#[ got sO much stuff i wanna do like hhhhhhh ]

[monty-glasses-roxy]

I haven't watched this, but I hope he says it's because he's right, and not because it's boring the shit out of me and probably many other people now too lmao

[despairforme]

[seventh-district]

RIP Observation Duty Pt. 1 finished edit.mp4 you would’ve loved being uploaded </3

sitting here watching this video take 6 entire hours to get 4% of the way uploaded and begrudgingly coming to the conclusion that i can no longer put off upgrading to fiber internet

[diabolik-lovers-things]

⋆⭒˚｡⋆ FIRST POST ⋆⭒˚｡⋆

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hello !! i'm a long time lurker here at tumblr, but it's been a while since i posted/made any new sideblogs. you can call me anna ! i'm a girl obv, and also a minor [16-18] so pls don't be creepy !!

i recently got into diabolik lovers and watched the first season of the anime as well as gameplay of haunted dark bridal. if it's not obvious, my favourite character is kanato !! i haven't been very involved with the fandom yet but i see a lot of hate for him which is sad :(

more about this blog -- my main fandom is diabolik lovers !! i'm no artist and barely a writer, but i can make memes, headcanons, quotes and things like that !! as well as rambles and stuff about the series. i'm not interested in any characters other than yui and the sakamaki brothers, so if you expect content for anyone else from me i'm sorry to let you down.

i'll add some more stuff abt me below :}

fandoms ::

-- diabolik lovers [obv]

-- danganronpa

-- hetalia

-- doki doki literature club

-- yandere simulator

-- future diary

-- omori

-- higurashi when they cry

-- mystic messenger

-- shiki [second best vampire anime after DL imo]

hobbies ::

-- writing [kinda? procrastination is my worst enemy hhhhhhh]

-- cycling

-- learning abt history//geography

-- listening to music [brb js gonna look for a kanato playlist]

-- making fun of americans

-- baking

my fav music artists/bands ::

-- marina (and the diamonds)

-- melanie martinez

-- mitski

-- kikuo

-- lana del rey

-- abba

my fav authors ::

-- agatha christie

-- donna tartt

-- fyodor dostoevsky

my ranking of DL boys ::

-- kanato is obv number one, i rly love his more feminine design and i believe we need more characters that look like him in media. maybe bc my type is more feminine boys but idk. i love his personality asw he's batshit insane and needs immediate professional help. underrated

-- subaru is a surprising one for me, as i often forgot he existed while watching the anime but his route in hdb was rly cute and he's such a tsun tsun which is adorable

-- a few yrs ago reiji was EXACTLY my type and i still appreciate his character archetype quite a lot. he's also one of the meanest of the brothers i love that abt him (i would cry on the spot if he scolded me)

-- shu is pretty cute and i rly like his personality as well. he also has his weird moments like everyone else but i think he had the closest thing to a healthy relationship w yui so that's cool. he's also super relatable

-- laito was actually my second favourite before hdb, but holy fucking shit is his route messed up. the anime did NOT do a good job portraying how deranged this man is. i still like him but his constant horniness and raging misogyny [more so than the others] are huge turnoffs

-- ayato was always pretty low on the list, and after seeing his route my opinion didn't change much. i don't dislike anything in particular abt him, he's just not the type of character i usually like. i don't rly like him with yui either for that reason, so yeah

other ::

-- i rly wanna travel to a lot of places

-- i'm a huge planner when it comes to things, but when the time comes i never follow the plan i spent so much time on,,,

-- i love cats !!

-- i think i'm aroace but i might be biromantic

-- my fav type of weather is cold//rainy//snowy weather

-- my fav food is schnitzel and my fav dessert is crêpes [also my fav fruit is apples]

-- i love making ocs

DNI list ::

-- racists//xenophobes

-- misogynists

-- homophobes

-- pedos//other weirdos of that type

-- furries

-- incels

-- yandev supporters//apologists

-- kanato haters//yui haters

-- people younger than 13//older than 30

-- rhythm game fans

-- 4chan users

-- twitter users

that's it for now !! ty for reading this far <3

[totaldramafan-lauri]

You have such unique fans following you, I'm almost jealous lol! Like you have an artist who draws golden cheese for you (I think) and bee anon who is as much of a simp as you are and always comforts you if you get sad. Well technically the artist does the same if you get sad too, comforting yu and all.. your really lucky to have such fans following you꒰⁠⑅⁠ᵕ⁠༚⁠ᵕ)

I-I really really appreciate all of you for just......s-supporting me and talking to me, just in general, WITHOUT you having to make stuff for me....I-I never asked anyone to make things for me......So, when it happens, I just......go edhnjrhmtjyrhdfg.....x/////////x I-it's one thing to talk about Golden Cheese together......b-but sometimes, a couple people just wanna go the extra mile, huh.....?

AND HERE'S THE THING: I wasn't sad this time! I didn't need comfort! I-I made that post cuz I wanted to practice more at writing.....y-y'know.......th-the explicit stuff....! My mood was fine....! I-I got stuff this time cuz I "fed" you guys? I-I guess....? Wh-which means that it was GOOD? Th-that....practice drabble...? Huuuhhhhh? Like....if I give you guys more....I'll get more....? Is that how this works now??? A simp...e-exchange.....? I-I guess my fic started this......o///////o

Wh-which....I guess I prefer that to getting stuff cuz I'm sad, heh.....>///////>

I-I can't thank them enough.....

B-but, just.....hhhhhhh.....l-like......no matter how ex-excited I get from stuff like this....I-I never wanna make any of you feel forced to keep doing it. J-just....g-getting that out there early......x/////////x

[evanescentdawn]

i really want to (21:31) write a seo yul fic, but it’s hard *thinking* about to write. i mean. i probs could make something with jin buyeon/naksu, but i don’t want to write that right now! ahhhhhh, i just remembered this brief idea of jang uk + seo yul + their childhood. honestly forget what the idea was supposed to be but it was something something something thoughts dhdjdjdjkdkd.

anyways: to think about jang uk + seo yul’s bond because i deeply love it. it’s so good !!!! like sobs they care abt each other so much and really interesting how different they are. like how they think and stuff. hey. you know. what would be fun. if I wrote a fic about jang uk and his quest to find a master — like jang uk, how his god what was it called again. his gate of something was closed. and seo yul and dang-gu who were practicing/learning magic. and how jang uk felt — BUT THATS ABOUT UKIE. NOT SEO YUL.

do u see my problem, now. my issue. i just wanna !! write a !!! seo yul !!! fic !!! okay what if I make it au. you know like fantasy still, but set in different fantasy. i am really liking the idea of crown prince & seo yul going on a quest together. more like seo yul going on a quest and meets crown prince. omg seo yul going a quest that has do with his family + idk a coming….what was it called again. Urgh. like the whole Becoming An Adult Quest. it would be really interesting! (edit: finally remembered. it was coming of age. that’s the phrase I was looking for LMAO)

seeing seo yul out in the world — for the first time — and wondering what kind was his parents, and his family. and how this seo yul would brave this quest. what kind of quest is it, even. you know. hhhhhhhhhh, i do like the idea of meeting naksu. like in canon, where she’s just a kid like him living in solitude and they meet. it’d be so 🥺 especially considering the whole thing of his family dealing in her father’s death which she finds out later on.

i really just should plan out what kind of Quest this is. but just thinking: ooooh, hey what if. like seo yul was doing the quest and got injured and naksu saw him and helped him. after all, she wasn’t an assassin who had closed her heart entirely then — and she helps him. seo yul stays with her in her lil home before he has to go back to the quest. (which again what the fck is it, i really need to think about it. but urgh. i am not familiar with this kind of genre. well, whatever. it’s cool. i can research that shit)

also no! i have Not forgotten about the crown prince. i did think before Maybe he’s like on his own quest but that was boring for me. so like what if there’s a whole thing going in the palace. like. mmmh. a rebellion? his mother getting involved with evil….hhhhhhh. so jin mu. go won’s master and who has always stood by his side, but things lately have gone down the drain: it turns out that jin mu and his mother had conspired/made deal with the devils and are dabbling with dark magic, and idk it’s causing the life of the people. go won’s world crumbles down.

he runs away(?) idk

i haven’t figured it all out yet. but REALLY liking this go won meeting seo yul and u know it would be fun to throw naksu in the fun. young naksu, brain full of only revenge, who has had Barely any human interactions. go won, the crown prince, petty and haunty and insufferable but heart in right place. and seo yul !!! follower of the Rules, the golden boy, on a quest and dealing with family problems idk. BECOMING FRIENDS. SAVING THE WORLD.

such a fun trio !!!! *heart eyes* i can already see their interactions and it’s so lovely.

but ! also ! it feels So Wrong to not have jang uk anywhere in the story because in my mind — eventually he and naksu’s paths cross and they have epic romance because I’m otp trash. so like idk. oh like he’s still the late king’s son but this time….it’s not the soul swap thing that happens but jang gang…? god what was his not-father’s name. i don’t remember. wait. what if hmmmmm. i still want park jin involved in jang uk’s life and have their whole Awful Thing. hey wait what if…. urgh, the thoughts r Not connecting. anyways so basically: there is something happening abt jang uk’s birth and stuff and idk he can’t do magic…? or there’s a seal on it. but HE doesn’t know it. no one tells him. he just knows that he’s the only who doesn’t have ability to Magic. which is, yeah. but as our trio gets tangled with all this stuff that’s going on —

park dang-gu and jang uk, dear friends of seo yul, get a whiff of it and obvs go in concern for their friend. and well. jang uk. finds the truth of his birth or smth.

idk, not really feeling jang uk’s background rn. whatever. i can think of it later. this is about seo yul, first most anyways.

wow! this was certainly a journey ahahaha. I’m glad to have found a fic I can Work on abt seo yul because really needed that. i mean. i did have that time travel idea — well. it’s not really an idea but more like a vague concept of seo yul being the one to go back in time. which would be interesting explore. like seo yul being so unhinged. i Need that. anyways, yeah. 21:56

[everythingsinred]

i just saw that post you reblogged a few days ago, the one that was like “Send me a character and a number and I’ll tell you my headcanons for..” and just.

is it too much to ask for all of them for natsume 😅😅😅😳😳😳 or if that’s too much just whatever ones you feel like doing, i just love what you have to say about him

thank u for sending this to me :,) it means a lot. yes i can attempt to do all of them bc this kid has been on my mind for more than a decade now <3

theres a read more bc this is long :) i hope the answers are satisfactory

1) Something this character is truly proud of. this is hard to say bc he lives for other people. he'd be outwardly very proud of ruka, mikan, and aoi for their achievements and for having such amazing loved ones but i think eventually, after some working on himself he might recognize his own deeds and be proud of himself (or at least... thats what i want for him)

2) Who they want to please the most. also hard to say hhhHHHH bc although he definitely has a martyr complex i dont really consider him a people pleaser. ig in some ways, same answer as above (aoi, mikan, and ruka). i think in the future when he and mikan are dating he'd be a very annoying and doting boyfriend.

3) Who depends on them. bc of his martyr complex, plenty of people. more or less same answer. although its not bad for people to depend on each other, i think it would be good if in the future natsume could work on himself and not take on everything for everyone bc its not healthy for anyone involved.

4) What they would do if they had one month to live. i feel like he's perpetually in this situation bc of his alice shape lmao. he knows, especially before mikan inserts her alice stone into him, that he has very little time left before he croaks. if we were to say this is in the future and all the previous obstacles that held him back before were removed, i think he'd just wanna spend as much time with his loved ones as he can, but he wouldn't tell them what's happening (assuming he knows he only has a month left). i mean he already monopolizes mikan in kageki so he would just double down on that i think.

