#🥺 as an artist it really means a lot bc sometimes I have a hard time appreciating my work

[dalkyeom]

Excuse me while I read this over and over again

//runs here when I saw the week of thanks event bc I know I just have to!! 😭

I think there’s a lot of things I’m grateful this year but I’m really grateful for Seventeen (cliché waaaa I know!) bc becoming a fan of theirs opened so many new doors for me like I got to meet you and many carats who are really cool! and I feel like it was always meant to be 🥺 I joked how I should’ve been a carat bc I’m very carat-coded 🤡 and then it came true and it’s been the best feeling 😭 and I feel they’ll lead me to appreciate my own art again bc I felt like I lost the inner-appreciation and pride for it but svt will somehow guide me to appreciating myself again 💗 above all, I’m thankful svt got me to laugh lots again. They returned the small pockets of happiness I lost ☺️💓✨

Member: Joshua! bc my shuarot has been at an l time high now ever since I dreamt of him reassuring me in the middle of a ‘what if we fail at parenting🥺’ / marriage anxiety crying session but really every time I dream of him he is always my number one cheerleader 😭 he always manages to cheer me up and tell me things will be ok 💗

//week of thanks 🍁

caratland is such a nice place to be — i'm glad you joined the fandom, chia <3 you put so much love into the space, and i hope you get that energy back tenfold. my year's been so much brighter with you in it!!

When Joshua invites you to his room for the first time, you're a little nervous, even though it's only because he wants to return your hoodie. As he rummages through his things, you notice something familiar on his cork board.

"Is that...my drawing?" You draw closer and squint. You remember this one—you made an irreparable mistake and scribbled over it before pushing the paper into your trash pile. Here it is again with the scribbles carefully erased.

And this one is a silly drawing you made on a napkin scrap.

And that's a picture of something you drew on the back of Josh's hand while waiting in line once.

The soft fabric of your hoodie wraps around your shoulders as he comes up behind you. "Yeah, they are."

"But why?"

He stares at the drawings before shrugging. "One man's trash is another man's treasure?"

[mrhowells]

Smallville 4x14

I love this episode a lot🥹

THAT'S ADORABLE😭😭

"You're gonna be fine. I know you're gonna be fine. Everyone I've ever hit was alright."

Lois -everyone I've ever hit was alright- Lane:

Clark really sleeps on the couch now that Lois lives there? LMAOOOO

the way he immediately smiles when he sees the dog I can't🥹🥹

"You hit him? With your car?" "No, with my fist🙄🙄"

CLARK YOUR FACE-

"Actually, I think it might be fun to have a dog around."

HE'S A MENACE, HE'S A DISGRACE, HE'S A FUCKING CLOWN, I LOVE HIMMMMMMMM

I'm crying

"I don't know. It's just kind of hard to be myself with her around."

that's so ironic though because apart from hiding his powers he is VERY himself around her

I need Tom Welling to stop smiling on my screen please and thank you, I'm not strong enough for this😭

ugh😩

Chloe helping Clark with his excuses, love to see it🥹 He's so bad at them he needs all the help he can get💀

Let me introduce you to my parents who have been married for about 30 years now:

"Let's see. He's annoying, and I can't get within ten feet of him without getting sick. I think we should call him Clarkie."

have I mentioned how much I love them before?

"I spent all morning on these."

they're both so cute🥹🥹

LMAOOOOOO he finds her so annoying

hsajaksjaksj LOOK AT HIS HAND IN THE SECOND IMAGE, HE'S SO DONE I'M SCREAMING

No because if I keep going like this I'll screenshot every single time they say something or even look at each other💀

Lois: You could be Skipper😇

Clark: *fake ass smile* anyway-

STAHP I'M SCREAMING

he's about to throw hands💀

This is so confusing, I thought Jason's mom orchestrated the entire meeting with Lana but now she wants him away from her?

"Paranoia is not a very attractive quality in a woman."

Umm okay, AND? I mean I don't give a shit about Genevieve but this is such a dumb statement, as if she's supposed to give a fuck about what's "attractive" to Lex or others, like what?

Sometimes he sounds like one of those "pick up artists" that the internet makes fun of all the time, I'm sorry💀💀

I. LOVE. THIS.

That's the way someone talks to their own kid, not their guest and I love that because Lois clearly lacks parental love. Martha & Lois will always be so special to me😭😭

"Remember when Clark did that? He was only... three." LMAOOOO

Lex is clearly losing patience with Clark😬

Can I join this family pls look at themmmm

Martha is such a badass actually

I'm glad Lana overheard that whole conversation between Jason and his mother, now I'm just hoping they'll give her more agency instead of making her a passive character and her own storyline.

(edit: so she did NOT hear what they were talking about🤡🤡 At least she saw it)

Clark is such a little shit😭

Still arguing about dog names🤡

"Hold on there Forrest Gump, what are you gonna do, run?" LOL

She's like nuh uh, get in the car dude AND HE LISTENS💀💀💀

How are they acting like they're been married for decades???

NOT AN ACTUAL QUESTION BC I KNOW HOW AND I'LL TELL YOU: they're comfortable around each other even if they don't realize it

🎶and I will go down with this ship🎶 (EXCEPT I DON'T EVEN HAVE TO BECAUSE IT'S FUCKING SAILING, IT WILL NEVER GO DOWNNNNN)

let's move on

"What is this, another one of your famous hunches or are we just on a little scenic route?"

"Okay, stop here."

"Wha- where??"

"HERE. Stop here."

"OKAY."

