberty doesn’t feel right, she hates it, she steals glances at the girls around her even Sam and Jazz and has itches of envy before she pushes them down. This had been going on for a while before the accident but now that she’s already learning to accept what she is now and all the other hectic things going on she’s been too stressed to fully suppress the thoughts and in her limited downtime she can’t quite squash down the feelings like she used to

Her ghost body, the body that reflects who Danny truly is without the restrictions of flesh, begins to act on those thoughts slowly which Tucker and Sam notice (and eventually Jazz when she learns of Phantom and Danny): her ghostly hair begins to be a bit longer every time, her frame just a bit smaller, her shoulders a bit less broad, her hips a tiny bit wider, etc etc. At first they think Danny learned how to mold their body and was trying to widen the gap between the living body and the ghost body but when they bring it up Danny just laughs and says “I wish I knew how to shapeshift” before brushing it off, they ignore it for the time being until they start to notice similar changes to Danny’s living body: her hair has been growing faster than usual, Danny is seemingly an inch or two shorter and overall just smaller, Danny even starts to occasionally complain of waking up with full body soreness even after a couple days of not fighting ghosts and of abdominal cramps, she starts having occasional mood swings as well.

Dannys very body is being effected by the ghost half and is reacting accordingly, her hormone levels are shifting and her ecto is changing her very bone structure to make her more feminine and maybe even eventually going so far as to change her fully as if she had never been her agab at all!

[stilljuststardust]

I’m a 15 years old girl and my parents are very homophobic

Today my mom made me sat down because she thinks that I wanna turn into a boy and she told me for my old sis to also come downstairs to talk about it cause they found it weird mind you they’re very religious

After my big sis came downstairs my mom started talking about how I act like a boy when I’m a girl also that God made me a girl so why would I try to change into a girl and also said that if I keep acting like this she would take all my electronics

And send me somewhere else where I won’t see her and my siblings ever again

I’m crying so much because I did everything to change myself to become normal like others straight but nothing works and I found out that I want to be a boy I tried everything like manifesting being a man nothing it working and circumstances keeps getting worse and worse till the point it making me depressed like maybe I’m stuck this way maybe I will never be a man

I’m so scared cause she said if I don’t change I will not have access to phone I’m having a bad breakdown rn idk what to do anymore I’m so lost

But part of me still believes I’m a man no matter what

Hello, before I give you LOA advice let's talk

You ARE a man. You are a man. You are a man.

You are a man no matter what.

You don't have to do anything to be a man. It's who you are deep down in the pit of your soul. You already are a man.

Not just in an LOA sense, I'm saying this from a non-manifesting perspective: you are not a girl.

You will never be a girl, you never were. Do you understand that? Who you are as a person is a man.

I'm like you.

It's ok to be a trans. Being trans is normal. Half my friends are trans, I'm trans. You aren't alone, you aren't the only one. There is nothing wrong with you.

Firstly I would like to say, always always always prioritize your safety and well-being.

I know it's easier said than done but the closet exists for a reason. It keeps us safe. Do not come out if it would put you in danger. You do not have to be out to be valid.

I hate that my advice is to fawn and pretend to be something you're not, but its safest sometimes.

It feels so far away now, but there will be a time when you are free to be who you are. You will find people who support you. You will find people who are like you. When I was in your place 18 felt so far away and unreachable, but it's not. Freedom will come. Please hold on.

Link to The Trevor project. (Councilors and hotline for queer people who are struggling mentally)

Loa

At the end there will be a handful of LOA posts I think you should read/you might be interested in + subliminals for you. The most important one in my opinion being the one I list first.

The law gets over complicated alot. At the end of the day it boils down to this.

An assumption, though false, if persisted in will harden into fact.

An assumption being something you accept as the truth without needing evidence and persistence meaning you assume regardless of what the 3D shows you.

Essentially, you decide you have your desire and you are stubborn in that decision.

It's ok to feel intense emotions, it's ok to be scared and hurt and frustrated, you just have to assume that no matter what the physical world shows you you are undeniably biologically male.

There is no more advice to give, there is only the law. Assume, affirm, persist.

The posts

How I manifested my dream life with extremely hard circumstances (blushydior)

If it's too long a read (seriously I think you should read the whole thing either way) here's the parts I thought would benefit you the most

What you need to know about loa

How to ignore the 3D

Nothing is true until you decide it is

It's ok to feel like shit

Loa checklist

Subliminals and affirmation tapes

Revise past negative events

Desired body

Mind over matter

It's done

Your desire is a fact

I keep getting results

If you need motivation

@loasuccessarchive

[dailydegurechaff]

I wanted to know how do you interpret Tanya's gender. After reading chapter 58 of the manga i got the impression that she is definitely trans coded, but maybe thats just me

Very good question.

To be honest, when I think too hard about Tanya’s gender (and sexuality, for that matter) it gives me brain worms. Fun brain worms, but brain worms nonetheless. I can’t explain it. Everything she’s got going on is complicated as shit there’s way too much to think about.

Like, she was a man, but now she's a girl. But at some points she says she still sees herself as a man internally so is this MtFtM? How does that work. And if she accepts she's a woman now, is that just MtF or do we add more letters. More importantly: Was Being X being Transphobic or being the Greatest Trans Ally of All Time with the free divinely issued sex change.

Ok ok, jokes aside. Confession: I actually do not keep up with the manga, so I had to go find the chapter and read it first. Having read it now though, I see what you mean.

The conversation she has with the Salaryman/herself in that chapter really does read as essentially saying “I’ve accepted who I am now.” It’s a far cry from a much earlier part of the manga I remember where she has a breakdown about being a man/people seeing her as a girl.

A friend of mine was actually showing me stuff from more recent chapters of the manga (don’t know which chapter tragically, but I know it’s not currently translated to English) and from what I gathered of it, Being X was showing Tanya a dream of being back in her past life and in response she basically demanded to go back to being Tanya immediately. It is definitely not just you, I 100% see the trans-coding you’re talking about.

As for my personal interpretation of her gender, I touched very briefly on it once before, but I honestly think she wouldn’t want to label herself as anything. At first, this is out of hesitance and not wanting to acknowledge that anything might be ““wrong”” or ““different”” about her. Later on it turns into character growth, more along the lines of, “I don’t need the label to define me, I just am what I am/like what I like. I don’t care about it any more than that.” Yes this is 100% projection on my part. No, I won’t apologize for it lmao.

Of course, that's entirely my own headcanon. I definitely am not saying it’s the only way to interpret her, it’s just my personal thoughts. Especially since my opinion is subject to change on a dime depending on what I’m reading/working on myself. The Tanya gender is, in fact, transient, shifting like water.

Like. A transfem Tanya fic that focuses on her adapting to life in her new world and coming to discover she doesn’t actually hate her new body? I’d totally read that. I’ve seen a few fics that include that as a part of the narrative and those scenes of acceptance were among my favorite parts.

