#(I'm a makeup artist I have to use ig)

[afkaskus]

If you ask me how has been this week without watching miraculous I'll scream at you

Pls leave me alone

[ham1lton]

SHE’S SO LUCKY, SHE’S A STAR!

pairing: charles leclerc × famous!reader.

warnings: mentions of mental health. slightly angsty.

summary: lucky is the dream girl. she has everything. the man, the career, and the fame…. or does she?

faceclaim: britney spears ♡

author’s note: this has been in my drafts for SO long. glad to share it with you. let me know if you enjoyed it! <3

— part of the diva anthems series ♪

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liked by lucky, landonorris and 1,383,737 others.

charles_leclerc: happy music video release day to the love of my life! thank you for letting me be a part of your journey. i’m your biggest fan until the end of the road.

also keep an eye out for my cameo on oops!… i did it again - out now! :)

tagged: @ lucky

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user1: he’s so whipped it’s adorable. he truly loves her.

user2: the album is so good. this is crazy!! the album of the year.

*liked by charles_leclerc*

user3: favourite song?

-> charles_leclerc: i love them all…. but dear diary.

user4: charles in his acting era omg.

-> user5: charles leclerc: f1 driver, astronaut, actor and official wag to thee yn.

-> user6: lucky has his ass WORKING 😭

user7: charles going from having a crush on yn to dating her?? he needs to give me his game card. i need to use it on theo james.

user8: OOPS U THINK IM IN LOVE THAT IM SENT FROM ABOOOOOOVVVVEEE

-> user9: IM NOT THAT INNOCENTTT

user10: video vixen charles 😍

user11: the titanic reference omg!!!

lucky: i love you!!! i’m your biggest fan. this album wouldn’t be here without you. 💕

-> charles_leclerc: 💕

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"so are we ready for the tour" your manager speaks to your team. you're wearing a threadbare t-shirt that you stole from charles' wardrobe and a pair of jeans that were more comfortable than stylish.

no one commented on your lack of makeup.

“i can't do a tour." you say, softly.

“you have to. it's the best way to make money. the more shows you do, the more money you make."

“it’s not that. it's just... i'm tired." being lucky, the superstar was a façade. one that you felt that only you could pull off.

it took a certain amount of mental fortitude to lie to everyone in your life.

"maybe next year? can we delay it at least?"

"what about your fans? you know the music industry, yn. the less you strike while the iron is hot, the bigger the chance you’ll be irrelevant when the next new thing comes out.” a executive says. “besides, we’ve already announced it.”

to be genuinely honest, you didn’t care. it would have been absolutely fine for you to retire now. you felt that you’d made your mark. tours would drag you away from your loved ones, they require constant discipline and a lot of effort. something which you didn’t have a lot of at the moment.

“okay. how many shows?”

“not too many. around 80/90.”

you bite your inner cheek and nod. there isn’t anything else you can do.

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lucky: this has been a work that has been lovingly crafted by so many people. i want to thank my team, everyone who helped to bring this album to life. my best friend who would always bring coffee to set, my makeup artist and stylist tina who helped me create this gorgeous look and my incredible fans who make every release one i look forward to sharing to you. ‘oops!… i did it again’ is out now!

also i see you already getting your red jumpsuits ready for halloween!! tina’s already posted a list of makeup products on her ig - @makeupbyti.

also the biggest thank you to my biggest fan, my confidante and my forever muse - @charles_leclerc. this album wouldn’t be possible without you. thanks for being my first listener. i love you till the end of the road 💕

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user1: THANK YOU TINA!

-> lucky: we love tina in this household 💕

user2: “HER FOREVER MUSE” excuse me while i sob, scream and perhaps cry.

-> user3: i need a love like theirs one day.

user4: ALBUM BANGS

user5: NOW IM STRONGER THAN YESTERDAY!

-> user6: NOW IT’S NOTHIN BUT MY WAY

-> user7: MY LONELINESS AINT KILLIN ME NO MOREEE!

user8: ONE KISS FROM YOU!! AND SUDDENLY

-> user9: I SEE THE ROAD LEAD OUT IN FRONT OF MEEEE

user10: IM A CMULM STAN! SOTY!!!! 😋

billieeilish: thank you for letting me help write some songs alongside you. i love you 🖤

-> lucky: love you the most billie. thank you!!

-> user4: this is my favourite music friendship. so cute.

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you pull out your phone when you see charles ringing. you smile to yourself and lie it against the pillow across from you. when the facetime connects, you see he’s in the same position as you. sleep rumbled with flushed cheeks and twinkly eyes.

you want to kiss him but you’re in amsterdam and he’s in madrid. you doubt you would even have time to make it, even if you could justify the expense to your team.

“hi sweet girl.” he grins at you. “you look pretty.”

“you’re prettier. didn’t you see the tweets? i manifested you.” you laugh slightly. “lucky girl with a gorgeous boyfriend.”

“opposite way around actually. lucky guy.”

“i miss you.” you sigh, looking around your hotel room. it’s gorgeous. it has everything you could possibly want or need and if it didn’t, a quick phone call downstairs would immediately rectify that. but you miss charles. you miss your best friend. you miss your home.

“i miss you too. next time i get a break i’m flying to wherever you are and that’s a promise. okay?”

“okay.”

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FIVE MONTHS LATER.

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ham1ltonshaderoom: according to sources, singer yn yln and athlete charles leclerc have broken up. the reason being that their busy schedules had gotten too intense for the two of them to handle. singer yn, also known by her stage name lucky, has just embarked on her newest world tour and driver charles is currently travelling for his f1 races.

sources state that their families and friends were all ‘shocked’ by the news as it seemingly came out of the blue. with one party stating that he had seen them only a month earlier and they were ‘all over each other’:

view the link in bio for more information, but how are we feeling at the demise of the power couple ham1ltons?

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user1: well how is he gonna stay relevant now?

-> user2: he’s an f1 driver. i think he’ll be fine.

-> user1: don’t gaf. he’s a flop. how do you fumble THEE yn yln?

user3: NOOOOOOOOOO JUST FELL TO MY KNEES

user4: wait um… why am i happy… yn is single now

user5: him breaking up with her because she got successful is sick. men always want to destroy a woman when they become more successful than them.

-> user6: we don’t know that’s why they broke up or that he was the one who initiated. it could have been her or it could have been mutual.

user7: good. he’s been driving like shit since he started dating her.

-> user8: okay now that’s a lie 😭

user9: this is so sad. they were in love just before she went on the tour. could they not handle long distance?

-> user10: probably not. while yn was writing and recording, she was able to be more flexible so she would travel with charles wherever he went but being on tour means she can’t do that.

-> user11: this makes me believe it was his fault and he broke up with her.

-> user10: i always hated them together anyways. athletes are always bad news.

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charles_leclerc: leo, frank and i.

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user1: the dog is so cute :(

user2: is it true y’all?? did they really break up?

-> user3: they kept all the pictures of each other on their profile and he still follows her.

user4: CHARLES MARC HERVÉ PERCEVAL LECLERC WHAT IS GOING ON 😭

user9: the frank song… oh they’re over :(

-> user10: he’s playing SELF CONTROL too 😭😭

-> user11: is the lyric choice deliberate? yn cried on stage the other day :(

-> user12: idk omg. it sounds like a dick move if so… poor lucky :((

user5: that f1 gossip page was lowkey right because yn is halfway through her tour and he hasn’t been to ONE tour date.

-> user6: thats lowkey crazy when u consider how she would always come to his races to support him.

user7: i just want them back together :( they were the only celeb couple i could stomach.

-> user8: no deadass. they were my taylor/travis.

user13: frank ocean…. this is the most post-breakup ex boyfriend post ever 😭 charlesynnies we lost.

