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keebwee · 9 months ago

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Ask game round 2 (if that’s ok)

✨for fruhand because I love that name so much you don’t even know djsjdndndn

🌂 🧠 free for all any oc or more than one I just love hearing about them and learning bout them

Hope it’s ok to do this again! If not no pressure! I just love hearing about them!

EE LETS GOOOOO

✨: How did you come up with the OC’s name? - i think this will disappoint you but its just from a half-elf fantasy name generator. both his first and last name (fruhand arroway) are from it. i was very bad at making names at the time. however now i consider myself good at coming up with random ass fucking names like grunkuff

🌂: What genre do they belong in? - gonna use bitsy (all pronouns. i mean literally every pronoun can be used for them) for this one (my skyrim oc that made her way into rottmnt. as all of my ocs eventually do)

she's in a fantasy genre id say since hes from skyrim

🧠: What do you like most about the OC? - i'm gonna be mysterious and talk abt fru's second universe and ocs in it that i dont think ive posted/talked about here much or at all. lucy, sif, chris, basil, badger, ruin, and ofc fru! i dont have any recent drawings of them (besides fru) so here's some older designs

prepare for info i love talking abt these guys. not gonna go super lore crazy but instead will talk abt how much i love these fuckers

PICTURED ABOVE: lucy (albino turkey vulture), basil (snake), badger (cat lynx creature on four legs), ruin (fru look-alike), sif (cat), chris (cougar elf in the fifth image) and ofc fru (lion elf in the last 3 images)

lucy, she/her: lucy was a dnd character of mine! she was an albino turkey vulture aarakocra cleric with a service dog named bear (who's still around I just dont have him on this post). she's dating sif! lucy was a huge source of joy for me when i was younger. i was obsessed with her. shes my sweet girl and i love her to death. her relationship with her dog bear is one of my favorite things ive done with characters i think theyre so sweet

sif, she/he/they: my silly girl. my absolute goober. sif was a dnd character that never got used unfortunately. they were a tabaxi monk. she's dating lucy!! i dont have much to say abt him bc i never really went crazy with her lore but i love her sm. she was so fun to draw. i need to get her into rottmnt

chris, she/they: chris ended up being almost a sister to fru. she's so fun. she was also originally a dnd character, but she was a human. i think she was a rogue?? im not sure. they have a vial of blood on a necklace around their neck. dont ask where it came from. she meant a lot to me when i first made her and i vented a lot in my art of her. i was goin through some hard times back then man LMAOO. this was back in 2020

basil, she/it/they: ok this ones kinda crazy. basil isnt technically a snake, she just takes the form of one. it's a shadow god, one that was cast out and sent to live among the mortals. she follows fru around. they were in a relationship with badger (who is also a shadow god taking the form of a lynx creature) but they split up after being cast out. basil holds the star artifact (ignore the drawing of her with the sun thats wrong. fru has the sun). basil was such a blast to draw when i first made her and to this day sometimes i find myself doodling them

badger, he/it/they: badger is one of the "villains" of the story. they, as mentioned before, are a shadow god that was cast out and sent into the mortal realm. after his falling out with basil, it found ruin and decided to stick with him. badger holds the void artifact!! he's also SO fun to draw. their expressions are super fun. i was obsessed with the song all eyes on me by OR3O so like thats kind of his song now LMAOO

ruin, he/him: ruin is the other "villain" in the story. he (hear me out on this ok) is half of the REAL fruhand, which was split apart for whatever reason. he's fruhand's negative half. he doesn't know that he and fru are equal and believes himself to be inferior. he absolutely hates fru in the beginning, but they make up after ruin realizes the truth. he holds the moon artifact! i made so many different versions of this goober and his silly design. he really helped me learn to draw more freely and creatively

fru, he/him: fru is the main character bc i love him to death. he's the other half of the real fruhand and is his positive half. he doesn't know about the split until later. eventually he and ruin become brothers. do they go back together? idk. i never really did anything abt it. he holds the sun artifact. i fucking love fru. he was a self insert in dnd initially (but also inspired by br'aad from just roll with it) but now he's developed into my silly lion man who's in love with leo. god i love him. he means the world to me

a note about the artifacts: they're the key to the heavens i think it was. or like, the "higher up areas." when combined they open a gateway. they can also be used to merge fru and ruin back together! badger and ruin want to get all the artifacts so badger can take revenge on the gods, and so ruin can be the "real" fruhand. obviously this doesnt happen

thank u for the ask i went crazy mode. this has been so fun

#thank u for the ask #sorry for so much #rottmnt oc #fruhand #my oc #my ocs #fruhand arroway #chris #lucy #basil #badger #ruin #my art #old art #ask game #oc lore

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abimee · 2 years ago

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THREE YEARS OF TOCK TUTTI POSTING..... every year i can never describe how much this little lalafell means to me and the joy and wonder she's brought to my life as if i didnt make her purely because i wanted to be a miqote but didnt find any pretty and just slapped together a lalafell and gave her a goofy name.

Tock is so much more in my brain now because my ocs are like my children but also people who appear before me and have their own thoughts and feelings that I get to walk their path with and above all my ocs i think tock tutti has to be my favorite. she is my special girl. she is everything to me. ive been posting about ff14 for 3 years straight now and i dont see that slowing down for at least another 3 years. as long as tock wants to walk forward and see another day i'll walk with her and see her on her way. The world revolves around her in my mind.

I can get sappy here and i know its #justagame and you all heard me hee haw about how much i both absolutely despise ff14 and its fans yet also love it and its fans dearly. how i got to get closer to my best friend through it and be put through the ringer by complete strangers in it. Get mocked and laughed at in it and sat quietly and watched the stars in it with people. I dont like talking about the intricacies of my personal/irl life and even when i talk a lot about myself i dont really try to reveal information about how im living or how i see my future but no matter what goes on out there the fact that i have a little creation of my own i can come to and dress her up or send her on an adventure or go farm with has gotten me through a lot of really dark places and moments in my life that dont even compare to the utter horrors i experienced as a teenager. and I didnt have anything like tock tutti or this game in that time and so had to deal with a lot of that terror and pain by myself with nothing to distract me or help me through it, and its #justagame but its a very important one to me. endwalker especially. I have a deep and unending love for meteion and hermes and getting to meet them and I think even when im old and wrinkly theyre going to sit in my heart as something important to me even then. And tock will too, even when the day comes where I have to let her go and can no longer walk with her.

as that one comment on the youtube upload of dynamis puts it, this game is just really special to me. and I'm glad to have been put on it by my best friend. and I hope for all my bitching and complaining everyone can still see how much it has influenced my art and my creative endevears and can see the love I feel for the characters, the community, and so on. I don't really interact with the community due to a distaste for fandom from some really awful experiences back in the ye old undertale days, so i appreciate the people who follow me and my art and are very kind to me in this community even if i dont follow back/talk to you. I hope I can keep making art you enjoy and that you can see how happy i am here, and above all else to see that tock tutti is a special little oc of mine that I want to share with you all, and I hope you come to love her just as I do. My little sweet pea my melon head my singer of light

#shes my baby she means EVERYTHING TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #tock tutti

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quirkthieves · 1 year ago

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KNOWING YOUR PARTNER WELL CAN POTENTIALLY MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER.

REPOST DO NOT REBLOG !!

