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Doing Time 3
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Warnings: this fic will include dark content such as noncon/dubcon, threats, age gap, and possible untagged elements. My warnings are not exhaustive, enter at your own risk.
This is a dark!fic and explicit. 18+ only. Your media consumption is your own responsibility. Warnings have been given. DO NOT PROCEED if these matters upset you.
Summary: you try to keep your brother safe in jail but put yourself in danger along the way.
Characters: con/ex-con!Steve Rogers
Note: I need the weekend to come so I can cum
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"Things aren't too bad. Not since I got my ass kicked," Vaughn chortles. "Mighta knocked some sense into this thick skull at last."
"Hopefully," you agree. "Mom said--"
"I tried calling. She didn't pick up."
"Oh..."
"Why-- Why should I even bother?" His humour fades to hostility, "and why are you acting like you're my mother? When she does answer, she just calls me a fuck up. Like I don't fucking know."
"Vaughn," you hum, "please, I'm not trying to piss you off."
"But you are," he snarls. "Always gotta ruin a good time, don't ya?"
You frown. This is the Vaughn you don't know. The one with the anger like a grenade pin. One tug and it's over. You sit back and wait. Arguing only fuels the flames.
"You're the one person who's s'posed to believe in me and you're nagging me about mom," he snarls.
You look away guiltily. You wonder how he'd react if you told him about Steve. If you mentioned that the reason things 'aren't too bad' is because you did something just as stupid as him. Somehow, you don't think that him knowing you do dumb stuff too will help.
He tugs at his cuffs. The guards come forward. You say his name again.
"Vaughn, please--"
"Piss off! Yeah, you meat head, get me outta here," he turns his wrath on the guard. "Waste of my time."
"Please, I didn't-- I just--"
"I told you not to talk about it no more," he barks. He did. You didn't listen.
Your eyes well. You don't know what happened to him. Where did all this anger come from? As you watch the guards unhook him and he stomps away, you can only think you may have made a good decision talking to Steve. At least there's someone in there who can help. Or try to.
You wiggle your nose and dab your eyes with your knuckle. That was embarrassing as much as it was scary. The guard on the other side returns.
"We'll bring the next early, miss."
"Thanks," you nod. You recognise him. You realise most of the guards must know your face too. It's so strange to think this is a normal part of your life now. That this has become your social life as late.
It isn't long before Steve appears. He sits calmly lets himself be leashed. He leans forward and takes the receiver. You still have yours in hand but it's against the table. You lift it.
"Couldn't wait to see me, huh?" He purrs.
Your cheeks draw tight, "how are you?"
"Mm," he narrows his eyes as he looks you over. "What's wrong with you?"
"Nothing, Steve," you swallow the dregs of your tears. "Really. It was an early morning."
He stares a little longer, the lines deepening in his forehead. His eyes meet yours. His aquamarine irises are speckled with gold and silver. He takes a breath and tuts.
"You were crying."
"No, Steve, it's nothing."
"That brat brother of yours," he nods as his expression turns dangerous.
"Please, Steve, not you too. Okay? It's... a sibling spat. That's all," you assure him. You wish you were as transparent as the window between you.
"I don't like that. I had family coming to see me, I'd be nice," he snarls.
"It's not your problem."
"That's where you're wrong, sweetheart. You made it my problem when you started coming around." He insists.
You chew your lip, "I know..."
"I'm not complaining, so you know," he leans back. "Kinda used to ya now."
"Thanks," you utter grimly and stare at the desk.
"Hey," he says and your eyes flick back up. "I didn't drag myself out here to see you mope."
You swallow and push away the rest of your chagrin, "sorry, I... better?"
"How can that face get any better?" He winks. You squirm.
He's been more forward lately. You assure yourself that it's just him playing with you. He's bored and you're the only person he talks to that isn't a guard or an inmate.
"That's... Right. Um, I guess it was dumb to ask how it's going," you scoff at yourself.
