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[adilynnyuri]

"Should I affirm for every single thing/people which/whom I want in my reality or should I use umbrella affirmations??? Will it be effective?? What if that one small situation/person I wanted won't come/happen like how I wanted??? "

��� FIRST OF ALL, YOUR MIND IS soo SOOO POWERFUL!! LIKE IT KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT!!!

You don't need to specifically affirm for dp, df, db or "desired whatever" ( you can if you want to of course!!)

The real shit is - affirm simple.

Whatever it is bruh, it will exactly. EXACT FUCKIN LY REPLICATE IN YOUR REALITY!!

Mansion?

"I got a mansion stfu I don't wanna hear any broke ass shit"

Sp?

"Sp is mine forever and ever!! Nothing can change this shit"

Revising death?

"That person never died! They are alive right here wtf you talking? "

Grades?

"I got the perfect grades which makes the teacher go mad"

Money?

"I got lotta money which I can't even fit in my big ass mansion bro"

Whatever tf I want

"I get all the shit so easily?! I got the perfect face, body, money, sp, lifestyle I want! And whatever it is, I get it immediately!! "

With lots of love,

ADILYNN YURI🤍🌷

[dreamscape-glow]

GOTH STAN HEADMATE PACK !!

name: stan , stanny . prns: he/him , they/them , it/its . gender: demiboy , bxy , agender . orientation: gay .

species: human ( voidpunk ) . hair: black . eyes: silver blue . skin: pale . clothes/accessories: snake bites , beanie , band t-shirts , cargo pants . other unique features: eye bags .

roles: audeomate , memory holder . source: south park .

age: 18 - 19 . birthday: october 19 .

personality: quiet , caring . likes: guitar , emo fashion . loves: (scene) kyle , concerts . dislikes: pink , rainbows . hates: bright colors .

faceclaim:

ac 1 ac 2 ac 3

tags: @bahtive

[fourchaos]

[𝐀𝐒𝐌𝐑] 𝐈 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐀𝐍 𝐈𝐃𝐈𝐎𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐋 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐒 𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐓𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐁 𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐒. / ind. pri. sel. original character set within the 𝐀𝐑𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒. primarily show + headcanon-based. unfamiliar with the game lore. treated by pulsar.

psd credit / personals dni

[maccha-1228]

Hi maccha!!! I love your art so much!! 🥰 I especially love all your style disney aus! Are there any aus with newer disney movies you thought would fit style?

Hi, anon! I’m so happy that you like disney aus❤️

And that’s a good question! How about…Encanto AU?✨I think Stan as Felix and Kyle as Pepa would be perfect<3

[karatestar]

" kreese was right about there being darkness in everyone, you know? sometimes we feel anger or jealousy or hatred, even if we don't want to. but the thing he did not understand is that there's good in everyone too. every single one of us. in the end, all kreese did was make me believe in people even more. " —— COURTNEY WHITMORE.

#KARATESTAR. ⸺ WELCOME! THIS IS A PRIVATE, SELECTIVE AND FRIENDS-ONLY ROLEPLAY BLOG FOR COBRA KAI AU COURTNEY WHITMORE. adored by b, twenty-four, she&her, est. 2024.

[stcrgirl]

I CAN DEAL. ★ I'M A SUPERHERO.

courtney whitmore better known as stargirl of dc comics.

[fallstaticexit]

Can I take a sec to GUSH about the Animated Wings Mod by @sp-creates ✨ Seeing Edin with their accurate wing size and watching them flutter is everything for gameplay. The wings come in three different sizes, which is perfect because canonically, Edin is pretty small for a Guardian, so their wings aren't massive as they should be at their age.

But that doesn't stop them from trying 🥹. There's a ton of effects too and I believe if you have the Fairies VS Witches Mod, they can't fly right away, they have to develop their powers. *chef's kiss*

10/10 ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

[pforestsims]

✨🎁Sparkle Sparkle✨

Clothing recolors with shiny patterns require Extended SimStandardMaterial by @crispsandkerosene

⭐recolors of Platasp 4t2 Sentate Messina dress AF

based on snake skin texture by @sentate , plus mesh edit with my classic pumps /optional/ . Polycount: 4679. S4 original is here. /Dress conversion by @platinumaspiration came with lots of nice 4t2 recolors btw/.

⭐Hourglass Dress Separated AF plus recolors

& Hourglass Dress Short Classic Pumps AF (repo)

New meshes based on my shape edit of Celebrations SP wedding gown, with dress subset separate from skin - in 8 glittery shades. Polycount: 2049 & 2500.

⭐recolors of 4t2 Nell Disheveled Suit conv. by @kurimas

plus my mesh edit - minor fixes and TS2 'block' hands & added "fat" morph. Polycount: 6078. S4 original by @nell-le is here .

