#(and there is a lot to his backstory that makes him act like this)
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I get that we all love to exaggerate on this site, but this is such a weird way to characterize Strife.
For one, y'all have built up an insane amount of headcanon about Viago's "fatherly" feels towards your Rook that I just do not get now that I am playing a Crow Rook. He certainly has familiarity with you that Strife didn't, which suits the situation you'd have been in as a Crow, but base game? Lots of things are left open to interpretation, and much of it is enhanced by *Teia* teasing him, which could mean he cares a lot, or could just be Teia yanking his chain. Which she does. A lot.
Meanwhile people seem to have forgotten that for the Veil Jumper backstory, Strife isn't your "father figure" canonically. (unless I missed that detail mysteriously somewhere?) You are an adult working with other adults, and in that context Strife acts like every other older, contained, somewhat curmudgeonly, outdoorsy man who does actually give a shit about the people under his "command". He gives you a modest amount of shit for stepping out of line, but whenever you leave, he makes sure to say "don't die." Because it would bother him if something happened to you. It bothers him that something is happening to all his Veil Jumpers.
Not every character is going to act the same (it would be super boring if they did), and it's kinda weird that players are saying things like "they [the devs] really liked some factions more than others" because you feel it's easier to pattern a parental relationship onto one character vs another.
Viago, when playing as Rook De Riva: you IDIOT you were my favorite fledgling why did you have to make a mess of this now I have to jump through all these convoluted hoops to keep you safe. Teia stop telling Rook how much I missed them it's not funny they could have DIED. also your room is exactly the way you left it please come home
Strife, when playing as Rook Aldwir: Why hasn't this weird bug i kicked out of our camp ages ago died yet :|
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christmas kids
about him, who was also born on december 25th. i used to spot your face in every crowd, now i can’t even remember your smile.
— kaiser hates celebrating his birthday. no exceptions; not even for you.
cw: mentions of kaiser’s backstory, gesner being vulgar (im his biggest fan), kaiser is a meany pants, self deprecation
parties like these were a pain. kaiser stood beside his drunken teammates, while ‘all i want for christmas is you’ by mariah carey blasted for the 6th time on loop. it was disgustingly corny how he’d have to act as if he gives a damn to celebrate christmas with his co-workers. if the club owner for bastard münchen hadn’t required attendance for this party, he would’ve definitely skipped it.
to be entirely honest, he never even saw the point of celebrating december 25th. every year, the streets of berlin would be glowing with festive lights, and the halls of cathedrals would loudly ring their church bells.
but in kaiser’s dark corner of hell, his father would beat the life out of him. more so than usual— his eyes would bruise purple for weeks, and his nose wouldn’t stop the stream of red that would bleed all over his ragged clothes.
kaiser had learned from a young age, his birthday wasn’t something that should be celebrated, or even acknowledged. it was the day his scummy mother abandoned his even scummier father; it was the day trash was born. how could such an occasion even be celebrated?
with his birthday being public knowledge though, he doesn’t exactly have a choice on if he wants to celebrate it or not.
as clock struck midnight, everyone yelled out christmas greetings and wishes of good will, as well as greetings for kaiser, now a year older.
“woo! happy birthday, asshat! you’re 19!” gesner, incredibly drunk, slurs to kaiser. “a year closer to your death… in the end, we’re all just waiting for the day we never open our eyes again… oh, this is just too sad…” grim shudders, falling to the ground.
birkenstock pulls grim off the floor, and the team gathers around and very off tunely sings happy birthday to kaiser, while ness struggles to light the candle placed on top of the leftover pizza, yet to be finished.
“…happy birthday to you!” they cheer. “make a wish, kaiser.” ness smiles, holding the box.
‘what do i want..?’ he asks himself. he already has a lot more than he’s ever wanted; a comfortable home, decent company— asking for anything else would just seem… wrong.
the candle gleamed a burning red, its’ shine reflecting on kaiser’s face. the hot flames on his face, and he suddenly realizes what he wants— to be human.
that’s all he’s wanted for the longest time, why should he wish for anything else?
he blows out the candle, and they clap. “you guys didn’t need to do anything, i didn’t want to celebrate my birthday.” he lightly reprimanded. ness frowns, he was the one who had wanted surprise kaiser in the first place.
but, gesner boos at his pessimism. “don’t be a jerk, dick cheese! just accept it!” he roughly slaps kaiser on his back, kicking all the air out of his lungs. “oof..!” he coughs. “g..guh… are you sure you’re a football player? you slap so hard, you’re better suited to volleyball.”
gesner scoffs, and goes off on his rant about kaiser’s narcissism.