"It's going good, now I'm here," he runs his hand over his mouth, feeling his cheeks, "fresh shave this morning. Looking good, huh?"
You let your eyes focus. You can tell. His chiseled jaw is bare, not one speck of stubble. And his blond hair is parted and combed back. It's getting a bit long.
"You look refreshed."
"Well, I got something coming up later today."
"Another visitor?" You wonder.
"Lawyer," he shrugs. "No big thing. I got business on the outside still. Power of attorney or whatever."
"Mm," you hum.
"Boring stuff. What about you? Besides that idiot you call a brother, how's life?"
"It's life," you say. "Go to work, come home, sleep, it's all the same."
"Huh, sounds like being in here," he snorts. "Lonely?"
You don't realise at first, he's asking.
"I guess. Thought about getting a cat."
"Ah, you're young. Probably wait a few years before that," he chirps.
You tilt your head wryly, "no harm starting early."
"You're funny, sweetheart."
"Am I?" You wonder dryly.
"Well, the things they think are funny in here..." he makes a face. "You know, I wouldn't tell a lady all that, but it's low brow."
"Right."
"I'm still trying to figure you out, you know? Your brother, well, not to pile on top but he's not exactly a model citizen, but you, you're practical, considerate, you make stuffed chicken and pesto. I can't help but wonder how you're not adopted," he snickers.
"Life is strange."
"Isn't it? Never saw some girl knocking on my cell door but here we are," he drawls.
"Here we are," you agree. He smiles and bites his thumb. You shift as his eyes sparkle.
"I might never get outta of this place, but at least I can see a pretty face now and again," he growls.
Yep, at least he'll never get out. You just need to hope Vaughn doesn't get any time added and it will all be over soon.
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It's the first night Steve doesn't call. You're a bit disturbed by how it seems to throw the whole evening off. It's not like you're friends. He's an obligation. You should be happy to have one less thing on your plate.
You take a long bath, your phone on the back of the toilet, the ringer set to chirp. But it doesn't. The soak isn't enough to ease your nerves.
If something happened to him, what about Vaughn? It's a selfish worry but you can't help it. How could that even happen? Steve has this invincibility about him. You just can't believe it.
You get out and dry yourself off slowly. You're achy from sitting on your ass all day. Admin work isn't very thrilling. You stretch and rub the cushion of your bottom, the muscles easing beneath the layer of padding. You've always had a bit extra. It never bothered you as much as it bothers men. Your brother used to beat up any guy he heard hurling insults at you.
It's not your biggest care in the world. You tend to eat those away. Your sweet tooth hardly helps.
You put on a night shirt and lay awake for a while. Even when you do sleep, it's not peaceful. You dream of iron bars and blood on the floor. You wake with a thumping in your temples.
You dress for work. Your stretch-waist grey pants and the silk blouse with roses on the collar. You pack your lunch and brew your coffee, honey and a dash of almond milk splashed in. You leave with your bag and thermos.
The traffic around the clinic is always clogged. You get in with two minutes to spare. You sit behind the window and the phone rings as soon as opening hour strikes. You're swept up in the demands of patients and doctors alike. One thing you can't complain for how quickly the days fly.
You eat your lunch in your car. You cherish the moments you're not surrounded by sniffling, coughing, and complaining. You head back in and finish the last half, yawning at the monitor.
It's even busier when you pull out into the street. You let the music flow into your ears and distract you. You tap the pedal as you slog along. Finally, you get to a side street and cut a zig zag across town. You pull up to your building and linger in your car.
You have this eerie feeling. You glance over at the unfamiliar car parked facing the brick. The sleek white muscle car is vintage and polished to a shine. Someone loves that thing.
You get out of your dusty Honda and snatch your bag from the passenger's seat. You tap your fob and enter through the side. You stop before the elevator and turn back. You should at least try to get a few steps in. You take the stairs.