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PARTIAL PHONE TRANSCRIPT BETWEEN YN YLN AND CHARLES LECLERC. — LEAKED BY TMZ.

YLN (CRYING): i hate it. i’m so sorry. i’m so sorry charles. i didn’t want to do it. i just can’t do it anymore.

LECLERC: hey, it’s okay. i get it. it’s okay. i’m not upset with you. i’m not angry.

YLN: i fucking hate touring. i hate it so much. it takes everything from me. i broke up with you because i knew you’d get tired of me. that the tour would make me a shell of myself and you’d inevitably dislike me.

LECLERC: where did you get that from?

YLN: that’s what my ex did. i don’t even blame him.

LECLERC: but i’m not him. i understand that it takes a lot from you but a relationship isn’t supposed to be 50/50 all the time. sometimes it’s 90/10 or 70/30. it’s okay for me to help you. you’ve already done what? two thirds of the tour? not too much left to get through and then you’ll be free. you can do it.

YLN: i know. i just hate it. i love my fans and i love making music but the tour is just too much. this is my third tour in two years…. i miss you. i’m sorry.

LECLERC: i miss you too yn. there is nothing to be sorry about.

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ham1ltonshaderoom: tmz leaked the audio of a emotional phonecall between exes superstar yn yln, more famously known as lucky, and f1 athlete charles leclerc. the two minute leak has the global superstar crying about her current tour and her ex-boyfriend comforting her.

what do we think of the leak ham1ltons?

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user1: oh this is so disgusting my god.

user2: whoever leaked this go to hell. this was very much a private moment between the two.

user3: yn’s management need to let her take a break. a album and a world tour EVERY YEAR is insane!!! i’m surprised she hasn’t burnt out yet.

-> user4: she’s reaching the end of her rope and that makes sm sense. this is a insane amount of work and she’s only in her early twenties!!!

user5: charles was so sweet. at least we know it wasn’t his fault but i feel so much for lucky :( she doesn’t deserve this.

user6: poor lucky :( her management should go to hell!!!

user7: she needs more people looking out for her. this is awful. why would someone even record this anyways???

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charlesupdates: charles was spotted in rio de janeiro/galeão–antonio carlos jobim international airport! he signed a bunch of stuff for fans and then had to head off before taking any pictures! i wonder where he’s headed? 🤔

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user1: OMGGGGG

user2: LUCKY IS PERFORMING IN RIO DE JANEIRO

user3: CHARLESYN BACK TOGETHER AGAIN THANK YOU GOD PLEASE

user4: PLEASE PLEASE

user5: ITS HER LAST TOUR DATE PLEASE

user6: i’ve never been this invested in a celebrity relationship ever but i really want this for both of them!!! they seem miserable without each other.

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lucky: and that’s a wrap on the world tour! thank you to all of my incredible fans, the hardworking and talented team behind the scenes and my family and friends for being there for me throughout everything.

a lot of things have been speculated upon and discussed on the internet about me and my life. i am aware of my status and how it endorses these sort of conversations about me but i just want to encourage kindness. we don’t know what someone is going through and a little compassion can go a long way.

i will be taking some time off for my own personal reasons as the tour has wrapped up, but i will see you next year. i love you! stay lucky!!! 💕

tagged: @ charles_leclerc

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user1: WAR IS OVER THANK YOU LORD!!!!!!

user2: take all the time u need lucky!!! we love you!!!

user3: CHARLESYNNIES HOW WE FEELIN??

user4: THE PIC OMG! they’re so cute :(

-> user5: yn was so happy at this concert, and charles was spotted there all four nights!!!

-> user6: i love them 🥺🥺🥺

user7: lucky i hope u spend this time having fun and relaxing!!! u deserve it!!

user8: missed seeing charles being tagged in every lucky post…. IM SO HAPPY THEYRE BACK TOGETHER.

billieeilish: i love u :(

-> lucky: i love u too!!! i’m still around!!! always :)

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liked by lucky, arthur_leclerc and 1,726,828 others.

charles_leclerc: home ♥️

tagged: @ lucky

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— diva anthems taglist: @ihtscuddlesbeeetchx3 @chuxk-lerclerk @ivyvlair @luvsforme @claymoreshaze @mehrmonga

— all works taglist: @luvsforme @yelenasloverrrrr @donttouchthegnote @chelle1306 @bloodyymaryy @aliciaablueprint @lennnooshh @km-23mr @stinkyjax @f1kenzzz @ctrlyomomma @theblueblub @lavisenri @marshmummy @23victoria @ourlifeforchaos @namgification @tallrock35 @avada-kedavra-bitch-187 @ariellovelynn @shhhchriss @lifeless-firefly @xylinasdiary @evie-119 @itseightbeats @tsireyasgf @landososcar @yongi-lee @maxlarens @velentine @m1892 @blushmimi @evans-dejong

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[yridenergyridenergy]

Hii, i’m big fan of your page. Everyday I scroll you page lol.

And i wanna ask ur opinion, is true that Dir now is more popular than before especially for english speaker fan? I see many english comment in Dir page (IG, youtube, twitter) than before

And peoples really noisy about AI and write rude comment in The devil in me (youtube). Maybe people write that comment because hate the MV. In my opinion, they are like new comer in Dir music world lol.

I think Dir also did video editing in previous video (i’m not sure it’s AI or anything else), like in Glass skin, Rinkaku, agitated.

And about the delay of The Devil MV, i think they are lazy to upload because so much negative comment before watching (lol kidding)

But in my opinion, AI not that cheap and still use money, effort, dresser, makeup artist, time and team for making that MV. So I disagree to people who said this is really cheap, artist thief that no use dresser, make up artist or more worker.

But actually yess, i agree art never can be replace by AI. But hey, this is just MV not art exhibition or art competition.

I feel like why people in this era too focus on something else than main masterpiece.

#sorryformyenglish have a great day!

Sorry for the slightly late reply; I had prepared my reply a few days ago but I'm glad I waited since the promotional edit of the PV was released since. Thank you for your visits!

I'm really not sure whether Dir en grey has increased their fanbase... And shows that play on nostalgia are not an accurate reference, so even if the shows this year were to be sold out, it doesn't mean anything because that could totally drop next time they tour with new material, unfortunately. I think that the European tour definitely awakened temporary fans who could disappear again once the buzz has died down.

Dir en grey's director has definitely used CGI in the past, but you still needed artists to achieve anything. I don't know exactly how the AI that the director used for The Devil In Me works, but the common conception is that you just input requests and the robot does everything for you. It's certainly a lazier way. And no clue how much using that technology costs, but it's not equal to several artists' and actors' salaries, probably.

Sadly, the behind-the-scenes on the Devil In Me video disc did not offer anything in the way of a hint at what the AI is and how they used it...

I'm still of the opinion that maybe it can take Dir en greys videos farther than they've been able to so far, and maybe materialize the director's vision more accurately. But yeah, if everything moving forward is AI-generated, that would leave a sour taste. Already, the Otogi backdrop video didn't seem like something that only an AI could come up with: artists would have done at least the same job, if not better, to be honest.

With The Devil In Me PV, I'll have to actually watch the Netflix documentary on John Wayne Gacy, but I'm having difficulty reconciliating how the lyrics tie in with either the killer's life or the person in the video who is chatting with an AI to try and see inside the killer's mind. That's not what the lyrics evoke to me at all...