NAME: viverra ! but ive also been called vixen, dogma, gabe, etc. any works

PRONOUNS : he/him

PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION : big big fan of discord. tumblr ims are hard for me to read </3

NAME OF MUSE(s) : monoma neito, ibara shiozaki, chitose kizuki/curious, kaina tsutsumi/lady nagant, setsuna tokage, ryo inui/hound dog, natsuo todoroki, kendou itsuka, hinata haruka, nobimaru, inari yoko, marik ishtar, ishizu ishtar, rishid ishtar, atem, and lacramioara strigoi.

jesus christ who let me do this

BEST EXPERIENCE : ummm gee okay i cant just name one it turns out life is actually about the accumulation of small joys and not just a few big ones but every time i get in the car and listen to my music and go OH! THIS REMINDS ME OF THIS PERSONS MUSE AND OUR DYNAMIC! or when talking to people inspires me to draw little comics (esp while im at work let me live) it really just makes me so so happy

RP PET PEEVES / DEALBREAKERS : im pretty chill for the most part i think like ive definitely mellowed out a lot over the past few years but. i gotta say it:

formatting. the over-formatting of everything is killing me. i cant read most peoples carrds. i dont even know how they read it, because of how insanely tiny the text is. eye strain colors, hard to see icons, weird fonts... i dont mind a little bit of formatting, naturally, like go girl give us everything, but its getting to the point of being genuinely frustrating that almost every new blog i encounter has me fighting for my life just trying to learn the important info. i have visual and neurological issues please lord im only seven

MUSE PREFERENCES: seconding cam on if the "when someones pulled a muse apart like the spaghettification of a star and then put them back together". its fascinating. i think the fun part about rp is that i get just as invested in my partners character and what they get out of each thread as much as i do mine, so when people sit there and talk about their ideas and meta and really dig into that thing like . WHOOO NOW WE'RE COOKING

PLOTS OR MEMES : I like both! I think memes are good to kick things off regardless, and I dont mind building off of it. I like to plot a lot ooc but more in a loosey-goosey kind of way; i really like to get to know other muns and their characters and also talking is just sort of how i think through things so its very helpful to me. i also just get a lot of ideas because these things live rent free in my head but to me a natural progression is more important than like, sticking to a script.

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES : i write insanely long replies because i have things wrong with me. theres NEVER any pressure to length match-- a lot of the time im just doing it to establish exposition or setting so the other person finds it easier to work with. just give me something i can work with and we are a ok :D

BEST TIME TO WRITE : it really depends... i typically end up writing in the evening/afternoon because of my schedule. i think the biggest thing is that i work on weekends, so you may only hear from me ooc on those days. im also really trying to fix my sleep schedule.........to varying levels of success. sometimes the thread is too good

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S) : just talking about monoma here... i've also got a pretty snappy mouth and natural love of finding loopholes, but i just went into paralegal instead of making it class A's problem. i also love to laugh, but id like to think im a lot less meanspirited about it

tagged: @dynmghts

tagging: @veroxins @cloistress @killerhubby @enignoema @eclipsemuses @yeonban @starshinc @ofluminance @paracide @ohcruel

#ty cam :D #PURE MUSTELID CRAZY://OOC

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tonydaddingham · 1 year ago

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1, 2, 7, 8, 9, 15, 22, 31, 35, 40, 47, & 48 >:)

dear god woman you're trying to kill me 💀💖

sticking this under a cut sorry bby but it has to be done

idk if its a purposeful collection necessarily - and just more of a style - i have an impressive amount of celestial-body themed earrings. like anything remotely related to stars, moons, suns, planets, and gold? its me im your target audience hun

if im feeling particularly restless, white noise sounds like rain and crackling fires will calm me riiiiight down. fire scents have the same kind of effect - like if eggy (for everyone else, my cat - tax to be paid at end of the ask) comes in and smells like a bonfire, my nose is going Straight into his fur

so many 💀 i don't tend to name them (doing so will only break my heart) but we have an 8ft monstera deliciosa we literally call The Big Boy, and a bonsai tree that we call lazarus because every year i think 'yep thats it he's definitely dead ive definitely killed him' and every year i wait til spring to be sure - and yet sure enough that shrivelly bastard is Still Kickin

nothing has a place in my heart quite like a hot cup of tea, im afraid

not quite a music video, but the metallica playing master of puppets live with the sfso, life changing

ahhh so i had a cat called sol when i was a kid, who was vaguely black and white - and when he died (i was about 6?) my mum got me a black and white cat from the bear factory and ive had it ever since. hes lovingly wrapped up and in a box somewhere, been turfed out and cuddled many a time all the way into adulthood, will never get rid of him 💕

absolutely LOVE a good walk - grew up with moorland on ny doorstep, it wasn't much of an option 😂 don't like urban walking much, so prefer to go find a walking trail or the coastal path - joys of living in the south west!!!💕

i have a pair of really deepset noodle bowls that if i can eat anything out of them, i will do it. they're yellow and glazed, and sooo cute

cat tax as promised:

he's a special lad

ask game!

#ask game!#apologies to anyone's feeds that ive spammed i honestly didnt expect this many 💖🥺

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blookmallow · 2 years ago

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y’all i am so sorry i failed you

i just found this buried a year into my drafts and realized. i never posted my animatronics ratings for last year’s spirit halloween releases. i started it and i never finished it. it’s now closing in on halloween season again and i still haven’t done it. im ashamed. i am so sorry

ANYWAY, here’s, uh, my. 9 month late 2022 spirit halloween opinions, happy summerween i guess

Mr. Punchy

NEW CLOWN NEW CLOWN fuck yes i love a new clown

also for some reason the first sentence of his description made me lose it

BIG fan of this just from a visual standpoint, i love the colors, love the hair. i like the light-up face on this one a lot, most spirit clowns ive seen fall into either “Clown Who Is A Monster/Creature” (crouchy, hugz) or “Clown Who Is A Scary Guy” (wally, henry hussle) but this one feels very “evil fun house prop” which i really think works for it. im assuming he’s based on punching-bag clowns, which i haven’t seen them do before, but the fact that his body is a Ball also gives me the mental image of him violently bouncing toward you which is good as well. theres a certain manic energy about this guy that im really fond of. i like him i would like to see him 7/10

Spike

standard zombie torso figure, though it does have some interesting implications given that Stab The Brain is the generally agreed upon best way to deal with zombies, but this guy seems to be doing just fine despite the giant stake in his head. the website description says he got it from his wife attempting to mercy kill him once he turned zombie but she failed so he’s just stuck like this now. it does not explain why stake to the brain didn’t work, though (the implication is that she missed or something but clearly she didn’t. ive never heard of zombie brains having a very specific precise spot you have to hit to kill them, this looks like it should’ve worked to me)

something about the bLurghHGhRUrrh noises he makes and the little nicely buttoned flannel shirt with jagged obviously-cut-out-intentionally tears at the bottom is very funny to me. i like to think his wife has accepted the situation and he just lives on the porch scaring away birds and stuff now. 5 /10 hes not really anything special but he brings me joy

Rat Girl

it’s... fine. she’s a Creepy Little Girl. she’s got a rat. it’s not particularly inspired but I don’t dislike it. she doesn’t really do anything but i like the eye movement. 5/10

Lil Skelly Bones

this is a variation of another animatronic they had previously, same lil guy but now he’s a jumpscare figure instead of a swinging one. not really a fan of stuff that’s Just “jumps out at you” and thats all but he’s pretty cute. love how Small he is. whats even going on here, is he a skeleton dressed as a skeleton?? i don’t know. it’s very cute. 5/10

Tombstone Terror

on a surface level this is just a tombstone with a skull that pops out and yells at you. it looks nice, it’s designed well, but it’s about as basic as it gets as far as the concept goes. the description for this one really makes it though, because evidently this skeleton’s name is Steve and he used to be the graveyard caretaker who loved his job so much he stuck around after death to continue protecting the graveyard

his name is steve and he loves this graveyard so much. 6/10 its very uncreative as a prop but it gets a bonus point for steve

The Widow

this one looks really familiar i feel like they had a very similar one previously? i dont know. anyway she’s very scary looking and the Neck Snap motion is really unsettling to see. one of those rare animatronics that i actually do feel a lil creeped out by and wouldn’t be eager to approach. her description says her husband cheated on her so she murdered him (and her sister, who he was cheating with) but then broke her neck in the process of trying to dump the bodies in a lake, so here we are. 7/10 i dont love it but i feel like it’s pretty effective and my first reaction to watching the video of it was “eugh. i dont want to see THAT again” so props for that

Betty Sharpe

lots of blood on this one, very nice,

apparently she’s some kind of child beauty pageant contestant who murdered all the other girls

i really like the movement in the bag, something about the relatively slow motion and the size of the bag gives it a sense of “what the fuck does she have in there” since it doesn’t seem fast enough or big enough to be a person. gives the impression of a mutilated but somehow still barely alive person shoved in there, which is excellent. her design doesn’t read very clearly though, it looks like she’s wearing some kind of nightgown. i feel like they could’ve done more to make her look like a deranged diva, give her a tiara or something. the face looks really plasticky also. overall i think its a decent concept that could’ve been executed better. 6/10

Young Crouchy

H U H???!?????

this... sure is a choice. i do not understand the decision-making here at all. i like crouchy well enough but did ANYONE want this. it doesn’t even read as “young crouchy” at all, he doesn’t look Younger in any sense and it sounds like the same recording so his voice isn’t different either. it just looks like Slightly Shrunk crouchy. the fact that the original crouchy is so tall and imposing is really what makes him so effective, so this one just looks comical

the description goes into his tragic childhood where i guess he’s... disabled? which is why he stands like that?

