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sapphicslvtt Ā· 2 months ago
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Sitting at a bar but the only thing I can think about is how badly I want to go home and relentlessly tease a pretty girl. I would start soft, just tracing her folds with the tip of my tongue.
ā€œI want you squirming and begging for more before I even think about doing anything elseā€
Finding her needy clit, Iā€™d begin flicking my tongue at it relentlessly. Holding her thighs down as sheā€™s tugging on my hair and squirming beneath me. Watching how she covers her gorgeous face all flustered, how her pretty hole is clenching around nothing, so desperate for mommyā€™s fingers to fill her up. How sheā€™s having to bite back each moan and whimper to hide how needy and worked up she gets by simple teasing.
But Mommy knows that sheā€™s a needy princess, whoā€™s so easily affected by her touches. Knowing she wouldnā€™t be able to last long with all the teasing, Iā€™d work my way down to her dripping hole. Just slowly sliding my fingers into her, curling up to hit that sweet spot that turns her into a gasping, moaning mess. Iā€™ll keep going like that, slowly increasing my speed until sheā€™s on the verge on cumming. Whines and cries echo through the room as I remove my fingers over and over again as she gets closer and closer. I want tears in her pretty, doe eyes as sheā€™s whining
ā€œM-mommy I canā€™t a-anymoreā€
ā€œP-please slow down mommyā€
All this pretty begging, only for mommy to tilt her head - forcing her to make eye contact and acknowledge what a submissive, vulnerable position sheā€™s in and hush her with my fingers. Iā€™d push my fingers into her drooling mouth to suck on, as I watch how her pretty tits bounce when I start to thrust my fingers faster. Seeing how her wetness drips everywhere and all over my hand would fuel my everlasting desires to turn her into my brainless mess. So perfect and needy for mommy
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transformers-synergize Ā· 1 year ago
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Is Inferno in this au?
Or is he somewhere else in the au
Red needs his pal Inferno, poor guy needs his friend or whatever they are in your au
(I hope that didn't sound rude if it did im very sorry :( )
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Yes, he is a character in Synergized and somewhat plot-important. His whereabouts are currently unknown to the main Autobot cast, him being one of the many missing crew members. I will not reveal anything more than that. :)
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Red and Inferno are a little more than pals they are conjunx endura, basically in robot married put into human terms. Red needs a lot of stuff right now, not just his robot husband, red currently does not have access to the tools he used or the specialized energon he consumes to manage his static problem causing him to experience delusions and increasing his already bad anxiety. Though Inferno being there wouldn't fix all Red's current problems, it would definitely help him a lot, at least with the anxiety part.
If you want to read more about Red Alerts static problems you can check out this post https://www.tumblr.com/transformers-synergize/732620075400626176/has-red-alert-ever-had-a-chill-day-in-his?source=share
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I don't have a normal Earth design for Inferno, but I do have a concept for his Cybertron version. personally, it's not my favorite design, but it will only have limited use like most of my Cybertron designs.
also your not being rude don't worry.
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walkingstackofbooks Ā· 26 days ago
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I had a fun (awful) idea and can't think of what to do with it, so I'm going to inflict it on you. (I mean this affectionately, please ignore this if you're not up for misery right now!)
Julian, while in the mirror verse with Kira, is subjected to some... very specific and harrowing torture. Except Kira never finds out about this. The only person who knows about what happened to him is Smiley, the mirror verse O'Brien, who helps keep him together. Julian thinks he can take this as yet another secret no one ever has to know, and reassures Smiley that even in his own sparkly nice universe this has happened to him before and he'll be fine.
Cue, a year or so later, Smiley dragging Sisko into the mirror universe, and during a little rant from Sisko about how sadistic Mirror Bashir is and how no one from HIS Starfleet would be so cruel even to an enemy, Smiley just scoffs and rolls his eyes and says "oh yeah, so what about your Doctor Bashir, huh? Who did that to him then, huh?"
Sisko returns to his own universe with the knowledge that not only was Julian Bashir assaulted and tortured a year ago and never said a single word to anyone about it, but that it was not the first time he'd endured something like that. Sisko has no idea what he's supposed to do with this knowledge, but he does watch Julian very, very closely afterwards, hoping for some hint or sign or tell that he can jump on to confront Julian and drag this out in the open, because if any of what Smiley said was true, Julian should have been given regular counselling before he even arrived on the station...
