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He told me I was beautiful
#parliamentdolly#girlblog#girlblogging#girlhood#im just tired#im just a girl#older man younger woman#oldermen#older is better#daddy’s wh0re#i cant do this#send help#please help#im so tired#i'm so fucking tired#dollcore#bella hadid#plot twist#im going insane#lana del rey#lana del rey vinyl#im a wh0re#needy wh0re#emotionally unstable personality disorder
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"americans i'm so jealous of how exciting your democracies are" motherfucker i will pay actual money for this shit to be boring again. i want this man put in prison and dead and i want government to go back to being dull for everyone except nerds
#personal#do you guys think sometimes about how nice and not insane 2021-2023 was#(i'm exempting 2024 because Campaign)#but like it was just government doing government and democrats doing their best#to try and pass policies to help the people of this country#and we were talking about special kinds of bills and appropriations and shit like that#i am SICK of donald trump's fucking panem et circenses bullshit i want it DONE#i want you guys to stop being lazy and stupid and get up off your asses and vote for kamala#cuz he's dead or dying by 2028 and nobody's been able to recreate excitement for trumpism except trump anyway#like please for the love of god let it be over#do your jobs
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can someone tell me where to get the original newsies novel I need it and all I'm finding is all the nonfiction shit with all the facts and no gay newsboys help
#newsies#someone help#newsies novel#newsies broadway#livesies#92sies#help me please#i think it would fix me#I need more gay singing dancing newsboy content you don't understand how hungry I am for it I'm going fucking insane
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"student life" this "student life" that. girl I haven't been to a club in a year. haven't spoken to another student for longer than 10 minutes since the beginning of uni. haven't made plans with ABSOLUTELY ANYONE. everyone seems to get on well with each other and hang out together and everything and I have only spoken to 3 of my classmates in total. I'm living in my childhood home with my mom. thank you but I think I'll skip this "student life"
#i long to have an 8h workday and an apartment of my own. however small#and stop with all the studying amd exams and everything. i want to get home however late and not study. just watch a movie or read a book o#sth but i NEED to be free after let's say 7pm. just the workday ends and there is no more work. please. PLEASE#please let me escape this “student life” thank you#ramble tag#sorry for the vent i'm growing desperate#only just started and the thought of having to live this way in the span of 4 years is driving me insane🥰 i will work all day if i want to#also my mom's and dad's rants about our finances is infuriating... like cool get you but have you considered that 1) i want to help. maybe#let me? 2)my uni fee is actually incredibly low. i can pay it 6x working only 4h a day why do you have to talk about it all the time#“noo you shouldnt or we wont be able to pay the money for your education!!” girl i can pay it all in 3 months. fuck off#sorry for being so angry but what do they think they're doing?? do they assume i can't count???#anyway bye
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did you know that i have a patreon you can subscribe to for as little as $2 a month?
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#bro please help lmao#i also have polyarthritis and some sort of autoimmune disorder that my doctors can't seem to pinpoint#which is a fun little icing on the cake yeehaw#my body is so fucked up and i cannot afford to survive on disability so i'm forced to work all day despite the insane pain#art#my art#artist in need#disabled#crps#complex regional pain syndrome
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you guys really weren't kidding about how fucking good lake mungo is
#i think it just came out above ex machina on my list of favorite movies what the fuckkkkkkkk#technically i need to rewatch ex machina before deciding for sure but either way SUCHHHH A GOOD MOVIE AAAAAGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#wait just remembered- i actually read the plot summary on wikipedia a loooooong time ago (but i hardly remembered any of it)#and having reread it just now after finishing the movie oh my GOD it does such a shitty job of conveying just how great this movie is.#what a dull clinical description what the fuck! please if you've ever read it and decided not to watch based on that#PLEASE give it an actual chance it is SO much better than wikipedia makes it seem.#it just doesn't (and CAN'T!) accurately portray just how truly haunting the movie is. a masterclass in how to tell a great ghost story#without relying too much on jumpscares or obviously horrific imagery (imo). just....wow.#and now for some screaming [🚨🚨🚨 brief spoilers incoming 🚨🚨🚨]:#SHE WAS THEREEEEEEE SHE WAS THERE THE WHOLE TIME IN EACH OF THE 'FAKE' PHOTOS/RECORDINGS OH MY GOD#AND EVEN THOUGH I TRIED *SO* HARD TO BE VIGILANT I NEVER SAW HER!!!! AND NEITHER DID THEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!#GOD I DON'T THINK ANY OTHER PSYCHOLOGICAL HORROR MOVIE HAS EVER MADE ME FEEL THIS INSANE HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!#ok i'm done. anyway cool movie haha#lake mungo#📺 tag#send tweet