The pain of growing up orphaned in the streets can only be masked by laughter, at least according to this broken child. With no friends, no family, and nowhere to turn, he had a stroke of luck when the circus came to town. He never intended to scare anyone, but with his broken posture and twisted frame, he was quickly adopted into the traveling circus and immediately found his calling. No amount of makeup could ever hide his sinister grin and sharp, dagger-like teeth, so he finally embraced his true identity as Crouchy and worked to become the show’s most terrifying act!

for one thing that doesn’t come across as a child even remotely at all, and while crouchy always had the “he just wanted to be a regular clown but he was too scary and everyone was afraid of him so he just decided to embrace it” backstory, i feel like this just makes it come across super ableist. “clown who is just really terrifying no matter how he tries” is kind of a funny concept but now they’re saying “his posture and body structure are Weird and Scary so no one liked him and all he’s good for is being Scary” just. feels real bad. and “he’s called crouchy because he has a physical disability that affects his posture” comes across way worse than “he’s called crouchy because we’re not creative and this is the pose he’s in. i mean because its a personal quirk of his”

then they also follow up this description with “Every good evil villain has to have a tragic origin story!” which just feels SO forced, it makes me feel gross, this whole thing is stupid, i dont like any of it,

i feel like if they had leaned into “this is very silly” more and made this guy be like, Crouchy Jr, His Son, or his mini clone or something and made his voice higher it might’ve worked. a few people in the youtube comments pointed out that this prop could be beneficial as like, a Smaller/More Affordable crouchy if you don’t have the money or the space for the full size one, which is fair, but i don’t know. i just dont like this whole situation i really don’t

3/10 try harder next time, spirit

Strawman

spooky scarecrow man!!! i really hope I get a chance to see him in-store sometime hes lovely. love a creepy scarecrow

the design is good, his face design is pretty cool, it looks better in motion his mouth movements are pretty solid

he has a good range of motion in his head and the jerky/stiff movement in his arms works for the character really well whether it was intentional or not. hes interesting to watch. i like him. i think he’d be a great host/introductory figure at the beginning of a haunt or front of your yard or something to greet guests coming in. hes good i like him 7/10

theres also a new Reagan from the exorcist, but i havent. actually seen that movie yet sdfsdf so i dont really have anything to say about the animatronic other than “it looks fine to me”

Possessed Pumpkin

i feel like pumpkin man and creepy scarecrow are friends. they go well together. cursed pumpkin patch is a good concept i like it

anyway we have this guy at my local store right now, he’s pretty Big and solid looking, its a pretty decent design, i like his big claw hands

his backstory kind of clashes with the design concept though, apparently he was... a kid in a homemade halloween costume who got bullied for his costume and then the other kids locked him in a barn at a haunted pumpkin patch so his body got taken over by evil spirits. which is a hell of a story that then makes No sense with the visual, because that is Not a child. nothing about this even remotely reads as “possessed child” at all. so then it comes across as “he grew up into an adult man in this pumpkin patch and just never fucking moved on from that one time he got bullied on halloween as a child” which just makes him kind of sad. pretty good design, poor backstory, 7/10

anyway sorry if i missed anybody it took me so long to remember this was in here the new arrivals page on spirit’s site is now for this year so i cant tell which ones were new last year anymore :’ ) fjsdg

#halloween #spirit halloween #spirit halloween 2022 #animatronics

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libidomechanica · 2 months ago

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Of two Ifs in one phrase that leading him with you

A tanka sequence

As well as a poore pedlar he did wend, bearing traveller: for each. For each. Of two Ifs in one phrase that leading him with you.

And morn. She pierce bess, thoughts hardly forbearen, but with her brother, but none according as thou haply mayst be bold, and reach’d him.

III

And warm with green malignant light on poets gone, with nothing stranger! Hell. The very bow, and they died. Who keep the Dark away.

That not always been taken up and a whole little can say.—Falling rain names of love: O impious too, no doubt, after part?

But to one near the muzzle beneath. The window, and he went from its knot, I change my second berth, your blessed, to have you agen.

Us live in most true my smart: love lingers were up to our wild minstrelsy! To turn his lady smiles take on before you say.

VII

By shepheards had never, never coveted their pursuits: though I’ve no feet, some of the North. Wishing to San Sebastian, Baring.

VIII

The tree when Bacchus, young lassie, what nature, striue for the research their welfare is a sickly charms! Strain they stole betwixt his legs.

Sick, sick to my breast the less takes care there is a comment. Her Kidde to fynd. Although sweetness that morning pale from the cloudy seas.

Love to a race, sicker I am fain to unsettle ones to love hath great gods, I grow a talker! They wander’d in Beauty.

One end he tied around it. To our country, where a young maid abide with that most goddess-like. Much needeth all his soul to want.

XII

To which would not do the Past. Pan account; all instincts immature, all purposes unsure, the Eyes of Man, the blue of hem scorne.

XIII

Will; and monitor me night pittied is mishappe, that extent of underwood, and write. Is morality whatever I do!

XIV

You borrow heart’s Blood. As after tary, there it like a high prize: for pity let a passion, a waxen face, I espye, and flow.

Is inside, to carry it on the osier-isle we heard it? But scorne., Will be my dear native land, whether weeping: in the sky.

XVI

God giueth good young bride. And as I stood from one joy absorb another day. With their minds, and I think of the Felon’s narrow Cell?

XVII

Healing. So often the flying and fell, and I must be risk’d for conquest got. The sea all was long with my breath, knew them untir’d.

XVIII

For so it is sad? What thou art out at last my arms. Effect and no sneer against time, vague and lik’d; I lik’d but the rush and vnwise.

XIX

Be nay, weighty. And let the tenses I singing so far in high did hold, that oft saw that those of our gynocracy; you may!

The Mind still to trace love’s bed always, and in them runne at last year’s leaves, smears with sweat or drives, it seems the sun, and there, conceals it.

XXI

For pity let a teare, sicker I am fain to unsettle and smiles encounter. My husband has a crush on Myrna Loy.

XXII

Of feeding away. These morals, when the living, and he a window veil was melted base.—Though the Eye, new seaweed on the stars.

XXIII

With rod and Infinite? A waxen face, I espye, and times, and think the graue conceal’d they wanderer in his green and its lone way?

XXIV

Yet I shudder but heavily against all your tropical growth. In Will, ’ and Will’ in over the caged yellow with shepherd’s home.

XXV

Blithe would do; but always snow she seemed to his Saint both the bed. Set forth a little was wet with music; the moor; but boundless curl.

XXVI

Where pale flickering film blew out all are laid on the bay where. He may be the hour, when, and thump a league of strife, let not too base?

XXVII

And on a Minion! Light, alone, I married ones to us, are in His hand who saith he, how shall sung. Race of a harsh to you!

XXVIII

-Than till the saving man. For her woes appall’d his steed him bore, prone to suffer. That voice of slaves were sweet black letter lately sent.

XXIX

With the moon, yet light doth proved the fuse inside, to mark if her daughters worship them? Clear fond voices sweetly; i’ll win thee for more.

XXX

That but for us, who his Dominion and seem to tire, dying to Jove aloud. My husband has a crush on Myrna Loy.

XXXI

Said he, Let otherwise. Have not the echoing dispraise because the heart is cut in a cloudless moon. Ah, less—less brighter were.

XXXII

They gave the worst to be a slave among the pearls pale as love with many a light the Line. They would come to time, I added press?

XXXIII

Sweet Robin sits on them noise. Nor wound the lark does rustle through language, that April cloudy seas, when the fact to mind that bred it.