[roblogging]

hii im asking your thoughts on something because i agree w a lot of what you say - i see a lot about the inherent misogyny in the fandom but not as much as the transphobia side of it. could you talk about it a bit?

below the cut for anyone who wants to skip 🫶🏻 (this is really long i'm sorry)

HI OKAY:

first of all, i dislike the use of the word inherent in these discussions - i don't think it applies. a fandom (made up of individual people) cannot be inherently anything in my opinion. and that includes misogynistic. if it were built ON misogyny/transphobia and everything and everyone followed those ideals then yes, we'd use the word. but it wasn't built on those and the presence of such things does not make them inherent. it's an individual basis.

it's a very typical view - one that i've discussed a lot before - that simply engaging with this fandom is transphobic. i (a trans man) have been called transphobic for engaging with jkrs world in non-profitable ways. so, if part of the argument is that it's inherently transphobic to be in the fandom when jkr produced the world, i refute that entirely. her views on many things may bleed into the original works and are the forefront of her "public image" but fandom does its best to alleviate the harm that causes. it's not separating art from artist, it's acknowledging that she's awful and creating a space where people from these harmed communities can still engage with something they love.

that being said,,,, yes. lots of transphobia in the fandom. BUT i think it's worthwhile to note that as a trans person with a platform, of course i see more of it. and though that might make me a better person to talk about it, it does mean i'm obviously subjected to it and see it more. i truly don't know how prevalent it is naturally, it just so happens that i see a lot of it.

not that i'm excusing it. because some of the things that have happened to me are fucking vile. but i think it the vast majority of it comes down to the eroding of fandom etiquette (and the rise of fandom on social media).

i posted a video about peter being friends with the marauders for example, and people disliked it. i got a lot of comments about my appearance because people disagreed with me, and i ended up being posted onto reddit truscum. which, if you aren't aware, essentially means they posted screenshots of me in makeup and debated how trans i am (see also: cis "feminine" sirius discourse). i had a notion page of fic recs that i made and put up because i thought it would be a fun and cute thing to do and i thought people would enjoy it. some disagreed with jegulus being on there and my irls had countless dms demanding to know what my deadname is. i've had to block it from my comment sections. if there are disagreements in my comment sections, slurs are thrown easily. i've been posted onto transmed pages because i posted a video talking about my experience on testosterone and i pointed out some of the negative things, which had led to me "not being actually trans because trans people wouldn't complain" (sorry that i don't particularly like shaving my tits ig. diy top surgery isn't particularly my goal). if i post about a ship people don't like, slurs are thrown.

or, my fav, i got multiple dms telling me that they feel as though trans people are "taking over the fandom" when i hit 10k. like??? god fucking forbid people who enjoyed these books as kids now feel comfortable engaging with them again??? god forbid we've made trans people feel welcome. and no, they aren't taking over. you're just paying too much attention to their identity. i truly don't think about the numbers on my account at all because traction means fucking nothing to me when i just want to yap and meet friends (like obviously, ofc so fucking grateful but it's not my goal or priority) but i fear i didn't get 10k for being trans, i got 10k because i'm generally a nice person who people like.

if i do *anything* that people disagree with, i'm subjected to transphobia.

because fandom etiquette is gone, because i'm confident in my identity, because i don't adhere to traditional masculine gender norms that cis men get praised for subverting, but i must just be a confused woman if i wear makeup, right?

i've definitely had my fair share of just,,, transphobia. like just people who dislike *me*, but 99% of the time it's just that people dislike my ships/hcs and instead of being a normal person and scrolling or engaging in something they enjoy, they know an easy way to get back at me. to get back at me for,,, having fun i guess.

and i could go on for ages about certain discourses, but i've said it all before on my tiktok (see again: sirius in makeup).

i think,,, there's a lot of transphobia in the fandom, from my experience. i think a lot of it stems from the fact that these spaces have become more prevalent on social media which is generally an awful place and horrible to trans people, and people can leave a comment and scroll without connecting the fact that it's an actual person.

but on the flip side, there's less transphobia than there is acceptance. i can post a yap and receive transphobic comments for the things that i've said, and i will delete those comments and watch as other people say that my voice sounds so different. or i can open up comments and see "you look so masc here", or i can reply to dms from people starting their own gender identity and be happy about the fact they thought of me to come to.

again, fandom has become more prevalent on social media. social media relies on traction, hate gets more traction than positivity, boom. we see the hate more.

i'm not gonna sit here and say it doesn't hurt. i'm not gonna sit here and say that there definitely isn't a transphobia problem in this fandom. because there is. but i'm also not gonna say that it's inherent, when every single person that i've connected with on a meaningful level, alongside a good 80% of the interactions i've had generally, has been nothing but overwhelmingly accepting.

the transphobia is there, but i won't be there to listen to it or entertain it. those clearly aren't the people i want in my bubble.

[m4yday-m4yday]

𝖂𝖊𝖑𝖈𝖔𝖒𝖊 𝖙𝖔 𝖒𝖞 𝖇𝖑𝖔𝖌!

(tw: flashing at the bottom i put blinkies there)

Call me Eros or Mayday (Anthony Sparrow irl but I prefer fun cool weird names online)

My otherkin sideblog is @that-dog-is-so-gender

he/it/e(/she but only used by my bf cus I'm testing it out)

Agender and pangender transmasculine (Ik it's contradictory but I can do whatever I want with my gender forever)

Bi and aspec (grayromantic, graysexual, arospike)

Probably autistic (getting tested soon! idk how i feel about it) so like be patient cus I don't read tones well lmfao I get so nervous

Theater kid. I bet u can tell, I've been told I'm dramatic

I post my art very inconsistently, but if you wanna see it, it can all be found under the tag #artists on tumblr (no guarantee it'll be good lol especially as you find the older shit)

My original posts are under the tag #eros says shit

Minor (15) 18+ blogs don't follow

'MURICAN 🦅🦅

DM's are open to mutuals only

DM me if you want, I love talking to ppl, but if you're an adult I'm going to keep conversation to a minimum to ensure my safety (some of my moots are adults and they're cool af so this isn't cus I don't like you I js have a fear of being groomed so)

I am not in a place where I can donate anything, I am a minor

I'm bilingual and know English and Spanish but English is my first language (I've been going to bilingual schools since I was like 6) so that's fun

DNI if you're younger than 13

DNI homophobes, transphobes, aphobes, terfs, racists, sexists, MAPS (pedophiles. yall cant hide behind an acronym), transracial ppl idk, etc. Bigoted assholes can kindly fuck off, thank you ;)

I support furries and otherkins and therians and all that jazz so if you don't like that ig just deal with it? Touch grass? Doesn't rly matter if you see ppl on the internet just being themselves it's not a personal attack. I also support self-diagnosis if you do research and all that and are being serious about it cus the medical industry is FUCKED and doesn't take people seriously based on dumb stereotypes

I block freely and if I don't like your vibe I'm gonna do that

All the extra stuff is under the keep reading thing bc it's long and painful to read. If you don't wanna read it some of the fandoms I'm in are specified in the tags <2

𝕬𝖑𝖑 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖘𝖍𝖎𝖙 𝕴 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊:

𝕾𝖙𝖚𝖋𝖋 𝕴 𝖜𝖆𝖙𝖈𝖍 - Helluva Boss - Brandon Rogers - DEADPOOL MOVIES!!!!!! AGHJAKJHGFCDFGHJ - X-Men '97 - The New Mutants (the movie sucked but it has a special place in my heart, ok? I love Rahne Sinclair) - Supernatural (I'm on season 10 rn) - Good Omens - Dead Boy Detectives

𝕸𝖚𝖘𝖎𝖈𝖆𝖑𝖘 𝕴 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊 - Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street (2007) - RHPS - Cabaret (1998) - Falsettos - West Side Story - Beetlejuice - Addams Family - Frankenstein - Prolly more I forgot to list but those are my faves

