#“Why am I jealous of myself?”

[miraculous-army]

Ok Miraculous AU idea

Precursor: You know like, those couples (Husband/Wife or Boyfriend/Girlfriend) on like, Instagram or something idk, where one of them (usually the girl from what I've seen) likes some actor/kpop idol/something like that, and they will make videos jokingly(maybe not always but in this case) saying how *insert name here* is blah blah blah better or idk something like that and it's about their spouse/significant other's reaction? Well idea is, Adrien and Marinette are dating/married/engaged idk, Marinette is a fan of this k-pop idol Chat Noir. Chat Noir is in a group where they wear disguises and you don't know who they actually are.

I'm sure you can tell, Adrien is secretly Chat Noir. Cue Marinette talking about how amazing Chat Noir is and Adrien just doesn't know how to respond.

[mysticalcats]

ok fellas this post is really different from my other stuff so i'm putting it under the cut for people who don't care and also because i'm slightly embarrassed

ok so. is it unusual for a girl to want to have a deep voice and a flat chest and a more square face and also feel slightly jealous of men and want to sound like them and look like them

and also is it unusual to want to be all that, but also simultaneously not be very bothered very much by how you look right now or by being referred to with she/her except for sometimes when you think about it too much. because i usually don't think about it except for sometimes where i suddenly just get really sad about being a girl or i'll always have this faint feeling that i am just unhappy about it

and also is it unusual to try to ignore it and go about your life being unbothered by it even though deep down it does kinda bother you but you can't really. like. say anything to anyone because your family won't react well and neither will your friends because they'll think it's weird and uncomfortable. i feel afraid to ever feel this way because i know the people in my life won't react well to it

so like. genuine question please lmk wtf is goin on because i'm unsure if it's normal and i've felt like this for a long time and it's confusing me and i don't even know what i'm going to do with the information once i know i'm just sort of lost LMAO

[philsmeatylegss]

Tiktok is like tumblr five years delayed. There’s massive discourse about polyamory over there and I’m like didn’t we solve this in Harambe time period???

[yourgamemasterthewhiterabbit]

Of my 2% capacity to be attracted to anyone, my type is like 90% women, 5% pretty men and 5% men you would swear are super fucking manly, and never questioned being straight and cis, but are now suddenly *stressed* that they can't figure out why their attraction to me [fully socially interpreted as a woman and labelled that way up until relatively recently] feels incredibly fucking gay

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

and thus begins the season of 100+ degree heat every single day...

[doctorweebmd]

so there's this post floating around about like, feeling like an outsider even in a group of outsiders and i almost reblogged it being like

'aha i do that'

except. like. i know exactly why that happens, and its 100% my fault

i just have trouble maintaining relationships because i'm a poor communicator. that's been the case since high school. i dont really initiate conversations or remember to text or call people. its not from a place of indifference or anything like that - i'm sincerely an 'out of sight out of mind' kind of person.

i can not talk to and not see someone for months or years but my feelings for them don't change. it doesn't bother me if people dont check in on me or don't hang out with me or don't text me. i still like them. unfortunately that is not how 99% of the population communicates. people (rightfully) assume that when someone doesn't initiate conversation or hang-outs or doesn't check in on you, that they don't care about you. for me, thats not the case at all. like if i like you and consider you my friend, you are ALWAYS my friend. i would do anything for you and would be more than happy to talk/see each other/support you/etc. its just the day-to-day communication that i really struggle with. but thats how most relationships form - regular, consistent communication.

i've gone through periods of extreme guilt for this where i sincerely try, and make new friends, and re-connect with texting and phone calls and hanging out more often but inevitably something happens, i get busy or i forget and suddenly all this time passes and people think i dont care anymore. unfortunately that's not the case whatsoever - time is kind of abstract to me and i dont understand that while my feelings don't change, others feel more distant or abandoned.