Download all: SFS | BOX

/updated 24.12.2024 - fixed morphs in HourglassDressSeparated/

And a little bonus:

⭐Sparkler accessory default

Download: SFS | BOX

This will replace original chunky mesh with the same one but made much thinner, and two textures used for spark effects with larger ones (48x384 px).

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I wish Everybody a Happy New Year!

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Recolor swatches and my notes on adding envcube masks to clothing under the cut:

*This is for The Sims 2

Recolor number 00 in each set contains envcube mask and is required by other recolors.

Metallic Messina dress recolors all use one envcube mask texture and one grey clothing texture, colors are added with TXMT settings only.

Same with dark shades of Disheveled suit - four recolors, only two textures.

Hourglass Dress Short mesh contains two shoe textures: black and beige, I've also included TXMT setting files ready to be imported into recolors, so you can easily swap those if you wish.

BTW I also included TXMT settings that you can merge with 4t2 Messina recolors converted by Platasp. This will add a snakeskin envcube/mask (from my recolor).

When adding shine to custom clothing, remember that shiny subset has to be separate from skin and that TXMT Type (cMaterialDefinition tab) has to be set to SimStandardMaterial !

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Notes on recolouring clothes with envcubemask:

SimPe is required.

Here's a tutorial on adding shine to clothes - but the quickest way is to simply import TXMT settings with shine and mask from recolor that already has those, and edit texture names (& cMaterialDefinition TXMT type, if it's set to SimSkin).

Bodyshop breaks envcube masks - when you make a new recolor of shiny outfit it will turn the mask to transparent DXT3

borked texture has to be replaced with ExtRaw8bit texture, or you can remove it and link TXMT to envcube mask texture name from another package (stdMatEnvCubeMaskTextureName line). I recommend removing custom envcube texture that Bodyshop creates and using TS2 envcube (stdMatEnvCubeTextureName line).

I find that reflectionsilver-envcube is the best for neutral and colorized shiny patterns on clothing, unless you want bright gold shine - then reflectiongold-envcube works best, with stdMatEnvCubeCoef set to pure white.

Envcubes often used for objects, like reflectionsparking-envcube, will look quite mirror-y and dark in envcube blend mode.

stdMatEnvCubeMode: blend mode works best for medium / dark textures, while diffuseRadiance mode works best for light clothing textures. There's also standard Reflection mode, which is quite subtle, probably best if you'd like to make patches of clothing look like satin or plastic.

To achieve nice glitter / sparkle effect, Envcube mask has to be crisp, high contrast, black and white. Make sure you have 100% black on parts that are not supposed to be shiny.

stdMatEnvCubeCoef line is the reflection color / brightness. Envcubes have their own colors already, so your reflection color settings will be affected by it. Reflectionsilver-envcube texture is neutral with greyish-blue shadows, no dark spots.

Reflection with mask can be previewed in Bodyshop. Have in mind that reflections look quite bright when camera is in front of a Sim, but when you open the game and look at the same outfit at an angle, it won't be as bright.

In this vid you can see reflectionkitchenhighcontrast-envcube used for silver dress - looked great but when I put that dress on my Sim, and looked at it from above, reflections were barely visible.

[nico-esoterica]

More about celeb sps!

"But what about the millions of other people manifesting them?" 🤔⭐

There's the perspective that they've successfully manifested them in their personal realities, but I'm an elitist. In every other reality, I believe I am the only person my man would ever want to be with, consider, or fathom as a partner. I am the best of the best. I am the only person to ever exist in his world he'd want to be with intimately. I don't care who he's been with. I'm the best lover, best romantic partner, most attractive person to exist in their world. I am always infinitely better. I am what dreams are made of. Billions of the most attractive and good men in the world would kill irl to be with me or even be in the same room with me. Women and other identities too!~

This is how you need to think. If you think anyone's manifesting them? No, they're not lol. Because they'd never do it successfully or have the confidence and conviction to maintain it. They're also not you. And they're weak bitches! I said what I said. I've never thought small in my entire life and I have unwavering confidence, self discipline, and belief in myself. I am self-obsessed and radiate power, magnetism, and sex appeal. I'm also the most beautiful person I've ever personally come across, alive or dead. In a room full of the most conventionally beautiful people, my sp would only have eyes for me. Even in an industry full of surgical beauties! Idgaf! Even if I wasn't gorgeous, my sp would still think I was! Now, let's discuss stalkers and other criminals and what makes you different:

You're always winning in your reality, even if that winning is you losing, lol. You're winning in the assumption that you can't have what you want or who you want. That's winning but just not in your favor.

