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hi you have broken my brain and i am now irrevocably obsessed with jason todd (and especially the way you write him 🥹💕) thank you so much :’))))
thinking so hard about wet soapy jason in the shower and the fact that neither of you would ever be able to shower alone bc as soon as one of you realized your love was in the shower you’d HAVE to join <3
i love how sweet this is.
everytime you grab your towel or switch on the shower Jason appears in your line of sight, shirt already halfway off, an excited little smile on his handsome face.
he’s already telling you—rambling really—that he’s washing your hair first and he needs to condition his because he didn’t have time before and he wants to use the fruity shower gel you love because he likes the way it smells and you both have just this sigh of relief when you press together because of course you feel right at home under eachothers palms.
it doesn’t matter where he is, the second you switch on the water he’s there. you pick up your towel in his general vicinity and his head snaps up, watching you until you head into the bathroom and he’s immediately trailing at your heels.
or, you get home, hear the shower running and before you even enter the bathroom your pants are hanging from one leg. Jason thinks it’s hilarious when you fumble your way into the shower with him, hands already reaching out to touch his soapy skin, all warm and soft and safe.
you both write stupid little messages and make silly drawings on the mirror when it gets all steamy and more often than not it’s a simple ‘I love you’ or ‘let’s fuck later’ with a horrible picture of two stick people laying on top of each other, (you tried your best, okay?).
you know that joke about dads and knowing when you touch/go near the thermostat?? yeah. that. but it’s Jason and his shower sensing ability.
he’s out on patrol, you start the shower and all of a sudden you get a text message from him saying ‘don’t you dare shower without me.’
#cradling the thoughts of showering with Jason in my hands#love this sosososo much#I love it when Jason is soft and loving#and gets all things soft and loving in return#he deserves it#also!! thank you so much my love#🥰🥰🥰#jason todd x reader#ella writes
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2023 year in review with hyunjin [it’s a wrap] 🎉
#hyunjin#skz#stray kids#*with hyune#they are not positioned as they came. i wanted to match him with the hyunpics 🥹#this is not nearly half of the shit they did this year#but a girl can only add so many pics.#2023 marking the year i could actually see u live too.. is crazy it’s so sosososo crazy and it still brings tears to my eyes#waited for it so much and for so long and it blew my expectations away 😣#i keep being so hooked on u year after year and it hasn’t changed at all this year too..#ig im just in this hyunjin shaped ride for life#ilu… i wish i could thank you personally for saving me every year 👍🫠#also happy new year to mutuals and all the other followers 💘 i love u and i appreciate u all and i hope#all the good an lovely things come#to your way in 2024 💖 let’s all assemble in europe when skz comes here heh#<- this is me manifesting.
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we've hit one thousand followers Σ(°ロ°)! i can't express how grateful i am for the support and kindness i've received from so many of you, and i'm unbelievably excited to keep sharing what i've created with everyone.
as a thank you i wanted to do a giveaway for hitting this milestone! i'll be picking three winners so be sure to read the rules carefully if you're interested (^▽^)!
rules!
1) like OR reblog this post to enter! a like AND a reblog will give you two entries, which is the maximum number of entries. multiple reblogs will not be counted. 2) the deadline to enter is april 19th at 11:59pm CST. 3) i'll reach out to the winners by dm on tumblr on the 20th. you have 48 hours to respond, at which point i'll draw a different winner!
prizes!
each winner will be able to choose one of the following: 1) a ficlet featuring any character featured within the story. this can either be a character-focused story or be a scenario between your mc and a character of your choice. 2) creation of a background character that will be incorporated into the story! i can assist with any details you might need help with, such as creating a name, background, etc. 3) a limited q&a where i'll answer anything including but not limited to ro reactions, (light) spoilers, and worldbuilding (≧▽≦) 4) a b&w portrait of your mc by yours truly, but i'm pretty sure nobody is going to want that HAHAHA
#tosahobi if#thank you so much guys (╥﹏╥)#i never thought i'd get here#i love you all so so sosososo much!#kissing you all on the forehead#muah x1000#one of the prizes#was going to be early access to the completed ch1#but you won't believe which dumbass (me)#screwed up all the code (me)
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Commission for @write-kin
Thank you very much for commissioning me!!!!!
COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN! Feel free to take a look if you'd like!
#oc#art#commissions#tokimeki art#Sunshine#THE SUNNED SHINE.......#I love them sosososo much pumpkin#let me get my grubby paws on your OCs I promise nothing bad will happen to them#it brought me SUCH joy to work on this#Thank you so much for commissioning me pumpkin it really does mean the world to me ;v;
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Curious if you think Johnny, peanut, and Lola have/had siblings or if they're just only children. Personally I always hc johnny and lola as only children but felt that peanut had a younger sister who passed away.
why hi anon!!! this such an interesting question, thank you!!
i remember reading that hc, yep!!
i hc all the three of them, however, to be only children (i think they're the only greasers that i do??). in fact, for all three of them, this fundamental isolation is their childhood is, in the way i read it, what shaped some of the way they socialize and influences a lot their interactions.
as for johnny, the thing is that his parents were both in the drug dealing circles of new coventry, hence why they were in prison for a while- his father was actually pretty important in the neighborhood, while his mom mostly helped and did other legal jobs (which is also why she got out earlier). and johnny learnt both how to be a man and how not to be a man from his father- he taught him strength and roughness and to never take a hit but punch harder. but he also taught that johnny didn't want to hit his woman, didn't want to leave the house for a smoke to cool his head when she was crying and threatening to hurt herself because of him, didn't want her to be his slave.
in this framework, i think that him having, say, a brother would sort of... scatter the relationship his father has with him, the attention and, almost, the pressure to be worthy of being treated as a peer. which is something i really like to read for johnny. and i also like the idea of him having had his mother as the only woman in his life, before lola. call him a mama's boy, but he learned to take care of his mother before he even questioned how to deal with an eventual girlfriend. so he has learned to take care of the people he has around himself, such as peanut, almost in a way that replaces a paternal figure as protector of the house. but also internalized some very specific notions about masculinity and virility that he totally projects onto the relationship with lola.
ultimately, i think, the whole point is that the way he lives the relationship with lola in particular is basically a result with having grown up with the only reference in his house of close human interaction as his parents, and having to sort of step up where they lacked in the sole spousal relationship.
with peanut, my hc is that his mom had him when she was very young, sixteen years old, and she was... basically on her own, really; the boy she had had him with had fled as soon as he had a chance, her dad was on the other side of the ocean and her mom was basically mia (i still have to figure out the logistics of this, since, when i first elaborated it, i forgot for a while that Laws Existed, LMAO, and i was already too far in the creating process to change that), so she had to raise him on her own. and peanut spent most of his childhood in his living room, waiting for his mom to come back home, watching the vhs she had rented for him and reading the motors magazines. it's there that he fell in love with greasers, crushing on marlon brando and james dean, the shiny motorcycles and the raw leather jackets.
he basically had to live with himself, you see. also bc his mom, so young and unprepared, was very overwhelmed most of the time, and- i did post a quick snippet of a scrapped chapter of my fic already, actually, so you can get a broad but more detailed idea of their relationship if you want!! either way, point is. larry had to learn to tend to himself at a very young age, dealing with the loneliness and his own sensitivity, running from eventual kids of the neighborhood, who liked to take advantage of him being much smaller than most of them, trying not to take up too much space and upset his mom.
so of course, when he met johnny, older, proud, powerful as a sun, promising to take care of him, it felt almost unreal, something he never thought he could have wished for nor something he thought he deserved. some kind of care and protection hed never learnt to receive, and that he hang onto for dear life because suddenly... he wasn't on his own anymore.
