#''and is that self sabotage do we think?''

[noodles-and-tea]

For the twins in time AU, I genuinely wonder what kind of people the young twins grow up into because of Stan’s/Ford’s influence. Especially if it takes years for the portal to get fixed.

(Sorry if it seems like I already sent this question, I don’t know if it got sent the first time I asked)

I haven’t fully fleshed out how Ford grows up in the past but I do have thoughts on Stan presently

[urbanfiltered]

still about being in ur 20s

[himblebo]

She’s married she’s married she’s married she’s married (to a man to a man to a man to a man)

[earl-grey-crow]

DON'T WORRY COLTON YOU'LL GET TO PLAY YOUR SONG FOR DEL FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE

[navii-blaze]

listen to my vision boy

[blue-banditt]

Im gonna be so fr right now idk how much longer I can stay sober for them like I really don't think I make it a whole month. Maybe I could just buy a couple bottles and go MIA for a week and not tell them anything

[faunabel]

sometimes i do this thing where i'm like "man i love this friendly interaction but i might come on too strong if i reply Again, showing i wish to continue discussion, so i will not respond just in case i am actually unwanted as to not make a fool of myself and burden another with responding to lil ol me"

i wonder if anyone else does this...

logically its stupid bc people can simply not respond if they dont want to but oof. the more i like u, the more i worry 💔

something something i can't miss talking to u if i stop responding first

[thursdaygrl]

open starter for w/nb muses plot: your muse and rory meet at a very difficult time in their life and got unexpectedly close. rory is able to open up to them in a way she hasn't with others and has accidentally let slip that she has feelings for them.

"i didn't... okay, i didn't mean that in that way." rory was scrambling, her cheeks burning and her eyes widening. god, she wanted to run, she felt so incredibly stupid. she'd been trying so hard to keep whatever confused, impulsive pangs of adoration she'd been feeling at bay. "it's just a crush, i think. it's not a big deal. i didn't want it to make things weird between us."

[infiniteseriesofhalfways]

I just realized I haven't read a single romance novel this year that didn't have a third act breakup

I am begging for different stakes please

[urgeforgoing]

I have not been a very good person lately and that really sucks. gonna try to be better starting now lol

[cultivating-wildflowers]

🐓

[onawhimsicot]

it would be so niche and i dont even know what id put in it, but ive finally finished listening to the blazing babe arc of naddpod + the short rests and im so tempted to like write the most terrible romance between mavrus and mac. i just think they could be even more worse for each other, their friendship is so toxic in canon and their romance would be even more so and thats why they should kiss about it imho peace and love on planet earth <333

[modernpygmalion]

Gave him the boot

Ended it with my fwb today bc the steady realization i have been in love with my ex best friend who i blocked and ghosted a year ago is too much for me to bear, even tho Johnathan was going to be a lot of fun bc he was into the exact same kinks as me in the exact same way and matched my freak to an eerie degree

So im gonna just kinda settle into maybe becoming one of those professional yeaners who still pine over their homoerotic object of affection like 70 years later. Wish me luck, I might become a published poet in like 5 years if i can channel whatever this is constructively!

[arolesbianism]

Why must I only be capable of coming up with cool art ideas long past midnight

[galadrieljones]

It speaks volumes when Lavellan calls Solas a "terrible liar" in the Cobbled Swan. Rook is, of course, confused by this. "He's the god of lies," she says. But Lavellan clarifies, because that's not what she means. She means that he can't tell "lies of the heart." That is why he had to turn her away, because he actually could not deceive her.

Varric, very early in the game, also refers to Solas as "sentimental." He says to Rook, "He could burn the world down, and the thing that would make him cry is a single flower with blackened petals."

There's something very interesting about the elven god of lies and deceit, who unwillingly wears his heart on his sleeve, essentially creating a new version of the world in which all sources of raw, magical *emotion* that, according to him, used to imbue it with so much life and beauty have been compartmentalized from the more brutish, harsh aspects of the physical world. Because he, himself, has had to do this very thing to his own heart. He's "split." A very cool archetype. When he tells the Inquisitor to "harden her heart to a cutting edge" in Inquisition, he is projecting. Solas has built a "veil" within himself, to protect his more stern, militaristic identity as The Dread Wolf from the effusive, soft, and intelligent man that is Solas. It's the only way he can get anything done. Perhaps we should more aptly call him the god of stoicism and compartmentalization.

It's also interesting how well characters like Varric seem to know Solas, because it communicates that Solas did open up to the people of the Inquisition, during which time he "played the role" of quiet, unassuming Fade mage. Perhaps this wasn't a role at all, however, and perhaps this is why he is failing so spectacularly now. Who he really is is just this man who fell in love and made friends and found a home within a community where he did not have to cut off his emotions in order to lead. This was the "breach" in his plans, so to speak. It tore his world apart.

The whole story of Veilguard actually starts because Varric knows he can appeal to Solas's emotions and that this has a high chance of working to some degree. It's important to remember that while Varric didn't change Solas's mind at the ritual site, he was able to keep Solas talking long enough for Rook to sabotage his plans. Solas entertains Varric's pleas, because, sort of as Rook guesses with Lavellan at the Cobbled Swan, in some ways, Solas wants to be stopped. He wants someone to pull the reins on him because he is too prideful to stop himself.

Thinking back to Trespasser, I remember we all sort of knew this right away just in reading his body language. I remember someone making a whole post about it, and how he will not allow her to get too close to him. When she approaches, he takes a very measured step back. And later, as he takes the anchor, a task which requires him to take her hand, we see exactly why this is. He breaks down, calls her his "love," and kisses her. He is so stern and so measured and in "control," but then, all it takes is a single touch from the woman to whom he showed a glimpse of his true heart, his true self, to bring him to his knees.

The Veil as a narrative manifestation for how Solas tends to seal his own raw emotions away from others in order to function as the revolutionary general he had to be for centuries is a very beautiful construct to me.

[buckley-diaztruther]

thinking again about how everyone, even the rest of the characters and buck himself, fundamentally misunderstanding who Buck 1.0 was and his motivations. because yes, he was a flirt who slept around a LOT but never in any of his interactions with these women does he display fuckboy or playboy behavior. everyone has this idea that he was this man whore running around breaking women's hearts left and right because he didn't respect them and only wanted sex. and they believed this so hard that Buck believed it.

except that first scene we get with Buck stealing the firetruck to sleep w the first girl, he's the one who gets rejected when he tries to make it anything deeper. and it right out the gate tells the audience that this is someone so stupidly desperate for affection that he's looking for it in all the wrong places and actively sabotaging his career to make it happen because he doesn't know how else to find it. because no one else has ever wanted that with him.

and idk so much of the fandom has (imo) accurately clocked the sex as a form of self harm as well - a new way of using his body to get attention because his parents aren't around to care when he throws himself into oncoming traffic anymore

and I just get really in my feelings about it because no one in his life GETS it. eddie comes closest but he's missing so much key context and I just want so badly for the show to circle back to this in some way but I know they'll never do it right