I get the feeling this is the route that the manga is going as well. It’s a bit of a shame that we don't have those aforementioned scenes in the light novel (or at least, I don't remember them), but I don’t think that Carlo Zen really intended that to be the focus/narrative in the first place. And honestly, I also think that’s a good thing because it allows for so much more room for interpretation and headcanon around Tanya’s character.

Anyway, the other direction is also compelling to me. A transmasc Tanya fic where, after feeling uncomfortable and hating how feminine he looks for years and years, he finally goes ‘Fuck this, I’m gonna go back to being a man’? I would read the fuck out of that too.

Could also be paired with him finally choosing to defect, where they think about it like, ‘Well there’s nothing to hold me back now, right? I don’t have to maintain appearances anymore. Also, since I’m defecting this would be a great way to hide myself. They’d all be looking for the wrong person. Two birds with one stone, how efficient.’ …Now we’re getting to fic ideas I won’t ever get to so it’s time to move on I think.

Semi-related to the Trans Tanya Concept, this actually brings me to a bit of a lore/headcanon/idea/question I want to present to the public for opinions. In Norden, during the inciting battle of the war, Tanya uses magic to “dope up” so she could enhance her strength and reaction time and kill pain. I took this to mean she used a formula to synthesize the narcotics/adrenaline hormone/whatever else directly into herself, right?

Can you see where I’m going with this? As long as you know which hormones to make, how they’re made up, and what quantities you need… Well, don’t you think magic HRT is completely possible? Of course, as I'm not sure it makes sense for Salaryman to have known the detailed specifics about it from the modern world, it would require a lot of in-universe research/science advancement for someone to actually do that, but theoretically...

The magic system in this universe has so much potential to be explored, I’m fascinated by what you can theoretically do with it. Although, this is long and off-topic already I think this should be the end, lol.

I think I talked too much? I’m sorry, you were probably not expecting such an answer. I told you, Tanya gives me brain worms (mental illness).

I guess the TL;DR is this: that kid definitely ain’t cishet.

[starrylayle]

have you considered that maybe you projected a bunch of stuff on tonks that wasnt there and reading further into the books simply proved you wrong? (for example, the fact that you say she hates being called dora, when what she says she hates is her full name, nymphadora). not every woman has to want kids and be married, but why should tonks have been that woman when she wasnt intended to be so, your own sterotypes on her "type" of character aside? because you liked her?

ok first things first -- you're right about one thing -- Tonks wasn't written to be a queer character. Like at all. I don't think jkr intended anyone in the hp series to be queer,, not even dumbledore (that was definitely an afterthought lol). Any reading of queerness is subtextual no doubt.

That being said,, queerness in media, especially children's media, before 2010 is almost always subtextual. It is very difficult to find any canonical queer characters in 90s/2000s children's media. Queer ppl are still gonna read these books however. And a lot of us relate to a certain 'type' (as you put it) of character -- usually ones that are 'different', don't conform, etc, etc.

A lot of queer hp fans saw themselves in Remus (ostracized for his lycanthropy aids metaphor -- which is not a very well done metaphor but i digress) or Tonks, in her disregard for femininity, tomboyish ways and spunky nature.

Now the problem I have with people saying that we can't headcanon characters who have stereotypically queer traits is --- well who would u rather we headcanon as queer then? It's unrealistic that every single person in the harry potter universe is a raging cis heterosexual -- thats just not how life works lol. Sometimes people will say, 'hc some one as queer that's not a stereotype'. Ok would you rather me headcanon ron as trans? Hermione as a lesbian? because i can provide analysis' for those readings too. But then the argument would be,, 'there is nothing queer about these characters you're just making shit up'.

What I'm trying to say, is that these questions feel like a trap. If we headcanon characters who have traits that alot of queer ppl have the argument is 'you're just stereotyping!!!' If we headcanon people that have traits that aren't especially common with queer folk then the argument is that we're 'just grasping for straws'. The only correct answer in this scenario is to not headcanon anybody as queer for the sake of not hurting cishet ppl's feelings.

also i just wanna add that tonks is not the only tomboyish character in the series!! We have Ginny, the girls on the quidditch team and probably more that I'm forgetting -- plenty of str8 tomboyish characters to go around lol.

I think you'll find that queer ppl aren't as obsessed with queer headcanons as u think -- we just want representation. You'll find in a lot of fandoms that centre around queer shows like the owl house, heartstoppper, our flag means death,, people generally just accept the sexualities presented to them because there are already canonical queer characters in the show.

[our-aroace-experience]

ok so here's my ace/arospec story

ace:

i learned about being ace

oh i don't know

12 years old maybe

i searched it up after reading about it online

"aroace definition"

it went something like

"being both aromantic and asexual"

i searched up

"aromantic"

"asexual"

at first i thought it was a bit strange

i hadn't learned yet

to distinguish

between romantic attraction and sexual attraction

because i didn't know

people actually wanted sex

people actually saw someone and went

"wow"

"i want to fuck them"

i had a crush on a childhood friend of mine

at the time

(a guy. i am a girl.)

i'd always assumed i was cishet

grew up in a conservative christian household

slightly offtopic but honestly my parents were great

not stereotypical conservative christians

both allies

they had friends who were trans and gay

i'd checked out queer media from the library

and they were fine with it

anyway

back to the story

so since i had a crush on the opposite gender

i assumed ofc

i was cishet

well ofc i wasn't into sex, i was just a kid

but at age 13

almost 14

i was alone

in a hotel room, no parents, on instagram

that's the only time i could get that

late night phone time

when i didn't have parents around

i found @i.put.the.ace.in.disgrace on instagram

scrolled through every fucking post

on their account

and on the #asexual tag

i related to those posts

like

a lot

a suspicious amount for someone supposedly allo

even though i was just a kid

yeah maybe i'd grow into it

maybe i'd feel attraction one day

but not now

and who the hell was going to tell me

what i could or couldn't identify as

so i tried out the ace label

spent hours and hours

wondering if it was right

if i was really ace

if i wasn't too young

but going back to being allo felt wrong

so i decided to keep the label

the first person i came out to

was an online friend

they were so amazing and supportive of it

i love them so much for that

they said i'd been on their gaydar for a while

(a message i still think about

when wondering if i'm really ace)

felt sick the next day

i'd always been an ally

supported my queer friends

arospec aspec trans homosexual i supported them all

but it made me sick

to think about me

myself

being queer

it was sort of rough

but i got through it

later

came out to my friend and her mom

they were cool about it

i knew i'd be safe

they weren't ecstatic or super happy

but they accepted me

"cool"

that's what they said i remember it

i was a hot mess that day too

stuttered over all my words when trying to come out

and they still accepted me

i love them

later

i decided to hint at my identity to my mom

talked about not liking sex

i checked out a few ace books

from the library

my mom took me aside

i don't remember her exact words

it went something like

"it's natural to be curious

but you can't be ace at 14

you're not trying to be

are you?"

ofc

i managed to convince her i was allo

had to be more careful then

arospec:

i'd only had one crush.

one crush who i'd liked as a friend first.

you see where this is going, don't you?

well

i didn't

i'd heard that aces had not very many crushes

so i assumed i was just Really Really Asexual

and i couldn't be aro hahahaha

i'd been in love before!

aros cannot be in love!

oh by golly i was wrong

i started questioning

(only one crush?

my friends are all over their crushes

plural

and i've only had one??

maybe i'm not as allo as i thought)

i debated over gray-aro and demi-aro

picked demi

it described my experience more accurately

came out to aforementioned friend

then aforementioned online friend

they were chill about it

(fucking love them)

then i 3d printed a black ring

and a white ring

ace

and aro

and this is maybe the best part of the whole experience

i had friends who were stereotypical conservative christian

queerphobic

they complimented my aro and ace rings

and so did my mom

and that made me really happy for some reason

shit that was a long ask im sorry

thank you for sharing! i hope your mum comes around to you being aroace one day

also side note: this reads like a poem it’s so well written!