I can't work out how to have Sisko confront him and have some comfort happen, so as I said, I'm just inflicting this on you for fun.
Nonnie, this was absolutely delightful, thank you for inflicting this upon me!! I've had MANY thoughts, so putting this under a cut!
Ohhh, the idea Sisko being so protective over Julian but having to do it from afar gives me SO many feelings ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø The idea of him quietly watching Julian with this whole new perspective, and because he is observant, picking up on things he'd never noticed before (and wondering how he hadn't noticed them - maybe reflecting on his and Julian's time in Past Tense and spotting things there, too?)
But also, the fact that he'd be wondering if he's reading too much into what he sees, perhaps, or if what he's noticed is due to the torture a year ago, or the pre-DS9 "similar incident"...
I think Sisko would both be obligated to and want to ask Julian about the torture he experienced in the mirror universe, and why it went unreported. He'd be very gentle with it, but hopefully also firm that Julian needs to start having sessions with counsellor Telnorri. Julian's very stiff and wooden and factual about the whole thing - he knows the torture affected him, but he's repressed it for this long, and he's worried that he'll struggle to keep his secret if he's having this very similar torture poked at in counselling.
(But since Sisko is completely insistent - and Starfleet would be too, once he's amended his report - he has to go along with it, and just come up with a way to protect himself. During his first session, he ends up "confessing" to having nightmares of the mirror universe, "but it's happening to me in our universe, as a child. I know they're not real, but they've happened often enough that when I first wake up, it takes me a few moments to realise that."
Which Telnorri believes and assures him is a normal trauma response, and yep, it sure works as a good cover for times when he's getting emotional and panicky and slips into adigeon trauma rather than torture trauma, because whenver he now says something like "my parents", Telnorri will gently correct him with a "that was just dream, Julian". Julian has never been more grateful for Garak's lessons, not has he ever understood Garak's "the truth is in the lies" lesson so completely.)
Anyway - back to Sisko. He still has no idea what could have happened to Julian pre-DS9. He wonders if it could have been a mission gone wrong while he was a cadet, if this not-reporting torture is a pattern that Julian's done before - or even if it could have ended up being something classified, that Julian can't talk about... He can't find anything in Julian's records where that sort of thing would make sense, but it's the only way he can think of Julian ever being in a situation where torture was on the cards. He definitely doesn't believe that it was Starfleet, and the idea that Julian might have been a child - that it could have been his own parents - doesn't even occur to him.
Until Julian's parents arrive in his office. It takes him a couple of minutes to realise what he's seeing, because he still has the blind spot around child abuse, the firm notion that "parents = good!", but this Sisko has spent nearly two years taking note of Julian's body language and so this time, he spots how uncomfortable and distressed Julian is by his parents' sudden arrival, and is deeply disturbed.
He still wouldn't connect the dots straight away - noticing Julian's discomfort is a far cry from assuming his parents were responsible for his torture - but he does usher them out of his office fairly quickly, saying that he's sorry, but he needs to return to his meeting with Doctor Bashir and so Lieutenant Dax will find them quarters. And then he turns to Julian and asks him what's wrong, and Julian tries to tell him he's fine but that doesn't work because Sisko knows him, has sat with him through difficult times (most recently, post-prison-camp) far too often not to be able to tell that something's wrong.
But although Julian has come to trust and rely on Sisko with work-related trauma problems, he's too surprised and naturally cagey about his childhood to let Sisko in too much, even on a level of "my parents didn't treat me well". He gives him the most basic line that he gave Zimmerman - "We don't get along" - and asks to be dismissed. the rest of the episode happens pretty much as normal (although I think I'd like Sisko to head across to check on Julian later in the day, just at the right time to find him slumped against the wall outside his quarters after his fight with his parents.)
And when Julian's parents go to Sisko to try and sort out Julian's secret being exposed, the tension is palpable, his disdain for them eivident even through his self-restraint. And as he asks more questions abuot what the genetic engineering entailed - even though the Bashirs stick to a factual telling and wouldn't describe it as painful or hurtful, and definitely not as torture - a sinking feeling starts to grow in his stomach that this is the answer to the question that's haunted him ever since that day in the mirrorverse.