𝕸𝖚𝖘𝖎𝖈 𝕴 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊 (𝖓𝖔𝖙 𝖎𝖓𝖈𝖑𝖚𝖉𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖒𝖚𝖘𝖎𝖈𝖆𝖑𝖘) - Remo Drive - Mitski - Fall Out Boy - NOAHFINNCE - MCR - boygenius - IDKHBTFM - Jack Stauber - The Amazing Devil - Queen - Billy Joel - Green Day - Tom Petty - Bikini Kill - Rabbitology - The Crane Wives

𝕳𝖔𝖇𝖇𝖎𝖊𝖘 𝖎𝖌 - Sewing - Drawing - Making kandi (although my bf does it better he's the bead master he taught me his ways and I am but a lowly bead wench compared to his bead mastery) - I write a little bit of poetry and I'm proud of it but I don't show people it often and it's shitty but oh well - Sobbing into my pillow over the full moon episode - Makeup - Fashion design - Idk being a furry? Drawing them? Wearing my dino mask is fun I like to bite things with it it's very nice - IDK WHERE ELSE TO PUT IT BUT I LIKE FRANKENSTEIN

𝕮𝖍𝖆𝖗𝖆𝖈𝖙𝖊𝖗𝖘 𝕴 𝖐𝖎𝖓 (not in a fictionkin way but I do support y'all) - Crowley (Good Omens) - Stolas (Helluva Boss) - Blitz (Helluva Boss) - Dean Winchester (Supernatural) - Castiel (Supernatura) - Deadpool (All media. He's my babygirl) - Party Poison

I'm like always adding to this lol

[rintarousgirl]

i wanna be yours -- 8. 505

✦ - Y/N is a small business owner, offering her services not only as a designer but an at-home makeup artist and cosmetic producer as well. She's perfectly content with her small life when she's approached by the manager of the INARIZAKI band, asking for her to fill the position of backstage artist on short notice. Needing the money, and wanting the experience, Y/N agrees. Little does she know of the fatal attraction she will share with the band's lead, Suna Rintarou.

a/n: so, this is late ik, but i was writing a fic on ao3 so LMAO priorities ig. i have literally no other excuse than that and i am so sorry. it's also my best friend's birthday week, so ive been running ragged trying to plan her birthday. i hope this doesn't seem too rushed and short, i just really wanted to give y'all smth.

When you see Rintarou again, he kisses you.

You reciprocate, of course, but when his hand drifts down your side, you push him back lightly. He steps away immediately, hands by his side in surrender.

"What's wrong?" he asks softly, but he doesn't touch you. You take in a deep breath, hands tightening on your purse strap.

"We moved too fast. Like, way too fast the other night. We...we need to have a conversation. Not over the phone," you explain calmly, eyes glued to his neck. The bruising had mostly faded, but there's still an obvious discoloration staining his pale skin.

Rintarou licks his lips and rubs the back of his neck. "Uh, yeah, let's go upstairs."

You follow him silently through his house, and the two of you come to the same sunken-in living room you'd been sitting in last week. You sit facing each other, your knees tucked beneath you. You reach out and grab his hands, thumbs running over each vein on his forearm in an attempt to soothe him.

"Going into this, I thought I was going to take it slow," you admit softly, looking up to him. His full attention is on you, and you feel your confidence shrink under the gaze of his hazel eyes. "I didn't, clearly, and you were right when you said you didn't want to mess this--us up. I don't want too either. So, we really have to take it slow, despite it all."

Rintarou nods. "There are...a lot of things that could go wrong if we don't." You hum, leaning into the plush fabric of the couch.

"I agree. And I don't want to force you into things, especially if they make you so uncomfortable but...communication is key and how am I supposed to learn what I'm not supposed to do if you never tell me what happened between you and Kiyoko?"

He clearly wasn't expecting it, seeing as his hands twitch in your hold and his eyes go wide. He almost pulls back, but then his fingers curl into his palms and he closes his eyes. "You're right."

"I'm all ears," you whisper, and Rintarou's voice drips with hurt as he begins to share the story not only you had been curious of, but thousands of fans had been too.

"Kiyoko Shimizu was the makeup artist before you. Brilliant at her job, and such a caring person. Kind of like you. I fucked up with her. I wouldn't say there were...romantic feelings between us, but I did care for her a lot more than I reasonably should've for just another friends with benefits situation."

You let the lead settle in your throat, and doubts begin to flood your mind. Were you just a Kiyoko replacement in more senses than one? Were you supposed to be another heartless fuck to Rintarou? You bite down on your tongue to keep down your questions and let him continue.

"It went on for a while, I think it was almost a year. Yeah, about. We weren't exclusive or anything, so I wasn't upset that she met other people. Actually, I encouraged her to date others, because I knew she deserved better than a quickie in a dressing room."

Your brain kind of lagged. Had Kiyoko sought out other men, while actively having sex with Rintarou? Did she stop fucking him if she decided to go on a second date? There were so many minor questions that made your head spin. A sick part of you also tried to imagine them, sharing secret smiles and touches under the table. You quickly shake away that thought.

"Two months ago, Kiyoko was offered a job in the States with a performance company. Very famous. She'd do good there on a team of artists, and she wouldn't be over-working herself. She's probably putting makeup on famous artists as we speak, actually."

You knew Kiyoko was good, you'd be stupid not to. You weren't directly involved with all the drama surrounding makeup artists before joining the band, but you had heard her name. She was known for her signature smokey eye, and talent to apply "messy" makeup that didn't run during performances. Very good for bands with...a more sexual appeal.

"She didn't want to take the opportunity, or at least, she told us she didn't, but we all knew she did. She just didn't want to feel like she was 'betraying' us or something. Eventually, Kita just emailed the company back for her and sent her off, I guess. He was always looking out for her best interests, like he does for you."

It almost made you smile. You knew Kiyoko was nice, she was friends with Yachi after all, but it still had you thinking. She wasn't going to take the opportunity of a lifetime, because she didn't want to leave some silly boys? ... Would you end up like that too? Would you jeopardize your future?

Rintarou hand drags down his face, and your own hands settle uncomfortably in your lap.

"I didn't like her...not like I like you. I like you a lot more, Y/N," you blushed, and you could tell what he meant, under those awkward heavy words was a sweet 'i love you'. "But I still cared for her, deeply. I wanted the best for her, but it still hurt. For a while, she was my best friend, and I know it wasn't her choice to leave, necessarily, but she left, and she never looked back."

Your head rose, confusion clear on your face. With furrowed brows, you ask, "She...never called or anything?"

Rintarou shrugs. "She did the first few times, to let us know she was settled in but then she never called again. She's come back and visited her other friends, I know that, but she hasn't said a word to any of us. I...I can't help but think it's because of me, in some way."

His eyes are a bit wet, and you know he's trying to hide a lot of how he feels. You cup his face, rubbing beneath his eye and catching a tear on the pad of your thumb.

"It's okay to cry. You have the right to be upset. I don't know...why she stopped talking to you, but I'm sure she has her reasons. However questionable they may be. But I'm here now, and I don't want to be a replacement. I'm Y/N, not Kiyoko."

He groans, burying his face in your palm. He lets out a wet shaky breath against your hand, hands gripping your wrist. "I-I know you're different. I don't want you thinking you aren't," he lifts his head, hazel eyes finding yours and searching for something, "I don't want to lose you. Ever."

"You won't," you say, "we just gotta play our cards right."