[newtthetranswriter]

People change a lot in two years

Word Count: 2604

Paring: Platonic!Baji x trans! reader, Platonic!Mitsuya x trans! reader, and implied tension between Kazutora and Reader

Summary: Three delinquent kids, Kazutora, Baji and Y/n. Everyone thought it was weird for the girl to hang with the delinquents but hey they couldn’t stop her. They were some of the closest friends, well until Kazutora went to Juvie. After losing her best friend to juvie, Y/n finds herself in the aftermath. Kazutora was not accepting the new Y/n he was faced with.

Warnings: Spoilers for the Valhalla arc if you haven’t watched it yet, Mentions of death, stealing, Pah-chin being sexist, Kazutora is crazy but I love him, reader is written as afab transmasculine

A/n: Hello everyone, welcome. So this is a Trans reader fic, the reader is afab transmasculine. I wrote it because I want to see more trans reader fics out there and that’s kinda the point of my blog so I figured why not. Also I wrote this with the thought of them being closer to 17-18 so let’s say the Shinichiro incident happened when they were like 15, Ok. Any who, I hope you enjoy and remember to hydrate or diedrate. Requests are open. 

    It was rare to see Kazutora without Baji or Y/n, they were all extremely close. If Baji was getting food you can bet Kazutora and Y/n could be found causing trouble nearby. Sure, many people found it odd that there was a girl hanging with a couple delinquents, but once they saw Y/n throw the first punch when someone threatened her friends they understood. Y/n would fight for her friends no matter what. That’s one of the reasons Kazutora liked having Y/n around, she didn’t care that they fought or stole a snack here and there, they were just kids having fun. 

   Y/n was even there when Toman was formed. Sure there was some protest from Mitsuya because he didn’t want to see her get hurt, not that he thought she couldn’t fight, and Pah-chin because he thought girls should stay out of gangs. But when Baji stood up for her saying that she would fight for any of them, Mikey agreed that having Y/n in the gang was fine. After all, what's one more person in the gang, they were trying to make a new area for delinquents and needed as many people as they could get. 

   With that Y/n was an important part of the group, helping to take down Black Dragon and helping Mitsuya design their jackets. Even with the added responsibility of helping run the small gang, which at the time wasn’t a lot, Y/n still found the time to cause trouble with Kazutora and Baji. Which leads us to the night of August 13th, Kazutora had a plan to get Mikey the best birthday present ever and was ready to get his two friends to help him out.

   “Come on guys, everything will be fine. We go in get the bike and give it to Mikey. As long as we’re quick and quiet no one will know it was us.” Kazutora explained his plan to steal Mikey’s dream bike from a local shop.

   The two sitting across from him looked at him skeptically, before the girl of the group spoke up. “Tora, I understand what you mean by saying the only way kids like us get bikes is by being giving one or stealing one, but this is crazy. We can’t just steal a bike and think Mikey would actually thank us for it.” Y/n was having a hard time believing their friend would appreciate them breaking and entering to get him a bike.

   Kazutora turned to Baji hoping his other friend would have a different response, but the short haired boy just looked down at the table. “Are you guys serious? Mikey would be so happy and we wouldn’t have to give him rides everywhere anymore. You guys want to make Mikey happy, right?” He continued to reason.

  “I’ll help you, Kazutora.” Baji finally said, though it was clear he was hesitant.

  This declaration led to a scoff and eye roll from the other member of the group. “You guys do whatever you want, I clearly can’t stop you. But please be careful, I don’t want either of you to get hurt.” Y/n said, upset that despite the fact it could end in jail time for either one of her friends, Kazutora was dead set on doing this. “Just know I refuse to aid in this plan. I’ll see you guys later, I’m going home before you get any more dumb ideas.” With that Y/n went home and tried to ignore how dumb her friends were being right now.

  Next thing any of them knew, Baji and Kazutora were both in police custody for breaking and entering, along with a homicide charge for killing Shinichiro Sano, the owner of the bike shop and Mikey’s older brother. After Kazutora was sentenced and Baji was released everything changed for Y/n. 

  Y/n was faced with so many struggles after Kazutora went to jail. She would never say it but if she had to pick a favorite friend it would be Kazutora. He was always so kind to her, sure he didn’t go about most things the right way but he accepted her. Without him she would have never been friends with Baji or anyone else in Toman. Kazutora accepted that Y/n wasn’t like other girls their age, while most were thinking of getting boyfriends and make up, Y/n was brawling with guys twice her size. He let Y/n be Y/n. Losing him the way she did broke her in a way, but it also opened her mind to new possibilities. 

   Without Kazutora around, Baji stopped hanging out with Y/n as much, leaving her to get closer with the other members of Toman. She got especially close with Mitsuya, who helped her find a new style that fit her mental image of herself. He helped her get a more fitting haircut, going from hair that reached mid-back to shaved around the sides and fairly short on top. Yes, Kazutora had been there to let Y/n act like Y/n, but Mitsuya was there to help to figure out who Y/n really was.

   Around a year after Kazutora was arrested Y/n figured out a major fact about themself. Yes, I said themself. Y/n discovered what it meant to be Transgender and was fully prepared to embrace it. Mitsuya was there when Y/n figured it out, he was also there when They came out to the rest of the Toman officers. He was a key part in helping Y/n figure themself out, encouraging them to try new names and pitching in some money to help by the binder they wanted so they could feel more comfortable. To put it simply Mitsuya took Y/n in and acted like a supportive older brother.

  Finally being out and respected as who they had always been was amazing for Y/n, the only downside was one of their best friends had no clue. They had no idea how to tell Kazutora the news, it felt wrong to write a letter and just be like ‘hey by the way I’m trans and use they/them pronouns now.’ It felt too insensitive, sure they didn’t owe him anything, they just wanted him to know and hopefully he would be happy for them. So, Y/n decided they would just tell him when he got out, if he even still wanted to be their friend after two years apart. After making that decision, they had made Baji promise not to tell him in any of his letters to their friend, to which his response was that it wasn't his place.