I haven't actually thought about what happens next - I keep skipping backwards and forward between other scenes and episodes this idea might impact because there are so many delicious ideas! - but hmmm. I think this Sisko would want to include Julian more in the discussion, but also not want him to spend any more time around his parents than he has to. He'd aks Julian to report to his office and ask the Bashirs to wait outside while he tells Julian about his idea to contact Admiral Bennet. Whicih Julian would be really reluctant about but Sisko says something like, "I don't want to lose you. Do you trust me?" and Julian replies "You really think you can change Starfleet's policy?" and Sisko's honest, with "Not their policy, no. But I think - and I can't make any promises - but I think I can persuade them to make an exception. Will you let me?"
And then it goes through pretty much the same way, apart form Sisko definitely doesn't let Julian alone with his parents at all, and once it's sorted asks Julian to go back to his quarters with him, giving Julian the time to decompress and process everything that's just happened.
Eventually - maybe not that day, but soon after - Sisko does ask him: "The genetic engineering - your time in hospital. From the way your parents described it, it sounded... very distressing." And bit-by-bit, Julian opens up about it and it's very much confirmed to Sisko that this must be the experience Smiley was referring to.
(In his first counselling session after this, before he's even touched on the hospital trauma at all really, Telnorri asks, "So, those recurring dreams you had about your parents - do you think the way they treated you as a child affected how easily you found yourself believing that dream." Which... is far more on the nose than he realises, and Julian breaks into slightly hysterical laughter, realising he's going to have to talk about how he's had dreams of his parents delivering him to the torture hospital for far longer than since his experience in the mirror world, and having it sink in even more how incredibly fucked-up this all is.)
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Oh god, I think I'm going to stop there, but you have no idea how much more of this is in my head - just it's far too much for me to write down! Honestly, I've practically got half an AU sorted out of how this would affect their relationship and its so soft and I have no idea if I'll be able to get any more of it down on paper šŸ˜­ But thank you so much for this idea, it's āœØinspiredāœØ. If I do write any more, I'll tag it with "Sisko&Julian AU ask" <3
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cringefailvox Ā· 6 months ago
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Had an idea for a fanfic writer AU. Alastor writes fucked up gore fics and maybe has a reputation for doxxing (idk how to translate the overlord murders into fandom drama terms). Vox writes ships between OCs that are transparently a self insert and a thinly veiled Alastor. That's as far as I got
stop this is hysterical. you make the mistake of sending alastor anon hate and he responds with nothing but your IP address and a pixelated photo of your bedroom window. vox has been lowkey trying to get alastor to doxx him for years but alastor just deletes all his provocative asks without reading them
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showtimepast2500 Ā· 9 months ago
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i can be reborn as someone meaningful with this reincarnation apple. šŸ
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specialgradefckr Ā· 14 days ago
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Does clone!Gojo know heā€™s a clone?
Cause I feel like if he did find out he was a clone, he wouldnā€™t have that usual clone crisis of ā€œIā€™m just a place holder and easily replaceableā€ heā€™d be confused at why he was needed in the first place, cause he canā€™t imagine anything being more important than you.
-also the idea of him recording the two of you together and sending it to Gojo Prime as a sort of flex/show him what heā€™s missing out on, has got me a kind of way.
Gojo rubbing himself raw at what looks to be a very convincing lookalike, with you moaning his name, praising him, calling him ā€œsuch a good boy for mommy.ā€
The man wants to chew through the drywall because now he knows what you look like split open on his a cock, has heard how wet you get, knows how your voice cracks when you cum.
But he doesnā€™t have the FUCKING time
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huhuhuhu i'm glad you're interested bestie bc the clone au is sooooo dear to my heart,,,
cause like!!! that's actually a really good point. gojo's personality doesn't lend himself so well to "i'm replaceable and disposable". he's got so much confidence and innate skill/talent. he KNOWS he's awesome, actually.
however. while i don't think he would inherently have a personal crisis, i do think there's some innate exploitability to the fact that you can produce satoru gojos on demand. i gotta spin up a draft for this but,,, basically,, if clone!gojo ever gets too cocky about himself, who's to say you can't just make another?
him not understanding why the og!gojo didn't love you, though,,, that rlly does fit the bill. if the clone does learn that he's a clone, he'll definitely have knowledge of the wider world at that point. but he's still lived his whole life as your precious pet, and honestly, he thinks it's awesome. why wouldn't og!gojo want this?