XXXIV

In little army down, than those pinion’d multitude, chewing little of life is sleep. And so they bene men of elder witt.

XXXV

There all unmeet for a tree. But haue ioyed at the first sourse of Chokan: two small red wound alive—for this the Wods with ’haviour soft.

XXXVI

A village smoke, and he heart lies plain, and now, like grace this couple puts together. The Master’s Doings such—the Talk of its eyes.

XXXVII

So by way of Recognition ties a Pumpkin why on You? Thus await fearless for the earth was Indignation, and look out?

XXXVIII

Seen up-close how that true love, hearing; she would be silent all procreative creed, baptize posterity will offer: Pan will be.

XXXIX

The food tree or turned. With my own skin, her pearls. I can the rack and I assure you, being taken in, ’ above the eastern star.

Whose spirits: yet my mother, but take the space made for all. That they can live for all of being, without all are lost, unless you.

XLI

’Er denied the Galaxy.—I meant to have succeed in the dim-gray dawn; but starv’d and mouthingness, tis but capricious lady.

XLII

’ Tongue still fed by my faint, persisted, saying from beneath her orient eyes, thought in? What we love look out at the old gardens.

XLIII

My secret, fearful end must spread wing and press? Never grudge this body displaie, how would an arrows of them burn so chaste, haste away.

XLIV

Nor muffling this happy Love! But I will be, are butterflies to be immoral; now I mean to arise in the Princess!

XLV

I lovèd eyes have a due respect for the pype to dauncen eche one would bear no more, and dews among? And as she rose, the cold sward.

XLVI

Happens, I’m after Day, Design upon paper; and full of grief, and this sharpest dart: with thee anear. Eyes can your beastlyhead.

XLVII

Anna, thy cheek, and lenged to know. Passing by, behold the cause, and further proof we should be told me time it splits—half for fits.

XLVIII

Of something of your gifts shoulders, enough too weak to unlock the full- cavern’d earth we are but in despised poems. Sweetest sigh!

XLIX

Of asphodel, that such a thankful rite may so fall flat, with misty hill. A land of Allah, who, whatever we brave expanse?

I sat a weeping far away, the world’s wealth and woes began, hast thou no place forbeares, as of a foreigners can never last.

Upturns her maternal chains to bind the burying of the sea, the last year the trees and point it at my feet. The tip of one.

LII

—And yet this thing wanted good poetry in vain: they never, never made a new pan. Seen up-close how the tide: and thou scarce palls.

LIII

Their birth of cherubs drawn by Michelangelo that Endymion hear my lamentations. For ever and they seemed to his trayne.

LIV

They cal that light commit ourselves with grasse, the viewless wind. Think all but name,—and I, in truth, the grass and good help, this occasion.

But love: but thou down but up! Sick, am I in no angry mood, nor care for the laughers mimicking through rain and then so high?

LVI

Why urge the kings be crown’d but the dead? Of flowered sharply, and how very bones of war to come a quarter ere his goddess-like.

LVII

My paine still telling place and get all is ycladd with the viands. Look not thilke the crown’d but loued not; I lou’d, but not some couenants make.

LVIII

We part to pay. Hath not grace all would reaching for breathe, will burrow in arms and die a methods and finite microscope, in place?

LIX

His Chamber Heaven! And so may you flie from worldly pleasurings to the earth doth springs: a cheek so fair and gentle reader!

I pluckèd Leutha’s vale: art thou payèd were. Course; and bad at first time we were told that breath of her night, and they gagged his throats will have told.

LXI

Vigorous joys of morning wails Oothoon spread. Harm the worm erect a pillar, her for the same heart’s light blue hills. Full golden eve?

LXII

That ladies wishing forth the coat that you the way a shadow of a dream, for all your ruin I mourn; your faith of a Ghazál.

LXIII

She suffer tyrannie; and thou besides the slowly away into Flight. The Latmian started up: Bright gracious, cruel, tendernesses.

LXIV

A shell was grave, or in the eyes did not envy wished—our king expects you too shall a young child! For, nor in his Youth thou shalt do!

LXV

Climb her lie with sweat or blood! Their Zeale growes weary, wayworn wander in and troubled stream and saw the sofa, dozed, snored.

LXVI

The robes they join, joints doth nye, I hold his State, how great light foot shone like a primate upon the skies. You coward Ioy no longer.

LXVII

Lands and crude to clay. It adds an outward grace those shuffled and like to mind it, knowing dames will all from time than they shall I move?

#poetry #automatically generated text #Patrick Mooney #Markov chains #Markov chain length: 7 #158 texts #tanka sequence

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spricket-central · 4 months ago

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your account is my new obsession lately, so so so many cutie little critters to look at!! 🦗

i was curious how you got into keeping camel crickets? do you keep them together or are they all in individual containers? & what is it like keeping them?

also please tell them all they’re so very lovely and adorable and mystical 🦗 🦗 🦗 🦗 🦗🦗🦗

awwww, thank you im honored! it makes me so happy when people tell me my lil goobers bring them joy :)

where i (and most people) live, Tachycines aaynamorus is actually invasive (they dont appear to be causing any ecological harm though, to my knowledge. very polite!), and i guess they hadnt made their way to my area until around 2019, because it wasnt until i moved into my current apartment not too far from where i grew up that i saw one for the first time. i was laying in bed, saw one ambling by, said "what the fuck is that" out loud, searched "big round cricket," aaaaand... huh. camel cricket? neat.

ive always loved bugs (they were one of my primary hyperfixations as a toddler), so they never scared me, but i didnt have any particularly strong feelings towards them other than that theyre funny lookin until one night when i noticed one on the pillow beside me. she was just calmly grooming herself, and as i watched her i just kinda fell in love? theres just something so endearing about the lil guys. just scared lil beans on stilts, nervously tryna survive in this big, scary world.

from then on, id been toying with the idea of catching one and keeping it as a pet for a while, but never really had the spark to act on it... until a rainy december night in 2019, when i met Crouton.

Crouton was a young nymph, not quite a hatchling, but still very small; about the size of my pinky nail. normally, i would have captured her and released her outside, but it was so rainy, and she was so small...

...so i mangled a tupperware container, gave her a tiny piece of apple and a wet cotton ball, and the rest is history. the next day, i went and got her a proper enclosure, and only a few days later, i ended up also catching an adult pair, Biscuit and Cookie, who i housed separately from her. it had Begun.

all of my current pals are housed separately, so i have a LOT of lil "critter keepers" in my apartment, ahaha. im like that one animal crossing villager that keeps asking you to catch them bugs until their house is full of them.

id like to house some of my adult ladies together as, in my experience, females tend to get along just fine (males can apparently be competitive, so ive never risked cohabitation between multiple males), but i dont feel like i know their distinguishing markings well enough to tell them apart yet (id have to really sit and study them), and its really important to me that i know who everyone is! i love knowing them all by name, as individuals :)

i always keep babies separate though, both because of size differences and because i dont want anyone to disturb anybody else as theyre molting. theyre so soft and vulnerable, and the process itself takes some time (about half an hour, in my experience), so it would be so easy for another spricket to hurt them. i dont wanna risk it!

keeping them is... oh man. its such a delight 💚 again, ive loved bugs all my life, but i never expected insects to have such big personalities? they each have their own individual quirks, preferences, etc. its fascinating! their care is also pretty easy; just gotta give em fresh veggies every few days so theyve got a water source, top off their dry foods when theyre running low, and clean the tanks now and then when they start getting funky. i have ADHD (amongst other things) and have a REALLY hard time keeping on top of even the most basic household tasks, so im very thankful for how low maintenance they are, ahaha.

thanks for the thoughtful ask! these lil guys bring me so much joy, and im so happy they can make other folks happy too! :)

#asks

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postmoderntongues · 5 months ago