‘this environment… it’s hostile but, i’m still in control. this… isn’t that bad.’ kaiser thinks to himself. he doesn’t receive their goodwill; he forces it out of them, and they respond with their own form of resistance. yet, they still pass to him, no matter what. because, he’s the one in charge of this team.
“…and, you keep showing off that pretty thing you’re leaving on the hook. she could totally do better than that ‘will they, won’t they?’ situationship of your’s! seriously makes me feel bad for her…”
…kaiser wasn’t exactly sure what brought gesner to bring you up. but, bringing up your… relationship, was a bit of a sour spot for him.
he wanted to love you, you were someone he wanted to stick around for a while. you were kind, almost heaven-sent. something about you that would make him keep coming back. maybe it was the way you’d wake up early with him and make breakfast together, or the way you’d sass him and put him in his place when he was being an asshole. but, he couldn’t make up his mind on whether or not he should tear down those walls he’s built, and start over for you.
kaiser was used to restrictive environments, he thrived in discomfort. but, being vulnerable simply made his skin crawl with disgust. if it was for someone for you though… maybe he could try it. were you really worth it?
…he thinks you could be.
“it’s not a situationship, we’re just hanging out.” kaiser rolls his eyes, taking a sip of his mocktail. “plus, don’t you already have a girl you’re torturing?” he condescends.
thankfully, the party goes on without a fight starting, or kaiser’s birthday being mentioned anymore further.
and by the time kaiser arrives home, it’s already 2:30. he opens the door into his penthouse apartment.
the light is on.
he’s sure he didn’t leave the light on when he had left, there’s only one other explanation.
“s/o?” he called out.
you probably used the spare key for his apartment he gave you after much more frequent visits. did you think he was home?
“ah, hey!” you finally noticed his presence, waving hello. kaiser still had a suspicious glare on his face, his malice evident simply by his tone. “what are you doing here?”
“it’s your birthday!”
“so?”
“so, it has to be celebrated..! it was the day you were born after all.” you brainlessly informed him.
“i don’t celebrate it.” he sighs as he finally shuts the front door, dropping all his belongings on the console table.
“it’s the same day as christmas. it’s a hassle to celebrate two things.” he says the same excuse he’s used millions of times before but today, his act was getting sloppy. it’s clear by his sullen eyes that it’s more than just because it’s a hassle.
“uhuh… well, i made you a cake!���you urge him to come over. of course, it was a box set cake, but you still put tons of effort into decorating it!
what does he do? he wasn’t exactly sure on how to accept gifts in general. he passed through the narrow hall, and into the dining area.
he stared at the cake— it’s frosted in white french buttercream and its’ edges are piped blue with a french star tip. ‘happy birthday mikka’, it reads.
mikka… that isn’t a nickname that you’ve called him before. but, it’s cute. fuck, did he actually like this gift..?
‘…how sweet.’ he thinks. kaiser picked up the box with both his hands, his touch was so delicate. he carried the cake over to the kitchen counter,
…and opened the trash.
“hey! what are you doing..?!” you run to stop him from dumping your hard work into the garbage.
it doesn’t stop him though, it doesn’t even make him struggle. “i told you i don’t celebrate it.” he huffs as some of the cake crumbles and stains his hands.
he takes a frosting-covered finger to his lips, indulging in his salty sweet taste. “ah… it’s good.” he compliments. something that only happens to make you angrier.
“then why did you throw it in the garbage, asshole?!” you yell out. how insensitive could a person get?!
“i already told you, or are those ears of your’s just for decoration?” he scoffs, the air is heavy.
and at that moment, he knew it.
michael kaiser is not meant to love, or be loved.
…
“get out.” he commands. his cold eyes hit you like a dagger. “h..huh..?” you ask, indignant at how you were being treated.
you knew kaiser would be hard to unravel but, why is he acting so different so suddenly?
“i said get out. i already decided…”
“…we’re over, s/o” he decreed. “whatever romance you and i might have had is gone. go find someone else to care about you. i’m not gonna fit your romantic fantasy.”