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★ - kenma isn't a "tsundere" or anything, in my head, he's just not good with words and regrets what he says as soon as he texts it

★ - rintarou and you end up watching a movie together, so that's when you begin texting your friends

★ - kiyoko lore !! i am genuinely so sorry. you all prolly like hate me for this chapter being so lame for having such a big "reveal" or smth idk, but i have just been Burnt Out but this was the deal-breaker chapter and i promise you there will be more with her over the finale

✦ - Y/N is a small business owner, offering her services not only as a designer but an at-home makeup artist and cosmetic producer as well. She's perfectly content with her small life when she's approached by the manager of the INARIZAKI band, asking for her to fill the position of backstage artist on short notice. Needing the money, and wanting the experience, Y/N agrees. Little does she know of the fatal attraction she will share with the band's lead, Suna Rintarou.

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[lover-girl-estxx]

Him?!

not mine

one day to fight

Today was Media day the boy were in different room both doing interviews "everyones gonna break 15 minutes we'll come back together" Conor nodded and stood up "i'm gonna go get something to eat i'll be back in a bit" "okay" Dee said with a smiled. I walked down the hall to Nates room "oh sorry wrong room" I smiled. "hi" Nate said coming out of the room "hi" I smiled and hugged him "I was thinking you wanna go to dinner tonight?" he asked "sure! can you? don't you have weight to cut?" he shook his head "no i'm good i can just only have dinner" "okay i'm down let me know what time" "okay sounds good" "i'm gonna go eat right now and go do some editing so i'll see you later" "okay baby Love you" "Nate-" Nick said coming out of the room Nate turned around "isn't the Conors sister?" Nate put a hand over his mouth making me laughed "okay love you too bye" I said "love you?' Nick asked as Nate laughed and pushed him into the room.

I was now back doing photos for Conor

Nate<3: they're not taking that very well

Y:I thought you said they wouldn't care?

Nate <3: I thought they wouldn't, idk what to do.....Rich is saying I have late night training so ig no dinner tonight

Y: that's okay I get it fight week and all, jlmk if your coming to my hotel late

Nate<3: okay I will..and will most likely gonna text you threw the day

*you hearted Nate <3 message*

"your water cut off just started Conor" I said as he drank from his water bottle by our stuff "fook" he whispered setting it down, I went back to setting up lighting "who's Nate?" he asked looking down at my phone "hey don't look at my phone" I said going over and taking it from him "who is it? they asking for photos you took last week" "yeah it's -um my friend from California I just took photos of us at the beach" "in March in north california you went to the beach?" "um yeah you just went for sunset photos" "and who's Nate i've never heard of him" "no I think i've told you about him he-um- he's been my friend for awhlie" "and there's a heart next to his name just for fun? what does he do?" "he-" "Conor come feel the babys kicking!" he turned and went to her I sighed and mouthed a thank you.

Y: Conor almost found out we can not

Nate <3: dude how?

Y: your text Dee saved your ass

Nate <3: my ass? more like yours lol....we could tell him before the fight then just beat the shit out of each other might help us in the long run

Y: i'll have to think about that..... think after so it's a fair fight hes not so angry

| Next Day |

Y: i'm meet my family for a dinner before the fight..am I gonna see you before you guys fight?

Nate<3: just come to my locker room when you get to there

Y:you sure?

Nate <3: yeah....I know your nervous but everything is gonna work out I promise, just think of it like were sparring

Y: okay i'll see you later thank you love you<3

Nate <3: love you

I was stressing my brother and my boyfriend are fighting in six hours I was scared of them hurting each other bad, i'm nervous if Nate wins how much my brother will hate him after and Nate maybe the same. Dee came to my hotel room with her outfit and the makeup artist Conor got us, Conor spends money on the dumbest stuff sometimes. "your nervous yeah?" she asked "yeah..I just don't know what's gonna happen with everything" "you really like him?" I smiled "I love him he's kind and everything you would want..I just don't want things to be weird with Con" "at the end of the day you don't live for Conor you live for your self and it might be weird..but you love Nate and he treats you good your loyalty is to yourself not Conor okay?" I smiled and sighed "yeah thanks Dee I really needed that" she smiled and nodded.

We all set at the long table for dinner "how ya feelin' Con" I asked "I feel great i'm gonna wipe the floor with that little dork" he chuckled, I faked a laugh "you okay ya haven't been around a lot this week" he added "been workin' a lot people want more since the fight change" he nodded "okay you've been doing good thank you" I nodded "of course". "family photo!" Con said standing up we all got in the photo I was next to my mom who was next to Conor.

Conor was warming up the co-main event are about to walk out "Conor i'm running to get a drink before you lock in" he nodded. I walked down the hall, Nate said he just sits and waits for his fights so it was fine for me to see him. I knocked on his locker room door, he opened the door and he wrapping his arms around my waist mine his neck "you okay?" I asked "yeah i'm good are you good" I nodded "I don't believe you" he said softly he pulled away looking at me my eyes kinda watered "nothing Nate i'm being dumb" I dabbed my eyes "no it's okay..I couldn't imagine if Nick was fighting you" we both laughed "thanks" he made me look at him " I love you anything's gonna be fine in an hour this will be over and you never have to do this again k?" I nodded "I love you too," he kissed me "i'm sorry I can't cheer for you and i'll text you after" "okay mamas" I kissed his cheek before grabbing a drink and going back to Conors locker.

The fight started they fought Nate had blood dripping down his whole body while still hitting Conor. they went to they're corners I sighed my eyes moving from Conor to Nates as they got cleaned by the cutmen, they went back to the middle starting the second. I put my head into my lap Dee put her hand on my shoulder, cheers started to go and I looked up and Nate had my brother in a RNC, I was happy and sad at the same time. me and Dee went into the cage I hugged Conor "good job Con" I rubbed his back then stepped back to let Dee do the same. I went over and shook Nate's hand with a smiled "good fight Diaz" he smiled and shook my hand "thank you".

We walked back to Cons locker room he just sat on the floor rubbing his head in his own thoughts.

Nate <3: going out at 1 you wanna come?

Y: yeah I'll meet you probably 1:30

Nate<3: sounds good :)

A/n next part will probably be out Wednesday

[setherpiecemasterpiece]

"FTH∃ SYSTEM" 💥

Being terrifying isn't really that bad. Cuz we live in a world so advanced yet so distressed. I told you. Monsters don't look like ghosts, vampires, or werewolves. Real monsters look just like you and me.

They're online, they're wearing suits, they have wəap0n$, they're wearing simple clothes... but with claws and sharp teeth.

We can go on and on, they're everywhere & we could never escape em. I live in a world where even wearing makeup can be highly offens!ve or even crim!nal to others. ...In that case, call me a monster as well then.

𝙏𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙝𝙪𝙧𝙩 𝙪𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙬𝙚 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙛𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙗𝙖𝙘𝙠, 𝙬𝙚'𝙧𝙚 𝙨𝙚𝙚𝙣 𝙖𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙫𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙖𝙞𝙣. 🩸

Idc watduf you got to say. You can't trap us and you'll never trap us. Bring me change! Take a stand! and...

𝙁𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝙎𝙔𝙎𝙏𝙀𝙈 𝙘𝙪𝙯 𝙞𝙩 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙛𝙪𝙣𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙙 𝙬𝙚𝙡𝙡 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚𝙜𝙞𝙣 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝. ⚙️

👋🏻 Hiieee I'm back! Uploading again after a long while, been very occupied due to work, and this is a piece of work—that I've been longing to create—as a personal reminder to myself and my craft. And BTW...