>>>MARRIED.

they sound like my grandparents💀

LOOK AT MY LIL POOKIES INVESTIGATING STUFF TOGETHER🥺

YEEEEET

I need to know where Clark gets his clothes bc that stuff withstands literally anything💀

AKJASJKAKSL STAHP😭

"He (the dog) saved my life. I'll take my chances on his loyalty." Ooof, is he calling out Lex👀

what is Lionel trying to do?🧐

CUTE.

CUTE.

Clark is happy = I'm happy, it's really that simple

this episode is premium, top tier chef's kiss EXCELLENT

[restinpeacesensei]

@melda0m3

Hold on, I need a moment to just admire how pretty this majestic art is... Okay, okay, so.... First thing first, the fluff! It's like they're mid-transformation, and it's beautiful! The usual eye shine, of course, is amazing. I love that Ibushi is the only one who's not crying, like he's been the less affected by all of this (probably not true, but he doesn't have enough screen time) The expression s! Kinshiro's big, almost child-like smile, Akoya's smile of relief, and Ibushi with his calm and collected smile, they're all smiling! Yay! The shading on the wings!! It's so pretty! The wings themselves are majestic AND THEY'RE ALL HOLDING EACH OTHER AWWWW Anyway, as always, I wanna eat your art. This one would be like something soft, but not sticky, and fresh. Dunno what food fits this, but yeah

ohhhh?!! i am so honored you needed an entire moment to look at this picture omg!!! >////< it's a huge compliment you called it majestic waaaa!!! ;;////;;

I LOVE HOW YOU NOTICE THE FLUFF!!! \>////</ it's so cute you call it that omg!! im so happy you can tell they're mid-transformation, that's exactly how i meant it to be!! ;;////;;/ they are becoming their angel forms! ;;w;; im so happy you think it's beautiful waaaa!! \>////</

im so happy you notice that ibushi is the only one who's not crying! i think he would be more reserved than the others, though you're right i am sure he is still very affected by this! he cares a lot about watching over the others and doing what makes kinshirou happy, so i think he would be moved to see them find a place of joy and healing! ;;w;;

i love how you describe all their smiles!! it's so precious how you say kinshirou's is almost child-like waaa?? 🥺🥺🥺 im so happy i was able to convey that wholehearted sense of joy!! >////< i love how you say akoya's smile is of relief, i feel like i was able to convey his sense of joy and healing 🥺 and im so happy ibushi's calm and collected attitude comes across! thank you for looking at all their smiles so carefully!! yay!! \>////</

im so happy you like the shading on the wings omg!! im very touched i was able to make the wings fittingly majestic!! \;;/////;;/ these precious angels deserve it waaaa!!! \>/////</💚💜💖

IM SO HAPPY YOU NOTICED THEY'RE ALL HOLDING EACH OTHER WAAAA!!! 😭😭😭💕💕💕 it was very important to me they be in a circle like this!! 🥺 (....all the pictures i looked thorough to find reference for this pose LOL;;... bc it's hard to model for three people by myself LOL;;;)

ohhh i don't know what fits this either but im happy to hear what sort of flavor this picture would be!! \;;////;;/ hmmm, a warm and soft fresh baked loaf of bread???... is what's coming to mind!! one of the round and fluffy squishy ones!! but that's all i can think of!! im happy it sounds like this would also taste cute! ;;-;; thank you so much!! \>/////</

It always makes me so happy to see how happy my messages made you, so I always try to notice everything and compliment it! I know it can sometimes feels shallow if you just get "cute" as a compliment, because while yes, it's nice that people find it cute, you want the intent/message to be noticed, and you put so much time and effort into something, and it being reduced to "cute" can feel really underwhelming and almost disapointing when you want to convey specific feelings, so I try to notice as much as I can with your art! And I try to always use new ways to compliment your amazing art because it's also fun to do! Looking at all the details a great artist put into the characters I love is always nice!

waaaa!! ;;////;; it's so kind of you to do that omg!! >////< i am happy i am able to convey my happiness!! ;;////;; a-also i relate, i also know the feeling of wanting people to notice the intent or feelings you put into a picture;;; T////T it's not about being "cute" or "good", but about the meaning and feelings you want to portray. the purpose is for someone to feel and recognize what you want to convey T////T (though admittedly sometimes the meaning i want to portray IS "he is cute".... T////T) i will say that from my experience, i feel that when you comment on other artists' work, it encourages others to do the same!! ;;o;; thank you so much for being so kind to me, and i hope you'll find people who see all the feelings and meaning you put into your work as well!! \>/////</

[marimbles]

im not in any of the current fandoms ur into (im no longer as into ml as i used to be, but i like seeing ur tags and u have such a sunny personality so i still follow you) AND OMG UR ART HAS IMPROVED SO MUCH???

i remember you would replicate the ml style but now youve developed ur own style and youve got such a good understanding on lighting and colours, and ur lines are so smooth and just ajdkkdksksk anyways im proud of how far youve come w ur art !!

HELLO?? I’m gonna break down crying this is so nice 😭😭💜💜💜💜 thank you so so much! !

