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[old-lorarri]

𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐌𝐄 ─ lola | she!he!they : 18 + korean-pakistani . leo < intj < pansexual (⌕) a f1 whore & a depressed ferrari fan

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[starsanova]

★ ─ HELLO, MY BEAUTIFUL F1 BABYS I'M SO SORRY TO ANNOUNCE THAT I WILL NO LONGER BE USING THIS ACCOUNT (tumblr is being a pain and I'm so done with it) so feel free to follow me on my new account @cl16version also moot's of mine could you plz boost this so people know (you don't have to but I would love you forever if you would) <3

[airybcby]

confession time bc it’s 6AM and idk why i’m awake.

i LOVE the pregnancy trope. idc, burn me at the stake if you must but just like… imagine

you were in madrid on a holiday, you weren’t staying longer than a month , and you meet sae itoshi.

and ofc, you sleep with him once in a drunken mistake

until it happens again when you see him in a club- this time your head is clear

and again when you try sneaking out of his house and he catches you

and again when he offers to take you to the beach but hides you away so he can have you to himself

and one more time the night before you’re supposed to leave

sae doesn’t know what it is about you but he can’t get enough and the thought of you leaving makes his usually cold heart crack a little

so he gives you his number.

what he doesn’t expect, however , is that you call him a week after you leave- telling him not to hate you, but you’re pregnant.

suddenly his world is flipped upside down.

and yeah…i could write for days on this.

[opikiquu]

[fascinationstreetmp3]

i don't have an excuse. sorry

[yeahimcal]

Hobie Brown is such a heart eyes guy for his partner ok listen to me

He’s always staring at you when he’s preforming, always winking or giving you a lopsided smile that makes EVERYONE lose their minds but you know it’s just for you. He’s holding you so gentle and kissing all over your face. If you have piercings he’s helping you take care of them. If you wear a lot of jewelry he’s taking off your necklaces with a gentle kiss to the back of your neck. If you wear waist beads he’s always fidgeting/playing with them. He tells you that he loves you every morning at least twice because he doesn’t want you to doubt it. He makes you breakfast if he wakes up before you (not often). He’s always touching you, a hand on your waist or a chin on your shoulder or a pinky clasping yours, etc. he helps you do your hair, he’ll retwist your twists or help you put in a hair mask or he’ll just brush your hair, all the while humming along to the record that’s playing in the living room. He’s always calling you to check in or just say hi when he’s gone because he just wants to hear your voice.

In conclusion, domestic Hobie Brown <33

[mrspotatoheads]

SIMPLY BECOME!

Right now I want you to become what you desire and continue to be. Think as the person who has everything they desire. That’s all. Don’t worry about the 3D, just fulfil yourself in your imagination. If you have a doubt I want you to ask yourself “if I had what I wanted would I be thinking this?” If the answer is no then start to think as if you have it.

Imagine having your desire right in front of you and think of how you would be feeling and what thoughts you would be having. It all starts within you, not outside of you. Forget about even manifesting, just start being who you want to be and have fun with it! Be as creative as possible, think and imagine whatever makes you feel good; this is all about you. Stop worrying about things outside of you because it’s only a reflection of what is within. So work on yourself, the thoughts you have day to day, and especially the thoughts you have when it comes to your desires!

[yokoluvv]

Jason Todd has religous trauma. Why do I believe that? 1) I can. 2) I like to yap. 3) @spisher-man asked. (I hope it's okay to tag you)

Now we don't really see Jason's religion mentioned all that much, or it having any impact on him; none of the DC characters I know of do. DC's pretty vague with the characters' religions.

I'm kind of self projecting here but bear with me. Now Jason died, came back from the dead, and followed an objectively not-so-good path. You can believe that Jason's Catholic or Christian or whatever but he IS going to have some guilt. He came back from the dead; something that shouldn't have happened, something unnatural, something wrong. He came back from the dead wrong.

His existence in this world is wrong. When he dies again, will he come back? When he dies again, will God forgive him? Or will He condemn him to the deepest pits of hell for being such an unnatural product. Will he get punished for going against God? His ways? Jason thinks he will be. Deep down he knows he's so disgusting and unlovable that even the most gracious of all would look at him with spite. Regret creating him.