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sometimes i remember the hunger games and how nobody actually paid attention to what was in those books
#americans close your eyes and ears right now#i'm well aware that my political takes are way too spicy for you all#and i really do wish my media diet didn't contain so much us-centric shit#but alas we're all suffering here#and i could say that 'oh actually it does matter who your president is for us in the world'#but it doesn't. it really fucking doesn't. that's kind of the point.#oh i'm sorry my spicy takes are already starting#anyway it is wild that you all can understand katniss assassinating coin at the end of mockingjay#but get super upsetty that chappell roan won't support your favorite presidential candidate with her full chest#like come on none of you actually thought that her using the phrase both sides meant that she was a republican or even a centrist#that's just copium#you all knew exactly what she meant#but i guess encouraging people to think critically and get involved with their local elections and politics as well is... bad now?#also... why do you all care so much about a random pop star's opinion and whether or not she dares to criticize a government#like... she's right but i'm sure 5 years from now if she survives in the limelight her edges will be completely chipped away#by all this insane reaction#and before anyone comes for me... no i'm not saying you shouldn't vote. please fucking do.#neither am i saying you shouldn't vote strategically or encourage other people to do so#but if all your energy is spent policing people who criticize your chosen party because of their own principles#then there's something seriously wrong with your politics#and all you're signalling is that you truly do not fucking care about the issues that they care about#if anything..... you RESENT them#and then the same people bring up the parable of the 'unjust man'#or how it's never the right time to talk about gun violence in your country#harm reduction is all good and based but attacking people who are leveraging their support to push your party left#is not. it's not even fucking helpful#anyway. don't base your lives and politics around pop stars.#even if they are more based than you 🤷#i think i'm done now thank you tumblr for letting me have insane rants in my tags that hopefully no one reads#idk i just find this all depressing. i wish you all cared more about the world outside of your bubble. i wish we all did - myself included.
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Can't post the beginning of my fluff fics, and I know I can do it on mobile but I hate mobile ao3's tag system, and now my brain is trying to fight me to create a Gundam LU au and I'm slowly thinking about drawing/writing it, and now I'm trying to decide whether or not I have Sky as a living person or have his soul stuck in a system, aka that system is Fi I guess, that is imputed into the Chain's mobile suits like Blue Destiny's EXAM system with a LITERAL child's soul in it. Actually that happens alot in Gundam, maybe I can do it to First instead and have everyone be a biological clone with other people's DNA mixed in so the clones don't fall apart, except Twi and Wind. Twi actually Time's kid with Malon, and Wind found Time's abandoned mobile suit/Gundam on Earth (because Time technically is MIA and also getting hunted down by the government for running away from a War even though it was over also gives the downfall and Adult timeline bullshit). Ffffucccckkkkkk I'm actually into this AU now. FUCK! I like this AU and it might become a real thing.
#Wait what do I make Ravio#Eh Legend can be the doppelganger this time#This is all pure insanity#linked universe au#Hahahah combining everything in Gundam inso one AU so I can have a LU Gundam AU#(I'm fucking insane please help)#Wait who should I make have the 90's crack power that was G Gundam because how thr fuck was Master Asia able to use his hair as a flute#Wait I should make it Twilight#Epona is Funnsaiki#Yall can't change my mind anymore I'm giving the horse a Gundam
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HELP maybe this is influenced by how I'm writing this, or maybe it was supposed to be gleaned from canon and I just. Haven't fully thought about it til now. Haven't Deeply analyzed it beyond the blaring alarm bells that go off when reading this. But. Alfonse's,
Straight into.