and i've really hurt people in my life like that. friends that i've known for many years from high school/college are a LITTLE more forgiving because they know i'm just 'like that' but still. it does hurt people. like i haven't spoken to my dad in probably at least a year - not because i dont love him, but because of that same reason. he doesn't reach out and i forget and it just steamrolls because he gets hurt, doesn't reach out because he thinks i'm intentionally 'ignoring' him, and i continue to forget, and its just this viscous cycle. i haven't talked to my grandparents in months. my mom knows better and texts me every week or so, but it still hurts her that she has to reach out so regularly. she also plays these games where she sees how 'long' it takes for me to remember to reach out. a lot of people in my life have done that. its like i'm being tested on something without ever being told its a standard test, ya know? i'm always destined to fail it because i dont know how long is too long. at which point will the time and distance be unacceptable? i still dont know the answer.

and i think it makes me come off as a really heartless and callous person. its made me kind of keep people at arms-length because i know i'm not capable of being a part of most people's lives. i have perfectly normal and pleasant relationships with my coworkers and all that, but i'm generally not close with them. and i can see the confusion, because we hang out and i'm pretty normal or whatever and we have fun and then they don't hear from me for months and they're like 'uhhhh.... okay? so i guess you don't like me?'

i do. i just have different relationship maintenance standards than others i guess. so i just overall avoid being around others just because i know i'll disappoint them. it is what it is but it really is sad, in a way.

[marklikely]

i know a lot of trans women talk about mourning not growing up a girl and i always thought i didnt experience any equivalent to that (probably for many reasons) but the last couple weeks i realised i think i do and its specifically about not growing up a gay man.

[spicyraeman]

draw her squarer maybe? she is so square! (her face. i mean shes a nerd too but. fr) she is so hard to draw cus she looks conventionally attractive but somehow she isnt completely??? idk. gl! im drawing her too and it is miserable

The conventionally attractive but also not thing is sooo true, like overall shes got some pretty conventionally attractive features goin on but then some features that almost make her kinda.. weird? (in a cute way)

Squarer is definitely something im trying to lean into tho! She just got so many little features that make her look like her that its hard to get them all... I think her eyes and nose are what really makes or breaks whether it looks like her, they both have a very particular shape that if you don't get right it kinda loses the essence of shart

Wishing you the best of luck drawing gods favorite princess too, its fucking rough out here

[dejwrldarchived]

Who made you the fic leader, girl? I feel like this is a jab at other writes who do write those “attention grabbing notes” and you just mad they get more notes than you

not fic leader, i am screaming. that was a good one, you ate that one. ☝🏾 but nah, i’m just making an observation and respectfully stating my opinion. some will disagree, some will agree. just come at me respectfully with your opinion and i’ll do the same, but considering your last bits of the message—you aren’t mature enough to go back & forth. so have a good day.

[poorlittleyaoyao]

re: 3zun and jealousy, there is already something going on before 3zun even happens in both canons. I already hollered while I was reading the novel about how LXC’s refusal to tell NMJ how he knows MY under the conversation’s novel canon circumstances—pre-spying, with MY and NMJ still on good terms—is Deeply Weird. In CQL canon, meanwhile, MY has somehow not met LXC prior to Cloud Recesses, even though in drama canon MY has been at the Unclean Realm for awhile. This is substantially less weird than LXC’s cagey behavior in the novel—NMJ has at least informed LXC of MY’s existence as his assistant, even if the two haven’t interacted—but the fact that interaction hasn’t occurred is still at least a little bit weird unless LXC hasn’t visited the Unclean Realm at all since MY’s promotion. Much to think about in both canons!

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

I don't care when people don't include me in stuff, I'm used to it but-----

my own family going on a trip w/o even asking me kinda felt

shit 🫠

[tarpitbell]

11:23

I'm a damn leech. That's all I am

[lightningfilledsaber]

I'm so fucking sick of my brain

[archduke-enver-gortash]

posting on here is like my sisyphean boulder i'm constantly rolling tbh

[magicmarkerz]

not to be a bitch or whatever but when my homophobic brother started listening to chappell roan and hamilton and being buddy buddy with my friends i kinda wanted to kill myself

[martritzvonmercie]

we should normalize any and all friend cuddles no matter how clingy and intimate they seem we should make that an extremely normal friend thing to do