Somedays he lays awake on the rock-hard bed. Body trembling with fear as unintelligible mutterings of salvation and begging fill the cold, empty room. Begging for God to forgive him, to ignore his heinous acts. Tears threaten to fall, his eyes closed shut, the guilt eating away at his heart. May God forgive his sins.

He's seen his mother pray, on her knees with her head lowered. Praying to be forgived. He lowers to his knees, scraping the hard wood floor. His knees bloodied and raw, not from his many fights but from his search of God's favor. He knows deep down there is something wrong with him, that what he does won't make things any better and he's just getting worse but how could he stop when the only one that could save him of his fate refuses to listen. Hands clenched so thight they bleed, his eyes red from his tears, he knows it isn't enough to be forgiven. He isn't enough.

May God forgive his sins. May He forgive him.

[eatingoutmen]

vent post. (TW: depression & suicide)

I know it’s New Years and all, but honestly. I’m just so overwhelmed and been getting so worse the past few weeks now, it’s been a lot since Christmas. I can barely handle and live my life anymore at this point.

I just don’t feel like I want to live anymore, I’m really sorry everyone. It’s just my personal life and mental health damaging me so much, I know I barely talk about what’s going on in my life and only just talking about how I feel. But my life has been getting so much worse that I’m not even excited for a new year anymore, it’s just gonna be a lot pressure and pain to me. Like a constant endless cycle of misfortune and miserableness for me to deal again.

Right now, I’m in my room and just crying my eyes out and trying not to kill myself at the moment. I don’t even feel anything anymore, it’s like I want to just give up on my life again. Yet, I’m still here— alive yet in so much pain. I’ve been bottling up my emotions and pain for too long, and now it’s burst and I’m left sobbing and blaming myself for everything.

I’ve thought about attempting again, but I didn’t have the courage and strength to do it. I didn’t want to leave the people in my life who care for me and always there for me though all of it. So, I just decided not to make the same mistake again and just try to live again and see where things go this new year.

I’m sorry for just rambling and venting to you all, I don’t really know who to talk to anymore since I don’t want to bother my friends, and this account is all I just got left. Once again, I sincerely apologize for being such a emotional mess.

I’m just gonna sleep this off like I usually do, and pretend that everything will be okay again even though I don’t think it will anymore. I don’t know if I’m going to take a break from writing again or continue on right now.

[binniesbooks]

Ou ny godhs HEDIQNWIW

imagine him recording you while u suck the fck out of him (?|!|$]!$]]$¥_)

Shutthefuckuppooshshqjbssvjw I'm pushing back your requests and make an urgent one for this! 😭😭😭

[old-lorarri]

NOTICE

hiii so as you guys know I am moving blog and just to give you all a quick heads up I have started removing fic's from this blog and moving them to the que in my new blog so if you can't find certain one... well here's why lol anyway sorry about that and I will begin posting on the 7th of april so till then my loves <3

my new blog - @lorarri

[starsanova]

─ WELCOME TO STARSANOVA

I HAVE MOVED AGAIN TO @cl16version

─ THE AUCTION

SUNFLOWERS, 1888 ─ guidelines CAFE TERRACE AT NIGHT, 1888 ─ who I write for WHEATFIELD WITH CYPRESSES, 1889 ─ wip's THE STARRY NIGHT, 1889 ─ masterlist PORTRAIT OF DR. GACHET, 1890 ─ taglist ALMOND BLOSSOMS, 1890 ─ milestones

[airybcby]

do i start a new series where i just yap ( write ) about being the bllk boys first girlfriend…

[sunderingstars]

For someone who has never played honkai impact 3rd can you tell me what was that conversation between welt and archeron?! I could feel it out with the context and vibes but I wanna actually know the lore please

ʚ 💌 ɞ hi !! thank you for the ask :3 i may miss a few things due to the complexity of the lore, but this is my current understanding of it:

⟡ 2.1 spoilers ahead ⟡

(hsr = honkai star rail, hi3 = honkai impact 3rd)