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Im reading this thing about ASPD and how like most disorders it presents different in females than males but pretty much the only thing that didn't apply to me as a symptom is a history of criminal violence I have constant volent ideations and intrusive thoughts but apparently in females that behavior can manifest into self harm/masochism instead of violence against others the same way that ND little boys tend to get aggressive where ND little girls are more likely to behave in ED behavior and like what the fuck now i dont know if im BPD or NPD or ASPD and like none of the symptoms really disqualify the others from as far as i understand and i dont think any one set of symptoms is more severe this is horse shit i think they don't even have a name for what's wrong with me that's why they are hitting me with so many labels they are just trying to list shit to explain the symptoms maybe im so fucked up that there's not a name for whatever combination of things i have Jesus wept this is fucked dude im so tired i guess in behavior I act on my BPD the most but in my impulses and their intensity and delusions of grandeur/suicidal inability to cope with living in a world where anybody has more privilege or attention than me and the very real capacity to do something really fucked up/the fact that I do so much shit BEACUSE its shocking and fucked up the fact that I enjoy negative attention and conflict the fact that i get joy out of upsetting people with my art like the thing that keeps me from acting on it isn't empathy i dont think im pretty sure its the fear that i might one day feel empathy and regret something but I felt justified in every thing i did that other people would say was fucked up i dont think i feel guilt i think i just feel shame super strongly and the anxiety of feeling shame Ive never really felt bad about something i got away with i think i get the feeling most people get when they do bad things when I preform imperfectly but like the reason i dont do bad things isn't because i dont want to its because the prospect of punishment deters me and the anxiety about the possibility of feeling guilt or shame or regret and I kind of very much feel like im the only real person and everybody else is in some way a reflection of me and only exists in my perception of them but isn't autonomous and doesn't exist when im not there to perceive. I have such an unstable sense of memory/reality and it fucks with my relationship to the truth and i lie by omission constantly i can't tell people I like things that will make them react negatively and from the time i was very small my response to crisis or trauma was always "telling them won't solve anything and will just make them upset which isn't the perfect performance of social interaction/It's not actually out of control if you can keep it from becoming anybody else's problem" like Im so sick of being scary I want to be lovable but i don't think I ever will be I think the best ill ever manage is to die before i do anything evil

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sunnybubblezzz · 1 year ago

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SUCH A GOOD WEEK

okay well first of all i’ll start with just how great this weekend was. like UGHHESAHDH and then im just gonna say how grateful i am to God because woah im soo happy.

okay well first of all, DUHHH BIRTHDAY WEEK. i genuinely forgot this week was my birthday and MANNASND IM SO HAPPY. like i didnt get to do ALL the things i wanted for my birthday and i didnt get everything i wanted ofcofc but woah this week was amazing.

I GOT TO SEE THE HUNGER GAMES. THAT MOVIE WAS INCREDIBLE and i got to go with two of my close friends. i was really really sad bc i thought we wouldnt be able to go and i DOOO wish more of my friends were able to come with me.

BUT LIKE IT WAS SOOO GOOD AND I LOVE THE FRIENDS WHO CAME WITH ME.

you guys are never gonna see this but i loved that day and it brought me sm joy you have no idea. PLUS I GOT TO SEE SNOW???

my birthday day was eh BUTBUT EVERYONE SENT THEIR BIRTHDAY TEXTS TO ME AND I NO LIE GOT SOO HAPPY. i didnt expect all my friends to remember idk but they did and i was OVERJOYED.

THEN I GOT TO GO ICE SKATING FOR A BIRTHDAY PARTY? it was SOOO nice and was SOO much fun plus that was an amazing time with my friends

and my friend gave me a birthday gift..

I LEGIT SHED TEARS (okay not in front of her but still) LIKE I CANNOT. it was only one person but man sometimes i forget how good it feels to get a gift from someone.

like… im always the one giving gifts but it really really touched my heart to get one from her and I LOVE HER SM AND I CANTTT IT MADE MY DAY.

i love you i really do.

then ofc i saw one of my closest(?) friends (and i lowkey felt we were drifting apart) like FOUR TIMES THIS WEEK BACK TO BACK. okay okay trust me thats a lot for us 💀.

we went to the mall together which was lowkey weird bc she never asks me to hang out like that. AND I GOT THE PERFECTT DRESS LIKE I LOVE IT SMM??

then WE WENT TO THE GENSHIN CONCERT

moment of silence for just how GRATEFUL I AMMM.

i love you SMMSMM for getting me tickets like the opportunity of a lifetime?? ngl i lowkey was kinda mad bc the friend we took wasnt as grateful as i felt she should have been… thats how grateful i was like “how can someone not thank this girlie with all her might”

it was a WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE and im only sad that one of out other friends couldnt go.

I WAS JUST

AHSDHASHDHSDHHS

IT WAS SO GOOOD

okay and now for one of my favorite moments..

okay so we were taking pics with some of the cosplayers and then this other cosplayer talks behind us… i look behind me, look at her cosplay and immediately say, “YING?” AND SHE SAYS YES???

like in the car we were looking at twitter for who’s going and was AMAZED that ying was and hoped we get to see her. I DID NOT EXPECT US TO?

LIKE I JUST RECOGNIZED HER FROM HER VOICE. the last time i listened to this girls voice was months ago but SHHH that’s unimportant.

what ISSS IMPORTANT IS THAT I SAW HER, FANGIRLED OVER HER, SHE CALLED ME PRETTY, THEN I WAS JUST OVERJOYED.

THENNN I WENT HOME, POSTED THE INTERACTION ON TWITTER, AND SHE SAID SHE REMMBERED ME.. HELLO??

LIKE WHY ARE SO MUCH GOOD STUFF HAPPENING TO ME ITS NOT ADDING UP.

i wouldnt call myself an unlucky person (luck isn’t real). but i will say that a lot of unfortunate things happen to me usually and ive just learned to go with the flow. but idk im just just so HAPPY and so GRATEFUL and and im scared that it’ll all get ruined when i wake up but man cant i live in this moment of happiness forever?

then today was just such an amazing day like such a great end to my birthday week i just. im just.

anyway to end it off, one of my friends from a while ago texted me asking if i ever drew this picture for this girl named sarah.. it took a sec, but i recognized the drawing and remembered.

I WAS IN SHOCK IT WAS A LITTLE BIRTHDAY DRAWING I DREW FOR THIS GIRL LIKE YEARSSSSSSS AGO?

she said she really loved it sm, kept it for years, and that i was super nice.

OKAY LIKE I CANT BELIEVE SHE KNOWS THAT ONE OF MY FRIENDS FIRSTLY. BUT SECONDLY WHAT?? LIKE IM JUST FROZEN WITH JOY SHE KEPT MY DRAWING FOR YEARS? not a rip in sight…

its just SO encouraging and so so idek im just so happy.

then to end it off, the artist WHO WAS MY MOST LISTENED TO ARTIST OF 2024 WITH 2,000+ MINUTES OF LISTENING??? SAID SHE WOULD POST MY SKETCHBOOK SPREAD (inspired by her music) ON HER STORY WHEN I FINISHED IT?

i love you God so much.

just i was feeling so down this past idek month or more because i just have such idek its just so much things happen to me and i just have to go along with it and not let it phase me. i feel so much emotions but none of them bring me down yknow? like i have to be happy and i dont FEEL happy…

but this.

this week makes me feel like God loves me and all of these things happened because of Him. I love him and I love all my friends, I really do love all of you guys.

some of you guys DOO get on my nerves, some of you guys ARE confusing, some of you guys are kinda weird, and i do feel like i love some of you more then you love me.. but in the end you guys are my friends. i love you guys.

and i love you God. I love you for everything you do and I dont know why you love me but I’m sososo happy you do. no one will ever love me like you do. thank you for always being there for me. i love you.

and so we end this. i KNOW that ill cry bc of sadness again (probably in the near future ngl) and I KNOWW that this happy feeling wont last. but for right now im gonna treasure it… please ANDDD thank you.

happy birthday to me.

