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I’m so so sorry if this is too personal/invasive please don’t feel pressured to answer!! But how did you like know that you were trans? I feel like I would really like being a guy sometimes and like he/him pronouns and would love if I looked more masculine but also sometimes I like looking a little fem and it feels like I’m faking it? I think I would like to be more masc and use masc pronouns but I’m so scared of being wrong

HEYYY

i get this !! as we know, i'm a very feminine trans man so for a while i thought i was doing it "wrong" and wasn't "really trans"

but none of that matters !!!

for me it was really just that he/him felt the most comfortable, and i knew i wanted a more masc voice and body - hence T. like she/her would make me feel so bad and they/them just didn't feel like enough. and i was SO envious of my cis male friends, SO envious !! i didn't know what it was at the time but it was just the desire to be them.

i met an openly trans man my very first day at sixth form and he had makeup on which was my actual "oh? i can do this?" moment.

if i could give ANY advice, literally ANY advice, it would be separating gender identity from expression. which seems counterproductive i know, maybe even hypocritical because i'm getting surgery etc, BUT !! if cis men can be feminine, why not trans men? i feel like everyone is so for dismantling gender norms until it comes to trans people.

if the trans identity and he/him pronouns fit you, then they fit. whether or not you wear makeup is completely irrelevant. whatever fits fits, and all these boxes are so unnecessary.

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do you have a link to the rec sheet?

theres some missing bits that need to be updated and i'll update it every months with my read AND my tbr is being added soon but:

https://messrsrobyn-ficrecs.notion.site/MESSRSROBYN-S-ULTIMATE-FIC-REC-LIST-d9945e4845634e338729cc0fa275c345?pvs=4

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Sirius meeting Barty for the first time

Sirius : holy shit that’s a male version of Bella

Sirius: oh no him and regulus are getting to close

Sirius : JAMES!!! You know that rule about not dating my baby brother? I have thrown that in the trash and burned it, here’s my plan to get y’all two together right now!

James: YAY!

Somewhere in the distance

Barty: how did you know that was going to work?

Regulus: because I know my brother better then anyone and you remind him of our cousin, but you are like much nicer then she is, in my opinion. But Sirius doesn’t know that.

PLEASE. this is canon, i declare it so.

sirius setting jegulus up to "save" regulus and then just getting all 🥺🥺 oh my brother is SO loved 🥺🥺

i want a fic of sirius setting up a whole plan to get regulus out of the house and james being the main person to do it meanwhile reg is just twiddling his thumbs like "yes. send the hot friend."

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thank you for the tiktok and the posts here <3333 im mtf and i spent so long being scared of joining the fanspace and it was actually your tiktoks that got me to read all the young dudes. i know this world isnt built for us but i think you have made a space that really is and i hope you dont lose love for it because you really light up this space plus where else will get daily macarenas?!

i hope youre doing okay and take the time away from tiktok that you need we'll be here <33

hi this made me cry and mess up my makeup. like real bad. 🫂🫂🫂

i'm like weeping rn but i'm so glad you found a space !! i'm so glad you felt comfortable enough to engage and i hope you LOVED atyd, it will alwaysss have a special place in my heart.

THE MACARENAAAAA i fear it's infected me. why am i up in the club doing the macarena to every song ??? it's harshing my cool and mysterious aura

THANK YOU FOR THIS. got me all weepy. will neverrrr lose the love, and it's been such a lovely week away from the clock app, and the social side of things. i didn't realise how much it was scaring me and affecting me until now. but i'm doing so good !! so fucking good and i hope you are too !!

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hiiiii!!!!! i read only the brave cos if you!!!!! i’m crying!!!!!! might press charges!!!!!!

proper sad that was icl one of the best fics thank you sm xx

are you in my brain?! i was just thinking i need to reread this one !!