This isn't him doubling down. This is him BACKTRACKING. This is him going, "oh fuck I think maybe I came on a little too strong maybe I was a bit too vulnerable and that's really scary. How do I fix this" and he's running through all the dialogue options in his head like Okay. Play it Cool. Keep it Casual. Proclaim your undying loyalty and devotion to your Trusted Partner (person he just told in the beginning of this conversation that he didn't intend to become friends with) by making yourself a blade and shield for them. NAILED IT 👍
#fire emblem#feh#ALFONSE. PLEASE. COME ON MAN#HUUUUUGE FUCKING EPIPHANY FOR ME THOUGH as i'm writing/drawing bc that last line i've been struggling w the most#but this. add some moe lore. I HAVE HUGE IDEAS ABOUT THE MOE LORE IN TANDEM W THE CANON IMPLICATIONS.#in short/minimal spoilers if i forget to expand on it later BUT IT'S SO HUGE TO ME. SO HUGE#but i think alfonse has Noticed. things about moe. similarities to himself. but it either#doesn't know it or refuses to acknowledge it. he isn't sure which yet. so when he says 'i hope you feel the same'#he's reaching out ala pre-skip dimitri fbs. asking moe to Consider This. AND. AND. IN TANDEM.#w the canon implications. that he doesn't think highly of himself and doesn't dare wait for an answer#AND. AND. HELP THERE'S A MOMENT THAT'S SO FUCKING FUNNY. he just commits a Blunder#that even moe's autistic ass catches him on. it all happens So quickly. in a fucking instant.#WHICH. WHICH. LED TO ME REALIZING THIS. he is trying TO CATCH HIMSELF HERE.#AND THE. ADDITION. of moe lore/the blunder why he tries to move on So quickly. please do NOT ask me questions i WILL throw up.#ALSO LIKE book 3 alfonse fresh in my mind. i did take a break after The Incident (gustav).#but like. goes so insane actually. this is really all he knows how to be. constantly in service to others. made to be a tool.#it's so fucked up bc you can see he is genuinely wired like that too. he WANTS to help. he wants to do good#but man................... i def don't have the words for it rn it's just so tragic. but i think about it All The Fucking Time.#GOD SORRY I'M HAVING ANOTHER ALEAR FB MOMENT. ALFONSE. ALFONSE.#cut off that tangent just to make a whole other post about it.#fe alfonse#moe tag#TAGGING IT. bc i rambled about it in the tags and it's MY OC I MAKE THE RULES 😤😤😤😤😤
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Guys I'm back in my SheZow phase and so now Donnie is too
#shezow#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise donatello#rise tmnt#shezow and rise crossover#rise donnie as shezow#im actually going insane#i'm back in the fucking building again#im back in my shezow phase#help me please#starts wailing
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Does anyone know where I can find the good quality version of this image? It's so frustrating because when cross searching on google it'll tell me the original quality is 850x478, but I can't find a way to download it in that quality. This is another version of the image (I'm guessing it's Mayoi promo art):
But I liked the clean white background one...