Even if millions of people are casting love spells or manifesting your person, they will always fail because you've rendered them ineffective in your reality. Also, AGAIN, you are YOU! Someone can only 'take' your sp if you THINK it's possible that they can be taken! That's why you need to STAND THE FUCK UP! Would you wanna be with you? I would wanna be with me! My sp is LUCKY that I even give a fuck the way I do lmao! I also personally believe whoever you're manifesting is manifesting YOU back! That's how manifesting people works objectively if you look at stories of couples who've described how it feels on both ends.

I don't consider stalking to be something celebs want but may be what they expect due to their job and not thinking they're in control of their realities, etc. I also put obsessive fans in that category because their emotional investment makes them money lol. But as a celeb who wants to be genuinely loved as a human being, I do believe they're manifesting the right person for them and that spectrum of possibility will involve someone that's potentially a fan or was one due to the magnitude of their fame. But this person would truly love and appreciate them. That's the difference. When Hailey Bieber and Victoria Beckham were manifesting their men as fans, they wound up in healthy and happy relationships with them. Thriving, tbh.

But the typical 'fan' is usually someone with piss poor self esteem, puts their fave on a pedestal, and may think they have to force themselves on their fave to 'get them to like them' when that's just abuse and assault. That's due to poor self concept and probably due to having an unhealthy relationship with them bc of social alienation from Capitalism, untreated/misdiagnosed neurodivergence because of lack of money and access to quality healthcare, and a combination of factors where their fave is the only 'good' experience in their lives. You're always telling yourself a story. With your sp, celeb or not, it's the same thing.

These people don't believe that they can successfully 'be' with their fave without breaking the law or bypassing personal boundaries and that lack of self belief is because of bad self concept and personal self esteem. They don't think they would ever choose them without them needing to force it to happen. When you're manifesting like Hailey, Victoria, etc, you're putting yourself on the pedestal instead. You're believing that there's no way in hell that celeb sp WON'T want you for just existing. I don't know those women personally but it takes audacity and that audaciousness is a result of a strong self concept about themselves and what they're capable of. But it doesn't have to be all that.

You don't even have to like yourself to manifest a celeb sp, but most people don't tell themselves that they can just exist and the sp will find them and fall in love with them.

That's the difference between a stalker, saesang, and toxic person vs another person manifesting them. You'd think there's overlap but there's a distinct difference in mindset. You don't need to be in creepy group chats full of criminals exchanging stolen personal info or do any weird shit but people do most likely because that's the only way they think they'll get access to their sp. They're still insecure, lol.

That's why people commit crimes anyway and is the way our system is set up. They're still manifesting that fraudulent access but they rarely, if ever, land the full blown relationship where their sp wants them back. Their sp not wanting them back despite all the weird shit (bc people irl DO have relationships w/ toxic people) is proof that they DON'T think or believe this person wants them. Otherwise they'd think it was cute or something because they'd see them as the one and only exception. That rarely happens with celebs, even though I'm sure it does, but that not being the norm means those people manifesting celeb sps simply don't think they can do it deep down.

That's why you're one out of millions or a billion, honestly. Even if someone seems very confident, unless they have consistent commitment to their inner story like con artist Anna Delvey, for example, then they won't be successful.

Because that's all it takes with anything, sp or not. It's the story you're telling yourself. It doesn't have to feel real. You just need to not change it.

Like I said, the other girls are weak bitches. It just is what it is.

[zee-143]

♡Confess I loved you from the start♡

A/N: After pure procrastination, I finally wrote something. Now I have to get to the other members smh😭😭 idk I'll probably do Sunoo next. Also should I have a tag list? If so, tell me if you wanna be added!! Happy reading<33

Warnings: swearing lmao

Fluff☁⭐

Jake x Fem!Reader

If you see a mistake, no you didn't 🙂

ENHYPEN's Playlist

✧─── ･ ｡ﾟ★: *.✦ .* :★. ───✧

You loved Jake. More than you'd ever like to admit

Having known each other for so long, he was always your happy place. Almost everyone at uni believed your souls were bounded together. And others assumed you must be partners, right? Considering how Jake himself drapes his arms around you ever so casually or often gives you forehead kisses. You wouldn't call them wrong.This has been a thing for years. Although, it's only now you question why seeing his face makes your heart rate spike.

Jake rambles on about something that happened the previous day. You took a sip of your drink, slouching into the booth of your favorite little diner. You and Jake would always come here throughout high school. It was practically a second home. Most of the staff knew you both quite well too. The 80s inspired diner brought nothing but delicious meals and heartwarming memories. You couldn't really come here much due to university. So all these little moments meant the world.

"I need to ask you something" His words change the conversation completely. Now, you're actually paying attention. Not just admiring his face while his words only translated into 'blah blah blah's. "Something?" Your eyebrows raise. Jake's fingers tap against the table, his lips pressing together in thought. His mouth opened to speak but not a word came out.