5) A cherished personal belonging. well he doesnt have the alice stones from mikan anymore, but the promise ring that replaced them would probably be his new precious belonging. i also think that the hourglass ruka gifted to him for his birthday would be another cherished belonging.

6) Something they lost, but would love to have back. in an abstract way, id say the four years that he and mikan were separated. in kageki he can see aoi pretty frequently, and im assuming communications have been somewhat laxed so he can talk to his dad sometimes??? (i fucking hope or im gonna have to throw hands with the principals) all in all i just think he'd try not to regret many things and instead just take advantage of the time he has left bc he's been on the brink of death for like half his life.

7) This character’s favorite character. he loves manga so its probably a manga character. hes read some crazy stuff from what we can see, anything from shoujo to shounen, sanrio catalogs to yaoi (insane that he just reads all this shit in the middle of class without any shame whatsoever). i cant really speculate what kind of manga he'd enjoy from that, or what characters, but i think he would DISLIKE characters like himself. he'd understand them, but he wouldn't enjoy them. he'd like happier, more cheerful characters that remind him of his loved ones. i think, especially in lonelier times, that he would find comfort in them.

8) What kind of car they would drive. outside the academy, natsume grew up poor, but inside the academy he got a pretty hefty allowance. idk if that really adds up irl, or if he's been saving properly, but maybe he'd have enough to buy a sweet ride. i cant name makes or models bc im too busy knowing more important things like every thing that ever happened in the gakuen alice manga, but i think his dream car would be something pretty awesome. i feel like he'd ideally drive a four-door red car with black leather seats. in all my fanfiction so far tho hes driven a shitty car bc i like to write him poor. (i am also poor and my car is shitty as well but not visibly so)

9) What calms them when they are upset. i think he'd like physical attention, like hugs and cuddles. if he cant get that from his bff or gf i like to imagine he'd read manga or eat chocolate.

10) How they deal with pain. not well! like sure he probably has a pain threshold that's through the roof, but he never communicates it, physical pain or otherwise, so nobody can ever help him and the pain is never alleviated. he just sits there and pretends like everything is normal. i want him to get therapy so he stops doing that

11) This character’s favorite piece or pieces of clothing. ugh his sense of fashion is incredible. boy wears feather boas and tartan shorts and sleeveless shirts with gloves, all in clashing patterns and colors. maybe thats just the official art, set in crazy and abstract situations. but still! in the memorial book he wore a sweater vest with no shirt under and it makes me so upset i get physically ill. he maybe has a sense of fashion, but it's not socially acceptable at all and it shouldn't be. on one hand, his fashion sense is so bizarre it wouldn't surprise me if a short sleeved, zip-up turtleneck (like shiki's) was his favorite, or something similar. on the other hand, i also wouldn't be surprised if he didn't really have a favorite piece of clothing at all bc i could understand if his fashion eccentricities come from a place of complete apathy as opposed to actual eccentricity.

12) How they sleep. well we saw a lil bit of him sleeping so... he's a restless sleeper for sure. he has nightmares and experiences sickness and physical pain when he's sleeping. bc he's unconscious he can't pretend like he's not in pain so he has an expression of agony. horrible. still, i'd like to think he'd start sleeping better in the future, when his life-shortening alice is cured and he's no longer experiencing perpetual physical torment :) maybe he talks in his sleep! how funny would that be

13) What kind of parent they would be. i feel like natsume would be hesitant at first to be a dad. like he'd be super happy to find out mikan is pregnant ofc but he'd be hesitant. maybe he wouldn't voice it. he'd be uncomfortable on several counts: 1) life shortening alices are genetic and he would never want his child to suffer as he has. 2) he'd be scared that he wouldn't have as much time to spend with his kid as he'd like and would be sad to miss out on important milestones in the case that he dies too young. in my mind the life-shortening alice gets cured after a few years so these become non-issues and thus he gets very happy about having a kid.

naturally he'd be selfless and giving, like any parent should be. tho mikan would be way more outwardly affectionate, he'd be a huggy father i think. and he'd spoil his kids 100%. and he'd have a zero tolerance policy if anyone even looked at them wrong. a good dad i think. he will be a dad i decided long ago about this and if higuchi says otherwise then she is wrong im sorry but this is non-negotiable.

14) How they did in school. he's a special star, but that wasn't rly earned by merit. then again, i think the academy wouldn't take any stars away just bc the esp is gone bc. like seriously how fucked up would that be?? and kageki said that although he graduated early, it wasn't because he studied; it was bc he earned credits through missions. anyway natsume is smart but lazy and unambitious and he doesn't study for tests. in the anime he scored high on the exams despite the fact that he DIDN'T EVEN TAKE ALL OF THEM??? i choose to believe that's canon in the manga too. he's smart but extremely lazy so he performs well but is never valedictorian or top scorer on account of the fact that he can't outperform fellow smart kids who actually do try, like yuu or hotaru.

15) What cologne or perfume they would use. HHHHHH okay my sister zoe and i have made a lot of jokes about natsume using axe bodyspray and i have never let go of that so i'm team axe, at least during his teen years. as he gets older, people keep gifting him fancy colognes for christmas and birthdays so he ends up using those instead, mostly out of convenience than personal decision to switch. most of my headcanons about natsume actually involve a sense of apathy or going with the flow bc its easy. he's just so lazy imo

16) Their sexuality. he's straight 100%. he only has eyes for mikan. except for that one time misaki did the cosplay challenge during the relay race. to be fair to him, everyone had eyes for misaki then. but mostly mikan. this is very skewed bc he fell in love as a child and he's so fully devoted to her he'd never consider anybody else.

17) What they’d sing at karaoke. i imagine he'd be unhappy to be invited to karaoke at all and would stubbornly sit out for the first half. let's imagine they're older so he might be loosened by alcohol or maybe by pestering of ruka or mikan so he might be persuaded eventually to do a duet, maybe a love song like a thousand years with mikan or bohemian rhapsody with ruka. i can't imagine he'd choose to sing on his own though.

18) Special talents they have. we'll ignore alice-related things, like lighting fires that don't burn. he's good at reading people, so he can see when someone is trying to hide their sadness which comes in handy bc mikan needs someone who pays attention and can notice when she's not actually feeling as smiley as she's letting on. he's also of tactical and strategic mind (on account of the DA class) so he'd probably be REALLY good at laser tag

19) When they feel safest. when he's hanging out with his loved ones. this feels like a cop-out answer but i can't really answer any other way. especially considering the LIFETIME of trauma he's experienced, he would frequently get triggered or reminded of painful memories so he'd feel a lot more comfortable in those situations if ruka or mikan was around to show him compassion, or aoi who was also abused by persona and can relate to him and understand him.

20) Household chore they hate the most. this is such a weird question to me bc isn't cleaning the bathroom universally the worst chore? bathrooms are inherently disgusting and deep cleaning them is painstaking. ig if i dont count that, he might hate dusting the most. he has sensitive lungs from coughing every day for his whole life so dust doesn't sit well with him.

21) Their fondest childhood memory. another awkward question on account of him being a child during the manga's run but let's just make this about his life before the academy bc let's be honest he had to stop being a kid entirely when he went to the academy. i think he'd have very few memories of his mother bc she died when he was so little, but he would treasure the vague and faded memories he does have of her. he'd also love the memories he spent with his family. simple dinners with his dad and aoi would mean a lot, especially when he was separated from them. also he treasures the memories of meeting and befriending ruka, who is his first and dearest friend.

22) How they spend their money. he buys manga and snacks. i think, for the four years that mikan is away, he would sometimes decide to eat in his dorm as opposed to going down to the dining hall/cafeteria and having to socialize, so he'd keep his room stocked with things to eat. he also buys people presents. if they pass a store in central town and mikan goes "ooh look at that! that's cool!" he'd just shrug and buy it for her.

23) What kind of alcohol they drink. man im so unqualified to have thoughts abt this bc im a bad slav and i dont drink often (like maybe a few times a year). still, i do have thoughts. i think he'd be a bad influence and would drink some during the four years mikan was gone, maybe once he's fifteen or so. he'd partake a bit. narumi said he misbehaved a lot during her absence so maybe drinking is part of it, but he also has people who really care about him, especially ruka, and aoi when she gets into the opera school, so they'd curb his bad behavior a little. when he gets reunited with mikan, i think he'd drink socially instead of in a troublemaking sort of way.

i think he'd try to stick with manly drinks at first, like whiskey, but then he'd try some sweet fruity cocktail that mikan orders and then he'd like it and start ordering those instead.

24) What they wish they could change about themselves. boy has self-esteem issues but most importantly he would change his alice situation, which is later dealt with on account of the cure and all.

25) What other people wish they could change about them. ruka and mikan both just want him to value himself more and stop sacrificing himself for others. over time, with their help and maybe some therapy he'd eventually get to a healthier place with his self-esteem

[gemrust]

for hnk prompts, how about “be my wife.” its jntentionally vague as hell but have fun :)))

so sorry this took so long i kinda got. carried away with this prompt hhhhhhh

Hemimorphite was jumped from behind while he was talking with an older gem who’d been taken to the moon long before he’d been born, and was surprised when he wasn’t pushed immediately down to the floor. His new, feather-lite lunarian style body was still something he was getting used to. Still, he let out an ‘oomph’ at the sudden impact.

The gem he was talking to let out a giggle as arms wrapped around his neck, hugging him from behind. “Hemi!” The ambusher cried, excited, and Hemi knew the voice like the back of his hand.

“Melon!” Hemi spun around, spinning Watermelon Tourmaline along with him, laughing at the weightlessness they both felt in the airless moon facility.

“I learned something super cool today,” Melon said when he released his grip on Hemi, spinning around to face him. Melon had been interested in learning about the Lunarians, which surprised Hemi for a time, before he realized Melon was just looking for an excuse to impress Hemi with his ‘super-smarts’, as he liked to call them. Still, Melon was learning something new everyday, and Hemi was happy to hear about his findings.

“What did you learn?” Hemi asked, genuinely interested. The gem he’d been talking to had left while Hemi and Melon flailed about, and Hemi wasn’t worried about where he’d gone off to. There were so many unfamiliar faces now that everyone blended into the crowd.

“I was talking to Cairngorm about why him and that Lunarian were always together, touching and hugging and kissing and stuff, and he told me that they’re married.”

Hemi frowned at the new word. It almost felt familiar. “What’s that mean?”

“It means they’re partners!”

“Like us?”

Melon pursed his lips. “Yeah, I think? I think it’s like, they really, really love each other, so much that they won’t take another partner ever.”

“Never?”

“Never! You’re together, forever and ever. They have a special word for the people who are married, husband and wife. Cairngorm said he was the wife!”

“What’s the difference between a husband and a wife?”

“Apparently the husband wears clothes like our winter uniforms, all stuffy and stoic and boring, while the wife wears clothes like our hibernation outfits, all fancy and flowy and fun! They have this big party when they get married, and everyone comes and watches and they do fun things and then the wife and husband go home and do stuff, and they’re partners!”

“Stuff? What kind of stuff?”

“I don’t know, but it made me think.” Melon stood tall, hands on his hips as he dramatically pushed his chest forwards. “Hemi, you should be my wife!”

Hemi balked at the suggestion. “Why am I the wife?”

“You can be the husband, if you want.”

“N-no, I wasn’t saying that! I wanna wear the nice clothes, but I know how much you like dressing up during hibernation…”

Melon pouted. “But you like wearing cute clothes too.”

“I know, but you always look so much better in them.”

“No!” Melon exclaimed. “You look good in them too! We both look good in our super cute hibernation outfits!”

Hemi hummed in thought. “Maybe, we can both be the wife? That way, we’d both get to wear a cute dress.”

Melon squealed in excitement. “Yes! That’s such a good idea, Hemi, you’re so smart!”