You stare at your pointed flats as you drag your soles over the carpet. You smother a yawn behind your hand. A throat clears. You move over, thinking someone's coming your way. You stir in your bag for your keys. Your name brings your chin up.
You gasp and drop your keys. You teeter as you nearly spin and sprint away. Your bag slips and you barely catch the strap. You gape at Steve as he stands beside your door.
Silence wafts around you with the smell of cooking and laundry. He holds a bouquet of classic red roses. He sports a tailored suit in black that puts his prison uniform to shame. The collar is crisp and the tie perfectly knotted. His jawline is shaved and his hair is styled down to the strand.
"Hey, sweetheart," he greets with a smirk.
You wordlessly bend to pick up your keys then stand and fix your bag on your shoulder. Your eyes glaze in disbelief and horror. A million questions flurry to a storm of terror.
"How..."
"Appeal went through. They turned over my conviction," he struts away from the wall. "These are for you, sweetheart."
You look at the petals then at him as he comes close. Your shoulders sag as you shrink down at the breadth of his shadow. He's even bigger like that. You shudder, the lack of barrier unsettling.
"I got you speechless," he intones and grabs the strap of your bag. "Look like you had a long day, let me take a load off."
He takes your bag then guides your hand to the bouquet. You close your mouth and gulp. He sweeps away your keys and hooks his arm through yours. You let him lead you to the door of your apartment. He swings it open and you flinch.
"Wait, Steve, how did you-- how do you know where I live?" You quaver.
"Told you, I got friends on the outside. You don't think I'd leave you unprotected--"
"Wait, wait," you plead as you face him, untangling your arm from his. "How is this real? How are you here? How- Why-- You don't think--"
"I think I spent months talking to you and you spent the same time coming to me. It's not what I think, it's what I know," he insists. You choke.
If his conviction was flipped, maybe that means he isn't so bad. No, no, you heard of what he did in there. He's dangerous. Whether he did what the court said he didn't or not.
He waves you in, "come on, we can take it slow. We'll talk, like old times."
You shake your head but enter. You see no other choice. You're too stunned to think of any.
He follows and pulls the key free of the door before shutting it. He hangs them on the little hook beside the frame. He faces you as you focus on slipping off your flats. He puts your bag on the top of the small shelf where you store your mitts and whatnot.
He whistles, "you look... good. I mean, I never got the full angle." He steps back and you feel him raking you with his eyes. "Got a nice shape..."
"Steve," you snap and face him. "I... I never..." you pace yourself and take a breath. "The flowers are lovely, thank you. And I appreciate you coming by but I think there's a bit of a miscommunication." You turn and slowly inch away. You spin around as he watches you, his expression betraying nothing. "I only talked to you to keep Vaughn safe."
He sighs and his eyes narrow. His brows tilt slightly and his jaw squares. He nods and smooths the front of his jacket.
"Well, sweetheart, I went and got a new suit for you."
"I'm sorry--"
"No, get this," he strides forward and stops before you. "Whether it was for me, for you, or for that scum you call a brother, it happened and it's not over. You got me? I might be out but I got men inside. Men who are willing to do a lot worse than me," he snarls.
You shudder and he grabs your chin. You whimper. "I wanna be nice to you, sweetheart. That's all I've been dreaming of. I went out, got all dressed up, got you flowers, now you do me a favour, go put a dress on so I can take you out for dinner." He sniffs and squeezes just until your jaw throbs, "see, I'm still doing stuff for you. I'm not asking much except you to come out and look pretty."
He lets go and you stagger back. You sniffle and quickly hide your face. Your voice comes out hoarse, "I'll put these in water first."
Your heart races and you go into the kitchen. You find a vase and focus on filling it. You put the flowers in and toss the paper cone. He looms in the doorway.
"I'll find something to put on, okay?" Your voice cracks.
You cross the kitchen and he stays firmly in your path. He brings his knuckle up under your chin and forces your face up.