(sometimes parents are just Contextual Objects. other time they are fully fleshed ocs with a backstory and a whole personality. turns out despite everything immacolata romano is really my child and i am so so fond of her and id have soo much more to say abt her relationship w peanut. but i digress)
and lola- i'll admit, shes the one i bounced back and forth about the most, in trying to imagine her family's situation. (in fact, if you see any reference to her family in my older fics/post, no you dont) at some point i even considered the idea of her having a much older brother who would sort of fill in for some absent father figure, but then i scrapped it. i think that, in her case as well, having grown up alone with her parents' relationship as a reference makes potentially much more sense than any other possibility i considered.
lola has a quote, in which she says "i'm so old, my life is almost over!" when... she's just?? sixteen??? seventeen??? i think it's because, see, her parents got married and had her when they were young, maybe nineteen or twenty- yknow, as soon as it was legal for the both of them without too many loopholes. however, the relationship was very unbalanced and fundamentally deteriorated, perhaps not from the beginning but very soon. her father being dominant, violent, arrogant and such. and her mother has always been bitter, subdued but angry and resentful at her husband, at the golden expectations she had, at her womanhood and, of course, at her daughter. she's always seen her as living proof of her own wasted beauty and youth; but, especially as soon lola started growing up to the age at which girls start being looked at by the boys, which we unfortunately know how soon it is, saw in her what she felt she'd lost. so she'd often remind her how lola was the reason why she is now a ruin of a woman, why she went from a beautiful and promising girl to an old and unattractive hag.
again- her being the only child helps focus on her the kingpin of this dynamic, especially on her mother's part. so lola grew up knowing what can happen to women, what remains when the fairytales of the princess marrying the prince crumble with the remnants of childhood. she realized at eleven, twelve years old how men were starting to look at her in the street and she knew what the next step would have been. she was reminded every day of her life. so, when she walked into bullworth, into the relationship with johnny, all she knew is that she wouldn't have ended up like her mother. knew that she wouldn't have fallen in love, wouldn't be tricked by the sweet words and the dreamy gazes. and she knew that she had no weapons to defend herself but the very thing that could've otherwise been the death of her, that being the male attention. and finding a way to use johnny's attention specifically, with his blind devotion mixed to the obliviousness, to her own advantage... well, that's what her whole arc is about, isn't it.
as i write this, i'm starting to realize that her having, perhaps specifically a brother, might function as a tool to highlight the difference in treatment between her, a daughter, and an eventual son. however, i stand my case that i really like the idea of this whole dynamic of her parents and her mother in particular resting on her and her only, creating this sort of... tunnel vision in which her very isolation in front of her view create her idea of how the world works.
thank you so much for the question!! it was a lot of fun to answer + it helped me make some order among some concepts i had in my mind <33
#it was SO MUCH FUN i MISSED writing elaborated thingies like these!!! thank you sosososo much whoever you are out there <3333#and like as a disclaimer: i do not think in any way that being an only child automatically means being lonely and isolated and maladapted#but lkie consider also im mostly speaking in conceptual and thematic terms rather than realistically mimetically psychologically sooo#also fun fact: the scrapped idea of the older brother was actually recycled for...my very first oc...whom you will see......probably.......#one of these days.....*disappears in the woods*#another fun fact: has anyone around here seen the sea beyond/mare fuori? for some reason in my head i picture lolas mom and she looks a lot#like violas mom- not that they have anything in common just??? idk??? when you try and get an idea of the image. think of her#canis canem edit#bully scholarship edition#bully cce#bully#greasers#peanut romano#johnny vincent#lola lombardi#odyposts#odyanswers#odywrites
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hai,... ccan u draw floory x mephon if ur comfortble w it?? tytyty ^_^
Ofc!!! Here ya go!!! Its not alot but i hope you like it anon!!!!