and og!gojo agrees. the two,,, they are so terrifyingly in sync sklhdfghsg like ofc clone!gojo would want to make fun of him. to og!gojo it shouldn't hit, because, wow, this dude is a clone and basically your captive sex pet, but... fuck that's hot -
unironically though. imagine how funny it would be if gojo just thinks you got some dude to dress up as him and be your perfect little boy... my god the "mommy" here is lowkey kinda literal for the clone but og!gojo would also be so fucking into it skhfglshdg
you're just!!! so on point! like gojo would be soooo turned on by it. he turned you down for X reasons (i'm legit considering the idea that maybe gojo just doesn't think you're his type/isn't interested), but now that he's seen this, he's fiending for a fuck.
who knows? maybe he doesn't have time for a relationship, but he does have time to hunt you down and try to mock you for finding a guy to cosplay as him and offer you some "real dick" out of "pity". definitely not going to slip and call you mommy during -
only for the lookalike to hug you from behind and stick his tongue out at him. but it's not a lookalike, it's like - a doppleganger - and his eyes -
and gojo can't touch you, either. like you're protected by some kind of barrier. by... infinity...
no way -
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damianito Ā· 1 month ago
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Will you also show preg Aku? šŸ„ŗ
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I'm also working on it
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axellis Ā· 11 months ago
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Now I'm wondering how tf peppermint fudge pulled a powerful beast jester and a powerful stoic king! Like how did he draw them both to him and how tf did he manage to (accidently or on purpose or idk) get em to poly!
Also can't get one skit out of my head so gonna vent it here incase ya want dark cacao x peppermint fudge x shadow milk ideas.
Evil/mean monster/cookie: *attacks peppermint fudge.*
Shadow milk and dark cacao: ah...so you've chosen death.
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a king always has the final word, but it's up to the advisor to make sure it's the correct final word. the difference between challenging vs outright refusing a kings word is also a fine line to walk on . peppermint fudge was always a bit of an annoying case to those who just wanted to blindly follow their new ruler's word-- but to dark cacao, these are the moments that he cherishes the most
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for shadow milk, it started out as simple intrigue! when a random cookie just appears and looks to be intending to stay- of course you wanna watch! so shadow milk did .
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&& as for how they got to be polyam in the first place........ if shadow milk didnt think itd be fun it probably wouldnt have happened at all...
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sincerely-sofie Ā· 8 months ago
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Assumption: you enjoy seeing the Horrors and refusing to take them seriously.
(Referencing this ask game)
Character development! We love to see it!
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spaceandbones Ā· 3 days ago
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Not to be that person, but I always thought ā€œRyomenā€ was his last name, since Japanese names are usually written with the family name first and the given name second.
NO BE THAT PERSON I probably came across rlly mean in that post but I was just joshing around. Idk how anyone is rlly supposed to know that unless you specifically search it up
I think a good rule of thumb for writing this stuff is that if you dont see anyone in canon calling a character by a certain name, theres probably a good reason for it
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nix-sacrificium Ā· 21 days ago
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You cannot be writing THOSE TAGS for Steve/Rollins and leave me with all this to plague my thoughts! I am spiralling!
I am simply a messenger for the brainrot āœØ
I think the tags describe my thoughts pretty well, though, without banging out some 300billion-word-fic šŸ¤”
It really just boils down to- HYDRA!Steve would hate Brockā€™s guts, especially if you squeeze out the fact that Rumlowā€™s been mistreated his Asset for years. And all the handwave stuff with SHIELD and how Brock treats Cap before the big revealā€” Yeah, wouldnā€™t be a fan.
Feel like heā€™d want someone moreā€¦ Intense, but serious? Or someone where their interests align better and I see H!Capā€™s and Jackā€™s interests align
But Asset!Steve, fuck, thatā€™s a whole ā€˜nother level of heartbreak for me. Imagine : They donā€™t straight off kill Steve during Insight, maybe he never makes it out of the van. Jack was ready and willing to but the man down in the street like a mutt, but Brock stopped him. Not here, he said. Except he wasnā€™t planning on offing Steve at allā€” Yeah, the other two. But not Rogers.
Because, hear him out. The worldā€™s gonna be plunged into chaos and unrestā€” They need a little bit ofā€¦. Not hope.. But it would be some kind of leverage to have Steve paraded around surrounded by STRIKE Commander Rumlow and the rest of his team to show the world that HYDRA has Captain Fucking America on their side. Brock just wanted Steve back.