First of all I’m flattered you liked my stuff at all haha let alone that you have stuck around despite not being in the same fandoms anymore 🥺 next of all!! What a kind thing to say!! It means a whole whole lot. I think on my end it’s harder to see improvement, so it’s really encouraging to hear that other people can see it. Like intellectually I know I am always improving, but drawing is still hard and I’m always in the weeds of my own work and don’t really get to step back and see a wider view unless I look at some of my old art and I’m like oh hey! I actually did get better bc this looks worse to me now 😂

yeah I was definitely trying to replicate the ml show style in the beginning! I decided to learn how to draw specifically so I could draw miraculous ladybug fanart HDJDJS and at first that’s all I really knew how to do. When I got into toh I didn’t replicate that style but I did incorporate some elements from it. I think I did the same a little bit w atla, and I’m doing it now w the botw/totk art style too. and I’m sure as I love more things and keep drawing it will keep developing! I am also hugely inspired by other artists and I sometimes try to incorporate the things I admire into my own work. I feel like my art style is just a culmination of all the things I have loved so much I had to create about it. just a big playdough ball with a bunch of colors rolled in, haha

Also you’ve discovered my weakness…i have an Addiction….to THE GLOW. moth behavior. I wouldn’t say I have a great understanding of lighting and colors but I sure do love when they’re happening. So I just try to make them happen and I’m like ohohoho what if it were sunset. get this: rim lighting. perhaps (definitelyhaps) a lens flare. God was so right when He said “Let there be light.”

man sorry I always ramble sm this was just so nice and I got excited haha. “I’m proud of you”…trigger words fr!! This made my day, thank u 💜💜💜

[evansbby]

bestie!! im sorry if I sound delirious writing this I just got home from uni and work and decided to read the poyt prequel as a treat😋 but I still want to share my thoughts on it before I go to sleep <3

first of all, I had to pause, close my eyes and breathe halfway through reading it because Steve is such a dick!! poor baby omega, minding her own business, she just wants to finish her studies!😫

second, the flowers!! I love how significant it is in Steve’s life with the little flashbacks from his childhood, and how he imagined giving omega yellow roses alongside his sappy thoughts, associating omega’s scent with the magnolias…

it made that one scene in poyt4 even more special knowing that he was gonna give it to omega, he was showing omega how much he loves her  (even though he wasn’t ready to admit it yet at the time and projected on omega for “cheating”, but we’re just gonna pretend that didnt happen lol). Omega is just his little flower🥺 he irresistibly loves flowers since the beginning  but he just doesn’t know how to show it!! 

third, the drawings 😫😫 i’m an artist myself and I am terrible drawing from memory! he must’ve really memorised and spent a LOT of time looking at Omega for him to draw her with so much details, our Steve is just a cute little softie awe

Although it pained me to see Steve being a huge douchebag, I’m excited to see how he will redeem himself in poyt 5 now that he finally accepted the fact that he truly loves omega! I hope he will actually start acting on his softer side and not just hide it in his consciousness😣Right now I just want to give omega a big hug from having to go through all of that!! 😫 men are just so weird sometimes 🤧

thank you so much for this lovely read!! I’ve been following this series for awhile now and I know how hard you worked on it<3 your blog and your writings became a constant thing in my life in 2022 and I can’t wait to support more of your work this year!! Sending much love mwa mwa mwa !!! 💌💌

YES YES YES!! Thanks so much for this amazing review, I loved reading through it ughh you have no idea!!

Okay so YESS not only does he associate omega’s scent with the magnolias from his childhood, her scent IS the magnolias from his childhood. Meaning he was obsessed with her scent ever since he was a child. Meaning that it was always meant to be her 😭😭😭

And the yellow roses 😌😌 I feel like those roses also grew in his mom’s garden and he just fixated on them from a young age (ugh damn I should’ve included this ajdjsjajka) anyways, so now every time he buys roses, he gravitates towards the yellow ones. Yellow is also like the colour of spring and hope and that’s also what he associated her scent with.

I LOVE that you said she’s just his little flower, I find that so cute and important! Bc Steve’s mom tells him that flowers need love and nurturing to grow, else they die. Mirrors how his own omega “wilts” and starts losing all hope when Steve mistreats her a lot. 🥲🥲🥲

And finally, the drawings 😌😌 yes, Steve literally spent hours and hours staring at her. During lectures, following her around, finding her social media and looking at the grainy pics 😭😭😭

[chloe12801]

Introduction post

Hello! My name is Chloé, I’m in my early twenties, bisexual, and I’m currently going to college for psychology as well as environmental studies. I have a puppy named Ella Stein (after Frankie Stein) and here are some other facts about me:

☀️Sagittarius,🌙Libra,⬆️Cancer (Astrology is fun!)

Fluent in English, know some French (could probably survive a conversation)

Favorite musicians: Lana Del Rey, Miley Cyrus, Rico Nasty, Eminem, Nirvana, and MCR

I consider myself a music enthusiast. I collect physical copies, collectibles, merch, and am always trying to diversify my music taste/knowledge. As a result, we probably enjoy some of the same artists :)

I also collect monster high dolls, crystals/rocks, and pins

I love animals, I want to use my degrees to do something involving them

Favorite video games: GTA (mainly V, haven’t finished IV or played any other), RDR (2, need to buy and play the first one), Fallout 4/NV/76, and the Sims

I’m very much in love with Trevor Philips

I am a proud lover of old men, average Lana stan moment

I love Deadpool and Harley Quinn🥺

I am a creative, I have dabbled in music/art/edits/videos/written work/clothes/upcycling/photography

I am an immersive daydreamer. This means I have deep lore filled daydream universes that go on for years. Ex: I have one with an OC and Trevor that I thought up around 2 years ago. I really should write it down bc it’s essentially fanfiction

I love vintage stuff, particularly 60s-00s

I like girly, grunge, coquette, goth, and rave type fashion. Combining this with vintage and you get my style

I’m really into aesthetics, I’ve been making themed boards on Pinterest and weheartit since middle school

I LOVE horror, the rare times I watch movies they are almost always horror (or cinematic bc I like visuals)

I like visiting cemeteries, I just find them peaceful and nice to remember those who aren’t around anymore

