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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 6 months ago

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Ghouls night out

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #Scopophobia #Don't be mean Lan Wangji - the dead girl aesthetic is a curated one. Support women's rights to look dead!#I have been waiting for this scene for ages...the ghost girl entourage is such a good look for WWX.#And by gods does the audio drama actually do something interesting with one of them.#Namely that we actually get to see WWX talk with them and learn about who they were and what they left behind.#I love necromancer characters but it's way too common for them to be like “Go! Ghost no.145!” like they're a pokemon #and not...you know...someone who had a whole life that they left behind.#I love me a necromancer who has an awareness to whose soul/body they are using. It adds a lot of flavour!#MDZS is a little hit or miss with this. I think the fans do a lot of the work with making Mo Xuanyu a bigger character.#Yi City has this in spades. Even though we don't individually get character backstories #We get many painful reminders about how these 'corpses' were people.#We also get a few lines about how WWX used whatever corpses he could get his hands on (including grandparents - Woof!)#MDZS often (but not always) likes to remind us that every sacrifice and every ghost was a person.#It is so close to nailing the landing regarding the deconstruction of the necromancer character.#Anyhow. You may have noticed the uptick in quality in the last two comics. Rule of three means next one is going to be a treat B*)#See you all very soon!

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cent-scratchnsniff · 2 months ago

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of where [ ] [ ] used to be

#Library of Ruina #Roland Library of Ruina #... would this count as spoilers. it is rather vauge. uhm. just in case?#library of ruina spoilers #i couldnt find adequate words to fully capture the ache and sheer void loss leaves behind. of what isnt There. thats short at least #so... i left i blank? because the mind would fill it. fill it with Multiple things than just one word i could place. for it is Multiple #aspects. stripped away.#of where my light used to be. my love. my heart. my 'self'. my Life. my dreams. my hopes. my dear. my everything #her warmth. her touch. her laugh. her strength. her face #void of where ones heart used to be. whos heart is cold as ice (haha snow queen). tomorrows seen as gone the moment that light was stripped #away from the heart. the Home. the room that used to be a home. the room that was going to be a home. scattered with small yellows in the #corner that only serve to spiral further into memories and moments of the past cruely and coldly torn awah #ahh glad i put the spoiler tag? yappin. anyways ive only completed realizations for middle but. uhm. erm...#iireally realt wanted to draw. for it #roland lor #i think thats the other tag. just in case for more navigation #i fet distinctly Empty when it happened. when reading. when seeing. when Hearing. i wanted to make something that sorta had that #also his mask looked like a void. left an impression on me

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kaiowut99 · 1 year ago

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"Yuma... When people grow up, they usually end up throwing away something that matters to them... But... don't you go and throw away... that power to believe in people, and that heart that never gives up... Don't you dare throw 'em away."

"Sh-Shark..."

"See, I would've liked to see the future you guys get going myself... but it doesn't look like I'll get to."

"Hey!"

"Kotori... Don't take your eyes off this idiot. Thanks, Yuma... Astral... My friends for life... I'm glad I got to have one last great duel with you two. Later..."

#IMA KAKO MIRAI MO #Lance watches ZEXAL #ZEXAL #Nasch #Ryouga Kamishiro #Yuma Tsukumo #Kotori Mizuki #Astral #yugioh #ygo #ygo zexal #yugioh zexal #[retranslated this since GX_ST's subs were off]#that was such a good send-off for him #i liked that he saw Double-Up Chance coming and used his Chaos Draw to get Glorious Seven #even though its effect would end up making him lose #but also the clash of yuma's idealistic no-one-left-behind hope for the future against nasch's fight for the future of his fallen Barians #also the dub decided to write out most of this 'future' talk and yuma's resolve to believe in others to be who he is for some reason #most of this part was rewritten too--into more of 'believe in others but most importantly believe in yourself'--but comes back by the end #also why did they add back the LP counter SFX when it was intentionally silent for the dramatic finish lol #and didn't keep Nasch's slow/audibly regretful tone as he explains how Glorious Seven makes him lose #the original OST playing as Nasch loses is really good #have got to pull up my random thoughts from the NAC discord while casually watching to post but #it's been a fun time going through ZEXAL and now it's three episodes left woo