Except Brockā€™s soft on himā€” Too soft. This wasnā€™t what he wanted, this wasnā€™t how it was supposed to go.
The conditioning isnā€™t taking the way it should.
So Rumlow is stripped of the Captainā€™s handler status, heā€™s benched. He was always so so good at handling the Asset and they need him alive too because it seems to be one of the only things that calms Steve downā€” Knowing Bucky isā€¦ ā€˜safeā€™. Alive? Not tortured?
So Jack takes overā€” official / unofficial STRIKE Commander Rollins and he wields that man like a rocket launcher. If the Asset was a gun, the Captainā€™s a bomb.
Context :
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peacockrulz Ā· 6 months ago
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For requests! Iā€™m curious! Do you have murder drone OCs? If so iā€™d love to see your drone ocs in a drawing! maybe smooching or holding hands?
To be honest, I don't actually have any MD ocs suprisingly lol (Not Counting Fankids Anyway) but I do have a couple designs laying around i never got to do anything with so here
The girl on top is named R (shes actually just a roblox avatar i got attached to sdlkfjsdf) and the girl on bottom is Mod(el). Niether of them belong to any story or have any actually character but, I thought itd be fun to draw smth for this.
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oh and then i remembered the actual request so UH heres them kissing??? enjoy :]
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i guess she wanted it to be personal
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moonchildstyles Ā· 1 year ago
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prosecco h at her graduation!! he would have the biggest bouquet of flowers and take so many pics of her just bringing her around the school so that he can get a pic of her in front of every building and she is all embarrassed when she notices that everyone is staring at how adorable they are because harry has the biggest grin on his face the whole time
no you know he would have HUGGEEEEE flowers and be so excited the whole time just so proud of her and Iā€™m so obsessed w all the pics theyā€™d take and heā€™s just so clingy and happy w her even if sheā€™s a little embarrassed from how much attention ppl are giving bc heā€™s being so muchšŸ˜­
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bacchuschucklefuck Ā· 8 months ago
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since more of like the class swap etc started going up every once in a while there will be a question in my inbox that would take me literally multiple comics' worth of art to answer adequately lol. and I don't wanna do that under an ask I want that to have its own space! so if I don't answer ur question know that it's probably that^ above there and not that I think ur question sucks
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sun-marie Ā· 2 months ago
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1 and 16 from the oc ask for lydia and sabina! :3
ahh thank you for the ask!!
1. What was the original thought that led to the creation of this character?
Lydia: So i've mentioned this before, but from the moment I finished Tresspasser the first time and saw that we were going to Tevinter I knew I wanted my future PC to be from the Imperium. The concept didn't fully develop (partially due to the fact that up until Veilguard's new name dropped, I'd fully given up on seeing a fourth Dragon Age game) until the first trailer showcasing all the companions, and then I was like "oh crap i do actually have to come up with a new character for this game".
Her appearance, actually, takes a lot of inspiration from my og Inquisitor, Irithiel Lavellan, (medium dark skin, brown hair, golden eyes, etc.) who I really was not vibing with anymore as Inquisitor and wanted to repurpose some of her design. Then they released the faction backgrounds and i fell in love with the concept of the Lords of Fortune, and the rest is history <3
Sabina: Sabina originally started out as a dwarf, purely bc Old Vailia sounded like the coolest background and I think in it's description it mentioned that a lot of dwarves live there, but due to PoE's isometric POV and the fact it didn't really play into her character that much i kept forgetting that šŸ˜… So in Deadfire i ended up changing her to a Meadow Folk, and I think that's when the current Sabina really started to take shape. I really loved Deadfire's pirate aspects and had really been wanting to play a character who used a rapier, so when I replayed the first PoE i changed her class from ranger (with a bear companion) to a Rogue, and then when I replayed Deadfire I kinda fell in love with the model of the Stag, and with the birth of Eamoc as her ranger companion (giving her the "scout" class) Sabina achieved her final, current form <3
16. Is there any memes or running jokes associated with the character, both in- and out of universe?
Hmmm šŸ‘€
Lydia:
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"mfw the elven god of lies and betrayal betrays me -"
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also see "Mind Tits" from previous ask game <3
Sabina:
*sticks her hand directly into Suspicious Hole*
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After Caed Nua is destroyed:
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Character Asks Game
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alagaesia-headcanons Ā· 1 year ago
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you know, we have only Oromis words to tell how was Morzan when he was a kid, how can we be sure that he doesn't' exaggerate? Morzan was a rebellious kid, who could be rude and maybe cruel? A lot of kids can be cruels, it's doesn't mean they're fully bad from the start. I just think that Morzan had need of a parental figure who would correct his attitude and would CARE for him, because it what Oromis should have been: a teacher AND a parental figure since the kid was 10 when he took him.