If I’m watching tv shows, I’m usually watching children’s cartoons. My favorites: Regular Show, SpongeBob, Adventure Time, and The Amazing World of Gumball

I’m usually watching YouTube though, mostly stuff with video game or horror themes

I’m shy (probably bc of my GAD) but very friendly and non-judgmental so feel free to talk and interact with me, I have a hard time making the first move sometimes

On top of having GAD, I also have major depressive disorder, OCD (mainly contamination), body dysmorphia, recovering from an ED, and other symptomatic issues stemming from these things like anger issues

I tag all posts I add something to/create with #cafa / #cafaoc

I think this is a pretty solid start to knowing me, of course there’s a lot more to me than this but yeah welcome to my account! :)

[taegularities]

Rid you're crazyyyyyyyyyyy

just finished cmi11 IM FUCKING CRYING holy shit that was so good oh god

first of all the conversation between oc and her mom made me cry so hard- it hit home for me, as a girlie with mommy issues, that part felt so real to me. Oc's courage to stand up for herself like that and tell her how much she hurt her own daughter is something i dont have in me. It broke my fucking heart, that yearning feeling, i cant believe you put that specific feeling into words rid [are u part of the mommy issues community as well🧐 or are u just that amazing, a true fucking artist (i saw that anon calling you the beyonce of ff and i agree 100%)] idk how to describe my feelings rn, that part definitely left a mark in my heart, ill never forget it

second the domesticity in these two dorks oh my goddddd they're driving me crazy, theyre so cute and in love and im in love with them and i want to cry bc i want what they have but bc irl men suck the hopeless romantic in me is gonna have to live through fanfics for the rest of my life and that makes me fucking miserable but bless the fanfic gods like you that keep my soul alive, idk what id do without you

lastly that scareeeeee oh god like i knew itd be a negative but it had my heart beating out of my ass (idk if thats a phrase) but the way they handled it oh god, the emotionsssssss the fears and insecurities, just reminded me that theyre human, even if theyre the most fucking adorable characters ever, theyre still human and i loved seeing such nuance. You really are doing an amazing job rid, not only writing the story, scenes and dialogue, but also the way you write these characters in such depth, its so fucking refreshing to see.

i want to kiss your beatiful head that holds your beautiful brain, seriously ive never ever been so enchanted by a piece of writing before (and i read so much fanfiction its like an addiction) you are by far my strongest fix. For real tho, your writing, and particularly cmi has touched me deeply and I'll never ever forget it. So thank you

Rest assured and stop doubting yourself bc youre seriously incredible and so fucking talented. Now rest up and take care of yourself, i imagine its not easy to birth such work (i mean 36k you monster, i loved every second of it but damn girl take a break before you burn your brain out) but no srsly i hope youre eating well, sleeping well and doing things that make you happy and relaxed. You deserve all the best of this world rid🫂🩷

sincerely ~ 🐼✒️anon

panda hi hello oh my gosh, sorry for being late, but you mentioned so many important things, so i wanted to take my time HELLO!! never stop sending these lovely af reviews 🥺

i know... she really is inspiring bc the courage to stand up against someone you feared for so long is admirable. i'm part of both the mommy and daddy issues community even though it's gotten a lot better lol like i wonder why it's such a recurring theme in my fics 🤣 i'm so sorry you could relate to oc :( but i'm glad you liked the scene so much.

and ahhh the domesticity 🤧 it's been so so fun and relaxing to write!! real life romance can be hard to find, yeah :') so i guess writing these scenes and chapters has been extra cathartic (although it drives me crazy, too — the next chapter has been making me so jejfhdjjsgd), but here's to finding a cmi jk irl soon :') much more to come!!!🕯️

the scare was one hell of a ride 🥺 i cried a lot!! and even i have been realising lately that i sometimes try to make my characters flawless, but that's actually not what i wanna go for. i always snap out of it and then try to make them flawed bc they're human, and i think the cmi couple, despite how endearing they are, is definitely vv flawed :') thank you for pointing that out 🥺

your strongest fix?? girl PLEASE ILL CRY 😭💔 i love you so much, you're so sweet for saying that and seeing me in such a way, pls i want you here forever <3 i rested a lot after cmi11! but ngl, cmi11.5 almost burned me out ksjdhehd gonna rest even more after that hehe. tyssssm, i hope you're well and healthy and i appreciate you so much for your kindness, reassurances and love for this series/me. love you so much 🤍

[gurugirl]

So to be honest I hadn’t read the con artist before I saw your answer to that anon who initially brought it up, but it piqued my interest. I’m dumb enough to admit that I’m shy and timid and a lot of your characters are confident and brazen and so sexy that it can be hard to relate (not a bad thing at all!!! Just intimidating sometimes!!! Really it’s who I wanna be!!!!!) so that’s why I hadn’t read it. I was just dumb and worried I couldn’t relate to an MC who sounded so cool. THATS BESIDE THE POINT. Sorry. Anyway. But in any case, just from your response, I could tell that whatever went down when you released the final parts to it—I can tell it hurt you in some way. Something stuck with you. I don’t know what. But I decided to read it, because I wanted to know what could’ve caused a reaction like that from the audience and an unpleasant lasting memory for you writing it….WELL I just finished it and I wanted to tell you that the story is fucking brilliant and something to be SO incredibly bloody proud about. Whatever happened back then, I’m sorry. And there’s never any pressure to write for those characters again. But I wanted you to remember it in a positive light for the people who really did love it. Remember the fans instead of the haters. But… anyway. Sorry. I’m just sort of rambling now. I just wanted you to know that the story is brilliant and lovely. Okay? Sorry if anything I said was mean or rude and I adore your writing so hopefully it came off okay. It was meant to be a compliment 😭

Also in regards to the whole reblog debacle. If I don’t have many followers does it still matter that I reblog? I always do anyway bc I hear people say it matters so just in case, but I just sometimes feel dumb doing it bc I don’t really feel like I’m reblogging TO anyone. But if it means something then that makes it worth it. Probably worth it anyway but just curious.