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lavampira · 8 months ago

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(COUNT)DOWN TO DAWNTRAIL — day four: shadowbringers

atlas my old friend I found some people want to lend a hand carrying the weight of the world

#ALWAYS crying about d'alia and thancred but especially over their growth in SHB #ha ha what if we were both stubborn people who always try to be a pillar for others to lean on and hide behind a façade of strength #and both internalizing guilt over the same woman we love; sister to one and (former) lover to the other #because she died to save a world and now it's on us to finish what she started #except now the warrior of light/darkness is a heap on the floor and perilously close to transforming into a monster in her efforts #with all the brunt of responsibility to take on the light and fresh guilt of losing the battle with it on her shoulders #and all you can do is carry her half-conscious mumbling body down the mountain and swear she'll see her family (sid + rielle) again #because she never left you alone in all her needling to support *you* and you will return the support even this much #learning to rely on each other……..#(count)down to dawntrail #dani plays ffxiv #game: ffxiv #oc: d'alia liveq #ch: thancred waters #lavampira poses #ffxiv gpose #gposers #miqo'te #shadowbringers spoilers

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amanedachi · 4 months ago

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iron / heart

Part of LoL Esports Elemental Series.

#lolelements #lol esports #t1 faker #t1 oner #t1 zeus #t1 gumayusi #t1 keria #skt bang #skt wolf #skt bengi #skt kkoma #warning: MAJOR yapping incoming below #thinking about still here.mp3 and 'gripping with my cold hands the shapes i used to take'#'it could all end here with the strange daylight caught in our eyes'#'my shadow stretching out through all the things i left behind'#opening ceremony+t1 has everything they need to put me on a stretcher to ER #images from lol esports flickr (2016 worlds either finals or semis i goofed and forgot)#(and msi 2024 brackets features and worlds 2024 semis features)#there is a universe where i collected more pics and put a bit more thought into which word should go to who #but that universe also involves me doing this at a time that is not 5am #this is my last one probably twas lots of fun but new things on the horizon for me #this post is scheduled to post on finals day but just know that i am awake and shitting my pants over worlds finals #then recovery period and then im shifting into arcane mode #being completely deranged is a full time commitment never let anyone tell you otherwise #lil pat on the back for myself for successfully posting one per day til finals EVEN if they were sorta mediocre or dupes hahaha #special thanks to t1 for making it to semis because if they didn't there's a chance i would have lost steam LMAO #work school and the physical need for sleep work hard #but the esports demons in my brain work harder

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taz-writes · 2 years ago

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here's a hot take for today

the narrative function of sex is the same as the narrative function of fight scenes is the same as the narrative function of songs in a musical

no i will not explain

#taz talks #writing #actually i WILL explain but i'll do it in the tags #these each serve the same function within their respective appropriate genres #each one is a kind of revelation #they heighten the connection between 2+ characters and highlight relationships and feelings and needs #they are out of place in genres where they do not belong and/or as curveballs when the narrative did not provoke them from the start #but they have the same sort of emotional/dramatic build-up #talk -> sing -> dance (talk -> yell -> stab) ((talk -> flirt -> You Know))#and they are all expressions of intense physicality and intimacy through physical gesture and interaction #they are fundamentally empty and boring if there is not a deeper purpose or drive behind them #although they can still occasionally be entertaining on their own if your audience is specifically seeking that experience out #people who do not like them will be very unhappy to encounter one where it isn't supposed to be #it is very easy to ruin the mood with poor word choice #many people have an inherent sense for terrible ones but it's often difficult or complicated to explain precisely why a bad one fails #when executed properly they are a very raw and intimate expression of a character's most fundamental needs and desires #the fluff is stripped away and there is nothing left but a series of needs. conflicting or cooperating.#and even when you're lying during one it's still a form of truth #none of these things are remotely necessary to tell a powerful or compelling story but if you're going to use them you need to do it right #also all 3 of these things are difficult if not impossible to write if you are not both interested in them and personally invested #this post brought to you by me trying to write smut about my dnd characters and failing because i generally hate /reading/ smut #so i have none of the vocabulary or instinct for it that i do for. say. graphic violence (or lyrical poetry)

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 year ago

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Bonus 8: How met your mother (CSSR design by @qourmet!)