   With the thought of hopefully seeing Kazutora again at the back of their mind, Y/n went about life. Spending time with their friends in Toman, helping Mitsuya take care of his sisters every now and then, or going out bowling with Hakkai so Yuzuha could have a break from his three hour long bowling sessions. Life was great for Y/n. Well up until the 23rd of October.

   Y/n was in the middle of getting ready for the night's Toman meeting, when there was a knock at the front door. Being the only one home, they stop buttoning their jacket and go to the door. Not bothering to check who’s out there, Y/n is met with a familiar face who appears just as shocked as them.

   Before they could say anything the person spoke first. “Sorry to bother you. I was looking for a friend but I guess they moved.” The young man said, turning away from what he thought was the wrong house.

   “Wait Kazutora, if you’re looking for Y/n, you found me.” Y/n said, stopping him in his tracks. “I know I look different from the last time we saw each other, but I was waiting until you got out of Juvie to tell you about it.” Kazutora just kept looking at this person who claimed to be his long time friend confused, sure they sounded similar but the Y/n he knew would never cut their hair and was this person wearing makeup? He was so confused.

   Realizing he was still in shock, Y/n spoke again. “I have a Toman meeting to get to but if you want to meet up after we can talk then?” They asked, realizing they need to get to the shrine soon. 

   Taking a few moments to register what was happening, Kazutora finally spoke up. “Yeah okay.” He shrugged his shoulders, hiding his disgust at the mention of his old gang.

   “Great, I’ll meet you at the park we used to hang at just around the corner in like two hours okay?” Y/n confirmed, making sure they had their keys and locking the front door. Kazutora nodded and followed them out as they got on their bike. “Well it was great to see you again Tora, and I promise I’ll explain everything later.” With that Y/n started their bike leaving a confused Kazutora. The use of his old nickname confirms that this was in fact his old friend but what changed in the last two years.

After the Toman meeting

    Y/n held back their confusion over Baji randomly quitting Toman, instead focused on explaining everything to Kazutora. When they arrived at the park they were greeted by their old friend sitting on a swing patiently waiting, just like they expected. 

   “Hey Tora, I’m ready to explain stuff.” Y/n said, completely ignoring Baji’s presents. “What do you want to know first?”

   He sat for a moment, thinking of where to start. There was so much he wanted to know, like why did you change your hair, why did you stop hanging out with Baji? So many questions, but he figured he should start simple, after all they haven’t spoken directly to each other in two years. “How have you been? You said in your letters you got closer to Mitsuya, how’s that going?” Kazutora asked, wanting to ease into conversation.

  Giving him a confused look, Y/n thought for a second. “I’ve been good, and Mitsuya is like a brother to me if that’s what you’re wondering. I also know those aren’t the real questions you have. So honestly what do you want to know? I didn’t offer to talk just so you can avoid the real questions you have.”

   It was true, he really didn’t care about small talk, he just wasn’t sure how to approach the topic. After deciding that was Y/n’s way of saying ‘just fucking ask already’ he decided to aske his real question. “Why did you cut your hair? You used to get so upset at just the idea of a trim for dead ends, now you basically have no hair left.” He asked, hoping it was a better approach than some alternative phrases that went through his head while he waited for them to show up. “I mean it looks good, I'm just confused. Also why are you wearing makeup?”

  Y/n smiled, he was finally asking his real questions. Sure it wasn’t how they thought he would ask but it was better than some responses they have gotten. “Well the hair thing is simple I guess. Having short hair just feels more me. I used to be so defensive of my long hair because that’s how I thought I as a girl was supposed to look, but after doing some searching and self-reflection, I figured out I don’t have to look the way the world wants me to look. In my search I found a term that I think fits me and how I see myself, that term is Transgender, but more specifically I like the phrasing of Transmasculine nonbinary person. I don’t identify as a woman or girl, but I also don’t fully identify as a guy, so I’m somewhere in between.” Y/n explained as best they could to make it make sense. Kazutora nodded, taking in the information. “As for the makeup, it helps me make my face look more masculine. Using contour to make shadows that make my face look more angled or sharp, helps people see me as masculine. And judging by the fact you thought I was a different person when I opened the door earlier, shows it's working, at least a little bit.” They said with a smirk.

    “I guess that makes sense and explains a few things.” Kazutora responded. “It makes sense, and I’m glad you were able to find something to help you figure out your thoughts. But on to a different topic if you don’t mind?” He asked, looking for any kind of sign to continue. When Y/n nodded for him to keep going he addressed his other concerns. “Why did you stop hanging out with Baji? What happened? And why are you siding with Mikey?” He asked, it was clear he was confused why his close friends would stop talking and why one would side with his ‘enemy’.

   Y/n just looked at him confused. Sure Baji and Kazutora had expressed over the last two years that Kazutora saw it as Mikey’s fault everything happened the way it did. But what was this about siding with Mikey? “First, I’m not siding with Mikey, I’m sticking with Toman because they're my friends and have supported me throughout my transition and journey. Second I stopped hanging out with Baji because HE stopped hanging out with me, so if you want to know that ask him. And I'm guessing by your jacket you’re probably the one who convinced Baji to leave Toman and Join Valhalla. So, before you try to convince me to join you or even sit out of the show down whenever it happens, just know that even if we were and are close I will not sit back and watch as Toman fights.” Y/n said, standing from the swings ready to leave knowing where the conversation was headed.

   Kazutora just nodded, before responding. “I know that I could never convince you to abandon Toman, I know you would never just sit out and watch. I just wanted you to know that I will kill Mikey, and when that happens just know I had to do it.” It was official, Kazutora had snapped. There were still glimmers of the kid he used to be, but killing Shinichiro and spending two years in juvie changed him. Y/n could tell their old friend was gone and there was likely nothing that could be done to get him back. “Anyway stay safe in the fight, I don’t want you getting hurt. Have a good night and I really am glad you are happy in your own skin for once.” With that Kazutora got up and left.

   Y/n stayed standing in the park for about an hour before heading back home. That night they couldn’t sleep, only thinking of the hell to come when Valhalla and Toman clash, and wishing that in some other timeline no of this ever happened. That somewhere in the universe Kazutora and Baji never broke into S.S. motors and never killed Shinichiro, that Kazutora was there when they finally chopped off all their hair or was there when they first tried on a binder and nearly cried seeing a flat chest for the first time. Y/n just wished they could go back in time and fight harder for them to not try and steal that damn bike, because maybe things would be different. 

[dotster001]

Hi omg ok so I was wondering if I could request a lou (court of darkness) x trans ftm reader and reader is feeling a bit down because everyone just assumes their a girl all the time and it just makes them feel like they don't belong in their realm even more

(Also cou I please be known as moth anon? :3)

Summary: Lou x Trans masc reader

A/N: hopefully you are still here, but you can absolutely be moth anon! Very cute, I love it!