#It's cute...#It's got Akutagawa stealing glances at Atsushi#Thought asking was worth a try ;;;;;;#Google cross image search has changed and as someone who used it as I use breathing it's been absolutely heartbreaking.#It makes cross searching images so much harder it's awful#Because before when you looked up an image it suggested you the best quality avaible of that image.#And the search got worse every year but it was still functional you know??#But now there's not that anymore. There's no “large” “medium” “small” and instead it only gives you “find image source”#Dude I don't want to find the image source. I've downloaded the image I KNOW the source. What I want is ANOTHER SOURCE with better quality#And I used to get it when I was 10 and I used to get it when I was 15 and I sued to get it when I was 20#And now I don't have it anymore?? It stripes away one of the most powerful search tools on the internet from the public????#It drives me insane. Like why does internet get worse every year that's not how humanity is supposed to work#Sorry. I needed to rant. This makes every quality-freak media archivist (like me) job harder beyond comparison#Btw if you're looking for an alternative Yandex images still does the work... It's not as powerful search engine as google#and it's often going to miss the particular hidden media (y'know- super niche Akutagawa merch from 2018 and stuff)#But for the rest it does a pretty good job. If anything there's still the best quality avaible option#But seriously looking up stuff for aktgw-daily has gotten so much harder ever since this fucked up change to google lens#and it makes me hate the world. I haven't been able to find a way to reverse it but if anyone more tech savy than me who has any idea-#what I'm talking about can help me. Please please hmu I'll be grateful forever#Sorry for the rant I have a lot of pent up rage over this. Stop making broke people's lives harder challenge#random rambles
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Wait I think I missed something in this incredible saga. Are you going on a date with the coworker??? I swear the last thing I saw was “no I would never” lmaoooo. If so, I (like the rest of snzblr) are anxious for updates about your love life. You’re one of the top snzblr couples now, enjoy 🤙
I did say I would never and I was a fucking liar apparently 😔 it's not technically a date tho bc I never told him it was bc I need to be so casual and mysterious ahdkaksk but it's a date To Me lmao. It's tomorrow tho bc we're still at work rn and it doesn't look like we're leaving anytime soon so at least I have that to look forward to I guess lmao
#not snz#we're not a couple tho nooooo 😭😭 lmaooo#it's just me being delusional#like he's literally not into me i stg i think y'all are gonna be more disappointed about the outcome than me#OH but he did hug me tho so I'm riding that high rn actually ahskamsk#lowkey have just been leaning against him half the shift but we've been watching videos and stuff together bc it's been slow so#that means nothing probably#also he looks at me like 😒 every time i ask one if my stupid little debate questions ahsakslsl#today was if ceral is a soup and if ketchup is a smoothie#please know that i ask these randomly literally out of nowhere like it's a normal thing to bring up lmaoooo#i have negative flirting skills ahdkaksk#this is the opposite of pulling a bad bitch by being autistic this is making the coworker question why he puts up with me lmaoooo#but he's the one who said yes to dinner so 😌#you know what he's never seen me in a cute little outfit before actually 👀#it's always been either the work uniform or hiking clothes#which to be fair my hiking clothes are kinda cute but they're hiking clothes nonetheless#like he saw me in normal clothes a bit ago but i was actively dying so they were just the most comfortable clothes i could find#so like maybe i can wear a skirt i have cute skirts i like wearing out with my bestie#and they're like. very specific kinds of skirts so maybe that'll tell him something ahskasmks#help why am i thinking so hard about this ahdkalslal#like it's literally actually not even a date it's just me flipping out for no reason while this guy is clueless 😭#like I'm telling y'all he's not into me and i don't understand why I'm being like this about it lmaoo#I'm always like 'fuck i wish my coworkers wouldn't crush on me to the point of asking me out that's awkward i don't date coworkers'#AND THEN I TURNED AROUND AND DID IT MYSELF#why am i like this#why am i so 👀 when he's one of the few people i shouldn't be 👀 at#i swear i should give it a couple months bc maybe I'm just feeling some type of way about him bc i was sick#but noooo i just HAVE to be insane about it now 😭#i should really have a tag for me being a pathetic wreck but idk what it would even be lmao#partner posting
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#also i love my friends but i'm so insanely fucking burned out right now that if my friend doesn't go home shortly after i get out of work i#i dont know what i'll do. go insane probably#in rapid succession:#we caught up with a friend we havent hung out with in a year +#helped another friend work on cosplay for 2 days straight#had a friend from baltimore come down for the first time in years#and had a friend from portland come down for the first time in years#and it's lovely but i'm fucking Tired. go Home. please. my routines are so fucked up#if i have to keep having engaging conversations and being On and Responsive i'm going to go fuckinng insane#im tired of talking. endure silence with me or die#ive run out of conversation topics. i am no longer capable of being responsive. i need to go nonverbal or i'll fucking explode
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I pretend that being stuck in my house almost 24/7 because it's summer and there's no where to go for me due to personal reasons that require probably a long explanation to type out for non-irl people probably isn't ruining my mental health but for the last couple of weeks I've been starting to doubt that the planet Earth is an actual space rock I'm stuck on and that other humans other than me and a few others(my parents not included)are real and not simulations or robots made by the government to further psychologically torture me like the little test guinea pig for science I am probably??Like Idk moving out seems to good to be true right now. Lmfao is it even worth it to make it to 18??Lol(I'm not currently suicidal btw so please don't worry about me, I'm just nervous because I really want to feel the skin of another human being who isn't my family). Oh, how a girl can dream♡.