"Smile, sweetheart," he growls. "We're together. At last."
#steve rogers#dark steve rogers#dark!steve rogers#steve rogers x reader#series#fic#dark!fic#dark fic#au#doing time#captain america#avengers#marvel#mcu
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Uncommon twisted HCs. Because your buddy Skin wants to share some ^^ Bit of a long read, so apologies about that. Twisted-Brightney; As the arguably smartest twisted around (knowing both where and how to safely mess with the lightning system on each floor) she still does her best to do a book club. That is, she mostly just grabs a book and goes through the motions next to either a slumbering twisted Astro or next to a twisted RnD. Sometimes she mutters some lines from a book she once read before she was twisted. Sometimes she actually does read the book in her ichor stained hands, if just for a moment. Twisted-Finn; Say a bad sea based pun and this twisted will stop in place to laugh about it. It won't keep it "stunned" forever but even as a twisted. Finn has his love of sea based puns. Twisted-Connie; Sometimes, when she isn't possessing a machine or wandering aimlessly, she'll follow behind a group of toons while invisible. Mimicking her hobby of eavesdropping while invisible. Twisted-Razzle n' Dazzle; Dazzle is all too sane. He was the one whom tied them to their weight before they succumbed to the twisted ichor. In the odd occasion of lucidness, Dazzle will do his best to gesture for toons to stay away. Whenever Twisted Brightney does her attempt of a book club, Dazzle will do his best to try and read the book she is "reading"... the only bit of comfort he has in his and his twins' state.
Twisted-Rodger; When he gets a kill, he stays in his 'revealed' state and starts prodding at the body as best he can. Trying to learn whatever he can learn. Before ultimately slipping back into his capsule and waiting more foolish toons to try to pick him up. Twisted-Toodles; HEAVY unpredictable behavior due to her head injury. Sometimes you have the twisted Toodles that is just a feral ankle biter. Other times, you got a confused little girl wondering why everyone is avoiding her. You have the playful, somewhat mischievous girl who believes it is all a game and actually "tags" you instead of sinking her teeth into your skin. She never fully understands what happened, and when she does, it isn't for short-term memory loss and unpredictable behavior. Twisted-Teagen; Has a nest somewhere full of all the tapes she stole from toons. She constantly ruins these tapes, trying to heal herself. Greed may compel her to take, but her greed is in the form of "I want to live". A mentality every toon has, her twisted self just kept this mentality when she twisted. Twisted-Ginger; For one reason or another, whether she was left behind or was the last survivor of a run. This twisted is lonesome. To a degree that the moment she spots a toon or twisted. She will follow them as long as she can before something draws her away. In my experience, she is almost always clinging towards twisted-Rudie at the start of each floor, I saw her and him walk together a lot more than any other twisted did when they were still wandering about. Which is why I ship Rudie and Ginger together. Call it "ReinBread" -SKIN ANON
rudie x ginger is cute... also fir the toodles one, did you just stab me?
skin anon you terrify me
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Would anyone like to see fanart where I ship my self-interest character with the monkey(s)??
No???
Too bad!