"Take your time" You say. Your heart raced and a million thoughts jumped into your brain. Could he be confessing? Could he actually like me? Shit, is this even happening? You took another sip of your drink, trying to disguise your smile. Jake caught your gaze and sighed. "I-I want to ask Lexie to be my girlfriend" Jake blurts out.

"What? " your voice cracks

"Lexie. I want to ask her out" he repeats

You held back any sound that might indicate you're fucking hurt. Sure, you knew Jake liked Lexie. He's liked her ever since the first year of university. She's apart of the friend group and she's an absolute sweet heart. She has this natural beauty to her. Lexie is a close friend of yours but you still envy that she stole Jake's attention so easily.

"I know this is sudden" Jake said "But I really need your advice. Please? " He intertwined his fingers with yours and pouts. You don't say anything. You don't know what to say. The fact that he came to you for advice warmed your crushed heart. You tell him everything you believe Lexie would appreciate. You give him things to say or think about. You say this all with an aching soul. You wanted him to be happy, even if it wasn't with you

And just before you both leave the diner and go your seperate ways, Jake hugs you. He pulls you into the warmest hug you've ever felt. With joy, you hug him back. "You're the best, y/n" Jake pulls away, keeping his eyes on yours. "Thanks for always being so supportive"

You might be crazy but the way his eyes softened. His smile making an appearance more than usual. That pink dusted across his face─that you might as well be imagining. Delusional feelings only prompt you to think he feels exactly what you feel. Although, it can't be the case. Jake often talks about Lexie like she's the only girl on planet earth. You really can't let irrational thoughts take over like this. "No problem, Jake. I'm always happy to help" You respond, forcing a grin

♡

Your dorm room is a load of silence. Not even the sound of a bug could be heard. You lay on the sofa while looking up at the ceiling. Every thought seemed to be about Jake. You desperately tried to think of anything else. Food, laundry or cats? No point though as your heart continues to drag back to that special friend who would always stay a friend.

You couldn't just sit here and feel bad for yourself. You had to let Jake know. It's a secret you've been hiding for him. You both promised not to keep secrets like this. Especially for so long. It only felt right to go tell him. Let him know you're so in love with him it hurts.

You jump off your couch and rush towards the door. You lock the dorm room and storm out of the dorm building. For some odd reason, you forgot it was raining outside. Light rain though. Nothing to absolutely kill you. You think about going back to get an umbrella but you're already outside anyway. You don't have a car either as Jake always drives you around. Fuck it, we dash, you thought

And upon arriving at his place, you're basically drenched. That was the least of your problems though. You knocked on Jake's door then hear rustling from inside. A few moments pass before Jake pulls the door open, staring down at you. "Y/N? What are yo-"

You push yourself inside, hurriedly cutting him off. Jake shuts the front door with an eyebrow raise. "Aww. You didn't miss me already, did you? " He teased. You give him a vulnerable look before pouring out everything. "Jake. I know you like Lexie and you both would make an amazing couple. I-I just wanted to say that I love you! But if you wanna be with- uh- Lexie, then that's fine by me-"

"Woah. Calm down" Jake chuckles, pulling you into a warm embrace, simply ignoring how wet you are from the rain.

"Lex and I weren't going to work out anyway. She's kinda already taken" you hear him sigh. You silently thank your ancestors for that. Her already being taken makes things slightly more easier. Or maybe not because you did blatantly say you love him. Love. What a strong word. "Oh. That's unfortunate"

"Yeah" Jake rests his head on top of yours

"Glad to know you love me, baby"

You slap his arm and roll your eyes. Jake pulls away with a laugh. "Your confession, not mine! " He states. You try not to laugh while giving him a stern look. "I was just saying things" You shrug. Jake intertwined his hand with yours, pulling you close again. "To be honest with you" He takes a moment to pause before continuing "I don't really like Lexie. I only forced myself to like her because of you" His confession caught you off guard. You mask your shock with a smile. "Well, you had me convinced"

"Did I? " He frowns "I must have hurt you, huh? I-I wasn't sure if you'd ever feel the same. You're my best friend and I didn't want our relationship to feel uncomfortable because of some stupid crush-"

You cut him off, placing a gentle kiss on his lips. As you pull away, you notice how red his ears are. Jake blinks for a few moments before speaking again. "Y/N? " He smiles

"Jake?" you smile back

"Can I be your boyfriend? "

"Only if you let me be your girlfriend"

"Deal" Jake wraps his arms around your waist, pressing a kiss against your forehead. It was only then he realized how drenched you were. "Let's get you out of those clothes, yeah? " He suggests. You gasp before punching his arm. "That's so forward, Sim"