🛑 𝙉𝙤 𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙠 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝘼𝙄 𝙜𝙚𝙣𝙚𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙙. 🧠

Stay creative! Take care RASCALS! 🧨

PS. Happy Pride Month! Stay authentic and live your truth! 🏳️‍🌈

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[thesturniolos]

hii are you still doing which triplet would match me? if yes pretty please tell me who do you think i would match with

i'm asian 5'2 or 5'3 on a good day (🤭) i have brown skin long black hairs i love love loveeeeeee reading (i will gobble up anything and everything; even if the plot is horrible and vocab is horrifing i would still complete reading bc mama didn't raise a quiter😓🙏) i used to write poems and i think i was pretty good at it (my eng teacher praises my writing skills that's like my biggest flex ever🤞) i love sketching painting and embroidering hehe i also love psychology english literature and philosophy I LOVE STRAWBERRY I HAVE AN UNHEALTHY STRAWBERRY OBSESSION (😟😓)i love pink and blue the most ig i love doing my nails hehe i would my style is a mix of everything bc i buy anything that's cheap hehe (here comes my shopping problem) my fav artists are taylor swift lana del rey olivia rodrigo gracie abrahams sabrina carpenter the neighbourhood arctic monkeys frank ocean dominic fike conan gray cigarettes after sex mitski beabadobee (it's all over the place 😓) besides that i'm a bollywood enthusiast 🙏❗i use too many emojis while texting i loathe phone calls i will never pick up a call unless it's from my parents i am introvert till i'm w my friends once im comfortable i will speak 24/7 my love language is gift giving (especially handmade gifts so cute i love recieving and giving it🥹🩷) physical touch and acts of service ig that's all me

hope you have an awesome day!!! 💕💓💖💞💗 (emoji overuse problem is showing hehe) feel free to ignore this if you don't feel like answering mwah<3

ps can i be 🎀 anon? if it's taken, 🍓 anon? if that's taken too you give me a cutie emoji❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

hi baby! of course you can be 🎀 anon, i don’t have any 😭 you can eve my first! hope you have an awesome day too cutie

i match you with…

matt sturniolo!

- this man makes sure you have an art room in your house and will always come in and check on your pieces hours before they’re finished.

- 100 dollars in the bank for new gels every week, he wants to see those painted and you happy, preferably pink!

- he will buy you so so much stuff- plushies, new clothes, room decor, snacks, movie rentals, stationery, books, art supplies, strawberry scented makeup- literally everything.

- you’re in charge of the aux in his car even though he’s not the biggest fan of your style of music, he loves to see you singing along and tapping your feet to it.

- this man is big on physical touch. he doesn’t care about pda (forget the podcast) he will hug you and he will kiss you no matter who’s watching. he needs to be attached to the hip at you all the time.

- cute reading sessions in the evenings are your thing! yeah, nick and chris kinda make fun of it but deep down they’re both jealous of how cute you two are and how you make time for that.

girly give me your tag!!!! i wanna be friends 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🙏

[moonsb1996]

Concept art and miscellaneous ideas

hello ! @the-invisible-introvert-2004 with @lucia1234lizeth Today I'm still out of energy from my regular work so I haven't continued drawing lore. But that doesn't mean I'm abandoning the project either. And this is my miscellaneous idea. that are within the story and the subplots that are So I thought I'd bring it down for a while, (so I won't forget the subplots , I'm a forgetful person ha)

Idea 01 : Disguise

Pictured above are three characters I have ideas about for their disguises, from left to right.

Miyar: I have an idea. She has a passion for cosplay. It was her hobby to avoid being at home with Adila and her parents, so she often made all the equipment herself. including makeup But most of the time, she has to carry an umbrella with her cosplay character. Sometimes she works with friends who have broken out of jail. She will be the group's makeup artist. And she used to dress up as a boy. The only problem that will arise is the sound. Because she's not as good as PT 6th who can change his voice without a voice converter.

Oscar : My idea for him was a traditional performance. In Japan, old theater companies tended to have male performers. (I don't remember what it was called) meaning there were no female actors. A male actor must be able to play the role of a female character. If I remember correctly Some famous male actors (I don't remember their names sorry) can dance the roles of female characters beautifully. So I thought that even though he is a very tall man (177 centimeters), he could dress up as a female character. and the idea of ​​​​disguise or most of the characters It's mostly an idea from Myar's Lolita outfit.

Adila: The idea of ​​her disguise that I have for her is similar to how Himiko Toga disguises herself or what Horikoshi Kohei does for the characters in MHA. Bad, insulting to human intelligence and characters. As you can see she looks almost unchanged. Because she doesn't even dye her hair, and in fact, if she were to disguise herself in my story, she would "suck, suck" the blood of the person she liked. and disguised himself as him for a week or two (Put the blood in the refrigerator or keep it in a temperature-proof glass.) As a result, when she was hiding in different places, there were reports of bloodless corpses found in alleys, both men and women. But it's mostly women because Adila wants to look cute.

Idea 02 Subplot: Phantom Thief Family

Idea 02 Subplot: Phantom Thief Family The character you see here is Phantom Thief Family Their story is related to the background of most of the story. If you still remember starting from PT 1st, which was involved in "cults" because it was a job hired by Queen of the Irithyll Kingdom But we won't talk about him. I'm going to take you to get to know the Phantom Thief, who is called the cause of… Subplots of their entire lineage

Phantom Thief 5 (The One Who Turned His Back) He is the grandfather of Phantom Thief VI and a "possible relative" of Fuelel. EE : Fortune telling cards Type : IGES Ability: the 5th There are cards that are the same as all 22 tarot cards that will appear when he looks into the target's eyes. The condition of fever is The target must also stare back. Whether consciously or unconsciously This will cause all 22 tarot cards to appear, and when the 5th condition is met, he can "predict the fate" or "determine the fate" of the target.

Example: When the target fulfills the 5th condition, the cards can be shuffled to see the target's "future", such as "The target will have a serious accident" and the target will have an accident as stated. or Number 5 will "choose" the future for the goal, such as "The target will have a serious accident.">>>"The target will have a water accident." But the 5th doesn't have the ability to "see" the death of the "target". Sounds like the OP, but there are also problems using this EE, such as: the 5th cannot use EE on himself. or his bloodline, it meant that he couldn't know that the 6th would lose his arm. Or he will grow old and die. or killed and sometimes cannot be used with what the "world" has determined that "Not human

This EE cannot be used for 4 hours per day and not more than 4 times in a month. and cannot predict the "future" of more than 4 targets. Fun Fact: The number 4 in Chinese means "death," and for Phantom Thief the 5th, who can predicting other people's fortunes. It's a really bad number.

Phantom Thief 6th (sitting on the left) EE : Card Type : Foil Ability: When he touches people, animals, or objects, those objects transform into "cards." You can think of it like a card collecting game. The maximum size he can fit into a card is It was the size of a 4-door car, so he couldn't turn the entire building into a card. Anything larger than a 4-door car would leave cracks. the 6th can restore them by deactivating them through the sound of snapping their fingers. (He has the same abilities as the 4th, the5th's younger brother.) However, the 6th has the ability to read tarot cards just like regular fortune telling. Using general fortune telling conditions (name of target Target's date of birth House registration number, etc.) the 6th got the5th Teach how to use cards to predict people's fortunes. It has the same rule as the5th's EE, namely the number 4 rule. As for accuracy, it is considered to be at a certain level as well.

Futel (sitting on the right) EE : Doll Type : Foil Abilities: When in contact with people, animals, or things, those objects will transform into Dolls or toys, such as people turning into dolls A real gun becomes a toy gun, with the form of a "toy" or "doll" being random. Sometimes people are dolls. Or plastic dolls, things, too. Unlike the5th, Futel can use EE on himself. And with people in his family as well. Normally, if a person was touched by him, they would turn into a doll. who cannot move the body but can feel it as normal (Even the pain) Futel transforms into a stuffed animal. that can talk and move But unable to maintain physical strength, for example, if you were not turned into a doll, you could still lift a dumbbell. When he became a doll, he couldn't lift a dumbbell because the inside of the stuffed animal was stuffed with soft fibers. And Futel doesn't like being seen as a stuffed animal because of the embarrassment of his appearance. Unfortunately, I haven't designed it yet. But I can say that it is. Rabbit stuffed animal

[nixiecat]

hi how do you get your eyeliner so sharp and smooth on your face? Is there a specific brush you like?