#if any of my irl friends come after me and call this cringe or just straight up make fun of me. we are no longer friends#im coping#clown does art#lmk#lego monkey kid#six eared macaque#sun wukong#self ship#oc x canon#disfunctional polyamory#tw suggestive#(??? tagging that just to be safe with the last drawing)
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gonna be real honest I did kind of forgot about this blog. that’s alright tho cus now I have a small backlog of art to post yippeee
(btw, my rancher designs are based off of this image by @/zagyeah. tysm to @/hybbat for finding it for me, you're awesome)
#mcyt#trafficblr#double life smp#rancher duo#solidaritygaming#jimmy solidarity#tangotek#gonna tag all the ppl in the last doodle just to be safe#skizzleman#joel smallishbeans#ldshadowlady#now everybody knows my secret .. i LOVE DRAWING PPL HAPPY
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alas, i’m nothing but a child






guys i’m dumbassing again
#unfortunately there is SO little that i find more entertaining than messing up my own drawings for fun#don’t worry the og drawing is safe in a duplicate layer <3#i’m doodling again#so fun little story#i slept 2 hours last night and instead spend the entire time looking at tua fanart#and i just kept getting more and more upset that i can’t figure digital art out????#like there’s so much i suck at and it’s just irritating#nevertheless i’ve spent the entire day trying to get better and now im determined#so hopefully this streak will last a while and you guys will be seeing a hell of a lot#of tua fanart coming soon#(hopefully)#(god i’m praying this motivation lasts)#guess who’s rambling in tags again!!! (it’s me)#the umbrella academy#tua#umbrella academy#five hargreeves#hargreeves siblings#number five#tua s4#tua season 4#my art#my dumbass art <3#tua five#laur draws stuff#laur says stuff
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thinking about portraits of young ladies with their cats. and Also suns robes
#rain world#seven red suns#spearmaster#they are my babygirl and they desvere everything ever me thinks (both suns and spearmaster)#im having fun with iterators robes again yippe!!!!!#also sm got so smoll im so sosrry baby why you look like that im sorry#anyhow anyhwo i had fun#man i miss doing lineaart imdidlty i should dra mor elineart#but this is nice too i gues.....#also i will say last nigth i fougth every insict ever to not draw suns in the middle of the igith necaus ei rememebred my own art of this b#g i love them so much their great#anyhow anyhow!!#we are listning to roomates by malcome todd#also can anyoen tell ive been into xianxia stuff again??? just me ahem ayeha#!!#oh my god i forgot the fandom tags i need to add those wops#srs#tw bright colors#just to be safe!!!!
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Mono, give your girl a stimtoy goddamn....
#The seven year nightmare#SYN#Seven year nightmare#to be fair this definitely work with regular little nightmares aswell lmao#mono little nightmares#six little nightmares#<- adding them because of the tag before :]#listen I wanted to draw this last week but. Uni started.#that scene was so funny. Six really was like: *looks at you with my autistic eyes. Surrender by guts and gore*#should I tag this gore?#Imma tag it just to be safe#soft gore#little nightmares#aled ;-;#SYN spoilers
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if it has not been suggested already and you are okay with drawing it-- maybe Odile teaching Bonnie how to make onigiri??
the duo ever!!
#in stars and time#isat#didn't expect to draw this much for them! aaa i love em#I imagine Bonnie was kinda insistent for the party to take them along. they're angry and sad and lost and they want revenge against the kin#since their only family (and town) is currently frozen the party reluctantly lets them tag along for now#while initially the party was hesitant to bring bonnie along (maybe even planning to entrust them to someone else to keep them safe?)#they always try their best to contribute to the party and soon bonnie grows on them (also they're an amazing cook)#And once they obtained the last orb Odile decides to entrust it to Bonnie#Officially making them a member of their party#maybe that's a little basic but it's ok I just like thinking about found family#isat odile#isat bonnie#might combine more asks if they're similar! Hope that's fine cause I don't think the inbox is ever going to be empty at this rate#day 14#2 weeks! Nice!
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light-hearted scribblings today
#witch hat tag#orufrey#last ones kinda in relation to a line from “kinou nani tabeta” a BL about an ageing gay couple who cook. that shirahama enjoys. of course#cause oru just looks like a stereotypical japanese gay guy and it's endearing to me.#Will we ever learn literally anything about his family and more than one page about his past. Will we though.#i was gonna draw more today but every day. Every day there is baldur's gate 3. even now#i love witch hat kitchen so much. i love waking up and thinking about my gay witches and playin my lil game im glad im alive and safe.