Hemi blushed at the praise. “As long as that’s allowed. We should find Cairngorm. He knows a lot more about this ‘marriage’ stuff.”

Melon hummed in agreement, looping his arm around Hemi’s waist and leading him to where he’d last seen the aforementioned gem. “I hope we’re both allowed to be the wife. I wanna wear cute clothes all the time with my super cute wife!”

--

They found Cairngorm lounging by a pool with one of those fluffy little dogs laying on her lap. The two gems walked through reception with no regard to the Lunarian asking desperately for their passes. Cairngorm looked up through her sunglasses as they approached, eyebrow arched in curiosity. The two young gems demanded a more detailed explanation about marriage, which Cairngorm complied to with a sigh.

“-and then you take your vows,” Cairngorm said as she finished explaining. “And then you party with all your friends, and then you and your husband go back home, and you kiss and you cuddle and you touch each other all over.”

“You’re the wife?” Hemi asked, and Cairngorm nodded. “And the Prince Lunarian is your husband?”

“My one and only,” Cairngorm said with a smile, looking at the ring on her finger.

Hemi and Melon exchanged a hesitant glance. Melon took a deep breath before he spoke. “If me and Hemi were to get married…”

“Could we both be the wife?” Hemi finished.

“We love those cute dresses so much…”

Cairngorm shrugged without hesitation. “I don’t see why not.”

“Yes!” Melon exclaimed, clasping his hands over Hemi’s. “We both get to wear cute dresses!”

“I’m so excited!” Hemi exclaimed, and together, the gems jumped in place.

Cairngorm rolled her eyes, but there was no malice behind them. “If you two are going to get married, you’re going to need to make a big celebration out of it. There’s gotta be dancing and singing and eating, and you’re going to have to have someone there to watch you take your vows.”

“Vows?” Hemi and Melon asked, their voices overlapping.

“The words you say that mean you’re devoted to each other forever.”

“Imagine being together forerver…” Hemi said, smiling at the thought.

“Exactly.” Cairngorm smiled, sifting a hand through her dog’s soft fur. “Even when we go to nothingness, you’ll always be together.”

“What’s that mean?” Hemi asked while Melon nuzzled against his head. “What’s ‘nothingness?’”

Cairngorm waved a dismissive hand. “Don’t worry about it. Tell me when you guys are doing the ceremony, I want to see how you guys do it.” Cairngorm snapped her fingers, and soon a Lunarian came over with a ‘datapad,’ which he handed to Cairngorm. Cairngorm swiped the pad a few times before handing it to the gems. “Here’s the list of everyone who helped with my wedding. Go find them; hopefully, they’re on this moon, but if you have to go to one of the others, don’t worry about the stares you’re going to get. We’re not as shiny as before, but we still stand out.”

----- It took the two gems a few minutes to figure out how the datapad worked, but once they did, their first stop proved to be on the gems new moon home. The tailer that Cairngorm recommended had recently moved locations to be closer to the gems, as apparently the Lunarian in charge of the place, Quieta, was looking forward to experimenting with new clothing styles for the gems. Melon and Hemi ‘ooood’ and ‘aaahhd’ at the examples of her work that were displayed on screen. When they found the studio they were looking for, they weren’t surprised to find Red Beryl kneeling knee deep in clothing materials while working on a suit, a squat Lunarian who must have been Quieta keeping a watchful eye on a tall stool above the mannequin.

“I’ve heard about weddings!” Red Beryl said when they explained their predicament, pins and needles sticking from his mouth. “Quieta said dresses for weddings are very detailed. He- she showed me a ‘video’ of Cairngorm and the Prince’s wedding. You should’ve seen the dress Cairngorm was wearing!”

“Who’s getting married?” An excited voice piped up from the other side of the suit, a bun-tipped head peaking around the mannequin. Hemi was surprised by her appearance- she was so skinny he had not seen her crouching behind the mannequin. “I didn’t know there was going to be another wedding!”

“We are!” Melon said, gesturing to himself and Hemi. “We’re getting married!”

“Congratulations,” Quieta said from her spot on the stool. “And you’re here for our services, I assume?”

Melon nodded. “Can you make a cool dress for both of us?” Hemi elbowed him, gently, in the side. “If it’s no trouble. We don’t want to intrude.”

“We don’t want to be a bother,” Hemi said. “But we’d really appreciate it.”

Red Beryl and the slim Lunarian turned their gaze towards Quieta, hope evident in their eyes. Quieta seemed to consider their offer for a long moment, rubbing her chin and pursing her lips. “Me and my apprentices are quite occupied by our backlog…”

“Kima’s been a great teacher,” Red Beryl said, taking a pin out of his mouth and sticking it into the half-made suit. The slim Lunarian blushed at the praise. “She’s taught me so many different techniques I’ve never even heard of! We’d definitely be able to make you two a dress, and we could design it ourselves. I love working with someone who actually appreciates the arts!”

Kima looked up at Quieta. “I would really appreciate the opportunity to work on a wedding dress… There hasn’t been a wedding since the Princess and the Prince took their vows, and I’d love the experience.”

Quieta looked at her assistants, then looked at the suit they were working on. She let out a soft ‘hmmf’ as she observed the craftsmanship on their current project. “You have permission to work on this new project, as long as you don’t forget about the countless commissions that we have on the go. I want to see you two working all day for the next two weeks to meet out quota.”

Kima paled at the prospect of two restless weeks, while Red Beryl squealed in excitement. “I’ll have to take your measurements. Wait here!” He fled off in search of supplies.

Red Beryl returned with an armful of supplies that Hemi and Melon didn’t recognize. Hemi shrunk self-consciously at the appearance while Melon clapped his hands in excitement. “Me first!” He exclaimed, bounding forward as Red Beryl held out a long string of measuring tape. He stretched his arms out, standing stiff as a board as Red Beryl let out a giggle. Kima came forward as well. Red Beryl handed him one end of the tape while he took hold of the other, and together they wrapped the tape around Melon’s waist as Quieta watched from her spot. Melon smiled with glee as Red Beryl began to discuss measurements and sizes.

Red Beryl looked at Hemi with a sparkle in his eye. “You’re next.”

-

The rest of the Lunarians on the list were located on the main moon, so Hemi and Melon had to take a transport to make it there, eyeing the Lunarians in their travel pod with curiosity and caution. The Lunarians simply smiled at them, and soon, Melon began to smile at them in turn. Hemi remained cautious around the bigger Lunarians, especially when they neared Melon, but slowly, he found himself lulled by the lumbering presence.

As they exited the vehicle, Lunarian heads turned to watch them. Hemi continued to be cautious, while Melon trembled with excitement. He pointed towards the expansive city. “Look at how many Lunarians there are!”

“There’s definitely a lot,” Hemi agreed, a part of him wishing they’d stayed on their designated moon. Regardless, Melon took hold of his wrist, ushering him towards the expansive buildings. Together, they entered the ever-shifting town without incident.

When they reached their destination, a quaint bakery near the edge of town, Hemi could scarce believe this was the place. “It’s so small,” he said, perplexed, as Melon read the Lunarian writing scrawled above the door.

“It’s the place,” Melon said, pulling Hemi towards the entrance with barely a thought. Once inside, the smell of sweets, a taste that Melon had already indulged in and appreciated very much, filled the air. Hemi saw the collection of baked goods on display, surprised by the variety. Melon headed towards the register, repeatedly slamming his hand on the call bell. “Service! We need service!”

A blue-haired figure appeared from the kitchens, covered in flour and sugar. “Sorry!” He said, coughing up a cloud of flour, eyes closed in the dust storm that followed. “What’ll it be?”

Melon and Hemi’s eyes widened in shock. “Benito?” They said in unison, the gem freezing in place.

Benito blinked the flour from his eyes, finally looking at the new customers. “Melon? Hemi?”

“Benito!” The two gems cried, nearly flinging themselves over the counter. Benito took a huge step back as a Lunarian came back from the kitchens, confused by the sudden fuss.

“Ah! I’m being accosted!” Benito cried, the Lunarian wrapping a protective arm around the gem as Hemi and Melon squealed in excitement. A sharp clapping sound came from the kitchens, and with that, Alexandrite appeared, patting his hands clean of flour and dough.

“What’s all this?” Alex asked, eyeing the newcomers through his visor.

“Alex!” The gems cried in unison, again, and Alex rolled his eyes and laughed.

“I haven’t seen you guys in forever,” he said. Hemi grimaced at the thought of his last encounter with Alex, but that had been Red Alex, so Hemi decided he forgave him for how he acted. “What brings you around here?”

“We need wedding things!” Melon said enthusiastically. “Me and Hemi are getting married, so we need the best of the best foods, and the list said this place was the best!”

“Well,” Alex said sheepishly, “I wouldn’t say the best…”

“Still,” Hemi piped up, “we trust you.” Ignoring the last stint on their earthly plane. “I’d be happy to have a gem provide their service.”

“Anything you need,” Alex said, leaning over the counter with a smile, “I’m at your command.”

-

They found the rest of the Lunarians on the list without much fanfare, though there were things that had to be explained to them about the marriage ceremony and how it would proceed, along with the unfamiliar technology that they were confronted with. Hemi was excited to see how ‘speakers’ would work for the music, while Melon was vibrating at the idea of ‘cake’. When the Lunarian they were talking to mentioned an ‘Officiant’, though, both frowned in confusion.

“What’s that?” Melon asked.

“The person who marries you.”

Hemi tapped his chin in thought. “Does it have to be someone specific?”

“Not particularly- in the past, it was often done by a religious official, but it can also be done by someone close, or a family member.”

Hemi and Melon looked at each other with the same thought shining in their eyes.

-

Sensei’s brow rose comically at the request, but the surprise was quickly replaced with a smile as Hemi and Melon explained the plan. “Of course,” he said, placing a gentle hand on each of their heads.

-

Of course, with Cairngorms references, the wedding is quite grand indeed.

Red Beryl had Melon and Hemi close their eyes as he fitted their dresses, but Melon couldn’t help taking a peek at Hemi’s, clamping his eyes shut as Red Beryl fixed his veil to his hair. Hemi’s gown was long, the train immeasurable in size, and the chest piece was skin-tight and slim. Melon couldn’t wait to get a better look when their ceremony began.

Every gem they’d known in life and many who’d been taken to the moon before they were born were in attendance, congratulating the pair and offering warm words. Most of them had no idea what was going on, but they were happy to be part of a celebration. Diamond, hearing about the event, had demanded to sing for the couple. Cairngorm was in the front row with the Prince, looking pleased at the turnout.

Lunarians, too, were among the populous, eager for a new event to occupy their endless lives. They cheered on just as loud as the gems, many indulging in strong beverages that Melon was quite curious about that made them cheer even louder than before as they whooped and hollered. Hemi made sure Melon steered clear of these drinks- he was loud at the best of times, and Hemi did not want to test the limits of his loudness.

As Hemi and Melon entered the grand hall with interlinked arms, the crowd quieted. Diamond began to sing as instruments flared to life. Hemi and Melon walked down the aisle together, nervous, but excited.

“You’re beautiful,” Hemi said to Melon as they walked, eyes shining.

“So are you,” Melon said with an equal grin, hand squeezing tight around the others.

Sensei stood at the end of the aisle, smiling softly as the gems approached. “You two look lovely,” he said.

Melon was beginning to fidget in his gown, excitement growing until he could barely contain himself. “Hurry up! I wanna party!”

Sensei chuckled. “Yes, I imagine you do.” He let his voice boom across the hall. “We are gathered here today-“

“HURRY UP!” Melon cried. Hemi blushed as laughter rippled through the crowd at Melon’s indecency.

Sensei obliged. “Do you, Watermelon Tourmaline, take Hemimorphite as your wife? Do you promise to love and cherish your partner, to remain true to him forever and always?”