“i— wait, mikka, we can work this out, okay..?!” you ask, a panicked expression decorating your face. “goddamnit, fine— i’m sorry for calling you an asshole, okay?!”
you sound almost desperate in your tone. but, it still doesn’t shake his decision. “no… get out. find someone who can fulfill that fantasy of your’s, i’m never gonna be the perfect boyfriend that you’re dreaming about. understand?”
and, the cold reality faces you. a look of despair on your face, it’s incredibly pathetic to be in this low of a position right now.
ah, that look on your face… he’ll miss that look of terror and desperation, on your face especially. the way your pretty eyes gleam with tears, and the way your nose scrunches, trying to hold back your snot.
“…fine. i hope you’re happy with your life, kaiser.” you spitefully spit out. his chest hurts when he hears you call him by his last name. did that hurt him..? just a little bit…
…and, that’s when kaiser asks himself the same question.
were you really worth tearing down everything he’s known just to build it all up again?
the answer was yes. you’re worth everything money could afford; you’re as priceless as every star in the sky.
it was kaiser who wasn’t worth it. you deserved more than a scummy asshole who’s too scared love.
but, that’s just the problem with kaiser, isn’t it?
the closer he wants you, the more he pushes you away.
#this is so bad ngl…#blue lock#blue lock x reader#blue lock angst#bllk angst#bllk manga#bllk x you#bllk x reader#bllk#bllk kaiser#bllk season 2#michael kaiser x you#michael kaiser#kaiser x you#blue lock kaiser#kaiser x reader#kaiser x y/n#bastard munchen
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A bit tired of people complaining about Sanji's principle of "not hitting women" being misogynistic when it has been clearly stated multiple times that he does not choose it and it's heavily tied to his trauma and admiration for his dad and respect for women and definitely not from seeing women as somehow weaker than him
#like okay i get where you're coming from and i understand that from a simpler perspective it's weird#if meet a guy irl who refuses to fight against women no matter how evil they are for no reason other than being women i'd consider it odd#but.... we have watched sanji's backstory and we have seen him actively feeling bad for not being able to hit female enemies#like what do you not understand#you can say the practice itself is based on misogynistic views too but the reasons why sanji doesn't hit women are more complex than that#a lot of people might disagree with me but like#i'm not saying the act itself is awesome and solemn and correct but you can't go and call sanji a misogynistic character just bc of that#like saying he views women as weaker than him is just. wrong. and i've seen people say it#and yes this behavior adds to his gentleman personality and it's also for the writing to show how polite and nice he is to women#but it's not exaggerated. he genuinely has issues viewing women as equals bc he romanticizes them#and that's bad! he knows that's bad!#let the character grow?????? i swear people can't read 😭#i'm not making any sense i just woke up but yeah#one piece#black leg sanji
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anyways i always find it more admirable when a fanwork takes an unlikable character and actually uses it to flesh them out or give them a chance to be more nuanced, rather than just bashing them like a piñata every five minutes
#keaton in obt is a good example bc like hes still incredibly hatable in chapter 6 and on the ask blog#woo leans into his shittiness in that moment and even makes it worse by making him explicitly biased against the team#but he’s also given a more fleshed out backstory to explain his actions and it comes out that julius treated him poorly as well#and the ‘’come to jesus’’ moment is a lot sooner so he apologizes and tries to make amends sooner#and its not used to excuse him. just explain why hes like that and that he does need to improve#when i do my own eos interpretation id like to do something similar for chatot. not making him friends w skuntank or anything#i dont just wanna copy what wooled did verbatim after all- but it feels more productive and cohesive than mindless bashing#like i remove the ‘’revoking dinner’’ bit bc i think thats just stupid to start with. we came out of the apple dungeon we HAVE food#or we can go somewhere else to eat. we are good. cmon now.#id make it more of a thing about how chatot is biased against new recruits so hes unwilling to vouch for team wispstar bc he thinks theyll q#quit#so he trusts skuntank bc he’s a higher rank but wispstar isnt worth protecting#and that blows up in his face later when wispstar in turn doesnt trust him like with amp plains or the future arc#and he has to deal with the fact that he caused that and he has to improve how he acts towards new recruits#echoed voice
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Finally finished sweet tooth s3. Having incredibly mixed feelings