Jake winced, shaking his head. "Not like that! Your clothes are wet, dumbass. Don't want you catching a cold" He removes his arms from your waist, stepping back. You then realize what he meant, letting out an awkward chuckle. "Ah, sorry"

"Pervert" He jokes, pulling you towards his room. You were about to respond but thought against it. "I love you too by the way" Jake says with an affectionate tone. "Love you more" You replied

Despite this not being how you wanted your confession with him to go, you're glad it did. Knowing that Jake has loved you from the start. He loved you just as long as you loved him. It sparked a chain of happiness. You were ready to spend all your seconds with him. Each and every one<3

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[adilynnyuri]

"My man is SOO obsessed with me that he says ily every damn second" (My affirmation)

AND SEE!

For anyone asking "can you manifest exactly and drastically like how you wanted"

THE ANSWER IS YES. AS YOU CAN SEE.

Bruh my man says that he loves me for every 5 minutes once EVERYDAY 😭😭🙏🏻

Bro went from friend zoning me to COMPLETELY OBSESSED WITH ME!! WHY? because I didn't want his ass to friend zone me and so i affirmed that he loves and yea of course, obsessed with me! AND YAYYY⭐☝🏻

Bro tortures me with love and i love it so much! 😋

Not only in the case of sp! Make anything OR anyone YOURS! YOU DESERVE ALL THE AMAZING STUFFS IN THE WORLD! SO SPOIL YOURSELF!! 💗💋

With lots of love,

ADILYNN YURI 🤍🌷

[dreamscape-glow]

CRAIG TUCKER HEADMATE PACK !!

name: craig tucker . prns: he/him , they/them . gender: demiboy . orientation: gay ( mlm ) .

species: human . hair: black . eyes: green . skin: light tan . clothes/accessories: chullo hat , coat , track pants . other unique features: braces , moles .

roles: verbal protector . source: south park .

age: 14 - 15 . birthday: october 23 .

personality: standoffish , passive aggessive . likes: tweek , blue . loves: stars , space . dislikes: red , fire . hates: cartman .

faceclaim:

ac 1 ac 2 ac 3

tags: @bahtive

[fourchaos]

tag dump 001 ~

[stellarbonds]

🌙⭐Stellar and Lunar points!⭐🌙

If you've paid attention, You might've saw that in our last teaser that there are some little bars on top of the bros health stats and that they were filled when preforming successful attacks!

These are Stellar and Lunar points! These will be required to utilize some of your more powerful actions during combat!

SP and LP are naturally needed to preform Stellar and Lunar attacks, but they also are used to activate badges! We believe that this will include a more interactive combat system with resource management, deciding between using a powerful attack or getting utility from your badges!

An example concept of badges and how they will work is shown below:

[jadeazora]

A new Message from the Masters Team is out!

New Mysterious Stones Chapter (A Fateful Reunion) coming on May 1, 2024! You'll need to have collected a total of 600 Mysterious Stones to unlock this story's area. Volo and Rei finally meet face-to-face on Pasio. What will Rei do in response to Volo's intentions?

In addition, they've made improvements that will allow you to easily check successful teams when you are unable to win a battle, and also revamped each 5⭐-Guaranteed Sync Pair Scout found in the General tab of the Ticket Scout menu so that you can scout either x5 or x10. (It sounds to me like you would need to have collected 150 to 300 5⭐ Scout Tickets.)

Rika will star in Story Event Good Ol' Rika Here beginning on Apr26, and by teaming up with Rika & Clodsire from their Poké Fair Scout that will be available at the same time as the event, you'll be able to invite Rika as a Guest to the Trainer Lodge! You can also get a Clodsire photo frame for the Photo Creator by teaming up with them. Rika can be invited as a Guest to the Trainer Lodge starting May1.

Rika & Clodsire are a Ground-type Support Sync Pair. Their EX Role is Field. Their Rampant Mud Slap Buddy Move can lower all opponents' accuracy by two stat ranks and leave them poisoned. It can also create a Ground Zone and increase all allies' Physical Moves ↑ Next and Special Moves ↑ Next effects by two ranks each. They can also use their Think Fast! Trainer move to raise all allies' Attack and Sp. Atk by two stat ranks. Plus, they have a Passive Skill that restores all allies' HP when Rika & Clodsire get hit by an attack move, and another Passive Skill that lowers one of the following stats of an opponent that attacked them by two stat ranks at random when hit by an attack move: Attack, Defense, Sp. Atk, Sp. Def, or Speed.