CW: misgendering (both on purpose and on accident) masc reader, slight allusions to Lou's route...but like, you aren't reading this if you haven't read it. At least I assume not, Lou is whipped for you in every timeline

Lou is perceptive. He knows right away, no matter how masc presenting you are, that you are a man. It's cause you're soulmates 😍 So he addresses you properly at all times, even attempting to ensure others do as well.

And, as good as it is that he stands up for you...we all know that he is kind of an absent parent when it comes to his job. So, he's not always there to help you. Perhaps it's one of his jealous groupies kicking you out of the male dorms, telling you you have to stay in the female dorms. Or it's one of the professors who, by God, they desperately seem to try, but they always "forget" before bashfully correcting themselves. It's your fencing instructor that insists on going easy on you, because, well, You know.

It happens when he's there, as well. When he takes you out, maybe a shop keeper pulls out something for "his beautiful girlfriend." He's quick to correct. "I have brought my boyfriend with me today, not my girlfriend." The shopkeepers always apologize quickly, and laugh nervously, but he can see it wearing down on you.

But you have so many stressors in your life. He expects you to break down at some point, he just isn't sure when or about what. It could be anything, as his familiars frequently remind him. And he can't really blame you. Between trying to learn magic, constantly having to reaffirm your identity, being stolen from your home, and dealing with bullies, he would rather you break down than bottle it up and hurt yourself.

The day had finally arrived. He had stopped by your room to invite you on a date, when he heard soft sniffles.

He lightly knocked, not waiting for a response before letting himself in. He watched you try to compose yourself, but it was too late. He was zeroing in on you with open arms and a crushing hug.

"What ails you, beloved?" He whispers in your ear as he gently rocks you.

"I don't belong here," you sniffle.

He fights back the hurt in his heart at his soulmate saying he didn't belong here. You weren't saying it to hurt him, even though it stung.

"You belong with me," he couldn't help but say.

He heard you snort derisively, and he fought the hurt once again.

"You deserve a real man," you snarled, the word "real" dripping with anger and snark.

"I already have a real man-"

"Everyone here says you don't!" You shouted, pulling away from his grip, standing up to begin pacing.

He remained where he was, seeing that you needed space.

"What do you mean?"

"Everyone thinks I'm a girl! No matter how hard I try, or how hard you try, they never understand!" You looked at him with frustration all over your face.

"But you aren't a girl-"

"I know that, you know that, but no one here seems to know that!" You sat on your bed, burying your face in your hands. "If no one is gonna accept me, then what's the point of me being here?"

Lou stood up, and sat next to you, grabbing one of your hands and threading his fingers with yours.

"You are my Prince Charming. You are the one who taught me to feel; the one who taught me to love. And if we need to fight side by side until the end of days for people to accept that, then I will gladly do so."

By now, you had moved your other hand off your face, and were staring at him, your eyes full of doubt.

"If it comes to it," he leaned in pressing his forehead to yours, "if you never feel that Saligia is where you can be seen for your true self, I will follow you to somewhere that does."

"You mean it?"

"Of course, my prince," he hummed, nuzzling his nose against yours.

You seemed to calm down a little at that. He truly meant it. He held no attachment to Saligia, except that it was where he met you. If you continued to feel like you didn't belong here, he would follow you in a heartbeat.

"Thank you," you whispered. "I love you."

"I love you more."

[thegeminisage]

it's star trek update time. last night* we watched, well,

pics taken moments before disaster ^

sighing deeply. ok. *i'm typing this at fuck o clock so technically it was earlier today but this post will go up while i'm at work. anyway here we go:

dark page (tng):

i don't want to talk about it.

rules of acquisition (ds9):

me having to watch this after dark page must count as some kind of cruel and unusual punishment

i was hoping ds9 could make me like the ferengi. i think whoever wrote this episode was trying. dax's little pro-ferengi speech. sure. and here's this ferengi woman, fighting for acceptance and change in her own way. yeah. fine.

unfortunately i think the episode undercut its own message a little in two ways: firstly, by having kira and dax getting groped nonstop without kira getting to break any fingers. like, non-ferengi women won't and shouldn't tolerate that, but for some reason in this episode they do...? i was especially steamed on kira's behalf; at least dax didn't seem to care as much. like, shouldn't the point be that that behavior is UNacceptable, instead of "oh it's not so bad once you get to know them"? and secondly, i think the impact pel made on odo was a little understated. the only real hint we got at him seeing a new way of things vs just him trying to protect himself was him offering pel the money to start a new life with, for free. you could tell because of his acting chocies there was a lot happening under the surface - like, he's always trying to get his own ass out of the fire, but he seemed protective of PEL rather than his own interests in several scenes there, particularly ditching his bar - but we didn't get to see most of the stuff that could ACTUALLY have been interesting bc we were too busy watching the nagus feel people up and eat bugs ha ha quirky fun! now THERE'S a guy that belongs on tng! extremely unendearing. you can win me over to um. some characters. but not this guy.

i was VERY surprised they let quark and pel kiss when quark was under the impression pel was a dude. not only was it a really funny "i thought i was GAY ping" moment, it also feels weirdly...progressive...? for 1993. along with dax assuming pel's in love with quark while ALSO still assuming pel is a guy. even though they kind of ruined it later

actually, the more i think about it the more pel reads as a trans man. is it right to categorize someone as trans when really they're just trying to get out of horrifically oppressive gender roles? maybe not, but the way quark managed to be super homophobic and misogynistic to pel at the same time ("you didn't kiss me" ok self-gaslighting king) feels so much like transphobia, and the way quark utterly rejected pel because of what she (he?) IS even despite the bond and chemistry they'd formed, AND dax, also trans, seemed to clock pel pretty quickly as being Some Kind Of Queer Like Me...i am Seeing

like, pel is all, hey we can run away together! fuck gender roles, who cares if i wear clothes! and quark is straight up like I Would Care. his internalized Whatever is keeping him from being happy with someone he clicked with, whether that's for a single night or an entire lifetime. there WAS a queer theme here. it was almost more about being queer than it was about sexism, except it wasn't actually about either of those because they fumbled the landing a little bit plus i feel like some censorship was probably happening and so the whole thing wound up being muddy. i did like quark's lisa simpson stare at the end though. girl, mood

TONIGHT: tng's "attached" and ds9's "necessary evil" I KNOW IT'S AN ODO EPISODE i'm very excited

[bambirosedoll]

@bambi-disciple wrote a really good post on BS and if it really works (which ill link to at the bottom of this post), and while i have been on a sort BS hiatus for a little while, i wanted to write a little about some of what i have noticed for me?

At the time when id first run across it, the bimbo and hypno scene were still very cis, het, and essentialist. Most bimbofication material out there was heavily cishet. some the point of being actively transphobic. Hell, tbh a lot of it still feel pretty antitrans... but anyway...

I started listening to BS in April of 2021. I had heard of it before, and might have even listen to the initial release once or twice a few years before but had been a little reluctant to really dive into it. Id played with hypno before (ok, like lots), but BS seemed like it might want to be more extreme than i was ready for and very cis woman centric.