YES THIS I 100% agree with you!! Forgive me for the very long rant Iā€™m about to go on because I have many thoughts about Morzan that Iā€™ve wanted to get down for a long while now. I find it super interesting to interpret that he wasnā€™t entirely malicious or irredeemable from the outset.
I really, REALLY donā€™t like the old order of Riders. From all the things we learn about them, they had a seriously objectionable system. The way they took human kids when they were 10 years old and then left them to the discretion of people like Oromis is brazen evidence of that. Iā€™m really intrigued by the possibility that at least one of the Forsworn joined Galbatorix to dismantle the Riders out of a genuine aversion to their abuse and a desire to put an end to it and build something better, not just from a personal lust for power.
Given the way Galbatorix talks to Oromis and Nasuada, I think he would have presented his intentions that way to distract from his real deranged vengefulness. It would have fascinating implications for any of the Forsworn to have truly fallen for that, and then as the consequences of their actions fully unfold and Galbatorix becomes an even worse tyrant, for that Forsworn to burn with regret and resentment and hatred towards him. It would make for such an interesting dynamic during the Empireā€™s reign. I just want one disloyal Forsworn who hates Galbatorix because they feel tricked and used, itā€™d be cool!!!
Admittedly, Morzan is the only one of the Forsworn we have any background for at all, so it doesnā€™t mean much to say heā€™s the best fit, but the backstory we do have can potentially line up with that role very well. Morzan was very young when he met Galbatorix, and thus inexperienced and impressionable. He spent more time with him and would have been exposed to a lot more of his manipulation. And I think he would have reason to be predisposed against the Riders before they met, a resentment Galbatorix could have fueled for his own benefit.
Iā€™ve made it no secret how much I loathe Oromis. Tbh the fact that Morzan spent years training under him is a huge reason why Iā€™m able to sympathize with him lmao. I would also start killing people. That man could have never given the necessary care and tolerance and emotional support to a ten year old, but it seems like the new Riders were entrusted entirely to their mentors. We see how horribly Oromis mistreats Eragon and how that affects him even when heā€™s sixteen- his callous neglect inflicted on ten year old children is a disaster waiting to happen, especially if any of those kids werenā€™t well cared for to begin with.
Also, this is slightly pedantic, but when Oromis is talking about Morzan, he specifically says that he ā€œgrew so proud and cruel,ā€ which implies that this issue was less significant or not there at all when he first took Morzan. His harmful behaviors apparently developed over time which should be addressed and cared for by whoeverā€™s raising him. Oromis is the only one in a position to raise him and he still turns a blind eye to Morzan.
In my headcanons, Morzan grew up impoverished and neglected. He doesnā€™t know what fair and caring treatment looks like and so he also canā€™t identify Oromisā€™s abuse, but its impact is compounding on an already present wound. Morzan is starving to make something of himself because no one has acknowledged and loved him for who he already is, which makes for a horribly volatile mixture with Oromisā€™s penchant for demanding his students prove themselves against an arbitrary and merciless standard. Morzanā€™s susceptibility to Oromisā€™s pressure makes him viciously desperate to prove himself, intensely competitive, and highly reactive to disapproval. It creates a perception of inadequacy that bleeds into everything Morzan does.
When heā€™s unpressured and at ease, Morzanā€™s nature is actually quite reserved, slow, passive, and methodical, but he is so, so easily incensed. Because heā€™s so fixated on proving himself, he assumes everyone initially holds a very low opinion of him and thatā€™s what necessitates he fight for approval. He just canā€™t fathom receiving acceptance, respect, or care without proving he deserves it, and so heā€™s perpetually clawing for more. And falling short feels so devastating because heā€™s never been shown his worth beyond peopleā€™s expectations.