°˖➴ i’ll only be talking about their first conversation here since i haven’t finished the rest of the quest yet

short answer — acheron is this dimension’s version of someone welt knows from his home dimension (hi3) and as such there’s a bunch of conflicting feelings from him in this scene. he recognizes her face but ultimately understands he does not know the motives of this version of her, so stays on his guard to protect the express.

long answer below the cut:

⟢ hsr welt is the same one from hi3 — he exists in both games, starting in hi3, then traveling across dimensions to hsr which is where he is now

⟢ acheron closely resembles raiden mei, someone welt knows from his home dimension (hi3). basically, acheron is another version of mei in this universe (there’s some debate about the specifics, but this is the simplest way to put it!). she’s in a similar vein as bronya, himeko, seele, etc. if you’ve seen the discussion about those characters linking to hi3 as well.

⟢ so, it creates this situation where welt recognizes acheron as being a version of someone he knows and cares about, while she doesn’t recognize him at all. that’s why he looks so surprised when he sees her, because he’s seeing a familiar face.

⟢ however, he’s on guard during the rest of the conversation because he understands that while she may look like the raiden mei from his dimension, this is still a different version of her. he can’t be sure what her motives are yet, or if she wants to help or harm the crew. in my mind, i see him as wanting to trust her because of his connection with the mei from his dimension, but ultimately knowing he can’t let his guard down.

⟢ another interesting tidbit is that acheron is able to point out the true nature of welt’s cane as a weapon of godlike power. while we don’t have many answers as to why or how she knows in-game, it immediately reveals to welt that she does know, which calls into question what else she knows and the possibility of that knowledge posing a danger to the express.

⟢ side note: as for the connection between welt & the mei from his home universe, my main takeaway from it is that he’s a sort of mentor figure to her. not as close of a mentor as he is to other characters, but enough to know and care about her wellbeing. i would also say that they’re friends and have mutual respect for one another. (at least that’s my interpretation of their interactions in hi3.)

⟢ overall, i feel it was a very jarring conversation for him since he was suddenly seeing someone so familiar yet so different. from acheron’s perspective, it must’ve also been weird to see his reaction since she doesn’t know him at all. she knows how powerful he is, but has no personal connection to him beyond that — meanwhile he’s just having his “!?!?” moment while she stares on in confusion.

anyways, i hope that made sense! the hi3 lore can get pretty complicated, especially when it crosses over into hsr, but i tried to put it the simplest i could — i also may have missed a few things because of how complex it can get, but i tried my best to include everything important.

i’m happy to answer any additional questions, and once again thanks for the ask — i love doing nerdy lore analysis stuff! .𖥔 ݁ 🪐˖

[yuu-kumeii]

Thinking about best friend and menace Suna who always finds a way to sit next to you in class, pushing your desks together so he can just look at your book and not get his own

The guy who hides your water bottle in hard to reach places just to see your reaction, he could hide it on top of the lockers, under the bleachers, inside the twin’s bag, somehow put it right outside the window, there are endless possibilities 

…You ended up forgetting about it during a field trip and Suna called the place back to ask if they can hold on to it while both of you try to get it back

Your best friend who twisted his ankle once and still went to school but couldn’t get up the stairs on his own so you laugh at him from the top before trying to help

The same guy who once tried to drink straight out of the water dispenser because he forgot his water bottle one day and decided there was no other option

“SUNA KEEP YOUR MOUTH AWAY FROM THE DISPENSER”

“But I’m thirsty”

“OTHER PEOPLE DRINK FROM THAT”

“But I need water”

“SUNA THERE WAS A MOSQUITO CHILD IN THERE JUST YESTERDAY”

“A new friend”

You had to restrain him because he kept running back to it, both of you on the floor from pushing each other so much that a teacher saw it and thought you were throwing hands at each other

Your best friend who can’t help but draw little immature doodles on your books with a straight face, always redrawing them whenever you dared to erase them

“Wow very mature of you Suna” You say with a deadpan, eyes following the pencil move along the corner of your textbook

“I know right?” 

Menace Suna who made a deez nutz joke you didn’t know and took the opportunity

“Do you like E girls or I ladies?”

“What’s I ladies?

You poor thing.