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month-long chronic insomnia flareup got me acting a BIT too HDB-esk so I drew myself some Kims. I have cracked it! (The case of 'how to draw this MF')
feat one Harry, ECHEM, and Kineema that I fucking made up from memory because im not studying that beast
#broke my 5+ year sobriety streak w class As last Thursday. Sigh.#if you got on ave >4 sleep a day for a month you'd probably also go insane#my stupid neighbour's workmen decided to start taking the scaffolding down at HALF SEVEN. AND I WORK NIGHTS!!!! AHHH!!!#anyway....... kim Kitsuragi save me#draw him balding 2k24#also i am fucking working on DUCKLINGS i promise but the lack of sleep giving me migranes i dont wanna look at a screen too long#im a writer before an artists but im actually rly proud of these- borrowed my GFs brush pens and they're so good holy shit#my hands shaking doesnt matter cos the lines get thicker if i press harder!!!! wow!!!#disco elysium#kim kitsuragi#coupris kineema#breakthrough imminent: post of mine#ignore my tags im losing my fucking marbles fr#anyway this is all in prep because i ACTUALLY wanna draw younger Kim from my fic. like. properly#not just at a safely vague distance lmao
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Men only want ONE THING and it's DISGUSTING (Guy who's uour best friend who's always happy to see you who visibly lights up and sparkles when you enter the room who's comstantly looking out for you and doting on yiu just a little bit and making sure you're taken care of and who you trust so mucj so completely that you can share a bath and sleep side by side amd you'rw. Best Friwneds...)

AND YET. AND YET. Moe has something Worse than self-loathing going on. Like this is just denial at this point. And for WHAT (PSYCHOLOGICAL REASONS. IT'S SO DIRE)
#feh#NITPICK TIME. breakfast panel i should have given alfonse more easily stealable food but#i just went w eggs on toast w bacon just cause that's like. one of my staple safe foods LMFAOOOO#maybe imagine a hash brown. i do like hash browns...#i thought i had more nitpicks actually. any off modelness is just perspective/moe wilting and dying in that one shot.#or a consequence of drawing REALLY REALLY TINY. hitting new levels of drawing So Tiny#if i had more room to work with i would have figured out a pose where moe is still holding the bear while being hugged by alfonse#also sorry i drew his meat huge. in that final illust. as if it's my fault...........#anyways whole point of this comic is. moe is so completely cherished and adored. it is surrounded by adoration in that last panel#like. the environmental storytelling of it too. wearing one of alfonse's shirts (stolen) and has The Bear#it is so. so. SO deeply cherished and adored. and yet. it has a very hard time even just daring to believe that.#anyways this comes w the same level of deep embarrassment like i might as well have just posted porn. it's that level#so you have to be extra nice to me.#nothing wrong w that for the record i'm just shy. 🧍#fe alfonse#moe tag#summoner oc#my art#my comics#final nitpick actually i feel like the proportions are a bit off in the last illust... which is a shame bc i love the faces so much#but also moe is just. a small round guy. cursed w the transmasc babyface. many such cases.
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little man on an adventure :]
#i have wifi for a bit yay#safe traveling so far !! very excited to hopefully get to sit down and break in the new sketchbook this evening :]#Chase and Sunny helped me put together some rly fun outfits so im going to try drawing those#i think partially why im so okay rn is that i barely slept last night so im just kind of floating thru the day in a haze LMAO#i forgot to bring my notebook though so i cant work on writing or worldbuilding unless i write in my sketchbook aheemheem ue ue ue#(i dont like typing stuff on phone fjdkdl my fine motor skills are Not super great irt phone typing)#anyways !!! i hope everyone has a good week 🫶 I'll probably be annoying with photo posting so lemme come up w a tag ummm...#lil guz adventures#<- here block this tag if u don't want to see these kinds of posts !#dandy.cmd
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I PROMISED I’D REDO MY COMMISSION SHEET EVENTUALLY AND BY GOD HERE WE ARE
For once I’m not taking Commissions due to emergency, I just kinda feel like it this time. As stated last time though I can never do anything seriously for very long so don’t expect too much out of this
Payment will be through Paypal only
#Emile's Arts#Commission Sheet#Commissions open#Artist on Tumblr#have I mentioned how much I loath basic tags. Anyway#Proship Safe#Self Insert#Self Ship#I'm gonna pin this for a while but I'm gonna get tired of it eventually and unpin it just like the last one#Just so everyone's aware#I wanna do half off pride commissions for pride month but ksdfgjdfk idk man#Anyway#Commission me to draw your OCs I wanna draw your OCs SO badly you have no idea#And your Self Inserts and your Self Ships I want to draw them trust me trust me you should commission me to draw them Thankyou
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inprt doing 35% off sales... just uploaded some recent ones!!!