Really sorry, this wasn’t eloquently written at all but my brain is a hot mess right now

No way 😭 You’re so sweet and this whole ask you sent just 🥺🥺🥺 Thank you. Really thank you. Yeah Yn is very confident in the Con Artist and I think hard to relate to in many ways myself (but I like writing characters that aren’t like me as sort of inspiration).

No one said anything bad. I didn’t really get any haters it was just that at chapter 5, 6 readers and feedback went to nearly nothing until 7 where it struggled to climb to whatever the notes are at now (it’s less than 300 notes). I couldn’t figure out why. No one was mean or anything it just stopped getting notes. And feedback dwindled. And then I recently learned from multiple readers (anon asks and comments) that they didn’t finish because they thought it would be sad and they couldn’t handle a sad ending. And yeah.. I did kind of work that angle up because I wanted everyone to be happy and surprised by the ending. But instead most just stopped reading it so they never learned about what happened.

And I totally get not wanting to read a sad ending but for some reason, of all my stories that one stuck with me the most because I loved it so much. It’s in my top 3 of my favorite fics (of my own) and the ending was such a special one and I was really proud of it.

I can’t really understand why of all my fics that one hurt to see readers fall off at the end more than others but it just did. But I’m really happy you finally read it and thank you so so so much for your feedback 🥰

And as far as the reblog thing… I think if you don’t have any followers it might not matter much. I really don’t know know babe. I think more importantly than a reblog is feedback. Even if you’re on anon to share it. Like what you just now shared with me brightens my day so much. My con artist babes are among my favorite and their story just didn’t get enough love toward the end.

Really, I’m gonna say it again, thank you. 💕💕

Xoxo

[lenteur]

hiii love! 💓 ahh, of course :) and i do appreciate that a lot, thank you 💛 i work as well during the weekdays and sometimes it can be stressful <3

it kinda was! bc i was like oh god i'm gonna slip up!!! >.< but i kept it hidden well, she had no clue 🥰 they were so cute!! there's a website where you can order personalised clothes and have your pets faces on them <3 she had three dogs and i thought it would be hard but the socks turned out amazingly!! 💕

OH GOD I'M SO SORRY 🥺 that's svt for you, i swear sometimes when i rewatch old gose eps, i'm like.... am i about to switch bias?? i hate them but i love them so much (hate them tho) 🤣

noooo, don't be sorry, i'm so emotional too 😭 one of my older mutuals on twitter went to one of their fanmeets and she said the way you see them are the exact same in real life, she said they're so nice and they do genuinely take an interest in speaking to you (omg pls lemme meet them :((( )

honestly i feel like he's one of the least biased people in the group which does make a little bit sad :( he's one of my favourite people and is v important to me 💔 if you can be anyone in life, be a seungkwan 🦊

she is absolutely gorgeous 😭 totally did not have a bigger crush on her after that ep 💓

AAAH I'M SO GLAD YOU ENJOYED THEM!!!! they're a whole family 🌺 i missed one of the FUNNIEST ones omg which is this one - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2lTN_tCtuq0 this one is also a three part, just watching them having fun in the water is so funny 😭 dk's smile & laugh is everything to me 💝💝💝

you're so very welcome!!! i'm happy they had a positive impact on your day 🌷🌼🌻

hiii bestie 🌼 i've missed you a lot 💓 hopefully work doesn't get too stressful for you. if only we could be paid but not work, that'd be great... alas... </3

omg! that's even cuter than what i imagined :( all her dogs printed on her socks. this might be her favourite pair of socks 💝

oh no don't worry 🤣 i wasn't complaining (well kinda) about changing. i knew what i was getting into when i slipped into the diamond life 💎 but still hao is #1 in my heart. however, i might bias a lot more than just him. i don't have an official biaslist in that group and i think i'll keep it that way lol

lucky her 😭 i mean i believe her. the guys seem so nice and chill. it'd be an honour to meet them :( crossing fingers you'll meet them one day

really? from what i've seen i thought he was one of the more popular members of the groups? but it's a shame because he's so funny and sweet and talented and- i'll stop right here ^^'

seeing the 🦊 next to seungkwan made me wonder if you had to assign an emoji (not necessarily animals) to each member, which one would it be? you don't have to do it for all the members if it's too much, but at least a few members. the only one i find fitting is hoshi and his whole 🐯 agenda. tbh i thought it was just a one time thing at first, but then i saw him committing to it and i was a bit surprised to say the least. i haven't seen an idol be so invested in their persona before 😭 and i was a bit sad when his first solo song wasn't named tiger but spider instead. i thought he lost his passion for tigerhosh 🤣 🤣 🤣

all the episodes made me laugh so much. i mean seventeen always deliver as both artists and comedians. they make everything funny and captivating. i get so invested in their games even if it's not that deep 🤣 i mean in the sense i'll react as if i was a part of the group and the game lmao and the episode you sent me was funny as well 🤣 seventeen aka PURE CHAOS

thank you so much for interacting 🌻 that makes me happy :D and if you have any questions please do tell. i feel like i've been the one asking you questions and i feel bad for it >3<

as always, have a lovely day (or night) depending on when you'll read this :)

[theeio]

For the weirdly specific artist ask game:

Number 15 and 16! BTW, your Genos sketches are lovely!!!