#love the show. love it a lot. about to be a bitch in the tags anyways#it was. so so messy. they needed another season so bad. the alaska trip took up so much of the comics#and that was with the previously established cast#in the show they introduced a million new characters. gave us no time to get to know them before they were thrown head first into the plot#and condensed an arc that was almost half of the comics into the span of like 5 episodes#my boy singh. oh how they massacred by boy#i mean. okay. in the context of the show the arc wasn't horrible for him.#but i think his survival in the comic and his dedication of his life to making up for the mistakes of his past by helping people and hybrids#would've been so much more powerful than his random self sacrifice at the end of the show.#bc honestly it just seems like another impulsive act in his moral flip flop he'd been having for the last few episodes#rather than active choice to be better#and honestly i wanted to see his delusional paranoid religious breakdown from the comics put to screen so bad#it would've been great#i do like that he turned against zhang the second she started trying to talk about rani. that shit slapped#the several fake outs about Jepp's death were so stupid and unnecessary and repetitive#why are you baiting everyone. you're going to piss off the hardcore comic fans waiting for his death and confuse the show fans#either commit to killing him or stop pretending like you're brave enough to do it#why did they flip back so hard into the mystical vaguely eco fascist backstory and outcome of the comic#after spending two seasons trying to build a more scientific and less 'humanity must end' story for two seasons straight#they tried to make it seem less 'humanity must die' again at the end by ending the virus#which i guess might've been the best outcome available considering the source material and the limitations of it's ending#but idk. it felt weird#the writing this season was so much less subtle. it felt like the characters were constantly monologing directly at the camera#nothing could be left unsaid everyone had to say exactly what they meant#and it was all moral lessons the writers were trying to feed directly to the audience#i feel like they wrote themselves into a corner at the end of the last season#and they expected to have at least one more season to write themselves out of it before the ending#and if not. if this was the plan since the beginning. literally what. WHAT.#can not imagine the people who wrote the last two seasons sitting down and writing this#it won't let me add more tags but i have more thoughts. many more. tumblr is silencing me for speaking the truth /j
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Thinking a lot about Chai and his inferiority complex. Like. He very much acts like he does to push people away right? He's arrogant and rude at first. Very much self centered. But it makes me think about the *why*. I think a lot of it is him setting up barriers so he doesn't have to get hurt. Instead of letting people in he pushes them away. Especially since he's disabled, I can only imagine how many times people have hurt and made fun of him in the past. And I fully believe all of this is subconscious. Especially with that dream sequence, I don't think he realizes how much he pushes others away intentionally. And yet he still craves affection and praise from his peers. I don't think him being dumb is an act tho, I think that's something he truly is. And honestly? Diagnosing him with adhd bc he's just like me fr
#this could be worded better maybe idk#i just think his character development is really interesting#and like we get nothing on his backstory#i think he wants to be a rockstar bc he wants to be loved#but he acts like a bit of a jerk bc hes clueless and wants people to stay away from him#i mean hes said he was never good with teams#idk if this makes sense#im sure someone can explain it better#i just think a lot about how much he changed and how happy he is now#hi fi rush
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dude this is so funny
#i was thinking about like. wait. how feasible IS it for ganon to make friends#because i've been doing a lot of basically ig overhauls with how i write ganon in my comic#he was originally not meant to be in-character at all and now i really want to make him FEEL like ganon#so i've been rethinking how his backstory works and how he reacts to it. originally i wasn't going to change anything but the tweaks i've#been making work really really well and i'm very pleased#and part of his whole deal is that he made a friend#and the more i think about it the more i really really need to think about how that happened just because it's so unlike my vision of him#in my head to like. genuinely be vulnerable and want to be friends with someone in any capacity#dude it mustve taken forever. and idk the more i think about it the more i realize it probably wasnt even the characters Intention#but also. the fact that there is a pretty strong power imbalance between the two actually?? kind of makes it more feasible in a way??#so for the record ganon is Not the one with the power here and the character i planned on befriending him is. and like#the last post i reblogged made me go. oh hey.#ganon would automatically assume he's going to get exploited or abused or attacked somehow because thats what HE does when he has power#over someone like that.#and then when the friend just. doesn't. I think he's going to be somewhat confused by that. maybe angry. probably angry#alt ganon is funny because he's mad at everything and this includes himself#make threats act like the person is an idiot. try to find a way to take advantage of it but the guys just like nuh uh#im feeling so sillyyyyyyyyyyyy
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i really did love veilguard in spite of all the criticisms surrounding it (i'm a fresh da fan, i played inquisition earlier this year, nearly 100% it, and it resonated with me deeply. i'm excited to play its predecessors when i get the chance too.) but i will say definitely my biggest complaint is that i just wish solas was in the story more. makes me wonder what it would've been like had it still been called "dreadwolf." 🥹
