#<- children's horror is of such interest to me.)

[iridescentscarecrow]

rambling post but wow. really fun dynamic to the yoru-asa switch this time. yoru blushing, typecast as a girl in love. "you're cute when you cry" completely at odds with denji's strangled grief.

yoru's attempted commiseration with denji's frustration: "i felt hopeless too. lost people who were like family to me." the family she's lost that we're privy to from previous chapters, the gun & the tank, her children whom she propertises & claims the life of. the claiming statement being one that asa reacts to with horror. it's so interesting how she mourns her family, almost horrifically laughable how she turns to denji & tells him about how he'll get over it. just like she did!

asa using the same trick she did in 167 at this point, harming her own body to force yoru out. the commiseration differs so startlingly here. denji's initial statement was: "i'm hopeless" — attaching his frustration with himself to the statement, faulting himself for what happened. yoru's "i felt hopeless" cuts away yoru's own self so neatly. fairly certain these are her children she's referring to — since the sisters are the horsemen, & even if she doesn't particularly mean gun & tank, these are the same children whose lives she thinks she owns. there's a charming earnestness to yoru here.

asa, meanwhile, tells denji about how she blames herself for the death of her family. her mother.

there's no way she can get over that.

grief & past traumas lingering in your tastebuds (see: the falling devil), eased by the crapburger that the chainsaw man describes to asa & that asa describes back to denji in turn... eating, tied to this. both living on & feeling, the toast with too much jam denji tells pochita about, miri's steak, the crapburgers, the fish. eating, too, a manner of digesting grief. denji fills up his stomach with his traumas, the dishes that falling prepares (the shadow of aki & power denji briefly remembers in those chapters hinting at <this>), makima in the apartment kitchen, nayuta on the conveyor belt. pochita unhinges his jaw & swallows up this past, the snow devil, makima's mouth, and all that bitterness for denji. and the boy's stomach can't keep it all in, barem stuffed denji up in the restaurant. it comes out as vomit.

[ceoandslutler]

Shit i hope u get depression then slit ur wrist open u child loving fucktard

On god a drunk driver needs to smash u in between a tree before u rape a kid, you fr need to die

Fucking nasty ass pedo, literally Diddy Jr fucking off urself u pedo cunt

this doesn't really affect me but it's kinda funny how it's not ending. anyway in light of this happening, i would like to remind you that i am a real person.

hi, my name is sayé, im an adult gen z who's currently studying in university. i was born, raised and live in london and have two parents i love a lot. i also have a lot of friends but i used to be badly self conscious when i was a child so i tried to be more confident/reach out to others and ended up making friends with lots of different types of people.

my favourite colour is purple but i also like gray (if you couldn't tell lol). i really like queen esp a night at the opera and a day at the races (my fave albums!!) and have a huge crush on freddie mercury. also im a loser who listens to bts and have their posters in my room next to freddie 😭 i can do a mean serve and play really good tennis so much that in secondary school i was banned from serving during PE. i suck at baking but my best friend is an avid baker (so is my mum). BUT i can cook a delicious minted steak. my mum scolds me for always making my food too spicy. my dad always brings me a red bull whenever he sees me and loves ruffling my hair. my mum and i watch horror movies together every week (but my dad is too scared to watch them). i buy homeless people food whenever i can. i really want a cat but i don't have time for one. my favourite holiday is nowruz but i also love christmas because the street decorations in london are so nice. like most brits, i love princess diana but hate the monarchy. i used to watch "a place in the sun" often (british telly win). speaking of, i adore 5 oclock in the morning by lily allen. it's one of my favourite songs. fun fact i adore playing rhythm games and im really good at mobile ones but suck at osu!, also i may be addicted to dave the diver 😭 i love seafood, esp smoked basa, my mum fries it for me every nowruz (since fish and herb rice is our cultural new years' dish)

here's some of my most recent conversations w different friends that aren't too personal (no hate to law students LMAO)

i am a "normal" person. i live a "normal"* life. if you saw me face to face, you would not say this to me.

*by normal i just mean everyday, obviously norms are just social constructions but ykwim

if you saw a young adult w their friends, you wouldn't have the gall to even approach them.

if you saw me out w my sweet middle aged parents, you would think we're just a happy family.

i am a real human being.

i was part of this fandom since i was a kid. this blog is new but it does not contain anything explicit about fictional children/minors doing sexual acts. because i am not interested in that personally. it doesn't mean i will police anyone who does want to see that kind of content however because fiction is not real.

people telling me to die doesn't hurt me. but that doesn't mean others won't be hurt. my mental strength is not a pass for you to tell me or anyone to die.

i am a real person and so is everyone on this website.

anons need to remember that.

[buttered-milky]

Russingon being an incestuous couple is so fucking interesting to me for what it represents narratively. (Yes, I know they are not canonically a couple. No, I do not care, because I do believe the coding is on purpose. Even if it’s accidental, it’s still there.)