AAAHH thank you so much!!!🥺🥺🥺im hyperfixtating so hard on genos rn so it makes me so happy when people seem to like my doodles of him!!💖

15. *Where* do you draw (don't drop your ip address this just means do you doodle at a park or smth)

if its at home, either on my dining table (where i work), or on my bed !!! i love doodling in bed its a whole vibe (even though its VERY ergonomically bad for me alsjsksj)🥺

and if its outside, i draw a lot on trains!! sometimes while standing in queues, on the table while waiting for food! i do a lot of life drawing hehe

16. Something you are good at but don't really have fun doing

HMMMMM i think i actually CAN paint things, realism actually bc i did it for my o levels, but its sucks the living soul out of me i CANNOT and WILL NEVER EVER do it again bc ill be absolutely miserable doing so AHKSSHJS

[carpisuns]

Hi!! I love your art! I remember a little a while ago, you mentioned you wanted to get more comfortable with quick sketches and posting drawings that weren’t as precise, and I just wanted to say that it seems like you made that transition super quickly and flawlessly so yay congrats! I’ve been loving the sketches and I am so happy to get to see them! (also, speaking of your more perfectly finished art, the ladrien spider man kiss was just breathtaking still have not recovered)

i've been thinking about this ask so much, it's so kind of you to say!! 😭 yes, speed has been one of my biggest frustrations with my art since the very beginning and it's something i've been consciously trying to improve (especially because i have limited free time and it bums me out that i have so many ideas i can never get to bc i'm such a slow creator, haha)

part of my issue has been that I have a hard time letting go of the urge to nitpick and make everything as perfect as I can even if my intention was to do something quick/loose/silly. so I’ve been trying to practice that a lot more lately—like, just drawing things and living with whatever came out of my pen and not sweating too much about it if it’s kinda ugly lol (or in some cases, Very ugly). instead I’ve been trying to focus on 1. Does it communicate what I wanted it to, warts and all, and 2. Did I have fun drawing it

@ladybeug has been a huge source of inspo for me on this! She gave me some really great advice here and also invited me to draw daily comics with her, which has been a total blast and a HUGE help. i feel really lucky and grateful to be able to learn from an artist I admire so much!! and also just loosen up and try new things and make ugly art and be silly in what weirdly used to feel like kind of an unattainable way to me? it’s strange to think that something like that actually takes practice but it does and I think I’m getting better at it as I go :) I’m still pretty slow, but I’m definitely getting faster, and doing a lot more doodles on paper—in pen so I can’t erase!—has been a really helpful approach and a nice break for my brain. sometimes i wonder if my art is actually getting worse but in a weird way it still feels like progress haha. only problem is that now I’m like “when will my desire and ability to create nicely rendered art return from war” djsksks sometime soon I hope 😂

Anyway, thank you so much for this kind comment! It means a lot that you enjoy my art and also that it you remembered what I was trying to improve on and noticed my efforts 😭💜💜 bless u 🥺

[comfortfrogblog]

I had a dream where I was scrolling through your blog at a concert. why? who knows. but it made me wonder, do you like to listen to music? if so what kind of music do you like?

PLS ANON this is so adorable (im shocked my blog was in your dream tho omg)

also thank you so much for being curious as to my music taste, that makes me so happy🥺music used to be a really vulnerable thing to me and i was so afraid to share it with anyone (like. i would tremble if anyone gave me the aux cord), but recently i’ve become more solid in it and i love to share and exchange music with people!!

cut bc omg this got long😭i am so sorry i got kinda carried away (if you cant tell i love music)

i listen to lots of different music—i could probably listen to anything you put on and enjoy it (though my limit would be like. hard screamo metal. but i can endure that genre with the songs that aren’t quite as hardcore haha!! and even then i do appreciate them, cause i have a friend who’s really into metal and i’ve learned that the scream singing takes a lot of voice skill!!)

but my favorite genres are alt/indie rock, 80s, and 80s inspired music :D idk what it is about the sound of 80s music but it just flows through me and feels so ,,, idk. it’s so dreamy and synthy and i just love love love it. i can’t get enough of it.

some of my favorite artists for dreamy 80s inspired vibe music are dayglow, yot club, strawberry guy, WOAH, mac demarco, castlebeat, djo. and then for actual 80s music, i am obliged to list kate bush <3 and then also thomas dolby hhrjhrhrh

for alt rock and stuff, hippo campus, the neighborhood, HUNNY, wallows, COIN, half•alive, girl in red

other miscellaneous artists i listen to: surfaces, gorillaz (sometimes), mitski, yaeow, mimi bay, vansire, boy pablo

i also love classical music (favorite is debussy, im learning several of his pieces rn bc oh my gosh he just Gets it. he gets it), video game music, and honestly? i listen to kpop occasionally. and im not afraid to say that anymore >:) sometimes you get sick of american music and kpop is so good and it really slaps and there’s no shame in listening to it and appreciating it as music. (i mean.. i did go through a phase in 7th grade but let’s not talk about that!)

also,,, this might be shameless self promo,, but since i mentioned video game music, i actually started posting compilations of vgm on youtube, mostly for myself, but a few people end up finding them every now and then and thats super cool. if you ever want to listen, here’s my channel :) there’s not that many but i have sooo many in the works im just too lazy to compile them properly😭

anyways holy crap i think i got everything?😭im so sorry i wasnt expecting it to be that long!! this made me realize that even though im more comfortable with sharing than i used to be, i still really,, haven’t done it. like at all. so thank you anon, this gives me courage to tell more people about the music i like!!

if anyone wants to send in music recs or just share the music you enjoy, please please do🥺i just love to talk about music and i’ll listen to anything you give me!!