#makes me wish i had gotten into it at the height of inquisition's popularity because i would've been INSUFFERABLE about this bald freak#i think he is a wonderfully written antagonist#and as much as i loved learning more about his backstory (and the 3rd act was impeccable)#if he had been the focus ... man. can you imagine.#no shade to his two cohorts but they have as much depth as a glass of tap water. at least corypheus had banging one-liners.#but if solas had been the villain through the whole game... god... just imagining that would-be dramatic boss fight.#and i wish the inquisition was more involved too like that's my inky's bestie!!#would've romanced him if bioware weren't cowards and let him be bi#riley rambles#i have a lot of thoughts now that i've started my second playthrough but the majority of them are about emmrich LMAO#that man has rewired my brain chemistry.#veilguard spoilers
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thinking about my left behind 60s villain to the creeper proteus
#they were kinda gay.#the problem with getting into older comics is that now theyre largely irrelevant#like what do you mean the creeper is actually a demon. thats just jack getting into acting wdym#i am glad though that the proteus storyline got wrapped up before beware the creeper got cancelled#read beware the creeper 1968 its only 6 issues#also for his backstory read showcase 73 beforehand cause they do not explain his deal lol#it seems a lot of stuff afterwards makes the creeper into this wacky guy as a whole#but really the things that make him unnerving like his laugh and how he acts is literally jack acting#you can see him thinking in the moment about what would freak out other people i like it. hes kinda discovering he likes acting? in a way?#like ofc they dont go in depth or anything but in the issues he kinda gets into the swing of his acting and having it come more naturally t#him. i feel like the creeper could be used as like. another side to him hes discovering that he didnt know was there and accepting#IF one were to go in depth and do a whole character study. on. 6 comic issues. but the basis is there!#theres also. his whole costume. yeah he has genders. theres something here. READ HIS COMICS.#i speak#dc#jack ryder#proteus
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astarion is so fucking funny as a character because conceptually he hits all the marks of a wet cat blorbo but in practice he's unbelievably hard to stand. i'll be on the bg3 companion guide and have to start CRYING from trying to find the shit under his section that gains approval. loses -15 points for gently suggesting we not massacre an orphanage in cold blood with the d&d equivalent of a nuclear warhead
#like all things considering i am still in act 1 so i'll grant you that i might just not be at the point where people start to like him#but please for the love of god he has me on my knees to be even a little redeemable. can we do one thing that's normal just as an entrée#my tav isn't even playing a straightedge good guy is the worst part they lose wyll and gale points for being too opportunistic if anything#but they still like them more than this bucko who's been all grumpy and harrumphing at their. lack of sufficient slavekeeping ? ?#SO confusing by the way because i thought i'd spoiled myself on his backstory and context makes those checks seem borderline contradictory#he's still a hilarious freak and i still have to respect the hustle#and i'll fucking do it but christ alive.#on top of that missing a lot of his scenes contributes because my dumbass is nearly starting the creche and long rested up to now about 3x#the party'll be wailing about sleep deprivation and i check their stats see they still have points ready to go and go nahh you're good#girl THIS is what i get for creating a peak performance shortresting steamroll team of fighter warlock monk and barb#managed to become so efficient i couldn't even get my blood sucked. can't have shit on the sword coast#next playthrough that mod for displaying the number of queued camp scenes is getting locked and loaded in or so help me#baldur's gate 3#bg3 liveblog
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god this show is not afraid to kill off its characters huh
#i just started 3x08#and yeah this episode is gonna absolutely wreck me#update: i just finished the episode#yeah#it wrecked me#ronen rubinsteins acting in this episode was incredible omg#i just#ah#i love tk i love him so so much#earlier i reblogged a post about being predictable about favourite characters#and i think tk is a great example of that#his whole storyline and backstory is like its written specifically to make him my favourite character#anyways it was such a good episode#i cant quite believe they went there in terms of the whole killing off characters thing#but then again ive felt like that each time this show has done that#i should stop being surprised by any plot points in this show by now lol#i really am genuinely slightly in awe of the acting in this ep though#like damn#i really did cry a lot my god#this show is fucking relentless#i dont think thats objectively a good thing or makes a high quality show#but oh boy its cathartic#911 lone star lb
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‘please don’t be in love with someone else’ / for keerhei…… >:3c
Keerhei was pacing back and forth his hand running through his hair in agitation. This was exactly what he did not want to happen. Why the fuck did he stay around so long that Kiwa felt comfortable enough to ask him this question? He should have left so long ago, he should have broken the ties it would have been easier for her than what he was going to do now. He was going to hurt her so badly that he didn't think they would ever recover from it. Despite his complicated feelings for the girl who gave him a rock, he couldn't act on them. He wasn't free, he was owned by the crown, and that made it very difficult for him to have any free will. His purpose was to take care of Kouleia, and that meant everything else went to the waste side. But, he couldn't tell anyone this, he couldn't even mention the curse to anyone or he is not just risking Kouleia's life, but the crown as well.
