#<- that was the ocd talking guys

[paging-possum]

I love ocd interpretations of things. I’m not going to talk about it in depth publicly. But know that the ocd lens can be soooo fascinating sometimes.

[housewifemd]

imo.... house has a fair bit more empathy than wilson. this bothers both of them immensely.

i think house is easy to perceive as unempathetic because his actions are often counter to acting with empathy or at least like... seem that way. but i think this is kind of a mistake and also kind of diminishes his responsibility in his actions? he absolutely understands when he's hurting people on purpose and he knows how they feel- that's, in part, why he does it. he is very hurt when people around him suffer in real ways and gets incredibly distracted by it. house lashes out when people are suffering in ways he cant meaningfully change because it hurts him and hurting that person is causing an emotion he has control of.

in my opinion wilson has a pretty normal amount of empathy for a doctor, which i think is maybe slightly less than an average person. i think he feels a kind of void about this though and i think he massively obsesses over being a good-enough person; wants to think morally good thoughts and feel morally good things and one of those things (to him) is a level of empathy he doesn't really have. i think this perceived failure leads him to extremes to compensate (like give up a large piece of his liver to a patient who sucks)

[rabbitrah]

Honestly the past several years I've seen an uptick in people straight-up demonizing eating disorder sufferers. I only see eds mentioned if it's in the context of accusing something/someone of trying to cause eating disorders or covertly hide their eating disorder or a recovered person saying "look at me when I had an ed I was so so so sick but I'm not sick now I'm normal now I'm a better person now" or other people implying that eating disorders are like? A choice??? That someone participates in so that they can make other people feel bad (?) Like I feel like we've reached the point where people can only acknowledge their ed if they're putting ashes on their head the whole time and saying "I'm not a bad person I'm not a bad person I'm not a bad person."

[unrestrainedbalderdash]

Arkhamverse Riddler is a romance-repulsed aro, the only date he needs to go on is Sondate

[insomniac-dormouse]

It them!!!!

[belleandsaintsebastian]

trying to be kind to my brain but it’s really really hard bc i hate it. soooo much at the moment

[liquidstar]

a friend who'd wait :)

[teddybeartoji]

at what point should one go and get tested for ocd...................

[scarecrowbutch]

one day i will properly introduce jay to the world. she's so important to me guygs you dont vevn know

[paging-possum]

was going to start writing an essay about the possible overlap between christianity and OCD and then I remembered im on Tumblr dot com and also a fucking idiot when it comes to putting things into words

[kaunisbaby]

every night i dream that im travelling to random countries for blind channel shows. my brain is obviously still processing the tour lol

[07170]

just finished kristen ghodsee’s why women have better sex under socialism and i must say it bordered on mediocre. i liked the first few chapters before she got a little libral with it all. hopefully red valykrie is better since i like the format of history books/memoirs more than opinion based books.

if anyone has any good books on the troubles/the IRA plz reccomend⬇️⬇️

[shroomerr]

This spotify wrapped fomo is driving me insane because I KNOW for a fact that my combined listening time on soundcloud qnd youtube IS NOT 70K MINUTES

[pipcoded]

being a trans guy kind of sucks bc cis people dont see me as a guy and gay guys dont see me as a gay guy and other people in the queer community think trans guys dont suffer and have access to all this privilege and there's so many jabs against trans guys even on tumblr disguised as jokes and its seen as cringe to be transmasc or anything associated with them and even other trans guys talking abt how we're dangerous meanwhile i live w my abuser who constantly makes misogynistic comments abt me and uses my identity against me to humiliate me and has physically assaulted me for being a trans guy and i feel guilty even posting this bc i feel like people will think im whining over nothing and maybe even contributing to something harmful and dangerous meanwhile ive wanted to kill myself the moment i started going through puberty and i feel completely broken and alone and doesnt that fucking mean something

[smile-files]

this might be a hot take... but if you care about disavowing media made by bad people out of fear of looking like a bad person yourself more than you care about actually doing good things... you might have your priorities (and your morals) screwed up a bit :/

(see my tags for more of my thoughts on this topic! please try to avoid making make bad-faith assumptions about what i mean!)

[amzarashi]

there's this thing where you can't say certain words or phrases or breathe a certain way or touch something for too long or nudge the book that's been collecting dust on your bedside for two years because anything and everything could turn the world against you

i can't sleep at night because my breathing doesn’t feel right and the prayer i said five times in row doesn’t feel right so i have to get up open the door turn the lights on retrace my steps until my feet start aching from how bad i need it all to make sense to fall into place to not hurt the people i care about because guilt makes your heart sink like stone and i still haven't learned how to swim

fox reads me poetry until fox is all i think about until the world isn't so scary and the static in my brain is quiet i tell fox good night i say i love you but it's rarely there so i say it again over and over because repetition speaks things into existence until it piles up on top of each other until i can gather it all in my hand and squish it together like putty and use it to close up everywhere the hurt is leaking through

exposure therapy sucks. it's not that i can't touch door knobs or cross the threshold or have to wash my hands so many times or that i have to click the lock and turn the bathroom lights on and the bedroom lights off and the doorway lights on and the people around me have to say good night with an inflection that tells me i won't die tomorrow because i don't know what my brain wants more often than not

words have so much weight and i haven't told anyone i love them and meant it because i’m scared if i do i will doom them to my fate of picking at nails and skin so i use loopholes like my life depends on them. i say it with breaks in between. the pauses are periods so it's a string of words not a curse set into motion it'd be nice to breathe without having to think about what i can or cannot say

instead i send poetry, i say read the orange by wendy cope listen to 400 lux by lorde it's not a love language because language was made to share love babel was a death sentence there are many words i want to say but can't say but roland barthes says, i've got nothing to say to you but it's to you i want to say this nothing