Extra little doodle below
#inanimate insanity#osc#object shows#art#fanart#ii#egos art#digital art#egos asks#floorphone4#floorphone4 ii#ii shipping#floory x mephone4#mephone4 ii#inanimate insanity mephone4#floory ii#inanimate insanity floory#mefloory#LOVE THEM SOSOSOSO MUCH#I CRY SO SO HARD#Thank you anon fir requesting this#🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡
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hiii how are you? :))
i finally could take the time to look through the prompt list and if it is okay i was thinking of yuuji + the prompt 'it’s been occurring to me i’d like to hang out with you for my whole life' + maybee if you're feeling it roommates trope?
sunshine boy just has been on the brain lately, i'm really excited to read all that you come up with! :)
yuuji itadori x it’s been occurring to me I’d like to hang out with you for my whole life
As the front door not so gently shuts, you interrupt your hunt for snacks through cabinets and cupboards and peek out from the kitchen doorway.
“So? How’d it go?” you raise your eyebrows expectantly, a pack of oreos ready to be slashed open in your hand.
Yuuji smiles awkwardly as he approaches you. He does that thing he does whenever he’s embarrassed: as a mild blush already creeping onto his cheeks, one hand rises up to his neck to nervously scratch it.
“T’was nice” he shrugs the question away as if it’s no big deal. However, the way he avoids your gaze tells you the deal is there and it’s not small either.
The pack of oreos is left on the counter, hunger forgotten as you cross your arms.
“Was she rude?” you’re already up in arms, scowl so deep he’d genuinely laugh if he wasn’t so desolated.
“She wasn’t”
“Pretentious? She demanded you paid? I mean, I know you’d do it anyway, but insisting on the first date…”
“No, really, it wasn’t—”
“She was late. Fuck, you even left early, I told you to take your t—”
“She stood me up”
Your mouth hangs open, brows furrowed in an incredulous frown. A few seconds of silence follow his words and Yuuji has to shrug again, in hopes of playing the absurd thing off as trivial.
“Maybe she had a setback” you want to be a good person and give this idiotic stranger the benefit of the doubt.
“Ah, not really. I saw her arrive at the restaurant. She looked at me, pretended not to see me and just left” he walks past you to reach over the counter and grab a clean glass. As he quietly pours himself some water, you can feel your blood pressure skyrocket by the second.
“Sorry, what did you just say?” you turn around in one swift motion “she stood you up intentionally?”
“It’s fine, really” Yuuji’s lips curl into a sweet smile, albeit a little self-conscious “maybe it’s the pink hair, you know. Or the flashy sneakers? Anyway, can’t be everyone’s type. It’s fine” he repeats and downs the water while you have to blink back a fury that has you seeing red because what. the. fuck.
He takes notice of your outraged expression and fails to hold back another smile as he leans against the counter.
“What about you? No plans tonight?”
But you cannot focus on his words. He’s left the house more than three hours ago, for a date that showed up only to leave. Which means he was probably too embarrassed to come back and has spent all this time alone, doing god knows what.
As a matter of fact, you do have plans. But you have no intention of going out, surely Nobara will understand. She always does, understand everything faster and better than you. She has ever since you’ve first met Yuuji anyway, her friend and probably the best roommate in the whole wide world.
“Mug cake” you click your tongue and resume a hectic inspection of drawers, certain you still have some mix left somewhere.
“What?” he cocks his head, confused.
Victorious, you pull out what you were looking for from underneath cookie cutters and measuring cups.
“It’s so good! There’s only one left, you can have it” you know he’s looking at you, that’s why you avoid gentle eyes that would read everything there’s to read in yours. Anger, frustration, sadness. Not as attentive as he claims to be, he would mistake all those things for pity.
“Let’s share it?” the question is sheepish, a little awkwardness laced into his tone still. Your heart beats a little faster against your ribcage as you smile.
The cake is prepared in his favorite, microwave-safe mug. It takes less than two minutes for the chocolate greatness to be ready and you insist on adding shredded coconut and sprinkles as colorful as his hair and sneakers on top.