Have a lovely day ^-^

ok tbh I'm actually not super knowledgeable about makeup stuff I don't really use anything fancy, just whatever generic cheap stuff. It's mostly just years of being an artist that makes me good at it ig.

[fromrosepetalcottage]

Wabi sabi life

Photo by Sakagura London.

I've been thinking about the Japanese practice of kintsugi as seen in ceramics, as well as the sashiko mending technique in clothing. Kintsugi encompasses the concept of wabi sabi. Wabi-sabi is the view or thought of finding beauty in every aspect of imperfection in nature. It is about the aesthetic of things in existence, that are “imperfect, impermanent, and incomplete."

Is this not something that we can apply to humans in all our imperfections, psychic wounds new or old, bodies easing into "vintage" years? I read something on a Japanese website that translated the concept in an accessible way that really made me think of how wabi sabi could apply to us, especially as older women. To quote:

Wabi sabi is a beautiful way to describe what is natural and pure and to acknowledge the beauty of any substance or being in its most natural and raw form. It eliminates the rather Westernized concept of artificial beauty and idolizing a state of perfection that is seemingly unachievable and unnatural. The western world has made the concept of beauty into something that is becoming more and more refined as well as more and more unachievable with each passing day and it distorts the idea of natural beauty and accepting the flaws of existence, however, on the contrary, the Japanese belief and concept of wabi-sabi embraces just that and allows the people to be more accepting and open to embracing the beauty of flaws and rawness. Source: https://www.kyoto-ryokan-sakura.com/archives/191

I can't be the only person who scrolls social media and is dismayed by the ubiquity of certain types of selfies. There is a depressing sameness of makeup, hair, expressions, poses. A famous actress once said that adolescence was the time of life when young people had to prove their individuality by looking exactly like everyone else. And that's what social media has become. Extended adolescence on a worldwide scale. Even influencers targeting a mature crowd seem to have fallen into the look alike/dress alike mold. Style blogs that are supported by retail outlets spotlight similar fashions, and while some might link to different size ranges, few share resources that help women understand their shapes or unique natural coloring, leading to a different type of clone wars.

As the Japanese point out, in the West our idea of beauty is something that is so airbrushed and Photoshopped into perfection that it's often unrealistic. A friend and I recently had lunch then stopped in a local IG hotspot to shop and get a couple of snapshots. A nice bystander took a few photos of us, but I was dismayed to see the unfiltered evidence of my current age. I look old, was all that I could sputter. As my friend pointed out, I'm pretty good with editing software and apps, so after a little tweaking, I uploaded the best shot later. But that reflex has nagged at me a little. I don't like looking older, but it's my reality. I am 64, although I could pass for late 40s on a good day.

In the Western Hemisphere, as well as the U.K., the idea that youth is best reigns. When I was in my 20s, I learned that once you hit 30 you were considered over the hill in Brazil. Maybe this idea came from ancient Greece. During the Classical period, idealized sculptures had perfect proportions, but also illustrated the Greek's belief that people peaked at about the age of 18 or so. Even a sculpture of Zeus, king of the gods, might have depicted him as an older man with flowing hair and beard, but Zeus still rocked a body that would make Arnold envious. Over millennia canonical artists have continued to use youthful models. However, the two years of art school that included life drawing classes with nude models ranging from fit and young to older and soft taught me to look differently at bodies.

Model mama, art school, 2002.

For whatever reason, I had an easier time drawing bodies that had a surplus of "fluff" on them. Students weren't supposed to have contact with our models, but our class threw a shower for one. She had taken a maternity leave and on her return, still obviously hadn't lost any of the baby weight, but it didn't matter. Her Rubenesque curves were a delight to try and capture on my drawing board. Unlike some of the young guys in my classes, for me there was nothing sexual about drawing an unclothed body. I saw light, shadow, lines, curves, textures. It takes a certain kind of bravery, and maybe some healthy vanity, to model nude for a studio full of strangers four days a week at universities and art schools around the county to earn enough to live on. This woman gave no fucks that she was considered large in that pre-body-positivity era. Her body had functioned beautifully as it was meant to. She brought a healthy baby into the world. The abundant curves of her abdomen and hips were certainly evidence of their recent use, and she was still breast feeding - again her body was functioning as nature meant. What society might consider imperfect served not only her child, but also students looking to refine their technique in depicting the human form.

We all have some type of imperfection whether visible or invisible. Childhood wounds to the psyche aren't always apparent, although the effect of physical wounds remain visible or physiological in limps or twinges. Our culture pushes near perfection via magazines, films, television programs, and online influencers who seem to want to sell us something that will bring us closer to that elusive goal.

I have another friend who is fond of saying that we already have all we need inside us. While meditating this morning, that thought drifted into my consciousness. I was focusing on wholeness and trust - self trust to be exact. I've made so many mistakes at this point that they could be used as examples on how NOT to live. But I'm ok, and I do have all that I need externally. I have a job and good friends. My home isn't the fanciest, but I have a comfortable place to lay my head at night, there is food in the pantry, and there's good reading and music at hand. Experience has been a tough teacher, but instead of being broken my body has mended the external damage, and the practice of meditating and journaling has helped to salve the emotional wounds.

As those thoughts came to me after I finished meditating, the concept of wabi sabi surfaced. Beautiful imperfection. The kintsugi technique is the repair of shattered pottery and then using gold leaf to highlight the lines where the vessel had come back together. The jagged lines aren't seen as flaws, but as something to be cherished and the gold makes a treasure of the piece. Sashiko mending involves using decorative stitches to patch or darn a spot on a garment that is fraying or has developed holes. The technique has come into fashion in the West with people becoming more conscious of sustainable clothing. Rather than disposing of a worn garment, repair it and add a personal touch that is a thing of beauty in and of itself. I tried sashiko on the elbow of a much loved topper that I was wearing at work every day. The technique salvaged the piece and kept it out of the recycle bin.

Sashiko source: https://perennialstl.org/event/boro-sashiko-mending/

After a pretty traumatic road accident the same elbow on my body had to be stitched back together, along with some other spots. The stitches didn't quite heal right, and 12 years later, the scars are still there on my arm. Maybe they're my personal kintsugi, although it's not possible to apply gold leaf. The scars are evidence that I am still here, still functioning - got motion back - and I'm still useful. I'm broken but unbowed.

I believe that anyone who has made it this far is going to have some internal or external damage; it's natural. Life is not perfection; life is messy and if we just accept that we can't control everything, it's a bit easier to accept the occasional mess and imperfections. While I certainly have things I'm still working on, things that are in my sphere of control, the rest is what it is. Like the kintsugi vessel, my scars are golden. If you've read this far, yours are as well...

[georgiapeach30513]

I heard you also wanted some Chris too😭 but the problem is I can’t find them 😭 them people don’t like him that much like as much as they like Seb.

And who told you people don't like him that much like as much as they like Seb bc I'm definitely seeing the other way around but if you follow only Seb's blogs it's normal that you think that because I'm only following Chris's blogs and its normal that I see the other way around. At least use your brain 😭😭😭😭😭 oh just to let you know, Chris fandom hates Ai, only few enjoy it, have you thought about it, uh? apparently not.