Skip forward a few years, and it wasnt until i started seeing some of the bimbofication and stepfordization creators making more gender inclusive content that instarted feeling a little more comfortable dipping my toe back in.

I am a trans woman. I went on hormones and socially transitioned almost two decades ago and in the kink scene for over three. I knew how to do my makeup and be cute and all those things, but like, i wasnt keeping up with them.

I was needing that internal drive and encouragement to be prettier. To push myself further. So for me it was less about self acceptance as a girl or submissive and more about wanting to be a better good girl. And i figured i might want to check out if BS could help.

Im one of those folks who would check all three of the boxes described by @bambi-disciple - wanting it to happen, beleiving it could happen, ans being aroused by the idea. Even with those they doesnt always mean automatic success. My mind often "stays awake" in trance, i am very reluctant to give up control (even when i think i want to and even to myself), and just a host of other issues which keep me from.being consistent or internal resistance to asepcts to the file. There have been some changes ive noticed tho:

* im much more open with my partners. Im still reclutant or shy to talk about my stuff, because i dont want them to be uncomfortable. But that might be more me projecting on them.

* wearing making up much more constantly again. Almost every day or at least when going out.

* pink. A lot more pink. And much more comfortable wearing pink. Previously it was all mostly black.

* eating healther. I now eat a lot more healthier. Salad are much more common for me. As well dried fruits and the like.

* much more casual in my writing. More willing to make typos and let them slide. More willing to just use txt speak and abbrevations and such.

* more comfort with posting myself on the interent, including a brief stint of doing porn sadly the latest stunt feom my stalker (hi stalker) wrecked the relationship with the studeo i was working with + i simply dont have the time with having to go into work and taking care of the family and home. Still it was super fun.

Those are the biggest changes ive noticed over the past couple years. I havent listen to BS for a few months rn. Im not really sure what my future plans are with it. I will prob stsrt up again at some point, but like i have a lot of upcoming things whjch require a lot of focus. It's like i have this desire to relapse but im holding back? Idk.

As promised, the post link. I didnt repost because it is really long and not under a cut and i wanted to be nice to my followers feeds. Sry. And if u have read this far you should check it out

[chrimsonfoxdon]

Ooh question, you mentioned rewatching as an adult, and I'm curious, what kinds of things do you view differently now? I'm rereading the manga after a long time too, and the big thing I'm noticing is that I have more compassion now, especially towards characters who I didn't realize reminded me of myself and not in the best ways 😂 And especially during part 1 I found myself wondering why we don't see their parents more often (for those who still have them) and who took care of them growing up (for the others).

I have felt similar!! Ok I’m gonna maybe list stuff out on what I’ve noticed I view differently.

Very long post under the cut of me rambling (again)!

1. My Opinion on What I Consider Good Media Has Changed

Starting with this one as I feel it’s a big overarching thing that’ll dictate all my other opinions and thoughts. I’ve watched, read, and listened to A LOT of other series and media since I first started watching Naruto (also you know life experience and such), so I have a better idea of what is “good” media and what is “bad.” When I was younger, I considered Naruto to be the best of the best, but I don’t think that now (as far as anime that title now goes to FMA:B it’s very good please watch it if you haven’t oh my god). It has a lot of flaws, some endearing and others… not so much. Granted that’s any piece of media. Nothing is perfect (not even FMA:B). But despite that, I’ve also learned that it’s ok to still enjoy it!! Imo it’s not all bad, I mean, we’re still here discussing it yea?

I guess the TLDR of this part is: it’s cringe but that’s ok cuz life is short and we should enjoy the stuff we like.

2. Female Characters/Feminism

I feel like, while these are different topics, they’re very linked together in how I watch Naruto now so I’m putting them together. When I was younger, I didn’t like really any of the female cast (except Tenten). I found them “annoying,” to put it simply. Sakura always chasing after Sasuke?? Lame. Ino being obsessed with her looks?? Shallow. Hinata losing to Neji? Weak. I began to think that I didn’t like those characters because I didn’t like female characters mostly as a whole (which is kinda hilarious cuz I did start making Chihiro back then who does in fact identify as a woman LOL!!). But this negative attitude towards female characters not only leaked into how I consumed other media, but how I saw myself and other women irl. Like I distinctly remember believing that a woman could never beat a guy in anything. Which is uh… not true!! And kinda fucked up!!!

Now that I’m older I just realize that kishimoto doesn’t know how to write women all that well. Imo, it’s not the girls’ faults, it’s their creator. Which is disappointing but also freeing almost?? Plus, I can now appreciate what good they do have to offer!! (I talked a little about the konoha 12 girls and what I like about them in this ask in case you’d like details on individual characters)

I think also being exposed to other fans with differing opinions and views has helped me with this as well. When I first started watching I didn’t really go online (wasn’t a thing in Cuba plus I wasn’t really interested), so I didn’t really have other perspectives to bounce off of.

Also wanted to add that there are definitely parts of the show I laughed off before but you know, just are not acceptable nowadays. Mainly thinking of Shikamaru talking down on girls/women, Neji made a rude comment about girls too (that Tenten corrected him on tho thank you queen), and some bits that could be perceived as a little transphobic (I’m not trans tho so I don’t wanna speak for them on that bit). Its viewpoints that I feel are a product of the time, but does not make the overall series bad per se.

3. Seeing Other Children as a Child VS as an Adult

Ngl since I grew up with Naruto, I feel as if I will always see them as my peers in a sense. If anything, almost like the “older kids” in school. Like I don’t know if this is a common perception, but I remember when I was like in 2nd grade I saw 6th graders as like tiny adults, but then when I was in 6th grade I saw 2nd graders as like babies. Does that make sense?? Anyway, it’s interesting rewatching Naruto as an adult and seeing my “peers” when they were younger. I remember thinking that 12 & 13 year olds were badass and cool and practically ready for the real world (I was like 8 or 9 when I first started watching leave me alone), and being amazed at stuff like the chunin exams. Nowadays my brain just kinda goes “why are we letting these CHILDREN go to war???” It’s a similar story with like the sensei. Thinking they’re so experienced and old and… now I’m the same age as them and I’m still young!!

4. Might Gai is Cringe and I Love Him For That

The way I didn’t appreciate this man when I was a kid is a CRIME. Teaching his students (and friends) that it’s important to find joy in life is SO IMPORTANT and Gai just does an EXCELLENT job with that!! He strives to be a source of light for the people in his life, and to show others it’s important to smile and laugh from time to time. It warms my cold dead grownup heart what can I say. There’s a line in OG Naruto after Lee beats Sasuke in their fight before the chunin exams, where Naruto turns to Sasuke and Sakura as their cringing at Lee and Gai and says, “actually, it’s kinda sweet how they’re all hugging and stuff!” And that kinda summarizes my thoughts on them.

TLDR Might Gai is cringe but he is free and I love him so much for that.

5. Seeing Myself in Characters I Didn’t Before

Off the top of my head, the three characters I see myself in more so now than when I was younger is definitely Choji, Lee, and Tenten.