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #cangse sanren #wei changze #jiang fengmian #It was important to me that WCZ had the hereditary mole. I will die on this hill.#I have been *waiting* for the day to finally arrive when I could finally make this comic. It's been marinating for months.#My mission is to redraw all of qour's character designs one day. They are just *that* good.#CSSR has the vibes of a wandering menace who shows up in towns like a stray cat arriving at a new doorstep for treats. 10/10.#While YZY strongly leads us to believe that JFM was in love with CSSR and that's his whole motivation behind taking wwx in-#-I do think this is (once again) rumour being presented as reality. It's the juicer story to tell after all.#It is still possible that he did love her! But I think that story undercuts the relationship he also had with WCZ.#Yall ever think about how JC and WWX parallel their fathers? How Wei Changze also left the Jiang Leader's side? I do.#Unlike JC though It is far more hilarious and plausible to imagine JFM begging to be CSSR and WCZ's third. You know he would.#My wild headcanon is that JFM and YZY are in a mlm and wlw arranged marriage situation. Deeply unhappy as partners. Better as friends.#they care for each other and I'll admit that there is a beautiful tragedy in them having romantic feelings for each other the whole time.#But I am also here for the gaffs. Let them be unfulfilled homosexuals together.#Meanwhile cssr and wcz are having incredible hetrosexual sex in a bisexual way that WILL leave him pregnant by the end of it.

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polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup · 7 months ago

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Just want to say: a, I admire very much that you've figured out a healthy way to work on your fics that allows you to have fun with it. And also b, am very excited to hear that you are getting there with pez! It has fully given me brain rot ever since I read it last year, there is just such a lack of content for the highly specific trope of using time travel as a device to explore extremely unhealthy levels of self loathing.

I just adore everything you're doing in it. Neither midoriya is anywhere approaching okay for any portion of the fic and I love rereading and mining into all the subtle characterization pointing to that. It's a bit like nhtycth in that some really goofy funny stuff is often hiding some really fucking worrying things, but the fact that characters DO do that stuff—that todoroki uses his teaspoon's worth of extremely stunted social skills to bludgeon his friend's door open and help him, that a rpf shipping war is an actual source of drama despite how goofy the sentiment seems on the surface, that about half of what jon says is deeply worrying and the other half is extremely funny and there's a lot of overlap between the two—really lifts the tension and brightens the universe. It's sort of similar to what you did with gerry, in that endless misery isn't nearly as painful as the ups and downs of a life that, when you step back and zoom out, has something deeply and horribly wrong with it.

(jon sort of reminds me of spider-man in that he uses human to deal with trauma and stress, except I don't think he at any point realizes how fucking funny he is. He's just there, in a home depot, gnashing his teeth because he's got so many bodies to dispose of and this cashier sure is taking her time.)

I really, really, really have had trouble finding fics that take everything midoriya has dealt with to task. It's a hell of a thing to live 14 years as a disabled minority, have it heavily shape your existence, and then one day you wake up and you realize you're...not that, or at least, nobody will ever acknowledge you as that again. You've lost all claim to it. Those experiences that shaped who you are? Dust in the wind. 14 years of pain and life might as well be buried in the ground for all the good they do you. Nobody's going to cut you any slack or quarter, you've gotta simply work harder, be better. And now when you do that you get the results you wanted, so that's fine, then. That's good. There was something wrong with the you before, and there's something right with the you now, and if the transition is a little rough, well that doesn't matter, you're the same as everyone else now, so it's your own job to fill in whatever gaps you need to.

I really can't get over how mentally fucked it must be for midoriya to run into quirkless people, run across quirkless issues, and be silently caught between, incapable of speaking his mind and too scared to do so anyway around those he can trust.

Also I should mention, I'm just very excited for bakugou to get back from the gym. He's been there like a year I hope he's getting a good workout in.

Me realizing that it’s been a year since pez dispenser debris:

I feel like there’s just this very specific type of grief that Izuku has to grapple with in the span of pez dispenser debris that I’m just obsessed with. He’s sort of silently mourning who he could have been, when 1) he has to present like there’s nothing lost to maintain his secret and 2) the entire world is constantly inundating him with the message that there was nothing lost.