If you don’t have a lot of experience with incest in other fiction (for example: the staple gothic horror), incest usually represents deviance. That’s just what it says on the tin: diverting from norms. Usually in a bad way. Deviance can be narratively treated as bad or wrong, and there is plenty of deviance from our meta societal norms with these two, but I digress. I don’t want to talk about that today.

I want to talk about subversion, and the deviance that is sometimes good, actually, and the message that sometimes you must break norms to do good.

[PS guys if you read all this and want to add your thoughts please do! This is kind of half-baked and I’d love to see more opinions because I’ve not seen anyone talk about this much.]

They are so fucking fascinating, because they are deviant! They are! Their entire relationship is baffling politically because of the Finwëan house feuds. More importantly, they have individual deviances that this relationship is telling you to pick up on.

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Maedhros is a Kinslayer. Maedhros is also arguably the most heroic one of his siblings.

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No, we can’t burn the ships. How the fuck are we gonna get Fingon over here?

No, I have to go parley with Morgoth.

I have to abdicate the crown because I’m becoming something I don’t want to be.

No, I have to put myself in front of everyone else. I have to hold Himring so the rest of Beleriand doesn’t get nuked.

I have to summon everyone for the Nirnaeth.

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And then after Fingon dies in the Nirnaeth, Maedhros (as we all know) goes fully off the rails—which is to say, he becomes fully Fëanorian. He goes back to the norm for his family.

There are more Kinslayings. He tries once to save two twin children, and that’s it. He gives up. There is no more hope. Maglor is responsible for taking in the next set. Maglor also wants to beg the Valar for forgiveness, and maybe Maedhros would’ve seen the sense in that once, but instead he becomes the second coming of his father and dies burning, clutching onto his Oath.

The deviance from Fëanorian standards was the only thing keeping him from becoming a monster for all that time.

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Fingon is also (very likely) a Kinslayer. He’s also the family extrovert and hope incarnate.

Unlike Aredhel and Turgon, he does not seclude himself for his own protection. He does the opposite.

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No, we can’t just stay here in Aman. We need to protect the other half of our people??

No, we actually have to get Maedhros. Fine, I’ll do it myself then. I’ll reach out to the gods while I’m at it, since none of you will.

Of course we’re going to join every battle. Of course we’re going to help hold down Beleriand.

If I have to face evil alone I suppose I will, then.

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And he dies when he’s alone against those Balrogs. Fingon is also like his father in many ways—but in some ways he is not. He is brighter, sometimes. He is hope incarnate in the worst of places.

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I’m far from the first person to acknowledge that what Maedhros and Fingon have going on is a very strong message to never give up hope. But like—not just that. What kills me is that, you know, the hope and the heroism and the goodness is the deviance.

They like each other while most of the Noldor are off getting doomed or fighting with their relatives. You get to those little bits where it mentions Maedhros and Fingon still keeping up their friendship and you kind of have to think “damn, at least some people still genuinely love each other in the midst of all this horror.” It’s sweet. And yet it’s deviant.

And that’s weird, right? Usually deviance is bad. But I think here it’s more neutral. Just presented as: this is not the common option, not the norm. It’s not the common option, but it leads to one of the kinder relationships in the Silm.

The Silm wants you, the reader, to take away that you should have hope and goodness, even when everything around you is hell. Even when it is the hard option. When it becomes hardest to hold up light and help others, that is when it’s needed most.

It will be scary sometimes to be hopeful, and that’s okay. It will be scary to extend yourself. It will be scary to trust and to defend others. That’s okay. Do it fucking scared and keep doing it.

[tropicalcontinental]

Human fear is the window to the soul or whatever ://

[triglycercule]

horror being very specific with table manners and he berates people (dust and killer) for eating like fucking pigs

i think it'd be morbidly funny that because there was no food in horrortale but the cutlery and stuff was all there that maybe he would pretend to eat with no food on the plate. it was in a satirical way that he would joke maybe around horror paps or alone where he would pretend to eat and have really good table manners but then the satire joke became REAL and now horror is incredibly specific about how to eat food

you MUST hold the fork in the left and knife in right says horror. no killer you can't duel wield the fucking knives this is a table not a slaughterhouse. dust pick up your elbows off the table. actually how about you get your entire upper body off the table tf why are you SLEEPING ON THE FOOD??? killer's sitting fetal position in the chair because of course he wouldn't sit normally like the idiot he is. dust is forced to put his hood down and reveal his face no more mysterious shadow style because it puts horror at ease. they cannot have a single peaceful meal because once they get past the table manners phase it then becomes a completion to see who can eat the least (because they suck at everything including eating)

[lala-blahblah]

I will never make this because it would be for an audience of one (me) but ever since reading "If we Were Villains" (story about serious drama kids in college who perform shakespeare and deal with a murder) I have been entertaining the thought of a crack fic crossover with High School Musical The Musical The Series where the staff decides they will no longer put on shakespeare after the tragic accident that happened at Thanksgiving, because Shakespeare plays would only increase the tension and drama. So they hire Ms. Jen who decides their spring play will actually be High School Musical (which exists in the 90s in this universe) and it ruins the vibe so much that everyone gives up on being dark and mysterious because they're universally pissed at Ms Jen for making them learn choreoraphed basketball dancing.