SUCH an incredible fic i could talk about it for hours i'm so glad you liked it

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what if making the wrong choices was so intrinsically a part of who you are that the second you try to change that by making one single righteous non-selfish choice you don’t survive the attempt. this is the life of regulus black

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do u keep up w any marauders fan films/series?

i dont, no.

i'm just an avid reader !! i don't really engage with much else besides fics

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hello just here to say i do follow you here.... SORRY HAHA

if it helps: i don't think you're that awkward in person! a little drunk but not awkward! and youre taller than i expected! sorry for blurting out your @ and.... not sure what else to say

just hello LOL

oh my GOD the flatmate chronicles continue. hi. hello. hi.

loving the fact this is on anon when we live together, i can know your address but not your tumblr.com 😭😭😭

A LITTLE DRUNK STOP IT 😭😭 i'm sorry oh this is humiliating can we do a redo??? please??? 😭😭 i'll cook you some of my pasta if we can pretend this never happened 😖😖 you can like,,, knock on my door whenever 😖😖 i promise i'm so much more chill irl than online

i'm so shy but hey, we're both frequenting MARAUDERS TUMBLR in our free time, i think we'll be fine.

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good boy but in the way you praise a hunting dog after you have it gore something

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I JUST SPOKE TO ONE OF MY FLATMATES AND SHES SO NICE AND I WAS SO CONFIDENT AND DEMURE AND I FEEL THE NEED TO TELL THE WHOLE WORLD CUZ IM SO PROUD AND I CANT BELIEVE I LEFT LONDON FOR A SMALL WELSH TOWN BUT I AM KICKING FRESHERS ASS

WALES ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ being half welsh is my one flex in life, i love it there.

LETS GOOO this is the year of social interaction and friendship 💪🏻💪🏻

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Embrace the cringe.

Write weird fanfic.

Read weird fanfic.

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I must speak the truth, Sirius would be happy that regulus was dating James because that means he wasn’t dating Barty; and Barty stressed Sirius out,

NO BUT YOURE RIGHT

i think i've yapped about the "rivalry" in my video about jegulus but !!!

sirius would be so happy they if his brother is going to be loved by anyone, let it be james !!! and if the alternative is barty,,,,, JAMES JAMES

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it's the "messrs?" AS IF THATS PART OF MY NAME 😭😭😭

at the student union and someone leaned over the bar and said "'messrsrobyn??" and i want to die

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if you thought this was bad.

the final flatmate has moved in and i went to introduce myself and she said "robyn right? messrs?"

i actually need to DIE it's the only option left for me.

at the student union and someone leaned over the bar and said "'messrsrobyn??" and i want to die

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how do i get a girl to go out with me?? shes so pretty imma die if she looks at me again✨✨✨

arguably the WORST person you could have asked. i literally do not know how to speak to human beings and my only method of flirting with women is "you're so pretty !!"

i pulled my partner by saying "i like your hair, whats your HOGWARTS HOUSE" 😭😭 in my defence, it was freshers week i can't be held responsible for anything that happened.

and the one (1) girlfriend i've had took two years of cirling each other before one of us finally asked and then it was another like month before we went "wait so like are we together now?"

i am the worst person to ask. have you tried gifting them a rock like penguins do.

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heyyy you dont have to answer this but how did you know that you were transmasc rather than gender fluid?

HI !! first of all, i really appreciate how you worded this 😖😖 i've been asked this so much but always along the lines of "have you ever considered that you might be genderfluid instead?" when i have makeup on, and i'm currently putting on glittery eyeliner so this is so relevant !!

for me it was just that my "femininity" wasn't connected to my gender at all. i had a big hyper'feminine' stage before coming out to try and,,, repress it ig? i thought maybe i just wasn't pretty enough as a girl and i had to try harder. full face everyday, massive lashes and eyeliner, split dyed long hair, the clothesss. obviously, didn't work. but what i didddd realise was that i wasn't upset about it. the skirts, makeup, hair, any of it. none of it made me sad, it made me feel nice. but she/her still felt wrong.

i trialled all pronouns with close friends, switched them out every now and then, and he/him was the only one that stuck.

AND !!! the big bit was my cis male friend wearing makeup once and i was like "this is what i want. i want to wear makeup like this."

this probably doesn't help, but it just didn't fit me. i don't feel like a different gender when i look more 'feminine', i just feel nice. but my voice, body, and facial structure? those didn't make me feel nice. so yeah, came out as a trans man.

like i even own wigs and i like putting on a full beat and a wig sometimes, but i still identify as a man when i do that, i just like how i look.

idk. this probably does not help at all, but the pronouns were the big thing for me, and seeing cis men express their "femininity" made me realise that i could identify in a way that fit, and still explore those parts of myself. it was a longgg journey, like i knew years before i "came out" that i was trans, and tried so many other things because i didn't want to admit it. but here we are.

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