You sit together on the couch, cross-legged and facing each other. Yuuji holds the mug and both your spoons sink easily into the fluffy, moist dessert as you eat in comfortable silence.
“I really like this” he mutters and you have to resist the urge to run your thumb across his bottom lip to collect some stubborn chocolate remnants.
You hum instead, slowing down and reducing the size of each mouthful so that he can have more. Of course it escapes you, that he’s doing the same.
“Told you it’s good. How come we only have one left? Did I seriously eat the entire box?”
Yuuji chuckles.
“You did. In about two days, I believe” the only things vibrating in his tone are playfulness and gentle teasing. You heart swells with relief.
“I needed emotional support while…”
“Watching BNHA, I know” the sun rises and sets on his face as he finally gifts you that grin of his, the one that can make a difference between a good day and a bad day “but I didn’t mean that, although this stuff is amazing and I’m buying three boxes next time we go grocery shopping”
You let out an airy laugh. His eyes linger on you a second longer than usual before his gaze returns to the spoon scraping the bottom of his mug clean.
“I just meant that I like hanging out with you. I could easily do this forever”
“Forever?” your voice comes out strangled, surprise distorting your features and damn near trapping a piece of cake in your windpipe.
He hums.
“I just feel like I can’t even remember a time where I didn’t know you” another kind smile stretches his lips “I guess it’s been occurring to me, I’d like to hang out with you for my whole life if this is what it’s going to be like”
Yuuji takes in the way you stare back, more shocked than held off. He thinks he can work with that.
#red event#yuuji itadori#yuuji x reader#yuuji itadori x reader#itadori x reader#ARCHER#thank you sosososo much for trusting me with him#also for giving me the chance to write for jjk!#it almost never happens so I was so happy to work on this#I so hope you enjoy <3
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Hi bestie, popping in to say I love your writing and TGoD and if you're ever in the mood for an excuse to infodump about it and your language hcs I'm listening intently (no pressure tho ly bye)
bands! im feral about your artwork. /points imperiously draw more horny stuff!
pleas im beggign yuo
ok screaming crying frowing up listen i'll yammer about tgod all day because it means im not trying to write it what who said that
some fun facts about tgod:
it was like the second fic idea i ever came up with! i actually thought of it even before fight club but fight club started flowing first so i shelved it, and i'm glad i did because i feel like my fight scenes are so much better now. it was just too intimidating of an idea for me at first since back in 2022 i hadn't really written much fanfic ever
something i'm trying to do with both gaalees in characterisation with this fic is make them both sooooo gd awkward. like true cringefail at all hours. lets be so real do we all really think a former beast vessel turned president and a dude in a spandex suit and legwarmers are anything but so weird?
in particular i really REALLY wanted there to be two things: 1) the dichotomy of violent/inexplicably suave/hron hron baguette drunk lee versus nervous/awkward/insecure sober lee, and 2) sabaku no bloody social skills gaara. i hope that's coming across ok!
ok the language headcanons! i fully and unapologetically plagiarised all my headcanons from luna_lee on ao3 [@sagemoderocklee] who has so many incredible fics jfc but to expound on tgod specific ones
nishitsuchigo as a name breaks down into nishi 西 which according to google means west, tsuchi 土 which means soil, and suffix -go which i yoinked again from luna_lee lol
i originally designed this to be 6 chapters and thought it would be 60k? but my life is a joke and i'll probably crack 80k because i have to make an entire chapter of sexfucking and then an epilogue for Resolution sparkle sparkle
totally unrelated: the next chapter is porn god fucking Bless
don't expect it soon though i have no free time until like december
as a thank you for this question, behold! some fuckign stupit and some foreshadowing to gaara's next social blunder
#fictalk#writing gronp hours#gaalee#rock lee#gaara#text#tgod#bandsandwristbands#thank you soooo sosososo much for asking i had so much fun making a response for u!