Like. I don’t want to get too deep into it because it risks spoiling things and I do have major plans to continue it (I’ve loved this story for so many years before I ever even hit publish), but the emotion that Izuku’s feeling right now is so much more complex than “I hate who I used to be and want him to stop existing” or “I just want to keep my secrets.” And I think the way he interacts with Mirio is the biggest evidence of that.

Izuku’s placed himself at the very center of the Quirklessness debate with his support of Mirio. He fights for Quirkless heroes, very publicly, to the point where he’s not even graduated yet but considered to be one of the most prominent voices on the matter. If you took a poll of Quirkless people as to which hero would be most supportive of them pursing their own career in heroics, Izuku would be right at the top of the list. When it comes to Quirklessness itself, he’s nothing but supportive.

But he didn’t tell Mirio the truth of his own Quirklessness.

Out of everyone, Mirio’s the one everyone expects to know, despite him being a relatively newer relationship compared to someone like Iida or Uraraka or Todoroki. And I tried to imply that he’s sort of the one who knows the most about Izuku out of everyone save All Might.

Like, we’ll get into how much exactly Mirio knows soon, so I won’t divulge what, if anything, Izuku has told him. But we know that Mirio knows, weirdly enough, that Izuku is deeply fucking haunted. He knows that boy has many violent ghosts in his bones. He finds it hilarious and will tell their realtor about it. Izuku told him about the discontent spirits who died in a violent passion and live on inside of him before he told him about his Quirklessness.

And I just feel like one of those things is a little bit easier to discuss than the other.

Izuku has decided to keep his own Quirklessness quiet in a way that surpasses secrecy about One for All. If it was just about OfA, he could tell people he didn’t get his quirk until the entrance exam, and it wouldn’t even be a lie. He’s purposefully obscuring his own past as Quirkless even as he takes a forefront of the Quirkless hero debate with his open support of Mirio.

And the fact that he’s at the forefront of this debate in and of itself requires a difficult dichotomy. He is the world’s most vocal proponent for the first Quirkless hero. He is a known figure in the Quirkless community now.

He isn’t considered one of them anymore. He’s an outsider coming in.

It must be such a strange, odd sort of grief to come to the people you were home amongst for most of your life and be greeted as a stranger. To return home, and to be welcomed in for the first time, and to not even be able to tell people that you’ve lived here all your life and don’t need a tour.

It’s a sort of death of self, I think. And I think Izuku never expected to have to grapple with his own ghost.

#there’s just something so haunting to me about the idea of Izuku being considered just a really enthusiastic ally to the Quirkless community #like Izuku canonically did not have friends #he almost definitely was an /incredibly/ avid member of Internet forums #he probably found comfort amongst other Quirkless people for the first time ever online #and then he grew up #got all mights quirk #became a central figure in the Quirklessness debate #and suddenly found himself popping up on those forums that used to be his only solace as a child #that one hero with all the Quirks who supports the Quirkless #I see Izuku as being a semi controversial figure amongst Quirkless #because he obviously supports them #but he’s got quirks to an unprecedented power level and is also used by others against the quirkless community as an example of how far #behind they are in evolution #I feel like he eventually stopped going on those old forums that were his greatest comfort as a child #like I feel like he would feel weird lurking on the forums while they talked about him to him without their knowledge #he would have left to give them privacy away from him #he couldn’t honestly commiserate with them anymore because he was suddenly Quirked anyway #and what must that feel like #that realization that you can never go home again #pez dispenser debris #bnha #update IS incoming im actively working on this fic again #we are so so close people #to this and sgg and nhthcth #god it’s been so close for so long #also if you sent me an ask and I never answered it please know I saw it and loved it and started to answer it #which is why I currently have over 150 asks in a state of partial completeness #we’ll get there one day

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tj-crochets · 10 months ago

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Thinking about my neurology appointment again, I have another weird question for y'all! My neurologist was surprised and said it was weird I was right handed, which I am assuming is because of the reflex and grip tests she did, not because I give off a left-handed kind of vibe Wait I was going to ask if it was weird that I, a non-ambidextrous person, hit and kick evenly with both right and left sides, open doorknobs with whichever hand is closer, and use the foot pedal for the sewing machine with whichever foot it ends up nearer but can't write with my left hand But I just tried it and I can write with my left hand??? Like, not as neatly or as quickly as with my right, but it's clearly legible and not difficult to do. Have I been ambidextrous this entire time??