[khaleesiofalicante]

"Artists are people driven by the tension between the desire to communicate and the desire to hide" - Donald Winnicott

Izzy going with Maryse and Alec staying😭 the opposite-parallels hurt me ok?!?!? Also the reason he says is also kinda sad and shit is all complicated!!!

Sometimes that’s what it means to be a son. To make sacrifices for your parents.

Sometimes that’s what it means to be a parent. To make sacrifices for your children.

This!!

The way he never walked away and he never gave up are some of his best qualities but at the same time the reason it all went down. Love me some good analysis...

Alec-Maryse post-divorce parallels... Wow

SIZZY RIGHTS!!!😎 Also not them stalking him djhdjdjd

He reminds himself of what Ragnor told him. Love how he is always learning and trying to understand better🥺

Rules and shit really are complicated...

"And you Isabelle, you live inside my heart. You always will.” Lightwood siblings is something that can actually be so personal..

But she doesn’t know how to be sad. So, she decides to be angry. He wonders if all younger siblings are like that. I dont like this call out...

FUCK VALENTINE. CLACE RIGHTS BITCH!! I WILL PROTECT THEM WITH MY LIFE✨🔪💙 JACE IS SO FUCKING IN LOVE AND I SAY GOOD FOR HIM!!

Love is blind, and love is stupid, and love is dangerous, and love is beautiful.💜💜💜

But Jace could ask him to part the ocean and Alec will die trying. *sobbing* I'm fine :)

Competitive little shits kdhsjdjkd, although Alec does win this one... He has the psychopath father and all shit

Simon and Clary supremacy only!!

OMG Anjali and Rafael are absolute nerds and I'm love them jdhdjs

If we don't have a google folder together, then what the point??!?

They get turned on by the weirdest shit jdvsjdjs

Charlotte Fairchild is the most badass of all tbh

We all should be scared of Anjali😌

I like that Alec didn't make it hard for Rafael when he wanted to go to Stanford but I also expected more fight form him... And from Magnus oh gods why is this so fucking sad😭

I support Rosewood rights and wrongs!😎

The parallels of their pictures!! Max not giving a fuck and Rafael being so careful!! And the way Max is jealous of Rafael "having everything together" and Rafael being jealous of Max for being so "unafraid and chaotic" Brb I'm gonna cry..

I hate everyone. Magnus just gets dragged over and over. And the tweets holy fuck!! I hate that I laughed with the cinnamon roll one smh

“Will you keep an eye on him for me?” Rafael asks him instead. "Always,” David replies. 🥺🥺🥺

I understand Max being mad, but fuck if he didnt stressed me out so much here!!! Just, kindly stop :)

For whatever his issues, Max knows how to keep a promise. Not me crying over this😭

How do you make someone feel better if they aren’t feeling anything at all? Ok, that and the fact that the divorce issue starts here hurts a lot🙂 I love this chapter<3

I can't finish this Timeline for a few hours bc I have to get up (eww) but just some thoughts till now:

Note to self: This man is the bane of his existence. Pun intended.😂😂

Him always answering to the ones who need help got me emo for some reason🥺

I think of you everywhere💛 David really know how to go from horny to soft in 0.1 secs djhdjsksks

The staff is the real MVP here!! I love them all so much and they live in my head 24/7 and they are all amazing<33

Anyway, song rec: Be alright By Dean Lewis. Its really a shame cheating is not a trope here (its not, Idk how I would survived that shit jdhsjsj) because the playlist would be ✨stunning✨

Remeber to take a break when you need it. Byeee💚

GET THAT SLEEP GIRL. GET IT. WHOOOOOO.

If TLND had cheating, I would have thrown myself into the river (and i am like scared of rivers) gotta draw that angst line somewhere lol.

also, i may or may not have a magnus and camille playlist with a lot of cheating/toxic songs lol.

I feel like Be Alright is in the divorce au playlist (or maybe lbaf?) but there are too many songs there and I can't find it lol.

Sending you some sertonin. Have this song rec from my David playlist: Pomme - Ceux qui rêvent

[artpastmidnight]

I posted 709 times in 2021

94 posts created (13%)

615 posts reblogged (87%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 6.5 posts.

I added 195 tags in 2021

#personal - 37 posts

#bucky barnes - 23 posts

#asexuality - 22 posts

#my art - 21 posts

#i came out to have a good time and i'm honestly feeling so attacked right now - 18 posts

#chronically ill artist - 18 posts

#mmm love it here - 16 posts

#art: the struggle is real - 15 posts

#trauma - 13 posts

#chronic pain - 12 posts

Longest Tag: 137 characters

#ok but cellphone charms kinda come from the samurai putting 根付('netsuke'=charms) on their swords so this is actually recycling the trend!

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

i wish we could've watched The Falcon and Winter Soldier Finale in theaters because i KNOW the theater would've lost their shit the way we did when steve caught mjolnir when sam showed up as the NEW CAPTAIN AMERICA

What a great moment for Anthony Mackie,

I hope u heard us cheering, ✨KING✨

59 notes • Posted 2021-04-23 09:15:28 GMT

#4

does anybody else get their whole body sore the day after an extreme panic attack kinda like they have a fever, or is it just me?