I think she was talking about on TikTok. Fans are different on different social medias. It’s why I don’t venture onto twitter/X. TikTok I don’t get a ton of fandom stuff on my FYP. It’s more makeup, cooking, BookTok, and Della 😂 But when I did a quick, and digging search I didn’t see anything on TikTok. I’d say his fandom is heavier on IG, Twitter, and here.

But I do think it’s because a lot of his fans are a bit more leery with AI. I think it depends on how you use AI and if you’re stealing other artists work.

[ashley101mlg]

Some things abt me!

Things I Like to do/like

Fav colors -pink, red, white, black

Reading -wp, ao3

Makeup, shopping

Shows-the untamed, mdzs, tgcf,South Park, sds, hxh, seraph of the end, black butler, saiki k,soul eater, bsd +more

I have 6 dogs! And have 4 siblings

Age range 12-14 if you wanna be friends!

I like watching jay kubz scouts I'm a big fan of his videos

Some games I like - Sally face, fnaf, roblox, I play royal high, bloxburg, tycoons

Artist- Melanie Martinez(I prefer her cry baby abulms more than others), Lana Del Rey+ more just can't recall

Social media -insta, snapchat, Twitter (don't use it), tiktok, I'm planning on getting discord

I don't really dislike anything, kinda all ig for nw

Type of emojis I used -😨😍😭🤦‍♀️💀😧💗😜👏😼😢😡😣🤫😏😛🤞(they change every week)

[carolmunson]

How did you get started in make up and how did you turn it into a full time job? We’re you always freelance?

i wrote up a whole thing for this yesterday but then tumblr ate it so here's round two lmao.

so, i started having passion for makeup in general when my sister used to give me makeovers as a kid and then when i was living my scene queen lifestyle on myspace in the early aughts. then later in highschool i got into it more in general and liked putting it on other people, not realizing it it could be a career until college. i initially went to school to audition for my bfa in acting but then decided against it and majored in theater design. sort of carved my own path because i was the only person who wanted to do makeup for theater and film in my department. it wasn't until people were asking me to do their makeup and hair for headshots that i was like 'oh i can make money doing this' so by my senior year i was doing a lot of headshots and by the time i graduated i had designed and applied makeup for almost all of my schools productions and done some short films. while i was in college (and a few years out of college) i worked for sephora which is where i attribute a lot of my gained skill. i learned how to do makeup on every skin tone, type, bone structure, eye shape -- etc. i learned about hygiene, color theory, placement, blending etc. everything. people say they're 'self taught' but most artists are products of their artistic enviornment -- sure i taught myself how to do makeup but only because i learned how to do it from everyone around me. since i developed friendships with a lot of people in my field in college i ended up getting recommended and put up for a lot of work or recommended as a personal artist for some people. this was all happening while i was working at sephora. i eventually left sephora to pursue freelance artistry while also working for a couple of brands as a freelancer as well. my career was on a very upward trajectory until covid hit and then i sort of had to restart in some ways. a lot of being successful in this industry if you don't have a big IG following is by word of mouth. it's very a much a 'who you know' which seems so annoying to say but it really is who you know and who you meet and who is gonna say your name in different rooms. but also, it's a VERY rough industry because money is not always guaranteed and neither is the work. even this month i was like 'uhhhhh' cause i didn't have anything lined up and then BOOM, got an offer for two weeks from now for a week long job with a good rate. if you have any more questions you wanna ask me, if this is a career path you're interest in -- let me know you're username and i'm happy to DM you to chat about it!

[itsubear]

📷 What’s set as your phone’s lockscreen?

🍫 Cheese or chocolate? - Both.

✨ Do you have any nicknames? - People call me Su, Suzu (and sometimes Sus but you know why I don't use it anymore, lmao)

🎵 Last song you listened to? - Idk. I'm listening to an Alphys themed playlist haha

✏️ Have you ever written fanfiction? - Sorta. Yeah. For myself XD

😏 Are you on discord? - Yup! Mostly active on Spinz's server X3

 💛 Do you have any piercings? - Nope.

🐰 What do you think says the most about a person? - Their way of talking.

🍪 If you were a cookie, what kind would you be? - Butter cookie maybe? Tasty but best not to exaggerate.

🐶 Are you more of a dog person or a cat person? - Cat person.

🎧 Headphones or earbuds? - Headphones for life!1!1!

🌼 What’s the last thing you said out loud? - Goodnight to my dad...?

🙃 What’s a weird fact that you know? - Sea cucumbers can poop their guts to scare away predators ajfwfiw

🦉 Are you a morning person or a night owl? - Night owl

🧸 Favorite place to nap? - My bed or the sofa.

🏳️‍🌈 Are you a member of the LGBTQIA+ community? - Yup, I'm an ace lesbiab.

🦋 Describe yourself in three words. - Patient, careful, confused.

👖 Jeans or sweatpants? - Sweatpants PLEASE I hate wearing jeans.

🥤 What’s your go-to Starbucks order? - Latte or cappuccino.

🧡 A color you can’t stand? - Any electric color.

💎 What’s your most prized possession? - My sketchbook(s) and drawing tablet.

☕ Coffee or tea? - Tea.

🦖 Favorite extinct animal? - I know I have a fav one but I can't remember it now lol

🌙 How long have you been on tumblr? - 3/4 years I think (without posting anything at first).

🌴 Desert island item? - Lighter.

🐸 Describe your aesthetic. - Dreamcore with a hint of weirdcore ♡

🔮 What’s your dream job? - Comic artist. I'm studying to become one!

💙 Relationship status? - Single pringle </3

🌿 Describe your favorite outfit. - Scarf, plaid shirt, XL shirt underneath, comfy pants, snickers.

🎤 Is there a song you know all the lyrics to? - I... I don't know any songs completely. Touch-Tone Telephone (by Lemon Demon), however, is the one I know best.

🤎 What color is your hair? - Brownish (I would like to dye them blue).

💌 Do you talk to yourself? - Yes.

💄 Do you wear makeup? - I hate wearing makeup. My skin is too sensible Ig XD

🌸 Best compliment you ever received? - Every compliment is special to me qwq♡

💞 @ your favorite blog. - TOO SHY TO TAG 'EM

Omg Spinny we have a good bunch of things in common yaeee! Also thanks for the tag! :DD

~ 💖 ASK GAME 💖 ~

📷 What’s set as your phone’s lockscreen?

🍫 Cheese or chocolate?

✨ Do you have any nicknames?

🎵 Last song you listened to?

✏️ Have you ever written fanfiction?

😏 Are you on discord?

 💛 Do you have any piercings?

🐰 What do you think says the most about a person?

🍪 If you were a cookie, what kind would you be?

🐶 Are you more of a dog person or a cat person?

🎧 Headphones or earbuds?

🌼 What’s the last thing you said out loud?

🙃 What’s a weird fact that you know?

🦉 Are you a morning person or a night owl?

🧸 Favorite place to nap?

🏳️‍🌈 Are you a member of the LGBTQIA+ community?

🦋 Describe yourself in three words.

👖 Jeans or sweatpants?

🥤 What’s your go-to Starbucks order?

🧡 A color you can’t stand?

💎 What’s your most prized possession?

☕ Coffee or tea?

🦖 Favorite extinct animal?

🌙 How long have you been on tumblr?

🌴 Desert island item?

🐸 Describe your aesthetic.

🔮 What’s your dream job?

💙 Relationship status?

🌿 Describe your favorite outfit.

🎤 Is there a song you know all the lyrics to?

🤎 What color is your hair?

💌 Do you talk to yourself?

💄 Do you wear makeup?

🌸 Best compliment you ever received?

💞 @ your favorite blog.

Reblogs are appreciated!