"Don't ask me that," he growled, turning his attention to Kiwa his eyes narrowing. He was going to hate every minute of this, but his hands were tied, and he needed to let her go. "You pathetic, little girl," he hissed, almost wincing at the poison coming off his tongue. "I have been clear from the start that there is nothing here," he pointed back and forth. It is better for her to think he lead her on, instead of one of his enemies finding out that she could be a weakness and capitalizing on it. "Yeah you're hot," he shrugged, "but, you're not my type. I don't usually like naive, innocent girls."
@kissespink
#ic; Keerhei#asks; Keerhei#kissespink#(my heart broke writing this)#(Keerhei is very complicated )#(and there is a lot to his backstory that makes him act like this)
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like i tend to hate every fandom cause its always annoying some way or other but theres actually so much i literally bloody despise about the ace attorney fandom and all that random fanon they made up without even realising it has absolutely nothing to do with the games. it isnt even good fanon if that could even exist most of it is total utter rubbish
#theres no point even listing everything i hate about it but its so annoying i literally have to#like some of the fanart like why do you even consider that the same characters#like phoenix has brown eyes in the games its so obnoxious when they keep making one blue like whats the point it looks so stupid#and like the styles and stuff you do realise its not you and your cliche of tumblr fandom mates dont you#dunno the word maybe i should avoid saying 'yasify' even though that lot says it all the time but really cant think of it#also why on earth do they keep feminising edgeworth so much it literally doesnt make any sense did we even play the same games#plus the whole explanation they make up for edgeworths backstory that has nothing to do with the games but they think its actually canon#obviously theyre all completely incapable of portraying emotions reasonably but why is it all so over the top and conpletely made up#not just the totally exxaggerated reactions but the whole stuff about von karma they make up thats total rubbish#like it can be strict and not brilliant and direct them in bad ways and mess them up without making up all that stuff#abmnd the stupid thing how they think phoenix and edgeworth had romantic feelings for each other in primary school its utterly ridiculous#and how theyre convinced of him sending him letters and that rubbish its totally stupid#and how they call edgeworth by his first name like go ahead and show us your talking about a totally differe t character#and phoenix being into art is a stupid fanon he never shows the slightest interest in it at all people just want him to cause they are#and i saw a screenshot interview it said acting though they get that wrong too it was shakespear not american schoolkids#on that topic how they make them into americans like they literally go in america this yadayada completely unironically#how can the whole fandom literally think its set in america its literally the stupidest thing the translaters fault but why do they have to#take it so seriously like its still obviously japan why make it america its literally so random im so sick of america#like it was written as japanese making the text english doesnt change the background context you idiots#also how they keep randomly making characters be parental figures to characters they arent like appollo and phoenix its ridiculous#plus the way they write the actual family relationships its hard to believe theyve ever even had family members the way it sounds like#their only reference for their knowledge of family relationships is a few cliche hollywood films#theres loads of other stuff too im sure but i cant think of it right now
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There is! It's from before EA was even released though, and I guess not a direct statement from Larian, but it's from February 2020, when they first showed gameplay. As far as I understand, this reporter is trying to quote Swen:
There is also this video (timestamped!) talking about it, and AFAIK it was the first to show that cinematic with Astarion's nightmare (placeholder Cazador's terrifying), so I've got to give it some credence there that it's at least close to the source:
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I'm curious, does anyone have any actual evidence of EA or pre-release Astarion "selling people to Cazador pre-vampirism/as a corrupt noble"? because I see people claim this a lot but I've been crawling through pre-release videos and materials and I can't find anything that points towards this in the game. I'm trying to figure out if this was a verified thing or some kind of fandom hallucination/Berenstain effect lol
the closest thing is the artbook page which points to him being a corrupt noble but there's 0 mention of magistrate Astarion selling people to Cazador
#what ive seen a lot of people falsely claim is that this was his backstory during EA#in EA his scenes were identical to act 1 in full release#i think they only changed some gandrel lines#i remember rooney did an interview in 2022 where he said “his backstory then is not necessarily his backstory now”#i think he was addressing this#btw i assume that the two sources are trying to form a full picture? full theorising here but:#sounds like he had that deal with the vampires where he sold them prisoners but they caught him making side money#by also selling them as slaves. i assume he claimed he didnt have enough prisoners to sell to them or some shit like that