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spirit-shroud · 1 year ago

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What virtual pets are you gaming

HI ive been awake for 2 minutes so this might be incoherent

so of course im a neopets guy, have been for like 19 yrs off and on, and my current account is my longest lasting one i think?? havent just like. forgotten about it and made a new one in like 9 yrs and i have 2 pets i love very much . unfortunately i ran an anime club when i was 14 and it shows but regardless of that, anyone can add me and lmk if you ever need anything! here's the link

this beast right here is my pride and joy his name is Little Nose . everything here costed me 4 million neopoints and took me like 4 very inefficient years of grinding but it was WORTH IT isnt he pretty

this is Tinsel, my other sweet baby boy, he did not cost 4 million neopoints but getting that paint brush and the lil outfit was Unfun

im also a flight rising guy!! idk the lore!! i dont have lore for my den!! i just log in every day and do my silly little dailies and mass produce fodder dragons to make my other dragons play dress up!! this link takes people 2 my favourites tab its where my favourite little guys live. also anyone can add me please send me research note for the love of god. and i'm looking for a gold/garnet/gold or similar coatl for another oc dragon!!

this dragon is midormi they're one of my ocs from a different game, they're small and control time

this dragon is just me if i was a dragon. i think i could've gotten wilder on the colours though. tundras, fae, and guardians are my favourite

LASTLY IM on chickensmoothie now, link takes you to my favourite pets . i'm too afraid to post on the forums or get into trading w/ people i dont know (i count being on tumblr together as 'knowing someone' for the most part) but i have a very expansive wishlist and i hope idk some mysterious and loving figure just so happens to have every pps butterfly dog larva and gives them to me . i also have a lot of duplicates and a tab of free pets if anyone wants any but they only go back to october since thats when i started

i love this thing his name is nugget, and i decided that this thing here

is my. chickensmoothie sona ??? i guess? just bc it can kind of hold a cane and was the first pet i got. his name is coal

idk what other virtual pet sites are out there tbh id love more tho

#kc takes questions

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alright! i’m back!! so here are some kaylory things about the album, from my observation. this is basically just notes so it’s not meant to be comprehensive. rather it’s meant to express what has immediately pinged for me or has stuck in my mind. obligatory disclaimer that i don’t consider myself a song analyst or interpretation expert 😆 they’re just some thoughts.

** i’m taking a break here at writing things now that i’ve touch on roughly half the songs and i’ll circle back and add in stuff as i can! **

-Fortnight: i love you it’s ruining my life is kaylor coded because the nature of their relationship and the political angle that hit them in 2016 really did ruin their lives. and both taylor and karlie would have had to have given up important things in favor of their relationship. move to Florida, buy the car you want is kaylor coded because karlie got a place in miami and was stationed there during much of the pandemic, google her name and miami and you’ll see a bunch of pics of the place and her at the place and when she has been there. also it was pointed out that buy the car you want sound kind of like by the kar you want. one of karlie’s known nicknames is kar (this is documented in video interviews), and has been an ongoing motif in other songs (hits different for example, or getaway kar, if anyone wants a throwback). anyway so “move to florida by the kar you want” is kaylor coded.

-The Tortured Poets Department: idk what to tell you man but i sense karlie’s presence in this song in taylor’s voice. maybe some people out there can relate. there are songs where i just feel i am hearing taylor sing with a different tone to her voice that feels like karlie. i see this song as from her perspective. who else decodes you? is kaylor coded because… karlie codes! she owns a programming education nonprofit (kode with klossy), its a huge part of her personality. the line i chose this cyclone with you is connected to a lot of the storm imagery that we associate with kaylor in particular over the 2026-2018 period, in songs like CIWYW, MAATHP, DBATC. i also feel renegade in this song. the idea that karlie was there for taylor’s darkest night, which ive discussed here before. and who’s gonna hold you? feels like a continuation of the idea that karlie has been there for taylor through her sadness. [who’s] gonna troll you? is so kaylor coded to me because of all the shenanigans they are perpetually up to in terms of leaving easter eggs in their art and on social media. sometimes, i wonder if you're gonna screw this up with me connects to cruel summer and suburban legends, both kaylor songs in my interpretation, tattooed golden retriever feels like a reference to the golden tattoo mentioned in dress, the gold temp tats that taylor and karlie wore to drake’s birthday party back in 2016.

-My Boy Only Breaks His Favorite Toys: i thought the lines put me back on my shelf, but first, pull the string, and I'll tell you that he runs, because he loves me was really reminiscent of vance joy’s riptide: “this cowboy’s running from himself, and she’s been living on the highest shelf” which ties back to this seminal kaylor moment from back in 1989 era where she covered riptide on beats one, when her and karlie were very publicly hanging out. as for the rest of the song i just think it’s thematically fun to see taylor singing a song about her boy breaking toys, no reason in particular 😌.

- Down Bad: to me this song felt very post-kissgate. the alien abduction metaphor here i think this is just meant to evoke the feeling of being so entirely on for it all to suddenly have to disappear. the vogue cover releasing so soon after kissgate evoking the “lost twin” line, crying at the gym also evokes images from that timeframe where we got more than a few candids of them going to and from the gym together, and that glass closeting having to stop. so it’s in the vein of a hits different, or even a death by a thousand cuts. the trying to find a part of her life karlie didn’t take up, the signs being so obvious, and then all at once having to close up shop on things suddenly. there are other things about the song that ping. indecent exposures” hearkens to all the lingerie modeling and the several topless shoots she’s done, for example 🤭 and “hostile takeovers” feels reminiscent of karlie’s business acquisitions and ventures. oh also as i mentioned at the top, was really something how karlie walked in an alien themed schiaparelli show several months ago. and on ttpd release day karlie had photos on social media backed with alien themes songs. these sorts of things.

-But Daddy I Love Him: it’s a song about being in love with someone that her fans hate and her telling them she’d rather burn her life down than to listen to one more second of their bitching and moaning. she also dangles the potential of a baby out there to sit with everyone for a few seconds, just to scandalize everyone. conveniently, she wheeled out matty for a few months and all the attention has gone there, or gaylors might say oh this is her singing about gay love in the abstract. but i can’t help but laugh at how once again these groups of people seem to wholly not notice taylor screaming out that she doesn’t care what these people think about who she’s dating, when that’s been like the entire conceit of kaylor for years. somehow taylor’s mad as hell at everybody’s judgment except their own!

- Fresh Out The Slammer: this song deserves it own post.. but initial thoughts are just that the criminal outlaw theming carries through with this song as it has with all the other criminal themed kaylor music. and it’s a crime themed song with a twist: someone’s getting out! it’s hopeful! also i get hints of renegade? the idea that karlie carried taylor through her darkest night. also the song ends with an instrumental moment that is so YAIL coded, yail being a quintessential song for kaylors.

-Florida!!: a song about getting away with crimes in a state where half your friends are new parents. seems thematic.

-I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can): just wanted to add it here that i enjoyed the line his hand softly traces hearts on my face 😌 but no, one thought i had about this song is just this picasso thing we have seen in taylor’s work, the idea that taylor as an artist shaped the way karlie was perceived by her fans, through lyrics but also through stuff like feuding narratives, or other circumstances, assuming that in her power she could fix it all, that perception, when the time comes, but that perhaps at some point she had a moment, a realization, that maybe she can’t entirely. that some stuff morphed to be out of her hands.

-Guilty As Sin: it doesn’t have to be about kaylor, but if i were to try and find a kaylor takeaway, i might suggest that “i keep recalling things we never did” pokes fun at the reality that it’s so hard to deny how much of a part of her public life karlie was, how obvious kissgate was at the time, etc. it’s giving Hits Different (make it make some sense), it’s giving DBATC (tryin to find a part of me that you didn’t touch). so like, if we are going to go ahead with the narrative that kaylor never formulated, then there’s nothing wrong with taylor having pined for her all this time, right? it becomes a way of drawing kaylor through any number of pr relationships she might have to justify going forward

-loml: it’s sort of hard to summarize this song in a smart and succinct way and i’ve had it marinating for the time being but i think the bigger picture is that if people were to call this a kaylor breakup song, they’d also have to concede that taylor is admitting karlie is the love of her life. so tactically, it brings the narrative closer to the setup needed for a reunion. separate from this there are parts of the song that make me think it’s from karlie’s perspective, and that it might give more color to the 2018-2019 time period, and a string of songs i think depict her perspective and position/circumstances. not for nothing, karlie dressed up as dorothy last halloween which could be a nod to the cowardly lion line, from a flipped perspective. anyway that’s just a little unnecessary confetti for ya. so i’ve been letting this one simmer a bit, let the flavors develop 😌

-I Can Do It With A Broken Heart: this song has a great general overall thing to say about the entertainment industry. i also think it can be a song informed by specific experiences. my mind is blanking now but i saw a thing or two about how this could just as easily be about rep tour! oh right i think it was about how her stage performance of the song she’s wearing black and gold, classic rep tour colors. and how through rep tour there were some events and developments that would have absolutely been difficult to perform through!