#I Am Losing My Mind#I Feel Unironically Crazy#Literal Insanity#I Am Not Trying To Be Rude#But I Unironically Feel Crazy#Its Literal Insanity To Me Ngl#I Feel Lile I Am Losing Reality More And More#Whats The Point?#WTF Is Wrong With Me#Not Gonna Lie#I Hate My Fucking Life#Please Just End Me#Help Me God#Someone Please Help Me#Idk How Much Longer I Can Do This#Idk How Much More I Can Take#Lmfao#Roflmao#I Am So Cringe#I Am So Sorry#I Don't Want To Die#I Can't Do This Anymore#But I Can't Do It#I'm Too Scared#I'm Such A Coward#Bro Idk#Someone Tell Me I'm Nof Crazy#I Want To Be Free#God Is Love#Save The Planet
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you kids like your duo names so i'm dubbing ramon and dapper the "wrapper duo" i don't take constructive criticism
#qsmp#qsmp dapper#qsmp ramon#wrapper duo: i would sell your soul to satan for a single candy wrapper#i don't do duo names bc it feels like high school biology all over again#so many terms i gotta memorize i gotta make a damn quizlet#who the fuck is insane duo. what's a tnt duo. everyone on this server is insane. is tnt foolish and roier???#i feel my age so hard seeing duo names everywhere i am so lost#i am begging you spry youngsters tag them in the post so i can at least slueth the answer#or hell i mean just say their names we don't have a character limit here please my loves i am So Lost sometimes#i can't remember this shit. what's a land duo. forever knocked down a desert. baghera lives underground. cucurucho also lives underground???#help. help. i got a C in bio. don't send me back please i'm begging-#shut up vic#block game brainrot
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You're supposed to ask for help. If you don't ask for help you're never going to get help and you will be condemned for being useless and taking no actions to help yourself. If you ask for help. no one is going to help you. you are not allowed to wish that anyone help you or expect anyone to help you or you are a selfish piece of shit. you are not allowed to wish things were better. You're not allowed to ask for help actually because you are selfish and you didn't think about how others might feel being put in the vulnerable and intimate position of being asked for help. your friends did not consent to being asked for help or explained why you've been having problems and you should have thought about the way they felt before you forced them to read your texts asking them for help. I'm not even joking I should just kill myself because there is actually genuinely no such thing as getting better or getting help or being a good friend ?
#I swear to god I could text you assholes 'i just got stabbed can you please call an ambulance' and you would reply three days later ':/'#you fucking cunts. what is wrong with you#Didn't anyone ever teach your stupid ass how to be a good fucking friend#Stupid stupid stupid stupid#'you can't expect everyone to just drop everything and help you :/'#Look at me. look in my fucking eyes. what is wrong with you#I'm so upset I'm so desperate for any amount of anything please help me what's wrong with me#Why was I specifically built to crave what is apparently not even a thing ?? People aren't friends anymore ?? Like societally ????????#'It's so hard to wake up in the morning I wish someone could knock on my door to wake me up for finals so I don't miss them :('#'awww you want them to bring you food and do your test for you and drive you there and change your diaper too?'#i want to take a long swim in acid. why live. what is the fucking point.#I am nothing. I'm literally insane.#I think I actually genuinely have schizophrenia and none of this is real I've been engaging the delusions a lot because I have no one else#Have I for my entire life just invented friendships that didn't exist. are any of you real. am I even alive.#I'm so angry I just want to be talked to#At the bare minimum. you don't have to love me or like me or help me or care but just talk to me#I'm so angry I feel like a cuckoo chick. born a huge monster who takes and hurts and kills before it can even open its eyes#it didn't know it's a monster it just acts based on instincts.#it was not supposed to be here and it killed the innocent and actual good children in cold blood.#that's what my twin brother was in the womb. i killed him. i was a mistake and a disease and he wasn't strong enough to stop me.
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