“Yeah! Definitely! Always!”

Hemi smiled at Melon’s enthusiasm as Sensei addressed him. “And do you, Hemimorphite, take Watermelon Tourmaline as your wife? Do you promise to love and cherish your partner, to remain true to him forever and always?”

“I do,” Hemi said, remembering the words he was supposed to say.

Sensei smiled. “Then I now pronounce you wife and wife.”

The crowd cheered as Melon leaped into Hemi’s arms, planting upon him a gracious kiss as they spun around in glee.

-

After the party, when most of the guests had left, Hemi and Melon were enjoying their new matrimony when Neptunite stepped towards them, dragging a blushing Benitoite behind them. Hemi and Melon watched in curiosity as Nepti ushered Benito forward. The blue haired gem twiddled his thumbs, looking back at Nepti, who simply nodded. Taking a deep breath, Benito spoke. “So. We were wondering if you had any tips for planning a wedding…”

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king u gonna elaborate on virgin benrey

 listen i have kiryu “is 100% a virgin at the ripe old age of 37, and this is appealing to me instead of fucking hilarious″ kazuma disease and it has followed me here. also this kind of branches into a completely different kink at the end b/c i am diseased

so you know how i write "obviously fucks good and hard all the time" benrey. well........you know.......like..........what if......................he didnt. what if he was. what if he had never fucked before in his life and his incessant flirting finally works and hes like "i did not expect to get this far."

envision, if u will, the delightful awkwardness of virgin benrey + "has never had sex with a dude before" gordon

ive definitely brought up the possibilities of gordon going all science-brain on null benrey before but i think it works just as well on virgin benrey too. its a learning experience for both of them and if theres one thing gordons good at, its research. and gordon probably gets way too up in his own head about making sure he does this shit right and spends a lot of sleepless nights googling "how to have sex with dudes" and, you know, researching, 

if benreys not the one fucking babying him thru his first gay experiences he is probably going to bungle it so fucking badly and i think it would be really funny 

alternatively please consider gordon being so fucking neurotic about benrey never having done this shit before that he avoids the subject as hard as possible, thinking that hes gonna dick it up hardcore, but the whole time benreys just thinking "bro i havent had my dick touched in [however long hes been alive]. come on". the tension

furiously making out with him behind a fucking crate in black mesa and then realizing this is Going Places and gordons voice breaks as he says, way too loud, "I GOTTA UHHH GO RELOAD MY SMG. RIGHT NOW"

you think gordon is touch starved ? no. Hell with this 

Im just tsying theres no evidence hes been touched at all by another human being in his life before this. if hes video game in real he benrey noclip out of being touched 

what if he like, chooses not to noclip/not feel....ON that time gordon catches him. just cuz hes curious, a gay impulse. or maybe hes so surprised (and gay) he forgets to avoid it

and oh, to be in gordon freeman's gentle grasp. makes him into an unholy annoyance of awkward gayness for the rest of the series

YEAS.......also he has definitely thought hard about sucking gordons dick but doesnt actually have any idea how he would go about it. hes just heard its cool

giddy thinking about the scenario where its actually benrey whos terrible at sucking dick b/c hes never done it before and gordon who actually does suck dick like a champ

i know that this is literally the plot of the very first serious nsfw fic in this fandom but still. virgin beney. benrey getting sucked off for the first time in his entire life and shaking like a fucking leaf......

Power trip of Gordon realizing this guy whose been hitting on him the whole time has no idea what to actually do 

Gordon Freeman Gives Benrey A Prostate Exam

its a joke but its not a joke. virgin benrey being vaguely aware that being fucked by gordon freeman would be cool, in theory, but not fully conceptualizing of how you actually get a dick in your ass until gordons like "what?? no, dude, you cant just stick it in there" and gives him a demonstration and thats how benrey discovers he has a prostate 

benrey like "idgi man this just feels weird. when do we get to theohhh my god what. what that" and gordons like "what, u mean this?" (curls his fingers again) mean smirk hours

i want him to make a squeaky little noise when gordon says that and curls his fingers again, and gordon's like "ha- knew he'd like it" and keeps kneading him a while; but oops, suddenly benrey's coming with an even squeakier noise 

gordon's so surprised he just keeps going, hes like, not comprehending until benys whining at him to stop

a thought: benreys not good at "being human" and probably doesnt actually know whats supposed to happen when u nut so every time hes been jackin it he just does it until it starts to be Just A Little Too Much and then hes like "mission accomplished" and stops. imagine his fucking surprise when  gordons jerking him off and he doesnt stop and hes like "wh ha hu what the fuck i already got off bro" and gordon just stares at him and the distinctive lack of cum on his hand and s like ".......did you?  you sure about that one." 

tl;dr benrey squirming and babbling and digging his fingers into gordons back as he begs him to keep going, he doesnt know whats gonna happen and hes feeling totally overwhelmed b/c gordons pushing him further than hes ever been pushed and he keeps inadvertently trying to wriggle away b/c its So Much but gordon, maybe, pins down his hips so he can get benrey off For Real....... 

even better if its when gordons sucking him off for the first time so he can wrap his arms and hands around benreys thighs to keep them spread wide open and firmly in place 

knees shaking and thighs jumping constantly 

and benrey has no idea when its supposed to be over so he cant even warn gordon properly. he just keeps getting louder and louder....... 

maybe even.......completely hunched over gordon......pushing him down on his dick with his hands in his hair....... 

alternating between babbling "stop" and "dont stop" b/c hes stupid 

eventually gordon gets so sick of benrey not being able to decide whether he wants to shove gordon onto his dick or yank him off that he just pulls off and says "look, man, do you trust me?" b/c he would really like to just get benrey to stop edging himself here 

UNINTENTIONAL OVERSTIMULATION.......THE TEARS........HHHHHHH

and he eventually gets benrey to nod furiously at him that he trusts him and gordons just like, okay, im not gonna stop then. im gonna keep going. and.......he does 

eyes glazed, hair sticking to him with sweat, hips all twitchy, dick all red, face also all red 

sucking benrey dry until hes over sensitive....... 

He started off spasming then he’s rocking into Gordon’s face by the time he’s wailing his name. Panting and gasping like he’s fucking DROWNING 

gordon meanwhile almost nuts in his pants from the fuckin show that benreys puttin on for him and hes not even trying. hes just Like This. gordons got jerkoff material for the next month just thinking about the way benrey wails his name and clutches his hair tight 

benreys like (slurred) 'u gonna jack off or sumn.......was it not hot'. gordon fighting with every cell of his body not to scream "WAS IT NOT HOT?"

trying to decide what would be hotter: gordon jacking off while hes on his knees with his head resting on benreys thigh or jerking off on benreys stomach and.....r.......rubbing it in

benrey watching gordon cum and feeling a whole new context for it cause now he knows how good it feels and gets turned on again faster-

thinking.......about.......th. next time. now that benreys figured it out. he gives it a try on his own time and hes so surprised that it works that he goes up to gordon like "yo. check this out. i figured out how to jack it" and gordon has the most unimpressed look on his face imaginable 

"proud of you, buddy. am i good to go back to watching storage wars, or" "you wanna uhhh.....wanna see it maybe?" and that changes his entire tune

imagining benrey being so fucking bad at it still that he keeps doing the start-stop shit b/c its so intense and hes not used to it and the thing that actually gets him to finish is gordon, pants down to his knees and fisting his own dick like he might die tomorrow, leaning forward and telling him that hes got this, benreys gonna come for him, right? come for gordon? 

gordon fucking telling him "dont stop" WRT jerking himself off and benrey just listening to him and pushing himself is ruining my fuckin mind 

its a really good thought......i love how it plays into non-human benrey having to figure out human stuff........makes me crayz

probably keeps being sensitive for a long while too........ (mumbling very very quietly) and if hes so sensitive from never being touched before......maybe hes kind of........uhhh..................ticklish

new layers to the whole "oh my god its too much stop it" + "i actually dont want you to stop touching" thing .. . . .. . . . + gordon powertripping when he realizes whats going on with him and why he keeps jerking away and trying not to laugh when gordon touches him like on his stomach or his sides

benrey accidentally jerks too hard and knees gordon in the dick from how ticklish he feels just from like, hands on his sides or something

i was actually thinking about......like.......gordon laying on the ground and suffering (because why wouldnt i be thinking about gordon suffering) and deciding that enough is enough and offering to.......desensitize benrey. you know. for his own health

you know. uhhh. tying up his arms and legs, perhaps, and. you know. "do not noclip through these. i swear to god, benrey, if you kick me in the dick again" 

i'm think about benrey begging gordon to stop, so he does, to check if this is a Forreal stop or a "hahah nooo~" stop, and benrey asks him through gasps to keep fucking tickling him (except he just says smth to the effect of ."gh.. ....keep doing it dude wuhdah hell...") and gordon gets an evil fucking grin and just feels on top of the world "yeah?? think you can handle it, huh???" and just destroys him. benrey thinks about gordon's horny manic face for weeks 

neither of them had a thing for this before this point but the combination of feeling like hes being tickled and gordons hands on him for the first time making him mad horny gives benrey a brand new fucking fetish. gordons manic fucking face im so glad we are on the same wavelength about that

i truly hate my own posts. incurable. diseased

[aspecpplarebeautiful]

what the fuck are emotions. What are they. I don’t get it???? Wh. What??? I can’t even tell what I want in life!!!!! What are emotions??!! What ARE WMTOIONSvvv????!!!!!???? I am having a crisis. Fuckibg. What. What is going on. What three fuck. WHAT THE FUCK. I hate it here. save me. I can’t tell what’s platonic and romantic and I’m suffering. I don’t think I’ve ever fully been in a romantic relationship where I actually wanted to be in one, more so just felt like I was supposed to want it and be happy with it. I love the idea of romance maybe?? Why does it hate me??? What’s going on. Hhhhhhh??????? I don’t get paid enough for this! Ajdjdjdjdjjj?????? I’m so confused????? I always think my feelings are romantic and daydream and all but like ARE THEY?????? It doesn’t feel like it???? Maybe?????? Cause I feel all butterflyey and airy and swoony and I hate it! I cannot handle having emotions, let alone when I can’t even tell what they are!!! Whyyyyyy????????? This is so chaotic but MY MAN I AM NOT HAVING A GOOD TJME IN THSI CHILIS RIGHT NOW. What’s a romantic thing?? Holding hands??? I don’t wanna hold hands lovey dovey if I’m not close friends with them. But exactly that! Friends!! Anything that’s romantic I could feel for a close friend!!! Fuck!!!! Is this queerplatonic??? Is this just platonic??? Is this romantic???? Is this the real life or is this just fantasy???? I DONT KNOW! I’m caught in a landslide no escape from reality! I DONT EVEN MIEK QUEEN THAT MUCH????? AHHHH?????? And of all people why must my heart have horrible taste! Like WHAT??? THATS the person you choose??? HHHHHHHH?????? I don’t know if I want a life partner!! The idea sounds cute in my little fantasy head filled with soft clouds and living in a cottage by the seaside drinking hot homemade coco but I don’t know about ACTUALLY doing that?? It’s cute but. The idea of my own little house or apartment. I can decorate it how I want, make it all my own, do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted how I wanted, have a garunteed space for myself... that sounds amazing! Any other seems like something I’ve thought I wanted for so long but now I’m questioning that and that’s a bit. Yikes. And I don’t wanna be alone! Society frames single people as alone and I just internalized that! Fuck amatonormativity all my homies hate amatonormativity!!! Girl help I have internalized possible arophobia!!!!!! Why do I keep quoting memes while having an orientation crisis??!?!?!?? WHAT IS HAPPENING???? What is existence??? WHY DO PEOPLE WEAR BASKETBALL SHORTS?????? Hhdjdhdjshjshshhdhhshdhh. Maybe I’ve felt romantic emotion? But did I? Truly? Maybe I’ve felt that attraction, but I never want to be tied down, however bad that sounds. Am I aro or just scared of commitment aJHDJDJDHSJDHJS,,, but like. I had a crush on a guy for a YEAR. I was head over heels. Like I was daydreaming bout love confessions babe it was bad. But I got over him. It was whatever. Then he like a year or two later said he had a crush on me, and asked me out, and I was happy??? I remember being estatic. And I agreed. But I have no idea why I was happy. Was I happy for the me from years ago? Did I like the attention and validation? Have I always had a problem of shooting for the high and then leaving the moment I reach the low??? I hated that relationship. I felt awful. Each time he did something romantic I felt sick, and I avoided seeing him even when I had the chance to visit. It was really bad and I felt really guilty. I’d gotten this nice little happy ending, and I ruined it. I got this cute fairy tale, and no matter how hard I tried, my feelings never came. I thought they’d come back. If anything they just fully yeeted themselves out the stratosphere ffs. It was terrible. I felt really bad but had to break up with him. And through the guilt I felt so relieved, like I was finally freed. Never really got why people were so emotionally destroyed after breakups when they’re still friends tbh. And we’re still friends. (1/2)