Best menace friend Suna, what’s not to like?

[iid-smile]

hi... rhis might sound really random?? but ill be going on an indefinite hiatus. nothing bad is going on except studying and lack of inspo... just lost my love for writing, thats all.

(if u wanna know more which i doubt u can look in the read more... its really long + a bit at the beginning for moots so you dont have to scroll down) (this is unbelievably long)

to all of my moots, even those who i dont engage with as much, this might sound a little weird/creepy but i do check your blogs when i have the time. even if its just checking if youve updated and im just like "ooo so and so was here earlier" or "[insert moots/other blogs] are interacting! how fun" call it nosy but im just really interested in seeing you guys active lol

i may not directly say so, but i get worried when there isnt an update for a while... like i get worried when youre not here and i wish you the best, and im happy when you reappear again. sometimes i only have the time to skim through my following and like the most recent post, but i want to show that i see you all <3 its kind of embarrassing how upset i get when i see everyone is awake when im asleep and it feels a little late to compliment a new theme change when i didnt notice it earlier

i try to go into askboxes when i can (scary because i want to interact but idk what to say) and i guess some times ive been ignored...? thats okay! like i get it but i kinda dont... we're not just moots for the fb because followers arent that important to me. even for moots that dont mainly write for a fandom im in i do try to check for one that i can read and understand! (even trying to get into hq now bc a lot of my newer ones are into it judging by what i see on the dash) now that i think about it i really couldve just gone to the masterlists so thats my fault..

im not saying i expect frequent interactions because im more than happy just being moots in the first place, but im trying to say that new and old moots, i do love you guys and i want the best for you. it doesnt matter how close we are or if theres barely any interactions, i dont want you to feel stress or pressure and you should live good lives! 💗 im happy that we managed to meet on this huge platform! 🫶🫶🫶

(i really hope this didnt come off wrong because i dont dislike any of you at all! i think it sounds like im complaining but i just want friends and its personally difficult for me both just me as a person and because of timezones 😭)

ANYWAYS THE MAIN PART

i dont mean to blame any of you, but its kind of pressuring asking for a part two. like, it is flattering trust me, because it means you enjoy the work and want more. for some its probably obvious what fic im talking about but when theres already 50+ comments asking for a part two, and you add more onto that, it feels more like an obligation to do so. im sure i can see that theres many comments asking when the next part is, so dogpiling on top of it is just not a great feeling as a writer.

i think some people forget that writers write in their free time. its not a job and theres not really much satisfaction you can get out of it except knowing that theres people who love what you write. there are moments where i write a lot, and like right now, im not writing at all. i cant force myself to no matter how much i know i need to write, because then the result is unsatisfactory. this happens every time i try to do an event and i feel SO bad because youre probably so excited to receive work born from your own idea and im just not doing it??

i want you guys to enjoy what i write, but i only want to put out the best quality. on multiple occasions, even with no pressure, i feel like ive completely messed up something ive written because of my own standards. the more followers you accumulate, the better the writing should be, right? or thats what im thinking for myself... if i get embarrassed when i see somebodys liked it, then clearly i havent done well enough to consider it to be good. ive deleted many of my works if you havent noticed. the wbk ones are still up i think but i just dont think theyre good enough to be on my mlist.

ive never really mentioned engagement before... and i know im guity of it as well, but i do make an effort to. im not saying you have to reblog everything you read, but even just the occasional one that you really love, which is what i do. i havent gotten around to making a reblog sideblog just yet because i dont have the time, but just know that if i did, every fic that i like would have a reblog as well. followers and likes arent as important to me as reading or acknowledging that people want to share my work.

i dont feel as proud of my more liked fics compared to this one for example (even tho its one of my most popular bllk works but u get the point). it makes me sm happier just seeing a little comment or tag in the reblogs. its funny, and i actually did smile every time, because i really wasnt expecting people to like it that much or even get comments at all

please dont feel bad if you havent been engaging like this! im not ungrateful. we've all been there, and youre already doing good showing some form of appreciation by liking it. im glad that my hard work and improvement over six months has led me to this point.

and another thing, telling me to off myself really isnt as motivating as you think, even as a joke.