-The Alchemy: there are a few phrases that pinged— (worst sleep that she ever had at a where?) — and general theming suggesting a set up for a reunion: what if i told you you’re cool, haven’t come around in so long, making a comeback to where i belong, the sign on your heart said its still reserved for me. also a minor point that the line “ditch the clowns get the crown” reminded me of ciwyw (they took the crown but it’s alright) and peace (robbers to the east clowns to the west) as reminiscent of the ongoing arc with scooter and the clock running out on scooter’s sunset clause.. when scooter’s sunset clause is up on karlie’s contract, what might happen? from a completely different perspective, the song seems to thematically foreshadow trav in an eerie way considering the timeline for when the song would have been written, which casts doubt on the organic nature of his tenure. not that i needed convincing 😆 also there’s the idea of seeing the song from karlie’s perspective. that upon returning she would kick all the amateurs that were propped up to represent or to cover for her being the muse, even though they never measured up. they all couldn’t reproduce the gold that she emanates. so yeah, there are some fun ways to listen to this song.

-imgonnagetyouback: “I can feel it coming, humming in the way you move, push the reset button, we're becomin' something new, say you got somebody, I'll say I got someone too, even if it's handcuffed, I'm leavin' here with you, bygones will be bygone, eras fadin' into gray, we broke all the pieces, but still wanna play the game, told my friends I hate you, but I love you just the same, pick your poison, babe, I'm poison either way” is SO kaylor reunion coded it makes me want to walk myself out to sea. also, the beginning of the song, the grammar of it, comes off awfully ambiguous about the gender of who she’s singing about. oh and “smash up your bike” evoked for me the image of the karlie doppelgänger in the YNTCD music video, pedaling the exercise bike. at the time we all discussed how it worked as a metaphor for karlie biding her time during the 2016-2020 trump presidency that brought stuff to a halt for them.

-Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus: i wrote some initial thoughts about this song here!

-thanK you aIMee: there’s an eye theory joke going on 😌

-The Bolter: i think the bolter works as a fun sort of bearding anthem, more so long london that So Long London is, a sort of recapping or retelling of the legend of taylor swift, the american celebrity that plowed through a series of british beards following basically the same script for each of them. i feel like every other expression in this song is a british english-ism, which contributes to this impression. but also, on a more meta level i think it’s possible that this song is taylor’s answer as to why she’s the kind of person who “stormed out of every single room in this town” as she touches on in Daylight. i think it’s noteworthy that the song is structured as an explanation that takes into account how the bolter’s upbringing informed the kind of person they grew up to be. not to say that taylor absolutely has to be the bolter, but i think it is a demonstration of taylor’s understanding of basic psychiatry and therapy, of which she said in lover era that she’s had none. but i can’t help but wonder if that’s changed. its my belief that after lover era taylor likely did some personal work, which probably led to songs such as renegade and anti hero, and the songs i consider karlie perspective songs, as a way of sort of… getting on the same page and strengthening communication between the two of them.

-Robin: presented without further explanation as none is necessary 🤧🤧🤧

-The Manuscript: this song works well as a song about the process of All Too Well and her memories being shaped by act of singing it for the fans. and it feels like in general, yes, it’s about the process of writing songs to process her feelings. it matches a lot of the speeches and talks she’s given about the very process. separately, i wonder if there isn’t something in there about how she writes fiction to protect her reality. i also noticed some keyword similarities to long story short. i think there is something inherently kaylor about the process of writing and choosing what narratives to continue forward with in the long process of writing the through line of their story that will bring them back together publicly. years of tearing down banners, turning people into ideas, rewriting, pages turning and sticking to each other. writing of others through a version of what she knows. idk it’s just so…i can’t pinpoint it but it just fits really well into my kaylor worldview. and i would say the song ends on a hopeful note. that at last, when all the actors finally act out the manuscript (the plan) right, that the audience will understand the performance and empathize and, taylor will at last know what the agony had been for. taylor sings about taking one last trip to “your shores” and i think this might be intended as a plural form of your. that after penning out the latest narrative, it represents a souvenir of the shores of all the versions of the characters she created for that story. and she reflects that this narrative isn’t hers, isn’t reflective of the total true narrative, but that it was worth the agony. suggesting that something in her life was worth going through all this trouble for.

i need help. i’m so slow at unpacking the songs & their lyrics but you guys seem so confident that Kaylor lives. mind sharing lyrics or interpretations that you make you feel confident?

i think i speak for a lot of kaylors when i say we weren’t going into this album thinking we were all in some make or break situation, where the songs would be what decides whether or not kaylor lives. and we haven’t come out of it feeling different! so for starters, the very process of processing the songs is a bit different, i think, than the process suggested in your question.

this post got kinda long so i’m going to put it under the cut! and just a tl;dr that i am just talking about this aforementioned process. i’ve started writing out interpretations for the songs that have caught my kaylor attention but it’s taking time, so i thought id go ahead and post the other aspect of my answer in the meantime

a big part of kaylor interpretation is taking a look at what taylor and karlie were doing over the period of time that an album was written and the lead up to album rollout, and seeing if it looks like karlie knew in advance about what would be on the album, or how it would be promoted. the fundamental idea is that if taylor and karlie truly hated each other like everyone insists, that they wouldn’t go out of their way to drop hints or allow one another to drop hints.

so for example, karlie started wearing this pair of sunglasses with the product name “poet” before the name of the album (the tortured poets department) was ever known. she walked in two schiaparelli runway shows (the significance being that these days its rare for her to walk a show, and she’s never walked for schiaparelli before although she’s been to their shows in years of late), one of these schiaparelli shows was specifically alien themed, which lines up with the theming of Down Bad, and then next taylor announced the tortured poets department at the grammys wearing custom schiaparelli (i don’t think taylor’s ever worn the house before). so like, these sorts of things don’t make sense until later but they are signs we look to as a backdrop when going into an album. they are a sort of most recent indicator of the state of the union.

historically (especially post 2019 when what i call the scorched earth narrative was disseminated) people looking to disprove kaylor tend to brush off this stuff (twinning, similar theming or messaging in social media, etc) as oh it’s coincidental, but even if it’s not, any kaylor things that happen now are just because taylor is grieving and desperate for karlie and/or karlie wants notoriety because she wants… more money. but as i’ve said and as many have said for the past 5 years, it makes no sense and is such a misread of drivers for karlie and taylor. i beg people to try and put themselves in karlie’s shoes and ask themselves, would you endure all the hate for… more… money?? would you fly across the country and go to taylor’s concert two weeks post-partum, in a state of physical disrepair just to… spite her?? and have millions of people send hate at you for it..?

anyway, i know this is different than lyric analysis but it’s an integral part of kaylor analysis so i wanted to highlight it. i’d also point out that a whole bunch of people are currently analyzing her entire back catalog re: matty context clues in the same ways so 🤷🏻‍♀️ i think it’s a natural tendency for a lot of people— with kaylor though it’s outlawed.

and i want to reiterate that i think observing the time surrounding the album is a particularly worthwhile thing to do because it takes into account a more recent period of time than that of which the songs represent. i think people can get tunnel vision analyzing an album or individual songs and lose sight of the fact that we are here now after the album has been written. the lyrics are not the most recent thing!

another point i feel that needs mentioning is that with kaylor, among kaylors, we are looking at recent albums more for signs of taylor weaving a story of them that leads to them getting back together publicly. the idea that we are probably not going to get some big reveal that oh everything prior was fake! we have always been together! but rather some separate telling of events that preserves the integrity of people involved to some extent. so there are likely several layers going on when looking at songs. a mix of truth and augmented truths. songs can be useful towards meeting an end goal without telling the entire truth, while the fact that they are useful is still an indicator of the meta truth. i know this sounds a little convoluted... but thats alright im not invested in proving it to people 🙈 (nor do i think it should be provable!!)