#the person behind the yarn #this post went off the rails in the middle #but I genuinely thought everybody could do that #like. I knew it threw people a bit when I was in martial arts and sparring #because I actually prefer to kick from my left side a bit but use whichever leg makes more sense #and also because I could change my stance for which leg was forward very easily and that was difficult for this one guy to do #but I thought it was just a that one guy problem!#I did not think I was potentially the odd one out #wait do you guys open doors with your off hand?#people who sew use both hands so they have one hand one each side of the cloth #and just use the hand on the far side of the cloth to push the needle back up. right?#I worded that poorly but I'm hoping it still makes sense

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unproduciblesmackdown · 2 years ago

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set out to create a serious, canonesque drawing with which to say "feel free to go in my lackadaisy tag and help me mystery speculate" but only got going when i made it bowling and the rarepair agenda

#not that i imagine anything w/mordecai's Rare so much as: diluted range of possibilities lol. probably someones on that mordecai/virgil life #when it turns out it takes several tries to start to get more solid footing at drawing characters for the first time: What The?????#i actually don't think i ever tried drawing lackadaisy before; against all odds....if i had i would've had a head start lol #lackadaisy #corned beef #any collectively used pairing name here? mordenico? nicodecai? in absence of otherwise Knowing:#nicodeme savoy #mordecai heller #me in '07 going oh my GOD this ART!!!! me in '23 going oh my GOD this ART!!!! & guess how i've always felt years in between #goddd perusing the gallery bonus art afresh recently just like WOWWW i'm SOOO #the collages of full-body drawings for book purchases i think like my GOD i love to see it. plus that the Extra Stuff gallery means there's #such a variety like. stuff that's clearly noncanon; stuff that could be / kinda is; jokes; portraits; story / characters insight....waaughh #also shoutout to everyone behind all the mordecais in KS Backer Art 1 & 2 like ''sexy mordecai please'' apparently lmao. hell yeah #anyways my Marigold Bowling Team headcanons are simple and straightforward: nicodeme w/the muscle can get a strike from the force of having #hit one pin that smashes into all the others; but don't underestimate his versatility. mordecai with the precision / method & absolutely #who you want trying to hit the only pin left on the lane. serafine's got like serpentine curveballs changing velocity halfway down the lane #and they've All got pointing a gun at the people setting pins / returning balls b/c that wasn't automated back in the twenties #back when everyone had customized printed tees....oh fun fact. a real live kitty cat crinkled that first pic's paper by jumping on it #or really; ricocheting off of it. classic #also the ''i want people to seriously consider nicodeme/mordecai. but also sillily'' purposes have me using Close Contact as a shorthand #it's earnest and can sure be [longhand] too but you go ''You Could Never HC Datingly Affection ft. An Always Touch Averse Character'' & i?#well i scoff derisively and slowly swivel my chair around to face you; arms crossed; smhing....hah. how greatly you underestimate my power.#you're throwing [hcs for a romance ft. an autistic character] & [that ft. an asexual character] & i'm grabbing them midair & Sips Them #ha ha why these replenish my health And experience bars....#Never Be Afraid To Forget To Draw Mordecai's Glasses Or That You Also Put Your Thumb In A Bowling Ball....he's warming up. or w/e.#nicodeme w/the boxing experience shoulders massage trope. giving that pep talk #or you can go ''get a strike or we kill you'' b/c you never have to find out if he's joking or not #mordecai unfazed b/c that's the stakes in this business (bowling) & he's autistic so always having to ignore Everyone being weird/confusing #haven't come up with a lackadaisy's team bowling pun name lol.#still feel free to go in my lackadaisy tag and help me brainstorm mitzi n mordecai's murder mystery ;w; enrichment

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fisheito · 3 months ago

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i've gotta laugh at the possibility of me leaving the gay porn gacha fandom, i'm trapped here forever. it's in my blood now.