[iphigeniacomplex]

reread the girl who circumnavigated fairyland in a ship of her own making last week. i used to carry that book around with me everywhere as a kid; still don't like being in a new space without it, but i haven't actually reread very frequently. very pleased to announce that it still makes me feel crazy in the same ways it did when i was nine and twelve and fourteen. i have to find my younger selves and scoop them up and tell them all. like you know what september singing her death to sleep with the lullaby her mother used for her as her body decays in the worsted wood WAS gorgeous! the house without warning WAS delightful and tragic! the repeated theme of the precise nature of the story being uncertain, culminating in the marquess being able to escape by altering the tone of the story and then using genre conventions concerning the archetype she would fill within the type of story she presents WAS insane and you WERE real as fuck for feeling an uncomfortable sort of identification with her! THE ENDING OF THE LION THE WITCH AND THE WARDROBE WAS REALLY SCARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[galehowl]

Watched Ghost Game more or less ( and re-watching it again immediately with company ), and I didn't really like it.

I know it's just not for me, but somehow it still infuriates me that it came so close to being what I hoped to see from Digimon all these years - a proper horror/mystery setting, and then fell flat because it's still aimed more for kids.

God I WISH they went for a different art style and made it for a bit older audiences, so the horror element could be properly explored more.

The pacing and monster-of-the-week thing where each issue is resolved within a very short episode also just kills it for me, because some episodes have SUCH cool premises that could've worked much better if they were given a few more episodes per plot, to really give it some atmosphere and actual mystery-solving, or proper character development. The overall plot is also just a mess and feels like it barely existed, and IMO the main villain was just underutilized and just, eugh. I'm not even gonna say anything about the last episode lol.

The characters were also very flat and superficial, like it was hard to care about anything at all when the characters ( who are kids!!! ), are dealing with stuff like that, get tortured, cursed and god knows what else, and just don't have any reaction to it. Like come on, this really would've benefited from if we had them written better and more grounded, with more psychological stuff involved, too. Same goes for side characters.

Not to mention some very weird use of some Digimon, unresolved storylines, etc..

I liked some things about it - namely some great story ideas, the animation, some of the episodes were still really neat even with the insane pacing, Gammamon is very likeable, but overall, just. Ugh.

It feels like it could've been SO much more had the creators gone with some better direction for it, one way or another.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Is there a post explaining the fnaf Lights Out AU lore?

hold on FNAF??? WYM FNAF GET BACK HERE

[clarasghosts]

yes, vampires are about the biting and the blood and the sexuality and the longing for home and community, but i love that claudia in particular is also about feeling like your life has come to a standstill and no one takes you seriously and everyone else has moved onto other life milestones, while you're trapped in some hellhole of eternal adolescence, getting older but never moving forward and never finding the place where you belong

[pagesofkenna]

this week i've been working my way through the collection of Shelley Duval Childrens Shows From The Eighties, which is a lot, to find one specific scene I remembered seeing on VHS as a child

i finally did find the scene i was looking for, but i think i'm going to keep making my way through her anthology series (plural) because it's very charming in a dated way and actually a lot of these classic story retellings are ones i'm not familiar with

[thefandomexpert]

was anybody going to tell me or was i just supposed to catch up on tdp myself

[kingsmoot]

agot, eddard xii

acok, catelyn iv

[marshmellowtea]

the more i read about cozy horror the more i understand why people fucking hate the idea of this being considered a “genre”

[dangans-ur-ronpas]

i don't think that tonaegiri would have kids given post-war trauma and threat of tragedy and the feeling of foreboding that never really fades + kyoko's and byakuya's toxic family history. at the very most they'd decide on a dog or smth bc practical + good to have around and end up spoiling that thing to the moon

[personshapedsplder]

DISCLAIMER that real clowns, sweet clowns are fine theyre cute im not scared by the concept of clowns on the whole. But i really dislike scary horror clowns. And idek if fear is the right word for it. Like I generally don't find them compelling, I think they're overdone. I'm bored by the concept. And to be scared of something feels like it needs to be something you have some emotional investment in. So fear just doesn't seem to be quite the right word. But I also avoid them during haunted houses. I kind of hate them. They make me really uncomfortable and squicked out in a not fun way. Last year i went to every haunted house at six flags except the clown one because I knew that although it wouldn't rly SCARE me I also just wouldn't have fun. It almost feels like fear but fear where I'm not having fun anymore im just sort of repulsed. So idk if that counts as being scared of clowns?