lastly, while i am still compiling all my kaylor observations from each song, i did want to point out the obvious: that my understanding of the album (and i assume this is true for more kaylors as well) is colored by the inclusion of the song Robin. …i guess i will mince my words a little bit because i consider it a sensitive subject but basically, it’s a song about something that we would expect taylor would be singing about if they’re together in the way we understand it to be, given what we have been shown. and some of the lyrics are so specific to this… far flung idea… and such a contemporary development… that it sort of works to recontextualize any of the songs on ttpd that would otherwise feel breakuppy? because it pushes the story so far forward in matching our understanding. the hardest songs are easier to see as emblematic of the past, and the path that led us here to the present. in this way, at least for me, it makes it easier to appreciate the kaylor easter eggs going on in the songs as emblematic of kaylor, as opposed to litigating them and filing them one by one, because i truly believe taylor would not release Robin if kaylor was actually over. same goes for recurring motifs throughout the album (and midnights, and you might also include folkevermore as well) related to what robin is about. might sound weird to say but you could almost make a drinking game out of the motif, honestly, given how often she does it throughout the album.

i know the whole thing is wild. i have accepted this and im not out here to push it on people 😌 though i do leave the porch light on for people passing by. because for years now, with each new album people continue to say oh this is the kaylor breakup album, oh she’s finally over it, and then i guess they get amnesia by the time the next album comes along and kaylor themes yet again persist. and idk, to me, kaylor just being together this whole time is actually one of the least complicated outcomes.

anyways, in conclusion, apologies for not providing a song by song analysis right away 🙏 but i wanted to put out this part in the meantime. i don’t expect everyone to agree with this premise but i think it’s key to understanding how a lot of us approach this album. i hope it provides a little insight into my perspective! 🫶

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Hello! Happy June! It's Pride and I have another question (7/30)

Hello hello, today we are going to take a dive into the word "Gay".

The word gay dates back all the way to the 12th century, and comes from the Old French word "Gai" meaning "full of joy or mirth". This word might have evolved from the Old German word "Gahi" meaning "impulsive", however this is unconfirmed.

This was in use for centuries to mean any version of happy, carefree, mirthful, joyful or bright, and didn't have any sexual/sexuality link until roughly the 1600s.

At that point, the "carefree" gay started being used to call a person immoral or promiscuous, and the Oxford English Dictionary defined it at the time as "addicted to pleasure and dissipations. Often euphemistically: of loose and immoral life". So, a prostitute eventually became known as a "gay woman", and somewhat ironically now, a "gay man" was a womanizer or a man who had a lot of sex with woman (especially prostitutes). This also meant that a "Gay House" was a perfectly normal way of saying "Brothel", and this is also where the word "Gaiety" comes from ("lively celebration or festivities" <- it is a common word in theatre names nowadays).

Then in the 1890s, the term "Gey Cat" ("gey" was a Scottish version of "gay") was used to refer to a "younger man in the company of an older man" or a man who offered sexual services in return for food/protection. Because of the implications of "sexual submission2 in the first definition, this phrase is thought to be the origin of "gay" as "homosexual", rather than just as "sexual deviant".

In 1951, the Oxford English Dictionary for the first time defined "gay" as slang for "homosexual", but this usage was in less mainstream communities at least 30 years earlier, specifically in US prisons and homeless camps.

"Bringing Up Baby" in 1938 is probably the first movie to use "gay" in its modern context. Cary Grant wears a lady's feathery robe in one scene, and when asked why he ad-libbed "Because I just went gay". (<- however, it is unlikely that "mainstream audiences" understood this, and likely thought he meant the carefree definition)

So, with all these definitions, I want to ask you, what makes you feel ""gay""? (any definition you want! :))

Happy Pride 🌈 🎉

what an interesting history lesson! i really liked this one. idk if anything much makes me feel gay bc it's not one of the main words i identify with but in the carefree sense it's got to be when im in a certain moment and im not worrying about the past or the future or things i have to get done. ive been trying to think of when i feel this way and it's tough bc ive come to realize that im an anxious person and i live a high stress life with the career path im in but i think the closest i come to the carefree feeling is when im deep into reading a book and fully in the world that story has built

#i will say tho when i see a very attractive woman i do feel gay lol #asks #these are fun ☺️

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ctommy-chileno · 2 years ago

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Here's a list of some ongoing fanfictions I've been following if you want some literature

(Ongoing as in. Updated in the past month or this month)

Butterfly Reign: You know this one, it's the angst full and oddly yellow one. I always end up finding out it updated a day before it released how does that keep happening?. It's a good read, the characters get deeper the more you read it, and yet even with all their hidden lore and ok ish intentions I still want them to suffer because I'm a spiteful bitch. Unreliable narrator to you I believe him.

In the name of the fucking moon: Its a magical girls AU with the benchers and the family, more on the old school monster of the week type of magical girls but with continuity. If you imagine the scenes in your head while reading please add an 80's anime filter over it. Fun to read 👍 I got halfway through and I'm waiting for it to finish so I can binge it.

Guided evolution: Only read this if you have a lot of free time or the time management skills of a lawyer because this here is 300.000+ words and incredibly good. Every chapter I do nothing but worry for my spider son. Hasn't he been through enough I ask, while seeing I'm on chapter 52 out of 75. I know the answer, and it only serves to hurt me.

How to be the biggest trainer ever: Crimeboys go in a pokemon adventure. A very friendly fun read, like the pokemon anime but with your favourite white boys having fun 👍the world is set on gen 1 I think, so use that soundtrack

The stars and their children: Ive only read till chapter 5 and that's enough to know its good (also the fact that I follow the author here on tumblr so I get spoiled every once in a while hehe) This one is more sandduo focused and it has cool sci fi monarchy and it's also very near to end?? I didn't know that. Guess I'll get up to date then. Star tommy did nothing wrong I haven't seen him do much of anything but if he does in the other 19 chapters be aware he did nothing wrong

By the morrow: this one is weird and interesting in the most enticing way possible. What the fuck is going on. I must know all the reasons behind what is happening here. It can be quite macabre so be aware. I only found this one because the author posted the updates to tumblr. Oh yeah the synopsis, superhero au where the ctommy is a nobody who dies and fucks around the town in his ghost form but shit hits the fan incredibly quickly.

Who the ever loving fuck made me a prince: Its an Isekai yipee, our main boy (el ctommy) reads a book where a kid prince dies. L. Then he wakes up as that same kid!!! Oh no!!! Good news is he's reincarnated right in baby zone so he has plenty of time and skill to make sure won't die 👍, its fun, if you like isekais and don't mind some anime trope baby ism then you will live another day

Proof that life hates tommyinnit personally: This is a mystery!!! Spooky!! With touches of angst, perhaps more than some touches but hey the thrill!! The search!! I enjoy the use of the "it's not paranoia if they're really put to get you" tag. Its one of those fics that if it ever gets dropped I would go to the authors house to ask how was it supposed to end. I need. To know. Oh yeah summary: el ctommy is homeless and has many friends in a local mall who don't know that. This is only one (1) of his problems as he's recently gained a stalker, and everything points to being someone he knows ?? Question mark?? Fun.

TommyInnit's Declassified Vigilante Survival Guide: Ah a good old vigilante fic, just like mama used to make. it checks all the marks: benchtrio living together, villain sbi, when the family is founded, heroes yet bad?? and introducing a cool new power to the boy, what a joy! It is funny and it is cool

Our love it's like a burning sun: you've heard of racconinnit, birdinnit, ratinnit, cat shifter innit, possumi- hm I haven't heard that actually, anyways get ready for Red Panda innit, here's a red panda shifter who runs away from mean kingdom and goes to nice kingdom where he can find some family. And sometimes that's all you need to face the horrors

Thunder on my bones: ANOTHER superhero au listen man this one is good trust me. We have superhero boy being sidekick to mean superhero then gets moved to nice family of superheroes and the family is found :)) but also there's villains that want to fuck him up , uh oh! How will they found the family in this conditions! I also really like the design of the tommy superhero outfit, it has a really nice detail that I love imagining in my head ^^

There are more but these are long and easy to get into

#tommyinnit #sbi #sleepy boys inc #crimeboys #longpost #it is a long ass post #i follow some of these authors on tumblr and some on twitter #so ill always be aware qhen its update time

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