Oh yeah we get to do this again babyyyyyy!!!! Anyways, the other relationship I’d been in, I had actually wanted to be in a qpr, but he asked me out romantically and I didn’t know what to do. He didn’t even know what a qpr was. I was torn between happy at spending more time with him and saying how much I loved him and the crippling fear and disappointment and lingering uncomfortableness. It only ever increased. I was a million times closer to him, but I told him I thought I might be aro-spec, because much as I hate to admit it, I felt awful every time we did “romantic��� stuff. It’s kinda flattering and also kinda freaky to think he likes me like that. I don’t fully get romantic feelings anyway, though. But I thought it would all be fine and then it just. Wasn’t. We switched to a platonic relationship and I’m much more comfortable with that, but he talks about our future and I feel this fear that I’m gonna break his heart, because genuinely, I could see myself living with him, but not out of romance or anything. Just kinda like. It’s free real estate if I need a bug killed, and also houses cost so much money, and also movie nights, but I could just invite people to my own place if I wanted a movie night. But I just don’t know. I thought for sure I had romantic feelings for at the very least one of them, but it just didn’t work, at all. And there’s this other guy, I swear I don’t only crush on guys lmaodnfjdjdjdjjd, but he’s,,,,,,,, a youtuber. Because I have terrible taste. He’s only a year or two older than me and is funny and cute (asexually, bcus I am ace) and so my stupid monkey brain was like ah yes, this one is who you’re gonna like! And now I’m just like 🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️ every time I think of him. Very annoying. My heart is like an annoying bug that keeps bonking it’s head against the window next to me while I tiredly try to drive. But like,,,, I think have a crush?? But I don’t even wanna date him??????? So????? What????? WhAt????? What are emotions I don’t understand them??? This is a lot and I’m sorry my fam squad but oh boy am I having a real funky fresh time over here (2/2)

So one thing that may help you here, we tend to think of what attraction am I experiencing as a big objective truth. But it can actually be very subjective. So changing your thought process from being a detective and figuring out exactly what you’re feeling, to going ‘what makes the most sense to me in how I conceptualize this’. So basically try and think more in terms of ‘this is a helpful way for me to think of this’ and don’t worry too much if it’s right or wrong because there may not be an objective right or wrong answer.

So maybe it is romantic, but you’ve also got strong romance repulsion for being personally in romantic situations (I definitely think from this do you do have romance repulsion happening), and that’s interfering with having a romantic relationship. Or you’re somewhere under the akoiromantic/lithromantic umbrella, where you do have romantic feelings but don’t want them reciprocated. 

Maybe your feelings are more in the platonic or alterous scale. So still very strong, but not romantic, or not entirely romantic. (If you’re looking for a guide on telling romantic, platonic and alterous attraction part, the faq for this blog discusses it.)

Some people experience parts of romantic attraction but not all romantic attraction, some people find attraction blurs together and it doesn’t make sense for them to see it as a single distinct type of attraction.

And some people just in general can’t distinguish between romantic and platonic. And there’s some labels around that, two of the most popular are idemromantic (when someone categorizes relationships as platonic or romantic but feels no notable differences) and platoniromantic (when someone can’t tell the difference between platonic and romantic attraction).

You can also look into quoiromantic, which is basically disidentifying with the concept of romantic attraction entirely, or finding it nonsensical, inapplicable or inaccessible. So that’s another thing you can look into if it interests you.

So that’s a few avenues you can look into, if nothing here feels right, you can dig in more, but this is a good starting spot. 

But yeah, I’d definitely recommend trying and thinking of it in terms of what feels right, or what would be a useful way of looking at this. And not worrying about if it’s right or wrong, only if it feels right or makes sense for you. 

All the best, and good luck, Anon!

[kissesandcream]

PLEASE my classes are starting next week and I won't have much time to grind <//3 so im playing whenever I can to make as much progress as possible before my classes start ;; UHM, the ones on my new team atm is hu tao as main dps, kaeya as burst support, mona as support and bennett as a healer and atk booster :D it used to be xingqiu in mona's place but mona came home and her ult is really good for hu tao ult one shots hsghmd AND team resonance is like bonuses for your team, just like how artifacts have 2pc bonuses and 4pc bonuses, hu tao's team has pyro resonance which gives an 18% atk boost :D pyro resonance is really helpful hHHH I wanted venti TT but instead I got a razor and a c2 benny but im not complaining bcuz ive been wanting bennett, still surprised that I survived until ar52 without bennett nghwjjh bro I hope you get better! and I wish you good luck on your midterms as well !! but hhHhhHH I really hope that your sickness goes shoo shoo soon ;; OOOO my favorite npc is Katheryne hghdkh I see her everyday and I think I just became attached BUT my second favorite is herbalist gui in Liyue! do I even have to give a reason, herbalist gui is so sweet <33 OH AND what server do you play on? :O maybe we can play sometime when you're not too busy bcuz hgvhasgd I want more genshin buddies ;; but im too socially awkward to join random peoples worlds ( I play on both na and asia btw if you wanted to know ! although my na is sort of abandoned atm now that im hyperfocused on hu tao in asia ) ➤ with even more long rambles, 🐚 anon <3 yk I can just keep typing and typing abt genshin for hours but I won't do that bcuz it will be too long HBVHMGX

gl for ur classes!! irl school starts for me next month and i'm terrified since i'm new and know no one,,, also ive finished literally nothing LMAO

omg thats a good team!!! elemental reactions seem useful. i've never built a team with lots of them bc i have two anemos and a geo aside from kaeya 😭 hopefully i can change that with beidou <333

i have a c1 mona from the standard banner and i have no clue how she works so i never built her 😭 i used her for a bit though to freeze stuff bc dodging is overated amiright

razor is a sweetie i want to build him too but he'd need a whole team to work with him and i do not have the resources for that,,, also beidou is an electro claymore too and i wanna build different kinds of characters 😤 i got bennett very recently!! i didnt even have enough stuff to ascend him at lvl 20 bc i used all my pyro vines on diluc- but itll be nice to have a pyro healer once i get around to building him 😌

aaAAa i hope my midterms are easy T^T its been a long time since ive written a proper test so im concerned but i try not to think too much about it hah

ooo ive never interacted with gui before :0 and yes katheryne is so sweet, even if i cut her off at ad as- everyday 

my fav npc is tepei from inazuma!! idk why im so attached he was in the archon quest for like two scenes,,, HES SO SWEET THO 

i play on na!! i dont have a lot of genshin buddies too and everytime i join a random persons world and become friends with them something bad happens so i stopped LOL pls do dm me ur uid tho id love to play with u!!

[stray-tori]

An Innocent Sin & the good gay flashback ft. my descent into madness

I wasn’t sure if I should post this but I mostly want it archived so here we go. This is from like,, September?

So. “An Innocent Sin” is a dumpster fire unlike anything I’ve ever seen. I don’t remember why I decided to read it. maybe I was crazy. Either way... I read it. It soon started to touch upon (very very outlandish) sexual abuse which I thought was interesting. (the angst, not so much some of the wack circumstances surrounding it)

ANYWAY. at some point... we have a flashback. And not just that. It has a gay character.

And it turns rly gay. which mind you, is still in a het smut manwha (that has a “gay” side couple, but still!)

And it destroyed me.

For those who want to read it because I genuinely think the flashback is a decent bit, it’s all the bonus chapters between chapter 77 and 78 I think. There’s a part before that too, but idk where exactly anymore. (It’s on lezhin! or your platform of choosing)

I don’t THINK you’ll need any other knowledge to get the flashback bit? but it’s been a while.

Below the cut (rip mobile users), you can read all of my amazing reactions (all of these were text messages, for context - but I took most of the replies and convos about other things out). Post is also tagged as long post. :))

(i’m serious, this is fucking long)

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Here I am. Liking the gay flashback character. Feck. Main dude is still straight but idk it's cute pff

This is a mess. The girl white hair likes, likes black hair, maybe, but thinks white hair is attractive

What just happened is sth I'd like to know too pff He's so cute tho omg. Watch me melt Can we stay in this flashback before everything got perverted af and before white hair gets assaulted all the time I would send an eyebrow emote if I could Context: he's asking he says it again

Ik it's not mutual but loookkk he's so sweet. He's kinda rude in present time, can't we stay in this flashback forever

I never asked for gay, never expected gay but I got gay

This story is trash why am I still reading it shdhhd

He caught his mom cheating. And now she's forcing him to watch??? What is thissss Well adoptive mom But still sudhdidu what Bitch how dare YOU exist

Save my babyyyy

Yay sister that's not yet a rapist to the rescueee

This flashback is actually just nicer in every way let's just stay here This is a super long flashback btw Idek anymore what triggered it

Okay I think I'm gonna make the sensible decision and let this dumpster fire rest and just go sleep

It was very wild. I kinda wanna see white hair get therapy but it has 90 chapters and I'm at like 30... So I'm very concerned this is gonna be very dragged out. Idek if it's even finished ahahsududi - but I do kinda wanna see where it goes and see more cute Noah (white hair) so. Here we are.

yeahhh like i was down for the sexual abuse angst but then the mother killed the adoptive son's mother bc the dad had a thing for her?? and it was someone a person studying with white hair knew and so he's investigating and I'm like how did this turn into a crime organisation kind of plot

hhhhhhh i... i appreciate these horny things also tackling abuse but it always kind of gives me weird vibes to have both, especially when its very horny. And when people are horny to people who've been abused. Idk but I'd assume... you might try NOT to tie them up if they're frequently bondaged during their assaults. I'm just.... disjdksdj hello?? am i weird?? why are they fine with it???

also this manwha is so wild, theres this murder mystery investigation thing and then theres just a couple doing honry stuff sprinkled in between and i'm like OKAY

they rescued a guy in their basement and he's understandably very traumatized and they're trying to question him cut to our main couple trying bondage which i still dont understand bECAUSE HE'S A RAPE VICITM WHY ARE YOU OKAY WITH THIS the ones questioning arent the main couple of course but idshkjds

like im glad he's somehow okay with all this horny stuff despite his trauma and im glad he can be happy and have a nice relationship but DO WE NEED THIS MUCH OF IT he's very cute tho

i like that even when i try other stuff lezhin recommends me it still has large amount of gay in it

[mei: i mean... that's pretty great, if you ask me]

I mean I agree, I'm enjoying the gay eheheh these tonal whiplashes there's not even that much white space between the panels fhjd nvm it just turned horny goddamn it can there be 1 chapter without fucking? okay, there were the flashbacks