65 notes • Posted 2021-07-05 02:15:28 GMT

#3

i watched the part in the mandalorian s2 where mando finally learned grogu’s name and he just keeps calling him and laughing softly to himself when grogu reacts and then gets so excited grogu can use the force that he curses to himself cuz he’s so fucking thrilled his son can use his powers and grogu gets scared because he noticed his dad cursed and mando’s like “no, i’m not mad at you” and he just looks admiringly at grogu saying “you’re really special, kid” with so much feeling on a loop last night because it’s just so damn ADORABLE.

like toxic masculinity??? i don’t know her

104 notes • Posted 2021-01-03 02:56:45 GMT

#2

Being brought over to the US from Japan at the age of 5 was detrimental to my self image. In Japan, I was treated as a ‘cute child’ (meaning ‘a normal kid’) but when I was brought over to the states, I was bullied constantly for having a “flat face”, “short, disgusting legs”, etc…
 Always being compared to impossible white beauty standards, I grew up to have a LOT of internalized racism towards my looks. (I am still working very hard with many issues of “straddling two worlds🇯🇵🇺🇸” with my therapist)

However, on my trip to Kyoto this time, my Mom wanted me to do a ‘maiko (geisha apprentice) transformation photoshoot’. 
I was reluctant about it because I hate seeing myself in pictures, and I didn’t want to do something so touristy. 
But, since I sometimes draw geisha/maiko for thank you cards, I thought I could get some pose references or insight into how things would move.

This was a blessing in disguise because for the first time in my life, it made me look at myself completely outside western beauty standards.
 I was looking at myself for what I am: a Japanese woman. Although I knew it in my head, it *FINALLY* CLICKED THAT I WAS ALWAYS STRIVING TO BE SOMETHING THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO ACHIEVE, BECAUSE I AM NOT WHITE.

so to all the people that bullied me and convinced me I was ugly and therefore worthless because I couldn’t fit into your beauty standards, i say…

FUCK YOU, I’M GORGEOUS!

127 notes • Posted 2021-10-29 16:16:43 GMT

#1

signal boosts are deeply appreciated🥺

hey, i know we’re ALL struggling so i know it’s a hard time to ask, but my lil sis is getting married and i’m really sad i can’t get anything for her bc i’m disabled and unemployed. basically the only thing i can do is draw. i don’t do shippy art, but i can do face closeups pretty well (stylized or not) for like, icons and stuff. i think i’ll only do faces/bust ups for speed’s sake this time.

would commissioning me be something ANYONE would be interested in? and yes, i am temporarily lifting my ban on spn commissions. PLEASE SEND ME AN ASK IF YOU’RE INTERESTED 🖤

here are some samples of what i’ve done over the years in no particular order:

please click on the image if it’s blurry.

thanks again for considering 🖤

411 notes • Posted 2021-07-07 21:51:43 GMT

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[revasserium]

Your writing touches the depths of my very soul and makes me cry from the pure BEAUTY you are a blessing thank you so much the way you describe things is BREATHTAKING to me and just... please, I hope you never stop writing ♥️♥️ hope you’re doing well btw♥️

aww thank you!!! i’m doing well! just busy with real life and work haha but other than that, i’m doing quite well <3 

oh my- ever since I got added to your tag list I've been blessed every once and a while with your writing! a Very Good Choice on my part and I'm so thankful that you have your tag list!! you're doin amazing and ily 💞

aww thank you!! it’s quite a new concept to me! i am an Oldie in the vast world of tumblr LOL but im glad that people seem to be enjoying it! 

hi!! i just wanna tell you how inspiring you and your work is!! like your found among the ruins analysis was so detailed and incredibly profound in such a relatable, humble way and i loved learning about the subtle allusions to history that i hadn’t even thought of before! please keep writing and take care of urself!! 💞💞

yes! it was an incredibly fun piece to write, and one of those pieces of writing i go back to sometimes. because i just enjoyed it so much u_u im really glad that you all enjoyed it too! <3 

I love all your writing, but your kageyama pieces are just so in depth and awesome

its bc my bias is super strong hahah i love kageyama so much. him and hinata will always be two of my fav muses 

not an ask but let me tell u i love u and i cherish u 🥺 ur works are amazing!!! 🥺 pls continue doing what u love ♥️ take care always 😊

thanks darling! <3 and you too u__u stay safe and healthy ! 

dude,,,, i'm logging onto my tumblr account for the first time in like years just to tell u that i fucking love ur writing its so artistic and i'm lich rally in tears throughout every piece 😔✊ i love u

thank you!!!! <3 

hey just a reminder that I adore this blog and your writing. you write the perfect type of stories to curl up in bed with on a cold night because they really do warm my heart 💓

ahhh thanks so much <3333 

reading your writing always makes me want to cry it’s so freaking incredible ;-;

u__u <3 

holy frick can i just say that slam poetry is one of the best things i've ever encountered in my teenage years. like even if i'm just reading (more like yelling) my own poems in my room, it feels like a weight has been lifted off my chest. i don't find it as hard as actually writing stories with meaning and naming characters. i can just substitute my trauma with glittering metaphors only for you to analyze and digest them for what they really are. i will say it again, slam poetry is the shit.

yes! slam poetry is a very good outlet for a lot of complicated emotions. and also its just nice to read/listen to. there’s a lot of quite mediocre pieces, but when you find the good ones, it really is worth it! 

so sometimes when I just need to feel something I come back to reread “letting go” + oikawa LMAOOO because that Hurts so bad shsjsns

ahhhh hahahah a weLP im glad that it brings you some relief u__u but all writing is meant to elicit emotion, so! im glad it’s doing its job haha 

“I’m chugging wine and thirsting over fictional boys” if that ain’t a MOOD

LOL. it me. constantly.