I was never popular growing up, especially when I moved back to the US after living in Cuba. Kids just didn’t wanna play with me or have me on their sports teams, so I was purposefully left out oftentimes, kinda like how choji was when he was younger. Rewatching that part made me cry honestly HAHA I saw myself so clearly. I’m also plus size so the beauty standards he has to deal with really speak to me. I remember Shikamaru telling him one time that girls don’t have to be skinny to be pretty and I would be lying if that didn’t give me a huge amount of confidence in myself.

Rock Lee’s story has always been top notch, but as someone who chose to specialize in a path that I didn’t really have natural talent for myself it REALLY speaks to me now. I’ll be 100% honest, I was never really one of those “been drawing since I could hold a pencil” kind of kids. I liked it, but I didn’t really consider myself any good until like 8th grade or so. Anyway, there’s this scene where Lee is crying at the training grounds cuz he’s scared that, no matter how hard he works, it’ll all be for nothing and that he’ll always be a loser, and uh… had to turn the show off cuz that struck WAAAAAAAY too close to home for me as an artist with a… let’s be real, a failing art business. Anyway, he inspires me though to keep going cuz this is what brings me joy. I may take longer than most, but that doesn’t mean I’m less of a person for it.

Tenten I’ve honestly seen a lot of myself in even when I was younger! But there’s this filler episode that goes into detail on how she tried really hard to be just like Tsunade, since that was her dream since she was little. Turns out she doesn’t have the capacity to do that (not being able to do medical ninjutsu well, etc), but she finds her own strengths along the way. What really spoke to me was letting go of your childhood dreams. It’s hard. It feels like you’re failing in a way. But Tenten was able to persevere and find a new and even better path forward for herself. And that’s just amazing. I love seeing that, and it helps me feel as if I too and maybe find my path.

6. Final Thoughts and Random Little Things

I think it’s also safe to say that I can pick up on story flaws (I’m looking at you 4th great ninja war arc) and inconsistencies (how the heck does the hyuga clan work wtf). It’s a long series and nowadays you can binge the whole thing in one sitting (I don’t recommend that please take care of yourself). Back in my day I had to wait a whole week to watch the next 26 minute episode with commercials in between. Also I was a kid. AHAHA!! But again, long series, so I’m sure Kishi forgot about certain details while he was being pushed to continue the series.

Also my views on certain things that happened in the series changed based on what I know what happens later, which I find to be quite fun!

Overall I still enjoy the series, both for similar reasons as I did back in the day (Neji) and for new reasons!! Flaws and all. Thanks for coming to my Ted talk

[beanghostprincess]

I can only picture transfem usopp x nami and a semi modern au. I say semi-modern because it's based in the early '90s Early 200s.

They live in the suburbs and go to high school together. Usopp moved into her neighborhood after her mom died and her dad got an office job.

nami lives with her older sister and their mom passed away as well so they're financially struggling.

Usopp is all ready out to her family and is in the middle of her transition. She meets nami when they're moving and they hit it off fast nami takes her around the town. She's introduced to some of her friends Luffy, Zoro and sanji they like her and she makes friends.

Sanji of course falls for her drowning her in affections and flirtations before being backhanded by nami.

All in all usopp is adjusting well to her new environment and she already has friends. Nami and her start to get really close and start having slumber parties and hanging out on weekends they even made friends with the foreign exchange student Vivi all three of them got close.

Vivi starts to notice the chemistry between the two girls and teases them about it (Vivi had a very short lived secret fling with nami but all good things come to an end after she had to move back home) they both brush it off as being a joke trying to hide their blush.

But they do like each other they actually really really like each other. Nami talks endlessly about usopp to her sister. How pretty her hair is She braids it herself, she always has the nicest outfits She always wears the different color bandana like how many colors does she have?? She's just so pretty She's an amazing painter and really good at photography she carries a camera her dad bought her on her 15th birthday and- She can go on and on and on until her sister interrupts her and tells her to just kiss her already.

Usopp starts hanging out with Sanji a lot more and she confesses her feelings about nami to him. (Their heart is shattered but listens anyway) she wants to be with her I mean she's so kind and funny and tough. She's so headstrong she knows a lot about money but also the weather! she wants to be a meteorologist she's just amazing, everything about her is amazing. But she feels that she can't be with her because she's trans and she's not sure if nami actually would accept her

Sanji at this point is not paying attention to what she saying, after finding out what transgender is. So you know usopp is talking about her first love while sanji is having a gender crisis in the background so she didn't really get that much advice.

During one of their slumber parties the vibe was tense and they actually did confess their view

Usopp:......... (Getting hair brushed)

Nami:............ (Brushing hair)

Usopp:............... Can I ask you something? Uhhmm

Nami:............ Yeah I noticed the bottles, it's fine My sister used to drink a lot after our mom died too.

Usopp: no.. ugh... I'm sorry about him.....*sigh*......you know what..... Transgender is?

Nami: I've heard of it. It's when people change their gender right?

Usopp: yeah........um..... I'm.................. I'm trans...........*sigh*.... I was born a boy........

Nami: oh ....oh!

Usopp: are you mad or... .. weirded out?

Nami: no..... I'm... why would I be?

Usopp: because I like you like like you ......and I don't want to make you uncom-

Nami: I like you too like like you. Who you used to be doesn't change that. I still think you're pretty and smart and talented....uh ....

Usopp: .....I feel the same way

Nami:..can I kiss you?

Usopp: ........umm... Ok.

(Nami and usopp kissing it's very beautiful and very sapphic)

Yasopp: sweetheart can you clean out the cat box in the morn- oh sorry did I walk in on something?

Usopp: Dad get out!

later that night Sanji came over realizing that she's actually a girl and they invited her into the group along with Zoro and Luffy they were bored and they wanted to crash the slumber party

This is so cute,,, I can imagine it perfectly, honestly. The vibes are immaculate. Usopp and Nami pining over each other and,,, Nami isn't really worried about being a lesbian because the friend group already knows this, but Usopp is completely insecure about telling her she's trans because if she stops liking her for this it might hurt her so much she might not even recover. But they're so comfortable around each other,, They go to school together. They walk home together. They won't stop calling each other every day. Most of the time Usopp says the others didn't want to hang out only because she wanted to hang out with Nami just the two of them. Nami kicking her feet and blushing in her bed late at night trying to sleep thinking about Usopp when she has never done that before. Recess and lunch? They spend it with the group but everybody knows they're in their own little world.

Also, Sanji having a whole gender crisis while this happens (because... She can be a girl... If she wants... She had never thought about that....) and also having another crisis because she has this huge crush on both Usopp and Nami (I am spreading the Sanusona agenda) and they're both... Going to end up dating each other... Ouch. But as long as they're happy, Sanji is happy too!