WE ARE BACK IN FLASHBACKS but im not getting the gay relationship, sad

OH WAIT AM I GETTING GAY COMFORT bc thats very good too

OH NNOOO this turned sad very quickly

I'M SORRY IM SPAMMING BUT THIS IS JUST ANGSTY

I'M :((((

different species confirmed

I rly like them :((( I like the current girl too but it's just..... very horny with her. the flashbacks are nice [current tori edit: she’s very unloyal idk why i said I liked her] im weird HHHHH RIPPP 

someone help him he looks so saddddd

not sure if thats the most healthy relationship but I'LL TAKE IT

AWWW black hair's mom cooks mild food for them bc Noah can't eat spicy food :((( im soft

PFFF

I LOVE THE FLASHBACKS :(((

awww

i feel like theyve done much more bonding than noah's current relationship. I mean yes I think its cute when she comforts him, too, but they rarely do anything besides be horny together

OH OH THEY'RE KISSING

best buildup, honestly

the position is hornier than I'd like later here goes hope it stays cute

D-did someone just respect the word "stop"??? I am amazed

i think you might uh. have some trauma stuff too so yknow

Dohye is a little dramatic in his reassurance but it's all rly cute so I'm :(( I like them a lot pls stay like this getting invested in flashbacks is always like: ik it wont stay but pls stay like this

hELP

chapters ending in "i wanna touch him" is never good. I'm scared. Oh okay he didnt do anything. PHEW. He's already better than the girl, can't they just end up together lmao

[Noah was jealous]

w-why do you look so evil dohye haukdhjs

oh. oh no. the horny is starting. pls dont... just be cute forever

DOHYE NO YOU WERE SO DECENT WHY ARE YOU LYING ABOUT KOREAN TRADITIONS TO GET HIM TO DO STUFF HORNY STUFF TOO NO PLS STOP I JUST- WHEEE TvT the manwha is actually less visually horny in the flashbacks but im not sure if its bc its BL which isnt rly the genre of the manwha or if its bc they're still kids basically, which... I'd respect the latter, tho I'd prefer it to be like this constantly haha

okay. he's not respecting stop anymore, but it's also more of embarrassed nature more than "no i dont want this stop" so maybe i can forgive it. Still losing points, but he hugged him and it was sweet so HHHHHHHHHHH NOT SURE HOW I SHOULD JUDGE THIS SITUATION

They [Noah’s family] forbid him to visit his friends house I AM DEVASTATED

understandable they're a rapist, a fucked up murderer mother and a father with a thing for younger women so

tho he dont know any of that but yknow he's so pretty just fucking end me on the spot

hooo

they are boyfriends and ik from the future that his sister is gonna ruin it allll she has those drugs that make visual imaginations feel like they rly happened to the person (dont know if thats real but holy fuck its terrifying) and she's used it before to say that Noah assualted her. and im pretty sure shes gonna use it again bc there was a panel of Noah remembering Dohye being uhhhh intimate with her and thats why Noah began to hate him and im so sad im not ready for it. bc he's denied it in the future and i honestly couldnt see it happening even before that or she drugged Dohye, i guess thats a possibility too

[current tori: oh girl, it’s neither and it’s wack]

which if, btich you gonna die even more enough rambling, more reading. this makes me so sad but also spicy

on the manwha note, he thinks Noah doesnt like his family bc he's adopted and doesnt feel comfy which....... fair enough i suppose. and he's so cute im gonna melt just looK AT THIS 

SHUt UP, IM GONNA CRY

OH MY GODDDD he ate like ice and gum and all that, and Dohye assumed it was bc of the more spicy food and got rl worried, but he was just trying to get the smell out of his breath bc he wanted to kiss him ukhsdjs HOW CAN YOU BE SO CUTE HELLLOOOOOOOOO

look at them. LOOK AT mY BABIESSSS

how am i ever gonna care about the main couple again aww he-he wanted to go to the same highschool as him :((( im sad bc i know its not gonna happennnnnn

[mei: also at this point, you're literally never gonna care about them. i don't even know the main couple that well and i honestly don't care about them whatsoever.]

WAIT NO they're actually going to the same school awww ik it wont take long until sister fucks it up for them but for now theyre so sweet ohmygodddd

cant he move in with them, fuck his family honestly

dohye he's not a fucking pokemon iukhsdjs

oh. its. turning horny i am displeased with this development but i guess its natural for their relationship however COULD YOU DO IT AT HOME AND NOT IN SOME DUSTY SMALL ROOM how do ppl do this i like that the comments too are just "... is anyone still carng about the other girl?" sakjds

this is the best 3 panels in existence.

h-he just took your hand dohye idk what to tell you

[mei: "you blush at everything i do" god if that isn't me, idk what is]

awww its cute dohye is getting bonus points bc he invited Noah over while his mom wasnt home, they watched some sexual stuff and he DIDNT try to do anything what is this where can i get more of this

"well im not okay"

MY BABIESSSS 

they still didnt do much btw they're just kinda exploring and its honestly nice TvT I dont want this to ever endddd

[Dohye sees Noah’s sister and approaches her] N O

N OOOO

this is the starttttt of something.......... TERRIBLEEEE 

:((( babyyyy

I AM EMO

Noah was drugged im sure. hes having dreams and waking up in pain and the sister is asking doyhe over I DONT LIKE THISSSSSSS OH HE DECLINED

OKAY OKAY he saw him with her again but it was from behind and im not sure if it rly happened??? oh no this is terrible. Noah :((( poor child

i am so emo about this

[reminder he’s been abused TvT]

[the sister: “Don’t you want to know why?”]

i will. murder someone he called to ask her to delete his number btw what is this manwha but this is just gonna make it that more tragic when whatever happens that breaks them apart :(((

he's such a good bf but Noah just wont TELL him his side I'M SO SAD

I AM SO SAD

No

NO

It cant end im actually tearing up nooo you were so cuteeee and happpyyy

[*sister is telling dohye to come to the gym hall*]

what else is she gonna do she already teared [current tori: ahem... T O R E] them apart THAT'S NOT DOYhE. THATS NEVER HIM. OH MY GOD. is it a look alike??? damn, she's dedicated to just. ruining it, huh

I’M

I’M SO SAD

now he's switching SCHOOLS NO NOOOOO how will i ever find happiness againnnn NO they're misunderstanding further they're not talking properly i mean i get it but oh my god

I'M :((( 

NO NOOOO pls make up in the future at least omg he tried to clear it up tooo ahhh i dont even have hopes for them getting back together but i just i want them to clear it up im crying first manwha to make me cry and it's this dumpster fire ahaha maybe a little too bc it kinda hit a little close to home i guess but goddamnn ittttt they were so cuteee and so happy and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

OH NO. Noahs getting drugged and assaulted. And he's realizing it happened before, he just forgot. I am. so sad it's not horny drawn either which i appreciate but MY HEART NO

N O DONT YOU DARE MAKE THIS WORSE

Im. gonna cry more 

Doyhe kept an eye on him im so emo :(( but he thought he was doing well enough and gave up.... Im im so sad no i want you to make up and get back together its all just a stupid........... MEHHHH will i ever find sth like this flashback again

[mei: p-probably not, no]

i am so devasted i dont even wanna go back to the main couple just fucking. i want this relationship back :(((( but i guess the investigation might end up somewhere so hhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhh the baker manwha had a similar flashback feeling so. i just gotta find more of that haha

BUT THIS WAS SO SAD??? im so emo

[Dohye got kidnapped // the flashback commentary stops here but I think my descend into madness is pretty funny too]

OH YEAH THAT HAPPENED. THE FLASHBACK WAS SO LONG I FORGOT. NOOOO SAVE HIM. JESUS CHRIST PLS JUST ONE GOOD THING

its. actually rly smart to have another, more focused on them flashback, before the arc where he gets kidnapped by the rapist murder household so. good job. from a meta perspective but also NO but also. maybe theres hope for them making up at least after all :(((

[main couple kissing] this is. very weird now. but im glad he has someone, he deserves it but dohyeeeee

and switching to sex, YET AGAIN now i wanna see this EVEN LESS THAN I DID BEFOREEEE it's even.... a threesome now with one of the other characters why are you like this why can't you be. like in the flashback i am so upset HAHHHHH WHEEEZEEEE

I am just stop fucking jesus christ PLEASE I DONT WANNA SEE IT ANYMOREEEEE

im just stop the horny pls just tell me who that new guy is and why doyhe likes him so much

[mei: this manwha is a fucking mess but at least we got your lovely commentary out of it]

dhsuksj thanks i feel honored at least i got cute BL out of it before everything went [back] to shit

[mei: THAT TOO]

[...]

tbh im getting kinda mad about doyhe... i dont... feel like he'd just fall instantly for a guy who looks like Noah... but eh not my character

i just want closure for dohye at this point, fuck everything else ... not literally pls theres already too much of that

pls get it together for like 1 chapter is the investigation even still happening i am so confused save dohye plEASE wait what i have less than 10 episodes left Dont tell me this shit isnt even wrapped up yet

[Dohye is having a breakdown over the Noah double not coming to see him anymore]

yeah i this... doesnt feel like Dohye... at all... Even when Noah was rejecting him he was just kind of... taking it with some humor and maybe he was a little desperate and risky sometimes but... oh well... i do want him to get better but... im having a hard time believeing this development??? he never seemed overly anxious or anything. but who knows what else they did to him. Sister can still go fuck off tho

[...]

i mean. i liked the flashbacks a lot honestly??? it stayed simple and focused on the dynamics and less trying to balance smut with murder plots

[dm partner: NO THAT'S WHAT I MEAN LIKE CLEARLY THE AUTHOR CAN MAKE A GOOD STORY SO I'M JUST... CONFUSED AS TO WHY THEY DIDN'T STICK WITH SOME SOFT, FLUFFY BL ROMANCE MANWHA AND DECIDED TO MAKE WHATEVER THIS IS INSTEAD ]

okay i dont care bc dohye is currently getting assaulted nobody asked for this why i just. this is terrible. he was... so sweet. he doesnt deserve this. nobody does of course but jesus christ pls someone save him at least its not horny visually, one saving grace

ah... the assult is back to being depicted horny-ly thank you for nothing

[... removed some general confusion about the plot]

YES. SOME SHIP FOOD.

i am. suffering i mean i cant stop but GOD

okay so apparantly. the sister. has just an arsenal of people who look like other people Dohye, then Noah... and even Noah's GF??? this is ridiculous??

one good message 

why 

did you feel the need to add that [actual tired rage]

im gonna die this manwha is gonna kill me im laughing but im suffering oh hes arrested great and thats the end and the last update was in january of this year

why AS IN NOAH IS ARRESTED nobody who actually did anything is arrested What is this why is this AHHH I at least wanted the complete-ness of finishing this but now I'M JUST SUFFERING

[ mei: I MEAN TO BE FAIR I'D BE SUFFERING TOO BC JUST... WHAT THE FUCK I HAVE?? MANY QUESTIONS?? AND MANY CONCERNS BC THIS MANWHA IS JUST... AN EXPERIENCE ]

its an experience allright WELL

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yup that’s it.

in my head, in a twist of events Dohye and Noah make up and are actual endgame. Something like that must exist out there but I won’t ask because it’d destroy the surprise and ruin the point.

That’s it.

Have a nice day.