Three different Triple Feature Poké Fair Scouts will begin on Apr27, featuring Sync Pairs such as Skyla (Anniversary 2022) & Tornadus, Palmer & Regigigas, and Gloria (Dojo Uniform) & Urshifu! For each lineup, there will be a regular Triple Feature Poké Fair Scout, as well as a paid-gems-only Triple Feature Poké Fair Scout that comes with a Roll Cake present. Each featured Fair-Exclusive Sync Pair will have an EX Role added, so we hope you look forward to it. (Note: Palmer & Regigigas already have an EX Role.) Also, looking forward to being able to boost Lysandre 👀

The sequel to the ongoing Costume Event New Heroes Are Born will start on Apr30. Two figures have appeared before our heroes as villains! (Cool how we're getting the PokeStar Studios alts as villains, but pretty predictable. Would have been cool to see some actual villains getting in on the fun, add that sense of urgency/seriousness, but was thinking it might be too much of an ask lol)

The next High Score Event "Water and Fairy Conqueror" will begin on May 7, 2024. This High Score Event will have two recommended types. Taking into account the difference in battle difficulty based on the available Sync Pairs of the recommended types for this High Score Event, the maximum number of points needed to obtain the featured reward will be changed from 180,000 to 200,000. They plan to make more adjustments to this point total based on the difficulty of future events as well.

Also scheduled are returns of Solo Event Pasio Gold Rush, Daily Battle The Golden Magikarp, and Story Event A Golden Future, as well as the addition of an Ultimate Battle and a new Trainer Files.

The next message is scheduled for late May.

Edit, here's the event schedule from Reddit:

[magicalbats]

Kinktober Day 12: Somnophilia

Rating: R-18+

Word Count: 2767

Warnings: reader is actually totally gender neutral in this one!! Somnophilia, non consensual sex acts, namely a “handjob” and kissing, cum eating, Xiao’s ever present self deprecation 

A/N: These are starting to go back down to a more reasonable word count ... but for how long? 😵‍💫

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He knows he shouldn’t be doing this but he does it anyway. Can’t seem to stop himself when the temptation was far too great and the possible consequences of these actions seemed so far removed from him, a whisper of suggestion and nothing more. After all, who could possibly think to keep the Conqueror of Demons in check other than Rex Lapis himself? 

It’s as easy to slip into your bedroom as it was the first, second and tenth time he did this but he’s familiar enough with the layout now that Xiao doesn’t even have to look to see where he’s going. He knows it all like the back of his own hand; where each and every piece of furniture was positioned, where you left your slippers for easy access in the morning and even the loose floorboard that would screech out a warning if he was careless enough to step on it. It’s a siren's song that calls him, silent feet carrying his slight frame through your otherwise untouched space on sure, unhesitating strides to take him to the side of the bed. 

Standing over you like this, Xiao is gripped not for the first time in a smothering sense of guilt. Not at what he’s doing, exactly, because if that was the issue he simply would have ceased doing it. But rather it’s the oppressive, niggling thought in the back of his mind that assures him he doesn’t deserve this. Doesn’t deserve you. Not now in the dead of night when you were blissfully unaware of his presence standing over you and certainly not in the light of day either. You were pristine and so full of life, full of happiness, while he was … 

He watches the steady rise and fall of your shoulder for a long, long time, just listening to the shallow breaths that sigh out of you like intimate promises delivered on the wind. You’d fallen asleep on your side with one arm curled over your chest, clutching the blanket in a loose hold, and the other splayed out across the mattress. Stretched out towards him. 

Eventually, after many lifetimes have come and gone, Xiao reaches out to take that hand in his own. Your fingers twitch against his knuckles as his slides into place, tenderly holding onto you even when you make no move to hold him back. He’s fine with it though. Assures himself it’s better this way. You can’t know him, can’t think of him as anything more than the specter that leaves your sheets a little more rumpled than you remembered them being the night before, and he’s fine with it. Fine with this. 

Lowering his body to kneel on the floor, he leans close and presses his mouth to the back of your hand while his thumb caresses featherlight circles across the skin. This is the only time he can allow himself such vulnerability, his single solitary moment of reprieve from that which constantly nips at his heels. It’s safe here in your room, with you, and it is everything he’s never been foolish enough to hope for. He knew better and yet, looking at you like this, he can’t help but yearn for it. Craves it even more than the long abandoned taste of dreams sullied by corrupt, monstrous hands.

Xiao thinks, idly, that his looks monstrous wrapped around yours like this — feels like a monster preying on the weak and helpless, and the divine innocence of man that even the gods could not truly touch and taint. Humans were such odd, ofttimes confusing creatures, but he thinks that’s probably what he likes most about you. The fact you are human. That you’re mortal and so terribly fragile, and he brushes his lips across your soft knuckles with the utmost care, afraid of breaking you as much as he feared accidentally waking you from your slumber. 