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What is the pmd x uty au?
anon i owe my life to you thank you for giving me the chance to infodump about this!!!!
it’s not as much of a pmd au as it is an “undertale yellow but they’re pokemon” au so it’s mainly just the cast being pokemon.
my assignments for pokemon!!!! a lot of them are similar to the pokemon i gave each of them in their teams. anyways!!!!
clover -> eevee
flowey -> sunflora
dalv -> swoobat
martlet -> altaria
starlo -> heliolisk
ceroba -> ninetails
chujin -> alolan ninetails
kanako -> alolan vulpix
axis -> golurk
guardener -> ferrothorn
el bailador -> hawlucha
i might make designs for them (especially axis and guardener) but yeah!! i am not immune to assigning characters pokemon :p
#THANK YOU SOSOSOSO MUCH AGAIN FOR SENDING THIS ASK IT MADE ME SOSO HAPPY#pokemon#undertale yellow#uty pokemon au#ask/answer#🌙
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https://youtube.com/shorts/4KRH_xCt18E?si=t2tJirdH-Whf26X_
saw this and immediately thought you should see it, hope this makes your day 😊
having a bit of a hard time taking decent screenshots BUT LIKE!!!!!!!!!!
TRULY SUCH A NORMAL ASS FACE TO MAKE AFTER BEING REFERRED TO AS 'DADDY' IN FRONT OF HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE AND GOD. ALMOST AS NORMAL AS SEA ACTUALLY CALLING HIM THAT WITH HIS WHOLE CHEST. DID I MENTION JUST HOW INCREDIBLY NORMAL AND HINGED AND SANE AND FINE AND CHILL AND NORMAL THIS IS. BECAUSE IT SURE IS. NORMAL
i don't even have it in me to try to make jokes anymore tbh at this point im just like. yeah sure that checks out. pretty standard day in jimmysea land. we got sea giving ivan pavlov a run for his money by conditioning jimmy to kiss his cheek every time he leans in, sea calling jimmy 'daddy' is just another tuesday for these assholes (affectionate)
I'D SCREAM AT GMMTV TO JUST GIVE THEM A FULL SERIES WHERE THEY PLAY PARENTS ALREADY SO AT LEAST THEY CAN HAVE AN EXCUSE TO THROW THE WORD DADDY AROUND BUT IM AFRAID IT WOULD ONLY MAKE THEM WORSE ✋😭
#jimmy going 'i love kids' at the end#not so sure that's the kind of daddy we were all thinking abou– [GUNSHOT]#like sea calling the fans 'mommies' is very pure because he just likes to act cute and be taken care of#but then he's like 'oh you want daddy? [points at jimmy with the most mischievous grin known to man] daddy's here'#OKAY ✋😭#ANYWAY. thank you sosososo much for sending me this!!!!!!!#this indeed made my day and knowing that you saw it and thought of me just makes me even more happy!!!!!!#thank you again it was so sweet of you!!!!!!#sending you all the hugs on the spiritual plane and wishing you a wonderful day!!!!!! 💜💜💜#jimmysea#jimmy jitaraphol#sea tawinan#dallasthetimetraveler#m: ask
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politely askz if the sona ref you have linked in your pinned iz still accurate cuz i dont wanna get bit or something,,
[IK ITZ A STUPID QUESTION BUT SHUSH
nono the fear of getting bit is valid dw
but it is ! i also have a tag for my sona (#killz sans) and you should be able to find some of my art of it in there too ^_^
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hihi i’ve come with a gift
i don’t feel like i got your face right but i used ur insta for reference 😓
i js did unscarred toya bc rockstar au why not
elle i i ellie i e
#elle i love#i heart yiu#oh my gog#wait i need to calm down#fyi i screamed when i saw this#omgomgomgkmgojgomgkmgomgogm#touya is sosossoso pretty#hes so gorgeous in your art style#rockstar touya has a chokehold on me#and you served me w rockstar touya#second of all NOOO you didnt get my face wrong#it looks like me like the hair the eyes the nose#ITS PERFECT#oh ky goodness i cant stop staring at it#i am MESMERIZED...#elle do you want me to bow down to you#praise u and perhaps kiss the ground you step on#i cannot thank u enough for this#THE ART IS SOSOSOSO PERFECT.#its just#wow ....#i love is so much im gonna cry#very smitten with it right now#its going to be my hyperfixation for the next 2 weeks bro#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#okay i think im done now#THANK YOU SO MUCH ELLE WELLIE PELLIE MELLIE SELLIE#i heart you lots man#★ elle#⋆ ❨ sennies ❩ ֢֢֢ ۟
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okay, I kinda need to come back here and relearn how to use this
#also i just give it a quick scroll and its mostly people saying nnice things about my fics throughout many years#so thank you sosososo much#i feel like an ass cause i fr have never took the time to check inbox throughly#you're soso kind and nice to me
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2k followers??? hello???