[stricken-with-clairvoyancy]

Prinxiety fic recs

Hey everyone, I know isolation is difficult, and a good majority of the fandom use fics as an escape mechanism, so hopefully some people can get a kick out of some of these. As my blog title suggests, I mostly just consume prinxiety content, so this list is for any prinxiety stans out there. Feel free to add on with your own fics or recs, regardless of ship! All fics are completed unless stated otherwise, to avoid giving anyone WIPlash. :)

First up, literally anything by the Queen of Prinxiety (and stunning writing in general) @coconut-cluster. Hers was one of the first blogs who’s writing I got really invested in, and her writing is like the equivalent of snuggling into a warm blanket in the sunshine. It’s good stuff y’all. Writing masterlist If you’re overwhelmed by how many incredible stories she’s written though, I gotchu fam, here are some of my favourites to get you started: Sciamachy, My dreams made music in the night, Snowball fight

Powerless by @impatentpending . One of the best stories I’ve ever had the pleasure of reading, better than most published literature I daresay. Seriously it’s just,,, so good!!! If you haven’t read it yet I highly recommend you do. You’ve got morally grey villains, you’ve got wit, you’ve got a hoverbike named Brendon Urie. It’s an all round good time, except when, you know, it’s angsty.

The To Love And Be Loved series by @virgilsjourney It’s so soft!!! So light and sweet and comforting!!! You’ve got hurt/comfort (heavy on the comfort) with a large helping of mutual pining, and it’s the perfect fic if you need a pick-me-up after a long day.

Butterflies by @creativenostalgiastuff . I live for techie Virgil and this fic does not disappoint. Incredibly cute, Roman gets the validation he deserves, 10/10.

My true love gave to me by @lovelylogans Honestly my favourite oneshot of all time, I giggle the whole way through when reading this. The sheer magnitude of their mutual pining,,, incredible. Genuinely this fic is so wonderful and funny and lighthearted and sweet and hhhhhhhhhh. Looking at her masterlist I’ve also come to realise that she’s written a lot of my favourites, so I’ll just link that here! :)

Wet blanket , Life of the party and Social grace by @tulipscomeinallsortsofcolors. A tad angsty, but so worth the read, and they more than make up for any potential hurt with the gratuitous fluff. Hella soft, superb writing. On another note, if you haven’t already, you should absolutely read their jaw-droppingly amazing series Love and other fairytales. Romantic lamp and a heck tonne of cool worldbuilding, gripping plot and fae galore, prepare to become thoroughly invested.

A dragon’s tail by @theeternalspace . This one had me on the edge of my seat you guys, it’s so gripping you’ll wanna stay up all night reading it. You’ve got prince!Virgil, you’ve got knight!Roman, you’ve got Dragon!Logan. Need I say more?

The most adorable Parents!Prinxiety headcanons you ever did read, by the incredible @thelowlysatsuma , with a tooth-rottingly sweet fic to go with it by @watchoutforthefanfics . You WILL get cavities and you WILL sob at the soft domesticity of it all.

@shakesqueer-writes is lowkey a Prinxiety GOD so I’m just gonna link you to their whole entire masterlist of masterpieces.

The phenomenal It’s only logical by @tinysidestrashcaptain . This one is incomplete, but it’s honestly so perfectly written that it’s going on here anyway. I can only dream of achieving Virgil’s level of sass in this fic, an absolute icon. It’s a flower shop au AND a coffee shop au babyyy.

I can only assume from the remarkable quality of the writing that Keep him safe by @whatwashernameagain gets recommended a lot, as it RIGHTLY DESERVES. This fic is also incomplete, but so worth waiting for, each new chapter is a sucker punch of emotions and the character development is second to none. I’d definitely heed the trigger warnings on this one though, it does handle (very well and realistically) some darker themes. There’s also a raccoon named Cat and I love her.

A get-together and getting together by @hickory-dickory-doc-k Fake! dating! Fake! Dating! Fake! Dating! Fak- Ok but for real though guys this one is so gosh darn cute I dropped everything on Christmas day to rush upstairs and read it when the last chapter came out and I was grinning so much lemme tell you. I’ve read a lot of fake dating aus in my time and this one honestly takes the cake.

(I’d never) want once from the cherry tree written by @ace-corvid with gorgeous art to go with it by @blank-ace . YouTuber au!!! Virgil gets to be the chaotic conspiracy guy we know he secretly longs to be, and Roman gets the adoring fanbase he deserves. The humour is also on point. I mean, Deceit’s name in Virgil’s contacts is Snake fursona man, and honestly if that doesn’t sell it, I don’t know what will.

Of trying and towers by @parsnipit . An oldie but a classic, this story is phenomenal. It’s got action! It’s got magical curses! It’s got so many dragons! It’s got highkey terrified but also kinda badass Virgil! It’s so good you guys, the plot and the family bonding and hhhhhhh dragons are so cool.

Destined by @rosesisupposes . Oooooh this one has such a fun premise. Virgil’s a sage (kind of like a seer) and is just kinda vibing with the humans until sh*t goes down, ft sass, flirting, pun-based bakeries, and a coffee machine named Gilda. It’s great. I love it.

Long live by @meginoi . It’s!!! Essentially a really cool princess diaries au!!! How rad is that? Virgil is pretty much permanently stressed, but Pat and Lo are supportive bros and he ;) has ;) Roman ;) there ;) to ;) help.

Falling (falling) by @basically-i-write-shit . Don’t let their url fool you this fic is honestly so gripping, I stayed up way into morning bingeing it. Be warned though, it does handle some pretty dark topics, so heed the trigger warnings. ft. single dad Virgil and babysitter Roman!

Inks and tallies by @skittlesun . Tattoo 👏 artist 👏 Roman 👏 Frick 👏 Yeah 👏 Also by the same author, the amazing fic The betting pool is an absolute delight. Flirting galore. Go read it pls.

Late night, long night by @crowleyspraisekink . Virgil’s in a tank top and Roman is Gay Panic tm. Adorable, superb, 10/10.

A curse is a dream your heart makes by @romansleftshoulderpad This oneshot is a long boi but my god you will enjoy every single second of it. Roman gets cursed by the Dragon witch to act out classic Disney movies with Virgil, and it’s honestly so entrancing. Phenomenal writing.

Queen of fluff @not-so-innocent-bi-sander has so much adorable fics that I’m gonna link their whole masterlist because you deserve to treat yourself to their writing, and I’m also gonna add some quick links to my faves here because I love them: The reunion, Romance in the air…port, Guitar lessons. The first fic of theirs I read is the series The view from here, and it was so heartwarmingly sweet that it helped distract me from some pretty bad cramps, so I highly recommend you go check that out if you need a cute pick me up. It’s incomplete, but it’s mostly fluff and ongoing, so you won’t be left on any cliffhangers.

Thespian by @random-snippets is a heart-wrenchingly sweet hurt/comfort fic that I wholeheartedly recommend. Roman puts on a play in the imagination but neglects to tell Virgil that his character straight up dies at the end, and Virgil is understandably distraught. It’s ok though, Virgil gets love and hugs! Also just check out their masterlist because their writing is absolutely sensational, especially their pining!Virgil LAMP fics.

Through different eyes by @stars-and-rose . Roman’s a warlock who’s been ‘kidnapping’ Patton in an endearing attempt to get the handsome knight’s ;) attention. Super cute and a fun read, honestly it’s adorable.

@today-only-happens-once is another phenomenal writer who’s masterlist I’m also gonna link because they’re all! So! Good!!! Here’s some of my faves: Exposure therapy ft Ace!Roman, Acoustic, Always

A hero’s rescue by @stillebesat . Villain!Roman and Hero!Virgil ft a healthy dose of hurt/comfort and a a really cool premise. I go back and re-read this one a lot!

Welcome to the neighbourhood by @lefaystrent is incomplete, but it’s so goddamn hysterical that it’s going on here anyway. Their comedic genius is astounding. Some more of my favourites of theirs include: Roamin’ nights, Flutter and fall, Rewrite

Blink and you’ll miss it and waterspout by @greenninjagal-blog are both lovely reads which I highly recommend. Seriously guys their writing is amazing, go check them out.

Sweet dreams and Petals red as blood by @candied-peach are both gorgeously written and I absolutely adore them, 10/10.

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i remember seeing tumblr posts of people saying that after they ate they looked like 3 sizes bigger and i thought they were joking/ exaggerating a little bit before but now that exact thing happens to me and i was desperately hoping it’s just body dysmorphia but i think i actually just look like that.

i think so because:

1. i went shopping with my dad and he believed the pants i got weren’t going to fit me even though it did and it wasn’t super tight on me (i also have been wearing this size for a while too and i thought i’d definitely size down. now idk if i would’ve fit in the ones in a smaller size cause there weren’t any but still i’m not satisfied i wish it was looser)

2. i had to get a fanny pack for marching band and he thought he tightened the strap too tight but it fit perfectly around my hips. (ofc it’s too big if i had it around my waist)

3. my mom believes me when i lie to her saying what i’ve eaten, she doesn’t ask if i have an eating disorder, or show any other sign that she’s worried. if even she isn’t noticing anything then clearly i’m not skinny enough or she would’ve taken note of it. my dad has never been worried about my eating habits and said he doesn’t think i have an eating disorder. (i feel like he’s the type of person who believes only skinny people can have an ed)

4. i don’t eat during lunch and my friend asked yesterday only once if i’m not eating and i said yeah but she wasn’t worried at all and didn’t say anything after that. today none of my friends asked. this is the same with the previous one, if i was skinny enough wouldn’t they actually care?

even if it is just body dysmorphia i’m afraid that others see me the way i see myself. i think it’s legit me looking fat though because otherwise things like these wouldn’t happen.

another reason i’d like to note too is that i never thought i had body dysmorphia before until a couple of weeks ago where i looked pregnant after eating (sometimes even without eating) and just when i look down at my stomach or legs i just look absolutely fucking humongous. if i actually had body dysmorphia i would’ve had this sort of stuff happen before. it’s just i’m really scared i look like that but i’m probably lying to myself by thinking it could possibly be body dysmorphia just to make myself feel better.

it sucks too cause i can’t just ask someone if i’m skinny or not because they’ll all say i’m skinny but that’s because their definition of skinny is different than mine (or they could just lie to make me feel better). there’s people that are skinnier than me when i literally have an eating disorder and i keep hearing people talking about how they haven’t had lunch or had little to eat today and just i feel like i’m not losing anything at all.

i’m too afraid to check the scale cause i feel like i’m going to freak out. i never feel like i’m actually losing anything unless if i get symptoms like dizziness, hair falling out, being super cold, passing out, ect. whenever those don’t happen it leads me to believe i’m eating too much. i just don’t know what to do anymore i haven’t eaten anything today and exercised a lot from rehearsals and walking but i still looked fat (not as much so as if i had eaten but still not flat) and i just hate my body so much why can’t i just be dainty and skinny already :(

i really want to restrict more but it’s difficult because all i eat is dinner most days and i can’t skip cause my parents ask what food i wanna eat. now that school has started physically for me i can use rehearsals as an excuse pretending i already ate but i don’t have it every day hhhhhhh. i might say i have homework or something and so i’ll “eat” dinner in my room and then throw it out later.

[hoeiplier]

Hypnotized Ya////// ncy with not hypnotized Illl////////// nois?

  oh *eyes emoji* this got me feeling all types of ways

ALSO SORRY ABOUT QUALITY DEADASS COULDNT STAY AWAKE TO FINISH THE REST AND IRL STUFF GOT IN THE WAY HHHHHHH -- mod ghostie

///

Illinois never expected the newest statue he saved from his latest exploration to have such a strong hold. He remembers Yancy scoffing as he explained it’s powers -- hypnosis. Not on the beholder, but on whoever he desires.

“We can get into some kinky funs with this,” Yancy laughed, “if it even works.”

“You saying you’d be down to mess around if this hypnosis works?”

“When am I ever gonna get another chance if it does, Illi.” Yancy turned, “it’d be funs to see what I look all messed up under youse control.”