He did not want to be sent from your side, chased away like an evil spirit, but he loses himself when he looks at you. Gets swept up in the confusing rush of emotion that floods his chest with all the force of a raging hurricane. 

Feeling hot and hazy in the secret haven of your bedroom, his kisses become more fervent. They stutter over your skin like butterflies alighting on delicate flower petals, so slight and fleeting that they barely even touch down before skimming away. He doesn’t fully understand it himself, these feelings all so strange and foreign to him after endless decades of resounding isolation with no end in sight, but you don’t shove him away or grimace at the monster prostrated before you. There are no frightened twitches, subtle or subconscious, nor any stifled sounds of distress to send him scurrying back out into the night. 

You’re as peaceful as ever, and divine in your nest of soft linen and cotton. You accept him for what he is. Every harsh, jagged edge and each ugly crack in the exterior seems not to matter when he shares this space with you, and you readily welcome him when he finally stands to nudge the weight of his stirring cock into your outstretched hand. Slack fingers twitch against the press of him through his pants, making him bite back a sensitive hiss at the touch. 

Xiao doesn’t really understand it, why he feels so compelled to do this. What comes over him in the hushed sanctuary of your room. He should know better — does know better, but his body moves with a mind of its own. Instinct drives him forward but you don’t protest or pull away so he thinks it’s probably alright like this. 

Carefully leaning forward to brace one hand on the sturdy headboard, he gives his hips a slow, stilted drag that grinds his cock down into your palm. Something in your subconscious mind must react to the slide of it against your hand because those exquisite fingers loosely curl around him in response and it takes everything in him not to hiss at the sensation of you holding him like that. Soft and delicate in your sound sleep but so inviting that he can’t quite stop himself from repeating the motion.

Again and again, he thrusts against your hand at such a torturously stiff pace it has him clenching his teeth to put a stopper on the faltering sounds of pleasure that linger just on the tip of his tongue. He feels dizzy with it. Muddled and intoxicated beyond his comprehension, but even that ever present sense of crushing guilt is not enough to dissuade him from this. 

You sigh, very softly, into the statically charged air when you shift underneath him, nestling further down into the fluffy comfort of your bed. It makes your fingers close around him a bit more tightly, almost clinging to his throbbing length now, and he shudders so hard he thinks he’s going to shake the bed where he’s gripping it with a white knuckled fist if you keep that up. But then you appear to relax into your sleep again and, gradually, your fingers ease up. Slacken and then fall away altogether. 

Softly panting now, Xiao looks down at you for a long, drawn out moment with cheeks stained red and sweat beading along his brow. Just takes the chance to admire your face where it’s now tipped up at him, softly illuminated by the pane of moonlight that shines through the window he’d climbed in from, but your expression remains smooth with slumber. At complete and utter ease. Even now when he was doing something so disgusting and ghastly you still find it in yourself to accept him, all of him, the good and the bad. The ugly and the sublime. 

It feels like his chest is caving in as he gradually straightens up, careful not to jostle the bed frame or give voice to any of the noises trying to claw their way out of his mouth. Sedately — much too sedately for the whirlwind kicking up inside him — Xiao tugs at the sash around his waist with stiff hands that threaten to shake even when he inches his pants down, mindful of not jostling the accouterments attached at the belt at the risk of creating an attention grabbing clatter. His cock finally slips free what feels like an eternity later, and he can’t quite stop himself from seething at the waft of cool air against his heated skin. The glans is sticky with precum, already poking out from behind the crease of his foreskin when he was thick and painfully filled out, his need so great it rides the line of discomfort. You were a menace to him and you didn’t even realize it. 

Ever so cautiously, he once again nudges his body close to the bed and leans forward to press that rigid length into the palm of your hand. You give a tiny little jolt at the sensation of bare skin but don’t stir beyond that, simply curling a loose hold around him with a quiet grumble under your breath. He hesitates to do it but finally the temptation wins out, and he eases himself down to brace his arm above your head. A faint shudder tears through him at being so close to you like this, his body stretched at a somewhat awkward angle across the bed just so he can bring his face close to yours. You’re even more breathtaking when there were only a scant few millimeters separating him from you, and he voraciously drinks in every little detail as he stiltedly drags his cock back and forth over the welcoming cradle of your fingers.

His breathing picks up with his increasingly erratic heartbeat but he wrestles with himself to keep it in check, rustling the stray flyaways of your hair only just so while he works his way up to a stuttering pace. It’s all he can do not to groan when the scent of you was overpowering him like this, drowning his every sense in the essence that was so uniquely you he was incredibly weak for it. Damned beyond salvation. A whimpered noise of pleasure catches in his throat, making his narrow chest hitch, but he smothers it. Allows himself to give a faint hiccup against your temple — so close he can feel the body heat coming off you but not quite close enough to actually touch, and then … he does something he’s never dared to do before. Never even dreamed he’d be brave enough to try, for all his physical strength and karmic debt together was not enough to give him enough conviction to believe he had the right to take something like that from you. 