When Nami and Usopp start dating it's just so sweet. They're so happy all the time around each other. The fuzzy feeling won't go away and yet they're still comfortable doing all those things together because they were friends beforehand,,, And they cherish stuff like holding hands and kissing when their friends are with them because they aren't that comfortable doing it in public yet, although Nami has little to no shame with these things so they always end up making out somewhere public.

Long story short, the three of them end up dating at some point because I say so and my heart is begging for it. So when Sanji has the need to come out to somebody, she does it only with Nami and Usopp at first because she knows they will understand her better than anybody else. It's not like she's in a good household right now to actually socially come out entirely and her environment isn't at all healthy. But Nami and Usopp are there to help her out.

I can't stop thinking about them offering their houses most days so Sanji can sleep somewhere else that isn't her house. They let her borrow clothes and make-up and they do all the stuff Sanji can't do with other people. Since they hang out together a lot, these two end up developing feelings for her at some point and... It's time to also learn what being polyamorous is because they're gonna need to know soon.

Also, the whole 90s aesthetic is SO them. You've chosen the best time for this to happen because I swear I can imagine them like that perfectly <33

[felikatze]

oh we were both in the trans character trenches...

ok on a separate post i can take off the muzzle and elaborate

chihiro feeling like he's "too weak" to be a man so he just rolls over and accepts femininity not as something he actually enjoys but something he doesn't have the strength to escape? feeling like his lack of physical strength, lack of physical masculinity, makes him therefore incapable of reaching manhood?

that is. SOOOOO fucking transmasc to me and it is SOLELY transmasc to me that enby chihiro hcs make me go. "well ok. i guess." but transfem chihiro hcs make me go. hwuwh. what?

like there is the point of once everybody learns chihiro's "true gender" that everybody flips on a dime to call him a boy the same way an outed trans woman will be denied femininity, and if someone makes transfem chihiro content i'm just gonna go "you do you i guess" and carry on w my life, and also the treatment of chihiro overall is definitely for sure transmisogynistic specifically and i'm not gonna deny that

(also especially with chihiro being outed in a locker room and getting killed in a panic by a man. ywah.)

but chihiro as someone naturally petitie and weak just having all this internalized toxic masculinity that makes him reject his own gender is The Fucking Transmasc Narrative Ever, especially to me, who was occasionally known as "irl anime eyes girl" before i obtained glasses. and also i'm just a wimp naturally for a variety of reasons. and chihiro having this same struggle of "i'll never be man enough to actually call myself one" just rang very true for me personally. like i also at many points felt (and still feel) like i can never truly be A Man simply because i will never be able to live up to the expectations placed on men by toxic masculinity, even while knowing full well that not all men do and that no man should have to

ok rant over. this isn't an invitation for anyone to start dang rope discourse with me. please.

edit. i remembered reblog control exists. yay.

[scarletlizzard]

Secondly, on a more serious note. I rlly wanna know your experience living in the south. I grew up in neoliberal California and Washington but fell in love w Texas this year. I’m rlly rlly considering moving there next year.

Essentially I feel like I spend SO. MUCH. emotional energy vibe checking ppl. Bc ppl here r so neoliberal and fake! You have to rlly dig deeep to know ppl’s true values. And sometimes they’ll seem cool but then switch up on u and are like surprise! And say some whack shit like “trans ppl r only valid if they pass” or make some joke ab being gay but it’s ok bc they’re “and ally and well versed in queer culture”. And I’m kinda tired of having to vibe check so hard all the time. There’s also a lack of nuance in ppl’s understandings of history theory and social justice issues. But in Texas, I noticed that 1) u don’t have to vibe check ppl bc they’ll just straight up tell u they hate u and u can just stay away from them which makes things so much simpler when u don’t have to decipher shit and 2) the progressive ppl are just all radicals!! Bc in a state where they’re the minority thought, they have to be so secure in their values that they’ve done the research!! They know the theories!! They know the TINGZ. And they’re rooted in their beliefs. They don’t just say/believe things bc their liberal parents told them to without understanding WHY. It was kinda refreshing to interact w all these ppl ngl.

I only know one person from the south (became friends bc she moved here to CA) and she said she feels the exact same way ab both places. But that she feels as though despite not having to vibe check ppl, she’s still tired bc she’s constantly swimming upstream as a radical queer TM in the south just bc of statewide politics. And always having her rights be in a precarious status.

So I’m curious ab your experience living in the south as a queer TM. Do u have a similar experience? And curious what state u r in if you’re open to sharing! This also is a deep ish q so I understand if ur not comfy talking ab it and u can just ignore this ask!!

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Where to begin! This might be a bit long, warning 😬

First off, I'll say I live in Alabama. Texas is MASSIVE. There are good areas and really, really bad areas. I'd do a lot of research into specific areas before you made a move or traveled. I visited Austin, and it was nice. It seemed very welcoming? There were pride flags in most of the bars I went to, and it was in October! (I know some will just put them out for June)

As for being queer in the South, it's honestly such a toss-up. I think wherever you go in the world, most people are going to be fake, unfortunately. I worked with this one guy at a restaurant, he was about my age, we went to high school together, he knew about my dating girls, we even hungout after work occasionally! He's super country, drives a big truck, etc. , but was so nice and treated me no different. Asked about the girls I was talking to, SO casual. Last week, he shared on Facebook a vile, hatred post against Pride Month and LGBT in general. I was shocked!

The specific area I'm in is not as bad as some areas in the state. But it's always the looks rather than them actually saying something. Sometimes, it's just not even comfortable to hold hands walking around. It's hard, and it's very weird not to be accepted. Trans people have it even harder with all the medical laws. Women's rights are being stripped. It's honestly a political nightmare here. Don't get me started on the fucking OBSESSION with Trump.

It's really not necessarily always a political thing, but a religious thing. Religion here is absolutely insane and I don't think people understand quite how serious it's taken. Just in the state of Alabama, there are almost 13,000 churches. Think about that... that's INSANE. There is a church on every corner in my town, we probably have between 10-15. My town is not that big!! Separation of church and state here is an absolute JOKE. Some truly take into consideration to 'Love thy neighbor', but others only pick and choose who they want to treat with kindness.

It's not always easy, and sometimes I feel like I'm constantly having to hide a part of me. Coming out was one of the most terrifying experiences of my life (especially since I didn't even have control over it happening), but, as I said, it's so different in different areas. Every time I feel any progression, there's always someone to take it back two steps. It's more welcoming each year, but the ones who won't accept it can be just so, so hateful.

The South is a beautiful, wonderful place to live that is truly SO diverse when you think about it. The beaches are gorgeous, the forests are breathtaking, and the food is fantastic. The people can be so welcoming, but you just have to be careful who you trust, in my opinion. At least, if anything, you'll most likely be treated with that Southern hospitality and good manners. There's only been a handful of times in my ENTIRE life where I've been directly spoken to in a rude manner about my sexuality.

This was a lot, and I apologize if it raised more questions than answering your thoughts 😅 In short, I love and hate the South. It's different every day, and I wish more than ANYTHING it was more progressive. If it was, I truly believe it would be the most perfect place to live.