To me, thatā€™s why he ends up attached to someone like Brom, who idolizes and defers to him. For Morzan, it would feel like his endless efforts to prove himself have actually proven something. Because he thinks he has to earn love, Bromā€™s affection would also feed into Morzanā€™s ego, providing a long desired vindication. The fact that Oromis trains both of them makes their relationship so much worse. I feel like his relatively positive relationship with Brom could have balanced out and helped Morzan adjust with time, but thereā€™s an unfortunate competitive aspect at play. As Morzan scrambles for Oromisā€™s approval, now Brom is also being trained and the differences between them present another metric that could make Morzan seem lesser. So he puts Brom down and fights against him for their masterā€™s care and validation like theyā€™re limited commodities.
I think, over time, Morzan comes to recognize elements of Oromisā€™s abuse. He simply doesnā€™t have the energy to constantly struggle for his approval forever, and as that starts to run dry, it reveals some things. He resents that Oromis belittles his struggles and only values efforts that yield the results he wants, so he stops putting in the effort. If Morzan still doesnā€™t matter to him after trying so hard, why should he keep trying? He hates that Oromis can never give a true justification for the standards he demands they reach, and he starts ignoring them. He despises how he lies when says he cares for him and wants the best for him, because he prioritized his utility to the Riders over his well being in every moment since they met.
So, when he meets Galbatorix, Morzan is bitterly resentful and disillusioned. He joins him out of desire for revenge on Oromis and to tear down the system that abandoned him to his abuse. I do believe Morzan genuinely loved Brom in a certain way, despite his mistreatment, and he starts trying to incite him against Oromis not solely because of his own vindictiveness but also out of concern for Brom. As Galbatorixā€™s plans start to move, Morzan balks and begins seriously doubting him, even more so as the scope of slaughter unfolds, but he swallows his misgivings and stays determined to recruit Brom to the winning side. When one of the Forsworn kills the first Saphira despite Morzanā€™s insistence they be spared, heā€™s vehemently outraged. I think of Galbatorixā€™s disinterest in his uproar as the turning point in Morzanā€™s loyalty to him. As the Empire takes form, that disloyalty solidifies and Morzan hates Galbatorix for being even more cruel, manipulative, and uncaring than the people he wanted revenge on. Galbatorix tolerates it because forcing his vengeful resentment into subservience gratifies his sadistic impulse.
Now all of this is well within the realm of extrapolation and interpretation- none of these details directly suggest this version of Morzanā€™s character and motivations. They give the potential, but not real support, and they can just as easily be seen in any number of different ways. However, there is one single thing that actually grounds this in canon, which is that Morzan was a name-slave from very early on. When Eragon is telling Murtagh about the chance to change his true name and challenges his hesitation, Murtagh says, ā€œ[Galbatorix] has been creating name-slaves for over a hundred years, ever since he recruited our father.ā€
This detail fascinates me. There is the possibility that itā€™s a lie, but I canā€™t imagine Murtagh would make it up considering how much distaste he expresses towards his father. And I donā€™t think it would make sense for Galbatorix to lie to Murtagh about it either. If he didnā€™t actually have control over Morzanā€™s name then, claiming he did would discredit that real loyalty Morzan would have had to feel for him and his cause to do everything of his own free will. I think itā€™s the truth. Galbatorix learned Morzanā€™s true name more than a hundred years ago, before the fall, when he recruited him- which, to me, feels like before Morzan even helped him steal Shruikanā€™s egg.
Morzan either knew his true name already or Galbatorix went through his mind to find out, and the latter seems far more likely. Given the way Morzanā€™s described: young, arrogant, weak minded- I highly doubt he knew and the way Murtagh brings this up implies Galbatorixā€™s skill at uncovering names. Morzan either felt so loyal to Galbatorix at that point that he willingly let him in his mind, he was coerced into agreeing to it, or Galbatorix did it by force.
This still doesnā€™t mean Morzan wanted to dismantle the broken parts of the Riders instead of fully destroying them and that Galbatorix manipulated him into starting a war he found appalling- but it makes that idea much more feasible. If Morzan did realize Galbatorixā€™s intentions werenā€™t what he said and that he didnā€™t want to take things so far, he couldnā€™t back out. Any reluctance or disagreement would have been overridden and things would unfold exactly how they did.
I think Morzan was wounded and angry and starving for true respect and care that lured him to Galbatorix, and the precarious pride he clung to made him look away from the severity of Galbatorixā€™s actions. Then he realized his desperation was preyed upon only when it was far too late.
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