i mainly just created a sideblog bc beloved though this media is, i cannot recommend it to people. aaaand also my main is ridiculously cluttered and barely even fandom related, so all of my hyperfixations have neat little sideblogs so that i can keep everything relatively organized.

also. i am VERY excited for the upcoming event!!! i'm saving up for my precious! i almost got spoiled on the outfit but i scrolled away in the nick of time!!

sincerely, @blades-precious-darling

takes a weary crunch out of my candy cigar (very full of honey). it's been over 900 days. i am still here. i'm supposed to have commitment issues. have i ever been in a fandom for this long?!

i think necromancer diloreq said it best... where,, even though i'm obsessed with this game, i cannot in my.. proper?judgement? conscience?? refer it to other ppl. at least not en masse. it's a gay porn gacha LOL

i'll have to bring it up only to people i know will not lose their life savings to whaledom, whose specific interests match the nuca profile, AND who aren't someHoW ALReAdy playing it???!

#feesh answer #i mean. i DID get ONE friend into it. the one who inadvertently left me behind to get cursed by yakumo's dick #but i still outlasted them. alas #and now i'm here. with all of you. watching people flit in and out of the fandom #STILL HERE. UNTIL THE DAY I GO #WHEN WILL THAT BE???? I DON'T KNOW #until then. let us rejoice in the silly of the characters #i just opened up the new event today and read through all the chaps #because i fear... getting spoilt if i go on tumblr before reading it all... sigh #well that's ok! all i'm gonna say here is that.... in those limited chapters #i got a lot of quality laffs #blade oli and kuya are an excellent combo #with eiden it's just shenanigans #kuya's evil always needs a balancing act AHAHA #if i could enjoy life as much as blade does #to delight in every little thing... to throw my inhibitions into the lake and scream for no reason #perhaps wave my arms in the air like i care slightly less than expected #and to rob . er. borrow adorable vestments from the local clothing purveyor.#t'would be an excellent way to be......

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ssreeder · 10 months ago

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I'm so looking forward to iroh and zuko properly talking and seeing irohs reaction to zuko being gay.

Like we all know he doesn't agree with the fire nation rn but how will he react?

Will he not support him cause sokkas a guy? Will he not support him because it's SOKKA? Will he accept him? Will he reveal he's known for years zuko was gay?

Especially with everything that happened with zhao, regarding to what jee said to bato on their date. (Which is a very understandable perspective, zuko just got out of this very sexually traumatising situation and almost immediately starts a relationship (his first relationship) with sokka, but then again it is a very unique situation)

One thing I love about some atla fics is how they portray the FNs thoughts on queerness, cause on one hand they were one of the only country's (I think) that treated men and women the same but then again it's also the fucking fire nation.

And I also think zukos whole canon arc can be very comparative to queerness,

His dads an asshole and after speaking out against him he throws him out, and zuko try's for 3 years to regain his father's love and acceptance, and then faced with the opportunity of regaining it takes it immediately regardless of who or what he may hurt (iroh, his own morals etc) but once he makes it back home realises how fucked up everything is and eventually confronts his dad and openly tells him he doesn't agree with him then runs aways.

I also wonder if iroh secretly knows jee is queer it doesn't seem that likely to me but it also is iroh so who knows.

<3

I do think Iroh’s reaction will be a big moment for not only the story but for Zuko’s character development. Right now, Zuko’s technically still a prisoner, holding himself there by assuming Iroh will not understand or judge him when in reality he’ll never know what his uncle is thinking until they TALK ABOUT IT. (Which the FN royal family is just sooo good at healthy communication I don’t understand why this is so hard for them lol?!)

I do agree that the suddenness of the relationship combined with the intensity from both zuko and Sokka is very alarming for people looking at it from the outside (I mean we all totally get it cause we were there but others are like uhhhh hmmmm ok this might be concerning) so I get them gossiping and wondering if this is truly real or what the fucks going on with those boys.

I love Zukos canon arc because there’s just so much about zukos story that can be relatable no matter who you are and I think that’s why he is a fan favorite (it doesn’t explain why we torture him the way we do but ehhhh it’s fine haha)

Hmmmmmm does iroh know Jees gay? Depends on how saucy those music nights got ;)