#<- excluding my online friends

[kamikazeonwings]

girl i barely ate at all yesterday. and i cant stomach dinner. and i cant ask my family to make me to the store so i can buy something im fine eating because they wont fucking care anyways. and like. i think i should just die

[carnivalls]

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See the thing is. I know I'm good at writing. Like I have my weak areas or things I need to improve in, but it's not a skill I otherwise spend a lot of time feeling insecure about because a) if I don't believe in my writing literally who will b) if I want to publish my writing I ought to at least feel a resting level of good about it because editors and agents likely will not be cradling my face like a prize cat and telling me how talented I am while asking for their edits c) I've always had an audience for my writing even at its worst– I started sharing my original works online when I was around 16 & that really helped sell to me the idea of 'there will always be someone out there who likes what you do' d) untalented men never think this hard about the quality of their works and they always end up published anyway and e) I don't have many other thoroughly developed skills so why not have one I feel good about. Having said this. Awkward feeling to realize you're one of the authorial weak links in your postgraduate creative writing degree's social circle

[lemonynuggets]

makes me so insane when I see people bullying others for existing like. Does this person’s existence hurt you this much. Do you really have the primordial need of shaming anyone that’s slightly different from you. Do you feel that much rage seeing someone else be happy.

[cowardlycowboys]

more mutuals should just gossip about whatever with me cause I'm nosy and like to be a part of things

[sailoreuterpe]

I wish that I had the energy and time to do the BB questions. It's been a long week. I miss creating. I miss interacting with people.

[disruptxrr]

i loveee scott n oppie n kj aaaaaaughhhhhhhhhhh

[ottosbigtop]

don’t know how 2 say “if I unfollow u as a mutual I promise it’s nothing personal” without just saying it but like. If u primarily rb unrelated stuff frum art I might unfollow from time 2 time (esp if it’s a lot of discourse related stuff) bc I’m becoming increasingly aware of how bad I am at monitoring and filtering my own racing thoughts when it comes to viewing an excessive amount of discourse posts. I will still check in and rb and probably even refollow once I get my brain set back on track but yah. If this means anything

[vacalimpia]

having my college friends like the posts where im rambling really hits me on how bizarre it must be to see how i am online compared to how i behave with people im not close to in real life lolol its a bit embarrassing when in person im very tame and soft spoken while online i speak in such a way it makes me seem LOUD😭 well, when you compare those two at least, im not too sure if it is percieved that way in general www.

irls who im not very close to if you see how i act online no you didn't 😢. please pretend you get to know this side of me gradually in a satisfying character arc.😢

[direwombat]

being an adult who doesn't go to bars and doesn't use any dating apps makes having a social life so fucking hard a;lfkjasdf i hate it

[charliesangelsisbetter]

Every day I get more and more upset that I can’t play BG3 yet. Someone deliver a PC to my house IMMEDIATELY.

[natugood]

Making me think about the people I knew as a teenager is the best way to unlock any repressed anger or hate in my heart

[sawpedal]

i am literally so scared of people when i am not actively with them. thinking of talking to them or texting them stresses me the fuck out

my mood somewhat depends on what the overall vibe is and how others are feeling, and I rarely feel good on my own. so if i talk to someone over text without seeing them recently i will literally be so scared and feel like they Hate™️ me so much and don't wanna be talking to me. i may be projecting but like. literally leave me alone unless u need something I'M SCARED OF TALKING TO U!!!! AAHH!!!

[timeloop-angel]

Dude I'm reading this self help book called "The Art of Loneliness" and dont get me wrong, there are many parts that are good. But there also parts like this:

That makes me raise my eyebrows. Thats a lot of assumptions there ma'am

[drop--pop--candy]

trying my hardest to cut back on vent posts but holy fuck the Horrors

[cyanomys]

yes, there are that many really disabled people on the internet actually

When I was less sick I used to think, "It seems like such a large portion of people on the internet are disabled, it can't possibly be that large of a percentage of the population" and then let my ableism demons tell me it was because they were faking (the same ones that told me I was faking, until I made myself really ill.)

But now that I'm sicker and wiser I realize I was logically just wrong because

The internet is disabled people's lifeline. There are more disabled people on the internet because OF COURSE. People who aren't disabled can be less chronically online because they don't have to be. This is textbook selection bias!

But actually also I was almost right, because there are way more disabled people in society than you would think! They're just systematically hidden and excluded from public spaces for abled peoples' convenience! 🙃

Anyway maybe this will help you understand and/or explain to abled friends and family.

[gureshinlover]

It's been a while since i've been angry at someone