But you’re so soft and inviting underneath him, tempting like a forbidden apple presented to the starving, and he can’t quite resist. Carefully, Xiao tips his head and seals his mouth over yours in a kiss that is so threadbare, so fleeting that the contact only seems to register enough to make you twitch in response. And suddenly he feels incredibly faint. Nauseous, almost. There was something inherently worse about this than the fact he’s been using your hand to rut to shuddering completion. Kissing you feels much more intimate, so much more vulnerable that he almost regrets doing it. 

The kinetic spark he feels between his mouth and yours instantly drowns out his guilt though, and he dares to kiss you just a little harder. A bit more insistently. Surprise washes over him and pulls a silent gasp from his throat when your satiny lips pucker under his and slowly press back. It’s a subconscious reaction, he’s sure of it, but he uses it to his advantage. Doesn’t stop long enough to even consider the consequences of crossing this line. 

Carefully, he coaxes you further into the motion and his mouth trembles against yours when you unknowingly start to kiss him back. It’s sluggish and groggy, but the surge of adrenaline laced endorphins rushes straight to his cock and he jolts slightly when his swaying ballsack clenches tightly and draws up with an intense shudder that he barely manages to keep in check. Struggling against the onslaught, Xiao lifts his head just enough to look at you and his brows pinch in stricken, overwhelmed bliss when he sees how you tip your face further up at him, parted lips instinctively seeking him out again. 

Unable (or perhaps unwilling) to hold it back any longer, he issues a thin, faltering moan into the scant space separating him from you as he juddgeringly rocks against your hand, feeling his release bearing down on him with a hitherto unknown intensity that makes his spine bow. 

“I’m sorry,” He whispers against your mouth, so small and tremulous the darkness of your room seems to swallow it up. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry —“ 

Eyes screwing shut when the pressure starts to tip, Xiao leans down to desperately claim your mouth once again and he cums with a choked off wheeze as you sigh contentedly at the contact. His hips continue to helplessly rut against your palm even as he shoots sticky threads over your wrist and forearm, a soft whine rising low in his throat, but even that does little more than make you groan in your sleep. He’s engulfed in it, the sharp pangs of mind numbing pleasure potent and cloying even after he gives his pelvis one final twitch at the fast receding spasm before finally going still again. 

Left panting in the aftermath, he cautiously pushes up to look at you. To take in the slight tension around your eyes and the way your mouth slips into a tiny little frown — whether at the loss of his presence above you or because of the quickly cooling clumps of creamy discharge on your arm, he didn’t know. Maybe you thought you were having some terrible nightmare, and that wouldn’t have been far from the truth. 

Why had he done that?

Immediately realizing he went too far, took it further than he had any right to, Xiao quickly pulls back so he can hunch over your outstretched arm like some fiendish ghoul poised to suck the lifeblood from the vein in your wrist. Dragging the flat of his tongue through the mess he made on your once pristine skin, he cleans up his own cum with quick, panicky kitten licks until the only trace of evidence left was a thin layer of saliva which he knew would dry without detection. It was far less incriminating than what he would have otherwise left you with, at any rate. 

And slowly you start to relax, your expression going slack again so that by the time he finally takes a step back to secure his pants in place you don’t look like anything at all had transpired during your sleep. The only detail out of place was the rumpled sheet near your resting head where he’d leaned over you but that wasn’t of particularly great concern to him. This certainly wouldn’t be the first time you’d awoken to mysterious wrinkles in the bed where you didn’t normally find them and it probably wouldn’t be the last. 

No. He couldn’t keep doing this. 

It didn’t matter how much he was drawn to you, nor did it matter that you always welcomed him every time he dared to trespass on the sanctity of this space. This was wrong. What he’d done here tonight was wrong beyond even what he could justify in his mind. He had to stop. He had to. 

Standing there motionless for an eternity, Xiao just looks at you much like he first had that evening. Takes his time drinking in the sight of you so at peace and comfortable in his presence, committing every little detail to memory. If this was truly to be the last time then he wanted to remember everything about you; the way you smelled, the way you tasted, the way you’d sighed into his mouth when he kissed your lips. The life of an immortal was destined to be a long, solitary existence with neither companionship nor relief from the countless centuries of karma he’d racked up. It had always been his fate to walk alone, and he couldn’t keep risking your well-being like this. He refused to drag you down into the pits of hell with him. 

Stiffly turning away from you, Xiao tries very hard not to think about the fact he’d made the exact same decision the last time he was here.

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