Illinois had stepped forward, the same joking hint of arousal in his eye as Yancy’s. The statue glowing an every soft blue, leaning forward to kiss the prisoner with all he had. Yancy losing his hands in Illinois’s hair, tugging him forward, deepening their slow kiss. Tongue against tongue, Yancy’s soft moans making the hairs on the other’s neck stand up.

“Well, let’s give it a shot, babe.” was all Illinois could get out before shoving the statue in Yancy’s face. The prisoner chuckling. Surely it was all jokes, they’d do this and then head upstairs to...to...

Illinois had watched as Yancy’s smile slowly faded. his eyes becoming half lidded, lips open ever so slightly. His breathing slowed, eyes tracing over the statue with such intensity, Illinois nearly threw the object down.

“Waiting...waiting for...Master....” 

“Master?”

“Tells....me what to...to do, Master...” Yancy slurs, jaw hanging open, giggling almost drunkenly. “Wanna be...a goods boy...for Master...”

“Ha ha, good one,” Illinois sarcastically rolled his eyes, “C’mon, babe, knock it off--”

Yancy stared back at him, the statue finally out of the way. His eyes widening, arousal drumming through him as he took a long look at Yancy’s current state.

His eyes had the same soft blue swirling about in spirals. Eyeing him up, drool collecting under his chin, completely and utter submissive to Illinois.

///

Illinois didn’t let the opportunity pass him. It didn’t take long to run with the hypnotized Yancy to his room, no other egos paying mind to them. A smile on his face as he prepped and kissed at Yancy faster than he ever had before. 

His fingers slick with lube, Yancy on his lap, pants and briefs thrown off of him. Yancy’s already hard cock perking up with each careful movement the adventurer made. Fingering him nice and wide, feeling Illinois’s own hard on poking at his back. Practically throbbing with each bit of pre cum leaking from him.

“Keep your legs nice and spread for me, Yancy.”

“Nice...open...for Master...”

“God, you sound beautiful calling me that, give me a kiss--”

Yancy turned his head sideways, Illinois leaning forward, the two kissing deeply as before. The prisoner still keeping his legs wide, trembling as each finger pushed against his sweet spot. Eyes still chasing spirals around his pupils, practically in Heaven.

“Can’t wait, can’t fucking wait to be inside you...tell me how badly you wanna fuck me, Yancy, please---”

A switch went off, a new command making Yancy whine with want. His cock still jerking up, hitting his belly ever so gently with each press in and out. “Need Master...Need Master so badly...Need to feel his cock pressing inside me, filling me ups so good...wanna fuck back on his thick cock nice and hards...need my Master inside me so badly!”

“Lift up, lift up for me, Yancy, can’t wait anymore, babe....”

Another switch. Yancy sitting up from Illinois’s lap, leaning forward on the soft bed. Face down, ass presented up. His hole leaking with lube, his cock throbbing under him as he moaned. Completely and utterly at Illinois’s beck and call. 

“Fuck...” was all Illinois could get out, using lube to stroke his dick quickly, finally lining himself up to Yancy. His hips barely thrusting in.

“Fuck back on me, please, babe, fuck!” he hissed, Yancy throwing his hips back on command, sinking down each thick inch of Illinois’s hard cock. Drool still falling from his open lips, those same damned blue spirals swirling about in his eye. His gaze as he looked back at the adventurer could only be described as downright filthy. Slurring his words, his moans as slow as he movements as he continued to fuck himself on Illinois.

“Master....feels so good inside...fills me up with his cock so nicely...needs youse...need youse to fuck me nice and long....please....Master....”

“Yeah?” Illinois groaned, thrusting up as Yancy sunk down, helping build up a fast pace, his hands reaching forward, feeling along the soft curve of his hips, feeling his soft plush ass. Feeling anywhere he could as the hypnotized prisoner above did as he was commanded.

“More...Tells me....what Master wants...wanna please nobodys but Master...please, Master!”

Illinois reaches back, smacking Yancy’s ass. The prisoner letting out a delighted moan, the spirals in his swirling about faster as his arousal increased, to the adventurer’s surprise.

“Keep telling me how badly you need me, babe, that’s all I want coming from that cute little mouth of yours.”

Yancy slammed back down on Illinois’s cock. Moaning like he was paid for it. His sleepy eyes now wide, the spirals much brighter, his mouth still hanging open as he drooled, finally registering his newest command.

One he took with passion and delight.

“Yes, Master...will do anything for Master!”

[riskeith]

HIIII hope you have been well my dearest last airbender hehe. i have so much exciting things to share <333

so first off, i did two wish rolls the other night and guess what? on one roll i got BOTH bennett AND qiqi!!!!!! (the other one was just weapons but 🤷🏽‍♀️) i love them both so much i literally ascended them the second i got them. i still can’t believe my luck. so now my team looks like: traveller, noelle and those two. i’m having a little issue bc i don’t have a long range combat character but i love them all too much to change anything. which means i struggle sometimes maybe if i roll for someone else in the future i might change but rn i’m LOVING them. have you ever had luck like that?

AND i started watching haikyuu again and i forgot how funny it is. i usually don’t laugh out loud while watching things but i was literally chuckling while watching some moments. i’ve only watched 10 eps-ish but i fell in love with it again at the first ep already. i cant believe i dropped it before i’m so stupid.

ok that’s all the updates i had hahaha ! i was like buzzing waiting to tell you lmaidhdhdbd 🥺

oikawa is SO pretty it’s insane. when he showed up i was like yeah.... that’s him. that’s the pretty boy. but then again pretty much everyone is pretty in haikyuu who the hell are we supposed to focus on hehdhd the art style is just that good yk?

ships that have silent (+ points for angry) yearning are just superior. and usually they fall in the enemies/rivals category which is lovely. nothing is finer than watching people struggle with their feelings like mmmmmm... tasty. also as good as rareships can be, popular ships are popular for a reason yk? like canon content isn’t everything ofc but if canon can back it up in some way more people tend to be interested heh

wanna know something super weird? when i consume content i always fall for the stotic bois with angst backstories first but after i finish the shows i always miss the cute happy babies and that makes me obsessed with them? idk it’s crazy like voltron for example keith is literally my favorite character of all time but when i finished voltron i was literally bawling bc i missed lance so much help

well i guess we’re talking about voltron now HAHA 😭 dude s3 was a fucking blessing i can’t believe we got that and they just cut it off cold. the leader and his right hand man dynamic makes me yell to this day 😭😭😭 remember all the scenes where they continuesly reassured each other 😭 the ‘leave the math to pudge’ scene lives in my head rent free no joke dhdnhdbdud... s3 was just them loving each other tenderly and dw stole it from us.. ALSO PLEASE WRITE THEM AGAIN LITERALLY BEGGING 😭 pls 🥺

dude our government doesn’t give a shit we literally have politics traveling around and chilling without masks. they don’t care at all we barely have any restrictions so people don’t care either. it’s a mess here ngl.. :/

can’t wait to hear from u again... mwah!

hi hi!!!! is this gonna end up being 2 replies in one day for you again HAHAHA i’ll try not to disappear after

!!!!!!!!!! QIQI AND BENNETT??!!?!!!!!!!! oh my goodness… oh my goodness!!! i can’t believe you got a 5 star before me fjskskkdd but big deserve 😭😭😭😩😩😩 i’m so happy for you nejdnskamxlxmm holy shit!!!!! that’s so cute tho that’s such a cute team… and big mood!! who cares about team dynamics/fighting styles all that matters is that you like them 😩 but also does that mean you currently have 3 sword users and 1 claymore on your team jdjsndnsm. i also used to not have a ranged fighter on my team but it just got so inconvenient lolol. and no my luck is actual ass :( so often i only roll weapons, and when i do roll charas it’s like. all the base free ones djdkskdk

haikyuu is SO funny!!! everyone’s humour is so >>>> omg they’re just silly boys… are you restarting it from the very first ep? and it’s all good if you dropped it before bc you’re coming back to it now and that’s what matters 😩 keep me updated tho! i’m so excited to hear what you think

HFJDNSKSN sorry i went mia and made you wait chksjs WHICH REMINDS ME!! omg i’ve been meaning to tell you and keep forgetting but i downloaded genshin on my phone last week for my trip and it’s so??? difficult? like mad mad respect to you for being able to play on mobile omg… maybe it’s just bc i was used to pc already but damn.. djsjjs

HAHA yeah just admiring the visuals instead of focusing on the story.. we’ve all been there 😩 sometimes you just gotta rewind and take 48394993 screenshots of the one scene you know? who let them be so gorgeous..

yesssss the mutual oblivious pining is so good.. like they’re enemies to lovers but they’re also IDIOTS to lovers… or my fave headcanon which hurts so bad… the one person (keith) pining for their rival (lance) but it’s unrequited and they’ve just accepted that and are kinda resigned to it but. they just want them to be happy above all else :’) :’(

and honestly you are so right like if the popular ship are foils and have all these parallels between them and a deep backstory and stuff that’s so good too there’s so much food AHAH

omg that’s kinda cute tho.. like once you’re done you enter the honeymoon phase w bubbly outgoing charas.. (speaking of honeymoons when’s ours 🤪) speaking of lance he deserved everything lmao.. he deserves everything PRESENT TENSE!!! wow we are really talking about vld in 2021 huh

LEAVE THE MATH TO PIDGE!!! I AM SCREAMING JUST THIBKING ABLIT THIS TOO!! WHAT THE FUCK DOCYOUCMEAN KEITH. WHY DIDNYOUCSAY IT WITH THAT SMILE. LANCE WHY DIDNYOU SMILE LIKE THAT IN RETURN. LEAVE THE MATH TO- KEITH EXPLAIN??? WHA WERE YOU WDOIDJGNDKDNSKFKDKFNDNNCMS the way that lance went from ‘despising’ keith and hating being beaten by him in everything to SEEKING OUT HIS ADVICE AND COMFORT???? IF THAT ISNT GROWTH AND DEVELOPMENT I DO NOT KNOW WHAT IS like their relationship progressed so so so so so so so so SO much in that one single season… like. i cannot BELIEVE that was real???? no fucking way. like. we were literally so close.. SO FUCKING CLOSE!!!!!!!! my god the trust they had in each other..… LANCE SEEKING KEITH OUT!!! lance accepting keith as the leader before even keith accepted himself EVEN WHEN LANCE HIMSELF SO DESPARATELY WANTED TO BE THE BLACK PALADIN bUT RECOGNISING IT WASNT WHAT THE BLACK LION WANTED AND i have to stop or else i’ll literally never stop typing chskdkdkndcuksncjxjskcoskosnaksj

hhhhhhh i wanna write them sometimes i get hit with the feels SO SO BAD (like just then? LOL) but i haven’t properly written them in so long i feel like i don’t even know how to anymore D; but anyway do you have any prompts? i have so many wips (i have one fic that i said was gonna be my Final klance fic but lmao i’m never gonna finish it at this stage so i guess i’m also not done writing klance? lmao) but after a while i just. have no desire to go back to them anymore fjdjjx so something new might spark my motivation! but also no promises sorry i always say i’ll do shit but never do JEKSKS altho i will try!! i’ll try bust out at least a drabble even if it ends up as an unfinished wip as well lol 😩

oh fucking rip that’s so horrible i’m so sorry you have to deal with that :((( legit it’s so upsetting to see so many governments just. complacent and not caring about this issue at all like?? this is your job? you’re literally meant to be doing all these things to help us right now and you’re just not. which i guess unfortunately also makes sense bc they’re the ones who would suffer least. it’s so frustrating lmaoooo >:(

:***** i’ve stayed up again bc i am Not intelligent fjskdk but i’m looking forward to your response!! goodnight and sweet dreamssss (for when you next sleep LOL) 💗😘