#my art#my prints#just discovered i need to buy new ultramarine paint .. and i blew my last 15.94 dollar on making my frien draw my fursona...#just kidding asbdlfklk i found out inprt has sticker option now??? i keep meaning to draw the stupid revali meme maybe this will make me#my adverrtisement tag gonna be...#sharon has wares if u have coin#art prints#tears of the kingdom spoilers#just to be safe!!!!!!!!!!
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super shitty mspaint doodle to check if I still got it in regards to drawing with just a mouse. The answer is no, and my hand hurts.
She started to run out of hair dye.
#shapes with a mouse r tough... I didnt even try to be daring. as u can see this is my bazillionth a.ba bust. but worse#*safe a.ba bust#I do like how her hair roots came out of all things#anyways I'm so stressed abt my assignment. I'm a procrastinating machine. gonna go work on it I actually drew this while waiting for someon#to message me abt it#this might as well count as vent art.. yeah whoever dared to look at the tags gets my blathering#wish me luck... also I hate herr so much and how she's my only anchor to not lose it lately#I'm doing better than last week physically though so I'll finally be able to return to the place where I go to be a productive human yayyy#a.b.a#art tag2b named#idk wtf's my art style rn. and I guess now everybody I draw tends to have visible plicas. sure why not. idk I think they fit say her (aka t#the only thing I've been able to draw this month. help. I wish I were neurot.ypical sometimes... today's being a bummer of a day but it'll#get better!!)#FUU I just realised I meant lacrimal or caruncle irt the lil eye thing. whatever#also drawing her made me realise I sometimes draw her looking a bit similar to this shitty character from a shitty media piece that teen me#used to suuuper have a crush on LMAO. my taste in idiots doesn't change that much so it seems...
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^ has thoughts they can’t fully put down into words about how revali spiralling as a spirit gets him to a point where he might’ve actually been able to reconcile his misgivings re: everyone and everything in his life that still exists like some fucked up speedrun fuelled purely by regrets he can “safely” feel because he’s going to be gone anyway, isn’t he? and how he spirals even worse when he gets revived because oh no, suddenly he can’t leave or be gone the way that would’ve left everything he says and does to mean nothing and not matter at all and now he’s gotta deal with Being Here, in a time and place he never once thought he’d actually live long enough to Be Here for, he's gotta keep reputations and standings and this shattered image he's barely keeping glued together as a failure who's alive again in mind, and it's exhausting the way being a failure who died for it wasn't
#* roosting / ooc.#this is a little too poorly worded to be tagged as a study methinks#but in trying to reply to the absolute bombs hilary dropped on me last night i’m just.#head in hands. dude is not fucking okay!!! the trauma be swinging at him!!!#not graphic at all. but will put under read more just in case because this would've hit a little TOO hard for the me of a year ago#like idk if it's actually too much because i'm okay with drawing on these experiences for a compelling character study now#and it's cathartic in its own way to be able to safely explore#but tread carefully just in case! leave this post be if you're Going Through It rn!!!#edit: IT'S A STUDY NOW thank you for enabling me folks#* vanes / study.
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