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can i be hypocritical for a second
#shut up hanna#she says she doesn't want to hear people talking about him and then makes a post to talk about him. sorry here we go#i don't think a lot of the people obsessed with tommy are fully examining WHY they are so obsessed with him#because i'm not gonna say they're necessarily racist but i do think that they hold these implicit biases in favor of white people#(biases which poc can absolutely hold as well)#(why do you think so many poc exclusively date white ppl and then chalk it up to personal preferences)#which is why this guy that has barely had any screentime now has entire blogs dedicated to him and is getting defended by people in the#fandom in a way gay poc characters like michael and hen never were.#and you could say okay hanna well what about josh! he's a white gay man and people don't obsess over him!#and that's true and likely because a) he is not kissing buck and b) you can't attach a repression storyline to him#which is another thing people in fandom seem to gravitate towards. men with internalized homophobia.#another thing that seems to stem from these implicit biases in favor of masculinity in gay men#which now come to think of it is only enhanced by his whiteness. bc god if tommy wasn't white??? y'all would be saying the nastiest shit#which i know because it is the shit you say about eddie when you try to spin the narrative that he's homophobic. bc he's latino.#but no because tommy is a white man with previous internalized homophobia it's a beautiful tragic backstory#and you can watch the beautiful story of a masculine man becoming vulnerable and it's the most amazing thing you've ever seen in your life#and the amount of screentime this man has gotten does not warrant the amount of attention and obsession he's garnered#so i truly do think the only reason anyone would be such a big fan of his is because of their own implicit biases regarding#whiteness and masculinity#which if that was something these people would actually acknowledge and own up to? then i don't think i'd have a problem with them#and i'd be hypocritical (lol) if i said i don't also hold these biases and they seep into my fandom interests#but i'm willing to sit down and think hmm why am i acting this way about this character and should i be trying to reshape my thinking.#instead of doubling down and calling everyone that talks shit about my obsession homophobic no matter the context of their shit talking#i feel like i have more to say but i can't remember now and also i hope this makes sense bc i'm so lightheaded rn i need to eat dinner
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It's amazing how much of my progress with understanding and working with Nikolai as a character is predicated on his backstory. His backstory, which is exclusive to me, because I'm the one who made it. But every time I'm working on any questions to do with his philosophies or motivations, I have to delve into his past. It's so essential. No wonder I couldn't get anywhere with canon Nikolai--there literally just isn't enough there. Not enough for someone like me, anyway. I'm sure it's possible.
#like I think I've just realised that it wasn't so much that Fyodor did anything in particular to Nikolai#like from his perspective they were close friends but he didn't do anything extra like manipulate him#but for Nikolai Fyodor was an aspect of his stability--his ability to feel okay#because Nikolai's always searching for peace in the wrong places#like 'if I just had this I'd be okay' but of course he's wrong. because unless he finds it within himself#any feeling of stability is temporary#but it's always been like that for him. and in his 20s finally in Petersburg acting and meeting Fyodor#he had a place he could express himself and people he could be himself around. and for a while that was genuinely enough. he was happy#happy in a way he'd never really been before#but then when Fyodor was arrested it was like it all came crashing down again. suddenly nothing felt right. and nothing he did could fix it#he tried to live in spite of it but his emotions were crippling him. he just couldn't anymore. so he ran away again.#and lost everything again#and he finally realised that as he was he'd never be free to do anything. he'd always be trapped by his own feelings#and sure he could maybe find happiness again and rebuild but it would never last. this would just happen again and again#and thus he ended up at canon#of course there's a lot more than just that. many moments that make up those broad strokes. foreshadowing.#things weren't always perfect even at their best#and when it really started with his brother's death at 9 and suddenly being the eldest--all of that had a big impact on him too#but *all* of that comes from my backstory. without it where would I be? probably nowhere#bsd nikolai#bsd#writing#this still doesn't explain why he'd turn to terrorism and not just kill himself but it's a start
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