I reached 2k followers a few days ago, and I just want to say thank you to all the people that constantly read my fics and take the time to leave a note (even if it's just a like).
Thank you for being patient with me and waiting for my fics and updates!! I love you all🤍
I didn't have time to make a celebration thingy bc I didn't have too much time, but I promise that something will come once I reach 2.5k followers. I promise.
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all eyes on you almost 400 kudos ?????
#the numbers aren’t important and tbh are comparatively low. I’m just blown away that people are actually reading what I write#and liked it enough to give it a little heart#NOT TO GET SAPPY but i don’t think ya’ll understand just how much it means to me that people genuinely like my writing.#it’s my favorite thing to do in the world and i paid a lot of money for a piece of paper that says I’m specifically Good at stories#but. the Horrors. I forgot how to write and how to even have fun reading. it became work and for the first time in my life it was Hard.#it really felt like grief and mental illness took everything from me.#TPN and AEOY are sosososo special to me bc they helped me unearth and begin repairing parts of myself i thought I’d lost forever.#and. yeah. No Wonder i got attached to the girl who fought so hard only to forget herself and doesn’t know how to be that person again.#anyway anyway that’s enough of that!! thank you to everyone who has shown AEOY love you are more precious to me than you could ever know
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I played mouthwashing because of a person on the dash 2 days ago and it hasn't left me alone for even a second. I've been unable to sleep for 2 nights now, not because I played a horror game and got scared, but because I keep waking up in a cold sweat with half-formed essay ideas on my lips. I think this game changed me as a person
#i think it's mainly bc the game does such a good job of getting you into the headspace of the player character#a lot of games force the player into doing stuff they don't want to that's not anything new#but combined with how well it sets up the human emotions at play and the fact that you /know/ someone who /would/ do these things...?#man i just#huh#feels bad to hurt people#also i'm usually the kind of person pretty convined that i would do better in horror films#rationally i know that depending on the situation your brain just stops functioning correctly etc#but for example (until dawn spoilers) that game /never/ made me feel like in that situation i would have cannibalized my sister#it just didn't make me feel desperate enough for that ig?#mouthwashing however... i don't think i would have coped better if i was anya#anya coped extraordinarily wel#and the way the narrative tries to minimize her role makes me feel queasy#like fuck#good game#i want to play it again and see all the implications i missed#more games should be 2-3 hrs#admittedly i rushed through it a bit#bc i am soooo scared of horror games#i actually wanted to quit after 1 hour bc i just don't deal well with the feeling of a jumpscare around the corner#but i saw that i was p much halfway through anyway and continued on#best decision of my life#now on to play how fish are made#if it's even half as well-thought-out and written as mouthwashing i'll gladly be freaked out again#(maybe if i force myself through enough jumpscares i'll finally desensitize myself)#(ongoing project of my life)#(i LOVE horror but i am sosososo scared!!!!)#also if you are the person who has been reblogging this game the past few days PLEASE say hi#i've been scrolling but i can't remember your username and i want to thank you and also yell at you :')
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